messages to loathe:
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from i-am-jack :
Running. I know all about that.
from i-am-jack :
That was brilliant. I loved it. Thankfully I do not encounter those types very often, but I get like your friend does, when any obnoxious person or people invade our space. Gummy airheads do it to me. I want to either tear out my hair or their throats.
from i-am-jack :
Could I have a password please?
from selfbiased :
password? self.biased winkwink nudgenudge gmail dot com. it's been to long to lose what audience we have.
from yrmartyr :
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
from yrmartyr :
I don't think I'll ever stop being sorry.
from yrmartyr :
I miss you, David. I just never know what to send in text.
from yrmartyr :
nietzsche, huh? everyone tells me i should read him.
from phatgrrl :
username=reader password=password
from officehours :
oh, that was just mean!
from officehours :
hi
from janedoe0 :
Hi, I have moved my blog to a new home and I'd love it if you kept reading. So if you want the new adress please email me and I'll send it on. joden_n@hotmail.com Thanks!
from chalkstain :
'sad' has been said to be a very ambiguous word. care to embellish?
from janedoe0 :
I feel like a dope now, but at least I know now that you really do read my diary and didn't just list me as a fav because I listed you. ;)
from janedoe0 :
PHEW!!! False alarm people!!!! As you were! LOL Sorry for the confusion!
from officehours :
that's a safe answer. don't play it safe kid. there's no fun in it.
from officehours :
because my opinion doesn't count. now, hear me out. this isn't just some, 'oh I suck' rant. i'm not real, not really. i'm not a part of your everyday so there's no reason for my opinion to sway you one way or the other. or it could be that you won't allow your ego to get out of its thimble sized housing...or it could be that you hate people. when all is said and done, should i become real in your world, I would only be another person.
from chalkstain :
bless you and your blatant honesty
from janedoe0 :
Nice. To below comment, I assume that's me?
from officehours :
I don't know why you would be flattered by the fact that some west coast mixed-up girly who really needs to grow out of the hair-dying-phase thinks your cool. To each their own.
from officehours :
no, its actually me saying that I like you even more. almost as much as your name.
from janedoe0 :
Good luck with the search. 'May the force be with you' or something like that right? Am I irritating the pis out of you yet? Would you, after a week, take me off your fav's?? :)
from janedoe0 :
I clicked on your banner. And you may not want to shake my hand or like me, I still like your diary though! :) And I think I'll be reading more...
from yrmartyr :
fuck you. fuck you. fuck you.
from officehours :
that I'm possibly considering the idea of allowing myself to make a connection with someone... Yeah, I do feel dirty.
from yrmartyr :
oh, you can't lie. you know you'd look. I know you'd look. asshole. it's such a pleasure when you mock me ;)
from yrmartyr :
why, what?
from yrmartyr :
hahahha. your latest entry makes me miss you terribly.
from officehours :
Next time hold my hand as you breath into my ear so I can dream of windy days in the park.
from yrmartyr :
for that. for reminding me to stop being so fucking silly.
from yrmartyr :
thank you.
from selfbiased :
hmm. care to collaborate on some semi-fiction?
from yrmartyr :
probably.
from officehours :
There's no need for apologies but will thank you for it. I'm really the one who should say sorry. There are just some days when you feel like biting the head off of someone, Anyone, and unfortunately, you volunteered to be on my menu. I hope you're doing well.
from hellonavi :
hi
from officehours :
I'm sorry to hear about your g'ma
from gomeny :
How's it going?
from officehours :
Thank you for the well wishes. Mostly, thank you for reading.
from officehours :
If that was the first thing you though of, perhaps its the first thing you want. I wouldn't blame you.
from idontpretend :
Dude, read this, and tell me if it doesn't make you feel any better about your life. If it doesn't, then wow, you're sucking as much as I am. http://idontpretend.diaryland.com/070409_79.html
from officehours :
happy birthday. I'm glad you're around.
from moonlit-eyes :
That's really good for you. If you ever need anything, or just to ramble about the state of your life, let me know. I'm sure you've got people for that, but if you ever want an unbiased view, I'm here.
from officehours :
Thank you for saying so. Yesterday was not a good day. Today...wasn't a good day either but its almost over and that's what counts. One at a time, right? As the genius "Bob" said "Baby steps to the bus"
from i-am-jack :
It's a good thing. He was one of the most interesting people I ever knew.
from i-am-jack :
You remind me a lot of one of my old friends sometimes.
from stoic21 :
finally (",) ...you look to warm a person to be such a cynical soul...
from stoic21 :
I left you a scratch but it doesn't show...I should stop biting my nails.
from i-am-jack :
I know that feeling all too well.
from yrmartyr :
i love the stupid advice jackass give you. like exercise and drink water. i say do your cocain and smoke your cigarettes. whatever it takes to fill you up, ya know?
from sank0fa :
p.s. please do write a bit about yourself. not necessarily an autobiography.....a few bits of trivia will do. :-)
from sank0fa :
i've been fighting it all this time, but i think i'm just about ready to give in. (to this "dark side" you speak of). it's kind of exhausting. don't welcome me just yet, though....i still have a LITTLE bit of fight left in me.
from stoic21 :
can i send you a lollipop?
from sank0fa :
nice to meet you, as well. :) and....maybe i should've said "all I want to do is win..." instead of making it a general statement -- one of my flaws is that i too often compare my life to that of others instead of simply focusing on my own. i'm working on it. but for now, all it takes to make me feel better about my own self is to know that HIS life is not without its own flaws. (not that being fat is a flaw...i've been "fat" my whole life. and...ok...he's not even fat. just bigger than he used to be. wow...i talk too much)
from yrmartyr :
i saw a lot of perkins resturants during my bus ride. i imagine you still go there often-to bitch at frequenters and watch the slow curl of your cigarette smoke. thought of you.
from yrmartyr :
yes. because youre not getting the breaks you really want, d.
from yrmartyr :
no point in destroying something beautiful now is there?
from adelnye :
It is so sad, yet so appropriate and so... so... YOU. Thank you for writing such a beautiful entry for me. I love it.
from adelnye :
*dances around with glee* Here's my email: adelnye@yours.com I can't wait to read it!! Thank you!!
from yrmartyr :
at least you havent deluded yourself for years and planned an entire college carear around it. the irony is that you actually can write, and that you should never ever stop.
from officehours :
I hope you continue to write.
from adelnye :
Gee, no I wouldn't expect you to write it in my style. Just be you. You could write an entry about yourself, me, or whatever you think would be appropriate for me to post up in my journal. It's entirely free-style. Hope this helps to answer your question.
from stoic21 :
(",)
from stoic21 :
I have no comments, no advice...but I'm listening and I hope that's enough for now...
from adelnye :
Oohh... that would be great! I'm happy for you to choose whichever topic you'd like to write about. I'm excited now... oh goody good!
from stoic21 :
can listening just be enough?
from adelnye :
I will try, no promises... though you are more than welcome to retaliate if you want. 1.You smoke too much for your own good, and you know it too. 2.I challenge you to write a guest entry for me (sorry, I'm not a gold member, so you'll have to email the entry (in html) to me instead). 3.Grey 4.I love your hopeless-ness... as ironic as it may seem, it actually gives me hope in my own hopeless-ness. 5.Can't really remember. Might have clicked on a banner or gotten to know your diary through links. Whichever way it is, your 'bleakness' appealled to the darkness in me... and what can I say, you intrigue me. 6.A porcupine, quick to curl up in self-defence. 7.How old are you?
from yrmartyr :
maybe the one part of you that you still have is the best part.
from adelnye :
Being hopeless does not take the 'hope' out of a person... we only 'hope' less in self-defence.
from officehours :
oh and about the forgotten cig...yeah. i understand.
from officehours :
thanks for the advice but I'm pretty sure this one is going to end in a nice big SPLAT and the messy puddle slowly oozing its way down the street will be me. <br> who am I kidding. <br> they all end that way.
from yrmartyr :
am i allowed, to tell you, i miss you? or, is that selfish, of me?
from celticsuncat :
Something is better than nothing.
from adelnye :
It's ok to be forgetful.... so long as you're not forgotten... which you're not, by me anyway.
from stoic21 :
Good day, good sir...
from selfbiased :
duly noted, sir. as the great and immortal Henry Jones once said: "so what do you want to talk about?"
from gomeny :
glad to see you still write
from inherentgoth :
Keep going I miss you writing hun.
from selfbiased :
good to see you.
from adelnye :
writing again are you??
from loathe :
I'm nothing like that.
from yrmartyr :
my sunshine. you are rose pettals and coffee in the morning and curling up under blankets. if i could take every ounce of the hurt away and bottle it up, i would throw it out to see and then watch the sunset with you. i love you, and i always have.
from yrmartyr :
you are far too kind, dear. really. ♥ ♥ ps; my heart is not broken. it's beating, i promise
from yrmartyr :
i think you need to update yr profile because my heart's not broken, david. it should say something about howmuchyouloveme. ps; it is not insanity. shutup
from saidforever :
i don't remember leaving that previous note...
from yrmartyr :
yes, i do. sadly enough, i do. but that doesn't mean im ever going to stop writing, david.
from saidforever :
elegance. pure elegance.
from dumfuzzled5 :
^.^
from yrmartyr :
at least we still know yr the same bitter asshole i've always known. some things don't change. and in this cass, i'm glad it hasn't. <3
from yrmartyr :
sarcasm?
from yrmartyr :
let's keep it that way, okay.
from yrmartyr :
i don't believe you. you never say things that hold no meaning. glad to hear that yr still breathing.
from yrmartyr :
i'm not sure what that means. how are you?
from skeletonjack :
I am in town for the summer, give a call on the cell sometime 329-8399 you know the area code. We need to catch up.
from yrmartyr :
i love you
from yrmartyr :
you intoxicate me
from skeletonjack :
Happy Monday David...
from strayrecluse :
i see that you'be been watching fight club. come back online because i miss your "silly little girl" ramblings.
from inherentgoth :
I miss you, I've been worried. I'm glad you updated
from dumfuzzled5 :
Smiling is contagious. I miss talking to you. ^.^ Please don't be afraid to say hello. <3
from yrmartyr :
yr welcome..?
from yrmartyr :
nice layout sir
from takexmyxhand :
I can't disagree anymore
from takexmyxhand :
you are such a beautiful puzzle.
from strayrecluse :
i know, i know. silly. how come you haven't been online lately?
from strayrecluse :
i was so not looking for some action. just a date. is that so wrong? hmm, pigtail boy?
from thewoodwitch :
I've noticed that you lost your gold membership, but I don't know if you like people to leave random notes. But, I do look forward to reading your entries.
from snow666white :
What lascivious words, in which you chose to bestow before our very eyes… I am entirely swooned xxx-Whitest of Snow, Snow White.
from takexmyxhand :
It's okay..it's sort of "refreshing" in a way. Stay strong. --The Bitch
from takexmyxhand :
so bitter, you are
from suta :
I wish ya a Happy New Year!!!!!!! ^_____^
from strayrecluse :
i'm glad then.
from strayrecluse :
you don't have a favour to return. just do this one thing for me: cheer up a little bit. life isn't all that bad.
from suta :
Hey, I think I am going to list you. I like the way you write. It seems you can put so many feelings in so few words...I am not like that. I write much much more. Bye bye.
from strayrecluse :
my old diary was wxaxsxtxed...i remember you leaving me a couple of notes back in the day. and i think you added me to msn once and never talked to me, heh. dave?
from stoic21 :
i miss you.
from suta :
Heyzz, do you like Serial Experiment Lain? just cos of the layout... scars are the poor mans tattoos? Yeah, maybe, although I don't see my "scars" as tattoos, but as a part of me... But hey have a nice day. Sayonara!!!
from stoic21 :
it's okay... just remember i'm here.
from dumfuzzled5 :
its okay m'dear, i get it too... quite alot.
from gomeny :
when are you usually on aim?
from takexmyxhand :
what's this comment about me being a bitch, fuckar? *laughs*
from takexmyxhand :
cute, very cute. we are talking, right now. *pokes back*
from stardumb :
i just thought about you the other day. i've been wondering where you've been hiding out. in yourself, i guess. according to your last entry. don't stay there for too long though, you might forget your way out.
from takexmyxhand :
come back
from gomeny :
I'm as7h on aim
from gomeny :
howdy, did you go work with those little kids?
from gomeny :
like a message in a bottle
from stoic21 :
don't worry... everything's going to be alright.
from skeletonjack :
I know that foolishness all too well.
from bledgirlblue :
just wanted to let you know that I like the way you think, and write. it's familiar and soothing. i wanted you to know, since there's this strange girl who added you to her favorites.
from stoic21 :
reading your diary always brings a dead calm to my sense of being, it strips away all that is unnecessary and leaves that which is fundamental.
from dumfuzzled5 :
Hey just wantin to see what was up. I still wuv ya if ur not on tomorrow. =D
from dumfuzzled5 :
*nibble nibble* ;P
from dumfuzzled5 :
*nibble nibble* ;P
from marjoram :
hey..I love your diary, it's not all the time that someone can show you something in a new way, enough that it rips the conventionality out. -ash :)
from marjoram :
hey..I love your diary, it's not all the time that someone can show you something in a new way, enough that it rips the conventionality out. -ash :)
from darkflora :
If you've lived there most of your life, it's probably good you're moving to get a new perspective. I realize Roch could be much worse, but it could be a lot better too. There's no culture here, which is the worst thing. Good luck on your move. I'm in the process of doing that too. Loads of laughs. Take Care.
from darkflora :
oh, did you used to live in Roch (aka snobchester)? If you did, I feel sorry for you. I've never been to the sculpture garden, either. But, I do know where Inver Grove Heights is. We drive past it when we go up there. I don't know what I think of Minneapolis completely. I guess we haven't moved up there yet.
from darkflora :
Ah, I see you live in St. paul. You know, I've been to Minneapolis many times, but I've only driven through ST. Paul once, and that was only because the person driving got us lost. Rochester sucks, by the way, parade or not.
from otherwordly :
your writing is amazing! just wanted you to know (not that you didn't...). oh, and where'd you get that picture on your layout? the one with the snow falling and the buildlings? it's awesome.
from skeletonjack :
Saturday, June 19, 1pm-5pm. My house. Be there. Graduation party-thing. I talked to your dad and he said you werent sure if you were having one yet. We have to start hanging out man.
from hiphopdancer :
i think you should go for it! it sounds like it would be a great experience and also a very humbling one too! and the fact that you are doing something at the orphanage is a great idea... i mean how many other times will an opportunity like this come your way? and do you really want to be old and gray on your death bed saying, damn i wish i had done that orphanage thing in the carribean. i mean if you want to do it i think you totally should... school will be there when you get back. and you may even find that you like it on that little island!
from crimson39 :
Don't do anything just because you feel obliged. If that applies to school, don't go to school. If that applies to this trip, don't go on the trip. (But the fact that you're considering it in the first place probably means you want to.)
from dumfuzzled5 :
yeah, you can always go back to school. the trip is once in a lifetime, bound to be full of adventure, excitement, not to mention great cuz you'd help kids. Who knows, you might learn something about yourself that you didnt know! Go for it.
from stardumb :
go. school is something you can always come back to. after all, the road less traveled might make all the difference for you as well.
from takexmyxhand :
Do it; it sounds amazing. i think you need it.
from mornglory :
DO IT go with your gut
from adelnye :
If you think that that is the best thing for you to be doing right now, at this present moment.... then go for it. Perhaps this might end up being a turning point for you in life.... you never know. And what you never know, never hurts, right?? ;P
from sweet234 :
I think that's an amazing idea, and if you have it in you (because I'm sure it would be a lot of hard work) that it would be an excellent experience. But I too think you should follow your heart, so if your heart says to stay here- then stay. Good luck with whichever you choose :)
from darkflora :
hi. I don't think I've ever left you a note, but you asked for input. I think it sounds like an amazing idea. I don't know about your life, but to me, it sounds like an opportunity not to miss. okay, thanks.
from rockstar-23 :
Follow your heart, as cheesy as that sounds. The road less travelled makes for the best stories at the end.
from inherentgoth :
Noooo you can't leave me!!!
from yellowpetal :
I don't think there is anyone who can make us forget. No earthy being, at least. Not forever...
from nightingale- :
Hmm. I think I love you.
from leftunspoken :
Wishing you singsong whispers in your ear, gentle strokes across your brow, and soft slumber that fills your bones. "...night is only a darker kind of day..."
from sweet234 :
i stumbled across your diary and just wanted to let you know i really like it.. i'm adding you to my favorites.
from the-clan :
NINJA: Word, dawg. *nodds respectfully*
from dispositionx :
just writing to show acknowledgment of your diary. I appretiate what you write very much. blessed be.
from takexmyxhand :
update!
from crimson39 :
I can't think of a better reason for living. I'm not saying it's more valid than any other reasons I know of, just that I can't think of anything better. After all, if you're alive, it must be working.
from takexmyxhand :
dude. yr layout is awesome. and i'm lovin the pictures you posted. xoxox
from jacqueline21 :
I don't exactly know what to say... I just wanted to let you know that I somehow stumbled across your diary...(fate?)... and I love it! Your words definitely speak to me.
from stardumb :
an insomniac, no. probably because i have external distractions that keep me from it. if i laid in bed, alone with my thoughts attempting to fall asleep, i'd probably never fall asleep. my external distraction is my boyfriend. he calls me every night, we talk, then he just waits until i am completely asleep to hang up. he understands the difficulty i have with keeping myself from dissolving into my intrinsic turmoil. more so at night. i'm lucky, i guess. btw, your diary continues to intrigue me. just thought i'd let you know.
from neverheals :
man your entrys mean so many things that i cant comment on it. but its not that i have no thoughts to share. its just i dont know how to put them into words. not like you anyways. sorry you feel dead. Russia huh that must be hard. man i feel so bad for you for the way you feel and where you are. sorry. well i am going to go sorry i dont have anything to say to make you feel better. bye and take care k.
from gomeny :
dude, dude , dude!
from takexmyxhand :
from takexmyxhand :
have you left us, lovely boy?
from neverheals :
You havent up dated in a long time why so long? or its just a long time for me cause i love reading your diary. its cool i like the way you write. hey do you like edward scissor hands or have you ever seen that movie? just asking i think its hella cool now thats a movie that i have but i dont watch it that much at all but its still cool ya know. but ya anyways cant wait till your next update i will talk to you later k bye. oh and thanks for puting me on your favorites so cool i feel special. ya hehe
from neverheals :
i like your diary. lol i use to watch drop dead fred all the time to but now we dont have the movie so ya it suck. well talk to you later k. bye
from candora :
Something tells me to return when I have more time.
from stardumb :
intriguing diary. cryptic and beautiful. gotta love that less-is-more thing.
from lady-dra :
nah you aren't feeling the weight of the gods just the few problems of the world, not the whole world unless you're Atlas.
from emperorincxt :
I disagree. You can change by posting. You change the people who read it.
from takexmyxhand :
the human race can be wonderful, because there are beautiful people. you just have to look for them, kind sir.
from lady-dra :
nice layout :)
from takexmyxhand :
i love yr layout. thank you for adding me to yr favs.
from meika :
Thanks for using my design from JDesigns. The edits are nice
from loathe :
I've read that quote. . and yes if does make a lot of sense. Thank you for reminding me to read those books again.
from batouttahill :
Your last entry necessitated this quote from Douglas Adams: "There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened." Asha \m/
from lady-dra :
if you're asking about everything yes it's about living with whatever you got to the best of your abilities to make you some what happy for a few seconds, if you're asking about something in perticular then it's about nothing and nothing is the best thing there is beside something :)
from moongazer17 :
please don't leave
from skeletonjack :
Great minds Dave, great minds.
from lady-dra :
people rather not face the truth it hurts them. for me i'd rather take it like a dose of medicine always needed to get better :)
from j-design :
Hey, I'm the owner of J-designs, and we're a new design site designed specificly for fans of anime and j-pop. If you wanna come and check us out, please feel free!
from moongazer17 :
absolutly beautiful.
from brdwaybebe :
Thank you for your diary!
from f4sakndauter :
well, I read them all. even that really long one.
from velvet-heart :
Stupid people and their false guilt laden banners, bah, can't make me feel guilty...
from emperorincxt :
So I found you through your banner... and Im staying because you say you are a wandering cynic... I have a friend who says the same thing. And I believe (from the few forgotten entries I have read of yours) that you are wonderful.
from adelnye :
I really like what you wrote for school. Hope that you'll get a good grade for that paper. ^_^
from selfbiased :
01.15.04 - another great entry. dealing with something similar myself.
from selfbiased :
01.08.04- beautiful entry today. it warmed my frozen heart a little.
from skeletonjack :
I know that feeling all too well my friend.
from a-victoria :
Merry Christmas!
from selfbiased :
:leaves a small black velvet bag on your doorstep, contents unknown: merry christmas, sir.
from moongazer17 :
Fuck, you amaze me. just..wow.
from selfbiased :
my apologies, sir. its been a rough few weeks. truce?
from stoic21 :
i missed you most while far away from here! you make it all so real!
from dirtelilhole :
One of my favourite quotes and SO true. ;-)
from moongazer17 :
your newest entry was damn good! i liked it a lot. xxCrystlexx
from insane-whore :
Take care ♥ Goodbye *Hugs*
from babybea :
i read your stuff, so don't feel like you're writing to no one, i know i feel like that sometimes, but then i think about it, and i don't really care anymore.
from sheer-bliss :
i saw im on ur buddy list since im leaving sheer-bliss u can now find me at skinny4yu
from inherentgoth :
Your journal is neato!
from inherentgoth :
Your journal is neato!
from wxaxsxtxexd :
i <3 you.
from moongazer17 :
i <love> the way you write. its really not garbage...:):)
from sheer-bliss :
im here! i read whenevr it says uve updated...and its quite lovely...opposite of garbage actualy!! :D
from crimson39 :
I'm still here. Just like knowing I'm not alone. Honestly, though, keep writing.
from dragonwing88 :
I love reading your diary, it's really cool. Keep writing!
from rockstar-23 :
I enjoy your diary. I think it is a *lovely* addition to this community. :-)
from shortst101 :
your far from being horrible, extremly lovely
from morguecrawl :
I'm enjoying your diary.
from adarkthought :
extremely lovely i'd say
from a-victoria :
Mew! I like you.
from loathe :
Maybe I just couldn't unravel your paramount wit. I apologize.
from wench77 :
The funny thing is it wasnt even advice. . What i wrote was like a oneliner wordplay... he wrote "i now have no official reason to live" and i turned it in my head to "how about unofficial reasons? maybe you should get a cat". Which is more what I'd boff off before buying someone another beer in an oscar wilde like manner. ah, are we losing the vision that human tragedy is in fact a source of great comedy.
from crimson39 :
Thanks for mentioning silver mount Zion in one of your entries. Based on your high praise, I went and listened to it. Indeed, it is an amazing song.
from loathe :
Unlike what others might be thinking. . .I only snap at people who offer advice to make themselves feel better instead of doing nothing, like everyone else does. Thanks for the quote. It made me smile.
from stoic21 :
"hell hath no limits, nor is circumscrib'd into one self place. But where we are is hell and where hell is there we must ever be. And to be short when all the world dissolves, and every creature shall be purified. And all places that is not heaven shall be hell. Ay, think hell's a fable. Ay. think so still, till experience change thy mind." This made me think of your diary... no offense, it's one of my favourite quotes.
from a-victoria :
Hah. Look who's talking! :p
from kohl-mascara :
A huge reason why a lot of people write in these diaries is mainly because they want others to listen to what's going on in their lives. It makes the writer feel important because these entries draw in feedback where others can say that they feel and understand him. These diaries are not necessarily a tool where the writer writes in order to get advice and pity. It's just a way to exorcise a lot of pain and pent up emotions that need to be let out. He may write something that, to others, may seem a little controversial, but this does not give us the right to give him advice because we do not know him. He may not follow through with what he puts up on his diary because when I write, particularly when I'm angry or distressed, I tend to be melodramatic and overly self destructive. But it doesn't mean I'm writing a suicide note or anything. So, let's not blame loathe for refusing our advice. Instead, let's just read and empathize with him, if what he writes pertains to our own lives as well.
from a-victoria :
Mew?
from loathe :
this exactly why. . .this should of been locked and how the others didn't. This is ridiculous.
from tritonsqueen :
Fine be that way. I don't care. Sorry to be such a bother in your *tough* life.
from loathe :
. . .I never asked for advice. . seeing that I don't have a comments link to my entries, these notes. . .fine. .write whatever you want. . .but. . .oh fuck it and nevermind. . this doesn't matter anyway.
from wench77 :
Hey tritonsqueen, apparently if he wanted our advice, he'd ask for it. Hey loathe, just asking a question, maybe rhetorical or not. And I didnt know that cats were a bad suggestion. Cats and a dog that depend on me gives me a reason to be here on days that no one else would miss me until I started to smell and ooze through the floorboards.i would suggest that having a comments or notes section joined to an online diary is asking for people to write. People who don't want others to write what comes to mind should perhaps write in a book at home. Please don't be snarky when people are caring.
from tritonsqueen :
I know it sounds difficult...but isn't it better than never waking up again. This is the only chance at life you get. Be crazy, be unpredictable, be uncaring of what people think, and most of all be happy. Find ways to change your life for the better. Do stuff that you've always wanted to do. Good luck to you. (Think of it this way: two men get lost in a forest. One gives up the will to live. The second holds onto the will to live cuz it's the only thing he has left. Which do you think will survive?)
from rainbow-revu :
How about a review? What did you say? Yes?! Come check us out!
from tritonsqueen :
I know how you feel. It's little hobbies like diaries that keep me going. Stay in there. It'll be okay in the end. You'll see. Times are tough. All we can do is keep on living...
from insane-whore :
Please don't try to disappear ♥ Even if you do... I shall find you in the dark
from loathe :
If I really wanted your advice, wench, I'll ask for it.
from wench77 :
Was making "them" happy an official reason to live? maybe you should get a cat???
from xprettynpink :
hey. I really enjoy reading your diary. You're a great writer
from moongazer17 :
adding you to my profile. i love the way you write.
from en-trance :
i love the way you write... it reminds me of some of my stuff...
from funda :
Remind me to remember you.
from a-victoria :
mmm. I would certainly be less bitter then... Hee. *ponders*
from selfbiased :
"death is becoming" i can't tell you how many times i've failed to put this into words...
from a-victoria :
Rowr. I'm at tangible_motion@hotmail.com ... and I am going to email you a love letter soon, when I start my daily exercise procrastination (but for now, I am going grocery shopping).
from a-victoria :
Rowr. I'm at tangible_motion@hotmail.com ... and I am going to email you a love letter soon, when I start my daily exercise procrastination (but for now, I am going grocery shopping).
from wench77 :
hey! looks like you're online at 4:30 am... that means Mike didnt blow you up! I am surfing diary reviews instead of finishing my work... and THEN will put a proper entry for today... go answer my dirtylaundry survey! thanks!
from loki-trick :
I wish the world would end... (btw I added you)
from mylostangel :
(huggles)
from kohl-mascara :
I want to buy what you sell.
from mewlips :
that's such a cute template :)
from insane-whore :
Thankyou for adding me... It means a lot to me ♥ Be safe and for your own sake be happy
from adarkthought :
so i clicked that banner at the top of me page and it brought me here. i love your layout. and i love your words. your now on my favourites.
from a-victoria :
okay!!!! yay! I mean... *is oblivious*
from adelnye :
Hi... I didn't realised that you had me in as one of your favourites until today. You must be thinking that I'm pretty rude or something. Thanks! ^_^
from crimson39 :
I'll be up a while. Don't suppose you feel like talking?
from a-victoria :
next time I'm down in the US of A, I'll be sure to swing by :)
from a-victoria :
your entry today (oct 8) completely mirrors my feelings (if you replaced "boy" with "girl"). it's so nice to find one (even online) who understands.
from crimson39 :
You reminded me of something... It's actually easier to deny your existence than to understand it.
from banshee-rose :
clicked a banner and found your site. Enjoyed reading it.
from falseimages :
Your writing is beautiful... I randomly stumbled upon your diary and I happened to notice the Lain layout first..it's one of the best shows. Your words are amazing... the seem to flow. falseimages -"Everyone is always connected"
from mourninstr :
how wonderfully sad your writing is. mysterious and majestic. you are very talented. truth is sometimes the strongest fabric with which to weave a story. --mourning
from trendygirlie :
...the day is not rainy, but my heart is.and such a day, i first came on your diary. it makes two of us having the same thoughts, even though miles and miles away... i just wanted to let you know that your diary is safe in my heart...drink your life, loathe...
from wench77 :
yo! a bad day eh!! hey, people read you cuz they feel the same way about themselves and when they read you they either feel "gee, he's way worse than me" or they feel "gee, he's just like me" and then they dont feel so shitty and alone. Pretty simple, actually. There might be the odd happy as shit voyeur there too, but what the heck! You might want to read "Mr Knowitall's" entry "http://mr-knowitall.diaryland.com/030826_84.html"... what he says about his wife putting herself down.
from blue-belle :
no thank you
from blue-belle :
thx for adding me.
from blue-belle :
i love you eyor quote.i like eyor, my mom used to call me her eyor child. it's also funny cause i just had one of those accidents.
from kohl-mascara :
"operator" is so beautiful despite what pain is caused you then. Thank god the crisis is over, right? Keep writing. Remember. . .whatever she says, you're still 100% man.
from selfbiased :
amazing at how much i've been looking at banners lately since i've been running mine. i've enjoyed reading your words and invite you to view mine. anyone can be a pessimist, but it takes someone daft to put on the rose coloreds when they know the world is shit.
from dragonwing88 :
Hey, I love your new entry "operator". Very cool. ~erin
from blue-belle :
your banner so caught my attention, your diary held it.
from wench77 :
hey there... havin a good nite are we? at least i am surfing the net for stories on suicides and looking at suicide prevention sites instead of drinking! Wallowing in the rotting underbelly are we both. Time to look at Rotten.com again, and suddenly my life is so healthy!! LOL! Reading what you wrote tonight, makes me worry that is the way i make my ex feel who totally betrayed me and let me down. That she is a total coward and worthless as a friend, a lover, even her word is worth shit. And that is the way she acted to me, but i still feel like i am the one who held the mirror up to her and made her see herself that way, instead of the mirror that showed when she was there for me, made me believe in myself, made me courageous and inspired and strong. I am afraid she is home right now feeling like you write about yourself and I still care. Hard to be angry for me, but caring for her all at the same time. See if you can find another mirror to look at yourself in... every coin has a flip side, sometimes it is just stepped into the mud until you pick it up and dust it off. I REALLY gotta work now...
from insanegerbil :
i totally almost completely agree with everything you write..are you pondering what i'm pondering
from wench77 :
rawr yerself!!!! ggggggrrr! thanks for adding me to your fave diaries... i'm wordier than yerself. Now i am cheerily reading stories about suicides of children on the grief website linked in today's (09-25) diary. I think we could perhaps put "suicide" in place of "accident" in Eeyore's quote. Is that eeyore in the new photo??
from wench77 :
hiya. found you through one of those "nonadvertising" banners... have added a couple of your pages (enough, and you) into my favorites. I like your dark clarity. So few words, and yet they capture so well, like a hand grabbing a fly out of thin air. The cat was a funny surprise in the middle of it all... its colors go great with the black page. But i prefer the succinct nature of your entries to sweet kitties. Your eeyore quote is great. Mine is "if you ask me, and nobody ever does"... yay eeyore... if "yay" is appropriate for eeyore.
from dragonwing88 :
Hi... um you don't know me, but I thought that your diary was REALLY cool! I'm just starting out w/ all this stuff, but anyway... Just wanted to tell you that I thought you were pretty cool. ~erin
from mei-chan :
THAT CAT IS SO ADORABLE!!! SQUEEEEE *love* *Dances* *prances*
from mei-chan :
*sniff* it's been almost a weeks since you've added an entry... come back to us... we miss you...
from skeletonjack :
Um... you know me don't you? Or is this the whole "I dont know that giggly fool walking next to me" thing. Either way HE KNOWS ME! wether he admits it or not.
from ichi-a-gogo :
thank you for your note. you seem very familiar. how did you come across my diary?
from fhv-nne :
I really relate to enough-kind of likestriving towards obsession and screaming at the breeze for me. If you get a chance, could you comment on my stuff? I'm curious, that's all. -fhv-nne
from skeletonjack :
how was DC
from xquisitepain :
enchanting.
from skeletonjack :
long time no see....

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