messages to chikyblonde:
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from icyjewel :
I hope you're ok and that you are able to come back soon. *hugs* I'll miss you and I hope you get feeling better soon.
from stuberosum :
Hope things turn out ok and maybe you will be back one day :)
from turtlemomma :
I'm sorry if I never offered much advice, if any... I listen more than speak. But I want you to know I'm thinking of you and hope that things start looking up very soon. I know what it feels like to be so down. ~K
from turtlemomma :
I've never heard of Mindy Smith so I downloaded that song. I like ALOT.
from vix280 :
me too baby me too
from icyjewel :
Howdy howdy! Thanks for the comment you left me about the tattoo, I'd love to get some advice from you once I get back onto the internet (this thursday). I hope you have a good week!
from stuberosum :
I can't find a link to the guestbook and I'm more of a guestbook man than a notes man. I'll be praying for you my friend :)
from leesmry :
phew *wipes sweat from brow* maybe you've just started your walk back in the right direction :-)
from leesmry :
I just read you comment about me in the buddy list. I hope you weren't offended that I called you a Jesus lover...I didn't mean any offense. Sorry if I did.
from leesmry :
Good for you! keep pluggin' away and I will pray for you. 'I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength' (philippians: cant remember ...how bad am I???)
from thisismywish :
Hi there! I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying that you can achieve those goals. Just remember- with God, you can do anything. Those minutes you spend with him each day are the minutes you should most look forward too. God will help you if these are thigns you really want to change.
from leesmry :
I don't think theres anything about you that would drive people away! Was just reading your entry about wanting to help 2 friends going through a hard time and the one about the convo you had with your sis...you're lovely...and I've seen pics, pretty 'purdy'! Hope you don't mind me saying so! :-)
from leesmry :
I really like your diary :-)
from icyjewel :
Just being there for a friend is usually the very best thing you could ever do. That makes you an awesome friend!
from icyjewel :
What's so funny? :)
from icyjewel :
Awwwww...*HUGS HUGS HUGS* Your entry today brought tears to my eyes. I hope your "you" appreciates all the passion you have for him and how much you care for him.
from thisismywish :
Yeah, I know what you mean. I love animals. I just feel so bad because they are so helpless. I mean, I'll eat meat and stuff, but not anything that's really veiney or particularly juicy. That sounds really bad. I'm sorry. I only eat like white meat chicken. Well, go hug on your kitties:) And have a nice day:) -Beth
from augustdreams :
Got it from toysinbabeland.com - $26 and definitely worth it. ;) I'll be sending you a proper email soon. Much love from me and the fuzzy gang. {{{hug}}}
from icyjewel :
I'm glad you have found that inner peace you have been so desperately craving. I wish I could. It's nice that you want to help motivate people. When I read your writings, I envision you in all of your pieces. If you ever get ambitious, I would love to hear what you think is going through my head....your way with words is beautiful. It just blows me away. Love ya!
from thisismywish :
Oh dear. I'm praying for you.
from thisismywish :
I'm back at TIMW
from icyjewel :
I hope you get feeling better soon. I really hope you don't stop writing, I'll miss you too much.
from icyjewel :
Hey there girl, just wanted to send some happy vibes your way. I'm sorry you are feeling so down in the dumps lately and I do hope that you can find happiness, wherever it may be. You deserve it so much. Remember to follow your heart and take a chance. It's worth it.
from icyjewel :
Wow....so it sounds like you had a good trip! :) YAY!
from icyjewel :
I hope you have fun on your trip!!!! :)
from icyjewel :
I liked this entry. Something about it made me contemplate the same things you are contemplating. I think you and I are going through the same image crisis. Sending huge *hugs* your way.
from icyjewel :
Why would your friend call you "fuggin nasty"? That's just not very nice. I'd love to see your new hair color and cut. :)
from icyjewel :
Dye your hair like that!!! It would look great. :)
from icyjewel :
I spent over 5 years with someone and didn't miss him the DAY AFTER I DUMPED HIM and not since then. We don't talk and probably never will. You move on and even if you don't realize it, he was never good enough in the first place. Be glad you got away when you could and didn't waste any more time with him. *big hugs* So proud of you!!!
from icyjewel :
You're a manager now? That's great! I have faith in you 100% that you can do it, not only well--but EXCELLENT.
from cyanideeyes :
It's funny how something so small can grow into something so large. I have every bit of faith in you, rock it hard, school the shit out of it, and forget taking names: chances are they're not even worth remembering anyway.
from icyjewel :
First off I'd like to say that I'm greatly enjoying the new layout! This entry seemed a self revelation of sorts. It's hard to not listen to what other people say--it takes GUTS and self confidence, which you my dear, have tons of. You know that you are one of my absolute favorites here on dland. I've always enjoyed reading what you have to say. I love it that you go all out when you do things and I think you should be the same way with your diary. Say what you want to say and poo on those who think that what you're doing is wrong. It's your life, not theirs. *big hugs for chikyblonde* You're the greatest!
from f-i-n :
hugs and kisses
from cyanideeyes :
[grin]
from icyjewel :
I'm signing your notes and showing you love! (like it says on the top of your page) I know how hard it is to want to go out, but have a reason to not want to go at the same time. Just remember that you don't need to go to a bar to have a fun time. :) PS-love your outfit, wish I could pull that off.
from thisismywish :
I am locking up. UN: what PW: ever
from icyjewel :
That is my pet peeve also!! I don't understand why people don't even TRY to look good while they are searching for a job. Every single person they meet while getting applications, etc. will pass judgement on them. Usually those people are the ones that the boss will ask first....grrr....And a tube top? Sheesh, I would have backhanded her and given her an application for street whoring.
from thisismywish :
Hi there! Actually, I've always thought it was about an arsenist. Her fire burning skills might be a product of domestic violence. You never know- domestic violence can spark all sorts of things. SPARK! HAHAHA! That was hilarious. Anyway...did I mention the fact that, not only do I love your hair, your such a pretty lady. (Has a moment to herself..."If only I looked like that...*sigh*) Anyway! I'm praying for you every day. -Beth
from icyjewel :
I LOVE your hair! It looks HOT HOT HOT HOT!
from icyjewel :
YAY! Congrats on the new job and raise. That's fabulous to hear. :)
from icyjewel :
I'm looking forward to the pictures of your new cut! I'm the same way as you, when I want something I want it NOW. It's really hard to wait! I'm sure your hair will turn out very hot.
from cyanideeyes :
Yes you will. Conquer is a great word. Write it down on a piece of paper and stick it somewhere you know you're going to see it a billion times a day, especially early. You'd be amazed at how dumb little things like that will motivate you.
from augustdreams :
How are you doing now, sweetie? I'm locking up for a while. Please drop me an email and I'll give you the password. Seacucumeberjoy (AT) Yahoo (DOT) com.
from icyjewel :
:( I hope you're ok!!
from icyjewel :
I feel for you, girl. Sometimes a person can have the strangest epiphanies and realize that things about your life have to change. I wish you the best of luck. I really do hope you quit drinking alone, also. It's not good for you. *big hugs* You know where I am if you ever need to chat!
from icyjewel :
I love that corset. I hope you win!
from stuberosum :
Sounds like you are almost completely moved now, very cool :) I think I'll be moving to my first place not this weekend but next. But first I get to spend all my money and then be poor while I live there. Should be good. :)
from icyjewel :
YAY! Good luck moving, that has to be so exciting to be getting into your new house.
from icyjewel :
Who says I don't read you? :(
from cyanideeyes :
L.D. 50 is the best Mudvayne album out there (in terms of brutality, anyway). Anything after is more beatiful than brutal.
from icyjewel :
Staying in sounds like the best option to me...but then again I am just a homebody these days. Whatever you end up doing, I hope you have a great weekend!
from stuberosum :
The guestbook didn't let me sign it :( Anyway I am proud I was in the Reason, Season, Lifetime entry. Hopefully Lifetime but they are all good, I consider myself blessed to know you :) Thanks for answering my list of questions, very interesting :) Lots of love and cyber hugs for you.
from icyjewel :
LOVE LOVE LOVE the new layout!
from vix280 :
Hey ...you think that chick in Scissor Sisters is a Fag Hag? I DO. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa haaaaaaaaaaaaa
from icyjewel :
That was grand. I greatly enjoyed your answers. :) Especially those lingerie thingys, I'm going to have to browse around that site for awhile and find something extra naughty. HAHA! Too much info, I know. Sorry.
from icyjewel :
I'm looking forward to answering those questions for you...they are VERY personal. Good job. :) HAHAHAHA! Anyway, so my questions for you are as follows: 1) how do you feel about porn and do you own any 2) what is the sexiest outfit you own and when/where do you wear it and 3) what is a turning point in your life, big or small. That should get some interesting answers!!
from vix280 :
yes but I LOVE YOU
from stuberosum :
"This shit is bananas, b-a-n-a-n-a-s" is the best line on the entire album love the song :) and most of the album really.
from icyjewel :
Hey there chiky, just wanted to let you know that I really like the image you used for your new template. I only have 1 problem with it--it doesn't work at all in Firefox. There are no links, no nothing. This makes me sad. :(
from icyjewel :
This is my new place. :)
from vix280 :
YEP!
from juli-anne :
It's REALLY hard to make the conscious choice to not drink. I'm not sure I could do it myself if it weren't for the fact that I would die if I have a single drink. I wish you all the luck and power in the world to overcome the liquid hell. It will be hard, but I have faith in you that you can do it! (ps-if you EVER have trouble thinking of "other" things to do, just IM me, I've been living booze free for over seven months now and can think of plenty)
from juli-anne :
Sounds like a fabulous weekend to me. :)
from juli-anne :
Errrr....what music? I've never heard any on your site. I use Firefox though, is that the reason?
from meesh03 :
Honey thank you for the message! I know I wish I could update more, but I just don't seem to have the time! but I hope things are okay with you and that life is treating you right. Thank you for the call out on your buddy list! It is comforting to know that you can make a difference in someone's life, even if it's on a blog! Take care hun! talk to ya soon!
from vix280 :
Ill Give you a spell IM me....witch at your sevice...
from starlen123 :
im also a confused person bye now
from vix280 :
I step aside and give you My Queen of Coolnes Crown ...you deserve it!!!!
from juli-anne :
That's so exciting about your new place. You and I will be moving at the same time. :)
from cyanideeyes :
Oh yeah. I would love for you to show me how to play music in the background, that'd rule.
from cyanideeyes :
Someone's getting heavier and heavier, aren't they? You need to get Fear Factory's "Demanufacture" 'cause that shit rules.
from juli-anne :
They let you play that music at work? Where can I apply? :)
from stuberosum :
Its all good dude. I'm around if you want to chat if not thats cool. Nothing but love for you :) God bless.
from stuberosum :
I like how it looks but as has been pointed out you have to like how it looks. Also I know nothing about tattoos.
from cyanideeyes :
I've had one of my tattoos pull the same thing...but after it fully healed it just needed a touch-up in a couple areas and it was fine, still looks good today. The fading freaked me out too, but everything evened out. I dunno if this is the same case with this tat or not, but that's my take on the whole thing.
from augustdreams :
It does look as if it's fading in places, but still looks good. But YOU need to be happy with it, babe. If you're not, then they need to fix it! (And not make me come up there with a can of whup-ass. :D)
from vix280 :
go for it...yahoo or MSN...Im not on AOL during the day
from vix280 :
okay you get your ass back to the tattoo parlor and BITCH and they will fix it!
from vix280 :
you can rant at me anytime you want!!!
from vix280 :
WHAT HAPPENED? it looks good in the pic
from vix280 :
Cy says you rock so I am adding you to my favorites..I hope thats okay....
from juli-anne :
Your tattoo is great! I want to get another one, but I just can't decide what else I want. Good luck fixing your house, it would be awesome if you got to move in May 1st!
from cyanideeyes :
Definitely a good thing. I hate you for getting inked. I want to, REALLY bad. I might just do it when I get back from AZ.
from juli-anne :
You were able to sum up exactly how I feel about spring cleaning this year. Well...except for the calling someone part, I felt more the tendency to vomit all over myself when I thought of my ex. LOL! Have a fabulous day, you deserve one. :)
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry you are so sad today. :( Do you have a private entry on what's wrong or do you mean the song lyrics you've posted?
from juli-anne :
I just wanted to say HI and hope you have a good week. :)
from stuberosum :
Mmmm breezy hammock sleep
from juli-anne :
Don't you just love the spring? I do because it also makes me much more motivated than I normally am all winter.
from juli-anne :
Your landlord sounds like a nut. Here's to hoping that this week is much better for you than last week was. :)
from juli-anne :
Wow, that is pretty intense that your pastor called you like that. I think you should go--you definitely need it. *big huge hugs*
from juli-anne :
That must have been a horrible thing for you to see. *hugs* Just reading this entry about it made me start crying. Why must things like that happen?
from augustdreams :
Could I have the userid and password? :)
from stuberosum :
Becoming was most certainly something. Yours?
from augustdreams :
Thank you for taking the time to comment. *hug* It helps a lot. And I'm so sorry you've been feeling so down. The fuzzies and I are always an email away if you ever want to write/vent. *HUG*
from stuberosum :
Notebook <3 :D The pics are still nice, funny that ;) Poor telemarketer dude :(
from juli-anne :
Oh my gosh girl! I love your pictures!!! I wish I had a body like yours. Please tell me what you do. :) Your new clothes are great, especially those dark jeans. I love dark jeans.
from juli-anne :
Can I get your password to your private entries? You can send to my e-mail bibbidyboop@gmail.com if you'd like. I've been away all weekend and need to catch up! :)
from juli-anne :
I really like your new layout!! Very very nice. But what happened to your foot...that sounded painful. No more of that! Hahaa, you know. Every single day you get more and more interesting to read. I just can't wait until you update because you don't censor yourself anymore. I just love that. You're awesome!
from stuberosum :
Girl Bath = Sadness :`(
from stuberosum :
Love the new design. :D A +++ Distinction even ;)
from cyanideeyes :
Mmmmmmm...I love how that flowed...
from stuberosum :
I really really don't get that ad, its on tv here and I can't even start to think what the point of it is. Why?
from cyanideeyes :
I've been to a few concerts by myself, it ain't too bad...but honestly, I think you'd have a great time. I dunno who's opening, but Shadows Fall/Lamb of God might be a lil too hardcore - I dunno though, you've been surprising me quite a bit lately. I know for a fact you'll dig Slipknot though, I don't care how much you say they scare you. They're people. In masks. What's to be scared of? I'd go with you, but I get to miss them here, after I bought tix so I can go out on the road with SD. [hangs head] I think I'm gonna go cry now.
from juli-anne :
Even if you end up having to go alone, it will be a kick ass time! Going alone to things like that is sometimes alot of fun.
from stuberosum :
That night sounded suspiciously free of hot sauce. Hope it is/was good anyway.
from juli-anne :
That sounds like a fabulous night to have! Sometimes I long for a night alone like that. Just me, my junk food, and a few quality flicks. Sure seems like you are making quite the impression on the men, I think redheads have the most fun!
from cyanideeyes :
Wow. You're getting quite hardcore, aren't ya? Duder said he knew Dez and you knew who he was?!?! [licks] That's fuckin' sexy.
from juli-anne :
Girl, I love love LOVE your new haircolor! It's fabulous.
from juli-anne :
Chikyblonde, you rock!
from juli-anne :
I'm glad that you had so much fun last night!!
from augustdreams :
I was reading your entry for today of the things you're proud of, and wanted to let you know I'm proud of you too! *hug* Just keep in mind what an amazing person you already are, babe. I'm proud to call you my friend.
from stuberosum :
With so much drama in the LPC Its hard being Chiky B L O N D(E) Heh :)
from juli-anne :
Girl, you are gorgeous! You should take pictures more often. :)
from celidor :
((Hugs)), Nicole. You can do it!
from cyanideeyes :
What exactly are you trying to get over?
from juli-anne :
Love the Stewie quote! I won't lecture you on drinking because I don't have any right to lecture on something I myself have a problem with. But take care of yourself, ok?
from cyanideeyes :
Every time I burp, I taste Ramen Noodles. Sucks. That's all I've been eating aside from toast and that cake...
from juli-anne :
I *heart* your new layout. It's totally you!
from stuberosum :
You are so in love with Statcounter. You are always doing something with it and it is like all you can talk about. ;)
from juli-anne :
Exes are stupid. Don't they ever realize that they are an ex for a reason? Grrr...good for you for not texting him back. He's stupid.
from hamiltonian :
7 miles? impressive , keep it up
from cyanideeyes :
You're "writing" so much more now...I like it.
from cyanideeyes :
Self-Made: LOVE IT!!!
from thisismywish :
I've been thinking about you all day and just feeling awful for you, because I've so been there with Lacee, and my cousin, and the list goes on and on and on. Anyway, my point is this, when I moved I was aching and it was killing me and all I wanted was someone to say, "You know where I am! Come talk to me if you need me!" And a lot of people really did do that, and you were one of them. SO- now I'm saying this. I know I am probably one of the last people you'd want to talk to, but I am always, ALWAYS here to listen. God bless! -Beth
from thisismywish :
Ohhhh! Nicole! *hugs* I am going to miss you:( God bless you wherever you end up. Love ya. -Beth
from juli-anne :
I hope you're ok. I just wanted to let you know that you will be missed. :(
from thisismywish :
Hey, Nicole! I just wanted to tell you that I've been praying for you lately. God bless. -Beth
from thisismywish :
Oooh! Ouch! Thanks for contributing to the 11.
from juli-anne :
Whoa! That sure was a close one. I hope you're not burned too bad.
from celidor :
Thanks so much for offering to make a template for me! You are a darling! May I take a raincheck on that? Rachel offered too, but I'm sure I will be wanting another one sometime down the track....bless you, Nicole
from chicagojo :
Thanks for contributing to my fluttering wildebeest/ACS fund!
from thisismywish :
God does love you so much because your a wonderful creation of his! Thank you for comforting me, it's great to have friends like you who really listen (or just read) when I need them too. God bless, Nicole!
from juli-anne :
Nothing is pointless. Don't give up.
from cyanideeyes :
You spoil me rotten...and I aim to return it soon...
from juli-anne :
Just stopping by to say HI and thanks for the sweet Valentine's Day e-card. That was so nice of you! (and I had fun shooting the thing in the butt) Your writing has been so deep lately, have you always written poems like this before? You should continue to write and work on them. You really have a talent.
from stuberosum :
Like the new design :)
from thisismywish :
I love your writing, Nicole. I do, it's lovely. I was going to wish you Happy Valentine's Day...but maybe I won't. That would hurt my feelings if someone did that to me. Lol. Love ya! -Beth
from cyanideeyes :
Omigod. That poem was just so...[shudder]
from juli-anne :
I'm glad to hear you had such a great birthday. ;)
from juli-anne :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHIKYBLONDE!! I hope you have a wonderful happy day.
from celidor :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Hope you have an absolutely fabulous and get spoilt rotten!
from stuberosum :
I am afraid you will have to put with it for a year but you'll be completely free of it after that ;) For Sure! Also a belated Happy Birthday to you :D
from juli-anne :
I love your pictures!
from thisismywish :
I know what you mean about the shredder...my ex best friend has my calculator! It's driving me up the stinking wall, Nicole!
from juli-anne :
What must you do?
from stuberosum :
Yeah I get that wanting to have someone to hold/be with like that. Not for a little while now that I think of it maybe its because I am already 28 so have outgrown it ;)
from juli-anne :
Oh, I'm so happy for you that you are getting your own place! That is so exciting. I look forward to the day that I can get my own, also.
from juli-anne :
You're allowed to go home and have a big old cry. Could you not get time off of work? *big hugs* Thinking of you...
from stuberosum :
Sorry to hear of your losses, wish I had something of value I could say to you. May God bless you with peace.
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa. *HUGS*
from juli-anne :
I'm glad to hear that you had so much fun last night!
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear about your friend. I read this entry and teared up. I can only wish that I could have as much strength as your friend did. I wonder how she was able to do it. *big giant hugs*
from celidor :
Great entry. You sound so happy and settled and strong.
from thisismywish :
Oh, dear. *hugs* Jesus is so, SO excellent my friend. He really is. He gives us things in ways that we never expect. Even though life is tough, he's coming back. In just a short amount of time we'll be in heaven and it'll be so cool. In Christ's Love, Beth
from juli-anne :
It takes time to heal all wounds. It's hard to get over distrust for men, but when you meet the right man, it will be easy to get over those fears.
from stuberosum :
Its nice to hear you enjoy my diary and I laughed when I read your comment. I'd just like to point out that I'm not normally that shouty and domineering with inanimate objects. Honest.
from thisismywish :
I am coming by to say hello. Because I miss you bunches! How have you been? -Beth
from stuberosum :
Just a note to say I've read a bit of your diary and I can relate. In particular to that loneliness thing. Hope nothing bad happens today that goes with your uneasy feeling.
from juli-anne :
I'm glad to see you are doing ok. I miss you! You should update more. ;)
from juli-anne :
I hope you have a great New Years!!
from celidor :
Thank you so much for your note, and for adding me to favs! I will definately check your diary out. We singles have to stick together! Valerie
from thisismywish :
Did YOU buy me a supergold membership? Hmm..Happy Holidays:)
from juli-anne :
Your neighbor sounds like an ass, just like my roomates! Sometimes they will never get the point. It sucks. I hope you have fun on your trip!!
from turtlemomma :
You'd better post a picture or else I'll be mad :o)~
from thisismywish :
Awww, I'm sorry you have to leave your kitties. Man, I love best friends but they can be so hard sometimes, you know? I wish I had one. I really miss what Lacee and I had, but I know that we could never be friends again- not after our last conversation. If your friendship is worth the pain to you, then you hold on to it with everything you have. Don't let it go. I hope you have a good evening, CB! -Beth
from juli-anne :
I LOVE YOUR HAIRCUT!!
from juli-anne :
Isn't it grand to have your Christmas shopping done with early? I'm done now also and I feel so relieved. I hope your haircut turns out great....pictures?
from cyanideeyes :
[big giant grin]
from juli-anne :
Your new layout seems to be working fine for me. :) I like the pink! I hope you have a good weekend.
from cyanideeyes :
Whattup girlie. I think you're an hour ahead of me, I'm gonna throw you a call anywhere between 7 and 8 your time, if that's cool. Let me know if that's not gonna work and we'll work something out.
from meesh03 :
Hey stranger! I'm sorry for not being around D-land very much anymore! I just got done telling Cyanide how much this place really helps me out when I'm down. Your last note was beautiful and I just wanted to say thank you for being a supportive friend! I really appreciate your kind thoughts and words! Happy Holidays!
from juli-anne :
I really like your new layout, especially that little black kitty in the corner. It's very cute! I'm sorry to hear about M, it's hard when friends don't treat you right. Thinking of you and hoping that you have a good week. :) *HUGS*
from cyanideeyes :
How's life treatin' ya, girlie? How come I don't get anymore drunken phone calls?
from thisismywish :
Hey, it's giantkiller and I've moved:) Love, Me
from krugerpak007 :
Was just passing by. Your pictures are beautiful. Your cats are adorable, and your entry so uplifting. Thanks for sharing. xoxo Kathy
from juli-anne :
Oh my gosh! Your entry today and Dusty, Frisky, and I was SO SWEET!! Thanks for making me smile. :)
from juli-anne :
I think that special prayer that you said for Frisky worked! Dusty found him at about midnight and I'm so relieved. You're right about my living situation. Too bad I'm stuck in this lease until May. I'll have to e-mail you about that tomorrow. Thanks again for the lovely note, I really appreciate it! :)
from juli-anne :
I like silver better than gold too, I always have. IF I had the money, I would switch over to white gold or platinum, but right now I'm happy as ever with my silver jewelry. I'm glad to hear about how good your job review went. Congrats!
from cyanideeyes :
It's not possible to remain friends with him at this point because you're trying too soon. You both need to get over each other, then worry about being friends. Take some time apart, increase the amount of space between you two by at least 50-fold, and do your own thing.
from missak47 :
I'm sick of templates... do you think you could help make me one with the lyrics and images that I want on it?
from juli-anne :
You're right, there's no way you can just be "friends" with Mike right now. You need to heal and get over the relationship first. Then perhaps sometime down the road you can be friends. Don't let him hurt your feelings by telling you about other women, he's doing it on purpose to hurt you. I wish I was there so you could have someone to talk to. *hugs*
from juli-anne :
I absolutely love your new template. It's very pretty and I really like the butterfly. I'm sorry to hear that you have been so down lately. Hope to hear that you are feeling better soon.
from cyanideeyes :
The ASPCA isn't on her because she's not from here, she's from the Soviet Union, where she resides at now I dunno, but her stuff is displayed in Sweden - I just think it's messed up, I didn't even look at the pictures. All I had to do was think of Lotus and I was livid.
from turtlemomma :
I'm sure you made the right decision ((((MsChiky)))
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear you had such a crappy weekend. But in a way, I'm glad to hear that you finally broke it clean with Mike. It's for the best, though you may not realize it yet. Here are lots of hugs your way *HUGS HUGS HUGS* Take care of yourself girlie, and I'm here for you if you want to vent. Send me an e-mail if you'd like. :)
from turtletime :
hi there!! i was just interested in your templates because they are reallllllly really good!!!... i was wondering if you could give me more information on making a custom...like what exactly you might need to know!! i was goin to use one of ur pre-made ones.. but i dont even know how to host my one or anything!! ur help would be greatly appreciated!! u have real talent in making these!!! :)
from juli-anne :
Thanks for the lovely message in your entry today. I am feeling much better than when I last left you a note even! :) I really enjoyed your entry today. It had alot of uplifting things in it. I really like how you are trying to quit smoking. It's a great idea.
from juli-anne :
Hello, I'm finally home from the hospital and catching up on my readings. First off, I really like your new layout! It's a very pretty color. The Avon things sounds like it might be a good idea. Have you decided yet?
from cyanideeyes :
Why do you show off your old life? So people can learn from your mistakes. So people can actually see the consequences DO exist...so you don't have to watch them travel in your footsteps. Your past is a part of you, no matter how much you want it to go away - you wouldn't be who you are today if it wasn't for the experiences you've had to learn from. The fact that you changed your life shows that that's not who you wanted to be, that's not the life you wanted to live. Bleh, what do I know...
from chicagojo :
I was thinking about you and Avon yesterday, and I think it's really something to consider. You already have the customers, the start-up cost is so cheap, and people actually WANT to buy those products. Win-win-win! Good luck with that!! As for toilet training a cat, I have an entry on it (although you sound like you already know how to do it): chicagojo.diaryland.com/toilettrain.html
from turtlemomma :
I'm reading you! Pfft! And I think you put that at the end of the entry to see if people were reading the whole thing or just scanning the very top. Very, very sneaky :o)~
from giantkiller :
Dear Lord, be with CB as she makes some awesome new changes in her life. Help her draw close to you in every way she can. Help her find what she is seeking and better. In Your Name, Amen (Love ya much! -Beth)
from cyanideeyes :
Pfft. "I think the only people reading me are my sister." I apologize for being such a recluse, things are happening, changing, and I've also changed quite a bit myself. I miss the hell outta you, girlie.
from turtlemomma :
I can't wait until the next season rolls around! The wait is gonna kill me! And ewww, ewww, ewww, I'll never think of the actress that plays Ava ever the same again. I could totally see where she could have been a he! I wonder if it's gonna ruin XMen 3 when it comes out :o)~
from meesh03 :
Thanks sweetie!
from augustdreams :
I don't know what's wrong with your co-worker but sometimes a person's perceptions are very much colored by their own personality. I'm a pretty faithful reader of your diary and you don't strike me as negative at all. In fact, you've got a wonderful, positive attitude that always shines through in your words. As far as living in the past goes, we are all more than just our present, we're also our past. We all walked certain paths to get where we are right now - and sometimes you need to look back where you've been. *hug*
from turtlemomma :
If you're truly a negative person, you're doing a great job of hiding it here! :o)~
from meesh03 :
Here is what I think, You are not the only person who is struggling with these things. So hallelujah for that, b/c we obviously can't handle anything on our own. Secondly, you have been a role model for lots of other people, myself included, and instead of worrying about what good you are doing, give it to God, b/c He is the one who ultimately is responsible for it. And thirdly, SMILE! Life is way too short to be worried about these small(even though they seem trivial)things! PLUS, you are too sweet a girl to even let this stuff get you down. Just remember He never gives us more than we can handle! Perk up pepper! I'm sayin a prayer or two for you! Hugs!
from turtlemomma :
I just told a friend I'd go to church this Saturday if she quit smoking. I can't believe I agreed to that. I've never been a smoker but I can imagine it's hard to stop. I wish you much luck!
from juli-anne :
I think you need a huge hug! *hug* You are going through alot lately. Take one step at a time and I'm sure you'll make it out alright. As far as your house goes, I wish you the best of luck with that. Most people don't buy duplexes that are already rented out so they can make it into one house. Usually they buy them to continue renting them out. Besides, they can't break your lease even if they did buy it. As far as your private entry is concerned, I will say this. Follow your heart and not what other people say. It's your life, your heart, and your relationships, not anyone else's. Besides, never believe rumors unless you hear it from the person themselves. Otherwise everything gets twisted around. I know this first hand. Hang in there girl. You are strong!
from giantkiller :
Hey, Chiky! I've been neglecting you lately. Sorry about that:) Want to hear something blonde I did? You left that note about spanking on my notes page and I replied to it on someone ELSES page. Gosh I can be SO blonde sometimes! Anyway...your a great person, and I love reading all the great things you write. I'll try and be better about leaving notes from now on!:) Have an awesome day in the Lord:) -Beth
from cyanideeyes :
You ARE pretty. Don't concern tourself with the mindlessly shallow, they're not even worth their own excrement.
from juli-anne :
*HUGS* Don't feel so down and hard on yourself. You are wonderful person!! I wish I could be as dedicated as you are about working out...I really despise it. How did you get to like it?
from meesh03 :
I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever! How are you doing girl? I wanted to tell you that I like your new template! And Hello Danielle! I'd sure love to hear from you! Take care! :)
from turtlemomma :
Hi Danielle :o)
from juli-anne :
Hi Danielle! Someone found your diary by looking for Jessica Simpson's house?!? Weird...I get all the Family Guy hits.
from turtlemomma :
You are never boring! Candle warmer? I've never heard of those before.
from cyanideeyes :
No no no...you only THINK they had nothing to do with the movie...tiny little details is what it's all about with Resident Evil. [hides in the video game fanboy corner]
from cyanideeyes :
Know anyone who works at Norlight Telecommunications or Lebanon Publishing?
from cyanideeyes :
If that's the case, he's been reading me for a LOOOOONG time. Crazy.
from cyanideeyes :
I think someone is reading me through you, I had mad hits from MO that I don't think belong to you - creepy.
from juli-anne :
Cyanide is right about the "no sex with ex" comment. It just makes hurt feelings linger longer than they really should. Of course it'll be hard to break all ties, but you can't meet new men when you've got one in your bed, right? I'm glad you got that guy's number, perhaps it will end up being something really fun. PS-check out the new layout. I LOVE it!
from augustdreams :
Hey, sweetie. It's also okay to just follow your own heart. The advice of dear friends can he helpful and mean a lot, but don't ever think that you don't have the right answers inside of *you*! I've always believed that true joy and happiness come from within - you can't squeeze them from another person. So it isn't weak or wrong to decide you don't want to go out on a date. There are far too many people who seek out relationships because they don't know how to be in their own company, or how to be a whole and content person without the validation of someone else. I love my partners with all my heart and soul, but I also know I'm just fine on my own. So follow your heart, babe. Always. *hug*
from cyanideeyes :
I have a project for you if interested, I dunno how willing you will be to do it (moral reasons and all), but it's there if you want it...
from cyanideeyes :
It'll end, I promise. Being with someone for so long and then it ending is just...torture at first. I never made mention of it afterwards because it was a lil messy, but me and Carlene broke up - again. I still hit that loneliness thing, but it's final this time. So, seriously now - this is what you do: pick up the phone, find my # and USE it. I don't care when. If I'm hella busy then I'll let you know, but if not, we'll talk. Promise. About whatever. You can dump your feelings or emotions, you can blah on about nothing, whatever. I may seem scary, but I'm not as scaryk as you would think - promise. I love you, don't forget that hun.
from juli-anne :
Hey girl, I want to thank you for saying that I was one of your closest friends because I feel the same way. It's so strange to feel like I'm closer to the people I've met on Diaryland than the friends I see everyday. I understand what you mean! I'm sorry that you are still feeling so lonely. It will take time to heal after a breakup and you're right about cutting it off completely with Mike. It may be the hardest thing to do, but the best for YOU. *hugs* Feel free to write me an e-mail, etc anytime, I'm hear to listen.
from turtlemomma :
Seven days is long enough. Time for an update! I hope you're ok. ~K
from juli-anne :
Hey there, just wondering where you have been. I hope everything is going good with the job and such!
from meesh03 :
where you been girl? just wanted to drop you a note to say I was thinking of you. I read your last entry about saying things with our mouths about other people who are made in the image of God. i'm gonna use that to help me get through this year. Because so far, it's been pretty stressful. I just want to get through it. But I know that the Devil is working overtime on me, but I'm gonna keep reading the Word when I can. i'll be praying for you to get through things with your new job as well. Take care hun!
from snugglefreak :
waa you like hal Sparks. MY good nesss i thought i was the only one in the world O 4 ur information.......... he is 35 years old WA i know Old man but hey...sexy old man. he was born in 1969! o well just letting you know i think he is hott and have you looked at the photo gallerary at halsparks.com wowoowoowow hottness.
from rocketcoyote :
I love goats too =) I guess thats why I raise my pygmies =D lol, Ill give you the link to my pet photos and you can look at my goats. Here is the link- http://img65.photobucket.com/albums/v199/lacee/pets/ ( most of the goats are mine, the birds not mine, and the white dogs not mine =) )
from meesh03 :
I know exactly what you mean about little girls dressing way to provocative for their age. It's sickening indeed. I've not been to keen on making my relationship with Christ better right now, but I am gonna praise Him tonight because He used you once again to help me out. I always find something in your entries that make me realize that God is still number one and that I need to lift my burdens to Him. Thanks for your friendship girl! I hope your new job and the environment is suitable for now. And if I had more time, I'd analyze your Jessica Simpson dream. I hope you find some peace in the time to come before God brings you another opportunity. *hugs*
from rocketcoyote :
lol, why am I crazy!! =) hehe, glad you like your new job.
from rocketcoyote :
Happy last day at work also! And I thought those little .. I dunno what you call em, the things wiff the little.. like ahh n/m =) lol
from turtlemomma :
Happy last day at work, and I hope you have a wonderful weekend! ~K
from giantkiller :
Sorry I've taken so long to get back to you! I need to get back into sending sweet notes to everybody all the time. Gosh darnit! I know EXACTLY what your saying about that whole relationship thing. It's like, I feel like I'm the only single person I know. And then, all the couples in the world are PURPOSELY trying to make me upset. Holding hands and kissing is hereby a conspiracy. And my brother's girlfriend is a major sweetie. He's very much supportive too. I started bawling the other night and he came in and gave me the biggest hug I've ever had. Who knows? Maybe we WILL be single till Christ comes back. But you want to know what? I don't think we will. Psalm 37:4 says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I don't think that God would put that desire in us and make us be alone forever and ever. That would be so horrid. God has these two excellent guys waiting for us, because we are two darn excellent girls. We are both nice, intelligent, conservative and Christian girls. And I can guarentee we don't LOOK (I haven't even seen you and I can still guarentee it) half as bad as the girls in my town. God loves us. He thinks we are awesome. Let's keep that in mind. And eat lots of chocolate Ice Cream and cry a lot:) Hehehe:) God Bless and have a great night!
from juli-anne :
Good luck with your college class. I'm sure you'll do great. I actually found College Algebra to be one of my favorite college classes, but I'm just weird sometimes. :)
from cyanideeyes :
I dunno how I always manage to do this, but I forgot the username again. I always remember the pass, just not the name. Ugh, I hate Mondays. Must go get coffee...
from juli-anne :
No, my friend's name from New Mexico is Elisa. It would have been really neat if we would have known the same person! Anyway, I know exactly how you feel about clubs. I hate going to them. HATE THEM.
from juli-anne :
CONGRATULATIONS on finding a new job!! That is so awesome the way that things worked out. It sounds like you will be much happier at the new place, too. I'm so happy for you. :-) Don't worry about your current job or co-workers, it's their loss!
from turtlemomma :
Congratulations on the job! ~K
from capinay08 :
Thanks for the note. I love your layout. The cat is really eye-catching. =P
from juli-anne :
I love that cat snear layout! I just like Stewie too much yet to change...
from joecartoon :
Sorry for any pain I may have caused you. Please come back again when you are fully healed.
from cyanideeyes :
That was very vivid. I could almost feel as if I were in her place, the adjectives and descriptions invoked every aspect of my senses. Excellent writing.
from meesh03 :
Hey girl! I just wanted to reply to you (finally, sorry by the way,) about the tulip lay out! If it's not a big deal, then yes, email me and we can figure something out! And also about your job situation. Trust in Him to pull you through. It's hard figuring out where we can be of use and make money while we're at it. However, just remember that there are times when God could have a bigger purpose for us. Don't think of it as a door being closed, think of it as a window being opened to a new breeze. A chance to share more of Christ's love somewhere new. Keep the faith! ;P
from brdwaybebe :
hi honey, I'm sorry about your job but just remember that God is your source, not your job. God uses your job to bless you with money but He can easily use another avenue. You will have a new job soon that the Lord will provide. Start praying for it now and then thank Him for what He's doing. Pray for the money to cover your bills and beyond and then thank Him for it. This comes from experience. Repent about the car thing and don't let it beat you up. What's done is done just ask forgiveness for that, accept that forgiveness He has already given and just thank Him for taking care of you any time a bad thought comes into your mind that it won't all work out. It took me a bit to learn to do this but God never leaves you. I went 6 months without a job and never missed my rent because God is faithful. The Lord will never see the righteous begging bread. That's scripture my lovely! God tells us not to worry over and over in His word, listen to Him and take that peace - God's got your back. It's better to sacrifice your praise to God than your joy to satan. I'm praying for you honey and I love you lots! - Christy
from turtlemomma :
Since I don't exactly know how or whom to pray to, I at least want you to know you're in my thoughts. I'm so sorry about your job (((hugs))) ~K
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear about your job. Perhaps a new opportunity is waiting for you and you have yet to see it. I know how frustrating it is finding a job. Have faith, girl.
from turtlemomma :
I heard the baby went with the father and Julia told Christian that Matt was his. Anything else of importance I miss? And Happy Birthday to Zoey! And from the sound of it, good ridence to Mike? I don't think you blew anything out of proportion, whether or not you wanted to dump him anyway, that's just not too cool what he did. It's definitly grounds for immediate dimissal :o)~ ~K
from rocketcoyote :
OoOo Your layout is sooo cute!!! I might be askin for a custom soon ;)
from turtlemomma :
Hey, you have talent! I could have written a sentence or two that maybe made sense...or not. Hope you start feeling better soon :o)
from juli-anne :
I really like your new layout!! I'll also agree with you that Oz is great. I really like that show, I want all the episodes on DVD.
from turtlemomma :
I definitly dig it :o) ~K
from turtlemomma :
Hey, thanks for recommending photobucket!
from cyanideeyes :
I love you!!!
from juli-anne :
I really hope you're able to work everything out. If you ever need to vent, I'm here for you, send me a note! :-)
from turtlemomma :
Unfortuatly it means nothing to the chicken and cow butchers that you swear off meat, because in this case one person does NOT make a difference :( I tried the no meat route once but found it much more difficult than expected. I wish I still had the picture of my husbands meatless meatloaf disaster to show you. However, the whole experience wasn't a total bust. I discovered Boca burgers and still to this day will sometimes order one over a regular beef patty. ~K
from rocketcoyote :
Thank you=) I really believe that with all my heart. The more I think about it, the more I think its true. Its my moto =D
from joecartoon :
While I'm not much on the vegan lifestyle and have nothing against eating meat, I thought I'd ease your pain a little and let you know that no baby chicks die for eggs... There are no roosters in the laying houses, so the eggs are never fertilized. Hence, no baby chickens were harmed in the making of this omelet.
from cyanideeyes :
Hun, you're pretty enough to get any man you want, you just have to believe it, or use it to your advantage to spark interest from across the room. And I'm not just saying this to be nice; I MEAN IT. Something about your facial features makes me think of them hottie amazon women in them old 50's movies? Ya know? Modern-day would be Xena's crew I guess, but they dress all slutty, so...yeah. (I don't know how on earth I ended up here) I'm gonna shut up before I start rambling on about something even dumber then Xena: Warrior Princess Amazon chicks. You're gorgeous. Cyanide says so.
from meesh03 :
Girl, you are so precious. Don't ever let anyone tell you different! I hope things perk up for you. I don't have as much time to write on here as I would like, and I know what you're talking about as far as low self esteem goes. I had two older sisters, and hated make-up until I was 17 years old. Thank the Lord that I realized it wasn't a sin to wear make up. And besides, it's not the outer beauty the that matters, it's what's on the inside that counts. Perk up pepper!
from juli-anne :
I'm interested in a private message. :) About your low self esteem, I know from experience that it is hard to "just get over". In fact, I've found it near impossible. It's so easy for other people to say. And I agree that it's way too early to jump back into the dating pool, you need some time for yourself, too!! Also, who is the first "to whom it may concern" about? I'm confused...I've been gone for a weekend and now I'm lost.
from rocketcoyote :
Well I might have one in order (a custom) but if it dont come along soon ill letchya know =) and you are pretty good at the whole designing thing!
from rocketcoyote :
I didnt know you did designs, shame on you for not telling me! =D
from cyanideeyes :
I dig the new layout. [hugs] Thank you again. I thought a lot about what you said, and I think I know what I have to do. Thanks.
from matthewpv2 :
I hope that you can say goodbye, and feel good about it. God can work in wonderful ways...so maybe he has something better in store for you...
from turtlemomma :
I found you through matthewpv2 and I read what you wrote in his notes. It's weird because if I didn't know any better I'd think he was someone I know very well. Hmm... ~K
from matthewpv2 :
Thanks for dropping by my site. Also, much thanks on adding me as a favorite. Hope you continue to read, and hope to learn more about you as read your more of your thoughts.
from meesh03 :
HEHEE! I know, I'm a stinker! Florida was very great though, and a much needed break! I'm sure God will find time for you to go somewhere and sort things out. If I were you though, just check out how long your note page is becoming! You're quite the D-land gal now! So just keep praying and I know God is gonna take care of you! I hope you find a way to quit smoking! I wish I didn't drink so much damn tea, if ya wanna know my bad habit! HAHA.. well listen, keep up the great template work! I love tulips, so I really like this purple one you have got going! Much love to ya hun! :oP
from juli-anne :
YAY! for new layouts. I really really like the lightning and the beach layouts, too. Keep up the good work on them! I hope you have a great weekend. :-)
from cyanideeyes :
I hate those dreams where my kitty is hurt. Or scared. Or whatever. You have no control whatsoever, unless you realize you're dreaming and force yourself awake.
from cyanideeyes :
I am such a dumbass. Could you send me the pass again?
from sunniedays :
Wow, do you lead an interesting life. It looks like your getting things straightened out. Ya know being single is not all that bad, you just need to find the right christian friends to hang with. Congrats on your new car, well new to you. Good luck to selling your old one. Your pretty good at that template stuff. Where do you find the time? Just wanted to leave some uplifting words for you, it sounds like you might need them, especially have a private entry section. Hmm what ya concealing? I could use an online prayer buddy, feel free to email me at sunniedaysnu@yahoo.com if you might be of interest.
from giantkiller :
Us single people should stick together. I am serious- I don't know how much longer I can handle this watching while everyone else falls in love thing. Which is funny, because it's not like I am making any effort to find someone for myself. Bah. Anyway, you'll be in my prayers:)
from amberrain :
i am deleting the reno911 diaryring under username amberrain and recreating it under my new username. you will be removed and may rejoin if you wish. sorry for the inconvenience.
from rocketcoyote :
ooo, Id like to have the password and user name please! I like your entry today. Reminds me of how things have been going in my life. Well, have a wonderful day! God Bless m'dear, -Lace
from xgrapefruitx :
no problem! hes HOT! x
from cyanideeyes :
Awwwwww. I feel so special now!!! [sends a e-cheek-kiss] I wish ya luck with the car and stuff, I hate them. I really need to get mine up and running. Ick. More chaos. Perhaps we should unify our chaos, put it in a burlap sack and send it down the river?
from sexxykitten2 :
yea, i need that code.. thanks :)
from juli-anne :
I'd like to read your secret entry...:-)
from rocketcoyote :
Thanks for you note =) I have known him longer then three days lol, I guess I should have put that in there, I have had LOTS of people wondering about that haha. I have known him for about 6 months, and I really do care for him alot. I love him, but not in that sense yet. And I know bad bad move on my part.. I was so speechless, wordless, and shocked that the first thing I thought was "dont hurt him Lacee" So he said, okay ill count to three then you repeat back.. and it just came out. I already know what im going to tell him when I talk to him again, but its going to be a bit harder because of my persistant need to make sure everyones happy, and no one gets hurt. Thanks again for your note, and I just realized I didnt have you on my buddylist! Sorry!!! ill add you asap ;) #Lacee
from thedirt :
Hi Just to say thanks for the note..keep in touch its always nice to hear from like minded dirty folk.
from cyanideeyes :
[hugs you real tight]
from cyanideeyes :
Whoa. That's all I can say. Whoa.
from juli-anne :
I really don't know whether to say that I'm sorry to hear that you broke up with your bf, or congratulations on breaking up. I do know that you will be happier with this decision. You made this decision for YOU, so that is good. But to note on something: there is no way you can be just "friends" right now. Both of you need to heal and get over one another first. It will hurt even more to try to push a friendship. Anyway! After rambling on, I just wanted to show my support for you and also--I like the new layout!
from meesh03 :
I haven't heard from you or Cyandide in forever. Hope all is going well. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you both today and hope to be in touch with you both sometime soon!
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear that the situation with the bf has gotten worse. Alcohol never helps the situation, either. It sounds as though you should end the relationship for your sake. It's making you depressed to continue on with something that obviously isn't making you happy. I've been there before, just had to put my 2 cents in. Good luck with everything! *HUGS*
from rocketcoyote :
hello, I was just looking around and membered you today, so I want to say hi, and tell you how much god loves you =) no grand entires from me yet, im waiting for christy to get her layouts up so I can use the one I want, I need a good layout for a good entry hehe, alrighty ttyl =)
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry to hear about your troubles with the bf. Give it time and think everything through. Also, make sure you make whichever decision you make for YOU. By the way, I really like your new layout! Very cool.
from cyanideeyes :
I am totally honored to have my words in your space, even moreso that you changed it around a lil bit to fit your situation better. That means the world to me.
from augustdreams :
Thank you so much for adding me as a favorite. I really enjoy your writing. Please try not to feel bad about the bf. I've gone down that road too, trying to force yourself to love someone more and see a solid future with them. *Hug* Anyway, I'm favoriting you and I'll be back for more. :)
from juli-anne :
In response to the note you left me, is it hard to make a different layout for my older entries? I'm not really sure as to what I'd want. The older entries page always confuses me, I can't even figure out how to archive all my old entries! So I've just let it go....Anyway enough rambling on and on. I hope you had a good weekend!
from giantkiller :
Hi there. I noticed that you had my buddy rocketcoyote on your list. She and I have been friends since the huggies. Anyway, I am gonna take a peek around your blog:) So far I like what I see. God bless:)
from juli-anne :
I just checked out your new templates and I really like the bunny one. Maybe I should start a 2nd diary just so I can have 2 cool layouts! You wouldn't believe how many compliments I have gotten on my new Stewie layout. The menu system is awesome. :-)
from lacblue :
Hey you, I wanted to let you know iv moved my diary, sorry for lack of good entries =( I havent felt like writing with all that has been going on in my sad life lol. But my new user name is "rocketcoyote" so catch me there, I would love to still have you read, and I promise more interesting entires;)
from amberrain :
thanks for joining the reno 911 diaryring!!
from mistresslink :
thanks for joining the criminal intent ring.
from christianrvw :
Hello! I've gone through your diary but I don't see any link back. Can you please show me where it is placed? Do you still want to get reviewed? :)
from juli-anne :
THANK YOU SO MUCH for making me a custom layout. I'm so excited to see it! Stewie has always been a favorite of mine, especially the quote that was on it. I was really really excited that I found it on your design page. YIPPEEE!!!
from meesh03 :
"We are more than conqueres through Him that loves us," Romans 8:37. I am right there with you sister. I am justified by truth, and if I can't clean up the mess that everyone has made, then I know how God cleans up for us. Thanks for reminding (time and time again,) that He truly is what sets us free. I hope your cold gets better. My allergies are being a bit of a buggar. *hugs*
from cyanideeyes :
Cyanide fans...BWA HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! That one was fun-ny!!! Just kiddin'. Loves ya lots with Spock on rocks!!! The new place looks good, although I said that already...it never hurts to say it again...oh yeah, I gotta reply to your e-mail, I totally forgot...ugh, I HATE Mondays...[hugs, hugs, and more hugs.][and then another hug just 'cause]
from meesh03 :
***THEE BIGGEST HUG EVER!*** You are exactly right. And that advise helps a bunch. I'm having a couple of issues with other friends too, but I've called, emailed, everything that I know how to do, and still have got nothing. I think the saying is true, "people come into our lives for a season, reason, and a lifetime. So with that said, I'm just going to keep on keepin on. And I wanted to say thanks too, for the bio run down on your buddies list on your new diary! I am so blessed to know you!~ Take care!
from juli-anne :
I'm sorry getting a new car didn't work out. Maybe it just means that something better is waiting for you!
from cyanideeyes :
Awwwwwww hunny...you're such a sweetheart.
from juli-anne :
Just stopping by to say GREETINGS! I love the pictures of your cats. Tell us when you add more. I like how colorful your new layout is. I particularily enjoy how many times you've changed your layout since I've started reading. All of them have been nice! I wish I could do the same...but I'm pretty lazy when it comes to getting it done. :-)
from cyanideeyes :
OHHHHH!!! How cute they are!!! Loved the pics with them playing, and the sink/bathtub pics were so cute. I've always wondered what's up with cats and sinks or bathtubs. And boxes. They have an affinity for boxes I can't understand. But then again, I'm not a 7lb agile and furry slinky either, so I guess I'm not going to. Nice to finally see some pics of you, and as far as the makeup goes: you're gorgeous without it hun.
from meesh03 :
Wow. I can only imagine what your brain is going through trying to figure out what your dream meant. I'm sorry I don't have a clue as to what it meant or means. God uses you and your page in my belief to witness to other people. I think I gain something by reading about your life, and you always have something to encourage my faith, and I appreciate that! So good luck!
from meesh03 :
You are absolutely welcome, and yes, the boyfriend is the one who invited me to Florida. But it went okay today, so I will keep posting about any more goof ups! Have a great week! glad to hear you had a good weekend! :)
from lightedpath :
Hey babydoll, this is Christy (brdwaybebe) I'm workign on lighted path at the moment. I'm SO SO SO glad that the message God laid on my heart helped you. Honey I know it's hard sometimes to press in. Our flesh is such an icky thing. ANY time you need to talk or confess or just need an electronic hug , you email me ok? My email is ChristyGirl@brdwaybebe.com As always you are in my prayers! I loved your note sweetheart. I hope you go and spend some time with God today. No matter what excuse pops in your head, just go for it. You'll be happy you did. The other day I was feeling much like you are feeling and I sat down and said "ok Father, I know I really botched this up. I am a little nervous talking to you because I'm scared you are going to yell at me for disobeying" Do you know that our Lord spend ten minutes telling me how much he loves me in my spirit. I felt SO much better! Then we talked more about the things I was struggling with and things are fabulous now! I am addicted even more to His word and I am always talking to Him! The devil tries to make it seem so hard. Like we have to clean ourselves up first before we can have that relationship with Abba God. It's soooo not true! God does the cleaning! We do the obeying! ;) Get ready for an adventure honey! And seriously, email if you need to talk, anytime!!! Love you - Christy
from meesh03 :
WOW! You are awesome. I took a look at that website and it's helping explain some things. My parents (in regards to your question) are still together, and have been for 25 years! I think you hit the nail on the head when you suggested it was me. I am going through something. I couldn't tell you what exactly, but I'm pretty sure it has a lot to do with my boyfriend. He has invited me to go to Florida with his family in July. We have only been dating for two months, and it will only be five in July. Maybe I'm not ready for this kind of commitment. I think that God wants me to realize this, and know how dangerous a trip like this is. I don't want to rush my life. I want to have my space, my time, my school, my life.. so maybe it's just Him saying, Hey, Michelle, maybe you oughtta rethink this Florida thing!?... Thanks again for the interpretation. It helped a lot. **hugs!**
from cyanideeyes :
Oh yeah. Office Space rocks. Sorry about all the bf stuff, that totally sucks. I wish you the best with all of that, because I'm going through something with the gf, and I think it's finally over - which hurts like hell but fills me with relief. Whatever happens, I wish you the same relief as well.
from lacblue :
Aww thank you so much, I was having a hard day and my problems were mostly caused by goofy adults. I had been meaning to write an entry about it before but couldnt come up with something to write about lol. I wish I would have read a little more into that entry. Anyways, thanks again =) and thank you for having my link on your site, that is so sweet!
from juli-anne :
Thanks for making me smile after I read your note. I am slowly working my way out of my funkiness.
from redshoegirl :
Hiya, I found you through Alice. You poor girl, the situation you found yourself in is very similar to one I was in when I was 19 - I was told my beliefs made me a non christian and I was going to hell because I didn't attend the same churchas that person. It left me very depressed and took me years to get it into context. It isn't the truth. Plain and simple. God is Love, and mercy and forgiveness. He made us all the way we are and loves each one of us with more love than we can begin to imagine. Don't listen to anyone who tell you otherwise - Jesus lives in you, and loves you, and works through you and blesses you daily. You are His daughter and He will never reject you.
from cyanideeyes :
Hun, you have nothing to worry about. I know for a fact he'll take you LOOOOONG before he ever takes me. I know where I'm going, and I know for certain I won't see you there, so buck up, you'll be fine - I promise.
from sheepdip :
Jesus will never never nevvvver reject you, no matter what. That's one thing we can definitely count on with him, once we've given our hearts to him. We can't possibly be perfect on this earth because even when we're his, we're still fallen and we still continue to fall. He is patient with us and he just picks us up every time. The fact that you feel so awful after sex like you say is just an example of how you are filled with the Spirit and know God's heart, but it doesn't automatically make that easy to follow. A parent would never give up on a child who keeps messing up, no matter how many times. So don't forget that God said if a parent does good things for his children, how much more will your Father in heaven. You're his. He's yours. It's permanently binding, I believe. So long as you don't completely reject him and do all these things against his will on PURPOSE and kind of laugh in his face with them. But you're not, and even if you DID, I'm not sure that would be the end of things. Jesus is the Good Shepherd and he will never let a member of his flock be lost to stray dogs. So I'm sure you're going to heaven. I think ideas that somehow you're not because of this or that you've done are lies to resist. There's this line of a beautiful hymn/worship song that I know called "In Christ Alone", and there's a verse that goes, "When Satan tempts me to despair and tells me of the guilt within, upward I look and see him there who made an end to all my sin. Because the sinless Saviour died, my sinful soul is counted free. For God the just is satisfied to look on him and pardon me." Satan has no power over you. Not squat. He can't "make" you lose your salvation and go to hell. He can lie to you and make you THINK you might, but it's a hollow lie if you ask me. Your name is written in God's book of life. There's only one place you're headed :)
from elanah :
Hey, this is Liz from Lil Sis Design. Yeah, go ahead and use the picture- I don't have any specific claims on it, just on the layout. A little 'inspired by' plug is always appreciated, just because we're trying to get people to check out our site and our designs. Thanks!
from juli-anne :
I love how you put into your owns words on how I was feeling about being in my hometown. I don't feel alone knowing that someone out there thought the same about high school.
from cyanideeyes :
Thank ya hun. *grins* I'm all better now!!! *grins again* Love ya!!!
from juli-anne :
Thank you so much for the kind words in your entry concerning my friend. So far she is doing ok, she's home with her family for the weekend. Your entry really heled to lift my spirits about the whole situation. Thanks again! :)
from juli-anne :
I came across your diary through Lac-blue. I absolutely love your layout! I got into reading your entries and haven't been able to stop. You write with such passion and I can almost hear your thoughts as I read....Wonderfully refreshing :)
from sunniedays :
Well if you go to my diary, I guess you can see I don't get on too often. The only chance I get is when I am at my brothers house. Than having to make sure they don't ask what I am doing. When I am there sometimes I get so caught up in others, I don't update my own. I am really interested in yours though. It's at times watching a soap. Reading about someones life, besides my own, who is very true about feelings and such, just interests me. How I came across your diary in the first place, I don't remember. Maybe it was just God. Since the last time I was updated with your diary, lots has happened. I am glad that you have reliazed your true hatefulness against a co-worker. And it's great to hear your working on a better attitude in the workplace. FYI You have two identical entries. The one about someone hacking you is in there twice. Yea it's been a while. I start from the recent and go backwards from there. The Lord is working on your heart. Listen to him. Remember he can go "bam" and make everything happen at once like we like, but more in likely we well fail with all we just received. He gives it to us little by little and we have to learn patience. If you don't like your workplace still, God has better in store, but you must appreciate what you have first. Remember also that your entries on bf don't always go with the life of God. I do enjoy your little semi-devotionals as well. Especially how you apply them to your life. But stay true to your self. Don't be a hypocrite Just felt like I am suppose to share all this with you. Maybe one day I can keep up with my stuff, and not be so interested in everyone else. One day I'll learn all this html stuff and design a good site and keep it updated. But than it all depends on how often I have computer access. God Bless You, Sunnie
from meesh03 :
You crack me up! There is a little "dirty girl" in all of us. We still have our faith though, and even though it's completely wrong to go forth in sin, we know we are forgiven anyway. We may not know how much it cost to see our sin upon that cross, but at least He loves us that much! So go on and get ya some! (haha, couldn't resist!)
from meesh03 :
Thanks for the note.. I eagerly await hearing from you! tehee... Hope all is well, and the kittens are doing fine! LOL.. Talk to ya soon! :P
from cyanideeyes :
Love the new layout hun!
from sensualminx :
Thanks for leaving me a note, good to know the banner thing actually works. I'm only using my banner impressions because I paid for the membership, never really wanted to advertise really. But it's nice to know people like my layout and whatnot! :)
from cyanideeyes :
Hey now. I miss you when you don't update, or whatever, aww bleh, you know what I mean.
from cyanideeyes :
Awwwwwww, poor wittle kittums. I hope everything is going well over 'dere, and I definitely hope for a speedy recovery of the wittle one. HUGBEES!!!
from cyanideeyes :
Yeah, good luck with the kitty thing. Grown kitties don't like newcomers, unless you get them before the elder cat turns 3-5 years old, our time. I gotta get Lotus a friend quickly for that very reason. I wish you the best, and if you have any issues lemme know - I have a wealth of cat knowledge, and the g/f worked at PetsMart for almost 4 years, she's got a lot of knowledge as well.
from alicesbaby :
Nicole, thanks SO much for the guestbook message. Your words really blessed me. Please feel free to preach - I could really do with one of your mini-sermons right now! :) xxx
from lacblue :
Hi there, I found your diary in the lighted path directory. I would just like to tell you I love your entries. Wonderful!! kudos -lacblue
from cyanideeyes :
Awwwwwww, of course I'll marry you hun!!! But can I propose Homer Simpson style with an onion ring instead of a REAL ring? LMFAO - That would make such an awesome picture.
from meesh03 :
I don't know when or how you and I met, er via internet. haha, but I'm glad I sort of know you and Cyanideeyes.. You both encourage me to be a better person! God workds in mysterious ways doesn't he!! Keep it real sista! (Yes, I just said that! haha)
from cyanideeyes :
Awwwwww, you're such a sweetheart. Yes YOU. I looked at your 'Custom' page, and there was something there that about made me squirt. You rock socks off 'round the clock, hun; just remember that.
from cyanideeyes :
I'm sorry you're kinda bummed right now hun, I wish I could do something. I wish I was at work yesterday and not all incapacitated and miserable, so could have caught your e-mail. Feel free to get ahold of me if you need to talk or anything.
from cyanideeyes :
I'm glad to hear so many positive things are happening for you at once!!!
from mojo1915 :
Thanks a bunch! The problem has been fixed. Have a super day in Christ! ~Jesse
from cyanideeyes :
Hmmmmmmmm - ya know, it creeps me out. The whole situation with b/f, I mean. I'm kinda going throught the same thing with g/f AGAIN, and I don't like it. It seems like we're always going through the doubt thing at the same time. But regardless, I hope whatever you decide to do, it works out for ya. Perhaps it'll force me to grow some balls and do what I need to do with my situation...
from cyanideeyes :
Dig the layout (again), it's pretty coo lookin'. Yes, I said "coo."
from homo-bible :
I just wanted to tell yah that your diary rocks, I would love if you came to check out mine!
from meesh03 :
not a problem! you did the same for me today!
from cyanideeyes :
I just noticed I'm linked as one of your fav reads - THANK YOU!!! That really helps me out with getting out of this screwed up mindstate, because someone thinks enough of me to see what's going on. I'm sorry it's a lil negative right now, but I can feel myself coming out of it...
from meesh03 :
I know! I know! I'm constantly making bad decisions lately and I don't know why. Perhaps it's my age. I don't know. But I do thank you for keeping me encouraged and reminding me that this too shall pass. I did break things off with bf. He still wants to date me, even though I said "I have no time" for you. We'll see how it goes, but I think God has been telling me the past few days that I give too much of my heart away. And I'd have to agree. What else am I going to have left to give to the one he made for me?. I'm still praying for you and I'm glad to see that you are staying steadfast! Even when I can't write about it, I am still praying about what I should be doing! It'll all work out! thanks for the major attitude buster though! I needed that!
from cyanideeyes :
Wow, the Diary facelift looks pretty sexy. If you're still down to help me out with mine, I'm actually getting close to having my design set, I just gotta stop procrastinating and get it done. Hails...
from cyanideeyes :
Never say you are nothing, we all know better. You're something to me at the very least, and people who mean something to me aren't nothing, they're everything.
from mojo1915 :
Howdy do! Thanks for joining the Christian diaryring. Thanks for adding me to your buddy list too. You should check out lightedpath.diaryland.com. It's a neato Christian directory. Have a good day and God bless ya! ~Jesse
from cyanideeyes :
I totally just noticed you've got a link to the BK song, that's awesome!!! I just heard it on New Year's Eve, my buddy Aaron showed it to me, and I haven't stopped singing it since...RAWK!!!
from cyanideeyes :
Funny how when I'm facing myself with a question that seems to have no answer I find that answer in one of your entries. I need to be refined, and perhaps I've been fighting that the whole time without knowing it. Thank you once again...
from augustdreams :
Thank you for adding me to your favorites! I'm really enjoying reading through some of your earlier entries. Glad to meet you and Zoey! Have a great New Year's Eve. Aph and Woodstock send their fuzzy regards.
from sheepdip :
I just added you to my buddy list when I saw you added me to yours! :) And I read today's entry - "Coming to the end of myself" But I think you are coming to the BEGINNING of yourself, which can be the most painful of all (but good!). When you get to that loooowwww low point of realising how much you need/want to change, that is your springboard. It is so good that you know you need to change. But be gentle with yourself - God is not standing over you with a big stick. He LOVES you so much. He knows every tiny bit of your struggles and temptations and fears and hurts. He wants to walk with you, gently leading you by the hand - not to set you upright, walk to the horizon, turn back to you and yell, "ON YOUR MARKS... GET SET... GO!" and wait for you to reach him! ;) He will pick you up out of whatever mess you're in and forgive you and make you clean, no matter if it's a million times, over and over again. What you did in the past is dead and gone if you have truly said how sorry you are about it to God and accepted his forgiveness. Don't let it keep hitting you where it hurts, because it is past stuff that does not have any power over you anymore. If you're forgiven by God and striving to live better (no matter if you fall), you are clean in God's eyes. I really admire your honesty. And I'm praying for you. And Zoey is so beautiful. She reminds me of my cat Paddy (the one who is still alive). xxx
from meesh03 :
I just happened to stumble across your journal, and I also wanted to say thank you for being honest with your Christianity. I struggle so much, and it's nice to see that I am not the only person who faces the wiles of the devil alone. Keep your head up! God is good to us! He loves us and He knows the troubles of our hearts! I'll pray for you, and your smoking habit! Take care, and feel free to leave me a note if you'd like!!
from cyanideeyes :
That passage from the bible you included in your entry today really helped me out - seriously. For some odd reason I have an angry, hateful nature and I've been wanting to change that, and that quote really showed me what it was that I was doing wrong. Even though it was unintentional, Thank you so much...
from sunniedays :
Well I am glad to hear you plan on changing your life. Stick to that attitude, life is grand. Just remember you need to look at all your life... Friends, Boyfriends, Good Buddies, Your lifestyle, Bad Habits, etc etc It will get rough and probably a little lonely, but if you hang on to old friends etc that don't agree with your new way of life, you will not get too far, chances are you'll end right back up where you are now. Start a new life, one right with the Lord. Listen closely to what he is saying. Read my Living Insights entry from today
from sunniedays :
Well from reading your diary it sounds like you have alot of issues going on in your life. Some advice to you.... Get right with the Lord. Get over your old life, and move on with the new. Get happy with your job, or maybe it's time to move on.
from xxkatwomanxx :
omg!! I absolutely loooove ur diary page!! It is soooo cool!! *is slightly jealous* ok, maybe a lil bit more than slightly. My page is still the boring one u start out with. My page is so inferior 2 urs...
from minderella :
thank you for that. i mean it. that was so kind and it actually made me feel better.
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from diaryreviews :
Hey, sorry about the delay, but your review is now up at Diary Reviews. Go take a look at http://diaryreviews.diaryland.com/chickyblonde.html -Xilia
from seventigers :
Oooh! Kittens. I love kittens. And Zoey is an adorable name :)
from dust-settle :
loved your latest entry, about the withdrawl. very well expressed.
from minstrelite :
Thanks so much for your note. I really prayed that my entry from last night would be helpful to someone, and it seemed that God has answered that prayer. And thank you for your confession, and may we both thank the Lord for what he has now done for you. God bless you.
from dust-settle :
just read your most recent entry and although im sure i dont know exactly what you're going through, i know the pain of trying to fix something and ruining yourself in the process. im glad my entry let you see that everyone has problems...and everybody finds a way to work through them. i hope you find yours. take care. -michelle

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