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from miame :
Ketchup...my favorite. Hope all continues to be well in your world!
from x-centricity :
SO GOOD to see you add an entry. It's been so long. *hugs*
from miame :
just dropping in. I hope you are still in a good place with all that forgiveness!
from miame :
just dropping in. I hope you are still in a good place with all that forgiveness!
from musikoid :
Beautiful entry. I don't know you but just had to say something. Forgiveness is wonderful, isn't it?
from miame :
I was thinking of you today...just out of the blue. I hope things are going alright!
from wifemotherme :
But I dont have the old pw ; (
from wtng4lezlie :
Passwords are such easy things. ;)
from miame :
I just happened back onto diaryland after a hiatus...I would love to know how you're doing!
from casa-rosie :
Dearest, I don't know how to turn the light on for you, because truly, that's what it feels like to me. Just like one day, a light goes on, and I can start looking at myself differently, not only that, but I can believe that I really WILL be whatever weight goal I set for myself. I've tried to impart the things that worked for me, like buying sexy bras, and seeing myself as a sexy, gorgeous person, not a fat nobody that no one looks twice at. I've told you about the raw diet, and how the 30 day challenge really worked for both my daughter and me. But only YOU can turn that switch on for yourself. Only YOU can decide to set aside what your mother thinks, and the damage that was done in your past. My mother overfed us, and all of us suffered from weight problems; those habits killed my oldest brother. My husband threw bags of candy on the bed to sabotage me. You know what? Those are distant memories now. You are right where I was 10 years ago, and it is now up to you to declare your power, and seize your life for yourself. I did it, you can too. Remember, I am 5'1", and I weighed 250 pounds 10 years ago at age 39. It has taken me all of these years to inch down, but by all the saints and angels, I have done it, and I am still doing it! My current motto is, "Nothing tastes as good as being slim feels!"
from cocoabean :
yeah, the $80 ticket should teach whoever parked there a lesson... a ticket and tow is just mean....
from x-centricity :
Hi, Luv! I miss you terribly. Can I have your password? eurydice10@msn.com
from casa-rosie :
You might want to read my new diet blog, if you haven't already. http://wearelivingintheraw.blogspot.com It beats the hell out of surgery, and you will feel much, much better. My daughter has already lost 17.7 pounds in 27 days...her weight is similar to yours. Even better, you wouldn't be alone. You would have two of us to encourage you!
from wifemotherme :
Last year I lost down to 163 on Atkins. In Dec. after haveing gained every pound and then some back, I had a gastric bypass. It has not been easy but I would do it all again in a ny minute.
from wifemotherme :
Amen!
from rdhdprincess :
Hee. You're right, fishing camo should be water colored. I'm glad you are a wee bit better. I hope you're a big bit better tomorrow:)
from rdhdprincess :
I can't believe you are still sick. Gah - too much snot! It will get better. Hang in there honey.
from ingridwrites :
It makes working out more fun. I recommend fast/er songs. Mellow songs that make you want to sing them? BAD. Also see: embarrassing yourself at the gym.
from ingridwrites :
No! I'm not jealous :) Good luck. Maybe a few weeks of Young Love will work, but since there is no garden of Eden where food, housing and college are free, I would suspect you are 100% correct that she'll run back to her parents in no time.
from casa-rosie :
The fastest way to have a young person do something, is to tell them NOT to do it. It's human nature. But here's another thought...It is their path, and only they can walk it, as hard as it may be for parents to let go and let them make their own mistakes. Life is about loving, learning, living, and growing. Sure, you can avoid pain, but what will you learn? P.S. Congrats on the weight loss!
from x-centricity :
amen!
from ingridwrites :
((hugs)) You kick that fat's ass and you win!
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Holy cow! I got chills reading that. I like J's spunk. Sometimes being a bitch pays off!
from ingridwrites :
Although I don't know Bret, I feel the same way - or else there wouldn't be a R.O.L 3, right? I mean if it was truly about LOVE, he'd have found his 'love'. I don't think you can find it in a set of bimbolicious girls like that, they look like painted up groupies. It does make for some funny tv though.
from curious-me :
Hi there, I've been reading you for a while and just added you to my buddy list. Just wanted to let you know that I enjoy your diary and wanted to let you know that your latest entry was awesome and inspiring. Take care.
from rdhdprincess :
I don't think that I've ever heard you tell the whole story that way before. It was beautiful. Sad, but beautiful. I'm so grateful that you survived, and even thrived. You are amazing.
from x-centricity :
You are so brave and super awesome. *grin* Love you.
from annanotbob :
You're a star and an inspiration! Happy holidays xxx
from cocoabean :
congratulations! You've done what many people wouldn't have tried. You rock!
from roadiepig :
I was planning on sharing the joy with you on the steep fall of the little egomaniac, but you beat me to it;-). The funniest thing to come out of his mouth recently? Yesterday, when asked by reporters about the newspaper article saying that the FBI had possibly taped his conversations, he said something along the lines of "I welcome anyone to outwardly record my conversations because I have done nothing wrong.". Hee hee. Things can only get better for us peons, now that he is irrelevant (if not convicted just yet)..
from x-centricity :
Very good and insightful entry today. *hugs*
from dragprincess :
so....call me. let's talk.
from miame :
Happy Belated Birthday! I'm happy they showed they love ya! I'm also thinking of you and your dad...keep us posted.
from x-centricity :
Love you!!!!
from rdhdprincess :
You ARE special, and I'm sure well-loved. Still sucks to have your birthday forgotten, though. Happy Belated Birthday, honey!! Happy 40's!! I will be 40 in March and I am looking forward to it! Kisses!
from thecrankyone :
Happy Birthday to you, you're only a year (not even) older than me.. Hope you have a great year. It probably doesn't help any,but you aren't worthless, its your mother who has the problems.
from cocoabean :
happy birthday!
from casa-rosie :
Happy Birthday! My mom forgot my birthday once, and it really upset me. I made her pay for that for a while! Then this year, I forgot my youngest daughter's birthday! Fortunately, her phone was acting up, so she blamed it on that...after all, I couldn't have gotten through if I had tried.
from ingridwrites :
Happy belated birthday! I understand the mom-thing.
from krugerpak007 :
Hugs from me..xxx
from x-centricity :
I'm sending you lots of love. *huggles*
from casa-rosie :
Hooray for you! You lost weight and inches, even BEFORE medication! You are right, the diagnosis sounds like an Iron Chef's name, and I love the name, 'Iron Gimp'. If you have to have a problem, best that it's one you can embrace, and laugh at!
from rdhdprincess :
I'm glad that you are doing well, and that you updated! Take care!
from x-centricity :
Iron Gimp America! LOL that is just so witty. I'm glad you have a diagnosis and now you can be treated and feel more in control of your life. *hugs*
from bitterwineuk :
well done to you. I am glad things are going well for you, keep up the good work. x
from annanotbob :
Wow! That's a whole stone!! In the UK, anyway. Go, you!! hugs x
from miame :
LMAO! So far we haven't had any bikini wars! Well, last summer I bought her a cute little two piece with a skirt and she *hated* having her tummy exposed...so she would pull the skirt up to her chest to cover the middle...so I guess maybe we have :) Thanks for the giggle!
from forty-plus :
I'm so glad they listened and acted to make things right for you. You're going to have a challenging and great summer with these experts leading you in new exciting paths. Best of luck and kudos to you for speaking up!
from casa-rosie :
I am so happy that they understood where you were coming from, and that they realized the impact it had on you. But as they say, be careful what you ask for, because you might get it! It appears that you may get what you asked for, AND what you've needed, and now you can follow what the lovely women have planned for you! Here's to the new you, both inside and out! Even if you don't lose an ounce, if you can get past some of the issues, and learn that you ARE lovable, then THAT will be the greatest thing accomplished! And buy cute bras from Fredericks. Really! It's what turned the corner for me! *LOL*
from x-centricity :
Take advantage of everything you can get out of them, Luv. This is the beginning of a healthier, thinner you. *huggles*
from miame :
I am so excited and nervous for you at the same time! I can't wait to see how this chapter unfolds!
from annanotbob :
Way hay!!! Good for you, girl xxx
from casa-rosie :
Whoo hoo for 275! I, too, weigh myself nekkid first thing in the AM after peeing all night! And 175 is a pretty happy weight, though when you get there, you might still decide to go even lower! Been meaning to ask about the whole biggest loser thing. Did you actually give them money, for a program that they failed miserably at? I would either demand my money back, OR require them to enter me for free in the next go-round. Just my humble opinion! *Hugs*
from miame :
You are amazing!! You totally inspire me! Keep it up girl!!!
from x-centricity :
This challenge sounds hard but exciting. I would like to try it. (My cardio right now sux and I don't have anything to keep me motivated) What all is involved?
from miame :
Thank you! We're quite excited to have the little guy. Oh yes, welcome to my other world! :-D
from annanotbob :
Omygod, I had to lie down after reading that! well done you xx
from rdhdprincess :
Yay, good job! You definitely deserve a cape!
from chaosdaily :
yay, way to go!
from lizbathory :
*dances* GO GIRL! GO GIRL! GO GIRL! I stopped weighing myself in 2004 when I hit 330lbs. Now I average 216. A weight I've held for over 2 months now. YOU CAN DO IT TOO! A pound loss is a lot of weight. It is also the starting point. I find the first 20 to be slow until your body starts to realize that it can release it's fat stores. Funny how cutting out pop, and chips, and chocolate can drop atleast 15lbs on it's own. Weight loss, no matter how small is an amazing thing, I know from experience. And hey....the longer it takes to come off, the more likely it is to stay off. So it's awesome all around. lol
from krugerpak007 :
I think you are great. You always comment and make me think about things and really help. Its easy for me to compliment you and give you reasons to love yourself-its not so easy for me to make you believe it. Just wish you would see what others see. And feel. x
from rdhdprincess :
Um, yeah, that is totally not helpful and unproductive. I'm sorry honey. I think you are wonderful.
from casa-rosie :
Maybe they do it because they find your mother, and the things she says, to be so amazingly stupid? Maybe they think that what she says is so ludicrous as to be beyond belief? In essence, they are saying, "Your mother is such a stupid git that she says these things which we know to be untrue." I'm sure they have no idea that they are hurting you in any way, because they feel that they are supporting YOU, not her. So maybe approach them and tell them that while they are well-meaning, getting bulletins from your mother's mouth just depresses you, and could they please lay off.
from x-centricity :
It's amazing how much of a difference those calorie counter things make! I'm so glad you got one. Most people just don't realize how many calories they eat. I know I don't. I don't really like to be reminded either. LOL Good luck with this program. I know you are going to really benefit from it. *huggles*
from krugerpak007 :
Its wonderful to see your postiveness shine through. You can definitely do this. Take care lovely. x
from ingridwrites :
You can do this! I'm pulling for you!
from bitterwineuk :
sending you some well earned hugs. xxxxxxx
from forty-plus :
That was a beautiful, honest, raw entry. You have much to tuck into your heart.
from krugerpak007 :
That was such a powerful entry and you do need to remember all those postive things and how much you are loved and apprecaited by friends, family and even me who have never personally met you but always appreciate your comments which always keep me going and give me something to think about or strive for. x
from lizbathory :
Ok girl, you have just made me want to write an entry in my diary. One that will show you how I know exactly what you mean, only where you are now, is where I was in my teens. Ok, I totally have to write me "mom story" now. lol
from annanotbob :
I so feel where you are coming from with this. Every word you wrote today could have been about me and my Ma. She's actually my step-mother, 'real' mother died when I was a baby, but I don't remember before her. Some people are simply horrible and in a just world wouldn't have children. What you said yesterday - your closing line, something like 'I am Karen. I am a valuable person' moved me immensely. I don't know any trick for getting their judgements out of our heads permanently, but this is one thing that has helped me. Get a beautiful little box. Every time someone says or writes something nice to you, copy it, date it and put it in the box. When you're feeling blue, have a look in the box. Wishing you peace, xxx
from lizbathory :
Ah well....different yes. lol You'll see. I have many pix of me there too, so I won't be all unknown. lol
from lizbathory :
Give me an email addy, and I'll let ya in. Just know that my diary is a bit different.
from krugerpak007 :
Damn right you like yourself. And we love and appreciate you. x
from forty-plus :
I am pleased for your discovery but mad as hell that she threw away a great daughter.
from prolifique :
As well you should.
from forty-plus :
An elephant storming through the bedroom and the wisdom behind it? That made me laugh too - still am.
from krugerpak007 :
They may make a mess but aren't they SOOOO worth it? :-) I hope you feel better. x
from x-centricity :
Feel better, Sugar. *huggles*
from emaciana :
food scale is a great idea. I love mine. IT's easy to get obsessive about weighing food though. Also, where did you get your template from? i like it.
from casa-rosie :
Seriously. Buy a piece of clothing or accessory that is totally out of character for you. If you usually buy whitie tighties, then buy a pair of the pretty lacy ones that you can get at Learners. Then go to Fredericks and buy a matching bra...if your own cleavage is lacking, get one of those water bras. I am dead serious. Then wear a button down shirt, and make your boobage show very strategically. Even if you only wear it for yourself, at home in front of the mirror, DO IT!
from annanotbob :
Hello - I LOVE diaryland synchronicity. I clicked on your diary by chance and not only do you have a quote from beautiful Jarvis, but you're also ... oh god, what are the words? Struggling to heal yourself? Me too, so I'm adding you. Wishing you all the best xx
from miame :
WONDERFUL!! Please keep those little seeds watered..life is really great when you can love *you*! That is such a hard lesson though...I still struggle with it every day.
from rdhdprincess :
I think that is great! I'm going to try to be nicer to myself too. And know that you have been helping me for years with your support and what you write. Mwah!
from rdhdprincess :
I love the new layout and "raised on a diet of broken biscuits" dear! You know, I'm pretty good at ratinalizing, myself. I have never even considered any of the surgeries because of your same reasons. I think it would feel even more hopeless and depressing to have it and break it, ruin it, whatever, than to just stay fat even. I love you dear. Feel better.
from casa-rosie :
Darling, I've been where you are, right about the same age too. I will tell you now that I have been the happiest, funnest, sexiest in my 40's than at any other time of my life. For me, my biggest weight loss was predicated on my wanting to feel sexy and attractive. I dumped my glasses, and put in contacts. I dumped the frumpy clothes, and started wearing jeans for the first time in 14 years. Since I do have a cleavage, I wear shirts that celebrate that fact. I stopped hiding the happy sexy me, and let her out to play. I can't say that it will change anything for you, but it sure as shit changed EVERYTHING for me. I make it my goal to make as many people as possible smile every day, just by MY smiling at THEM. You are right about the surgery, you don't need it. Once you find the attitude adjustment that works for YOU, then it will all happen like a magical miracle. To me, when I changed, it felt as if I had taken off a mask that proclaimed me to be "wife, mother, frump...don't look at her because she is in hiding". I don't know how to impart to you this change of attitude, but if you can do it, you will be amazed. Feel attractive, and sexy. Wear cute bras and panties. Pretend that you are single and looking for a cute man while you are in the grocery store. Meet men's eyes and smile happily. No, you aren't really trying to find someone else, but knowing that others find you attractive helps YOU to feel attractive. Oh, one other thing. Try wearing a corset. Really. Think of it as an external belly-band. It will make you think before you eat something else, and just by wearing it, you eat less! It works for me!
from prolifique :
It's pretty!!
from chaosdaily :
nice look!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Oh Honey! I just got all caught up. I am so sorry. And so glad that you are okay. My thoughts are with you.
from miame :
I just want to let you know that I'm thinking of you! I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Please take care of yourself!! I can only imagine how tramatic this is to be a part of. S
from casa-rosie :
I can't imagine living through such a tragedy, and I hope that everyone will be able to heal from this. Hugs!
from x-centricity :
*hugs*
from chaosdaily :
do you read yarnsmith? she lives near you....
from poolagirl :
Blessings to all.
from bitterwineuk :
hugs to you hun, stay strong.x x x
from bitterwineuk :
I think that is the exact way I think. The smallest I have ever been is a UK 14 (US size 10) and that was when I was 14 and I do think, well I am used to being around 240lbs but I'm a lot less than that now so should I just be happy as I am and stop stressing. Life is about enjoying yourself and not giving in to pressure. You do what makes you happy. Ok, I still have days where I binge and I still have a bad day and that goes directly to my weight but life is more than that. If you really want it, stay strong, if you can live with being bigger than you want to be (where any goal does seem impossible quite often) then so be it. :)
from x-centricity :
It's a fantastic concept!!!
from gr8chick :
Hey...I think I'm gonna try that, too. Go forth blindly...I like that! I was just telling my friend how after weeks of this exercise class (2x a week) after work, and if anything I feel like I'm getting bigger. WTF is that about? But I'm gonna keep doing it. Sooner or later the effects will catch up with me, right? RIGHT? Have a great weekend! ;)
from dragprincess :
Girl! FUCK DA SCALE! That's my new rap album. Seriously, let's talk soon - CALL ME.
from x-centricity :
Happy New Year, Sugar. *hugs*
from forty-plus :
Sorry your family is hurting your feelings. I tell you, friends and strangers would never treat each other the way families often do.
from wifemotherme :
Your note made me laugh, I also grew up with a mother that was partial to boys. The difference in her and most mothers with a preference is she never bothered to try to hide it. She was very open about. She tried to explain it - while I love you girls, well there is a love for my son that you won't understand until you have children of your own. It just was what it was and I think her openness about it made us accept it. Since I never had a son I still have no frickn idea what she was talking about ; )
from thecrankyone :
You are so right one. There is a lot of the same thing among some {thankfully not all, or even most, just an annoying but visable minority} of the mentally ill community who thing being bipolar {or whatever} gives them a free pass to be jackasses. I can't help it I'm BP. Bull. It explains your behavior, it doesn't excuse you from responsibility for it. **sigh...
from miame :
I've always like the term "big floppy donkey dicks"...funny. Wonderful entry...
from rdhdprincess :
Heh. I have kids (kid) because I am allergic to cats!
from gr8chick :
Girl...I'm feeling you on the co-irker (great phrase, BTW). Can you trust a MAN that actually goes out of his way to dye his hair howdy-doody red...when his natural hair color is light-medium brown? I think not! ((hope you have a wonderful weekend!))
from krugerpak007 :
Sometimes I work so hard with my eating and then suddenly see the results. Keep up the hard work and I promise you will see results. Its great that you are motivated and you are on the right track. Just keep it up and you will see. x
from forty-plus :
I understand your frustration. I think our hormones play games with our metabolism too. Hang in there, your hard work will pay off!
from thecrankyone :
The scale isn't the only indicater of weightloss. A person's weight can flucuatate by several pounds over the course of a day, due to water, undigested food, the time of the month, how much salt you've had, if you've had any alchohol recently, the clothes you are wearing, etc.. And if you have lost body fat percentage, you most definately have probably gained some muscle which is denser. A better indication would be to get a cloth measuring tape and keep track of waist, hip and thigh measurements, as well as upper arm. Also do your clothes fit differently. My scale wont' budge but my pants are getting looser so I know I'm making progress, even if the numbers I want to change, aren't cooperating.
from wildrosie :
“Even though she was frustrated, Kaire kept up her exercise and nutrition routine and by New Year's she found herself feeling so much better about herself and the world in general that she didn't give a rat's ass what the damned scale said!" I've said it before, when I was in my late 20's, I went to a gym, and even though I lost inches, I never lost one ounce of weight! Gyms are a great thing, but too much weight training can fuck with your efforts to lose actual pounds. Around the same time, I saw someone I knew from High School. When I knew her before, if she was 125, she was perfect, if she was 145 she was chubby. This time, she was so gorgeous, cut muscles, lean, strong looking, that I had to ask what she weighed. I figured she was 110-115. Reality? She weighed 145! WHOA! The other thing is, The same food which makes one person lose weight, will make another person gain weight. You might want to try an experiment, changing what you are eating, and do it for a month each time. Also, a good jump start for most people is the protein plus diet. It might be what you need to get you going! I lost most of my weight using a very modified form of it. One last thing. Visualize the weight loss! Like Blue Opal said a couple of days ago, the power of positive thinking is amazing!
from miame :
Even though she was frustrated, Kaire kept up her exercise and nutrition routine the rest of her life because she found out the secret is in loving herself and learing that she IS worth taking care of; she found herself living longer, healthier, and happier than she ever would have otherwise.
from x-centricity :
Even though she was frustrated, Kaire kept up her exercise and nutrition routine and 3 months later she found herself shopping for new pants because she just couldn't keep her old pairs from falling to her knees.
from sassers :
"Even though she was frustrated, Kaire kept up her exercise and nutrition routine and _2__ months later she found herself ___healthier and happier and muscle-bound_________.”
from pantrypuff :
Just read an entry of yours that mentioned those childnre's clothing retail sales? I HATE those things. Those people call me at work every once in a while, trying to excite me because like 10 percent of their nastiness goes to charity. BLECK.
from x-centricity :
I like the way you're thinking. Very proud of you. *hugs*
from chaosdaily :
ive lost weight (13 pounds) and inches, and still cant fit into my old jeans, which are the SAME SIZE as the ones i wear now, which are too big. figure that out!
from x-centricity :
Just go with it, Darling. *huggles*
from x-centricity :
I wish I had someone fun to work out with. I'm having a hard time right now. I'm just so weak from this last flare-up. I can't even get through 5 minutes of a yoga video. I really want to become strong but I really don't know where to start. But you just gave me some inspiration. Love you!!!
from x-centricity :
Happy Belated Birthday, Sugar!!! I'm so glad that a group of people appreciate you as much as you deserve. *hugs8
from poolagirl :
You are SO worth it! Happy birthday!
from forty-plus :
You are lucky and loved! That's completely wonderful. And happy birthday, too!
from wildrosie :
Here's the chorus from a song by Cat Faber and Callie Hills called "I Meant to Do That". It's about how cats walk away from disasters with a smug look. I immediately thought of it when you were talking about taking a tumble with your kitty, and her attitude about it! I meant to do that, I'll have it be known I did it on purpose, for plans of my own, Since you're just a human and I am a cat, I thought I ought to mention that I meant to do that.
from chaosdaily :
i know, i felt the same way when they were burning down my childhood house....
from miame :
What a beautiful entry. I can imagine the fun you had on those stairs! What a fantastic home! Keep those memories with you in your head...and your heart.
from rdhdprincess :
That was a lovely story! It is nice that you have such fond memories. And that you know they are in your head and not in the house. That one made me think for a minute. Best wishes, c
from x-centricity :
Good bye house. *hugs*
from poolagirl :
What a lovely and poignant memory of your house - and the stairs. *hugs*
from x-centricity :
I can't believe your mom said nice things about you...Maybe pigs have been genetically altered to fly! Sorry, I had to comment on that. I'm just so shocked. Maybe she's finally coming around and is learning how to be a nice person. Have a good weekend. *hugs*
from poolagirl :
It's hard to let go of a house, but your wishes for the new owner will allow the house to continue to provide so much to so many. Blessings.
from miame :
I love, LOVE, this entry! I think that you've hit the nail on the head! I hope you find the pot of gold!!
from rdhdprincess :
That was beautiful dear. I think it was the best thing I have read in a long, long time. Good luck on your journey!
from x-centricity :
You can excercise all you want but if you can't get over the food addiction it's all for nothing. I'm going in the same direction you're going right now. I just want to be healthy so I started yoga, thinking if I excercise I'll be stronger....But I'm still getting sick because I can't walk past a twinky without wanting to eat it. I'm tapping into my inner strength right now and it's the hardest thing I've ever done. How do you say no to a Krispy Kreme?????? DAGH!~
from thecrankyone :
Back in high school I was nuts for Saywer Brown. I haven't thought of them in years. I once saw their tour bus when I was in Yellowstone with my family, but I didn't have the guts to go up and see if I could talk to them or get an autograph.
from thecrankyone :
She sounds totally narcissitic, in which case her self esteem is so low and her needto be the center of everything so great, that in HER mind everything really is all about her, as she can't empathize much or see beyond herself. Sad but its nothing you did or could have did, its all her, you're just one of the casualites. Narcissists are famous for messing up other people. http://www.halcyon.com/jmashmun/npd/traits.html
from x-centricity :
Some people are just born evil. *hugs*
from dragprincess :
Hurt people hurt people - and some are sicker than others.
from roadiepig :
Yeah, I feel the same about the little egomaniac- the court order filed by ASFME will get us our next paycheck, but doesn't provide anything for the month of September. I guess another lawsuit will have to be filed at that time, since he most likely will sit on the budget bill like he has 96% of all bills sent to his desk this year...btw- did you read the letter to state employees from Blago on the state's website this morning? He tried to take credit for getting the paycheck lawsuit through court. What fantasy land does his mind live in? If he had done his job, we wouldn't be in this mess right now! Take care, Todd
from x-centricity :
Ass doctors are a scary bunch. Especially when they ask you out on a date shortly after stinking a camera in your colon.
from thecrankyone :
Sorry to hear about M's mother. I'll keep you guys in my thoughts and send get better vibes her way.
from x-centricity :
I'm praying for you guys. *hugs*
from poolagirl :
So sorry to hear about M's mother. Holding you all in my thoughts and prayers.
from soccernut :
Ur doing so great. Always reading and keeping up w/ ur progress. Take good care, Bella (Soccernut)
from x-centricity :
So...how was he walking??? *grin*
from x-centricity :
How horrible! I hope that kid has horrible dreams of hairy ass holes for the rest of his life!
from forty-plus :
I hope that kid cannot get out of his punishment. How incredibly scary.
from chaosdaily :
fuck! that sure would have scared me too!
from bindyree :
Holy moses! I hope that brat's parents get cited for disturbing the peace or something. Lock that child in a basement and make scratching noises for a night or two and we'll see who thinks what is funny.
from miame :
I'm sorry that happened to you....but I'm oh so happy that you get a good giggle out of it, in the end...or because of the end? Regardless I'm happy that it all turned out alright and I hope the little fella next door gets a real wake up call!
from krugerpak007 :
Geez, thank goodness he is not very badly hurt-the car looks so bad :-((( Have a nice weekend. x
from forty-plus :
Thank goodness he wasn't hurt worse.
from chaosdaily :
well that pretty much takes care of that car... glad all he got was a neck strain!
from x-centricity :
Wow....
from poolagirl :
Oh jeeze! That car is quite a sight! And your poor finger! Keep breathing....
from thecrankyone :
Yikes. hope middle son is okay. I've never been bitten by a parakeet but I have been attacked by a hen who didn't want to share her egss, and was once chased by a pissed off rooster if that counts.
from rdhdprincess :
Ooh, sorry to hear about Middle Son. I hope he's okay. Congratulations on maintaining thru all the days off. That is a great success! I didn't know that parakeets bit? Hmmm.
from grt8f84me :
Oh, no...I hope your son is fine! And congrats on the maintaining the weight. I finally decided I have to do something about mine...it's driving me crazy seeing myself this way. Have a good one, my dear!
from poolagirl :
YIKES! We need details!
from x-centricity :
*hugs*
from thecrankyone :
some people have to get 3rd degree burns before they will accept that the stove it hot. They just can't acept that they can't lay around eating potato chips and donuts and have a trim healthy body. I dont' know of any skinny people who do that. It may seem that way. but it isnt'. silly me, I read labels, counted calories and monitored my nutrition like a hungry hawk on a weak rabbit. She'll learn when she gets the side effects, and consequences but for now, anythign you say will sound like her mother and she won't listen. She has to change her view of food from the inside. I've learned that weight loss is as much mental as it is diet and exercise. For her food is her comfort drug of choice and she wants to enjoy it w/o the consequences. Let her learn on her own. She's not a child and she's not stupid, she's just in denial.
from chaosdaily :
its not all about losing weight, its about health. no cholesterol in those cheese fries, so we can eat them as long as we lose weight? dont think so. i always was told, if you want to lose weight, its all about total calories, and fat calories. your friend might thin out from this, but i doubt it will work, because of what shes eating.
from forty-plus :
There's no winning in this situation except by taking care of yourself.
from forty-plus :
Do we share a mother? Keep your focus - this is for you and for your good health.
from poolagirl :
Blessings to you on this journey, and I hope your mom learns to keep her mouth shut.
from mydiet2006 :
WELL DONE!!!!!!!!!!! :)
from thecrankyone :
high fives.. Every goal has to start somewhere and every bit of progress most deinately counts.. I remember the first time I was able to wear a pair of pants taht a couple months previous wouldn't get past my knees. I started doing a snoopy dance. Its quite a trip. Especially when you start calculating number ans percentages. Now I always try on pants one size smaller than my current size to see how close I am to my next size goal. After awhile its quite a mind trip. I'm wearing sizes I havent' worn since middle school.
from miame :
I have looked for years for the perfect term for the roll of fat that hangs over one's too tight pants....Thank you....Muffin top is TERRIFIC!!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Oh, that's too bad. I have a feeling I might be that way if I ever had the surgery. I think you have to get the inner stuff under control or no matter what you do....fat. Sucks. And yes, the weekends are so hard for me, too! You are wonderful!
from sassers :
Whoa. That is...unreal. Why did she go through it at all? Band or bypass? I feel like band it can be easier to eat that way. I know if I eat sugar, I get super sick. I can't even imagine a Rice Krispie Treat now, let alone at 2 weeks out.
from forty-plus :
Can you have tons of cut up, raw veggies within arms' length this weekend, instead of the chips? I know if chips are in the house they are way too convenient to just munch down.
from forty-plus :
Your Stubborn Grey entry was the BOMB! What a riot you are!
from chaosdaily :
ive always been told that its watching TOTAL CALORIES that make a diet work. i know that, i just am not all that motivated to do it. i wouldnt have the surgery because it wouldnt help.. i know what i like to eat, and thats why im overweight. i just need to cut out the burgers and fries and stick to chocolate haha
from forty-plus :
Don't let her bring you down!
from thecrankyone :
Sounds like she wants the magic solution, that will let her eat super size McCrap and still look skinny. Too bad she'll never find it. AS a nurse she should be more than aware of the risks of any surgery, especially this one, to say nothing of the side effects. I dont' think she is ready to loose weight. Until she is ready to make major and permanent life changes nothing will work. I've had to totally change my thinking about food, my relationship with it, and my beliefs about myself. It also means looking inside yourself at parts that we sometimes really don't want to look at. I wish her luck, and health.
from chaosdaily :
hopefully no more blank pages..
from emaciana :
sounds like good times!!!
from x-centricity :
And at no extra cost, your piss will SMELL like asparagus!!!! Act now!
from poolagirl :
Sorry about the loss of your aunt - and also very sorry about your mom's behaviour.
from x-centricity :
"NO mother you are not at the bottom of my priority list. You're at the very top of my shit list."
from forty-plus :
I think you are doing wonderfully! Have a great weekend.
from x-centricity :
I'm so proud of you. Have a great weekend!
from rdhdprincess :
Woohoo! Congratulations honey! Enjoy those jeans!
from forty-plus :
Oh My Word. What a horrible accident. Thank goodness you survived. We always wear our seatbelts.
from poolagirl :
OMG! I found you through chaosdaily. That is one of the funniest things I have ever read in my entire life! You rock!
from x-centricity :
I wipeing tears, I'm laughing so hard. I'm sorry.....You are just so freak'n funny. Have a good Friday and congrats on the scale shocker!!!
from miame :
Oh my gosh! You make me laugh so hard! I'm sorry that you've had such a bad start to your day...I hope your day gets better and that you have a fabulous weekend!!
from thecrankyone :
((hugs)) Sound like your mother has some deep psychological issues. Somebody told me about a mother's day card on David Letterman that I thought was pretty hysterical, and sadly more thana little true (in our family), "Happy Mother's day to my Second Favorite parent, from your second favorite child".
from krugerpak007 :
Great news! You are awsome!
from x-centricity :
*grin* Love you.
from x-centricity :
It's so good to see you update. I've missed you! *hugs*
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, thats great! And you sound great. Of course you can handle it. I know you can. Take care. x
from forty-plus :
You helped empower the trainee, there's nothing better a manager can do! Not to mention it's such a kind thing.
from x-centricity :
Love you!
from x-centricity :
You TOTALLY rock. *hugs*
from imabrat2 :
A box of tissue and bad daytime TV beats working any day. I hope you feel better. Have a nice long weekend. I also took tomorrow off for a long weekend and am looking forward to time away from the rat race.
from x-plicity :
Feel better!!!
from x-plicity :
Ugh...my heart aches. *hugs*
from forty-plus :
So sad.
from lerin :
Anyone with a giraffe on her template is okay by me. :) The pw is on the way.
from forty-plus :
I am thinking of your co-worker, her family and her friends.
from x-plicity :
I'm praying really hard. *hugs*
from miame :
Prayers sent. I'm sorry you're having to go through this sad ordeal.
from forty-plus :
Oh my goodness, how incredibly sad. {{{Hugs}}}
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from x-plicity :
Rock on!!! You go with your bad, weight-lifting, self!
from rdhdprincess :
Bwaha! Oh my that was too funny. I know the feeling honey. I'm glad you made it.
from x-plicity :
*giggle* Love you!!
from prolifique :
Oh GOD, I hate those urgent moments! Glad you made it. ^_^
from miame :
HOLY SHIT! I am laughing my ass off! What a great way to start the day! I'm very happy you made it...teehee!
from dieselengine :
this entry made me laugh because I could have written it myself!
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from dieselengine :
What a tragedy regarding your co-worker. It is understandable that it can definitely mess you up and effect you even though she is just a casual acquaintence.
from rdhdprincess :
Oh, no! That is so scary, especially in your case. I'm so glad that you are okay honey! Idiot drivers!
from imabrat2 :
I actually suspected my X was sending me some kind of "message" but as it turns out there have been a few burglaries in the neighborhood recently including another one the same day as mine.
from miame :
That is so scary! I'm happy that everything turned out alright. Stupid people!
from dragprincess :
jeez louise. my heart was pounding when i read that. god, be CAREFUL! like my grandfather used to say, "never forget everyone else on the road is an idiot."
from x-plicity :
I had a dumb f*&# nearly barrel me over this morning too. What is the deal with these people and their faith in their vehicles?!!!
from forty-plus :
Thank goodness they didn't hit you!
from rdhdprincess :
Aw, poor thing! That raw nose/lip thing is awful. Moisturize, moisturize, moisturize dear. Hope you feel better soon!
from cera-jeanne :
Awww...your cats are so cute! How do you get them to sit still for photos? Mine always runs at the camera and I end up with a blur or a VERY close picture of his nose. :) Hope you feel better soon.
from forty-plus :
I hope you feel much, much better really soon!
from forty-plus :
Cute kitties!
from fatfree4me :
Those are great pictures of the kitties. I have a huge, beautiful 14 year old black cat named Shaq...yes, after the basketball player. When my youngest son was 3 years old he found him in a zip-lock baggie with his brothers and sisters, most of them dead. He and his babysitter bottle fed the two surviving kittens whose eyes hadn't even opened yet. Shaq was the only survivor and has been a member of our family ever since.
from prohibited :
Aww, your cats are adorable! Great pictures.
from miame :
What great pictures!! Your babies are super cute!
from dieselengine :
awww, cute kitty pics!
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I wuv the kitties! *swoons*
from fatfree4me :
You haven't updated in a while. I hope all is ok.
from x-plicity :
*grin* Thanks for the note, Luv.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Thank you for always being there to encourage me when I am at my lowest. Your support means the world. Here's hoping we're BOTH on the road to recovery.
from emaciana :
i'm so sorry! i thought i sent the password a long time ago. i'm gonna do that RIGHT NOW.
from mydiet2006 :
Good for you, glad you are feeling better. :)
from krugerpak007 :
That is AMAZING news!
from x-plicity :
YAY!!!
from prolifique :
That is so amazing and wonderful. I'm very, very happy to know that you aren't hurting. *hug*
from thecrankyone :
Admitting your anger at those you have a right to be pissed at is a great first step. So many of us over eaters, tend to use food as a drug to prevent us from feeling things we can't deal with or don't want to admit to. I'm beganning to lean it is okay to be mad, and I can tell people how I feel without the world opening up and all hell breaking loose. I am finally comming to terms with what is hardest for me to deal with, the loss of my father, and the crap that went on when I was a developing child, who went thru puberty long before her mind was ready for it. Journalling is great, even if some of the entries are kept private. Just getting it out and awknowledging it, can be huge. You go
from x-plicity :
Love you.
from dragprincess :
You're a pain in my ass, but I love you so much.
from forty-plus :
The three last messages are right on! {{{hugs}}}
from thecrankyone :
It's a slow and long process, and most of it takes place above the neck between your ears. I look at my life change as ending and abusive relationship to enter into a healthy one of mutual respect. Overeating unhealthy food makes me feel good in the short term, but it makes me miserable in the long term. Instead of focusing on the 100 pounds loss, set smaller goals, such as 2 pounds this week, 8 pounds this month etc.. set a goal of eating 5 vegetables today, or walking a mile or choosing water instead of soda. One or two small changes at a time, until those changes become habits than work at another one. I've made many changes in the last year, but had I tried to do them all at once I would have set myself up for failure and or went insane. One of the best weight loss quotes I have heard is "the best diet, is one you don't know you are on". You didn't gain the weight in one day or even one year. Healthy permanent weightloss takes time, not just to loose but to adjust your mindset. It takes belief in yourself and the love of yourself to know YOU are worth it. YOU can do it. If you ever want to talk, I'm more than happy to listen. I've been there, and know how it feels.
from miame :
This battle is so hard and so personal...and the shame and guilt we all carry with us does not put out our fire, but stokes it making the battle that much more intense and seemingly impossible. Remember, while your battle is solely yours, you are never alone.
from x-plicity :
All I have are *hugs*
from x-plicity :
That is kind of spooky....*twilight zone theme music*
from prohibited :
Brilliant! I thought only I did things like that.
from grt8f84me :
That is hilarious! I thought shit like that only happened to me...LMAO
from fatfree4me :
Oh my...I am lmao. My staff must think I'm crazy because I'm sitting in my office laughing by myself. That was too funny.
from x-plicity :
That's happened to me before! It's awful!
from miame :
LMAO! I love it! Thanks for the laugh....SBD's are little cursed blessings!
from prolifique :
Oh, I hate when I do things like that. Thank God you were quick with the brakes! Glad you're okay.
from thecrankyone :
Good for you, getting back on the wagon. Keep on working at it!! It can be done.
from mydiet2006 :
I was thinking of you earlier. Then you updated. Hahaha. We are all like that over christmas and new year. We have holidays to enjoy ourselves. Now it's over we can all try again. Good luck for 2007. Becca
from x-plicity :
Falling off the wagon happens. It's the getting back on that counts. *hugs* and happy 2007.
from seekingme :
More people need to make fun of that ugly ass! I've actually been surprised and how many people have supported him. It goes to show you how different people can see the same situation!
from sassers :
Man, when I say stinky poops, I mean important activities that take place in the bathroom. Or something.
from miame :
Sorry that I confused you! You were my only reader for quite some time. Hope you had a great Christmas and that 2007 brings you many blessings!
from forty-plus :
Happy New Year!
from prohibited :
Happy Holidays x
from rdhdprincess :
You are beautiful. Happy Holidays!
from fatfree4me :
You are awesome. Happy Holidays!
from x-plicity :
You're amazing!
from x-plicity :
I smell burning!
from rdhdprincess :
I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now honey. Thinking good thoughts for you. Mwah!
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from x-plicity :
You still had to pay $2???? for what?
from forty-plus :
I bet the party was a great success and I hope you had a blast!
from rdhdprincess :
Have fun at the party, I'm sure you will be great! Have a good weekend!
from sassers :
Who rocks the house? Noaddedme rocks the house! And when noaddedme rocks the house, she rocks it all the way down.
from x-plicity :
I wish I could give blood. My hemoglobin count is always too low though. When I'm healthy again, I definitely will give it a try!
from dragprincess :
You are right on the ball. Blood/plasma donation is so important. I can't give blood because of living in England for so long (mad cow disease), but believe me, I would if I could.
from forty-plus :
I know you're not looking for it but a hug and gentle pats on the back for giving so much of yourself.
from rdhdprincess :
Yay! That is progress and what can be better than that? Well, except for a miracle weight loss pill, but we know that will never happen. So, yay! I recently had that very full, miserable feeling and swore that I would never do that to myself again. I'm striving to remember how bad it feels.Mwah!
from miame :
Yay for you! I'm so happy that you're doing so well and not purging!!! That is a tough battle!
from miame :
your tree is beautiful!!
from forty-plus :
Very pretty tree!
from x-plicity :
Pretty Tree!!!!
from dieselengine :
the tree looks great!
from thecrankyone :
I coudln't take welbutrin. the one time I tried it for a about three days, it left me feeling like I was stoned and hyper at the same time. Like I had 3 redbulls, anda 1/5 of Vodka. I backed my car out of the garage and right into somebody (car) in the street. That was the end of that. I was afraid to take anymore for fear I'd be doing flips off the chandelier or something (assuming I were physically capable)
from forty-plus :
I took well.butrin for just a short while. I had really strange nightmares. Whether the lack of real rest caused the daytime anxiety or not, I'm not sure. It was not my friend.
from fatfree4me :
1 degree?...that's just crazy. Where I live, we think we'll freeze to death when the temperature gets below 40...LOL Have a nice relaxing weekend.
from dieselengine :
ha, I read your sandwich recipe and it reminded me of Elvis...are you sure you aren't dating Elvis?!?! Just kidding...and so you know, peanut butter and pickles is one of my favorite sandwiches. It sounds gross but is delicious. So I am not one to pass judgement on lunch faves.
from x-plicity :
That giftcard thing is a brilliant idea! I'm going to have to try that.
from miame :
I'm so happy that God listened! Kitty babies are very important!
from dragprincess :
Mouser came home!!!!
from forty-plus :
I'm so glad Mouser came home!
from sassers :
I am so relieved for you! Our new Mr. Bogie is a stray and I get nervous if he got out, he'd run and run and never come back. Yay for Mr. Mouser's Homecoming.
from x-plicity :
The same thing happened to my Zoe. She was gone for two weeks during the coldest week of the year. It was -30 and I knew she had to be dead. Well, when she did return to us she was SKINNY and had a little frostbite on her little paws but very grateful to be home. I think she was staying in an abandoned shed next to the building I lived in. Cats are pretty hardy.
from fatfree4me :
I'm glad you found Mouser...I love my pets too.
from bitterwineuk :
I also get really bad headaches if I don't eat enough or if like yesterday I don't eat at all until 5pm. Then I can't eat that much as my stomach has shrunken enough for me to be full too easily. Have some healthy small snacks on hand at ALL times. You won't feel guilty and you a little and often is good for the metabolism. :)
from sarahsundae :
Lucky you! I'm proud of you. I binged on Tuesday night and hated myself for it, but the workout I did yesterday was a positive thing.
from seekingme :
See, I knew I was a freak of nature! lol Thanks for the note. I suppose spending more time with Howie will help...
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, that is great. Very motivating. I am so repulsed with myself at the moment.... Well done, keep up the amazing work and take care of yourself. x
from x-plicity :
I'm so proud of you!!! Stay warm. *hugs* X
from fatfree4me :
45 minutes is awesome...kudos to you. When I first got back to it I could only d0 6 minutes but I'm up to 16 now and I hope to double that in the next couple of weeks. I'm loving my new home gym. Keep up the good work!
from x-plicity :
I have a fuzzy sweater that does that. Wait...had a fuzzy sweater. Mike washed it by accident and it fell to pieces.
from forty-plus :
Yay for the two weeks, boo for the nasty cold! Hope you feel better quickly.
from x-plicity :
Feel better! *hugs*
from x-plicity :
I want to watch that movie so bad!!!!
from x-plicity :
She's not ok. She's fantabulous!!!!
from krugerpak007 :
Glad that you sound good and glad that you feel good. x
from miame :
"What’s really sad though is when you can see how rotten they are turning out … and there is nothing you can do." I have uttered these words a thousand times...Sometimes it's nice to know I'm not the only one in this boat.
from sarahsundae :
PS: Coming off Wellbutrin will not be a problem like with Effexor. There is no withdrawl issues. Effexor is the devil. I hate that stuff.
from sarahsundae :
Wait, I'm sorry NO EXERCISE?! What kind of doctor tells someone not to exercise?! WTF is that about? You know, you have done so well and I read about how good you feel AFTER you work out, why would you want to stop?? Sometimes doctors are such assholes.
from thecrankyone :
Have you thought about checking out www.calorie-count.com. I've found it quite helpful for me, as I can talk to others in the same boat and get great feedback, to keep me on track, and prevent me from beating myself up when I have a bad day, which happens to everyone. Hang in there, it is a slow process, that requires making gradual changes you can live with for the rest of your life, while still giving your self permission to enjoy life and good food.
from x-plicity :
What happened to Dr. H? I would totally find another Dr. ASAP. Also, I was on Welbutrin and it helped me a lot. I also got off of it cold turkey with no problems. *hugs* X
from forty-plus :
Good luck with the doctor today. Remember your list!
from krugerpak007 :
Maybe you will grow to like the new work station.. And enjoy the shirt!
from x-plicity :
*grin*
from grt8f84me :
That's supposed to read, "keep my eyes open." Sometimes I think faster than I can type. :P
from grt8f84me :
Exactly...! That's why I'm so confused. I did not have a chance to talk with him about it, since so many people walked into my office. That is just weird, too...the sudden way all these folks walked in. That NEVER happens! But I'm sure he'll just poo-poo it away. And what's bad about that is that I have already convinced myself that it was no big deal. Because I look at it from my own perpective with Hombre. We have our moments when things just seem so, so right. But then the next day, or within a few hours, things go back to shit again. You know what I mean? So taking that...part of me begins to think that maybe that was what happened that night I saw them at the store. I know, I know...I'm my own worst enemy. Thanks for the note...and trying to keep my open. Have a good one, my dear!
from krugerpak007 :
I also love your sense of humor, although I guess it is the most unpleasant thing ever. hang in there and good luck with the doctor. x
from rdhdprincess :
Oh, you poor thing! I apologize that I laughed my way thru that entry. I love your sense of humor.
from x-plicity :
Did you have and excessive amount of carbs during your pinata "episode"? It's amazing how harmful they can be to your gut. *hugs*
from krugerpak007 :
What had me stumped was the other day I was ill at home and had the news on all day. There are so many important things going on in the world but every 3 minutes they had "Britney is getting divorced!) I didnt understand that..:-) Have a good Thursday! x
from x-plicity :
*grin*
from x-plicity :
Oh my God!!! That is so funny!! I too had a write in for my cat. For county clerk anyway. That is so crazy!
from forty-plus :
You nominated your cat! I love it!
from krugerpak007 :
Money stresses. i want to just give up sometimes, but you know I find that it always seems to work out somehow so I hope it will be the same for you.
from jenniam :
I totally hear you as, although I work in politics, I hate it too. BUT -- As a lesbian, if I didn't vote because the candidates were both anti-gay (not only against gay marriage but against fair employment or gay adoption, let's say), I'd never vote. Sometimes it IS the lesser of two evils. But isn't the lesser better than the more evil?
from x-plicity :
amen!
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh, I had no idea how much you have gone through. You are amazing.
from rdhdprincess :
Oh my God that was funny! Stupid drivers can be so frustrating.
from krugerpak007 :
You sound like me this morning, except it was yelling at my landlord, at my doctor and every stranger I saw. It's good to let it all out, and Israeli drivers simply suck here too. Take care! x
from x-plicity :
I hate stupid drivers!!!! Wait...I think I'm one of them. LOL
from x-plicity :
*hugs* It's good to vent. Let it all out.
from krugerpak007 :
Feel good and have a good weekend.
from emaciana :
i'm so sorry that my entry evoked the feelings that it did in you. i am just having a hard time because i wanted a girl so badly. but i am coming round and getting excited again. i will never make my child feel unwanted or unaccepted for something he cannot help being, a boy... but i am sorry for how my entry may have come accross.
from dragprincess :
Tell M that my Jewish lesbian badass self is going to come kick him in the nuts.
from x-plicity :
Some people's kids! *grin*
from pantrypuff :
I'm so sorry you're feeling bad :(
from mydiet2006 :
oooh you updated, more reason to have a good read of my previous note. I'm on your side!!!!!!!
from mydiet2006 :
Don't think like that hun. It isn't easy. It has taken me over 10 years to get this far. It's not about being a failure but not having the self belief and the confidence in yourself to do it. I have never been a "normal" size, I doubt I will but for now, I have the confidence to go for what I want. But it is a vicious circle. As soon as weight does come off people start lecturing about how you are doing it. Don't compare yourself to that man. Society is always telling us scare stories but it doesn't mean that will happen to every one of us who doesn't fit into a certain group. For instance, my mum, she's in her 50's the same size as me, smokes drinks and does everything she shouldn't BUT she is happy and in good health. That's more important than trying to be something you are struggling to achieve. Be happy with you and the rest will follow IF it is the right time for it to happen. I have faith in you and I do believe that you do have it in you, just try to keep a proper diet diary or if that isn't working, allow yourself an eating schedule. Allow things at certain times of the day. I read Kirsty Allie lost over 100lbs by allowing herself 10 meals/snacks a day. Breakfast, 2 healthy snacks mid morning, lunch, 2 healthy snacks mid afternoon, dinner and a treat before bed. That sounds my sort of plan. It's just finding something that will suit you. Becca
from prolifique :
*hugs* Just because I don't write about my purges doesn't mean I don't struggle with them. You're braver than I am, sharing this way. I'm so sorry you're hurting.
from x-plicity :
Keep that food in and just think of it as brunch. Breakfast and lunch are taken care of. Now you need to focus on work and get stuff done. Maybe you'll be hungry by dinner and you can eat sensibly then.
from prohibited :
I can't believe they didn't order what you needed!
from x-plicity :
Those bastards!!!!
from krugerpak007 :
They always say WW is the best.. Good luck and look after yourself. x
from krugerpak007 :
Yay for famous kitties. And thanks so much for your honest, insightful comments, they are appreciated.
from x-plicity :
I don't think ANYONE can survive the Pizza Slut Buffet. You were a brave soul for trying though. *hugs*
from pantrypuff :
Awesome!!!! Congrats on surviving. I think I made it too. Some little ups and downs, but I emerged the same weight as I was on Friday. I think it helped that I was gardening yesterday due to the cooler weather. My weeds are insane.
from pantrypuff :
yay! is that him on the cover??
from emaciana :
aww... so cute! i love kitties. that's so exciting that one of yours will be famous!
from mydiet2006 :
good stuff, lucky kitty whichever one made it.
from x-plicity :
AWWW!!!!
from x-plicity :
Bravo! Bravo!!! Encore! Encore!!!!!
from pantrypuff :
Oh yeah, this is when I choke too. I have been going back and forth between the same 3 pounds for thelast 2 months. I lose then, eat stupid, then gain them back. It's so frustrating because I really have another 30 to go and I'm not getting anywhere.
from dragprincess :
Of course you're angry. I took the heroin with me anyway. But it's flushed now. Honestly.
from mydiet2006 :
well done this far. But you know what my advice would be, have a LITTLE of what you fancy. A little won't hurt as long as it stays a little. Have a small bit of everything but limit it and make it last. Know when to stop. You wont be depriving yourself of anything and getting what you want too. It can be done and if you manage it, you'll feel so good afterwards. Try it.
from x-plicity :
Showers are so good for stress. Especially long ones. *hugs*
from pantrypuff :
What an amazing dream
from x-plicity :
Wow....
from pantrypuff :
Powerful entry
from x-plicity :
I choose to give you a BIG *HUG*!
from forty-plus :
Dragprincess is right, we can support you over the web but you need someone right there. Have you gone to your doctor for any and all imbalance tests and a dietitian and/or nutritionist recommendation? You probably are already keeping a food log but does it include mood when each thing passes your lips? That aspect is/was important to me. First thing you need to do is forgive yourself, then get on with it. {{hugs}}
from dragprincess :
girl, you know that while we sponsor each other, you need someone close to home who will drive over to your house and kick your ass. she's out there somewhere. let's talk soon.
from rdhdprincess :
I can't get my own shit together enough to be of any help to someone else. That 300 number is scarily close to me, too. I love you though and know you will pull thru and succeed! I do, I know this. You will.
from pantrypuff :
I'll help too -- I need the help myself! pantrypuff@yahoo.com
from x-plicity :
I'll be your sponser if you'll be mine.
from pantrypuff :
happy birthday! great shoes!
from x-plicity :
Cute shoes!! I have a pair just like them. They're awesome. *hugs*
from prolifique :
Have a wonderful birthday!
from forty-plus :
Happy 38th birthday! I hope you have a really great day!
from fatfree4me :
Happy Birthday! You think 38 is bad...I'll be 45 in November. (ouch!) You sure have a nice view from your office.
from sassers :
That picture is hot! Happy birthday to you to you to you!
from dragprincess :
How fucking fabulous are you at 38?? Happy birthday, baby girl. I *heart* you.
from x-plicity :
Happy birthday!!!
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y !!!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Great pictures! The noodles are nice, but you look even better. I wonder what's on your mind?
from pantrypuff :
I love the picture! So pretty :))
from x-plicity :
Wow...you look amazing in that picture. There's a lot of humor in your eyes that just makes it like like you have this giant smile on your face. Love it!
from prolifique :
That is a BEAUTIFUL picture! :)
from dragprincess :
Look at that sexy pic and those hot blue eyes!
from drahmaqueen :
Hey thanks. I will get back on track. I jump off from time to time. That's the way it works on this thing. :)
from pantrypuff :
I wouldn't expect jury duty to be that interesting. Most judges are boring as hell on the bench. But extra money is great!
from rdhdprincess :
You do rock! Mwah!
from forty-plus :
Yay! A day at a time!
from rdhdprincess :
Hee. He'd be embarrassed if we knew that. You are so funny, but yes, I understand. Hang in there. You will beat the Effexor!
from x-plicity :
Yay!!! Back on track!!!
from seekingme :
Yowza...what a crappy night and morning! I know how you feel...so embrace your anger! And things for the great note you left despite your horrible mood. It makes your comment even that much more special! Hang in there.
from x-plicity :
What's going on with us? I was stupid this weekend and ate tons of carbs that are really makeing me pay right now. Not to mention I got drunk off my ass and nearly gave myself alcohol poisoning. Just becasue I'm pissy about stuff I don't feel like changing. Let's give eachother one more day to be self distructive but we need to get back on the ball again. Cuz we're just severly hurting ourselves.
from janetplnetoc :
There's definitely some diaryland cold virus going around. As for the smart points, I think that's an excellent idea. Little rewards, pedicures, a new book, trash magazines, a DVD or CD.
from x-plicity :
Hell yes! Let's get this mo-fo on the roll. *hugs*
from seekingme :
We actually talked about doing that, but we both really like her last name. It's not so much what name I change it too, it's just that it's such a hassle to change your name, you know? But thanks for the note and the suggestion. Hope you feel better soon. I just got over a bad cold so I know how you feel.
from x-plicity :
Feel better, Sugar!!
from rdhdprincess :
Crossing everything for you! Good luck! And, I think he likes you...
from x-plicity :
Crossing fingers AND toes!!!
from skibigsky :
Woo-hoo on the bike. If you are looking for lots of good information, moral support, and a very friendly group of bikers, at ALL levels, check out this forum http://forums.teamestrogen.com/index.php They are a great group of people, and will give you the courage to get out and ride!!!
from forty-plus :
I would also tell M and only meet B either in a very public place or in a very public place with a group of people. Feels weird to me he would treat you so badly in front of people and then act like he was into meeting up with you.
from x-plicity :
I would definitely tell M.
from fatfree4me :
I'm sorry for the sad little girl lost forever but it does my heart good to see that with all you've been through you've grown into a strong, beautiful and caring woman.
from forty-plus :
I'm sorry you had those horribly painful experiences.
from dulligirl :
Junior high was even worse for me but high school wasn't any great shakes either. I've yet to go to a high school reunion and in 2009 it will be my 25th year reunion. I think it's almost been long enough for me to be able to go. Time heals some wounds but only you can really do it.
from krugerpak007 :
Mmm, that was a bit too much information :-) but I hope you feel better soon! x
from x-plicity :
I know this sounds weird but, try laying off carbs for the next couple of days. People don't realize that starches and carbs are the usual cause of bowl diseases and other gut issues. I know avoiding those things have saved my life.
from fatfree4me :
Thank you for sending kind thoughts my way. It means s lot to me. Enjoy your well deserved day off.
from rdhdprincess :
Yay! Enjoy your day!
from x-plicity :
yay!!!!!
from x-plicity :
I'm doing a jig!
from forty-plus :
I enjoyed your Happiness entry very much ('specially the ROTC guys ...!).
from x-plicity :
I'm so glad that you're happy right now. I've been so worried about you lately. *hugs*
from dragprincess :
Call me back, you brat. I'm worried about you.
from forty-plus :
Sometimes it takes more than one time asking for assistance, especially if you are the one who usually takes care of others. {{{Hugs}}} to you.
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from rdhdprincess :
Thinking good thoughts for your Dad. I hope all goes well. And how did you find out who was on the new dancing with the stars show? I didn't think they had announced it yet. I must go see!
from joiedv :
My dad has had a pacemaker for a few years. I think it was a piece of cake having it put in. From what I recall. Anyway, it has been a good thing, so I hope all goes well for your dad too.
from pantrypuff :
What an awesome post. Beautiful.
from x-plicity :
Beautiful
from rdhdprincess :
Good luck, I will be watching and thinking good thoughts for you. From what I hear, which could be crap, it is a hard thing to do. Keep writing!
from x-plicity :
It won't be easy coming off but if anyone can do it, you can.
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from pantrypuff :
Meds are weird and hard to gauge sometimes. I'm glad you're going to try something else. Has the doc suggested a new kind of med?
from rdhdprincess :
My vote is for the reach. Never keep reaching. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself. BIg hugs!
from mydiet2006 :
Don't give up. Keep going and one day something will happen that you never expect. When I married 3 years ago I was 5 months pregnant and in a size 28 wedding dress. It's taken a lot of hard work (I wont deny that) but I am slowly and surely learning it can be done but it isn't an easy ride. I get to about the size/weight I am now then get stuck. I can't seem to do any better. I think that when that time does come, I just have to alter my patterns a little. Hence, cutting the carbs this week as a trial. Good luck.
from soccernut :
You know, I have actually only complained ever @ work twice: both over people scents - too much perfume or lack of wearing deodorant. If I were you, I would actually say something directly to this person or would go to her supervisor because this person could be wearing too much perfume w/o realizing how inconsiderate she's being toward others. Good luck!
from x-plicity :
There's someone here that does that too. Not that it smells bad, but WOW does she spray that shit around! It's like being gassed.
from x-plicity :
I hate mechanics...my ex-husband was a mechanic.
from pantrypuff :
Great post -- I really relate and am going to Spark People right now!
from joiedv :
I just joined sparkpeople myself. Love it. Good luck.
from rdhdprincess :
Wow. I really could have written that entry. I understand. I'm also doing the Spark People thing right now, too, and really like it. I haven't read that article yet though, I shall do that next. HAng in there honey and have a good weekend!
from rdhdprincess :
Wait, picture? I missed the picture. I've been working too hard. Must go find it now. I'm with you dear, my problem is my brain, too. The tummy is just an unfortunate symptom.
from pantrypuff :
I hear ya on the brain thing. Last night, after seeing a movie, I went to Krisy Kreme and ate a bunch of donuts. Then i tried to neutralize by doing aerobics at 11 p.m. I am a moron.
from mehiel :
Sorry about that! The new username is "mata." The password is "hari."
from emaciana :
it's all fixed now!!! i had some internet problems this morning when i was trying to change my template so i was left with no working template. take care!
from sassers :
I think you look great! It is so hard to keep motivated, and that alone in the last year has been a great change.
from mimijml :
I think the difference would be incredibly obvious if you'd been showing more skin in last year's picture. Look at the difference in your arms between this year and last year!
from x-plicity :
Bull shit. This last year made a big difference. Maybe becasue you are looking at yourself you're not able to tell, but coming from someone who's never seen you in person I can totally see the change.
from x-plicity :
Wow...you're doing terrific. Don't let the "mehs" get you down. *hugs* x
from forty-plus :
Keep up the good work. How nice others are noticing your efforts and the strength you're gaining!
from soccernut :
You have such a good support system. Even from unlikely and surprising sources. I know it's easier said than done, but hang in there: at a minimum, you have great energy and are becoming healthier and healthier, each time you make that important decision to go to the gym and work on improving YOU.
from pantrypuff :
Man I totally know what you mean about wanting a timeframe for weight and size. I've been hovering around the same weight for like a month. Then this week I lost 2 pounsd and I have no idea why. I don't exercise and that's part of the problem. If I exercised, I'd be a whole lot healthier, a lot faster. The kind of pep talk those guys gave you are so valuable... Can you send them to my house?
from dulligirl :
I think it's great that you went to the gym despite how you were feeling. You are strong. You are invincible!
from x-plicity :
*wicked grin*
from jenniam :
i love the layout!
from dieselengine :
yay for your calves! I had a really tough workout on Sunday and I am STILL recovering from it. Argh.
from mydiet2006 :
well done. I really should leave more notes. There's nothing better than noticing things that fitted a little tight are now too big. Hooray for you. :) Becca
from forty-plus :
Wow. I feel so sorry for Jan's kids. Thank goodness they have you and M.
from dragprincess :
And I'm guessing that was how you spent Monday? Figuring out what to do with the boys because their mother is so self-absorbed?
from x-plicity :
I heard somewhere that when people start to get into shape they start to gain water weight because the body thinks that it's going into some kind of drought. This is supposed to go on for up to 6 months before the body figures out that it's not starving or overworking. That made me feel tons better when I gained 5 pounds after I started walking.
from dieselengine :
still haven't gotten it cut yet...I am such a procrastinator!
from pantrypuff :
You go! It's been on OK day except for the donut. And even the donut wasn't that bad. i looked it up and it was 7 points. Not GOOD, but not diet busting either if I'm careful for the rest of the day. If you need support, I'm here!!
from x-plicity :
What's the deal? I've been going in the same direction lately. I put one little bad thing in my mouth and everything goes down hill. I broke down and had a potato and strawberry shortcake. My poor body is in so much pain but I still plan on eating pizza for lunch. I'm going to kill myself and I can't control it. Sorry, Hon. I didn't mean to vent on your notes. Love you!!!!!!
from x-plicity :
Your dad is just the sweetest. Obviously he's the one you get all of your good qualities from. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Poor Kitty!!!
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from prolifique :
I'm just getting back to Diaryland after a long visit with family, so forgive me if there's anything of huge importance that I'm missing...but I did read today's entry and wanted to chime in that there's a Chris in my past about whom I feel much the same way, haha!
from mydiet2006 :
Just went back an entry as I missed yesterday one and I am sorry to hear about your niece too. Miscarriages run in my family and 2 of my mums cousins have had 6 miscarriages between them. Though, they did go on to have 3 healthy daughters and the one who had the most recent miscarriage has her first baby due at xmas so it's looking VERY good now. But it's a difficult time to get through for everyone. Onto your other point... If we lived on the same side of the world, I would be the one to suggest you go to a gym with me. I would love to do it but don't have the confidence to do it alone so I just buy an exercise cycle and make the most of that and some push ups. Oh well.... Good to see you updating again. Becca
from pantrypuff :
I'm so sorry about your neice. I completely relate to that. And the weight stuff. Not that you know me so well, but you can always email me if you want to talk...pantrypuff@yahoo.com
from joiedv :
AT least you can let it out here. That is something. So sorry about your niece.
from x-plicity :
You're not fucked up!!! You're just going through so many changes and there are so many brain transitions that you are dealing with. *hugs*
from seekingme :
Thanks for the note. It does seem hard to believe I will forget how long it's been.
from soccernut :
K~ I don't work for the state and I didn't get a 6% raise! I am sure you are a phenomenal trainer - you have an awesome personality and you are giving and you have empathy.... This trainee is lucky to have you as a mentor!
from soccernut :
K ~ you did really well this time, but you are recovering, so don't be too hard on urself if you are not as strong. Baby-step ur way out to breaking away from the shackles, my friend. B~
from seekingme :
Thanks! We think she's the cutest dog in the world.
from x-plicity :
You did really good. I'm so proud of you. Love you.
from fuzzmom :
That is one of the coolest things I've ever read. Congratulations on both your newfound jewelry-freedom, and your guardian angel!
from mydiet2006 :
Glad to hear your brother is ok. You must be so relieved. Becca
from fuzzmom :
You are so awesome, and such an inspiration.
from joiedv :
WOW you have been through A LOT. I am awed by all you have accomplished...it sounded good enought, but after your laundry list of injuries and surgeries, well, I am surprised your mom is hugging you to death every single second.
from dragprincess :
As always, buddy, I love you and love you being so honest with me.
from x-plicity :
I'm proud of you, hon. *hugs*
from emaciana :
thanks for your compliment. you are too sweet to me.
from x-plicity :
You DO need to be "out there". *hugs*
from sarahsundae :
It helps supports their back. That is why they wear that silly belt. Isn’t man land fun?
from x-plicity :
Impressive! I would run with my tail between my legs if I came across that thing! By the way, you were in my dream last night. I was trying out a gym and you were there working out with someone. You looked like some teen hottie on one of those evening shows like One Tree Hill or something like that. Anyway, YOU were giving instructions. I truely believe that your calling may be to be a trainer. Something to think about, no?
from mydiet2006 :
BIG HUGS. We ALL deserve a day off from time to time. Learn to enjoy it. Good luck my lovely. :) Becca
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from x-plicity :
You ARE fierce!!! *hugs* X
from dragprincess :
Call me if you want to talk -- I'm around tonight and tomorrow.
from x-plicity :
*grin* I'm so glad that the Wonder was so...wonderful. This is going to be so good for you. *hugs* X
from mydiet2006 :
I'm 23rd Sept and I'll be 26 this year but going out to party in style for the first time in years. So we're both librans and enjoy "the good things in life" Good Wine, Good Chocolate. Yummy. Then we wonder why we are overweight. Hahaha.:) Becca.
from mydiet2006 :
Lovely entry my dear. I admire you for your shrinkage and I never realised how big you were at first. Well done to you. When in Sept is your birthday? I'm a September baby too. Becca :)
from mydiet2006 :
WW don't miss you, they miss the money they take from you and if you don't go at all then you keep getting "come back" letters 3 years on. :) Hahahahaha. Becca
from mydiet2006 :
I so agree with you on Paul McC and Pegleg. For Gods sake they were famous before they got together, they didn't just get recognised because they got married, they should be able to deal with it. Still, the minds of famous people who marry people young enough to be thier daughters, need their heads tested. :) Becca
from rdhdprincess :
Amen! And heh, "Pulls an Anna Nicole..." Ha!
from fatfree4me :
Thanks for the recent notes...I just love getting notes!
from x-plicity :
Go princess, go princess, it's your birhtday...
from soccernut :
Yeah princess! xo Bella
from rdhdprincess :
Yay for princess you! I can't believe stupid sock guy didn't notice the tiara. Too funny! Um, stay away from him. He scares me.
from rdhdprincess :
Oh how funny! No, you should never go there in the mornings, no matter what. I loved your list though. Very funny! Wear the tiara with love. You really just can't look mean while you are wearing a tiara, after all.
from x-plicity :
*singing* "He had it coming, He had it coming, He only had himself to blame, If you'd have been there, If you'd have seen it, I betcha you would have done the same!"
from rdhdprincess :
Oh my goodness. Never again will I accuse you of making things up! How funny. I wonder what's up with the no noise blocking headphones. Odd.
from x-plicity :
Wow...He sounds hot. That description just made me instantly horny!!!! *grin*
from mydiet2006 :
My mum runs the lottery thing at her work too and is always complaining about it for the same reason. people are quick to grab the winnings that occur once in a blue moon but are so slow at coughing up the cash. Hope your day gets better. Becca. p.s thanks for adding my other diary to your buddy list too :)
from dryheat :
Good morning sweetie! The user/password for this diary is secret/garden. Enjoy!
from soccernut :
Many hugs and much love going ur way from me!! xo Bella (from Singapore)
from wildrosie :
Oh, and also remind yourself that there is nothing worse than a reformed smoker, or former heavy person. Now that the plank has shifted in our eyes, we want to remove the splinter from other's! And to throw in another old saying (refomed), "You can lead a fat person away from the buffet, but you can't stop them from going back!" Hugs ~Rosie~
from wildrosie :
OK, just a thought...number one, about the weights. Now, I am not a body builder, but I do remember long ago when I first went to the gym, how I was able to lift heavier weights than most anyone else. But it wasn't necessarily a good thing. I was building muscle mass, not just toning up. And as boring and non-challenging as toning up may seem, it may be what you need to actually lose weight. Unless of course, you want to be a body-builder. Second thing, for those who have given up on themselves. Yes, it is harder to move with all of the weight on you. I used to hand skinny friends two ten pound sacks of potatoes or flour, and then tell them that I was carrying ten of those. I told them that I would be happy to load them up and then walk with them, and we'd see who got further. And they would shut up. But the reality was that I was killing myself with all of the extra weight. So I would tell your friends at work that yes, it is hard, but they CAN do it, if they want to. There are exercises they can do in a pool, or even at their desks. And when they try to fool themselves that they really don't eat THAT much, show them this: http://www.caloriecontrol.org/calcalcs.html While there is room for error, and some of us just have slow metabolisms, the reality is that eating just 3500 calories a week over what is needed will add weight, and eating 500 calories less a day will let you lose 1 pound a week. Oh, and feel free to show them my "before" and "during" pics. But in the end, they will only change when they want to.
from x-plicity :
Mmmm...almonds.... I'm one of the luckiest people, becasue I can't have bread or any kind of wheat I get to eat backed goods made from Almond flour. Which is basically grounded up almonds. Num!
from emaciana :
wow 50lb tricep press. is that with one arm or two? that is awesome. is it with a machine or freeweights? most clients i train are only around 10-12 (females). also, thanks for the info on the scar removal stuff. i will try it later on. thanks!
from wildrosie :
Take your measurements darlin'. I can say from experience that you will be glad that you did. Somewhere around here I have mine from when I was 70 pounds heavier, and it is much more satisfying KNOWING you have lost weight than saying, "Hey, I THINK I've lost weight on my hips." So do it. Do it right now. Stop reading this lame note of mine, find your measuring tape, and JUST DO IT!
from rdhdprincess :
Bella told me this morning that she would be so happy if you would take your measurements. Should I tell her that you will??
from x-plicity :
I'll help keep your secret. You have NO idea how much strength you give me on a daily basis. I love reading your diary every day because it give me a boost in my own life. Your words sometimes are the only things that keep me on this fucking diet that I'm on, and I love you for that. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
I want to poop roses and sunshine!!!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Sending thoughts and prayers to both of you.
from x-plicity :
Sending prayers, Hon. *hugs* X
from mydiet2006 :
well done for such a good weekend!!!!!!!!
from seekingme :
Thanks for the advice, but what are isometric exercises? lol
from rdhdprincess :
Good for you honey! I quit when I realized that the meetings were making me feel like shit, too. They sure say it's not all about the numbers, it's the non-scale victories, too, but they sure do everything by weight. You sound so motivated and happy. You will rock!
from x-plicity :
Quitting WW is the best thing you could do. Kudos!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Yay! They couldn't have given the responsibility to a more capable person. Good for you!
from x-plicity :
I once was at a MK party and I ended up selling everyone on Dove products. LOL "Feel my skin! Isn't it soft? The bottle of moisturizer is only $5 at wally world." What can I say? I'm a Dove girl. *grin*
from x-plicity :
Thank you for sharing the photos! They were beautiful. *hugs* X
from mydiet2006 :
Hope your shoulder is feeling better very very soon. I had that complaint a couple of years ago so I know just how painful it can be. Becca
from x-plicity :
I hope your shoulder blade gets to feeling better. Try putting some ice on it. That always helps me when I have major owies. *hugs* X
from seekingme :
Thanks for the note. I'm glad you liked it! I needed a change.
from soccernut :
Hey girly ~ I'm leaving for Singapore this Sunday. I'll start writing again from Asia. Love and cheers!!! B~
from kayrayne29 :
Hi! I have moved! Please follow me to: http://kayrayne.diaryland.com Happy reading!
from wildrosie :
But...but...but...I'm SUCH a good nagger! I mean, just ask my kids! Or Zeb! Or Kaj! Or anyone! *Sigh* OK, I won't nag, I will gently encourage you, OK? Hugs ~Rosie~
from pissymystic :
You should be proud...I'm proud OF you!
from wildrosie :
Oh Lord, give me patience...and I want it RIGHT NOW!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Wait, did I write that entry? I think I did. Much love, c
from dragprincess :
Accessorize or die, I always say......
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I love, love, love thrift stores!
from grt8f84me :
I am so happy that you are happy, and making the wonderful progress you are making! I just stopped in to wish you a Happy Easter...keep up the outstanding work....
from wildrosie :
I love the new comment by your doctor! How very true. And hooray for you, finding someone as positive and encouraging as Wonder. Now, I don't know where you got your pretties, but I go to Freder1cks, since their stuff fits my huge assets. My daughter likes what she gets at L@ne Bryant. I hate the stuff at Victori@'s, and the lacy stuff anywhere else just doesn't feel right. Yes, I know that brassieres at Fred's are 28 bucks a pop. But they do last, and last, and last. And if you catch them on sale, so much the better. I used to only wear Pl@ytex 18 hour gawdawful bras, for years and years. I NEVER wear them now, I always wear pretties. You can too! Lacy Hugs ~Rosie~
from seekingme :
Thanks for the note, yeah I guess you do find out who your true friends are in a crisis!
from dragprincess :
Dude, that was like a totally intense 4th Step. Holy moley, did I love reading that from you. You established you as you and that is FIERCE.
from hooterville :
In addition to being a warrior, you're a bad-ass, tough-as-nails bitch whom I'm adding to my faves list. Give 'em hell, sister.
from rdhdprincess :
You ARE a warrior! Good for you. Great letter!
from wildrosie :
My very wise Aunt Jenny once told me that if someone was being toxic in my life, I should release them with love. Don't be angry, recognize that under the bad behaviors there is a person, but that person is too toxic to have in your life. There will never be any pleasing her, she will never magically say the things you need to hear. And that is sad for her, because she is a bitter hateful woman. But you have a choice, and you have started taking control of her bad influence. Surround yourself with those who love you and believe in you, and let the sad, bitter, hateful woman be with herself. Don't harbor bad feelings, they will only turn back on you, and eat at you. Open the window of your heart, let the bad feelings fly out, and don't let her come back in to bring fresh hurt with her. Treat her as a person that you happened to grow up with, but whom you don't really need to see again. Love and Hugs ~Rosie~ P.S. And after reading your entry, yes, you ARE a warrior!
from x-plicity :
YES!!!
from x-plicity :
*HUGS* No advice or anything like that. Just lots and lots of *HUGS*
from purplebanana :
My therapist self would tell you that no matter how much of an intellectual understanding you have of 'the source' of a problem, that's nothing compared to exploring your emotions. Thinking isn't enough to produce change on really deep levels. That being said, my client self is like, 'Jesus on a raft made from twigs and poop. This is so hard.'
from wildrosie :
Well doesn't that suck all! I was hoping that the weight would be like 25 pounds! But here is a thought. Did you know that a gallon of water weighs 8.33 pounds? Yep, it does. So if you drink lots of water during the day, (and you should!) the scales will be up at night. I forget how many liters of water we exhale per hour, but between peeing and breathing at night, that is where we lose most of our weight for that nice morning weigh in. Just a thought! ~Rosie~
from x-plicity :
You're wonderful! *hugs* X
from rdhdprincess :
Good luck on the scale, I can't wait to see if they let you weigh the weight. That is a great idea, though, smart girl! I never knew how they ahem, "calibrated." That's funny.
from emaciana :
thank you for your kind words
from wildrosie :
What is it about moms? As mine gets older, she gets more negative, bitter and bitchy. Anything I ever wanted to do, she discouraged me, telling me that I shouldn't bother, since I wouldn't succeed anyway. I can't remember even one thing that she encouraged me to do. But now I have put my mom in a little cubicle on a shelf, and I only take her out when I feel like it. Meanwhile, I have surrounded myself with people who believe in me, and let me believe in myself. And that's what you have been doing. Good for you, and good for the super-annuated auntie sisters-in-law. Screw your mom, she isn't going to change, and you can't let her get you down baby. Hugs ~Rosie~
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from wildrosie :
Darlin', I am happy about your arm, but even happier with your epiphany! Now, as for the odds... even though I am not yet at the weight I would like to eventually be, I have taken off weight and KEPT IT OFF! It will be two years now since I took off the original weight. Except for a gain when I stopped smoking, (which I have now almost taken off again) I have been able to make life changes that made it possible to keep it off. You can too sweetie! Screw the stats, believe in you! ~Rosie~
from grt8f84me :
Kudos, Chickie!!! So happy for you...Have a great weekend!
from x-plicity :
Right on!!!!
from cera-jeanne :
Hello - That was a really good point they told you at Weight Watchers. I used to weigh a lot less but now that I have been going to the gym for a couple years and gained muscle mass I actually weigh more but am smaller...Keep at it and you'll see & feel the results! Take care. :)
from x-plicity :
It sucks that we live a state away. Maybe I should just get my sorry ass in the car and drive down to see you! *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Thank you so much for your wonderful note. It means so much to me. *hugs* X
from sarahsundae :
WTG!!
from mydiet2006 :
well done on your weight loss. I am stuck around the 260lb mark myself no matter what I do to try to shift it. I have always followed WW but fear it is no longer working for me but the thought of another diet feels restrictive after the WW plan. I'm getting so frustrated. Keep up the good work.
from soccernut :
I am really sorry about you not hearing about the family party from your mom and sorry that your mom doesn't seem to meet your expectations of what a "mom" should be to you. It is so hard to accept that people are what they are, no matter how close to us they are or how close to us the "should" be. It is so hard to realize that at the end of the day, you can count on YOURSELF and yourself only, and that - if you believe this - unconditional love only comes from God. You do have yourself and many, many people around you, people with faults who don't always meet what you want from them, but that in their own way, do love you. To me the hardest is to accept that "I" may not meet my loved ones expectations, when the rational part of me is telling my heart that if the contrary is true, I can either lie to myself and pretend or accepct that we ALL are indeed flawed and fall short of other's expectations. It is what it is. I hope ur OK. Love. Bella
from grt8f84me :
OMG...that is wonderful about your arm, and about your weight! And just think, this is only the beginning, Sister! You inspire me...
from toastcrumbs :
Yes, you are a dork! But a muscular one who makes scary poo faces, so that can't be all bad. Have an awesome weekend.
from cera-jeanne :
Congrats on your progress! And I'm glad you're feeling better about everything. :)
from mehiel :
You're right. I wish more people would have that attitude. I wish that -I- could have that attitude, more often.
from rdhdprincess :
I think 42 minutes is fabulous. Good for you! It's funny when you realize those changes, like your lunch box, isn't it. They make me smile!
from x-plicity :
*hugs*!!!!
from emaciana :
thanks for your note, thanks for letting me know that you're out there and reading and caring. that little fact really makes me feel better. you're a sweetheart.
from x-plicity :
Glad to see you thinking a little more positively. *hugs* X
from sarahsundae :
I moved into my own place in September. I didn’t exactly announce it to the world. I just kind of DID it.
from x-plicity :
LOTS and LOTS of *hugs* X
from wildrosie :
Ya know, I could give you some of those duck-billed platitudes you are hating right now, but I won't. Seeing the Doc is a good idea though, since you shouldn't be getting so bloated. Oh, and I still can't lose the rest of the 10 pounds I put on a couple of months ago. Maybe it's just because our bodies think we are going into the spring, when food was scarcer in the old days. OK, it's lame, but at least it's a thought! Love and hugs darlin'~Rosie~
from x-plicity :
It's good that you are going to the doctor about the bloating. It may have to do with the meds you're on. I know it's hard to keep a positive mind right now. I wish i could do something for you. *hugs* X
from pissymystic :
I can understand your frustration. I'm very sorry this is happening to you.
from mehiel :
I'm very glad that people like you are donating platelets. My mother is a cancer survivor. Also, reading your entry on how you gained four pounds, I have this to say: it's very common to gain weight shortly after beginning a new diet and exercise plan. Most people do it. I don't know that much about you, but it was a common complaint at the supplements/bodybuilding store where I worked. Keep up with the diet, and the exercise, and eventually your numbers will even out. It's normal to have a setback at the beginning, so don't be discouraged, just continue on! (Oh, and if you're curious, my username and password are: reader.)
from grt8f84me :
I think that it's wonderful what you did. I, too, am a platelet donor, and was able to do a double on Friday. If your mother doesn't see what a wonderful person you are, that is her loss, and it's sad that someone lives to make others feel bad. You did a wonderful thing, and all of us here in D'Land know this!
from mydiet2006 :
hahaha, you always make me smile. If you do find a saint of lotteries, please let me know, I could sure use some help there. :)
from soccernut :
Good idea to keep a food journal. I find myself MUCH hungrier when I exercise and I DO eat more w/o realizing it... A journal can serve as a diet/food consumption "reality check" -- you'll know after a couple of days where/if you can improve on something. Also remember that exercising is much more than a weight loss tool. It's mental and overall physical HEALTH, so don't give up on it. No matter what.
from rdhdprincess :
Well, you're not alone. I gained 4 pounds this week, too. But I enjoyed every last bite of it. Hang in there! There must be a reason it is so hard. There must be some fabulous reward waiting when we finally figure it out. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself! Kisses!
from x-plicity :
You have no idea how much you encourage me. Even on your off days. I have moments when I get so angry with this body I have and I eat things that I know can seriously hurt me. Then I read about your struggle and I know that I can do this. I can get well and I can be good to myself. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
You've already tossed the first ball. Now catch it and throw the other one. You can do this, hon. *hugs* X
from wildrosie :
Sweetie, every day is a new day. At least you are trying! Oh, and give in. Go ahead and smack the little shit! *Sigh* OK, I know you can't but at least go into a quiet place, take a beach ball with his picture plastered on it with you, and smack the shit out of the beach ball! You'll feel better afterward, really! Hugs ~Rosie~
from mydiet2006 :
Don't give up. I had a bad week last week and didn't bother weighing myself at the end of it. I just worked damn hard this week to make up for it. It may not even be as bad as you think. You have a good end of week. Becca. P.S. Are you the Karen who left me a note about my design but didn't leave a link to their own diary? Just wanting to know who my readers are (and who I am reading too!!!) :)
from rdhdprincess :
One day at a time is all you have to do dear. Hang in there! You are so loved.
from x-plicity :
You can do this, hon. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to. *hugs* X
from candoor :
just a random note to say much good luck with your changes - I love your sense of humor :)
from princesse69 :
LOL! That entry cracked me up!!
from wildrosie :
My sides still hurt from laughing. Now, just please tell me that you didn't call everybody in the office in to look! *LMFAO* Oh, and think of it this way, the next weigh in should be even better!~Rosie~
from sarahsundae :
How did you figure out that scale and weight thing?
from x-plicity :
There are tears in my eyes from laughing so hard!!!! *grin* Congratson the baby boy!!!
from mydiet2006 :
well done at WW and glad you had a great day all round. Hurrah!!!!
from x-plicity :
Happy V-day! *heart* X
from dieselengine :
Pretty flowers!!
from x-plicity :
AWWWW!!!!
from soccernut :
Hey you!! Part of recovery is taking a look inside and asking yourself what is yours, what belongs to "you", your essence, what YOU believe in and what is others' beliefs, others' projection of what THEY really wanted for their lives - upon you. You are an adult now and you can make your own decisions. Nobody can "make" you believe in what they are saying. Not anymore. You know better. You knpw who you are. You KNOW how beautiful you are, and how much value you have. You can choose to ignore those voices that are not yours... They never were, really. You've simply embraced them to a point that you can't separate what is yours and what isn't. I can assure you, those negative voices are not yours. Go ahead and reject them bc, YOU CAN. Much love and count on me for emotional support anytime, OK? :) "We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
from x-plicity :
*hugs* and have a wonderful weekend!
from soccernut :
CONGRATULATIONS!!! ~ Every new day, a new victory!! :)
from mydiet2006 :
nothing like a good bit of flattery to give you a boost as well as an increasing ego every now and then. Well done. :)
from soccernut :
I would KILL to go to a meeting w/ u. You are way too much fun, missy!!!
from x-plicity :
We love you!!!
from soccernut :
That's great. Sometimes we have to admit that we need help, and seek it. Much love, peace and strength. :)
from wildrosie :
Excellent! And yes, I have faith that you will be the one helping others soon. Hugs ~Rosie~
from dragprincess :
That's my girl.
from cera-jeanne :
Good luck.
from soccernut :
I just sent Abby a message that I think also applies to you and today's entry: You are learning so much from your life and what you experience, and you will continue to. Remember that the concept of "success" is personal, it is "you" making progress toward whatever "you" think is important. Don't let those voices that are telling you "no" or that "you are not good/pretty enough" be louder than the voice that says that you can accomplish ANYTHING you set your mind to. Don't lose sight of what you've accomplished so far. Never lose sight of who you are. "Exhaust the little moment. Soon it dies. And be gash or gold, it will not come again in this identical guise."
from x-plicity :
I understand why b/p-ing is so alluring. If it really could be called alluring...I don't know. I can understand why people do it. It's the chance to do something and then to take it back. It's definitely not good for a person but when your belly is so full of shitand you feel disgusted and unhappy with yourself, sometimes it just feels right to take it back. *hugs* X
from wildrosie :
OK sweetie, you don't really know me from Adam, so I guess that makes me safe. So if you feel like you need to talk to someone, I'm there for you. My number is (five two oh-five five nine- five six eight five) so next time you reach for the chips or McEvils, call me. Now, you know you are loved, worthy, and cared for. Don't let the doubts get you down. Hugs ~Rosie~
from grt8f84me :
Oh, sweetie...I wish I had some words to say that could help, some solution to the pain you are obviously going through. If for some reason venting to someone you really don't know may help you feel better, please feel free to e-mail me at sag63@hotmail.com Stay strong, sweetie!
from soccernut :
People are so caught up in their own little world that they see nothing around them. I've come to accept this as a part of life. I change my hair color on a bi-monthly basis and noone notices... I lose/gain weight and noone notices (but my mother,of course)... I am happy/sad/moody and noone notices (unless the emotion affects them)... It's sad. I guess I don't care anymore either that someone notices my changes, so long as "I" am happy with them. Now, you go ahead and have a GRRRREAT day, girly!! B~
from x-plicity :
OOOHH!!! Have fun with your new look! *hugs* X
from rdhdprincess :
Have fun! A great new hair color is a fabulous thing!
from cera-jeanne :
I like your giraffe! :)
from x-plicity :
Have fun with your You time! You deserve it!!!
from dragprincess :
I don't get to say it often these days, but I love you, kiddo.
from x-plicity :
Just remember to repeat to yourself, "Muscle mass is heavier then fat." *hugs* X
from mydiet2006 :
awww, hun. Sorry to hear you so down. I get the same too from time to time and I am not at my happiest at the moment either but here's a hug and I for one would notice you are gone. Take care my sweet. Becca
from wildrosie :
Yep darlin', even Tiggers get the blues. For some reason, I feel the same way today. But tomorrow, we will feel better. BTW, did you see my before and after pics? They are in the "For Better or for Worse" entry. I was 245 pounds at Stonehenge, and 170 pounds in the other pic. (I'm 5 feet, 1/2 inch...don't forget that half-inch!)Still have some to go, but I'm fairly content now. And yes, I do understand about the belly thing. It happens to me too, overnight. Hugs ~Rosie~
from grt8f84me :
Oh, sweety...I hope you feel better. Sending you *hugs* and *smiles*
from x-plicity :
What's going on, Hon? Everything ok? I'm worried!! *hugs* X
from dieselengine :
Sometimes I WISH I could just disappear.
from mydiet2006 :
Just thought I would say hi. I have added you to my faves. So hi.
from redsilk3825 :
Thanks for ur note. I know that sending anything to my mother would be a mistake. She is a very self centered individual. Anything can be turned into the "oh whoa is me" syndrome for her. I keep hoping that one day - she will take responsibility, but I think the odds of hell freezing over are much better. At least I'd put my money on hell to win
from x-plicity :
Refunds are good.
from emaciana :
thank you for your honest and frank note. it kind of shocked some reality into me that yes, he really is with ME and i should realize that rather than obsessing. sometimes it takes someone to just be direct like that to make you see things for what they really are. thank you for doing that. *PD is so Cute!!!!
from dieselengine :
Oh, I hope the little guy's surgery goes ok! I'm sure it will.
from x-plicity :
Happy Friday!!!!! Love you!!!
from seekingme :
Thanks for the note and the validation. And I personally applaud you for just trying to get in better shape! Hang in there!
from mimijml :
I hope the "stop that!" and "don't listen to the idiots" was at least marginally useful. ;) I'm back in WI, so it's sunny here, too. Funny how that helps.
from x-plicity :
Innocent my ASS!!! Wow...Felonygirl will always be Felonygirl in my eyes. LOL *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Biceps are so rewarding!!!! *hugs*
from wildrosie :
X-plicity is right, and that is what I was trying to say in my earlier note. I'll say it more firmly here. Screw the scales for a month. Go on your measurements, how your clothes feel. You are doing wonderful things with your exercise program, and honestly, if I were you, I'd avoid a weigh-in for a bit. As for the "slip", don't fret about it. Now your body knows you aren't starving to death, and that there is plenty of food for you, so it doesn't have to be in the "It's winter, food may be short, slow the metabolism down and hang onto every calorie lest we starve to death" mode. Hmmm, I will be doing a full entry about this subject today I think, complete with before and after pics. Check it out. Hugs, ~Rosie~
from x-plicity :
The scale isn't always right. You know that. Especially if you are starting to build muscle. Pay closer attention to how YOU feel and how your clothes feel on you. *hugs* X
from mimijml :
Yup, still following your journey and borrowing your wisdom . . . It hurts to hear you punish yourself like that for something you can't control (we can't "make" our bodies do anything, right? -- we do our best and hang on for the ride!). Is there anything you can do to short-circuit your reaction to the post-meeting blues? Leave your money at home? Meet up with someone afterward? Go to the gym? (You know what I mean -- make it harder to abuse yourself . . . ) Yeah, sometimes the leaders don't help much because they don't know enough about us to say anything that doesn't sound judgmental and trite. I have similar reactions when someone tries to "read my mind" or diagnose my problem without asking questions or listening. You rock, sweetie . . . take care of yourself.
from dieselengine :
we all have our ups and downs, don't beat yourself up over it...tomorrow is a new day.
from dragprincess :
You know I love you and you know that it *is* okay. Because it's always okay. The number on the scale is in no way a reflection of *YOU*. Let it be for today. No punishment.
from wildrosie :
Wonderful! Just remember though, and I am sure you will, that muscle weighs more than fat! So even if the scale doesn't reflect the changes, your clothes will. ~Rosie~
from wifemotherme :
Thank you so much for that note. I really needed that. Wow it was nice reading and catching up with you! My the changes!! Your inspiring me to go figure out rather I have a muscle under the fat on my thigh or not. I am pretty sure I dont but I guess I could start makeing sure.... just to be on the safe side
from dieselengine :
Congrats on the lunges and losing more weight! My friend is in the same boat as you...she keeps losing weight so quickly she can't buy clothes that fit longer than one or two wears. Solution: thrift store!
from rdhdprincess :
I'm thrilled for you dear! But, um...muscles at the top of your thigh? I poked and prodded but I'm pretty sure that I don't have any at all. That must be the problem. Like Ab muscles, I'm pretty sure I don't have those either! Ha!
from soccernut :
It's amazing what people do, say or who they blame when they are not ready to lose weight. It's amazing what people do when they don't want to take responsibility for themselves. I hope your brother is not discouraged and keeps his loss up.
from x-plicity :
Love you!!!
from x-plicity :
Hey! I'm in that club!!!!
from soccernut :
Happy 2006!!! Love, B~
from redsilk3825 :
Now that IS karmic justice. Personally, I would permanently keep my big white butt rather than risk my morals :)
from x-plicity :
You go girl! LOL
from fatfree4me :
Happy New Year! Enjoy your time off.
from soccernut :
Happy 2006!!!! Going home for the holidays. Will check in on ya next year! Eggs...... :)
from x-plicity :
Merry Christmas!!! I just threw a bunch of eggs yesterday, but today I'm going to save the ones I have left. *hugs* X
from wildrosie :
Hi sweetie, found you through Pissymystic, hope you don't mind my adding you. I applaud your efforts, and even more, your insights. Have a great holiday darlin! ~Rosie~
from rdhdprincess :
Brilliant! Merry Christmas dear!
from dragprincess :
really? i thought you'd make me "flatliner@"
from x-plicity :
Let it out, hon. Let it out.
from x-plicity :
*HUGS* Have a great weekend!
from emaciana :
oh... what i would give to be snowed in!!! how romantic and cozy.
from x-plicity :
Be safe! *hugs* X
from dragprincess :
And you know nothing we can do now but pray and pray and pray and be there for G as best we (that includes me) can. It's up to God, but She's a fierce hooker and no matter what, She has G's back. Tell G she's in my prayers.
from bluperspex :
really hope your friend gets well...
from dragprincess :
Now my new nickname is "Flatliner"? Hooker, when I see you, I'm going to bitchslap you.
from x-plicity :
Go Can! Go!!
from purplebanana :
In London, a fraction of an inch of snow is enough to make people not venture out on foot, let alone in the car. Crazies. (And how much do I LOVE your diary design?)
from x-plicity :
Yay for new clothes! You're doing so well, you're in the right mind set. You're phenomenal!!! *hugs* X
from waiting2b :
Yay for resetting points! I love hump-day just for that simple reason...
from soccernut :
But you look so great... :)
from x-plicity :
*big hug*
from rdhdprincess :
I hope your week gets better dear. Just reading that made me never want BBQ again. Ugh.
from emaciana :
thank you for opening my eyes, reminding me that it's really flip sides of the same coin, weight loss or gain to extremes. take care!
from soccernut :
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving loooooooong weekend - I am SO jealous (and happy for you)that you have tomorrow off! Bella
from yelayna :
I just thought I'd put my tuppenceworth in as a lurker - I think you've done fantastically. Congratulations! You look so much thinner than when you started :o) xxx
from redsilk3825 :
Great pics and WOW such an improvement. Keep up the good work!! I'm starting to get ecouraged.
from x-plicity :
Wow. Amazing!!!
from soccernut :
At least you saw in the fine print of your medication that it may cause abnormal dreams or nightmares, whereas I have the weirdest dreams on a regular basis and I have never read in the fine print of my Vicodene that it may cause abnormal dreams or nightmares... Thinking of it, I've had them way before my accident... Hmm. I wonder if those dreams actually mean something??? Now you got me thinking....
from sarahsundae :
It is like a soap opera. And yes, I am sure Kurt was his usual arrogant self. However, I’m still supporting him. I saw the interview he gave and I truly believe he is sorry for what happened. I think I’m becoming a big softie in my old age. No one truly knows what happened except Kurt and the AZ police though.
from pissymystic :
A WASTE OF MONEY?!? Good lord, when I read that I actually felt like someone had punched me in the stomach.
from rdhdprincess :
Oh my. I can't imagine my life without books.
from pissymystic :
Yes, Walrip is a good solution. So is scrubbing the bathroom, one floor tile at a time. ANYthing to keep from having to watch that. My stepson is a champion video gamer. *shudder*
from rdhdprincess :
Hee. I know those work outs. Good for you! They are the best ever.
from emaciana :
i love people watching, just for obesrvations like that! you're too funny!!!
from rdhdprincess :
Hee. You crack me up. Bad eyebrow look there. Everyone needs at least a little arch. I am so glad you are doing so well dear. You are an inspiration!
from x-plicity :
That look always gives women a perpetual look of surprise.
from x-plicity :
*giggle*
from soccernut :
I am sorry that you feel lonely today. It's good that you expressed it tho (although it seems you did so to the wrong person). "Tomorrow will be better" was not a good answer, I know. BTW, love your picture. What a journey, hm? Congratulations! Bella
from x-plicity :
I don't think we live very far apart. We should try to get together sometime!! I would love to meet you! *hugs* X
from rdhdprincess :
Love the picture dear. You have come so far!! I am so proud of you. And envious, I must admit. You are gorgeous and look so healthy now. Good for you!
from grt8f84me :
Hah...you are funny! That's crazy that you're having that problem. Coincidentally, I have always been a three-to four day girl myself. I asked my doctor about this during my last visit, and she pretty much blew me off, and said everybody's system is different. Geez, thanks for the great bedside manner! Hope things "lighten" up for you. :)
from yeahimadork :
I clicked a link from Pissymystic. Great entry about people suddenly paying attention to you after weight loss. I have just recently lost 115 pounds myself (and still have quite a few to go), and it's interesting the type of attention I get from people now - even people that have known me for a long time are different. I have felt the same way about the invisibility thing myself. Nicely written. :)
from pissymystic :
You inspired a short entry, and I linked to you. Please let me know if you mind this, okay? :) I don't want to infringe upon your privacy.
from dieselengine :
I am jealous! Only two hours and 23 minutes of work left!?! Bah!
from emaciana :
go you! that's right! i love when clothes start to be too big on me. for me, that's even a stronger indicator than pounds on a scale.
from x-plicity :
I had a moment like that yesterday. I had eaten bad the whole weekend and I was feeling like shit. So I thought, fuck it, I'm going to Wendy's for a chicken burger. Good thing my co-worker (angel) changed my mind. *hugs* X
from grt8f84me :
Oh, I feel you, Sister! Sometimes it's enough to just wanna throw your hands up in the air and give up. I know...been there, done that. And I'm still trying to kick myself in the butt to get myself motivated. I don't know where the connection is failing. I know I need to do this, I know what I need to do, I have all the equipment...just not the will power to get going and get'er dun! Frustrating! Keep the faith, girl. We will succeed...one day.
from x-plicity :
Just continue to have faith in yourself. You are doing phenomenal!!!
from x-plicity :
Oh, Sweetie. I wish I could reach through the net and give you a huge hug.
from rdhdprincess :
Have a great weekend honey!
from grt8f84me :
That is hilarious!!!! Dancing, cooking tacos, and high-kicking...too damn funny!
from grt8f84me :
Hey, thanks for the heads-up on my archives. Unfortunately, I was aware of this and submitted a tech support request about a century ago, and nothing has been done about it. I can see all my entries when I try to edit them, but they are just not appearing from the archives link...hmmm. Thanks again, though! Good looking out, Sister!
from emaciana :
hahaha on the epitaph quiz. mine says "i was hanged by mistake"
from dragprincess :
girl, there's no better start to the year than that.
from x-plicity :
*happy sigh* So true.
from pissymystic :
You are such an inspiration to me.
from rdhdprincess :
Congratulations on the jeans honey! It is such a great feeling to be able to fit into once outgrown clothes again. Good for you! I am enjoying watching you shrink!
from x-plicity :
I'm so proud!!!
from emaciana :
finding a dr you like is awesome! im glad for you
from x-plicity :
You can still go to Chinese Buffet! Fill up on vegitables like the yummy broccli and have small portions of rice. I'm sure the Egg Drop soup isn't that fattening. Plus, don't they always have fruit at these buffets? That is always a yummy desert! Have four bites of something that you really like, like the fattening eggrolls or whatever deep fried thing that is so delish. Sorry...I'm a hungry girl today and the thought of Chinese just sent me through the roof. *blush*
from pissymystic :
Good luck! You'll be in my thoughts.
from rdhdprincess :
Take care honey, I hope you are feeling better soon! I loved the last entry, by the way. It is amazing what a different leader can do. I went to a new meeting yesterday because a great leader can make all the difference in the world, and it did help! We had the cravings/urges lesson, too. I guess they do the same one each week no matter where you are. Next week I will think about you hearing the very same thing!
from x-plicity :
Feel Better!!!
from x-plicity :
I knew your weigh in wouldn't be bad. You are phenomenal!!!
from pissymystic :
I really love watching this journey. Congratulations on losing the saddle, and the pound!
from emaciana :
hoping tonight goes well for you
from rdhdprincess :
That entry about your Nephew was so sweet! Made me tear up myself!
from emaciana :
aww... little kittens... what is cuter than that!? i'm getting my 6 month old kitten neutered at the end of this month. i hope you can catch her and take her to the shelter. i agree, that would be best.
from x-plicity :
Love you!!!!
from andreeb :
It's OK, we all fail sometimes. It's what makes the victories sweeter!! Good luck.
from rdhdprincess :
It is SO not an easy battle dear. It's okaynot to be perfect though as long as we keep going. I am so proud of you and I know you will win! Big hugs!
from x-plicity :
You are doing so well, but I know what if feels like to want to give up. I diet not because I want to lose weight. I diet because I don't want the disease I have to kill me. YOU give me hope and strength to continue. There are days when I am so sick, and I don't think anything I do can help, and then I come to your diary and you give me courage. You are such a strong woman and you have no idea how much your strength helps others. Please don't give up. *hugs* X
from andreeb :
You're right. She's not worth it. But it still sucks.
from witchful :
Oh that is SO awesome! Congratulations, and hold on to that feeling!
from x-plicity :
Rock on!
from emaciana :
omgomgomg, that pic is scary!
from noaddedme :
I know ... XOXO for that :)
from x-plicity :
Sorry, became defensive of my sweet noaddedme. *hugs* X
from noaddedme :
The princess is my sweet Abby ... she doesn't like penis ... so hence this is gross as a dick to her :) You'd love her X ... she's a riot!
from x-plicity :
EWWW!!! And what's the deal with the obnoxious “princess” below?
from dragprincess :
you are so very very wrong. and inappropriate. god, why don't you just show me a picture of a penis while you're at it? sick bitch.
from razor-vixen :
That IS a good quote. It's something I need to do, as my weight has slowly been creeping up. Thanks for that.
from rdhdprincess :
Ha! People that dumb amaze me. Those poor people must have been born in that building and lived there their whole lives. Hey, I hope your finger is better today. That sounds awful! Be careful. We have brown recluse spiders here in Texas and I know to watch bites really carefully so they don't start killing the skin. Be extra, extra careful honey. As a favor to me!
from x-plicity :
OWWW!!! Don't lose your finger!! *hugs* X
from emaciana :
hahaha... on the poo comment.
from rdhdprincess :
I'm glad you are feeling better dear. It is okay not to be perfect. That took me forever to realize. We all have to have not-so-good days once in awhile. It's the every day thing that matters in the long run. All the good days add up!
from wilyred :
Your photos are so awesome! I can totally see the progress. Great job Kaire! -Lisa
from marilynnv :
I suddenly feel so old.
from rdhdprincess :
Hey sweetie! Congratulations!! Of course you can do 5 miles! You have already proven that you can do anything. I am so happy for you. And OH MY Goodness! Those pictures!! You look fabulous honey. So good!
from marilynnv :
You look beauuuutiful! The before and after pics are just amazing. You should be so proud of yourself.
from witchful :
Holy Toledo! You are looking FANTASTIC, girlie!
from soccernut :
Congratulations and YES you WILL make it to goal! :) Bella
from emaciana :
congratulations!!! that's a lot to lose, and i hope you are very very proud of your accomplishments!!! yay you!
from rdhdprincess :
Yay! I am so proud of you honey! You will definitely go all the way. And you would be a great leader. So motivating. Yay! Congratulations!!
from witchful :
YES! So happy for you!
from x-plicity :
Yay!!!!
from dragprincess :
convert me? please. i'd have a strap-on shoved so far up his ass, he'd be screaming for mercy. straight guys. whatevah!
from x-plicity :
Wow...you just amaze me. You inspire me. *hugs* X
from rdhdprincess :
I'm praying for you sweetie. I hope it's a fast dinner. Also, yay for wild monkey sex and no b/p!
from x-plicity :
I'm praying!!
from x-plicity :
Wow. You did it hon!!! You interrupted the cycle. It's so hard to do, and you DID it. I'm proud of you!! *hugs*
from emaciana :
congratulations! it's so good that you can acknowledge your achievements and that you are proud of yourself because i'm proud of you!!! YAY YOU! love tia
from x-plicity :
I'm so proud of you!!
from heidiann :
I hate being reminded of how horrible people can be. And I wish you the best of luck, my body and I are on a slow journey ourselves. =) On a lighter note, your layout is adorable, I love it!
from x-plicity :
It's strange how powerful prayer is. Feel better, sweetie. *hugs*
from seekingme :
Hey, my gas cap was loose, and the light went off! Thanks for the advice!
from dragprincess :
disgusting, but i did laugh at "silent fart, deadly fart."
from seekingme :
THanks for the tip, I'll check my gas cap, and hopefully it's that simple!
from x-plicity :
Have a good weekend!!!
from seekingme :
I've unlocked for now. Thanks for the note.
from x-plicity :
Sure there are racists in the world but there aren't as many now days. It seems that racism sometimes lives only in the eyes of those that want to be discriminated against.
from x-plicity :
It looked like a shade of rose to me.
from fatfree4me :
Hold strong Sweetie...you're doing great. Don't let the little setbacks keep you from focusing on how far you've come so far.
from x-plicity :
Keep your eyes off the scale and focus on the inches. You're exercising more so you may be gaining muscle weight. Which is always hot! Don't punish yourself!!!!
from impetuousme :
Okay, so yes, I DID notice that you are over here now and have just not updated things yet. See, sometimes, people change their minds. At any rate, I'm still trying to get what you were saying. That it's okay to hassle, make a national joke out of someone, simply becasue of some things he's done that we don't like? I totally agree that MJ has done some things with children that I would not condone. And if I had young children, I would never have let them stay at that ranch, and that yes, if he IS found guilty, the parents should be strung up as wel. But, that's my point. He has NOT been found guilty, and he's still been treated as if he has, by late night comedians, the press, people in thier journals. ETc. And that is what I think, stinks. Anyway, have a good weekend and I hope you enjoy every free minute. Take care, Sam
from x-plicity :
You're amazing and you are going to get over this addiction!!! *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Now I need to call my dad...
from noaddedme :
testing

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