messages to rdhdprincess:
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from exegetical :
You updated! But cookies have deleted my username/login for your site. :(
from cocoabean :
I keep up with you on FB, but I miss your blog posts! Since I'm only on FB twice a week at best, I tend to miss a lot!!
from neko-carre :
WHUT! I was stunned to see your name in red! Are you coming back to Dland? Regularly? You should! It's still a nice, secret, hiding place to bare all! Just me & T left though. We'd love to have you back!
from noaddedme :
ha, now that you are posting here I can be nosy and ask what the HELL is going on ... I got lost on the engaged not engaged section of your entertaining life!
from noaddedme :
ok, I'm out of the loop on the whole job thing ... did you post about that or is that fb information?
from sduckie :
Wow I saw that pic of Bella and MY she is a gorgeous child! You are looking well yourself!! And congrats on the new man... I didn't hear about the trouble at work and sorry about your job! I will gladly call the number (daily) as I am unemployed and have nothing better to do, so feel free to send it to me. :) Be well happy new year!
from cocoabean :
Yay!! You are right, you did the right thing at work, and that's what matters.
from neko-carre :
OHMYGASH! I was so happy to see your name in red in my Buddy List, where no one updates except Terri! I literally did a double-take! I hope you come back regularly! I don't get on Fb near enough to know what's going on with anyone. Miss you so much!! P.S. Isn't Kevin married?? Once again proving to be a total douche.
from noaddedme :
I thought you'd vanished! So glad to hear the update. I request a full body picture to see the changes :) Proud of you for doing what you need to do and so shocked how grown up Bella is! (Kaire ~ 10-12-12)
from curious-me :
Um I totally have forgotten your passwords - I guess it's been a while! If you wouldn't mind sending them to me that would be great! You can email them to journalgrl24@live.ca (thx - Megan)
from kissssy :
Hey! You probably don't remember me at all since we haven't talked in YEARS. But, I woke up thinking about you this morning and had this INSANE urge to contact you. I don't know why... but thought I'd just reach out and say hey. Sorry to see you've locked your doors!
from orangeslush :
Can I read? I've missed you. I'm kraphound on LJ.
from toastcrumbs :
I am another one of those people who loved reading your diary, but don't have your password after my long absence from dland. If you wouldn't mind sending it to kkelley474@hotmail.com because I would love to know what you are up to and I always enjoyed your photos.
from neko-carre :
Hellooooo? Almost A MONTH without an update?? I'm having withdrawals! What's going on with you! Enquiring minds want to kno!
from exegetical :
http://www.propublica.org/article/feds-to-follow-propublica-release-dialysis-clinic-data
from exegetical :
Recommend you listen to this if you have the chance: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=131167638
from samcorday :
hi carrie! i just came back on D-land and imagine my shock when i couldn't get to your diary anymore. guess u changed the pw......can i be let in again...pretty please.... nicole.saporta@gmail.com
from lerin :
Knock, knock!!! I've been away from DLand quite awhile, but used to enjoy your diary. Our daughters have the same name. :) I would love to be let in again, and am happy to share my info as well. My address is Lerin[dot]Wheeless[AT]gmail[dot]com
from whystinger :
Can I take a read of your diary? I will trade you a peek at mine. If okay, you can send me an email whystinger"at"yahoo.com. Thanks!
from curious-me :
Wow - beautiful entry - well said (written)! Oh and PS I've recently started the diabetes meds (type 2) and I got a happy ping when you mentioned yours was being cut in half - way to go!
from rachelliz :
Wow, I'll echo what everyone below me said. I'm trying to bring myself back to dland and follow people who I still care about...which includes you! If I could have the pword that would be great. I think my dland email still works, or email Rachel 8 at hotmail dot com. Hope you are doing well. I want to see more of your beautiful daughter.
from deedra78 :
Hi! I followed your blog for a long time - under Peachfuzz Dee. I enjoyed going thru the weightloss journey with you, watching your beautiful little girl grow up, your sense of humor always gave me the lift I needed while battling my way thru my own work day. I'm crosisng my fingers that you'd share the password with me so I can continue to read - but if not, I still wish you all the best. You have an awesome personality. deedrapage@gmail.com
from heylee :
I hope all is going well for you and yours. I would love to keep reading if you want to share the password. :) leannesim13ATyahooDOTcom. Thank you missy prissy!
from toastcrumbs :
Ok, can I have the password too? I kept meaning to copy down your email to ask you in case you changed it and well . . . procrastination strikes again, and durr, I never did. Email is kkelley474@hotmail.com
from exegetical :
If you get a chance, could you resend the new password? book_betty@hotmailREMOVE.com
from quietmoon :
I would love the password,if you don't mind? I'm formally cutielatina on Dland.I hope all is well.:) cutielatinaATymailDOTcom.
from jess1976 :
If you wouldn't mind sharing the new PW info with me - jessicagarnick@comcast.net Thanks! Hope everything is ok.
from horseshoes :
Hope everything is ok. Please send me the info to either sara_schafer@hotmail.com or to sara@ranchbrowser.com! Thanks!
from marilynnv :
Oh no! The password has changed. If you are giving it out I would love to have it. Thank you missy prissy!! marilynn@monkeytails.com
from sarahsundae :
You changed your password!! If I am still allowed to read you please email me sarahsundae@yahoo.com
from bholles :
I hope if you have changed your diary you let me know. I am hoping for the best for you. I used to work in mangement and I cant imagine treating anyone the way you have been treated.
from portia12 :
I'm really missing reading your blog. I don't know the password :( If I'm allowed, could you email it to me pretty please? bluesapphire78@gmail.com
from samcorday :
hey hun merry christmas...to u and kevin and bella..u have a wonderful family :)
from fireflyez76 :
I was wondering if I could read you? I too am on a weightloss journey of my own, and locked as well. I would be willing to give up my keys to you if you'd like. Dland is locked, but my blogger isn't. The url is http://thindom2009.blogspot.com/. In any case, good luck to you!
from moresarah :
Would it be possible to get access to your diary? I miss reading about what's going on in your life! Sarah at sbhpatrick(at)gmaildotcom.
from neko-carre :
Hope my email reached you on Monday. And hope you're able to breathe deeply.
from sarahsundae :
Your gold membership is not working so I couldn't comment. *hugs* email me if you need to talk. sarahsundae@yahoo.com I know it's though but things can get better. 11/09/09
from casa-rosie :
Hi Sweetie, I am so sad that things are not going well right now for you two. You know, right now I am in Canada visiting with Zack, and for all of the issues we have ever had, it all boils down to being unutterably grateful to have this week with him after being apart for 18 months. <p>I hope that your issues get resolved quickly, and that you two remember what it's like to be so deeply in love that you can't imagine being apart. In the end though, you are right, you must do what is best for YOU. Hugs darling!
from krisbell :
saw this and thought of you :) http://mentalfloss.com/quiz/quiz.php?q=804
from wifemotherme :
No pw? WifeMotherMe1@aol.com ; (
from canadianna :
Did I mention my email address is redcorsetatgmaildotcom? ~Angela
from canadianna :
Every once in awhile I think of you (today, it was because I was washing my Jadite casserole dish) and come read your blog. Alas, it's locked! Could I pretty, pretty please have the username and password? I promise to leave nice comments about your hair. ~Angela
from coexistapart :
Ever think of coming up with some sort of NSFT code to put in your title?
from prolifique :
Thank you, so very, very, VERY much. And I love you right back, darling lady.
from kitchenlogic :
Hey! Password me! Please?! kathy@kitschinart.com
from toastcrumbs :
Hi, another reader wondering if I could have the password. I have really enjoyed reading your entries over the years and seeing the pictures of your beautiful daughter as she grows up! My email address is kkelley474@hotmail.com Thanks! Kimberly
from neko-carre :
Aw, poor Mean CSR. Sounds like he hates life & has no happiness in it. That's really sad. And yeah, you should totally be like the annoying gal in "Office Space." Next time he's grumpy, say all cheerily, "Awwww, sounds like someone's got a case of the Mondays!" - even when it's not Monday. Muahaha.
from captvfirefly :
Good for you for being the proactive patient! Sometimes you just have to tell them what doesn't work and try something new. Also, that Naturopathic doctor I went to said the same thing about my cells - that they aren't letting in the insulin, either. This stuff, Hyper GTF by Priority One, is the stuff I'm taking 4 capsules of (2 in the morning and 2 in the evening) to help with that: http://www.houseofnutrition.com/hyp23.html (you can find it cheaper on other websites, but this is the stuff). If your new cocktail doesn't seem to help, maybe the all natural stuff will? I'll let you know in 3 months (Dr. said it would take about 3 months to really see some big changes). Muah!
from neko-carre :
Keep forgetting to tell you... LOVE the card you sent me! It's so perfectly appropriate! ;-)
from hsing-mom :
Oops, me again, you might need an email address. :) reg at sti dot net. :)
from hsing-mom :
PLEASE PLEASE. I miss your updates. I use an RSS reader and a couple of weeks ago I was all like, hey, I wonder what's up with her? She hasn't posted in a while. I wonder if she is taking a break. Then I started to really worry so today I bypassed the rss reader and came here in person and lo and behold I'M LOCKED OUT. I've been reading you (and commenting periodically) since I was at diaryland myself ages ago (since before you even started adoption proceedings), but I've been at http://www.newness-of-life.com for the past few years... you know me... I swear I'm not a stalker. :) --Rachel.
from coexistapart :
I have one semester of Spanish, and we basically live in El Paso, so you could send it along to me if you would like. Also, while my composition is not great, by any means, I would be happy to try and help you write return messages.book_bettyathotmaildotcom
from shaunaroset :
Oh no, I am going through withdraw here! I keep checking to see if maybe you unlocked your diary yet =( My name is Shauna, I commented every so often but I've been reading your diary for years, which may sound creepy since we don't know each other. I have two sons who I adopted, and LOVED hearing from another adoptive moms point of you, especially someone as funny/cute/sassy like you! I am worried and hope everything is okay. I know I'm practically a stranger but if you need anything at all please feel free to e-mail me at slteirler@yahoo.com!
from janetplnetoc :
Hey, I squeezed your boob in vegas and now I can't get into your diary? That is just not right. Help a girl out, eh?
from maiarayne :
I know that I haven't commented in a long time but I do still read your journal. I hope everything is ok and along with everyone else... could I come in? Pwetty pwease? jenndome at gmail dot com.
from laura-baura :
Hi, I miss your diary. If you don't mind giving out the password to randomers I'm betterunsaid at gmail dot com. Hope you are okay x
from tequilamonky :
Argh! I can't get the email you gave me to work :( Could you try mine please... boobunny21(at)yahoo(dot)com ....
from heylee :
I love reading your diary...can I have the password please? Hope all is well. leannesim13 at yahoo dot com. thanks!
from casa-rosie :
Like everyone else, I find that you've locked up! If you care to share, I'm at casa.rosie at gmail dot com. Please don't make me beg, OK?
from nickyslilone :
hey, could I get a password please? Would love to carry on reading you! nicola@ragingpistachio.co.uk
from alure :
Hi carrie, i'm a big fan of your blog and i'm hoping you'll give me access!! my email is ellure@gmail.com
from ashlyn1021 :
Hi Carrie, I love reading your journal! Would you give me access again? JIndeglia@myfairpoint.net
from tequilamonky :
Hiya! Just tried that email and it got bounced back to me :( I'll try to email you through here...
from jaynejayne :
if you will allow my access you can send the information i need to jaynenotjane@yahoo.com thank you
from jaynejayne :
Carrie, i have been reading your diary for a long long time and now i cant access it, is there a way that i could access it? i live in california, i really dont have a profile on diaryland however on facebook i do. thank you
from bholles :
I so want to read your diary. I am Poolagirls sister and a friend of Cocoabean. Please?
from chillier :
Oh no, you're locked! Password please? I'm at lngstoryshort at yahoo dot com.
from tequilamonky :
Aw you're locked! I realise you don't actually know me except through here so totally understand if you don't want to pass your new password on. For now I just hope all is well in your world and send huge hugs just in case xxxx
from kitchenlogic :
Hello? Password, please! If you're sharin'...
from razor-vixen :
Hope everything is okay....if I could, I would love the password: razor_vixen@hotmail.com Thanks!
from dogtired74 :
Help!! I am locked out! I need a password stat! I am going into withdrawals! My name is Amy, I am a long time reader. I love your diary! If you are handing out passwords, please send one my way. My email is amyschmerbeck@gmail.com
from vickithecute :
Locked? May I come in please? vicki_thecuteATcomcastDOTnet
from cocoabean :
drkchocloverATgmailDOTcom, please?? pretty please??? with strawberries and whipped cream???
from princesscee :
The entire Diaryland site seems to go up in arms when we cannot access your latest post. I never comment, but if you're handing out logins/passwords, may I pretty please be included? edandcee AT comcast DOT net. Hope everything is okay.
from sduckie :
Oh Princess, you are my absolute favorite diary... I always save your entry till last so I can enjoy it! Please I hope you will give me your password.... diaryland just won't be the same without you! My email is sittingyellowduck@yahoo.com
from ameliorating :
OHHH NOOOO!! You can't take away one of the only reasons I even get on DL anymore!!! You are by far my favorite diarist (is that a word??). Please, oh please, give me back some of the only joy I get at work and share your password with me!! You can email me at rosegaliana AT gmail.com instead of posting it in my notes. Thank you soo much!
from firelady517 :
OK, now I'm jonesing for an entry to read. Could I get the password? Or if not, will you send me an email telling me no? :-( I miss seeing the Bella pictures and hearing your funny stories. It's LGreeno@msn.com. Thanks Carrie
from firelady517 :
I miss reading your journal - it makes my day! Can I get the password too? Sure does look like you have a lot of devoted readers! My email addy is LGreeno@msn.com. Thanks bunches!! Lori
from sassysuds :
Miss you, Carrie! Would you consider sending me a password? diane at sassysuds dot com. Thanks in advance.
from quietmoon :
cutielatina@ymail.com
from samcorday :
hey u locked yourself up....i haven't been online for a while and missed reading ur diary. hope everything is ok :( would u mind sending me the password. isis_13_4ever@hotmail.com thanks :p
from jess1976 :
I noticed you locked up - hope all is ok. Would you mind sending me the pw info to jgarnick @ bcbsm . com
from bathtubmary :
bathtubmarygirl at gmail dot com. hope everything's ok. xoxo, d
from sarahsundae :
would love to continue reading you! sarahsundae@yahoo.com
from cocoabean :
gmail.com. heh.
from cocoabean :
Password?? drkchoclover AT
from curious-me :
You locked up? I hope everything's okay. If you don't mind sending me your password I would love to keep reading. If so you can send it to journalgrl24@live.ca Thanks.
from coexistapart :
Can I have the password too if you please? bookUNDERSCOREbettyAThotmailDOTcom
from marilynnv :
Oh no! I am locked out. I would really love a password. :) marilynn@monkeytails.com
from geekbabe :
Need password, am having withdrawals! Help! geekbabe2@hotmail.com
from wifemotherme :
hey I was reading that! : ) PW please? WifeMotherMe1@aol.com
from horseshoes :
Could I get a username and password? I don't comment but really enjoy your posts... please e-mail at sara_schafer@hotmail.com
from bathtubmary :
ha ha - you have my word. no holiday sweaters ever! xoxo, d
from captvfirefly :
As someone who just went through rounds of pay cuts, reduced hours, and no more 401k matching, I can understand your worries. All you can do is wait to hear what management tells you and then go from there. Like you said, whatever is meant to happen will happen, and I know you will make it either way! (And yes, if you get laid off/terminated, you can file for unemployment. Also, if you subscribe to your company health insurance plan, then you can also get COBRA and continue that coverage ... thanks to the Stimulus bill, you'd only have to pay 35% of your premium instead of 100%..)As far as the sleeping thing? There is nothing worse than being sleep deprived! Lucky for me, Tylenol PM worked for me, but after a while, that stopped, too. My Lexapro helped, but I wouldn't suggest taking an anti-depressant unless you absolutely needed it (and even then, I'd caution you, just based on my bad experience with going off of it!). Yes, YOU are in charge of your personal health, and if that doctor can't help you, then you'll just have to find one that will. If you give me the name of the meds you're taking, I can check with my friend Christina, who is a pharmacist, to see what the side effects are. XOXO
from red-wine :
Thanks for that - I feel like such a shrew sometimes, but it helps that there are wonderful women (like you!) out there who understand. And yes, finding new friends is very much like dating. Except the parameters are even more vague, and if you don't hit it off with someone, you can't exactly say "I don't think we should see each other again". So weird. As for the hobby ... I think I'll keep quiet about it until I find out if I suck at it or not, or even enjoy it once I start. But trust me - if I do come clean you will be shocked. SHOCKED!
from whystinger :
Face it Hon, you are NOT a failure. Weight loss and control are PRETTY DAMN DIFFICULT for many of us, (me included). It is harder with diabetes and age (me, age) but don't give up. Try a few ideas - vary your diet. Increase fiber, eliminate white starches and go with whole grains instead. Yoga is very helpful, but also vary your exercise, as with both diet and exercise, our bodies do become accustomed to them. I would keep up the yoga and add some other things and vary them.
from red-wine :
HA! The soup does feature leeks (and onions, and other assorted veggies, also PRUNES - don't ask, it works) but alas, there is no actual cock. It does include chicken, a "boiling hen" to be specific, but either the Scots don't practice poultry gender discrimination, or they understand that "hen-a-leekie" just lacks pizzaz.
from whystinger :
Put on something sexy or nasty and rock his world! I think I sent you the keys, didn't I or did I forget. It has been busy here lately.
from missdaffodil :
Ok, here i go... finally jumping into the computer age. Ha! maybe i'll learn to text too. I think you were right, i think i'm gona like this.
from neko-carre :
I did get it, and I sent you a text message! Got it on Christmas Eve! It was such great timing! And a fabulous gift! Thank you soooo much!
from whystinger :
Don't let the bastards get you down...
from bathtubmary :
i had no idea i share a bday with kevin. tell him happy birthday! thanks for your wishes. you are awesome, you know that? xoxo, d
from ship-jumper :
We are human. Because we are human, we act on our feelings and emotions, as those are part of us. Sometimes the mind takes a back seat. We do what we do, and we grow from it or we are hindered....it sounds as if you will make this a positive experience and move forward, and that's all one can ask! And hey! Congrats on "getting some!" Feels good, eh!
from just2cusmile :
i just wanted to let you know im going to see if you still have your hysterectomy experience up to read-i just had one 3 weeks ago and the healing is going slow for me so if you see somebody reading your old stuff its me not a stalker ;)
from elliestuff :
at least you aren't hiding from a tornado or anything. i'm sure it can have a calming effect.
from bathtubmary :
aww, sweetie. i do believe it's just the pic. i look the same as far as i know. there's no danger of this girl wasting away, that's for sure. xoxooxx, d
from elliestuff :
Thanks for the feedback and the advice too.
from boxx9000 :
I found you thru the recent updates. I like your style. I am also fighting the weight loss battle. Your Bella is adorable.
from dreamgirl457 :
Hey wow ur diary is pretty cool =P add me if u can and maybe read my diary, i kinda need advice on a guy problem =S
from kait77 :
Thanks I added another entry with what is happening there. I am so sick of gov't red tape.
from neko-carre :
You mean you actually had my Sea Kelp & Aloe shower gel in your possession?! UHMAGAH! I didn't think there was anymore in existence in the entire Universe - I've looked! That damn bitch! I would've tackled her for that stuff. (But I wouldn't expect you to, of course.)
from neko-carre :
You mean you actually had my Sea Kelp & Aloe shower gel in your possession?! UHMAGAH! I didn't think there was anymore in existence in the entire Universe - I've looked! That damn bitch! I would've tackled her for that stuff. (But I wouldn't expect you to, of course.)
from kait77 :
email sent THANKS!
from kait77 :
I tried to email via dland but it takes me to neomail login. I am not posting pics on d-land but am on his private webpage, would love to send you the link but prefer only certain people get it.
from rose-phoenix :
Sduckie turned me on to your diary and I'm so glad she did. You're charming and addictive.
from kait77 :
Well, this is going to be a long slow labor since they discovered my placenta blocks a safe c-section (emergancy c-section they would still do but we have to avoid that if at all possible). I was looking at news items and found this http://www.newsweek.com/id/135166?GT1=43002 it is about time someone had a fit over the perfection of models and actors/actresses as well as promotion of anorexia.
from neko-carre :
So how'd it go already?! Leave me hangin for two days, why donchya!
from kait77 :
I hope your interview went well. I will not be online much more this week as I am to be induced Thursday.
from sduckie :
Hi I love your diary, I am reading it from the beginning! I hate Walmart too.
from neko-carre :
Update to my note below: Okay, can I just say that I absolutely LOVE everything you sent me! That Bliss hand cream is very nice - I'm a hand lotion fanatic, always eager to try something new, the "higher intensity" the better, so that was a wise choise! Both Dave & I ADORE the Bliss lip balm! A light vanilla scent, non-greasy! I'm def gonna buy more of that. The Dior lipstick is great for a lighter, more subtle red because I'm always BAM!RED!! The perfume sample is lovely, because I've been looking for a new perfume for ages, and that's a good one. And the L'Occitane ultra heavy moisturizer sample! Holy cow, that might just be my new moisturizer! I love it love it love it! THANK YOU, CARRIE!
from neko-carre :
Oooh, I got a box of pretty pretties today!!! It was so wonderful! I LURVE that Bliss hand cream! Hells yeah, I'm gonna have to splurge & start buying it myself, when I run out of this, which will be in probably 2 weeks. Can't wait to try the lip balm. And that Dior lipstick?! I died just over the packaging! Boy, they sure know how to appeal to flashy girly-girls! Oh, and Sephora's new gift box! Ooooooh prrrriiiiiteeee! Long story short... THANK YOU!!! *Smooch!*
from chaosdaily :
Dland thinks I'm a spammer, so I'm leaving you a note.... the COBRA act is a federal law that allows you to keep your current insurance for up to 18 months... if you pay the premium. Your employer can't just cut you off. as for drug testing, if you have a prescription for something, they can't do anything about it.
from red-wine :
Funny you brought that up, because I have, on several occasions, thought of you when I realized what I was getting myself into. (The teeth thing, not the marriage thing :) But no, the Prof's teeth are good and strong, if a little crookedy like mine. Such lovely surprises husbands are, non?
from kait77 :
I updated about what happened.
from kait77 :
I will likely be away for a while, in the meantime know I am rooting for you with the blood sugar and weight loss issues. I have no clue how long I will be away, could be a few days could be a few weeks. See latest post for info.
from neko-carre :
Of course I knew you were in a mascara phase! I can read your mind! Haha, jk. Actually you asked me about mascara a while back & I don't think I responded. And I know you love lip gloss, so that gift was a no-brainer. I'm glad it turned out to be great!
from red-wine :
Ok, so you? Are totally f'ing cracking me up :) I had to answer the registry question last night and I got all flustered and said "Bed Bath and Barrel ... wait, that's, um, Beyond. And um, Boxes and Barrels ... NO! CRATES!" Then it turned into a big mess of "Beyond Crates!" "No, Boxes and Barrels of Crates! In the Bath!" "Beds of Beyond!" Pretty funny ....
from bathtubmary :
to be fair, i owe a great deal of the radiance to the ghostly soft light in my office - also you can't get a close-up on the actual pores. but i do feel it's making a small difference. i use the biore self-heating mask - it only takes one minute, and you get 8 per box. not too expensive, either. p.s. you make me want a puppy! xoxo, d
from kait77 :
I agree with Janet- metformin/glucophage is the recommended medication for people with PCOS/PCOD and blood sugar issues. Your sugar should have come down by now and gaining 4lbs is too much especially given what you said you were eating last entry. Please call your doctor immediately and tell him that your sugars are still in the 300s and you want to try a different medication. Explain the 4lbs in 6 days too. A lot of it is likely water but still, you need your sugars down YESTERDAY! I wish I could come over and give you all the info I gathered when my husband's blood sugar was going nuts. See an ENDOCHRONOLOGIST ASAP as well because they are really the docs who should manage diabetes any kind and also PCOS/PCOD. They deal exclusively in metabolism and hormones. So you really do need one. I have to get hubby in to one for his thyroid but getting him in has to wait until the baby comes cause his boss is fit to be tied with how often he has to take off work to take me to the doctor. Of course I am forbidden to drive but I couldn't fit safely behind the wheel of my tiny car anymore anyway.
from enigma1111 :
Don't despair over your levels OK? It might take two or three weeks to see results. In my case I was freakin' out, taking it out on my wife and daughter because my levels were high. Their still higher than a normal persons but only marginaly so. Patience and focus on something else. Can't help you with your wee weight gain, sorry. Maybe different meds will help.
from kait77 :
Just a side note. I have noticed a trend among those I know with a weight problem who are under 40. Everyone I know in that age range who has a serious weight problem has at some point in their life been forced or pushed into starving themselves between the ages of 10 and 16, some it ended soon and some it started later but all have a period of time when they starved themselves or were starved during that age range. Says a lot about the kind of people I have gotten to know over the years. I was forced and pushed into starving myself from very eary on and did not stop until I got pregnant with my oldest if eating more food when pregnant counts. I still have trouble eating more than once a day and usually get less than 700 calories a day unless someone is watching how I eat. When not pregnant I can go 3-4 days without eating with no problems. I have another friend who because she was pushed to starve herself and did so now alternates between binging and starving herself causing her weight to yo-yo between 100 and 250lbs. The others all have some kind of problem with food to this day. I think that those who forced and/or pushed us into starving ourselves are in a big way responsible for our current problems with weight. That said all of us need to find a way to get past that and develop better eating habits.
from kait77 :
Just wanted to say that I hope all is well and that your doctor was able to give you reassurance and help. I may or may not be online much in the coming weeks, my latest blog explains if you are interested. I really hope you get your sugars under control and keep losing weight.
from enigma1111 :
Welcome to the world of self inflicted diabetes. This exclusive club is one I wish I never joined but you are doing the right thing with weight loss AND excersise. Depression is a thing to watch out for now. Don't focus on the disease, do your diabetic routines like you would brush your teeth, with no thought. I found that when I focused on the diabetes I got angry and took it out on friends and family. It wasn't their problem it was all mine. Good luck to you.
from neko-carre :
Hey you. Just checkin' in. Hope all is well. Don't make us go too much longer without you.
from enigma1111 :
Caught your diary from somewhere, just surfing at work. Great entries so far, real and funny!
from bathtubmary :
oh, you! thanks for your sweet words, mama. xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Oh wait, I found it (along with the other email you sent that said, "Did ya get this?")! They were in my Trash because they had the word "spam" in the subject line. Okay, I'm off to read it now.
from neko-carre :
You sent a response?? No, I didn't get it - I was wondering! That's weird, cuz your emails always come straight thru. Would you mind forwarding it again?
from renovatingme :
Hey - how are you doing and how are you feeling? You've been on my mind:) xoxoxo
from kait77 :
You could get the guy who called and hung up in the middle of the night in trouble for harrassment. I am sure the police were aware it was that guy's fault. If not fight it in court. Poor K without his big boy toy (truck) he must feel so sad. If the insurance company tries to screw you on value consider a lawyer. Believe me it can make a huge difference. Good luck with Bella and the penis thing. She will likely insist she has one until she figures out boys have cooties.
from kait77 :
Funny, I still look in the mirror and see myself 2-3 times the size everyone else seems to see. Of course I saw that image when I was 95lbs and a size 3. So imagine what it would be like to look in the mirror at your current size and see what I see. I know it isn't the truth but I still see it. Sad I know. Believe me the woman 2-3 times the size I am is a pig but you have had hormone problems for years without knowing it. PCOS makes people fat, it makes everything you eat stick to you so tiny bad habits become 50lbs or more. I have seen the results in a friend of mine- she starves herself and is our size because of PCOS. I hope the insurance company is really good about the truck. I actually like The Sound of Music when I am in a sappy mood. Translate- pregnant. Well, my stove is nearly dead, my washer died, and I need a drier so time to call appliance places. Good luck and congrats on the 20lbs- I envy you that 20lbs.
from kait77 :
Congrats. I am to gain less than 15lbs this pregnancy and with all the steroids I do not see how I can do it. I always gain 20-22lbs. The good thing is I lose that weight within 6 weeks of giving birth. I am considering hypnosis for hubby and me to improve our diet. BTW Bella's hair is lovely and with deep conditioning it will likely stop standing on end.
from captvfirefly :
I sent you an email re: your note in my diary about Terri. :)
from kait77 :
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21901865/ Please read this it could affect other parents like you and K. It is sad a few bad apples are ruining this for thousands of couples.
from neko-carre :
12 days?! Ya killing me! I wanna see pics of Bella's cute new bob! (Seriously, I hope everything's all right. I miss you.)
from kait77 :
I hate to ask but someone left something really nasty in my guestbook- I deleted it- would you take a look at my response and tell me if I am too hard on this person?
from renovatingme :
I have a new place to read publiclly. http://westcoastdiva.blogspot.com/
from captvfirefly :
THANK YOU for that bit of advice you left in my entry today. You called it "rambling," but I call it "exactly what I needed to hear." I don't think you were being bitchy at all, just honest. And everything you said resonated with me big time. I'm hard on Sean because of fears of being too soft, but now I know that I really don't need to do that to him. I just need to let him love me (and why the hell is that so hard for us to do?) and realize that he really is worth the compromises. And when I think about it, he's not really a compromise, I just <i>think</i> he is, if that makes sense. But, anyway, your advice and experience made a lot of sense. So, thank you for sharing! (((hugs)))
from kait77 :
Happy anniversary. Just an FYI most hospitals have a program that will either reduce or completely forgive the bills based on income/expenses. You should try to get in the one your hospital has. I know daycare, a mortgage, and other bills likely kill your income. They income limits are set really high and it would help you a ton I know. I would love a set of those sheets you mentioned. For me it is so far out of the budget that I likely won't be able to get them even if I wait 4 years. Unless hubby finds a way to change jobs and keep insurance on me. His company is a non-profit so they don't have to do Cobra and they don't. Sad cause I love their insurance but minimum wage even here with the state minimum raised doesn't go far especially after half the check goes to pay insurance. Have a wonderful night. When you feel sad consider living on under 1200 a month and you will feel so much better. DL wouldn't let me leave this the other way
from neko-carre :
HI! Thank you thank you for the unexpected surprise box 'o girly stuff!!! I LOVE you! I tell ya, that stuff could not have come at a better time either! I used most of it after my workout at lunch that day! (That powder stuff really came in handy! I was sweating like a mutha down there, even after a shower!) You're my sweet friend. (Thought I'd end at least one sentence w/o an exclamation point. Oh, what the hell. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
from kait77 :
I actually have had nothing but problems in my schooling as a direct result of that darned IQ test. I wish they had not stamped it on the outside of my permanent record. Worse they sent that information to my first college who then passed the information along to every school I have applied to since. You have no idea what is expected of someone with that kind of IQ and how many think that should mean my disability should never affect me. I am an oddball in my family too- being the only person with anything more than mildly above average intelligence. Thankfully my husband is within a point or two of me in the IQ area and we tend to complement each other in areas we excel in. But being smart is sometimes a trial- especially when my physical limitations make it impossible to act on what my mind wishes. I am trapped in my body in so many ways. I often wish I had gotten the problems my brother has as then I would not have the brains to care and a body that could do things. Instead he got the damaged mind that everyone assumed I would have from the drugs introduced to my system before birth, while he was exposed only to whatever affects lingered 10 years after my birth and was not directly exposed. I guess this is proof the ovaries are damaged by drug abuse.
from jennifergwl :
I don't which you use more, your notes or comments lol so I am putting this here, too. A friend of mine had her tubes tied right after she had her last baby and they had to put a gas in there to help with the procedure. I am assuming they did for you? I am not remembering if you mentioned that in one of your entries, but anyway, as far as I know you are unable to pass this gas in the normal way because it is not in your digestive track. It is in an area that has no way of being released from the body. It has to just dissipate on its own in an unfortunately very slow time frame!
from kait77 :
Hope you are feeling better sweetie.
from kait77 :
I have no clue what his diary is about but thought maybe the username might give you a chuckle and it helps when recovering to have a chuckle now and then. http://dickbone.diaryland.com/index.html
from kait77 :
I hope things are improving. My rheumy offered me darvocet since I want to get pregnant and need to discontinue my tramadol (strongest non-narcotic available) I will take her up on it in a month or so. I really hope things improve very soon pain-wise. No matter if the pain improves DO NOT OVER DO because you do not want to end up worse off than you are now. I hope that this surgery means you start losing weight. I am in remission with my lupus and have finally begun to lose weight again. Sorry for the book. :) Sending healing vibes your way. DL wouldn't let me leave a normal comment yet again. Claimed I was a spammer.
from neko-carre :
Oh, thank you so much for the facial cleanser recommendation! Everytime I need to buy more cleanser, I always want to try something new and I never know what to get, then it becomes last minute and I get desperate and end up buying something blah at Rite Aid. I'm gonna pick up some Philosophy. Yay!
from ladybug-red :
Just stopping by with my new address. It's not the same kind of diary but hopefully might appeal to you anyway! Come visit and leave me love. XXOO Yellowladybug.com
from jennifergwl :
I would guess they will put the catheter in before you are out. I had to have them put in before I got epidurals for my c-sections. It doesn't hurt, it's just really uncomfortable and feels like you are peeing all the time. You aren't of course, it's just the catheter keeps the "tube" open all the time making it feel like you are. Really not horrible. Just thought I would let ya know :)
from ub40 :
Awwww hysterectomy!!! GULPS....errrm. Easy peasy, lemon squeezy. Had a Wertheim's hysterectomy at aged 27 (last week or close to it)!!!! Never felt so well as post operativly to tell the truth. You will be fine, however totally understand, appreciate and want too, care for your fear type stuff...'cause I was pooing my pants too.
from kait77 :
I hope you will be well the next few weeks. I am expecting a flare from the move stress- especially judging by how much sleep I needed this weekend just from 3 hours of painting on Friday.
from neko-carre :
Hee! That quote was from "Tommy Boy." I LOVE that movie! And thank you for the early b-day love, although it worried me when you said "just in case something happens." Gah, girl! I wish you lived here too so I could take care of you. I'm thinking of you very much.
from kait77 :
I would never have implants. A breast lift is considered reconstruction and might be partially covered by insurance. Especially if they are considered oversided- basically bigger than a D. I got a boob job for free and now my formerly pendelous huge and unmanagable boobs are nice and perky with a size I can actucally find bras for. I hope someday you have a similar option. again not allowed to post a normal note.
from kait77 :
Bella is a laugh. As for your insurance company call and ask why it is taking so long given the state of your cyst and how dangerous it would be if it ruptured or flipped the ovary- bring up how much more expensive emergancy surgery is and how going to the doctor and ER repeatedly until they approve the surgery to deal with the pain and heavy excessive bleeding will cost them a bundle. Trust me this will modivate them. STUPID DL WON'T LET ME LEAVE A NORMAL NOTE AGAIN!
from errantnights :
hi
from red-wine :
Girlfriends, sure. Mostly 'cause the Prof and I couldn't swing our own hotel room, but it'll be a big festival of music, drinking and basically an all around big-people sleepover. Much better than it was in 7th grade, I'm coming to learn.
from mia-fiamma :
Stupid d-land thinks I'm a spammer. But here is my comment for 6/27: WAIT A MINUTE! WAIT, WAIT, WAAAAIIIIT! Before you let them start removing parts of your body, tell them to check your blood glucose and ask them about taking metformin (Glucophage). Seriously. 1. PCOS is associated with pre-diabetes and diabetes. 2. Metformin has been shown to be effective in treating PCOS. They also need to check your levels of male hormones (androgens) and your blood pressure. It's all under the same umbrella, chica. Please don't let them slice your body apart without looking at ALL of the options.
from neko-carre :
'Bout friggin' time, Miss sassy pants! Don't leave us hanging that long again without talk of cosmetics and pics of Bella! By the way, when you said it's terrible to get fat after losing the weight... I'm sitting here binging on an entire bag of Smartfood Popcorn. Eeks. :-o
from neko-carre :
SIX DAYS??! You're killin me here! Oh, and btw, I tried to leave a note the other day but Dland kept crashing. It said, what was the occasion for the hotel and dinner? Wait - was it the ever-elusive Just Because? I've heard tell of Just Because, but I never actually knew anyone who had experienced it in real life. Amazing!! (And I love Dallas.) (This note better frickin' take!)
from jennifergwl :
haha thanks! I won't charge much. I could help you figure out your problems, but them you need to solve them on your own. So half service will be half pay ;) Yeah, it's interesting how we have to figure these guys out and try to change so much. It's worth it of course, but not easy. And thank you about the photography, yes it is mine :)
from jennifergwl :
I kind of have some advice about the fight thing and it sort of comes from my husband. We had a HUGE fight the other night and it continued into last night. So, he tells me that saying to him (like what you said to Kevin) is like placing blame and men don't handle that well. We should say something loving and constructive (as if that's possible when they are pissing us off, so why can't they understand that?!) so they know we mean it in a loving way. I mean when they are inconsiderate and rude and fail to think of us because they are being so selfish, WE are inconsiderate when we finally crack under the pressure of holding all that pent up frustration in!!! Anyway, just wanted to know I feel what you're feeling (yet again, this is getting weird :) )
from jennifergwl :
I share the 2 1/2 year old mindset with you! I have to say I am SO very thankful that Nicolas doesn't throw fits anymore and he doesn't need naps, but there are days like yours in this house. I have felt just as horrible and the look on Nic's face is like I have disappointed him more than I could ever imagined. And one time all he wanted was daddy and there was NOTHING I could do to make it up to him. It broke my heart and it's horrible, but like Bella, in the end he still loves me. So, it must mean I am doing something right :)
from bathtubmary :
good guesses sugar, but you're way off. i'll give you only a tiny hint and that the good news is not my own personal news. re: recent bella events, i know you feel bad and i hope getting it out helped you feel better but you're doing an amazing job. xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Got the package, got the package! Thank you so much! I waited (agonizingly!) til Dave got home so we could open it together. It's so wonderful! It's going up this weekend! And the bird book - we LOVE! Dave has been reading it every night in bed. Ha! THANK YOU, CARRIE! You never cease to make me smile.
from kait77 :
I am getting a boob job. After all these years of the pain of having an oversized chest I am finally having them reduced. My insurance is picking up the tab too. Ironic too when you think about it. I will be looking into a tummy tuck when I can afford it (likely this fall) too. I figure I will do what I can to help my back. You may want to think on something similar. My surgeon told me that some women have seperated tummy muscles and that it contributes to the weight problem and can cause back issues as can too big of a chest. I am getting perky ones.
from jennifergwl :
Oh my word, you have to read my latest entry. I wrote mine and then read yours. Mine isn't as elaborate as yours, but I am JUST like you right now. Evil, but don't know why >:(
from red-wine :
Thing is, no, it won't arrive in time. Not unless we jump through hoops of either paying an extra 70-odd dollars (which neither of us have) to have it expedited, which means another hour on hold on the phone Monday. Or taking a full vacation day to go to the office of registers, get his birth certificate, and then probably ANOTHER day to stand in line at the passport office downtown (assuming we can actually get an appointment -yes, an appointment!-) to apply for an emergency one in person. These are our only options at the moment. Hoping isn't a choice anymore.
from mommylap :
No Tony Bourdain HATES the Food Network, that's why his show is on the travel channel. It's awesome. He really hates Rachel Ray, because he thinks she promotes mediocrity, which I don't disagree with, but is maybe sort of why I like her.
from bathtubmary :
oh, honey. you are absolutely priceless. love you! xoxo,d
from jennifergwl :
I just had to say don't you dare feel insignficant about letting Bella splash around (and I'm not just saying that because I let Nicolas do the same thing LOL!)! Just because another mom isn't as fun and cool as Bella's mom doesn't mean Bella's mom is crazy. Her kids were jealous I'm sure! I think it's great to let them just let go and have fun and really laugh in a way that you know they are thinking life could not possibly be better than this! And 65 degrees, it's not like she was going to be out all day with wet clothes. On January 6th, here in NY, it was 70 degrees. We went to a park where Nic sat in damp wet sand to play and he ran and hopped through a massive puddle. He was soaked and covered in mud, but he had the BEST time! Kids deserve to have kid fun sometimes even if we cringe lol!
from bathtubmary :
tell kev to get off your back - you're pre-reading all those teenybopper books so you can be informed when bella is ready to read them! YA seriously has some of the best stuff, though. it's just stigmatized, i tells ya. xoxo, d
from sixweasels :
Work is a joysucking scuzmonster, isn't it? But the panties story is priceless!
from heidiann :
I got the package but because I suck and cancelled my appointment I haven't opened it yet! See, I'm a good girl! A good girl whose lady parts hate her.
from portia12 :
Hi Red, my friend just lost two sizes in a month on Jenny Craig. Maybe that would be good for your mom? The food is a bit expensive but it seems to be worth it.
from jennifergwl :
Hi! Thanks for the note :) I just recently realized you adopted Bella and had to go back to read your story! I thought it was so amazing and wonderful. I was actually glad I got to read it as it was archived, because to go through that everyday with you would have stressed me out lol! The suspense would've killed me as I could tell it was as you went through it. I'm sure there are days you think back to where it all started and then you look down at her and think WOW! She's really sweet and spunky and fun! I love getting to know her here :)
from vickithecute :
Thank you, it feels REALLY good to be back. Now I just need to remember how everything works (meaning, I need to tweak my template and I'm afraid I'm going to screw it up....eep!!)
from neko-carre :
Thanks, honey!!! I'm so excited! Maybe you can come see it, hmm??? And I'm so glad you're leaving notes, because, like BTMary says below, I worry when it's been so long between updates. I mean, for me it's kinda become the standard lately, but not for you. Anyway... I love that you support me no matter what. "Math? You can totally do it!" "No math? Good for you, screw it! Who needs it?!" Ahhh, you're my girl.
from bathtubmary :
9 days? i hope you're OK. xoxo, d
from bitterwineuk :
Good luck to you too. I have NEVER been thin (and probably won't ever be either) but I am always working on it as always. I generally lose interest after a while but I am surprised how well I have done in the last few months. Really I am. My diet diary is unlocked now if you ever want a look. It's linked on my page. Finally, I want a Dora Tent in my house. :) Becca
from heidiann :
1. Bella gets cuter every day and 2. I'm working on putting together a calendar with birthdays on it for the new year and I want to include yours so I can send you something! So, when's your birthday?? xoxox
from neko-carre :
Hi! Did you get my email thanks for the package?
from kait77 :
Humm with the arthritis in my rib cage and constant bouts with pleursy I have worn sports bras for nearly a decade. Heck I couldn't find a bra in my size last time I desprately wanted a real bra. Mine are so darned big but worse one side is a whole size smaller than the other- all my babies favored that one breast. And no I will not say which one. That said a sports bra is labeled with support level and I buy the exact same one every single time and only 1 time did I ever have problems- then cause hubby bought it and got the wrong brand. Now if I could find real bras I would try them on but when I know it will smoosh me to look half as big as I am in the bust and that my boobies will sag no matter what due to excess skin- they once were 5 sizes bigger than they are now- why bother. I am hoping the neurosurgeon can convince my insurance company to pay for a boob job- I want a C that is only .... well several sizes smaller than I am now. Dland acussed me of spamming and duplicate note posting. So here is my comment rather than on the entry it belongs with
from kait77 :
Thanks. Yeah all the meds are hard. I had to get a prescription for the nausea. Just another pill. But hey it keeps me alive and maybe my body will be preserved well enough after I die that it can be used to learn about medicine in our time in 1,000 years when they have forgotten our primative methods.
from noaddedme :
It's ok, I laughed myself silly typing it!
from neko-carre :
Yep, at home sick today too. Let's try for tomorrow?
from neko-carre :
Yeah, call me anytime! In fact, my boss is out of town for the next couple of days, so that would be good. I may be home sick tomorrow (10/25) though. I was sick today. But I'll let you know.
from bathtubmary :
yeah, i knew you would understand. xoxo, d
from kitchenlogic :
Don't tease me! If you're coming here, you know I'll be giving you and the lovely Bella a tour of the Twin Cities! Are you aware that there's a bookstore here that has a separate, little door, just for the kids? And that there's a bunch of animals inside, just waiting for Bella to catch them and squosh them?!
from newlywedblis :
March is indeed a good month! :) My DH (Beloved) was born in March too--our due date is just days away from his birthday
from newlywedblis :
hey--just found you through anita-girl's diary... read through a few entries and promise I'll be back! I'm a writer too (though you couldn't tell from my entries..heh) and I absolutely love your voice! Bella's so cute--but 2 year olds are scary right now. Husbands are tricky too--but glad it sounds like you guys are making it through your rough patch. Our first year was hell, but I'm hoping for brighter days now. :) Now that's TMI for an intro, but anyway. Thanks for the good read.
from kitchenlogic :
We were talking about you at dinner so it's like you were almost there! It was so funny, Amy and I were talking about "Carrie's beautiful Bella" and lap, who must have been only pretending to listen, later on said something about her friend Carrie down in (your town) and I said, "Hey lap? That's the same Carrie we were talking about and she looked liked we'd infringed on her private friendship with you. It was priceless! I'm glad you got a two pieces of jewelry out of one piece - kind of!
from neko-carre :
Hey, honey! Thanks for the congrats note! Oh, and no worries AT ALL about Our Deal. The situation is so suddenly OFF right now, it's as if it never even existed. Which is a whole 'nother thing that's bothering me even though it shouldn't. God, I can't wait to talk to you!
from kitchenlogic :
I'm so sorry that I forgot to tell you about the Peruvian Opal Anklet I had! Have you seen the red coral necklace, matching bracelet and earrings?!!!
from prolifique :
Pl@no? Huh. That's very weird. No, I'm in Chicago, sweetie. :-)
from neko-carre :
Hi. I joined Weight Watchers today. Aaaah!
from kait77 :
I am glad things are going better with K. I am so lucky that in nearly 7 years as a couple (5 and a few months of that married) hubby and I have had less than a handful of serious fights and we always worked it out in a few short days. I guess having survived the death of our son and all the nasty comments during that period from outsiders made us really get to know each other better than a lot of other couples. I mean for over a year we had each other and no one else and such horrible pain. Even today neither of us is fully healed from that time. I figure one day we will have a major fight and take a few weeks to work things out- we are just both too stubborn for that not to happen eventually, but all this time we have been fighting others and my disease and so haven't had time to fight each other. Trust me everyone has problems and now that you are not fighting to find a way to have a child and everyone around you is supportive and life is good you may find you occassionally have a nasty fight. I spent a couple years in councling and was informed once we have over come all the health and other obsticles and are doing well hubby and I may have a fight that seems horrible but all it is is the result of two very different people living together and the friction that can cause. I figure the good times are worth an occassional spat even a nasty one so long as no one gets violent. I hope you both work things out because your relationship sounds wonderful and you have that wonderful little girl. I may have a chance to have that with hubby in a year or two, I will write an entry about it when I am feeling better- caught a nasty virus from someone- likely a person in a store. I really would hate to see you throw away what seems to be a wonderful relationship over one fight, but have one word of advice- if he EVER hits you know that a man who hits once will do it again and again and again and usually will do it with every single woman he is with and even councling doesn't seem to help those ___________ excuses for a man.
from prolifique :
Hey beautiful! I just wanted to let you know that I'm re-reading your archives because you are so damn cute and funny and I needed a smile. So that buncha hits from the same IP address? Me. Don't worry. Muah!
from bathtubmary :
thank you for saying that, honey. that means a lot coming from you. and i appreciate the way you have shared everything and have been up front about the realities of parenthood (and the toll parenting takes on marriage). you are a true example of a good mama. xoxo, d
from portia12 :
You two are sure purdy. Such nice shiny hair you both have!
from tiaris :
Sassafrassin' brickin' brackin' guestbook make me log in... SO, as I was saying, please go to the pond and use the address therein. I am not sure if I read your comment correctly, but if I have, oh goodness, let me hug you.
from lerin :
I sent my password to you at 9:00 this evening. Let me know if you didn't receive it! I emailed you at the diaryland addy listed on your diary. I am really enjoying reading your archives! You have such a wonderful sense of humor and a candor that is very rare online! :) It is wonderful to have your entries to keep my mind off of pregnancy worries and morning sickness woes. I'm here for any parenting question you ever have! As for general advice (as I haven't gotten to your recent entries yet... I'm weird like that, I like to read diaries like a book without skipping ahead!)... just love her, and help her learn how to stay loveable with gentle discipline. And always, always listen to your gut.
from prohibited :
Dland also think I'm a spammer so will write this here - "Hi, just found your diary through a friend and read your latest entry. Hope you are feeling better now? It sounds like something I had a couple of weeks back, I was taken to hospital, kept in over night for a scan. Was told it wasn't the ovarian cyst they thought it might be, but nor was it an infection or anything else you said. Having said that I took my tablets and the pain wore off but I have to keep an eye on any abdominal pains. Just wanted to say basically I feel your pain as I went through something simliar!!"
from tiaris :
Since d-land thinks I'm a spammer....Yep, if the pain doesn't get better by Monday morning, call. And? Finish the bottle of meds, even if you start feeling 150% better. If you don't finish it, mutant germs will survive and you'll get another infection, this time a resistant one. Cipro is strong stuff, nonetheless, so take it with food or it may upset your tummy. Personally, I found half a peanut butter sandwich to be good with tummy-hating pills--like when I had to take erythromycin for strep. At the end, though, I was taking it with a whole peanut-butter sandwich, because those drugs are cumulative in their side effects. I'm guessing anything with protein would be okay, just, you know, peanut-butter sandwiches are fun. Also, there may be some GI side effects, like the runs, so indulge in some yogurt with active cultures. And sugar-free lo-cal cranberry juice. No kidding, a dietitian told me that stuff really DOES help make the bladder and urinary tract inhospitable to bacteria, but it has to have a high concentration of actual cranberry juice, so no "cranberry DRINK." Also, take your temperature every day. If you get a fever, go right back, because then you could have a kidney infection. Damn, I should have gone to med school...Stupid biochemistry cocking my life all up. ;-) Feel better, lovie! (P.S., I'm glad the comment didn't show up. I had mistyped "bladder" with two Ts! Tres embarrasing.)
from portia12 :
Don't you love receiving things you've ordered online? The excitement of waiting for your package and it finally arriving! Those are very sensible panties, and a good price. I want to buy more non-sensible panties.
from kait77 :
glad you are still enjoying the nice parts despite the ones that can frustrate. Recall these moments when she becomes a teenager. Trust me it will make a difference. I am already begining to see the teen years problems and my oldest won't be 13 for a little over a year yet. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
from kait77 :
I sooooo understand what you are feeling. I want you to consider the following suggestions. 1. GET A FULL METABOLIC AND HORMONAL WORK UP 2. GET A FULL PHYSICAL those two are must do's because ironic as it may seem a tendancy to be overweight sometimes has nothing to do with how or what you eat. Sometimes something medical makes food issues worse and the weight impossible to lose. I have personal experience with this. 3. Have you considered hypnosis? It worked for my grandma- she wanted to stop smoking and eat better and that made it easier but it did work. 4. You may want to look into therapy because sometimes it helps to have someone listen and tell you that you are not as horrible as you think plus body distortion can make you think you are bigger than you are and more miserable 5. If your hubby still wants you then you have not become as fat as you think 6. Sometimes you need to say enough and accept that NO ONE IS PERFECT 7. I have a bigger weight problem than you and you work harder than I do at lossing weight so if my doctors think I have a metabolic problem that is affecting my weight and preventing me from lossing then how can you not realize you may have one as well 8. the majority of american women are wearing plus sized clothing and the image tha we have been programed to think is best is actually unhealthy. 9. Set a reasonable goal. I want to wear a size 16 again. I would love to get back into a 12, but I know damned good and well I will never be an 8 again left alone a 3. Hell I would be happy with a 22 for a while. I would kill to look as good as you do. I rarely take the time for makeup because I am tired and got out of the habit, so everyone can see how pale I am and my racoon eyes and when that damned rash comes out on my checks. I wear sweat pants most of the time because they are cheap and don't cause pain. I mean hell we live on less than 10k a year why should I expect to be able to have nice things. My hair is falling out in handfuls now. Everytime I think of it I start to cry. It is everywhere, worse no matter how many times I brush it it has pieces sticking up and looking like I never bothered. When you get that picture in your mind and then add the fact that I am short, wear glasses, and have to shop in the top 2 sizes at Avenue you will understand you are not that big. You look so much better than I do sometimes I feel jealous. But trust me I understand hating your body. I have hated mine for almost a decade. Oh yeah, you have less to lose than I do- a sizable amount less.
from neko-carre :
Heck yes, the turkeys are still there. How could I ever part with a combination of yummy poultry and "the girl built like a platinum powerhouse"?
from neko-carre :
Hi Carrie, Dave here. Thank you so much for the bitchin lip-balm and nail polish(quite the hit at the doctors office) It was nice to get a care package. In reference to the skatebord....somebody dared me. Far be it from me to let a challenge go unanswered.I still have one good foot left.On a side note, I hope to make it to Dealy Plaza someday.....JFK freak. It would be SO cool if like, aliens were on the grassy knoll.xoxox Dave & Kari
from kait77 :
Dang now I kind of wish we lived closer to each other. I may not have experience but I know computers, how to make a resume look darned good, and how to talk on a phone in a professional manner. Problem is your boss would not take a second look and probably rule me out in favor of a rail thin blonde.
from neko-carre :
4 days??! I'm having withdrawls!!
from bathtubmary :
i do believe the prof. took a buttoad of photographs at yesterday's party so if i ever get copies i will surely post them. xoox, d
from kait77 :
You do not have as much to lose as I do. That guy you wrote about. well I need to lose a little more than he did if I want to weight what the doctors claim is ideal. I would love to lose what he did cause then clothes fit- smaller and my hips and waist don't fit in the same pants. I liked being a size 8-12 depending on who made the clothes- I looked good and had curves. Now, well- I look like a blimp. I am considering hypnosis. I hear it works if you let it.
from neko-carre :
First let me just stress that you do NOT need gastric bypass - just in case the thought ever crossed your mind. If you went to any good doctor inquiring about that, he would say "Carrie, you're not *that* fat," and he'd write you a prescription for phentermine, or acupuncture, or hypnosis, or something else. Gastric bypass, as I'm sure you know, is a MAJORLY dangerous procedure - as proved by the guy who almost died from it. It's my opinion that one should never have sugery for unnecessary things because of the huge risk factor. (That's why I've decided not to get a breast reduction. They'll go down with weight loss.) You'd rather be overweight and watch your daughter grow up, than be thin overnight and possibly die from the complications. I know just as much as you do how hard it is to lose weight natuarlly, but IT CAN BE DONE. You've seen that show "The Biggest Loser," right? It can be done without surgery, without pills. Obviously, for whatever reason, we are unable to get that motivation, so perhaps regular sessions with a food therapist and/or a hypnotherapist is required. Or maybe look into hiring an exclusive personal trainer where you go to HER gym where there's no one else but you and her, and you keep regular weekly appointments with her. Seriously, it'd be cheaper (& safer!) to do all those things than gastric bypass! (God, I wish we lived closer together!) Anyway, think hard about something to do, whether it's therapy or personal trainer, whatever, and make yourself stick to it for 60 days. Cross 'em off on a calendar every day. I bet you'll feel SO much better after those 60 days! (I'm going to do that too with the treadmill! Starting Monday! I'll update in K-free.)
from neko-carre :
P.S. PACKAGE!!! Thank you letter on its way to you!
from kait77 :
Thanks. I will be updating sometime, we had a death in the family and I got a stomach bug tho so may be a few days yet.
from kait77 :
LOL my hubby who can't sleep if I am away for any reason threatened to sleep on the couch when I was looking at pink sheets. So I can empathize with you but I too hate HATE HATE ruffles.
from kait77 :
Sorry, but shutting the door is the best option and safest. Ask the fire department which is safer if a fire started an open or shut door. With her door shut it gives her time to be found where the smoke has a barrier and cannot get to her as quickly as it would with her door open. Sorry but safety comes before your own emotional needs. I am suprised no one told you bedroom doors should be closed at night in case of fire.
from littlelove4 :
I recently ran across your diary and have loved reading. You sound like a wonderful mom and your daughter is absolutely beautiful!!
from bathtubmary :
i suspect it's true that i shall always be sweet on boys. and cupcakes. and you! welcome to the board. xoxo, d
from kait77 :
Would your doctor give you a few lasix to get rid of the water retension? You would want to stop the day of the wedding unless you want to be in the bethroom all day. Something about how you bloat after pickles isn't right. You really REALLY need to get it looked into. I know most doctors would say no biggie but it is not normal to swell that way from anything at least not that quickly. My advice would be an endochronologist. I know it isn't normal cause I do it too. Apparently my hormones are funny but they can't find out exactly how bad until 6mo-1yr after my last depo shot was due and a month off the pill. For me that will only come if I tie my tubes and only for the tests then I would go back on something for my periods. Please know that some clothes CAN actually make you look bigger than you are- especially when you already have a thing about seeing yourself bigger than you are. Hubby helps me avoid clothing that does that to me or is unflattering (emphasizes areas I try to disguise) because I told him flat out what I see in the mirror is always horrible so I cannot really tell if it is my problems with seeing myself as huge (when I was 95lbs and a size 3 I thought my hips were huge and I was FAT FAT FAT) and have since childhood due to a horrible parent (my mom- not step either I envy you your wonderful mother). I told him I do not see what everyone else does- I know this because I described what I see to my therapist a few years back and she had a hissy and told me exactly what she saw- she did not cover up my being overweight but she did say I magnify my imperfections. You may want someone in your life to compare what you see when you look in the mirror to reality. Maybe your mom could be the one you explain what you see to and she could tell you if it is close or off base. From the pictures I have seen I know you have weight issues but you don't look bad, heck you look a lot smaller than I look to myself and you are A LOT smaller than the people who make me afraid of my future when I see them walking in the store. I shop at the top end of sizes at Avenue because of my hips- ironically my waist is 2-3 sizes smaller than what is required for my hips to fit into clothes. I know you are nowhere near my size. I also know my doctors have decided my hormone problems have contributed SIGNIFICANTLY to my weight problem. Sometimes being overweight isn't about being lazy or over-eating sometimes our bodies have a problem and use the weight to try and alert us but our society has been conditioned to believe all fat people are lazy and glutonous. You are a beautiful person, inside and out. I think you need to hear this more often. I have not allowed a picture of me to be taken since my wedding because I am so ashamed of my size. You are so much braver than I am. You also have more will power than I ever have. You are doing everything right, you only flounder when you try and take away all your treats and go completely healthy and that is because forbidding yourself to have things you like makes you want them more. If you keep a small supply on hand and allow yourself a reasonable portion of treats you will find you can stick to a diet better. You also try and make instant drastic changes which also sets you up to fail. Small changes made gradually will be ones you can stick to forever. I am telling you this because I have seen you beat yourself up again and again and you do not deserve what you accuse yourself of. You are doing so much better than you used to and even if you look at the scales and cringe you still try and are honest about your problem. Your horrible step father has done so much harm, I see aspects of my own issues with weight and food in you- I know myself and my problems so well, I studied to try and understand why I hate my body. I have learned how damaging what happens in childhood can be. I want you to know that you are doing the right things, you just expect too much too fast from yourself. You should stop worrying about weight- give yourself a break who cares what the world thinks you need to stop beating yourself up over your weight. Your biggest concern for the next year should be a slow addition of fresh fruits and veggies to your daily life- EVERYONE in your house needs to have this slow change occur. Another small change would be to add a whole grain product in replacement of a rfined product each month. This is not about losing weight it is about teaching Bella to eat healthy and improving your own health. You might lose weight but even if you don't it will still benifit your health and it will also help your mother and husband as well. You want everyone you love to live a long and healthy life. Forget weight. Trust me if you do and just concentrate on making gradual changes toward a healthier diet then you will be happier. I want to see you happy and being nice to yourself when you talk about weight and clothes. I would love to see you say the changes were easy and that without realizing it you had improved your body. I can add another tip directly from my endochronologist- add exercise in 10-15 minute incriments each week. Say your goal is 30 minutes 3 times a week. Start out with 15 minutes one day a week for a few weeks. Then add 15 more. Always allow at least 2 weeks for the time to become habbit. Also at first the 15 minutes added should be on different days until you have the number of days you want to have activity in your life. Then you increase by 5-10 minutes one day each week until you get the amount of time you set as a goal. Adding all the goal all at once will sabotage you because you will hate it but do it out of sheer stubborness until you miss a day and then it is down hill until you have completely given up. This way it becomes a way of life, a habit. Also the activity should be something YOU enjoy. Like dancing with Bella, walking with your husband, even sex counts. Yep my doctor said sex- so long as your pulse rises counts as exercise. Imagine such a fun activity being countable in an exercise program. I loved that one. I am telling you all this because I care and lately you seem to be so down on yourself over your weight. I am not trying to offend or upset you. I know how much someone coming and saying do this and your weight problem will go away can upset a person and even make you feel defensive. But you need to notice I did not say this will make you lose weight. It may not, your problem may not be diet or exercise or anything in your control because honestly you do not seem to have as serious a diet or exercise problem as you think. What this WILL DO is IMPROVE YOUR HEALTH and if your whole house makes these changes with you it will improve their health too. Plus this is how you teach Bella to have more balance. This is how you avoid Bella having eating problems. This is how you break the cycle. I care and want you to see that you do not need to change your entire life to be a good mom or a wonderful person, you are already all those things. I get so sad sometimes when I read about what you adn Bella are doing. I miss being a mom. I miss it so much, yet I did what was best for my daughters and in the long term for me health wise even if it broke my heart and still does. The doctors say caring for a child let alone more than one right now would undo all the progress we have made. I am told my being able to sleep when tired and conserve energy has saved my life and will eventually be a major part of controlling my disease. I would give anything to have the oportunity you have here. I envy you so much sometimes. I miss the baby/toddler times. I miss cuddling that small warm body and telling my daughters I love them and smothering them in kisses and hugs. I miss watching them discover everything new and teaching them how to deal with life. You likely already know everything I told you about improving your health, I know it. I am trying very hard to follow my own advice. I want to watch my daughters go to college, fall in love, marry, have their own children, and I want to hear my doctors say that I can try again with my husband because he is so great with my daughters, he loves them so much- more than their biological father ever did- and they love him. He deserves to be a father. He also deserves a wife who is not constantly ill. I want you to have a full and happy life and I want Bella to have her mom when she has kids. These diets you keep trying scare me because of the extreme changes your body cannot handle such fast change as well as we all assume it can. I also want to be reading your diary for many years to come- that means you and I both need to get healthier. So I will again say that I think the way you describe the water retension is not normal- I know it freaked my doctors out when they saw my water retension for themselves. Mine has nothing to do with my disease, they checked my kidneys really thoroughly after witnessing how bad it can get. They suspect it is hormonal. They also say a large portion of my overweight may be fluid stored in my fat cells. You need to get this checked out for your sake as well as those who love and care about you. Please take my advice as it was meant- someone trying to help you avoid experiencing some of the worst side effects of yo-yo dieting and other health problems. I was anorexic as a teen. I still do not like to eat. I skip meals, somedays I do not eat at all. I have thinning bones, not from disease or medication or even genetics. My bones are thinning because of my diet. My disease is 10 times worse because of my diet- I am officially malnourished. My doctors tell me I am killing myself because of my low food intake and poor eating habits. Understand my advice comes from knowing what can happen when the absolute worst diet is followed. I went hungry a lot as a kid. I can remember crying in bed at about 7 or 8 because I was hungry and couldn't get anything to eat. My body is in horrible shape from bad diet. You need to know poor diet as a young child causes serious problems as an adult. Bella needs to learn good eating habits NOW, adopting them later in life as you and I both know from experience is very hard. My research into nutrition and immune system function terrifies me when I look at my own diet and what I have learned. Nutrition is a huge, vital part of having a normal immune system. You can cause irreversable damage if poor nutrition is prolonged. I care very much what happens to you. I may not know you in real life but I have come to view you as a friend of sorts. I do not want to see you suffer my fate. I also do not want your daughter to pick up the horrible habbits we both seem to share when it comes to food. I hope that I have not upset you or made you mad. I also hope someday we can meet in person. I wish you luck and hope you know that no matter what shows on the outside the wonderful person you are inside shows even more. You shine brightly from within and it makes you more beautiful than those stupid rail thin models we see in magazines or the actresses in movies and on T.V. I hope you will take care of yourself for your own sake but to give you extra modivation if you want to know what malnutrition does to a child's immune system give me an email addy and I will send you the fruits of my research. Funny how a historical question developed into a medical and nutritional research project. The worst part is not knowing what your diet is doing to your body, it is knowing what a bad diet can do to your kids- what I found terrifies me and makes me very angry at myself because my oldest is so obcessed with staying thin because my weight embarasses her that I worry she is going to become anorexic.
from neko-carre :
You're so sweet to rework my goodie package to send stuff for Dave! Can you *be* any more thoughtful and generous? That Bella is a lucky girl! Well, Dave loves magazines - music magazines, comics, National Geographic, the New Yorker, girly mags. And Dealy Plaza historical stuff. And yes, definitely lip balm. I HEART YOU!
from kait77 :
I have good news for you. My 11yr old daughter's best friends are all boys BUT they are not boyfriend type friends- my daughter is kind of a tom-boy. My 8 (almost 9)yr old has boys who are friends and likes them but not boyfriend way. Adults tend to put the boyfriend-girlfriend label on when all it is is a simple friendship. As young as she is friends hug, nap near each other, and such and also FIGHT when they play at school or daycare. This is nothing NOTHING to worry about. Now start worrying when she wants to wear make-up or special clothes so a boy- or boys will look at her and think she is sexy. That is when you have to worry. I think Bella is safe for many years to come from any serious problems of the kind you are worried about. She doesn't even really understand the difference between boys and girls yet (that is something she will not be able to understand even with explinations for several years with any real comprehension). Young kids seem to be oblivious to that kind of thing.
from k-free :
Really? You're gonna do it with me? Oh man, that'd be so great!! We can both do this. Ten pounds is nothing, really. Thank you so much for coming along with me. We're in this together! YAY! (P.S. Did you get the text msg on your cell phone last night?)
from kait77 :
Hope things continue to be amazing. Bella will be strong willed for a while (the rest of her life) and the bed issues will likely be a problem for a couple more years. Sorry, but been there done that have the t-shirt and hat. Once she realizes she can do things in her room and the rest of the house so long as she is quiet while you sleep the wanting to be in your bed will end... ummm sorry likely shouldn't have given you that much of a glimpse into the future cause now you will want her in your room.
from kait77 :
Thanks. I figured out why I hurt so bad yesterday. Stupid me (or should I say brain not working properly?) I forgot my morning medication yesterday which includes one of my two mega doses of anti-inflammatories (I have to take the same size dose twice a day). I felt really stupid when hubby informed me- yet I have not forgotten in a month or so thus it was about time for it to happen.
from kait77 :
Hope all is well. Your diary has made me a little braver with my own. I made an entry that a few months ago I would never have been able to bring myself to. THANKS!
from kait77 :
http://www.evanwashere.com/StolenSidekick/ See what you think of this, personally I wish more ppl found creative ways to deal with this kind of crime that would make others aware it is a crime and that it does happen
from neko-carre :
Oh my god, I totally love you. More to say to you soon!
from kait77 :
Hope you are okay out there.
from neko-carre :
Helloooo, Miss C? Where have you been? I miss you!
from neko-carre :
Hi honey! Hey, I just wanted to tell you that Dave keeps stealing all the minty lip balms you got for me! Ha! But at least girls at his office tease him for using "lip gloss." P.S. Who was that love letter from? That guy you work with?
from noaddedme :
I'm wearing the tiara now and weird creepy sock guy just came over to apologize for something he thought I messed up (and didn't) ... he didn't seem to notice it. I might have to get a new id picture taken :)
from kait77 :
Sorry, you may be entering the terrible twos (and threes and fours in some cases). I know it was embarassing but you did not hit her and that tells the teacher everything she needs to know about you as a parent. Instead you said we don't hit. You are giving the right message. Eventually Bella will absorb this message. Please stop by and read my entry on lupus research. The pass it on to as many friends as you can because the vote coming up affects a lot more than lupus. Trust me women and children are hurt by what congress is about to do.
from smedindy :
OK, I know Zonnie was one, but who is the second comment that you followed?
from curious-me :
Hi there, I stumbled across your diary and have been reading it for a while now. I really relate to the weight issues and I LOVE reading stories and seeing pictures of your little princess - she's adorable. I have added you as one of my 'favourites' and I look forward to reading more of you! Take care.
from bathtubmary :
isabella? honey, that is a regal name. a queen's name. she's going to rule something someday (i think we're seeing signs of this already). in all my expertise (ha!) i'd say you chose wisely. xoxo, d
from bathtubmary :
it's funny, i do enjoy exercise these days. for some reason i don't dread it any more. i just do it. don't get me wrong, sometimes during a run i feel like it takes me a million years and i want to quit, but i love what it does for me after. i don't know how to get you to catch my bug, but i think it is possible. xoxo, d
from portia12 :
Grrr. No longer likin the Toby Keith either. Recently if I saw his pic I thought of you, but now, MEH
from smedindy :
I got the comment, though, hon!
from kait77 :
some people need to get a life and some manners. They also need to learn that their opinion doesn't matter and that sorry but I have seen lots of kids and Bella is CUTE they are an idiot. I have no clue on the ice cube sometimes kids just do the strangest things.
from bathtubmary :
i love you and i love bella and if i ever get to publication you all are for sure on my advanced reader copies list! xoxo, d
from leema :
Hey. Hope I could help you on your fish deaths. Or try here: aquatopiaforum.com
from bathtubmary :
hey, congrats on being quoted lady! i must say i wasn't at all surprised to see your name on there, but believe me, that wasn't even close to the funniest or cleverest thing you've ever written. and it was quite funny. i bet you'll get a million new readers. way to go rockstar! xoxo, d
from plopphizz :
Congrats, you have been Quoted: http://quoted.diaryland.com/myparty.html. Thanks for the great writing. -- Ploppy.
from kait77 :
thanks, I needed a laugh with how things have been going. I finally have time to catch up things. btw Bella was cute this easter I loved her outfit I vividly recall the taking off/pulling up of dresses and how some people reacted when my girls were Bella's age. she will eventually get past it but just to warn you, my oldest refuses to wear dresses and has for years. she may turn out to hate them. my youngest wears dresses any chance she gets so it kind of evens out.
from neko-carre :
Hi. Your opinion is requested on my entry from last night, por favor. Also - everything okay with you? Talk to me, sweetheart.
from neko-carre :
I *know* that you could totally hold your own with an antique shopping marathon! Yes. Get over here. Pronto. Oh, and I'm fat too. Thought for a second maybe I wasn't, and then some pictures over the weekend proved that yes, indeed I am.
from portia12 :
Hang in there. I'm not a mom yet, but having talked to my mom, I know it's not easy when the kids are frustrating at times. There will be great times and hard times. It's great, but I'm sure it's the most difficult job in the world. Bella is in her terrible twos and from this I'm sure it will just get easier.
from neko-carre :
Hahahaha, you sneaky gal! Yes, I do have caller i.d., both on my cell and at work. But I suppose you could call my cell and leave me a message. That way I could hear your voice and you could hear mine BEFORE we actually talked to each other. Heh heh.
from kait77 :
your csa is an insensitive bitch. I know how hard it is to give up your rights to your child, a child you love and want desprately but know that if you try to keep that child their life will be horrible. Sorry but she is a bitch. I love and wanted to keep my daughters, but I didn't want their father abusing them. Sometimes even blood ties can't keep someone from being horrible to a child. As for looking at your computer screen you need to put up a sign that says take a seat. If they do not respect your space they can wait outside. No one except your boss has the right to read what is on your computer screen. The csa who did so should be told she does not belong on that side of your desk. Period. The customer should have listened to you, next time try this is classified information sit down in the chair. If they don't listen your boss needs to step up and say sit or we won't sell you the product. What if this was an industrial spy sent to check out your security/prices/etc.. to try and ruin the business or steal business? Sorry these people need to BEHAVE AND MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS! btw adopted children are not throw away children. Everyone wants them, but few can afford them. You are Bella's mom no matter what that bitch said and I am my daughters' mom no matter what the legal system says. But please remember that Bella's birth mother is her mom too because she loved her so much she let her go so she could have a better life.
from neko-carre :
Thank you for offering me a place to vent, honey! That means a lot to me, and I may take you up on that now & then. And, OMG!! That building across the street would be the PERFECT place for a Sephora, which the Kan does not yet have!! Now ya got me thinking!
from kait77 :
Sometimes guys say things when they are angry that isn't really something that bothers them but that someone else has suggested is a problem and they can't express what is bugging them so they leach onto this other person's idea of what is wrong. Other times they say things that they really don't mean because they are hurting for one reason or another and want to hurt someone else in return. They have been trained not to hit women (at least decent ones have) and so they use the only weapons available- what we worry about being wrong or doing wrong they throw back at us because they know it is something that bothers us and thus they will not be miserable alone. Other times the thing is that they really are bothered by whatever it is they say when angry but cannot admit it even to themselves when they are not trying to argue/fight. You might want to try and figure out which of these might have been the case and then deal with it accordingly.
from bathtubmary :
i highly recommend big love. if nothing else, it makes you think. l-word totally lost me this year, anyway. xo, d
from bathtubmary :
don't worry hon, i'd be jealous, too ;). have a wonderful weekend and i hope all will be well bella-wise and dress-wise and everything-wise. xoxox, d
from kait77 :
I have no clue on the dress but know how you can find out about the bruises. Take her to her doctor tell him/her that you found these after you sent your daughter to daycare and want to know if they are normal kid bruises or if you need to find a new daycare because you don't want anyone leaving bruises on Bella. Basically that would give you answers, document the bruises, and if authorities need to investigate her new daycare then the dr will know how to get that process started. Plus it protects you from allegations of child abuse. Sorry but sometimes innocent people get acused by daycare centers when it was one of their people or normal kid bruises. I want you and Bella protected. I do have an idea on how to know for sure on the dress. If you currently own a good body slimmer then try that and see how far apart the zipper is w/o tugging on the material- just held up against the skin so that it is as close as it can get w/o folding the skin or getting the material out of shape. It could tell you exactly how much closer a slimmer would get it. Personally I would not have been in the wedding with that dress. It is aweful. I mean come on have they no consideration for the person carrying around a few extra pounds? Oh on the weight loss front have you considered an endochronologist and being tested for PCOS/PCOD and glucose intollerance? Both wreak havoc with even the best dieter and both cause weight problems that are difficult to concur and even when weight is lost w/o medication to regulate the problem it will come back.
from neko-carre :
Hi! How ya doin? Hope work isn't making you too batty. Miss you!
from kait77 :
Hopefully the boss thought you hung up and didn't hear you. I can't even enter Bath & Bodyworks anymore due to my allergies. I love the peony and vanilla body sprays but until my allergies are well controlled I have to avoid perfumes.
from neko-carre :
Ha! That's so funny that just the other day I commented on how much you look like your mom and that I'd say "gah!" if someone said the same to me - and then I go post old pics of my mom and many people have said that! But actually the two pics I posted are very good pics of my mom, so I'm flattered! ~ The Fashionable Plan is working very well so far! I worked out (actually jogged) on the treadmill last night, AND I didn't eat any candy yesterday at all, even though it's within arms reach on my desk. Maybe it's just me, but my clothes actually feel a bit looser today? Yay!
from kait77 :
Okay I see it, and just to verify I asked hubby to look at the drawing and he started laughing and said it was obviously misdrawn. He pointed out the fact that the part that looks like big balls is closed while the "wings" are not closed. He said this is why it looks that way- and that being slightly lopsided on size of shamrock leaves made it worse.
from neko-carre :
Okay, the mascara I really like is Maybelline Volum' Express, waterproof, very black. It's the best I've tried so far, but I've yet to find a mascara that makes me go, "OH MY GOD, this stuff is AMAZING!" This stuff is good, but no seriously notable difference from any other mascara, really. I'd like to try that one they show on t.v. that has the built-in primer with a brush on one side, and the mascara with another brush on the other side.
from smedindy :
Thanks for the mega-comment. And yes, I am sure that you are just as fun as a bottle red, especially with your late night...activity! You know, Liz told me this morning that she was interested at about 6:45, however, katie usually plops into our room at 7:00. Just a word of warning!
from smedindy :
Hey, glad you're back. If you are still catching up, check out my Feb. 24 for cuteness and yesterday's entry (March 6) for pics of our Montessori dad's program!
from kait77 :
Glad you had a great time. I tried to do another touchy feely post but am not sure I got it quite right. I wish I had as interesting a life as yours to write about.
from ishouldcry :
thank you for your note but I have actually decided to delete that entry. He phoned shortly after but though he isn't forgiven, he's given me some answers so I can rest now. I hate the not knowing more than anything. It just makes me crazy and irrelevent when I am not consulted. Back to normal(-ish) now. Thank you :) Becca
from kait77 :
I think most of the calories and fat come from 2 sources the crust and the gravy. The gravy has high fat content for taste and so does the crust ironically. Don't worry too much although next time try a stoffers entree. Here is something that could be fun and that you might decide you want to do yourself http://kevan.org/johari?name=kait77
from bathtubmary :
petey was the absolute worst! and i thought it was interesting that you only got to see the kids at camp and not really in their home lives because it seemed to me that this wasn't just weight-loss camp, but camp for spoiled, privileged kids. no apparent consequences for actions. no making the kids do anything they didn't want to do. what's the point? made for good tv, anyway. thanks for the house wishes. hopefully it won't be too bad...xoxo, d
from kait77 :
I would be very concerned that Bella was able to do that much to the "audio/visual center" before someone tried to take the controls away from her. Supervision may be lax at this new school. I am sorry but it was their fault not yours and to take you aside and "speak" with you points out that they expect a heck of a lot more self control out of the kids they are supposed to be WATCHING than they should given their age. I don't care how educational this place is it sounds like they aren't doing the best for Bella. You may want to look into taking her back to her old school or even check into a nanny (sometimes they are cheaper than daycare). She can get educational enrichment from the money you save by buying educational toys or even putting the extra cash in her college fund. She is only 18 months old and pushing too hard too soon for educational stuff could cause her to burn out as a teen. Its great that you want to help Bella get smarter but it is better that Bella needs to learn at her own pace rather than on a schedule. Children will stop wanting to learn because it becomes a chore instead of fun if they are pushed faster than they want to go. Don't mean to offend in any way but this has been a problem with children I have seen and has been talked about on the news multiple times. It has become a life threatening problem in Japan where kids feel so much pressure they are killing themselves to escape. Besides who would you rather have teaching Bella new things you or some stranger who could care less about her future. Preschool is soon enough for a classroom style learning experience. For now let Bella enjoy being a baby while she can, they grow up way too fast.
from kait77 :
Don't feel bad I absolutely hate other people's ill behaved children but adore my own who know how to behave. Not being predjudiced here, my kids actually behave while I tend to have to put up with other people's kids being rude, illtempered, spoiled little monsters. I have met a few who behave. Happy Valentine's Day. Mine is kind of a low- hubby is in class and I am itchy from allergy testing. I need to go live somewhere sterile and pristine- obviously.
from bathtubmary :
i got your card yesterday - loved it. you are so sweet! have a great day. xoxo, d
from ameliorating :
Happy Valentine's Day!! Ugh, I hate Chuck E. Cheese as well! I think that must be in the bad parents handbook as "place where you can leave your brats so they can run, push, shove, and annoy the crap out of every adult in the place"
from kait77 :
Glad to hear things are going well with you. Especially on the weightloss front. I have had weird but semi good news today.
from smedindy :
Soon, Grasshopper, perhaps soon. The inspiration must hit!
from smedindy :
Oh, BTW, still no teeth. I think she'll grow about 8 at once. Katie had at least four teeth after 7 1/2 months, maybe more.
from smedindy :
It's actually not that expensive here. It costs only $195 a month for it. And since Katie and Kristin are spaced far enough apart, they won't be in there at the same time, as Katie will be in first grade when Kristin goes to preschool.
from kait77 :
you make me very glad I don't have any friends that feel close enough to drag me into their wedding. I hate dresses- they make my hips look 10 feet wide. I look so much smaller when I wear pants.
from kait77 :
I go for a nuclear stress test tomorrow. We will know next Thursday what is going to happen and if all is well or we need to plan for problems (I should say more but hey I am hoping for a cure in the next 5-10yrs)
from neko-carre :
Hi! Nope, nothing yet. But they could still come today. Sometimes the post office is lazy with delivering boxes here. And yes, I often try "body lotions" for hand lotion. Sometimes they can be just the perfect texture! Squee, I can't wait!
from kait77 :
Sounds like you were a very good girl. Hope you continue to be so. Your mom is sweet and sounds like a good grandma.
from smedindy :
Thanks for the add. I hope you found your way through the archives, but the big days are November 9, August 31, and June 12. You and your daughter are so cute together!
from smedindy :
Hey! I found you through Zon (and I noticed the LAP is at the top of your list - all hail!) I have two beautiful adopted daughters (both domestic, as newborns) and it's great. Hiding in my archives are their stories. Take care!
from bathtubmary :
thank you, darling. i knew you could see right through me from the start. and believe me, i'm mainlining the airborne. xoxo, d
from kait77 :
CONGRATS! come by read 1/22 and tell me if I am wrong to feel hurt by my hubby's comment. I would love to know if I am being over sensitive.
from zonoria :
Heh, I was just reading down your buddylist. I guess it's okay to take some of my previous incarnations off now. ;-)
from kait77 :
She is very cute. I wish you had had a baby shower too. I also wish I were rich enough I could have attended if you had. I too am home for the day just not having as much fun as it would seem you are. I am in bed and plan to stay here unless nature calls all day. Walking is just a little too painful right now. Hope your day goes wonderfully well.
from noaddedme :
oh you'll find those muscles some day. Apparently from how my body feels they are actually invovled in about every aspect of getting up and walking that there is. I'm slowly finding lots of hidden things. I do hope I find my abs some day too :)
from pornoshoes :
Thanks for the lovely note! Your diary is so charming, especially the Bella bits. Congrats on keeping up with the food plan, too :)
from neko-carre :
FYI. I kept the "me, me" password for my workout diary. When I put the layout back to the Relax one, I couldn't remember what the previous passwords were.
from neko-carre :
WOT?! I made you the layout *because* you always do such nice things for me, Missy Perkins!! So, darn you! Now I have to do something extra surprisingly nice. (Not cuz I have to, but cuz I really want to!) You're so good to me. Okay, so in answer to your lotion questions, no - the only True Blue Spa I've tried are the Tahiti Sweetie and the Look Ma New Hands. I LOVE the consistency of both of those, especially the Tahiti Sweetie. See, I wash my hands all the time, and I put lotion on every time I do, so we're talking lotion application probably ten to fifteen times a day. I don't even mind greasy - I just want to feel the stuff, to know that it's there and that it's working. I love seeing my fingernails shine after putting it on too! If Tahiti Sweetie wasn't so heavy on the mango, it would be my favorite lotion. I wear it anyway (thank you for it!!). And thank you in advance for the surprises! I'm a lucky girl to have you in my life. :)
from bathtubmary :
shane in a dress was shocking, but even moreso was her naked even-more-emaciated-than-usual-ness. here's hoping carmen's family can bulk her up with some mexican food ;-). i love that show even when it's annoying. xoxo, d
from mrcleanluver :
Thank you so much for the sweet comment! You made me feel loads better. Mean people suck. I love the new layout!! And love love LOVE the pictures of the beautiful Bella!!! I have a bunch of sparkly Princess stickers so I'll make you a chart. hehe I made myself one too. So far I only have two stickers on it. *sad face* I haven't exercised for like 5 days. I suck. Oh well. You rock so you have more sparkly stickers. *prance* Go you!
from mommylap :
Pozole is mexican. It's pork and hominy soup (or stew) and it has lots of yummy garnishes like sliced radishes(also awesome on tacos)cilantro, lime wedges, avocado etc. Oh yeah JALEPENO. I made it soupy today and it's making me feel nutured.
from dietingjenn :
I hear you! I haven't tried on ANYTHING yet. I want to be at 179 at the heaviest by the time I need to get fitted. I guess I am still hoping for a magic pill or something. But, here I go again. I feel like a broken record sometimes but at least we keep trying, you know. I wish I lived there or you here and we can 3-D motivate, you know?
from kait77 :
Yeah well his tonsilectomy diet was made worse because they removed part of his soft pallete. I ordered the head massager off amazon for less than 10.
from kait77 :
My hubby lost a disgusting amount of weight on the tonsilectomy diet. Then his doctor said to put him on South Beach- she said it is most nutritionally sound and has longer lasting results than WW.
from kait77 :
try benedrill it will help her sleep and as long as you only give her the dosage listed it will not hurt her at all
from neko-carre :
Did my present come to you yet? I figure you'd tell me, but I'm so excited for you to get it, and it's late, dangit!
from bathtubmary :
enjoy the holiday with bella! she's going to be so much fun this year. xoxo, d
from kait77 :
Your pen is cute, but not as cute as Bella. I hope your holidays are merry, mine are looking up. I posted a short but newsy post today.
from neko-carre :
Well, there are exceptions, and you are one of them because I see pics of Bella every day so it's almost like I know her! I'm talking about the people who I haven't seen or spoken to in years and then I get a photo of their kids. Hell, I didn't even know she had kids. It was silly.
from neko-carre :
Hey, babe. If you saw someone looking at a bajillion pages in your stats, that was me. Dave & I were looking at Bella pics. He LOVES the tree you sent, by the way. He took pictures of it even!
from kait77 :
you are truely blessed and Bella is absolutely adorable and always has been. My newsy post is finally here but brace yourself if you read it. That is all I am going to say.
from kait77 :
Yeah fevers can be terrifying. At 4 days old my oldest developed a 105+ temp and turned out to be menegitis- thank god she was unharmed but spent 2 weeks in hospital on IV antibiotics. If you wanna feel better about your dieting problems visit my diary- I have had a major setback.
from neko-carre :
Hi! Man, I don't know what it is. Maybe the winter blahs? That and, yes, I've actually been pretty busy. But I can certainly tell that this lack of exercise has made me gain weight. I can see it in my face, and I just feel like crap - I'm scared to get on the scale, like seriously scared of what I'll see. I actually did get on the treadmill over the weekend (Saturday), as well as last Tuesday (haven't updated Gurlesque), but I just walked quickly, I just perspired. So yes - I've GOT to get off my ass, Carrie, I've just got to! But I agree, I think two days a week and whatever else we can get in, is realistic. Let's do that. Two days REQUIRED, plus additional attempted. Sound good?
from ishouldcry :
Thank you so much for your nice note. I have seen many diaries cut down or cut out completely because of bad things. This is a bad diary revolution. :) I'm glad I've moved on but I will keep it for those times things do get a little scary. Thank you for your ongoing following and support. I'll still have my other diary anyway. Take care. Becca.
from soccernut :
What a cutie! And gosh, we share the same name - nice taste yours is!!! Bella :)
from neko-carre :
Hi! That painting is an original oil painting by a Russian artist named Senegali (an Italian immigrant) in the 80s. We actually have two of them. They're on loan to us and are supposedly worth thousands. I've had to raise our renter's insurance because of them! (P.S. Email coming soon.)
from neko-carre :
Fox, man oh man oh man. I was obsessed in the 90s. So who are the other two that we share?
from kait77 :
I own pilates for dummies on DVD. Funny thing is watching it makes me hurt. I only tried those moves ONCE and found quickly that even the dummies version was too much for my out of shape fat bloblike body. The positions made me even more aware of the problems with being big. I made a short newsish entry just so you know.
from kait77 :
I can't believe a year has passed
from bathtubmary :
back atcha, my dear. i find i'd rather be a pudge over the holidays than be a grouch about all i'm missing. if i can just avoid being grouchy about being feeling pudgy, then i'll have it all figured out. xoxox, d
from kait77 :
The newsy post will come as soon as I can get a break- 2 huge papers to write in the next 3 weeks. 1 due next week the other soon after
from kait77 :
Nana should have known better than to allow this to start in the first place. As Nana had at least one baby of her own she should have realized the problems that would occur. Baby may be ready for a realy bed though as my babies were all in toddler beds before age 2- oldest was escape artist and climbed out of crib and fell causing mommy to freak out and buy toddler bed so it wouldn't occur again. Baby needs to learn she has to sleep in her own bed which ever kind that may be. Problem outside crib baby will decide to open bedroom door and leave when she wakes- thus will need safty door handle thingies so baby can not open her door and get into SERIOUS trouble.
from bathtubmary :
she definitely knew they were blanks because the guy at the gun store said 'do you know what these are?' and later she referenced her father being unable to read english. very cleverly written. it'll have me thinking for a long time. and as much as i'd love to have a bra made from this sweater material, it's probably for the best that i don't because i guess i don't need to be going around all turned on all the time. i mean, moreso than usual. xoxo, d
from bathtubmary :
yes, 'tiny ladies' is seriously brilliant. and i have been dying to try one of those menthol drops for the shower. that kind of thing is right up my alley. i'll let you know how it is if i try it. xoxo, d
from bathtubmary :
thanks, but you don't have to spy on him. he's a genuinely good guy, just haven't thought of him for years. good luck staving off the cold monster! xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Tee hee! "The Penis Mightier" is an SNL Celebrity Jeopardy reference. The Sean Connery character always confuses the categories, so for "The Pen Is Mightier," he said "The Penis Mightier." Hahaha! And for "Therapist," he said, "The Rapist."
from kait77 :
I wish I could go, unfortunately finances and a lack of vaction time make it impossible. We haven't had a real vacation ever.
from beltwaybelle :
D-land currently thinks I'm a spammer, so I'm leaving a note instead. That jacket-top combination would be PERFECT on you for the holidays! And yes, Bella is cute from the back, too. I just love the way hoods look on wee ones from the back. It's so sweet and cuddly and, "AWWWW, you have your hood up over your ears?" Heh.
from kait77 :
the jacket is actually more aristocratic than pimpy. yet if my hubby suggested I try on clothes now I would hurt him- I am having a lupus flare and hurt so bad. I wish I could go for walks like you have been.
from kait77 :
I too am heavier now than when I began my diary way back in 2002
from kait77 :
it will be hard but you need this time away, unless you want to risk your happy marriage for one of duty simply because you can't stand to be away from your daughter. She deserves happy parents. So go and have fun- she will not feel abandoned and may even have loads of fun. In any case when you come back she will be overjoyed.
from kait77 :
Speaking of tonsilectomies-my hubby is having one- along with 2 other painful procedures later this month. His doctor claims he will be able togo back to work after a week as long as he forces himself to drink 2 liters of fluids minimum a day.
from neko-carre :
Yep, it's a metal tree. From Pottery Barn. On sale for $19.99 with free shipping!!
from kait77 :
Just got back from a week inpatient over my gallbladder and was cheered up by your recent posts, although the laughing did hurt the incision sites a bit.
from ishouldcry :
thank you for your notes at both my diaries. I actually forgot to mention salad cream and low fat mayo. lol. I'm sauce obsessed. a girl needs variety. and toddlers huh??? I dread teenage years if this is their stance on society at just under 2.Becca
from jellehbelleh :
Hey, I was in the cafeteria...but I got distracted at the ice cream kart with that cute boy, Bobby Perkins! He's so Dreamy! Wanna sign my year book?!
from neko-carre :
I just updated Gurlesque too. Go look.
from neko-carre :
Re: the Gurlesque two-week challenge. Let's do it! So, starting next Monday, we do four (or five?) days a week, and at the end of the second week, we send each other lip balm (I don't wear gloss as much, but I can't ever get enough balm!) and a sweet letter. Sound good?
from kait77 :
When I stayed at one school ong enough to make friends we passed notes just not in class. I hope your day is as wonderful as your daughter is beautiful. I am having a miserable one.
from neko-carre :
Hi! Hi hi! Let's see, movie rec: I definitely loved "Life Or Something Like It" with Angelina Jolie. It's been a while since I've seen it, but it's in my Netflix queue right now because the topic is somewhat similar to my next NaNo novel and I'm so excited to see it again. That one's a buy'er. As far as Fall colors go, I ALWAYS love the Fall colors. Grays, I don't know. I suck with eyeshadow anyway - no one ever taught me how to apply it to look like women in magazines. I still like orange eyeshadow - brings out my blue eyes - and of course, pink, always. But clothing-wise, the dark colors come out (no pink or pastels at all). And tweed, tweed, tweed! So... shall we begin [Gurlesque]? "Yes, Lisa." (Get it? My Prince reference. Hee.)
from kait77 :
Try making reservations/apointment with JC Penny join their photo club it makes it cheaper. They tend to have people better trained and more used to dealing with kids. Also dress her before you go but make sure you will get there within 30 minutes of her being dressed. Changing their clothes makes the kids cranky and uncooperative and as you learned is cruel and unusual punishment for mommy. You may want to take a favorite book or toy to keep her still for the picture.
from kait77 :
Have you considered trying a vaginal irritation cream (no yeast) they contain soothing ingredients. Vinager might be an answer. If all else fails call your gyn. BTW come by and see the work crisis maybe you could offer some guidance as I am feeling rather numb now that the upset part is gone.
from kait77 :
I hate dieting right now. I am still on prednisone and have gained 12 pounds since April despite starving myself because I know 50-75% of my hunger is steroid induced. I had a question a while back you mentioned Bare Minerals make up. Can you tell me anything about it? I really want to wear makeup again but regular stuff makes me break out in rashes and acne.
from aliboomboom :
I feel the same way about dieting. I've been counting calories on and off for two months and I've only lost 13 pounds. Blech. I'm going to have to start working out and I hate that. I think Bella's outfit is adorable. I think a lot of little girl clothes are grown up but I think it's cute. I like to dress Griffin like a big boy from time to time. What is Bella dressing as for Halloween? I want Griffin to be something cute and cuddly because I think it's the last year he can get away with a baby costume, my mom wants him to be Elvis though so I don't know. Good luck with dieting. Maybe it'll be easier now that things are back to normal at home?
from just2cusmile :
I am so sorry to hear about your dog! We adopted our dog from the Humane Society also and it was a lot like your situation-you just when its right and that dog is a good match for your family...Im sure Molly knew she was loved,cause if she made you happy~then you made her happy!! hugs
from kait77 :
She is cute and I remember those times when I would walk into a store with a clean dry baby and suddenly I had a stinky messy baby but hadn't planned on being gone long enough to bring a diaper bag. Trust me I recall those times. Next time see if they have a restroom. Now a days most places with restrooms also have a vending machine that dispenses emergancy diaper, wipes, and changing pad. Also sometimes it is easier to take them to a sink and rinse then wash rather than trying to get everything with wipes. It makes a mess that is horrifying to clean up and for that you need something that kills germs but as long as the kid gets cleaned up really good who cares about washing a sink or even the tub.
from neko-carre :
Hi, babe. Send me an email if you need to talk about K. Hang in there - he's a good man. Roses help! And congrats on the six pounds! We'll catch up with Gurlesque whenever. Let's not kill ourselves, trying to do it all. Love you!
from just2cusmile :
look at her holding her lil babys head too will she is feeding her baby-how adorable!! Your not crazy at all for hiding out until the coast was clear-you cant trust anybody anymore and i would of run like a bat out of hell too!!
from kait77 :
She is so cute. Hope you had fun. Hope I feel better soon and leave you a real note for once.
from just2cusmile :
dont be so hard on yourself-your very pretty and seem to have a great personality and beautiful lil girl and a husband that loves you and a great diary ;) I need a work out partner too...
from neko-carre :
RIGHT!!!
from jellehbelleh :
To see what my fanFUCKINGtastic costume is, click on the entry titled "27th Birthday". There is a link on that page to the picture. And yeah, B and I have only been married for three months, but we've been in love for four years...He truly is my better half!
from purr67 :
:( I left and came back to a locked diary...sigh may I get your password? smiles pretty
from kait77 :
Sounds like you are having more fun than me today.
from neko-carre :
Hey, did you notice that Gurlesque has a reader? Someone put us on their buddy list. Ha! Hope it motivates them too.
from neko-carre :
You know what I love about Gurlesque? That our names are the same. How wonderfully appropriate that we're partners! We should've called it "The Karries." Hee hee.
from just2cusmile :
what a beautiful head of hair-your going to have so much fun doing her hair and styling it!! we loved it when our boys got off formula next comes the diapers!!! :)
from makinganewme :
No! I am smelly with you today! I title my entries by dates and for some reason I am stuck on August 11th. I wrote that on two checks today. Oops. Hang in there! Crazy that two Texas gals are yuck on the same day, huh?
from kait77 :
Just to let you know it will not scar her for life to take a shower with mommy- she may enjoy it. Shots always cause issues afterwards she may need a dose of tylonol before bed tonight to help with pain at the injection site/in the muscle around it. I remember having those kind of mornings only I never had anywhere to go so I kinda stopped caring how I looked. Congrats on table foods but keeping the fruits and veggies going is a very good idea as it will help balance her diet. If you have leftover formula and she has a day she refuses to eat give her that or you could donate it to a crisis pregnancy center. Definately time for a hair cut- she has so much my girls has almost none for 2 long years. Now they have it past their waist. Heck 2 years ago EACH of them donated 9-10 inches and their hair was still down to the middle of their back. Such long thick hair- I miss long thick hair. No I don't it too me HOURS to brush it every single day. At least they can wear braids.
from krugerpak007 :
I just can't get in...HELP! I know you sent me the password but it doesn't work for me. :-(( krugerpark007@hotmail.com I hope you guys are well sweety. i miss you. xoxox Kathy
from just2cusmile :
i told you i was a "silent reader" but i must say that your diary is great~you could publish it and it would be a BEST SELLER!!! :)
from neko-carre :
Dude! You did Gurlesque two days in a row already?! Shit, I need to catch up. Actually I was thinking I'd do one weekday and then Sat and Sun. Guess I better get on that, huh?
from kait77 :
Thanks for the encouragement. Hope your day is going well. I am busier than you would believe.
from neko-carre :
LOL! You crack me up! Yeah, I liked "Con Air" too. Piece of shit movie, but I'm a sucker for Nicolas Cage. I really, really loved "City of Angels." And "Matchstick Men." Sigh, Nic!
from oh2beadiva :
oh my gosh i take a vacay. and now you are locked. If you don't won't to share your password i would understand, but you have been one of my faves since i was racin-round and i would love to be able to continue to read . if you will permit it you can email the info to peterbiltsmom@aol.com
from kait77 :
LOL wish I had the guts to buy toys but I turn several shades of red when I even think about it. Also you can gain 10lbs of water in a few hours. Best solution is to drink 1-2 gallons of water each day it will flush your system. Also sea salt is okay and less sodium than regular salt. I take 40mg of lasix every morning so I understand the water retension thing.
from monkymind :
Oh no you're all locked up and I don't have a password! Did I not make the grade? Would love to come in if you'll let me ;)
from jenniam :
aaack!!! can you send me the user and pass again -- didn't save it at work!!!
from gonzostar :
passworded? eep. will you email me the password? this name at gmail.com! love holly
from kait77 :
Okay, all kids put things in their mouth that they shouldn't be more worried about the poor puppies and ask yourself if they can survive Bella. The 14 year old puppy may not be able to handle an active toddler. Children only need their hair washed when it is dirty- otherwise it will get really dried out and look nasty even when clean. If she is healthy, happy, and clean when she goes to bed then you are doing everything you can. You may need to find a non-chemical way to treat the dogs for fleas and such. Also try baby shampoo or dish soap instead of doggie soap when they get a bath. Doggie shampoo has weird chemicals. If she is eating, gaining weight, growing, and having fun you are a good mommy. Why we always worry so much about these things I have no clue but we do. Understand that if you don't hit her, verbally abuse her, or let anyone else do those things you are a good parent. Basically from what I have seen you are a good parent. Now some night when Bella is asleep get down on her level and see what she can get into that could hurt her or the object. Then find a new home for those objects. Basically look for anything she can reach on tippy toe reaching as far as she can. Anything in that range or within 4-5 inches of that range needs to move (planning ahead for the next few months of growth). Do this every month or two and you will have an easier time with some stuff. Hope this helps. You are a good parent, but dontcha wish they came with instruction books?
from aliboomboom :
I've been reading for a while and would like your new password if you are giving it out! Thanks!!
from hsing-mom :
I ditto the previous comment -- pretty pretty please? reg at sti dot net. THANK YOU! :)
from marilynnv :
Hello dear Princess, I sent two email requests for your password, but have got nothing in return. Please send a password, or a note telling me to f-off. :) Please email me!! marilynnv@monkeytails.com
from jellehbelleh :
uhm...for my birthday could I have the password to your diary?
from sunflowery :
I am trying to read your diary as per my usual daily events but it's password protected! Wah! bobnamy@usfamily.net
from kait77 :
Your toes look good. I have rewarded myself too- but my rewards involve books and research. My husband would be appalled I call that rewards. Check out my 8/5 entry for a hint of what I am up to.
from jellehbelleh :
I'll have a drink for you! Yay!
from zencelt :
I love your attitude toward rewards. The toes are so darned pretty!
from neko-carre :
Got your card! Sooooo perfect! Thank you, sweetie!
from kait77 :
my 7/29 entry contains info you may not be aware of that you should have
from kait77 :
just a quick thought I forgot to add to my note you might try locking certain entries instead of the whole diary. I am unsure if you can do that here at dl though.
from kait77 :
sorry to hear your are locking your diary but understand why, I thought about mine and realized I rarely meantion enough about my girls to give anything away so mine will remain unlocked besides few people read mine.
from tattodnanny :
pay no attention to the nancy's of the world. fights happen, they are part of any normal relationship, and even the most loving happy couples say harsh shit in the throes of anger, and it doesnt' neccesarily mean that you are being unreasonable. Getting angry and frustrated and at the end of your rope is a normal part of parenting (particularly a toddler). Fuck her if she doesnt' get that.
from bitterwineuk :
hello, me again. I don't really do recipes. I cook with what i've got. but a tip I have for dieting is to cut points is simply to reduce the amount of meat I eat. I often cook vegetable fajitas with mushrooms instead of chicken. only points are in the wraps and oil used for frying. Nice meal for 5 points with salad. good for lunch or dinner. Also works in homemade curry or just a meat free veg pasta sauce. loads of shortcuts and quick to cook. Then you probably know them cuts anyway. All the best. Becca
from bitterwineuk :
hiya. thanks for your note. Big Brother is just great isn't it. Are you in the uk too? As I've had a few notes from people who obviously aren't following the same one as me. Becca
from kait77 :
I will once again remind you that teething can be associated with ear infections (for some reason some poor children have the tubes that drain the ears swell while teething) and not to wait too long before having the doctor look at her. A fever of 100.4 or higher is a big deal in a baby. Also ear infections can make the jaw hurt (personal experience here) but don't worry for a day or two as she could have a virus (example cold) as well as the teething issues. I just hate to see any baby suffer with ear infections like my sibblings did because the symptoms are so similar to teething issues.
from jellehbelleh :
Thanks for your note :) My birthday is August 4th. Getting close!
from kait77 :
sounds like you tried very hard to allow him freedom to enjoy a friendship that sounds like it could cause trouble. Men going through divorce tend to drag their friends into their new activities and for a married man it can be pretty risky to allow this to occur. It can destroy marriages. Personally I am not exactly the jealous type but if my husband went to a strip club I would not have been so forgiving. Sorry but cheating includes mental. Hopefully things will work out now that you have stated you are not alone in this relationship- the parenting issues aside, relationships require effort on the part of both people involved. And when one is going off and carousing with the guys while the other is left to deal with everything else again and again it can cause problems. Good luck and I hope your day goes smoothly. Whoever "Nancy" is needs to wake up, grow up, and realize it is none of their business and that putting words in your mouth is stupid as well as irresponsible
from bathtubmary :
quite honestly, i don't think you're being too hard. you don't sound jealous or possessive at all. what i'm hearing is 'hey, i'm not the only parent here!' i think you addressed your feelings and didn't just sit on them and let yourself get resentful. airing your grievances is much better for your marriage. it's healthy. i think he was starting to be seduced by the single life, but deep down he knows what he's got is tons better. if you and kev are happy, then everyone else should shut up. including me ;-).xoxox, d
from kait77 :
just a quick question have your horemone levels been checked? I ask because out of wack horemones can cause cravings and period issues. No need to be pg to have those problems. I hope your throat feels better soon. I am feeling down today.
from bitterwineuk :
I've just added an entry and he wasn't so precious today. More a living nightmare. hahaha, but worth every second. I wouldn't say I have any secrets but I guess if u r gonna cheat (we all do occassionally) do it at the start of the ww week and cut points near the end and exercise more. I just make sure I walk for at least 45 mins a day and I don't bother counting points after ww day. I go on a Thursday morning so the rest of the day I eat as I like then behave the rest of the week. It works for me. Keep up the good work. Becca.
from aliboomboom :
Griffin does that so big trick too. WE thought it was original, guess not!!
from kait77 :
the size of the gain is likely the result of your lack of food consumption after your surgery. Your body probably will take a few weeks to come out of starvation mode.
from neko-carre :
Okay, I did you.
from kait77 :
loved the dress. I am glad things went well for you.
from neko-carre :
Sent you an email! *Gush!*
from jellehbelleh :
ADRIAN BRODY...Guy from The Jacket and The Village...mmmmm....makes my toes curl.
from makinganewme :
Oh and I like the pointy toed shoes-- except they make my ankles look huge. So it's more of a body issue, than a fashion issue. LOL.
from makinganewme :
Haha, it's supposed to be a "high cut SHIRT" not shit. I even had it in Word so that it wouldn't do that. I guess word likes shit, better than shirt? Hmmm. Oh, I'd love to join the Bella-a-bration!! I hope the rain doesn't spoil your party. Hey, I bet the bouncy house would be even more fun in the rain?
from kitchenlogic :
No more surprise sites. I promise. Oh wait - I've also got kitchencook.diaryland.com Recipes, you know. But that's it. That's the last website I have. I think. Hmmmm....
from kait77 :
have fun tomorrow. Wish I had the energy for sex. For some reason the heat up here is draining me.
from zencelt :
My all time favorites are the Diana Gabaldon Outlander series (still romance, but with tons of meaty history, gritty intrigue) - and Wilbur Smiths River God/The Seventh Scroll. I actually read scroll first and LOVED it.
from bathtubmary :
not to worry - judy blume is my idol. she's half how i got into this business in the first place. have a wonderful time with the party and the bounce house! xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Eeep, just noticed the price on 'em, though. That's lotsa cash for pj's. Oy!
from neko-carre :
YAAAAY! I'm so glad you liked the stuff! And that pajama site? SO! CUTE! I'm definitely bookmarking that for future girlfriend gifts!
from zencelt :
Congrats on your weightloss! It must feel wonderful. You are my new WW hero.
from neko-carre :
Oh honey! Your kindness makes me want to cry - really! You always make me feel so special! Thank you! I know that even if I say "you don't have to get me anything", you will anyway, so... You have never failed to get me a spectacular care package, so seriously - you use your best judgement and I will absolutely LOVE it. I don't think I need any Iyanla books - I'm good there. And I did decide on plain ole "Eternity" perfume, but I think my mom's going to get me that. I *always* love flowers (my hubby, bless him, rarely gets them for me), and a girl can NEVER go wrong with a Sephora certificate! What's a pajamagram? Sounds totally cute! But don't you even think about my birthday right now! You've got healing to do! I love you, Carrie. Wish we were neighbors.
from neko-carre :
Iyanla does book on tape? In her own voice?? I never thought of that! Now I'm gonna have to find 'em. And yes, I really need to pick her up again. My favorite is "Faith In the Valley." I just loaned my well-worn copy to Anne, my upstairs neighbor, and she was like, "That book is AMAZING!" As far as explaining myself to others, I don't typically discuss my beliefs, so not really. But still, I really feel like Dave & I need to do some spiritual stuff together. It's hard because, while he believes in God, he's not into "mumbo jumbo" and some of Iyanla's stuff could be construed as such. But I don't know... I just feel we need to do *something.*
from neko-carre :
Hi! Thinking of you, my pet. And you should have a very small care package in the mail any day now.
from jellehbelleh :
Bet you wish you had whiskers and four nipples too, huh? *wink* Don't deny it!
from kait77 :
I hope you feel better soon. I also hope I never have to have my tonsils out although it seems likely.
from kait77 :
Did they give you a prescription for throat spray? I know that they can prescrib this nice stuff with lidocaine in it that helps severe pain really well. But maybe with the surgery wounds they can't? When you take your pain medicine and it is working then try and drink and get really cold stuff in as it may help the pain after the meds stop working. Sorry this is so painful for you. Hope you feel better as quickly as possible.
from bathtubmary :
thinking of you, sweet pickle. hope you're staging a quick recovery (and that everyone is waiting on you hand and foot). xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Hi. Just checkin' in to see how you're doing post-xxxxxx.
from kait77 :
I hope all goes well and you don't hurt too bad after the surgery.
from kait77 :
Wish I had liquid vicodin right now. I could use some serious pain relief.
from kait77 :
My little brother and I both had a lot of ear infections. He got tubes- mostly a pain for my mother at bath time. I didn't and in a few years the bones in both my ears will have to be artificially replaced or I will be deaf.
from kait77 :
most hospitals have programs to provide services free or at a reduced charge to patients who are financially in a bind.
from kait77 :
I feel for you. I got depo so I wouldn't have periods but for a month now nothing but blood. Now I get to have a transvaginal plus transabdominal ultrasound to see what the heck is happening. Add to that a mamogram years before normal due tol lumps and pain and you have a really bad combo of tests.
from kait77 :
Jello tons of jello. Ice cream makes you produce mucus and then you have to clear your throat- not something you will want to be doing according to my grandma (I still have and hate my tonsills-sp) Broths and soups that have TINY pieces of stuff you can chew even smaller. creamed soups work too. no juices as they will hurt and cause weight gain. You do need calories or your weight loss will stop. cottage cheese is a BAD idea it is a milk product thus mucus again. Try applesauce instead. You don't want any dairy or milk products and no acidic stuff.
from neko-carre :
Oh. My. God. Now *I'm* freaked out!! Oh, please be okay! Please please please!
from kait77 :
Do not make her wear one of those stupid hats- babies cry when you make them wear those the darned things hurt and pinch their skin. I would say make sure the cake is really special, have a few snacks, ice cream, that kind of stuff then open presents BEFORE the cake- trust me you want pictures. Have balloons or a big beach ball for the kiddies. Then if you want drinks for the adults make sure no one drinks so much they can't drive safely. Coffee doesn't sober you up. You body can only process 1 beer or 1 glass of wine an hour. So plan on having drinks- 1 each for drivers and having everyone stay an hour and a half so no DUI's- they can actually hold you responsible if someone gets in an accident.
from kait77 :
Two are exponentially harder. Trust me on that one. You may want 3-4 years between the children- get one out of diapers before you go for another. Also adopting from child protective services is usually easier and cheaper- my aunt and uncle work for CPS and they get lots of kids who need families. I hope that you enjoy these times with Bella though as it is the most wonderful time to have children.
from kait77 :
I have never been able to stand the undies that puch the belly back in. It hurts horribly for me- then again my stomach muscles are split due to pregnancies. I hope you are well. Unless I start to feel better by 5 I think I will be going to the hospital for IV fluids myself. I think I am suffering from heat exaughstion- stupid me I walk to work because we only have one car and it is only 2 blocks max.
from k-free :
Hi! Maybe add K-free back to your buddy list? I need your loving support!
from kait77 :
Hope you get to feeling better soon. As long as you drink plenty of fluids then that water weight should come off fine. But if you don't take in enough fluids your body will hold onto what it has. Sorry to hear about how bad your throat is. Wish they would take my tonsils out- after all I have had a sore throat nearly non-stop for over 2 years.
from k-free :
CONGRATS! 1.5 pounds a week equals a huge decrease in just a few months! That's what I need to do. Damn. At this point I'd be willing to spend anything to get thin. Have you heard of L.A. Weight Loss? Do you know anything about them?
from zencelt :
Those pics are priceless! Her mouth is HUGE! It must be fun to have such an expressive baby to take pics of.
from kait77 :
Try weight lifting too- the more muscle you build the higher your metabolism goes. So build some muscles to help speed things along- although muscle weighs more than fat just to warn you.
from k-free :
Hi. I'm back. Sigh... (User: herecomes Password: success)
from kait77 :
hope you lost weight. I am bad about exercise too. But now I may get all the exercise I can handle and then some as my car blew a spark plug out of its hole. If it is more than a 100 to fix it I am screwed until late august early september
from kait77 :
The biggest problem with the end was figuring out what to cut so I could keep it within the length specified- too much to write about.
from kait77 :
oil of cloves and baby oragel. not completely natural with the oragel but one or the other usually works. Be glad we don't live in the 19th century- they rubbed wiskey on the baby's gums. BAD 19th century parents. Seriously oil of cloves smells horrible but usually works wonders. Also if she really needs sleep and nothing helps her pain children's benadryll will help her sleep give her a small dose for her age/weight to avoid over medication. This too shall pass- if it doesn't in a week call her doctor- seriously there could be an ear infection or something else going on that makes her teething hurt worse.
from kait77 :
glad to hear that you are having success with WW I am looking into more drastic measures due to my health. I am just worried about trying them- nerves and such.
from kait77 :
Thanks. She is cute. BTW I had a very interesting weekend I haven't written about it yet because Monday was a major blow but when I do be sure to read about it.
from aboutamber :
I just spent almost an hour looking thru your diary. Bella is a doll. Congrats on the weight loss. I hope you don't mind my adding you to my buddy list, I'd like to come back and read more.
from kait77 :
sex would happen if hubby would get some SLEEP he keeps coming to bed at 230 when he has to get up for work at 630 and expects it to be enough sleep. It also might help if he came to bed before I take the meds that make me fall asleep.
from kait77 :
congrats on the loss. I keep hoping the scales will go down for me. Hubby broke yet another set of my scales. But hey for like 2 seconds I thought I had lost 70lbs until I woke up and realized it had only been 3 days since I last weighed myself so it was impossible.
from kait77 :
Have you considered selling some of your closet full of handbags on ebay to justify purchasing the one you want? You could replace the money you spend and then some and have extra money for the college fund. Just a thought.
from kait77 :
I wish people wouldn't discuss something I am not getting. I hate lupus and this darned medication that nocks me out by 9.
from bathtubmary :
alas, my crush is not in any of the pics but that's probably for the best since i'd just look at it 100 times an hour. xoxo, d
from kait77 :
I envy your loss, thanks to the steroids I have to take for the next 6 weeks (I think maybe I am down to 5 now not sure will ask the doctor when I see her in 2 weeks) I have GAINED 6lbs (pout) I am very upset about it but glad that they are trying to keep me from getting kidney failure.
from kait77 :
The pharmacy can add flavor to her medicine that will cover the taste and make it like candy. Try strawberry or bubblegum those two flavors tend to work best avoid grape and oragnge- this comes from experience. Also if flavoring is not possible mix with juice or something sweet even pop if you have to and get her to drink it. It may be hard but a syringe (sp) in the back of the mouth near the throat forces them to swallow it. I had to do that with my oldest when she got a bacterial infection in her blood and wouldn't take her medicine. If you need some ideas on how to get medicine into a baby let me know my girls both had a couple rounds of antibiotics as babies. Heck my oldest had menegitis at 4 days old thanks to the doctor forgetting to give me antibiotics during labor for a bacteria 3 in 4 women carry that can make babies sick.
from manda-d :
Crossing my fingers for you!!! Good luck with your WW meeting tonight.
from kait77 :
http://www.lupus.org/webmodules/articles/anmviewer.asp?a=268&z=14 Please visit this link and support the legislation
from kait77 :
Is the eyore the one that sings here in my gloomy place? If it is I gave in and bought one for my grandma and myself too. I love that voice.
from neko-carre :
Carrie, I love you. Seriously. You are one of the kindest, most caring, and honest people I've ever known. I'm lucky to have you in my life.
from yogamommy :
Maybe I should give you my UN and PW too LMAO... ymmom / agoy
from yogamommy :
She is soooo pretty! I can't believe how big she is!! :) Zack's going to be 1 in 3 weeks! Wow! Babies grow too quickly. I changed diaries again (long story). This is my new one... ~the mommy formally known as VegasMommy
from kait77 :
Your lil one is cute. I sell lipgloss now. Come by and read my 4/20 entry. PLEASE spread it to your friends.
from grlscout :
Ok, hands down, that is the cutest baby I have seen in ages (and I live right above the reigning cutest kid in Calgary, so that is no small feet). What a beautiful little face!!! I just showed my grade eight class and they agree.
from kait77 :
On a note to make you feel better I think nearly all parents accidentally pinch a finger or toe at some point while trimming nails actually they usually draw blood so you are better off than most. Next time do not doit while doing anything else and have someone else distract her.
from bathtubmary :
ugh, censorship makes me so angry! i hate the trend that's starting where it's just so easy for school districts to make these kinds of decisions. lucky for my sanity, i know of parents out there (ahem, you!) who take responsibility their own children's best interests and don't think it's their job to police the world. xoxoxo, d
from kait77 :
welcome back to the world of the living
from kait77 :
I hope you are well. Please let us know if you are alive. I hope the doctors only had good news for you. Mine seems to only have negative things to tell me lately. I hate negative news from doctors it always means something bad.
from kait77 :
I hope you found out what is wrong and are getting proper treatment. You once asked if you would be a good mother so I figured you could get a laugh off this link http://family.msn.com/tool/article.aspx?dept=baby&sdept=bpc&name=bc_100104_goodmom if not a laugh than at least confirmation you were not alone.
from neko-carre :
Check your email, my dear! I sent you a FedEx package and they tried to deliver it, but nobody was home. Darnit!
from kait77 :
I completely understand the fear of dying thing I had a frightening doc visit myself today. I hope you just have mono or something equally less serious. BTW Bella is simply the cutest baby I have seen since my own were her age although mine never had that much hair not until they were 3 or 4.
from xraygurl :
Love the pics of Bella! She is truly gorgeous! and speaking of gorgeous...K's bro is hot! Hook a girl up! lol But seriously, he is hot!
from grlscout :
Happy b-day! Looks like you have a lot to be elated about - what a beautiful baby. My hotmail is screwed, so if you do want to visit - please do, username: scout, password: cookie.
from kait77 :
Happy Birthday. Sorry you have been so sick.
from kait77 :
Let me know if you find a way to post I have gotten the busy msg ALL DAY and tried for a minimum of 15min each time
from grlscout :
Hey Red, I am a faithful reader of Neko and Hitchcock Blonde's and I just put yo on my favourites list, so I thought it was only fair to give you my email addrss incase you would like to get into my diary too (locked, unfortunately!) It's grlscout@hotmail.com if you're interested in dropping by - send me an email and I'll send you my pwd.
from neko-carre :
Well, hon, you were starving in the morning BECAUSE you ate breakfast. Remember when we talked about this? Remember how we both disagreed that "eating breakfast is the most important thing you should do" because it cranks up your metabolism, and then you're hungry waaaaay sooner than you would be if you didn't eat breakfast. Like I said, *I'm* certainly not one to talk because I don't eat breakfast and I'm chunkified, but I bet that was it for today anyway. Do you drink milk? Sometimes when I'm hungry, I just drink a big glass of milk and that does it for me. But... we eat. [Shrug] That's just what we do. Just *try* not to do anymore than you normally would. Tell yourself that hunger is NOT a side affect of this drug, and believe it.
from kait77 :
Steroids increase appitite majorly. You will have to deal with it until your are off.
from tattodnanny :
I know the steriods do that and hang tough. But do me a favor, and check your blood sugar. When a persons blood sugar gets high, sometimes they get hungry like that because all the sugar is in their blood and not going to their cells. Please, if you know somebody w/ a glucometer, humor me and check it? thanks!
from kait77 :
Thanks, actually I was asking about something I had seen online. The webpage was www.kristysoriginals.com On another subject today, 3/19, has been one of the best days of my life. If you want some good news from my diary check out my latest entry.
from kait77 :
Happy Saint Patrick's Day! Could you come by and look at today's (3/17) entry? THANKS!
from neko-carre :
Tee hee - after looking at the (better quality) pic more, it looks to me like *Nick* and I would make a good couple! He's my height and we dress alike. Heh. Wait - actually, maybe he'd make a good "girlfriend."
from neko-carre :
I hate to say it, but yes, I totally clued in on "the surprise" for 'The Village' early on. There were so many hints like when that one older lady was talking about her sister who "was murdered in the alley behind our apartment many years ago." It was like - BAM! they just gave it away right there. Because clearly there were no apartments and alleys in the the village they lived in. So it was like, okay, the "elders" are obviously from some place else originally. I didn't know that it was from a modern day city, but I figured it probably was. The elders were all people who had relatives who died a violent death and they were sick of it, so they started their own society deep in the forest of a wildlife preservation. And it was silly that they would dress and talk like it was the 19th century. But that was clearly supposed to throw off the viewer. Joaquin was the only thing that made it worth watching. Well, and the courageous blind girl. I liked her.
from kait77 :
ww you can bend that far? I can't get my head past my knees, then again I have spinal problems so I don't count. But hey you are pretty flexible yourself.
from kait77 :
I understand wanting to be back at work. I have been off 2 weeks and it looks like this will be week 3 as I ended up spending 6.5 hours in the ER last night.
from neko-carre :
I KNOW!! I WANT THE PICTURES!! WHERE ARE THE FUCKING PICTURES??! Even my husband has seen them and I haven't! I just want to scream at that girl and say, "What the fuck?!! Are you trying to kill me?! PICTURES NOW!!" Believe me, as soon as I get them, they'll be posted! Argh!
from bolashley :
Thank you so much for your story about the um store and buying an um and paying for it with a Super Cross card. That's just too funny!!!
from kait77 :
Well, finally a doctor listened.
from kait77 :
nice to read a funny. Thanks, I hope this goes away soon cause if it doesn't it may do serious damage.
from kait77 :
hope you and bella are well.
from kait77 :
Thanks. All babies make funny noises at one time or another. I did update as requested.
from kait77 :
I wish I felt like putting on nice shoes. Heck I wish I owned nice shoes it might make me feel better for ten seconds until the buzz wore off anyway. Hope you are well. I meantioned you in one of my more recent entries. Meant to tell you but as you can see from my latest entry I ain't been up to it or anything else.
from neko-carre :
Hi. You name comes up in my latest entry. :)
from kait77 :
sounds like a fun game wish I had a child to play kick the professor or idiotic student with. Mine are too old and live 2 hours away. How about kick the annoying immune system, I would definately enjoy that one. Good luck on the weight loss. I am taking liquid vitamins to help the nutritional problems faced when dieting maybe you should too. Apparently B vitamins help weight loss and being low on them can stall weight loss.
from kait77 :
Such cute pictures. Hope all is well.
from neko-carre :
Gah, I'm bored too - in fact, I'm SO bored that I have nothing to say today. Hm. Let's see if I can pull an entry out of my ass. :) Stay tuned.
from kait77 :
Hope all is well and I hope the birthcertificate comes soon. I also hope the dieting goes well.
from vegasmommy :
Oh, dear God, I'm so sorry. I remember Zack's first cold... and... oh... thank GOD that's over!! LOL He didn't mind the regular tylenol taste, but anything else... he'd spit it right back out with bubbles. Yup. Of course, this was only a month or so ago and he was old enough to know he could bend over, put his face against my leg and blow it right back out! LOL I could have glued his mouth shut!! jk. Hope she feels better! And, hope you do too!! Hugs
from jaesjourney :
That sounds so scary, I'm glad you made it through! I feel the same way about the fighting as you do, I would rather raise Dominic on my own than in a house hold that is full of tention and fighting. But believe me, E and I have threatened divorce several time since D's been home. I guess it's just the stress of raising a child and trying to do it right. Congrats on getting thru the first cold, hopefully the next one won't be for years! :) ~j
from kait77 :
fear can do funny things to parents. remeber that minor arguments will not scar a child- the image of no friction ever can actually frighten them when they get older. People get mad- and sometimes they yell. As long as its not often and comfort is provided and it doesn't get too heated she will be fine.
from kait77 :
Here is my advice, baby's hunger levels increase without warning. Just a bottle for breakfast isn't something that sticks with a baby. She should eat 1 jar of food in a sitting but more than 2 or even 3 times a day. Her bottles are great but feed her 1 jar of food a cereal 4-6 times a day. She may not really realize why her tummy feels funny- formula is not as filling once the baby becomes active.
from kait77 :
You might want to take her to a decent beautician and ask if she can tame her hair without losing too much length, you especially want the bangs thing taken care of as they tend to come out of pony tails and get in the eyes once the baby is active. It is fine to have a 6month olds hair cut if he/she has as much as your bella does. Be glad you got her used to having her hair brushed early on, my youngest had almost no hair at all for 2 and a half years and she is a pain to get to sit still and have her hair done.
from kait77 :
Thanks for the note. Be glad your dietary changes are going to be voluntary. I am being forced to eat in a way that makes me physically ill for hubby's sake. BTW you like underwires? I wear dd/ddd and those darned things HURT LIKE HE!! I mean given the option I would consign the inventor to a hot dark place where he/she could be forced to wear underwires on their most sensetive delicate places. Then again I have fibrocystic breast disease so it may make a difference.
from aliboomboom :
Where are the pictures? More pictures of Bella please!! And Congrats on getting all the paperwork done! Yay!
from kait77 :
I would gladly trade you the paperwork memories for my Friday.
from vegasmommy :
Do you know what's horrible? There's almost as much paperwork when you push the kid out too... I had a month's worth of forms to fill out, documents to sign... and I'm not even talking about the 100s of pages of crap the hospital made us do. That was JUST to get his damn birth certificate and SSC... you know, just incase I faked the birth and the Dr didn't really see me push out an 8lb baby. Just incase I was actually trying to pass off a mini terrorist as my newborn son... LOL I couldn't imagine adoption paperwork! I'm sure there was 100x as much!! But, you're almost done!! You did it!! :D And, you got the best reward ever. The reaching arms will get you now. You know that, right? She's going to get her way with everything now that she can put her little arms in the air. Give her another month and you'll get "dadadada" along with that. Another few weeks after that, and her arms will be up with "nanamamamamama!!" You're going to cry like a baby! Let me know :D
from vegasmommy :
I just read the sobbing in her sleep thing and wanted to let you know that Zack does that too. The Dr calls them night terrors. Babies do that after a really stressful day :( She'll get used to it. Just give her twice as much love when she's home (but not too much so she cries harder when you leave, but enough so where she knows she's loved... but not too... yeah). Hugs!
from vickithecute :
Hey, I just had to lock my diary (temporarily, I hope) bcs a coworker of mine got access to it. It's still open to all dlanders though...the user name is vicki and the password is cute
from kait77 :
She will adjust and it is actually good for her to interact with other babies from as early as possible. Right now she just has to learn you will come back because of the others in her short life who haven't. She needs to learn now that she is bonded with you and before the separation anxiety age comes so that it is easier for her. The longer you wait for her to learn you will come back the more tramatic it will be fore her. Although perhaps your boss would agree to you working from hoem 1 or 2 days a week for a few months to make it easier on you. She will get past this and won't even remeber it especially if you give her tons of love and quality attention.
from princesstosh :
hey sweetie!! I have questions!! I remember you went to curves, right? Im checking into it. Do you remember how much it is? Pro's? Con's?
from vickithecute :
Advice, huh? Wow, I'm not sure whether I feel qualified, Lord knows I've made more than my fair share of mistakes...but maybe that's the best advice I can give you - Love and respect your daughter, but love and respect yourself too, and follow your heart. I can tell you have a strong maternal instinct - let it guide you. And don't beat yourself up for your mistakes...we all make them. Hope this helps!!
from aliboomboom :
I didn't even think about Bella feeling deserted but it makes sense. All of the other women that she's loved have left her, that breaks my heart. In time, she will learn that you would never leave her and she will love you more and more for that. Once she learns that you will always come back for her, she'll be happy and accept the times that you are gone!! I can't see the pictures, I wish I could!
from vickithecute :
Okay, my picture page is up now!
from aliboomboom :
I just wanted to tell you that your daughter is gorgeous!! It seems like the two of you have absolutely fallen in love with one another. I love the baby Louis Vuitton, so stylish. I'm 24 and I just got my first one at Christmas too! I just can't get over how beautiful her hair is. My son is 6 months old as well and his hair recently fell out, we are so jealous of all that beautiful hair!! Oh and her clothes are gorgeous, absolutely perfect!! Good luck with daycare, it's hard at first but you'll get used to it!
from vegasmommy :
We woke Zack up to change him once too. Eventually, I learned to follow eggsaucted's advice. Never wake a sleeping child. A baby will wake up if his or her diaper is uncomfortable. He's fallen asleep wet and slept through the whole night. I changed him the moment he woke up and there wasn't even a pink patch of skin on him, much less a rash. I guess babies aren't quite as fragile as new parents think... My advice is only something I can pass on from eggsaucted. Never wake a sleeping baby. And I agree with a note below. If she's staying awake, it's most likely gas. They have those great gas free drops. One way I can tell when he's gassy is I lay him on his back and put my head softly on his tummy. You can usually HEAR the bubbles in the baby. Do what you're doing though. The pears in the nose, the waking her up to change her... They're all so perfectly a part of new parenthood it's a sin NOT to do something like that! When Zack was a month and a week old, I accidentally dumped my ice cream shake, which landed right in the carseat, which still had a baby in it... ;) Hugs and kisses.
from neko-carre :
Hey, babe! Mmm... David... sigh. It wasn't even so much David that I adored, but Fox. I'd love to have a marathon with you while wearing pajamas and tiaras! That sounds like sooo much fun! And don't worry, Miss C. With one kid, it's totally possible to still be "you." In fact, my girlfriend Ane & I still have girl time where we go see a movie and have lunch, and she has a two-year old who stays home with Dad. I just think with FOUR toddlers, "you" must completely disappear. So I have no doubt that you'll still be "you." And I promise to remind you from time to time to go the spa or go shopping alone!
from kait77 :
BTW come read my hair entry. And know bright is an understatement and it isn't even dry yet.
from kait77 :
It sounds like something in your little one's diet is not agreeing with her tummy. Gas is a sign of that kind of thing. Is she on normal or soy formula? She may need to be on the other kind. Also there are some drops available that are completely safe for babies that help break up gas bubbles in her tummy and digestive tract. If she is excessively gassy she may not sleep like she usually does due to the discomfort. Sorry to give all this advice I have just been through this kind of thing several times. BTW don't change her unless it is so bad she could get a rash from it if she is asleep- put desitin(sp) on her butt before bedtime and it will protect her (thick white cream apply a thick layer). Some people say change the baby as soon as you know but my old pediatrician said sleep is important and as long as the baby isn't upset and her butt is protected then it doesn't need changed.
from vegasmommy :
Okay... advice from an all natural mom now. Hyland's makes the BEST all natural baby products. For teething, they have dissolvable teething tablets. For fussiness at night, they have dissolving tablets too. I give Zack 2 of those when he's being a fussbutt and he calms down pretty easily :) And, sleeps better too. Also, VapoRub makes a VapoBaby fussy-reliever too! Hugs and kisses!!
from anita-girl :
Hi there! I just added you to my favorites so I can read up on your life! Congradulations on your Bella! She is so beautiful and cute!!! I look forward to reading more baout you and your family!
from kait77 :
sounds like your little one is doing just fine. I hope you figure out the daycare thing without too muc more stress.
from ladybug-red :
I have had to lock temporarily. If you want to keep up with me my username is ladybugred and password is temporary. Sorry - I hope you can stay with me for a short period while I chase away the stalker.
from vegasmommy :
I'm so sorry you had to go through all that daycare stress. I can't imagine it! I've been away from Zack for less than 10 hours total (split up over like 6 times LOL) in the past 7 1/2 months (can you believe he's that old now? holy cookies...) and I cried during each "break." It's hard, but it will NOT hurt her. She will actually benefit from the other kids. Zack learned things at a much quicker pace when we joined the playgroup (at Bella's age). But, so help me God if those children teach him the tantrums I've seen recently... Hugs & Kisses!
from vegasmommy :
LMAO Does EVERYONE have a new LV bag this year? Damnit... I was shopping for one and caved in and got this pink Gucci one thinking "well, Gucci was hot last year, it'll definitely be back..." But, noooo! Of course not!! Even your daughter is more in style *sniffles* LOL Yay for her! Hey. If you reeeeally need a sitter... I'm always here! Vegas isn't THAT far!! :D
from kait77 :
carnation formula is cheaper than most brands and if you get the dha/rha one it has stuff that is in breast milk but usually not in formula. Since she is on "solid" foods you could transition her over and likely have no problems. To transition I would give her 2-3 bottles of the new formula the first week and then just switch. If she is gonna react she will do so that first week. My oldest was breastfed until it put my health in danger (5 months old- amazingly) and I tried the formula her doctor recommended. It was expensive. We moved a month later and I had to find a new doctor. She said to change over that carnation was gentler on the baby's digestive system and cheaper. (This was before they made it even better by adding things babies get from breast milk) According to her second perdiatrition brand doesn't matter it is content and if the baby's stomac likes the blend.
from kait77 :
I am so glad your christmas went well. I will post my christmas story later today- after I take a nap it has been a busy few days.
from kait77 :
She is adorable. Have a VERY MERRY Christmas. Take tons of pictures, trust me it is important. Try to get at least one with her under the tree.
from kait77 :
Enjoy this time. I hope your holidays are merry.
from kait77 :
Hope you all are well. Update sometime soo to let us know even if it is only a line or two. CONGRATS again
from kait77 :
I hope the trip was a safe one and that you get home safely as well.
from kait77 :
Hope you had a wonderful day and that all goes smoothly
from kait77 :
CONGRATS! CONGRATS! CONGRATS! I hope the flight goes well. Remember to make sure she has a pacifier during take off and landing so her ears won't hurt- pressure builds and the ear pops. I have flown with a baby before and her pediatrician told me to make sure she was sucking during lift off and landing because that counteracts the pressure. Adults are supposed to chew gum or swollow hard. It would be awful to have her little ears bother her on the flight home, besides which it can cause ear infection in some babies and even ruptured ear drums. Avoiding it is the best solution.
from kait77 :
Well I hope the darned thing comes in before sunday.
from kait77 :
I really hope you get that pink slip tomorrow
from dutch-girl :
I'm thinking SO pink for you Doll. After all the waiting, it's amazing to think you might have that little baby in your arms for good in a week. Yee Haw!
from kait77 :
I wil definately send pink slip vibes your way but I am more concerned with sending vacant seat ones so you can get a flight. Have you considered a weird flight out but a simple one back? The reason I ask is that sometimes outgoing is harder than incoming. Plus having lay overs on the flight out would reduce ticket costs.
from mommylap :
Clearly dolly, you missed the entry where I said "really really busy at work, probably can't update more than once a week..." but I'm glad you love me.
from kait77 :
CONGRATS!!!! I hope things move smoothly and that you get an open flight as soon as you get the go ahead.
from pandionna :
Hee hee, glad I could help! I'm sending you an e-mail about the sex scenes. Watch for it!
from kait77 :
Hope you get word soon to go pick up your little one.
from kait77 :
Hope you had a happy thanksgiving
from kait77 :
Thanks. The thing is, I did everything but surgery or strong pills that I could with a doctor. And your comment about 300lbs I wish I weighed what you do right now. Congrats on the 5lb loss.
from bathtubmary :
happy texas-sized thanksgiving, pretty lady! xoxo, d
from kait77 :
I hope the adoption moves swiftly now. I also really wish that people wouldn't judge others based on one diary entry.
from kait77 :
I finished the 5 page horror but haven't made a dent in the 15 page one. I also got low grades on my last 2 5-page papers. I didn't feel like writing them.
from kait77 :
You just reminded me why I DO NOT want a camcorder
from kait77 :
Want to work on developing a healthy diet together? I am disgusted by my weight and sick of trying all these crazy methods to lose weight. Besides it causes flare ups for me.
from kait77 :
She has cute toes, it is a nice breqak from heck on earth to look at them instead of homework.
from kait77 :
Hope things continue to go well for you. Check out my soon to be made entry (11/16) for a few laughs.
from bolashley :
Thanks so much for the well wishes!! I'll be sending lots of "hurry up with the paperwork vibes" in the direction of Guatemala from our little island.
from vegasmommy :
Hun, I have some great news for you! Once the baby has become a strong part of your day to day life, the bad habits melt away. At least mine did. I don't eat the junkfood because I know Zack is watching me and will want to grow up eating what Mommy eats. My swearing is soooo much better. You'll be amazed at how quickly your life just changes. Every single aspect of it! Your daughter is absolutely beautiful! I'm so excited for you! And, I can see the love you have for her in that picture. There's nothing prettier than a mommy's love. Hugs and kisses.
from kait77 :
A piece of advice on the clothing thing- he might want to wear boxers in a few years but until she is about 5 or 6 it is no big deal unless you two make it into one. As for you, a robe is ok, and if you never make a big deal out of the lack of clothes and don't make it obvious around her she will never care much. Unless you teach her that the human body is shocking without clothing she will never be shocked or tramatized by seeing her parents without clothes. Trust me on this one, I took classes and have seen children whose parents made a big deal and those who haven't. Both types of kids turn out ok, but those whose parents made a big deal about being naked have more hang ups and shame issues than those whose parents didn't. Nakedness is natural. Talk with any MODERN psycologist and they will tell you what you sleep in doesn't matter its how you handle what your child sees if they walk into your bedroom. You are ages from that happening. Right now it is remembering to put on a robe so you won't shock your mom in the middle of the night. Tell K he is jumping the gun by several years- this is a non-issue until she realizes boys and girls are different, even for him. Besides which skin to skin contact is very important for babies.
from vegasmommy :
11/10 - What's Baby Tad? Girl, if you haven't seen Baby Tad, you're missing out! It's by Leap Frog... the best children's education toy system in the world! http://www.leapfrog.com/do/findproduct?ageGroupKey=infant&key=huglearntad or go straight to www.leapfrog.com! You won't be disappointed. I'm sorry you had to hand that sweetpea back! She's adorable! When do you get to bring her home permanently? And, yes, Zack cries Maaaaa now. He doesn't do mama, he says ma. LOL Or da, not dada. Actually, he's pretty good at saying ma da ma da... LOL
from kait77 :
She is so cute. Hope she is home before the end of the year. Maybe even in time for Christmas
from callmekim :
Oh Carrie. I've been anxiously hitting refresh all day waiting for an update. I don't know which picture I love more, the very first one with the pink headband, or the bathing in the sink. They're both fabulous!!! I'm so happy you got to visit her.
from vegasmommy :
Yep, it's me! LOL My old diary is just so... sigh... full of drama. It is locked now and I'm working strictly in this one. Promise me you aren't locking your diary... Everyone I know seems to be doing that now. It's like the latest trend or something.
from fatlinda :
Thank you for the Birthday wishes. :-)
from kait77 :
I understand completely. Hope you remembered to vote
from kait77 :
Check out the NEW YORK TIMES article this link goes to. Everyone needs to read this before they visit the polls tomorrow. http://www.nytimes.com/2004/10/26/politics/campaign/26gay.html
from heidiann :
Thank you thank you thank you! And I'm totally going with the neon red! I bought the bleach and dye yesterday. I might even throw in some purple streaks! My eBay ID is rubberduckiest. Rubberduckiest: Buyer of Any and All Tacky Kenny Rogers Art.
from kait77 :
Thanks for the info we hadn't gotten past the someday stage yet so had no clue it was so reasonable. I figured it would be around 30k given how much you have to spend. Hubby has friends from Japan so going with China wasn't a hard choice. Especially knowing how unwanted little girls are there.
from kait77 :
I am so glad things will be ok. Hope the visit goes well too. Have tons of fun. Hubby has agreed to consider adopting from china if we ever have the money. They abandon little girls there. I will research it in a few years when life settles down. Enjoy your daughter.
from sixweasels :
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you, and sooooo glad things on and upswing again, and excited that you get to meet Ella!
from bolashley :
In response to your note - I totally would if I could!!! Belize is right next to Guatemala, that's the only reason I've been there before. I've got my fingers crossed tight for you!!
from callmekim :
Aww Carrie. Fuck. I don't even know how you got out of bed today. Take a big suitcase and poke some holes. Get her now.
from kait77 :
I really hope the adoption goes through and FAST! I also hope they will not stop adoption from other nations.
from kait77 :
I am of course the history book. Hubby is the only one in this family who can put out computers like they are going out of style- and wants to.
from ladybug-red :
In case you get some strange stats for today I thought I would let you know it might be because I linked to you. Hope that's ok :-)
from kait77 :
Find out what kind of formula she is on or else you could have problems- some babies don't tolerate changes in formula well. Also make sure you have a few receiving blankets and know how to swaddle her. TONS of diapers of course. You know about how much she weighs bring the ones that can fit bigger than she is but her weight as well. Remember to bring soothing music- classical is great.
from kait77 :
Check out these two links http://ideashappen.msn.com/Entries/Default.aspx?id=16886 http://ideashappen.msn.com/Entries/Default.aspx?id=21596
from kissssy :
Girl, I got tears in my eyes looking at those pictures! She is absolutely beautiful! And, knowing what you have to go through to get her... You are a different breed of mom entirely! Most people don't deserve children, but you, of all people definitely do!
from kait77 :
I caught errors on a final exam in one of my spring classes last year the professor about died of embarrassment. Had I not known all the correct answers I wouldn't have caught the mistakes. I got the only 100+% in the class which gave me an A+ in the class. I can proof read anyone but myself.
from kait77 :
Come by read my 10/13 entry and tell me if any of this sounds familiar- like if its just a guy thing
from kait77 :
The pictures are great, sorry to hear the cabin sucked- you listed my 2 biggest phobias besides someone I love dying.
from kait77 :
Glad to hear you got the DNA news. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
from kissssy :
Three months... gosh that was almost 2 months ago with Zack. They're not doing much. She's probably going to find her hand pretty soon. She shouldn't even be on solids or fruits or anything yet so you aren't missing much of anything! Which, I know I'll never convince you because a day is missing too much. I know I know. But, you aren't missing many milestones. She could start teething soon. Ummm... I bet she started cooing. Possibly even giggling. Smiling isn't just in result of play but she's probably doing it spontaneously now. Three months is a bunch of sounds and movements. Crawling won't happen for another few months. The most exciting things happen at 6 months I'm told. I wouldn't know yet LOL. Want parenting advice? About what?? I um... I know SOME stuff. Most of it, I've been more like a... ummm... let's see if this works kinda mom and it usually doesn't LOL. Parenting is nothing but trials and errors among errors among more errors. But, at the end of the night when your little one looks up at you with wide eyes and you realize you're forgiven for being an amateur mommy with absolutely no clue of what's going on, you realize those errors are allll worth it. Hope you get the updates you're looking for!! Hugs and kisses!
from kait77 :
Come by click the link in my latest entry and visit the site and vote.
from kait77 :
The baby is the same baby, the lighting is bad. In the first two to three months a child changes VERY FAST She has grown very fast which increases the changes. She has lost the puffiness in her face all newborns have- the first picture looks like it was taken within a day of birth because of the swelling and puffiness typical to a newborn (trust me I had 4 and have seen this before) the basic facial features and bone structure appears to be identical under the swelling to that apparent in later pictures. The baby was definately not 3 weeks old in the first picture which spaces the pictures even further apart. You have a healthy little girl, nobody has switched the child you are adopting.
from kait77 :
Will you read today's entry and give advise? 10/2??? its saturday
from kait77 :
I am glad I got some sleep too. I am also glad my advise helped even a little. I hope you enjoy the month at home. I hope all speeds up for you. I was working on my second entry of the day when you left your note.
from kait77 :
Ask if they can give you valume (sp) instead for the other side. It may work better. It also has fewer side effects by the sounds of the meds they gave you. If not call you medical doctor and ask him if he would be willing to call it in and explain what the dentist gave you and that you didn't like the side effects the first time, and besides which it wasn't very effective. I will definately try to vote for Ella once a day until the 7 days are up as the site says you can vote that often but only that often. I know how expensive kids are. Have you considered telecommuting? Or is there a possibility of your hubby doing so? Sounds crazy but you could both telecommute 2 days a week (diff. days) and pay day care 1 day if your jobs would allow it. The fewer days you need day care the better. If you have a friend who gave up work to stay home with kids, and whom you know is excellent with children and could be trusted to take excellent care of Ella you might negotiate a lower price with her. Also privately run day care facilities (CERTIFIED ONES that can provide excellent references and prove they provide proper care and don't take on too many kids) might be cheaper. Also my aunt had twins and she found it was cheaper to pay someone to come into her home to care for them, she had to provide the woman with lunch but she only had to pay her 1/2 what a day care center charged and the boys weren't exposed to all those germs until they were 2. Dunno if any of those ideas helped but that is what our family has done. Don't consider giving up work until you look at what it would cost long term (difficulty getting a job in 7 years when you try to go back and loss of retirement saving time) compared to short term costs. What no one realizes is that when kids need a parent who is at home constantly is the teen years not baby years. Trust me on that one. As long as you spend several quality hours (2-3) per day with her she will be fine. Although you may want to consider taking a month or two off under the FMLA right after she comes home to help her adjust. Good luck. I hope all goes well, and that you can go over to see her as soon as the DNA results come back.
from kissssy :
Always good to have more good things than bad!! Thanks for the bday wish!!
from kait77 :
Hope the dentist went well
from kait77 :
Thanks. If you read my entry from 9/25 you will se I am not sleeping enough. But last night I did get 10hrs in- the neighbors were finally quiet. Congrats on the paperwork. Hope the DNA test goes well.
from kait77 :
I take it the test was negative as expected. I hope all goes well with paperwork and DNA stuff.
from ladybug-red :
Hey sweetie - you haven't posted or commented in a while so I thought I would drop by and say hi. Hope you are feeling better. I miss you! -S
from kait77 :
I hope that this weekend is treating you well
from kait77 :
Thanks hope things improve for you soon
from kait77 :
I am so sorry you hit a snag in the process, I hope the authentication goes lightening fast this time.
from kait77 :
you will be fine. just recall how much you love your hubby
from princesstosh :
Come on over! A weekened getaway would be wonderful for the both of you!!
from dutch-girl :
I totally have the same fear when I'm losing weight. Slutty sluts-ville. It's that deadly combination of feeling good about yourself and people paying more attention to you. I've hidden behind my weight a lot of my adult life. But I know we can both be strong.
from kissssy :
Oh, you soooo need to come to Vegas and help with my bday party this month! Sniff... nobody here would think of a jello brain. Lol, I never even get cake (my husband has a romance deficiency). Hope the party goes well!
from witchful :
Hey darlin'. No, it's not that I don't like the soap, I just have fallen in love with the oil-cleansing method and I think it's better for me. But I hate the thought of this 40 dollar bar of soap just sitting around not being used; I'd rather see it go to someone who'll get some good out of it. :)
from kait77 :
I would suggest waiting on the brain thing until closer to holloween, budget wise it might be better and family wise it would be understood better during the crazy holloween season. Trust me you can get away with a lot around holloween and april fools.
from kissssy :
Gosh, it's hard catching up with you when I've been so busy for 2 weeks... You write more than anybody I know :p I hope everything's great with you this weekend!
from neko-carre :
Hey dollface. Actually, I'll still be on Diaryland, updating. And I'll still be using my home email (it's fairly new: qkari-AT-yahoo.com). Weeeee!
from turtlemomma :
I'm on the west coast, in Sacramento. It's the first two story WalMart I've ever heard of, and though it's kinda cool, I'm still awaiting one of those Super WalMarts I keep hearing so much about. Grocery store, lumberyard, pharmacy, blah, blah, blah, all in one. We're pretty boring out here though, so it may be quite a while before I see one of those :(
from kait77 :
It doesn't matter if all you have are pictures, you are still going to miss having seen all that will happen while you await the adoption- which likely makes you very sad without you realizing it. Hope all is going well otherwise, things are looking brighter here- just read my latest entry.
from kait77 :
Women who are pregnant feel the way you feel now- and it is worse with the first child. Believe me I have been through this 4 times and everytime I felt less than worthy.
from tattodnanny :
This is not an adoption feeling, believe it or not. This is a motherhood feeling. I remember leaving the hospital with my newborn son (I was 21) amazed...no, shocked...that these people were going to let this sweet amazing precious baby go home w/ ME! like I knew what the hell I was doing and I was gonna fuck it up completely. I really believed that at some point somebody was gonna realise what a fuck up I was and come get the baby (btw, he's 13. I still feel that way sometimes). And you've had all sorts of tests and rings and hoops to jump through. You have documented, signed and witnessed proof that you are worthy of motherhood. Me? I forgot to put my sponge in cuz I was high. sorry to be so long winded. But the way you are feeling is part of the mom package. I hope you feel better soon, though. Cuz you are tottally worthy.
from kait77 :
I wish my pictures had survived the flooding of our old apartment- but alas they we stored in cardboard boxes on the floor.
from mommylap :
Um, Scott appreciate me? Hahahahaha! When the charges get dropped, there is every chance the Burnsville City Attorney will pursue the false charges issue with KGB. Which will suck on her Visa renewal ha ha ha.
from kait77 :
I hope you gave that Salesman a really hard time. If you want to cheer up read my latest update.
from mommylap :
well I am sort of nonchalant and far away- or shell shocked, something like that, because I figure it's all par for the course with the roller coaster named Scott, reaping what he sows blah blah, but I am shoved right in there, and so I feel like I am supposed to support him for this. Why? Who knows. It's enough to pray for answers about I swear.
from princesstosh :
Thanks for the comment. Actually, today I was on aol and getting a new supper buddy (I dont know if you've heard of them but they are on your instant message and react to what you type) wellllll, i found one called "Bridezilla" and when you tell her hello she screams at you. I laughed and laughed thinking thats probably me. Cant wait to put my feet up and see the finished product of the wedding! The princess blanket which is just adorable (I'll send a pic) was purchased at big lots for only $5!!! Can you believe that? Its pink fleece with a crown and swirly letters spelling Princess embroidered on it. I was in heaven last night watching tv all curled up to it. Ella Bella definetly needs one!!!
from neko-carre :
Tee hee! I laughed reading your note. Thank you, sweetie.
from tattodnanny :
Oh, isn't she beautiful? that hair will give you fits, but when it grows out..gosh! You just have no idea how happy I am for you, and how excited I get when you update. At the risk of being all mushy and stupid and shit, thank you for letting us all be a part of this!
from harakiri :
We use the fat bottles, Avent, and Eli rarely gets gas anymore. I bought a few different kinds to see what worked best for baby and me. My favorites are the tilted Playtex and the Avents.
from kait77 :
I agree on the drop in liners- less to wash and sterilize. Good luck on getting things to go through quickly.
from tattodnanny :
The drop in liners rule!!! They are easier to clean up, and the babies get a lot less gas. Next best are they tilted ones, playtex also, I think? The WORST are the really fat ones ( you know, my advice would be a lot more useful if I could remember the brands of things!). They have a name that starts with "A". These are overpriced status bottles that cause lots of gas. Drop in liners. trust me.
from sixweasels :
Its sounds like you were and Brady were wonderful for each other, and you'll have those memories forever. I know it doesn't help now, believe me I do, but it will, in time. The comments you got reminded me of how no one could understand why I wouldn't let Weaz go until *I* knew it was time. Hugs, and lots and lots of sympathy.
from kissssy :
Just beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. I just love babies! My emotions are worse now than they were when I was pregnant! Especially now that we have Discovery health again and I can watch those birth stories and adoption stories and... *sniffle* You take good care of that little princess. She needs all the love she can get and I just KNOW you can give it to her! Huggggsss. Gosh, she's beautiful..
from maiarayne :
Thank you for the comments on the pictures! The first b&w one is my favorite too. Not bad for sitting at the computer and trying to hold the camera above me to snap a pic! I couldn't even see through the little thingy to know what I was taking. I lucked out! As for a bassinet, Sean really can stay it in longer size wise but he's rolling over now and they say that when they can roll over it's time to move them. There is also some weight restriction but I couldn't remember what my bassinet's was and he obviously doesn't seem to big for it! He still will nap in it sometimes early morning after he wakes up for a feeding. As for head size, I can't even tell you what his head measured! I was in such euphoria (elation and medication!) that I didn't bother to ask and didn't hear them say. I just went and got his hospital card that was in his bed but it didn't say. Next time I take him for a checkup, I'm definitly going to ask because I'm curious now! *hugs*
from dutch-girl :
By the way, if you leave me an address, I'd love to knit her a little baby present. How long until you get her?
from kait77 :
CONGRATS AGAIN! She is cute. Hope that all goes quickly and smoothly.
from tattodnanny :
She is beautifull. Congratulations. much love to you and ella bella.
from neko-carre :
I promise, I will give you a shove in the Impractical & Expensive High Maintenance Princess direction if you ever turn into an overboard mommy. But I seriously doubt you will. Your daughter has to learn all that stuff from *somebody*, right? ;)
from callmekim :
Oh. My. God. YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!
from orangeslush :
yay!!! she is gorgeous! congrats!!!!!!
from kait77 :
CONGRATS- hows it feel to be a momma in waiting with the official knowledge a baby is on its way to you- minus some legal hassels?
from kait77 :
Hope you hear something soon. Good luck. I am one busy girl right now.
from kait77 :
CONGRATS!!!! Post what you find out ASAP as I would really like to know what is up before I move and am w/o access for several days.
from canadianna :
Thanks for the "re-welcome". I think of everyone, you're the diarist (is that a word?) I've missed most. Shhhh. Don't tell anyone that I play favourites. As for men: Yes, sometimes they suck. And sometimes they don't. It's when they don't suck that bothers me most. ;) ~Angela
from kait77 :
Remember food is food and that doing SB may not be the answer. Consider following this rule- 1/2 of your daily food= FRESH veggies and low sugar fruits, 1/4-1/3 of your daily food= meat/protien sources including tofu, and the rest won't matter so much after that is taken care of as long as you keep it around the 2000 calorie range. Don't worry about anything else and stop worrying about food and weight when you are going through this hell of adoption paperwork- it is a setup to fail.
from neko-carre :
Yep! It's the one you gave me, of course! Love ya!!!
from kissssy :
Your... diary... isn't... red? Hehe, it's lovely! I love the whole well... princess feel (duh)! Thanks for the little notes of encouragement. I'm giving up on that attitude and just sticking with this diary. I couldn't give kissssy up. I just love her ;) Lots of love! Love the new layout!
from kait77 :
Good Luck, I hope all goes well. Email is a funny thing my school email frequently goes down.
from mommylap :
I can't even imagine how I got to the top of your buddy list, but I am totally blown away and flattered to find my name there. Even if it's not in order I am pretending that it is. You rule Carrie.
from vintagegurl :
Oh my God congratulations!!!!! You'll have your baby so soon! And the Marriot nights you won are totally a good sign!!!! yay for you!
from sixweasels :
I am so, so happy and excited for you and K!
from tattodnanny :
OH.My.God. How wonderful for you! congratulations and consider yourself prayed for!
from kait77 :
I imagine if you explain your MIL might understand, unless she is like mine and hates you. Hope all is well.
from rmsoboist :
"Microwave the baby! Microwave the baby!" That, my friend, was hilarious. I laughed out loud while imagining you MIL walking in.
from kissssy :
Only in your diary. Only in yours. Hehe, you just crack me up. Always!
from kait77 :
Sounds like you have had an interesting week. Enjoy the books, as I am reading but unable to enjoy my books. See my diary for an update on Miss kitty or snowball baby as hubby calls her.
from kait77 :
sounds like you had a fun day. I have had a fun day too my mother in law is coming- the wicked witch of the south, my mother is the wicked witch of the north. I haven't met the witches of the east or west yet. Have you? I dread this evening my apartment is a mess and I am exaughsted. I went out and bought chocolate cupcakes with this sinful bakery icing that is soooo good just to survive today because I can't take her and the apartment and homework and be this tired and not have had sex in over a week. I hate 12 hour shifts and I hate that my hubby is working 6 days a week and that it is swing shift. You have no clue how horrible that can be. Added to that the kitten needed constant care last night to be sure she survived the night thanks to the animal who starved her and threw her away. What some people do to pets and children sickens me. You have no clue how cruel humans can be. No clue. If you want one read my diary sometime- when I talk about my mother, my ex, and my mother in law. Or better yet work with battered children. You have no clue how many children need safe homes, you are doing a wonderful thing. You might someday consider taking in foster children.
from kait77 :
I would post a picture or two but we don't own a camera. Seriously, all the pictures we have are at least 3 years old or older. I had to return the digital camera I got due to problems it had and couldn't afford the closest priced one of equal quality and I refuse to own a camera that you can't make out the pictures. As to scanning pictures we do not have a scanner at the moment thanks to upgrading to Windows XP. Gotta love those software upgrades.
from kait77 :
I have a tiny guest whose fate is uncertain. I wish someone were as kind hearted as you and would come save her as I am unable to do more than buy her 24 hours.
from kait77 :
Hope getting back on the beach is easy. let me know how you do in the weeks and months to come. hope the adoption stuff is going smoothly and swiftly. I changed my hair.
from kait77 :
congrats again. remember that all that is required of a good mom is being willing to do anything and sacrifice anything- even your own happiness to ensure your baby is safe, happy, loved, secure, and protected. That is something I have done, that is something thinwishes has done, that is something tara does, that is something every good mother on this planet does. Some people call me a bad mother. Go back through my journal and read my history and see why and you will understand what I did to keep my daughters from harm and happy. thinwishes did a lot to make sure her baby was happy and cared for. tara does a lot to ensure her children are cared for and happy. if you want an example of a bad mother read the entry I made July 1st about my mother. follow your heart and you will be a good mommy.
from pandionna :
I sent you an e-mail with the links. Do let me know if you don't get it. I used the e-mail address on your diary page. Brace yourself!
from kait77 :
congrats
from pandionna :
Saw your note about the pop-ups over at Neko's. Sounds like you have spybots. In fact, you may have the wretched thing I had, so beware of having your browser hijacked. It's tough to get rid of. Run Norton Anti-Virus, Spybot Search and Destroy, and AdAware if you have them. Make sure they are up-to-date before you run them. In other news, I saw an article by some absolute TWIT calling herself a "family preservationist" today that made my blood boil. I'm not sure if it would upset you, so I won't post the link unless you ask, but let's just say I sent a scathing letter to the e-zine that published it. After watching all you've been through with Ella Bella, I wanted to reach through the monitor and slap the witch stupid.
from neko-carre :
DAMN, I wish you were here!!! I've got four tickets and only two of us are going. Please come! And yes, shopping... always shopping! It's my raison d'etre!
from kait77 :
Hope all is going well, have a great week
from kait77 :
Congrats on the quick turn around on the paperwork. Hope this next set goes quickly too.
from turtlemomma :
Unfortunatly diluting the cranberry juice is defeating the whole purpose! I've only had to take antibiotics once out of my half a dozen or so times I've had an infection. Take lots of vitamin C and if you don't want to drink the cranberry juice I suggest taking lots of cranberry pills, only 3 calories per tablet :D ~K
from bathtubmary :
hmmm, here's a hint: the milky way is a ------. another word for bunny is ------. put those together (no hyphen) and there's your culprit. xoxo, d
from kait77 :
Thanks and thanks for the info.
from callmekim :
Yay for homestudies is right!! Okay, the children's volunteer thing is pretty easy. Call your local hospital, ask to speak to someone in their pediatric ward. There's usually a department called "child life" in every peds ward. It's just a big giant playroom and they are always in need of volunteers, babysitters, playmates, etc. If you have a children's hospital nearby, they will probably have an outpatient version for siblings of patients. Good luck! Give me a ring if you need more info. Kim
from neko-carre :
YAAAAAAY for the home study! You're on your way! Oh, and I'm surprised you've never had a bladder infection before, what with all the sex you have. ;) It's called the Honeymoon Disease, did you know that? Anyway, you can get cranberry juice at health food stores. It's pure cranberry and it's MAJORLY potent, but there's no sugar in it at all. They also make cranberry extract vitamins so that you don't have to drink so much juice.
from kait77 :
congrats on the home study. hope everything goes through quickly and that you have your baby by christmas.
from kait77 :
lol just don't pray for patience or id you or did someone else pray you would get patience? cause that is when the sh!t really hits the fan and everything that can possibly go wrong does and in the messiest way possible. trust me I have seen it happen and been on the receiving end thanks to my mother (who shall remain nameless- NOT since I named the responsible party already). Hopefully you get the papers ASAP and it all finishes up quickly. Me I am in the home stretch of Latin and ready to scream myself. Stop by and read my last few updates for a laugh or two.
from kait77 :
don't feel bad, i keep dreaming about latin- specifically declining nouns. chickens are normal dreaming that i am declining nouns is insane.
from kait77 :
try and enjoy these last few months of peace and quite as much as possible and recall in a few months when you wonder why on earth you volunarily gave up peaceful tanquility exactly why you did it.
from pandionna :
Oh no, never! Red-Headed Princesses in Texas are fine by me! I hope the papers come through pronto, yesterday, in fact, and that Ella Bella will soon be in your arms.
from snideblonde :
Thanks so much for that, sweetie. That was really nice. And you? Are you feeling better?
from neko-carre :
Carrie. DEEP... BREATH... Inhale.... exhale... Be still and center yourself. Everything is just fine. Trust that. You've got your Ella Bella already.
from kait77 :
they still haven't gotten you the paperwork? that seems odd. have you asked the adoption agency to inquire? sometimes they can speed things along with paperwork issues, especially when people drag their feet.
from callmekim :
I hope you got a copy of I Love You Forever!
from sarahsundae :
thanks for the sweet note my friend. big hugs to you. i am glad that the adoption is going so well. you are going to be the best mom!!
from amazingagain :
you're too funny! glad everything is going well with the adoption! :)
from kait77 :
I totally understand the haircut thing. the place I usually get my hair cut at has cut one side longer than the other the last 3 times I have gone in so three strikes you are out. at first I thought it was a fluke then maybe my hair was growing uneven but this time there is a good inch to an inch and a half difference no way that is a fluke or growth difference. that is a bad mistake by the hairdresser and it is time to find somewhere else to go. the woman who used to cut my hair retired, so now some young girl is doing it and she obviously is not that good at what she does. congrats on the 10lbs. I can't wait until I can pull up the pants I wore when my first daughter was a year old. and those are not even the smallest I have ever been- I just looked so much better that size. You should see your doctor about the period thing it could be a problem other than pregnancy that needs treatment- like premenopause given your being 35. Yes premenopause can start in the mid-thirties and it requires hormone treatment or you lose bone mass. or you may just need something to force your period which they can do. just get a check up, for Ella Bella's sake.
from neko-carre :
10 pounds? GREAT JOB! Are you feeling like you're going to stick to SBD? I'm sooooo far off it now. Sigh.
from kait77 :
no clue why my entry looked squished up and tiny- it is a short entry, but it is in a normal size font and shows up normal on my browser. odd, i may check the html font size and make sure it is 12 of bigger.
from k-free :
Me? Flat tummy? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! Remember, that pic of me is my *goal* weight. That was about six years and 45 pounds ago! Yeah, I could only dream of having a tummy like that too! :-D Someday...
from neko-carre :
EEEEP! Scary weather! (Exciting too, though, maybe just a bit?) I'm so glad you survived!
from kait77 :
congrats on losing 8lbs i am losing but no clue how much i just know i fit EASILY into a size 24 jeans- yes jeans, and they fit wonderfully. of course i gave into temtation and bought them.
from thinartist :
I love the colour red but it can really drown a room. I've seen great layouts where the "focal point" wall is painted red. For example, when Mr Big painted the wall at the head of his bed red. Just a thought. :-)
from kait77 :
i hope the paperwork that remains comes really fast and that you get the authentication fast as well. good luck
from princesstosh :
Yay for the paperwork!!! And, I'm close to San Angelo...do you know where that is. I thought I'd heard you say you're close to dallas?? My mom lives in Mesquite.
from kissssy :
Hint for the mom-to-be: There is nothing more amusing than when you've been up for an hour already and it's only 5:30am, you left the whiny baby in your bedroom with your husband so you can go downstairs and play online, and you can hear nothing but crying from the baby and "I don't know what you want!!!" from his dad. :D Counting the minutes until they come downstairs and baby gets tossed my way.
from kissssy :
Lovely! I can see why you can't park it though. It's a vehicle. I never did get that whole parking thing figured out. Perhaps that's why I don't drive... Thanks for the congrats! And, 100 apologies about your poor pup's foot! That sounds tragic! And, congrats on losing weight! Hugs.
from neko-carre :
That bag is perfect! It totally doesn't look like a diaper bag! I think it's the fact that it has a flap, in a messenger bag style. It's very Lulu Guinness or Cynthia Rowley. Very good choice! Love the pink & red!
from kait77 :
My advice is to find an empty parking lot and spend an hour or two practicing
from tattodnanny :
I would love, love, love to get to eat all my favorite stuff after surgery. Unfortunatly, I have type II diabetes and it is crucial that I keep my blood sugar good while I'm healing. Another benefit of the SBD? extremely diabetic friendly and not as INSANE as atkins. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers!
from kait77 :
thanks, no I don't need this right now. Congrats on losing 7lbs
from tattodnanny :
Congrats on the 7 pounds!!! I'm getting ready to take the SBD plunge myself. I'm starting the day after I come home from the hospital..figure it will be a bit easier when I can't get up and fix my own snacks for a bit.
from neko-carre :
CONGRATS!!! (But at the same time, I'm "hmph"ing over here. Why did I only lose six in the entire two weeks? Grrrr.)
from kait77 :
Unfortunately with all that is happening typing all that I learned is going to be impossible. What I can do is give you the book title and ISBN and tell you to look under obesity (not that you are but that is where the weightloss info is)Prescription for Nutritional Healing THIRD EDITION ISBN 1-58333-077-1 trust me the book is a god send. It has info on tons of stuff but right now all heck broke loose in my life and I need to clean up the mess. Stop by and read about it it might cheer you up.
from neko-carre :
Awww, poor doggie. Glad he's okay. And hey, how come SBD seems to be going so fast for you when it dragged on agonizingly for me?! I can't believe you're halfway through Phase 1 already! Today is (was) my last day on P1. Yaaay!
from kait77 :
I may have some info that could help with weight loss that I found while researching better ways to deal with my lupus. Let me know if you are interested. I can give you the info or the book title and ISBN
from neko-carre :
Jeez, where have I been? I'm too busy for Dland for a few days and I come back and you're already five (or more?) days into SBD! WOW! GOOD FOR YOU! How's it going for you? I'm on Day 12 (wooo hooo!) and I'm really feeling it. The good and the bad. Very irritable and kinda tired, but that could also be a result of this shitty weather. Hang in there! If I can, ANYBODY can! Seriously!
from callmekim :
Hey, those "faux tatoes" are very good. Drain the cauliflower reeeeeeeally well though. It tends to get soggy. And that Ricotta cheese dessert, it's pretty good too. Sounded gross to me, but when I tried it, we all liked it. Good luck! Low carb is the best!
from kait77 :
Thanks. As to the diaper bag thing- speaking from experience the damned cheap ones last about 3-6 months max and they look like cramp by the time they are thrown away but they tend to cost 12-30 if you get them from Walmart. You need a diaper bag for 2-3 years so the total cost would be 360 if you got one every 3 months for 3 years. My advice is if you can lay away a quality bag and make payments while you wait for the baby to arrive it would be well worth the money. Now if you don't mind carrying around something that looks like garbage after a month or two and falls apart easily go cheap. My ex was too cheap to let me get a decent bag. My experience has been that most women prefer CLOTH bags as they are washable- the ones with plastic linings look horrid after a few weeks. Even the expensive designer ones. The cloth bags usually run between 50-100 and the truth is I would buy a nice beach bag or a book bag because who ever designs the diaper bags needs their head examined. The bags are too small for what you need and do not have enough pockets. No matter what brand or designer actual diaper bags leave much to be desired. Now a decent book bag- I know it sounds weird, holds up longer, has more durability, has more pockets, can hold more, and is able to be used after baby no longer wears diapers. Doesn't matter what anyone says about baby's needing baby stuff used sometimes the stuff made specially for baby's doesn't make sense and doesn't work well and is made just to screw the parents out of money. Take baby laundry detergent- buy woolite or the hypoallergenic tide or all instead of dr*ft or other baby laundry products. Most babies are actually allergic to the baby laundry detergant. Don't ask why but it leaves the clothes rough and itchy and causes rashes and skin irritation in 7 out of 10 babies. And pamp*rs diapers give 9 out of 10 babies diaper rash. There are some babies who can wear them but most get diaper rash and the mom gets blamed. But when she switches to a different brand of diapers it generally clears up. Good luck.
from thinartist :
As you discovered the link "what will be my site" is not, as of yet, a working website. My brother is sending me the software to build my website. Unfortunately, he's a busy architect and hasn't had the time. I'll drop you a note when I unveil my art website. Thanks for checking in.
from kait77 :
I recently made an important decision myself. Come by and check it out. Hope south beach works for you.
from kait77 :
I hope all goes through quickly for you. Good luck, I am hoping I get a break on luck here soon myself and someone comes through for me.
from neko-carre :
P.S. You might want to link K-Free in your last entry instead of Neko, cuz Neko's locked (and in K-Free, the SBD is all I talk about).
from neko-carre :
You've heard that people stay on Phase 1 for longer than two weeks because they love it??! INSANITY!!! I can't even IMAGINE! It's HELL! Those must be the same people who don't have a food addiction. Or who don't *really* need to lose weight, they just go on diets to lose ten pounds when they really don't need to lose any weight at all. Great, now I really feel like a fat freak. I know that wasn't your intention, but I just really, really can't imagine any *normal* diet-struggling person loving Phase 1. Unless they didn't lose as much weight as they wanted in Phase 1 and that's the reason they're staying on it, which then I could kind of understand. But loving it? There must be something wrong with me.
from neko-carre :
You sold handbags and lipstick? 45 tubes??! GASP! I know, I know - it's absolutely worth it, and then some. And WOW!!! Well done! Yay $1670! Dayum!
from k-free :
HI! I think I just may be successful with SB! I've been writing about it in my diary if you want to read what I think about it - so far three entries (2 yesterday, 1 today so far). Feels good to eat healthily, although I'm not used to eathing this MUCH, and I don't like that I have to eat such a big breakfast. It's too early to tell right now, but if this works, I will be SOLD! I have two different friends who lost 15 pounds in the first two weeks. I can handle two weeks! I almost feel like a martyr, heh heh. And Dave has been really helpful and enthused about it too. Tell me if you decide to do it! We'll go through it together.
from kait77 :
UPDATE SOOON and somebody come read all my news I hate being all alone in this god forsaken mountain region. I miss civilization and no one even reads my diary so no one knows what has been going on lately
from kait77 :
Hope all is progressing nicely
from limited2 :
Nice diary you have here....
from callmekim :
Hey chicky. I've been a little quiet lately, but still reading. I'm so so soooooooo happy Project EB is shaping up! Thinking good thoughts for you.
from neko-carre :
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! I'm over here doing the Happy-Skippy Dance for you!
from neko-carre :
I'm with you. Never. Eating. Again. Sigh... Thanks for your very sweet, very motivating words at K-free today. :)
from neko-carre :
LOL! Very funny! Actually he DID buy me some "sensible NYC shoes" but I haven't put a single toe in them. And they ain't coming with!
from heidiann :
Blast! You did totally win! Hmmmmm. Her Amazon wishlist is chock full of goodies. And I know she keeps it updated so I'd go ahead and get her something off that. You can't go wrong with books and movies and music. =)
from kait77 :
I could use some down to earth advice stop by and read today's entry if you get a chance b4 monday as that is the deadline for my decision.
from kait77 :
LOL daisies? At least you got out of a speeding ticket. And finally someone else who likes Prince. Did I just date myself? Oh well, I admit I am "old" according to today's teenagers- my hubby's niece told me the other day that 20 was ancient and she's 18. Hope you have a relaxing weekend and good luck on the pilates- they hurt my back but I have back problems- major ones.
from neko-carre :
Wow! I still have my "Leo the Late Bloomer" book! I was learning how to read and write, so there's a lot of scribbles and drawings in it. There's one where I must've written down the words from the cereal box in front of me because it says, in little kid handwriting, "Friendly Farmer Raisin Bran." Hee hee!
from kait77 :
I am ashamed to say I use Hask Placenta Henna 'n' Placenta packs when my hair is in bad shape. I leave it on for 20-30 minutes.
from neko-carre :
Sleepy Time lotion stuff? I don't remember you telling me you were going to send it. Ha! That's probably why I never said anything. Plus, I'm not going to say, "Um, yo! Where the hell's that gift you said you were gonna send me, beeyotch?" Hahahaha! You're such a sweetie. You DID get my email Thank You for the Warm Vanilla Sugar lotion, right? I LOVE that stuff! It's sooooooooo wonderful.
from kait77 :
When I say orange, well if you ever watched the Fifth Element there were parts of my hair that were as orange as Lee Lou's was (the 5th element and main female character if ya didn't watch or never caught the name). I am just glad it didn't destroy my hair- which other than some small dry patches seems to have survived all those chemicals pretty well.
from neko-carre :
Oooh! The attorney's baby! That was a wonderful sign! Incredibly cosmic. That was the Universe's way of saying, "See? This will work out just fine." Your diligence, patience, and never-give-up-ness has proved exactly how much you want this. Well done, sweetie.
from callmekim :
Have fun with my iguana huh? Well, you just wait until Ella Bella gets here and I start sending you Polly Pockets!
from neko-carre :
THOSE FUCKERS!!! When this is all over (be sure you're documenting everything) you get on their website and make sure you find the highest B*0A person you can and send them a letter. That makes me mad that you're getting such a run-around! I'm so sorry, honey! Don't worry, you will prevail! I'm praying for you. And you asked if putting $30,000 on your credit card will ruin your credit? You know what? SO WHAT?! Getting this baby is WAY more important than a stupid credit record. Besides, you can charge it and before it even shows up on your account, you can pay it off when those B*0*A fuckers finally get their heads out of their asses and hand you a check.
from kissssy :
I'm beginning to think you have gone about this parenting thing the better way... Yup. After 25 hours of labor, them stopping it, and now worrying that it'll happen again every time I feel a movement in my tummy... I'm beginning to think adoption is THEE way to go! Lol, think it's too late to call the stork and tell him I'm going to wait awhile?
from neko-carre :
YAAY! My good luck Buddha paid off! I'm so glad Joseph cared enough to help, and damn right you should write a letter! Ooh, also - I laughed about Mr. Moron. Mind if I add that to the SSSS? It would fit right in!
from neko-carre :
Fucking red tape! You *know* your bank loan delay is just some paperwork sitting on someone's desk who has taken the day off or called in sick. Meanwhile, it's wrecking havoc on your life and mind. Grrrr, paper. BANK LOAN CLOSE! I've got my good luck Buddha on your handwriting from the box you sent me! :)
from neko-carre :
A care package, you say? Ooo-weee, I can't wait! Thank you in advance! And you got it right on the nose: I chose the new pic because it reminded me of Dave & I in the Green Room! You're good!
from callmekim :
Did you find the link ok? Have been a little MIA lately. I buried my nephew today. Debating on writing about it. Either way, I don't think I'm ready yet to tackle it. I had enough trouble writing the entry about when he died. :( Anyway,,, will catch up on your entries soon, I promise. As soon as I feel human again. Email me if you can't find that link you were looking for. Kim
from dutch-girl :
Your entry totally cracked me up. Now I want to go write up all of my little personal oddities. Maybe I will, who knows. Sorry to hear about the little computter meltdown. The user name is jojo and the password is cats. Later, baby!! ;-)
from neko-carre :
BWAAAHAHAHA! Those are such funny and cute little quirks you have! I love you all the more now!
from girlie03 :
Thanks for your kind words. It's nice to know that this is 'normal' and I will be ok. Thanks!!! :)
from kissssy :
OMG!! Moodswings!! Hehe. You're too cute. Your whole life is about to change dramatically... you're allowed to be a little moody! Hugs!
from princesstosh :
Hey there. I'm gonna lock up for a while and if you want the info you can email me at toshajtawn@yahoo.com. So glad the plans are going smoothly. Ella bella will be beautiful!
from kissssy :
Oh that sounds so perfect! The nursery colors sound beautiful and I'm soooo happy for you that everything's going through as planned! Gosh, adopting sounds way more fun than this whole pushing an 8 pound kid out of a tiny little... yeah... Congrats on everything going smoothly! :D Hugs!
from neko-carre :
Congratulations, sweetie!! Man... I only wish that people who have kids biologically had to go through home studies and doctor's exams before being allowed to have children. That would change the world indeed.
from neko-carre :
Curves has food ON DISPLAY??! WTF?! Donated food or not, that's totally stupid and someone should really rethink that idea.
from kissssy :
LMAO! Pile a bunch of yummy food in the middle of a circle of hungry women busting their butts to lose weight... That's so mean!
from kissssy :
Awwww! I love the nursery you're putting together! I want a little girl soooooo badly now! But, alas.. I am stuck shopping for teddybears and baseballs and sports outfits... Sigh. How did such a prissy girl like me wind up with a son on the way? Glad to hear you're happy! It's always so uplifting to read about someone having a GOOD day for a change! Hugs!
from callmekim :
Okay girlie. Your wish is my command. Requested photo is there for all the world to see...
from neko-carre :
You could always just go to Plann*ed Parent*hood. See one female doctor who looks at it all day long and someone you'll probably never see again. Insurance should pay for it.
from callmekim :
Oh my god.Buckets. I am crying buckets. Rest assured, my friend's Guatamalan son Jack is healthy and lively and wonderful. I'll be praying for you. Kim
from neko-carre :
Oh no she dih'ent! GAWD! When will people learn to just SHUT THEIR MOUTHS??!
from neko-carre :
WOW! You're so awesome that you knew what I was talking about regarding my prescription! You are sooooo good. And thanks for giving me a kick. I know that high BP doesn't have any symptoms so I didn't think I needed to take it anymore, but I *know* that I do. Sigh. I'm so sick of taking a pill every day. All the more reason to lose weight! ~ And yep, I like Vanilla scent.
from callmekim :
Fowl Peckers ended up with me feigning a bee sting and dragging her off to the car. After she got to throw corn at the peckers. Hee.
from callmekim :
:) Thanks again for visiting. You did hit the back button to hear your story about the fowl pecker, eh?
from kissssy :
Pssst... sent you an email. But, with a return name like Kissy, it often goes straight to the porn box. Sooo check your bulk before you delete :)
from neko-carre :
The choice between eating and looking good is soo effing hard, isn't it? SOMEHOW we have GOT to remember that looking good feels better (and more long term) than a momentary plate of whatever. It takes me maybe 15 minutes to eat each meal/snack, yet I spend 24 hours a day obsessing about my weight. It doesn't make sense! We've got to remember that difference! Anyway, I'm so glad you liked the card! And I'm very flattered that you think it's something I should do part-time. The only problem with that is that the pics I use are copyrighted, so I can only use them for fun, i.e. friends & family. I couldn't sell the cards. Bummer. Good idea, though!
from callmekim :
The people at my nail place do a fabulous job with the hair removing. Although for a day or so we all go around looking a tiny bit surprised. I use Coup de Theatre by Bourjois.It's double sided. One side are these little white fibrous things you brush on , the other side is the black. It makes your lashes very thick and very defined. I'm gonna tell the Fowl Pecker story tonight or tomorrow morning.....
from kissssy :
Oh, how exciting! It's just getting closer and closer! Let your mom buy all the baby stuff she wants! Grandmas-to-be seem to have the same excitement as moms-to-be... My mom's eyes still water when she looks at baby stuff for my little kidling.
from neko-carre :
In the note below, when I said "I'm not on a veggie diet" - I don't know where that "not" came from. I AM on a veggie diet. (Dur!)
from neko-carre :
If I could afford hire a personal chef, I so would! Someone who buys all the food, prepares it, and knows exactly what I need to eat in order to lose weight. Well, since I can't do that, I'm not on a veggie "diet." I'm going to eat mostly fresh veggies (with a lite dressing dip) as the majority of my "meals" (which are actually just snacks - I hardly ever have real meals). We'll see how long I can do that and if any results will come of it. It better, damnit! ~ Okay, so tell me again when your birthday is!
from neko-carre :
I can NEVER make my hair look good after the stylist does it. I've hated this last hair cut ever since I washed my hair afterward.
from amazingagain :
check your email! :-P
from neko-carre :
Wow! Brave! But your new haircut sounds fantastic! I love girls with shorter, swingy hair. So sexy! (P.S. Your birthday is coming up soon, right?)
from kissssy :
Congrats on the great haircut! But, becareful with those walk-in places. The stylist here has a sign up that actually says "We fix $10 haircuts" so apparantly, not everyone gets a good haircut :) Glad you did!
from kissssy :
No no no! There is absolutely nothing that says you have to be thin to be a good mom. Your little Ella Bella will love you because of all the loving and cherishing you're going to do to her. I know you'll be an awesome mom. So many children are born today with parents who don't love them, who thought of them as an accident. But, you are fighting for yours. Adoptive parents are guaranteed to be wonderful since like some of us who have had to try for years to get pregnant... they aren't giving up. The fact that you are giving this your all and putting everything you have on the line for this sweet little girl just proves how great a mom you are. If you want to lose weight, do it for you. :) Your daughter will love you regardless. ~~ And I can totally relate to your whole hairstylist problem. Try finding one up in northern Wisconsin in a small town where hardly ANYONE has any fashion. Sigh. I miss the west coast. Hugs!
from princesstosh :
Yes, Tiara! Tiara! I cant wait. Oh, and all my 'stuff' is still crossed for you. Wells Fargo can go suck my tiara! HAHA! Oh, and it must be an epidemic, cause I was feeling extra fat today too. *Sigh*
from neko-carre :
Oh my god, that's EXACTLY how I'm feeling right now! GODDAMN FAT, a house full of clutter and dust, and I'm in desperate (DESPERATE!) need of a good haircut. Heave! Somethin's gotta give.
from princesstosh :
Got my wedding loan! waiting patiently for you to get your baby loan....anyday now Wells Fargo....
from kissssy :
Only in your diary can I read about a freak back accident during a blowjob, chihuahuas, adoption, and demands of morning sex in a matter of days... Lol! Best of luck with that.
from neko-carre :
Wow! A big step! Good luck with the new family member. It will happen.
from princesstosh :
Go getcha some, girl! I was in need last night too. These men~ not sensitive enough when we want them to be, and not macho enough when we want them to be! HUMPH! Tell him to buck up and satisfy his woman! ;) In a nice way of course...
from neko-carre :
Aw man, Carrie. I love you!
from fargahar :
I would probably put something on it that will heal it and lubricate it at the same time. Like Neosporin. However it is important to prevent him from licking it so I would suggest a t-shirt or belly band or something to prevent licking.....
from mommylap :
This is the first time I can remember being far more impressed with the guys than the girls. I mean it was well-groomed but how boring is that? Charlize, usually such a winner- and she looked marvelous at the Golden Globes, she looked horrid. Was it because Halle Berry wasn't there? I dunno. Let down- that was me.
from neko-carre :
Yes! Yes! I can do all that! Email me the usernames of the diaries you want posted on there and I'll add those too. I agree, the font could be bigger (and/or a different color background). I'll fix it straight away!
from neko-carre :
WHAT??!! YOU SWEETIE! You sly, sly sweetie! Thank you SO MUCH! Wow! What a nice thing to do! (I can't wait to see it! I showed my hubby last night and he was like, "You should get that!" but it would've involved withdrawing from the NYC savings, so I didn't.) THANK YOU SO MUCH, C!
from kissssy :
I can relate to how you're feeling with your hubby touching your tummy. For years, mine hasn't been able to. It reminds me that I'm not a size 2. I don't have the supermodel body I want. I'm short and stumpy (tho he'd tear into me if he heard me say that). He wasn't allowed to touch my stomach at all until my pregnancy started showing. And, I know I slap his hands away again once the baby's born. Maybe it's a part of us all women are self conscious about. The low carb diet is a bad idea so I'm pleased you won't go for it. You need some carbs in your system, more than people are allowing now. I went on it and pushed myself to the bridge of hypoglycemia (sp) and I still suffer low blood sugar attacks now and then. Your body needs some sugar, regardless of whether or not sugar is stored energy (blah blah). The calorie way is the best way. Work off twice as much as you eat every day. Weight Watchers seems to please a lot of my friends. Just please don't resort to the Atkins diet. Remember... the guy died. It was for other reasons, but it's been said from a practioner now that he was overweight when he died. With enough will, you can do anything you want :) You can lose however many pounds you want. And, ignore Tammy for now. Most of us have one. They were put on women to make us feel insecure whenever we see Miss I-can-wear-bikinis-to-the-waterpark-and-not-hide-in-the-water walks by. Concentrate on feeling better and more energized not on how you look :) Hugs! (psssst... can you give me the same advice in 3 months when the baby's out and I discover I can't lose the weight???)
from neko-carre :
Hey, sweetie. I know deep down you're probably more upset by the fact that you yelled at your hubby. But perhaps this little panic attack will kick in the "summer's coming, gotta do it" reaction. It's so easy to get comfortable. (I know *I'm* not doing so well right now.) We just need a little kick in the butt sometimes. Maybe this was it for you. Anyway - you're gorgeous anyway and you know it! BTW, I just did some changes on my layout and I'm wondering if you wanted anything new on yours? Let me know!
from mommylap :
Listen, you are the friend that made the gesture that was wonderful and unexpected and made my week. I am tired, but the Queen Cream definitely helps. You help. You are really wonderful and special Carrie. SWAK!
from k-free :
Aw sweetie - thanks so much for your motivating note. I'm so glad you read my diary and lift me up when I'm down.
from purr67 :
Wow, you are beautiful!
from diet-riot :
Thanks for the note! That was the first time I'd ever weighed myself like that. It was an eye opener! It will make me think twice before doing that again. It helps to know there are other gals doing this too. (I like the princess on your page. So very 50's!)
from sixweasels :
Guesbook wouldn't let me tell you, but I LOVED reading about Joe The Penis and the dildo. You rock.
from neko-carre :
Jelly beans are SO FUCKING ADDICTIVE!!! (Sorry to yell, but damn. They are. I have a serious problem with 'em.)
from princesstosh :
Thanks for the tip. With my luck he'd actually like the hideous things, then I'd be in even more of a heap of trouble :) Men, huh? But, we're doing everything handmade too. My mom and grandma are very arsty-craftsy (a word?) and they've of course passed it on to me. We're really having fun with it, I get to personalize everything! yay! I'm very proud of you by the way. I tease you about having to eat unhealthy things to live :) but its very encouraging and brave of you to give up some of the things you love. Good for you! Have a great day!
from neko-carre :
You're doing SO WELL! Damn, girl! :-D
from k-free :
Yipes, I'm certainly not a good person to be giving advice. You've seen my Fat Pictures. The way I keep myself from being hungry is obviously not productive AT ALL - it slows my metabolism waaaay down - but here it is: I don't eat in the morning. I know that's the exact opposite of what you're "supposed to" do, but when I eat in the morning, even if it's just a banana, I'm starving an hour later. Yet if I don't eat anything, I can go all day without getting hungry. I'm sure my body slows down and thinks I'm starving so it stores the fat, but - that's how I don't get hungry. There. Bad advice for ya. :)
from k-free :
About the eating thing: You are probably eating "correctly", i.e. eating more to keep your metabolism going. I don't really get that hungry (I'm just a bad junk food snacker). But I've never eaten a whole lot and I still got really fat. So who knows? I'm obviously not doing something right, but I'm hoping the exercise will remedy that.
from shelly007 :
Well, actually, the hair never really turned red. And now it's already faded out a lot and looking blond/brown again. So, it's back to the drawing board for a good red. Got any suggestions? As soon as I find a look I like I'll be sure to post a pic. Esp now that I have my awesome camera phone.
from barenaked500 :
There is a nail place by my house called "Chi Chi's Nails" and everytime I go by I laugh and think of you! :)
from beatlesgyrl :
Don't fret! I would never leave Diaryland. I'm just a glutton for punishment, so I will force myself to write in two blogs everyday. Really, it defies logic, but I've never been one for logic, now, have I? The novel ... well, it's not published yet. I've been shopping for representation for it for more than a year. I'm about to shelf it, though, because I've been looking at it so much that I honestly hate it. I think now that I've got one under my belt, writing another will be easy. That is, if I actually start...
from neko-carre :
P.S. The dress isn't really slutty - it's just retro. But it does kinda look like a costume. You know, the kind that come in those packages at Halloween?
from neko-carre :
EEEEEEWWWWWW! And hahahahahaha!
from beatlesgyrl :
Refrigerators are nothing but trouble. My sympathies.
from legalbeagle :
Um....YEAH! At least tell someone at work (like a cool supervisor type...or better yet, a cool person in HR) to get it down in someone else's brain that Fire Marshall Jim is a freaky perv!
from neko-carre :
Congrats on your inches loss! Clothes are such a great indicator on how you're doing. Sometimes I think I should never step on the scale and as long as I'm making an effort, my clothes will tell me how I'm doing. (But it's hard to stop looking at the scale.)
from legalbeagle :
Your dude, Toby K. is in the new Rolling Stone! Check it out if you haven't already.
from neko-carre :
So where's the pic of your good hair-&-makeup day? I always knew you were beautiful anyway. :)
from neko-carre :
I'm sorry about your grandma, sweetie. :( I'm thinking about you and holding your hand in my mind. As far as the financial question? Tough call. Money is the number one thing married couples fight about. Maybe it helps to know that.
from k-free :
Thank you so much, Carrie, for your support! You are truly Diaryland's best asset with all the motivation and positivity you bring! Yes, it was very difficult for me to post those pics - especially because *you* know how well I hide it. I'm just hoping this diary doesn't get Google'd all over the place. I'd lock it, but I want anyone who's trying to lose weight to be able to read it and relate.
from shelly007 :
You just made my day better by being sooo damn funny, as usual! Thank you so much! (I just signed this on your guestbook, but things went all wonky so I wasn't sure if it went through or not, so I'm just putting it here so I know you got it.)
from mommylap :
I just had to tell you that I got my typical gift certificates from my sisters so I have $$ I can spend at the MAC counter. I wish I could spend it with you, but I know you'll be there in spirit.
from neko-carre :
Oooh, I love the pics! Keep 'em comin'! And I ADORE your red shoes! You are a girl from my own heart.
from calidris :
Thanks for the get well wishes. The huz suggested I eat some yogurt to get the tummy bck in working order. Last time it took me a few *months* to feel human again. I tried to rush it--as in had some raw veggies last night--and wound up with an awful stomach-ache an hour later. That will teach me to be impatient. So, I'm basically scrogged for a least a few more weeks and will not feel any shame in eating what I can tolerate: simple carbs, meat, and red wine. Oh, what a tragedy. ;-) I just don't expect my weekly weigh-ins to be very good. Ah, well...there's always next year. Heh.
from neko-carre :
Oh mwy GWAD! What a CUTIE! What do your other babies think? And that Liquid PJs sounds fab! Very much the kinda thing I'd love! Must check that out. (P.S. Thanks for your motivating words at K-Free. I can't wait for the New Year now. New Year, new me. Plllleeeease!)
from dutch-girl :
Sorry to hear that your job is causing you so much stress you have to take medication. That sucks. No job is worth that, really! Do whatever you can to not let it get to you. :-)
from kissssy :
Lots of luck at the party tonight! The black sweater with boots sounds lovely, but I'm more partial to red too. Hell with it! Go with your signature color and have a great time! :) And good luck with getting a less stressful job. Make your old company fight for you!
from captvfirefly :
Hey there! :) Hope you had a great Thanksgiving! Oh yes, I forgot about the Walmart date...that would be Jim. Honestly, I like him more than I care to admit, and I'm trying to contain my excitement at the possibility that things may pick up again. BUT, I also really like FunBoy -- even though he refuses to make a formal commitment. I'm not going to make any rash decisions yet, and you're so right! I don't owe either of them anything (no commitment = not my problem), but I keep forgetting that. We'll see what happens. For now I'm just going to lay low. :) Thanks for the advice!
from princesstosh :
Hey there, linked to you through Kissssy. Love the entries:) Adding you as a fave...Happy Holidays!
from kissssy :
Good luck with the month weigh-in. Just remember... never weigh yourself ~after~ indulging in a Thanksgiving meal! Happy holidays!
from neko-carre :
Yep, I trim my own bangs. Tips? I'd say the only tips I have are 1) get some professional hair scissors (at the beauty supply store - not that expensive; I bought a cheap pair for $12, but since I'm only using them for bangs, they work perfectly), and 2) don't cut your bangs after having a few cocktails. :-D
from neko-carre :
You are so pretty!! You look fanstastic! I love your hair. You do the bangs and brows very nicely. That cute husband of yours too! What a little stinker! You're the cutest couple. :-D
from kissssy :
Congrats on a new dog! It's not too weird naming him after someone you lust for... My grandmother named her cat Springer because of her crush on Jerry Springer. Yeah... Okay. That one was a little weird. Anyway, good to see things are going well. Happy Friday.
from neko-carre :
I love the idea of working out on the way home so that it's done and once you get home, you can relax without thinking, "shit, I need to work out" yet you've already put on your comfies. I wish there was a gym on the way home from my office.... Wait, there is. Damn! But, but! It's a 24 Hour Fitness full of skinny women and bulky guys and it's expensive! Oh, fuck it - I'm just making exuses now. I'm so glad to hear it's going well for you!!
from calidris :
About that Odwalla, those are SOOOOO good! I like the strawberry-banana one, and the Morning Glory one, which is cranberry and other fun stuff. But drinking a whole one is like eating a candy bar, calorically, so I ave them for when I can "afford" it.
from kissssy :
Thanks for the note :) Good to see things are going good with the diet/exercise. I've been told Curves is great - tho never been there myself. A tip for dieters... Pregnancy! Morning sickness has been the best diet I've had ;) Take care and good luck with Curves.
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for your comments honey, you are so right, I am going to avoid him like the plague, no matter how much I want to see him. And hopefully after a few weeks he will remember me and give me some attention? I am going to get over this crush! I am and I will. And you know what? Belly dancing sounds great! G-d knows my belly was probably born for that... Love u! Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Hey sweety! I just wanted to wish you a great weekend. I hope you are having a good one! Luv Kathy
from thisendup :
i feel bad about my weight all the time. all the time. even when i lost a few pounds i still felt like piss. so it's true what they say, you have to like yourself before anything else. i'm so jealous that you are cuddling tonight... my boyfriend is in MN and i'm in FL by my lonesome... *sigh*
from sixweasels :
I love that you kissed your pumpkin good-bye! Lots of good job vibes coming your way.
from vintagegurl :
arhum! arhum!!... sugar free gum has this like major laxative effect. It's my massive weapon against bloated belly syndrome, but I only use this as a last resort, and when I'm particularly stupid. But thanks for the sweet note <3!
from neko-carre :
I say, keep the appointment and try them one time. A girl can always use a very expensive haircut. And if you absolutely hate them, don't ever go back. Just go in there with a tough attitude. (But then again, if your gut reaction is to run far, far away - trust that).
from purr67 :
Don't worry about the weight. It WILL come off. Sometimes it just takes a while. I am rooting for you! I also hope the bad thing is not going to be as bad as you think. Jody
from legalbeagle :
The past can suck ass, but you're on the other side of it. Hang in there and be strong. Try not to beat yourself up. In our crazy youth, we all do really stupid shit we wish we could take back. Make amends with the situation and accept it as a part of your learning process, sucky as it is. Then go buy some new lipstick -you deserve it this time!
from neko-carre :
I think I know what you're going through, C. Before I met Dave, I made the same mistakes (twice) and I felt like such a horrible person, hence it seems everything I did back then was a product of that. I had a great counselor, we worked things out, I let it go, then I met Dave. He was my reward. You have to remember that it's NOT you anymore. That you're NOT in that position anymore. You remedied it, you got out of that situation, you moved on. Now you have a wonderful husband of your own. The past is history. Don't focus on it, sweetie. Your life is a thousand times better now!
from snideblonde :
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from legalbeagle :
I need a new eye make-up remover!!! What do you recommend? (Some Mary Kay crap I was guilted into buying freaked my skin out!)
from bathtubmary :
holy shit, you read 'wifey' in third grade? did it scar you for life, or what? (it scarred me in my twenties). xoxo, d
from captvfirefly :
Hey Carrie! I just wanted to let you know that if you emailed me some info, I didn't receive it. I just didn't want you to think I was ignoring you - AOL may have eaten it or something. Anyway, I'll be leaving tomorrow from work around 3pm. Per usual, I'll be checking email right up until I leave (because I'll be unplugged for 3.5 days. The horror!). If you're still interested, just shoot me an email. :)
from get-thin :
Hey Carrie, I just wanted to say thank you for the positive message in my guestbook. Unfortunately, things didn't work out so great but, like you said, I can always lose it again. I really appreciate your support - it means a lot to me and makes me feel SOOO much better! Thanks again!
from idiot-milk :
Mmmm...slurpees. I haven't had a slurpee in years. YEARS. And yes, if I spill or drop something, I ALWAYS tell people and help clean it up if possible. But, as I am finding more and more, that is not the norm. Stupid rude fucking bastard people. I hate them all.
from neko-carre :
Yep, same boutique. I LOVE them but they moved out of downtown into [gag] the Valley. But I've decided that they make the only lotion I love, so I either have to make a special trip out there (which is really, really hard because it's [did I mention gag?] the Valley) or I have to have someone from work who lives out there to pick it up for me - which I'm going to do as soon as I get some money. That way I don't ever ever have to go. ~ No, i haven't seen "Down With Love." I wanted to the second it came out but never did. Looks ADORABLE. That's why I want the DVD. Can't wait to see it! I know it's gonna be one of those I watch repeatedly. ~ And, one last thing. I love ya, C! Oh, and maybe you should handcuff yourself to the bed. It would not only keep Chi-Chi down, but it could give you and Hubby some naughty ideas! Tee hee.
from canadianna :
I love my lip products, alright. As for my healthy and organic lists it comes with the Nutritionist territory, any questions, feel free to ask. I won't even charge you the $100+/hour I normally do, just cause you're you! And Oil of Oregano. Foul tasting stuff that is naturally antiseptic, antibiotic, antiviral, la la la. A few drops in your mouth helps keep the buggies away. --Angela
from captvfirefly :
I'll be staying at the Hyatt Regency Dallas at Reunion. If work isn't too crazy for you next week, and the location is relatively close, I'd just love to meet ya! Actually, the company that's putting on this conference gives us an "evening of entertainment" (a meet & greet/drinking opportunity), which I hear will be at "Dick's Last Resort" in the downtown west end (wherever that is). I think that's going to be Wednesday night, but I'd have to check. Anyway, if you'd like, drop me an email and maybe we can exchange some contact information? I'm at Boredatwork74@aol.com. It would be great fun to meet you! :)
from captvfirefly :
Hey princess! I've got a bad memory - have you ever mentioned whereabouts in the great state of Texas you're located? I don't need specifics, but I was curious if you're in the Dallas area? See, I'll be in Dallas next week for a conference (Tuesday night through Friday morning) and if you're in the area, I'd love to meet you! If not, that's ok too. Just let me know. :)
from cdghost :
enjoyed reading your words all the best
from elishaww :
D and I really enjoyed the resort we stayed at last time in the Mayan Riviera. It's called the Iberostar Paraiso Beach and it was wonderful. The beach is public but it is very long and sandy...not too many rocks, which I hate when trying to get into the water! The only thing is that the place is huge. They actually have a little trolley that goes around the thing nonstop so that people can ride instead of all that walking. My husband liked Cozumel better though because he loves snorkeling and Cozumel has an awesome reef. Thanks for the info on the fondue place. We'll definitely have to check it out...we live east of Plano so we'd have to make a special trip to go way out there. It's probably worth it though.
from vintagegurl :
happy anniversary! and by the way, yes I have muscles in my thighs, when you're overweight you actually have more muscle mass than thin people because to walk and just move around you have to carry more weight all the time so you need extra muscle. maybe it's just me! I had an exam where they tell you how much lean mass (muscle+bones) you have in your body and my lean mass is 140 pounds whereas my whole weight has been 121 a few years ago, so that means I've put on a lot of fat weight, but some muscle too! Go figure
from legalbeagle :
The passion won't fade - it will only deepend. See my entry: http://legalbeagle.diaryland.com/030828_95.html about my parents' 50th. They are still madly in love and wouldn't trade each other for all the diamonds on your tiara!
from mommylap :
The best thing about the job is that I am drinking tons of filtered water everyday and as it pours into my company-provided, eco-friendly plastic stein all I think of is pee-water. And then I walk around with a joke no one else would ever understand. Like backwards panties, kinda. There's also the fact that I've already gotten several signs that this job (I'm rehired to the company in a totally different division) is absolutely where the universe wants me to be right now. A former work associate who I adore is in my training class with me. It's like support hitting me in the face every morning. AND the ice-cold pee water. What can beat that? Oh yeah, diamonds, multiple orgasms, and garlic chicken.
from neko-carre :
Oh sure, easy for Dr. Phil to say considering he's not a woman and obviously doesn't comprehend the need for makeup. Maybe we should tell him to stop beating off if he doesn't exercise. Yeah, let's see how he likes THAT! Fucking hypocrite. (Sorry.)
from neko-carre :
You are so wonderful! Thank you! I know it will make my day! You always do. *Mwah*!
from shelly007 :
Damn guestbooks! Anyway, as I saying, I just refered to you in Canadianna's guestbook. Now you'll have to scurry over there to see what I wrote. Now, can I just say that Walmart is evil? A certain princess wanabe probably works there.
from neko-carre :
Hey sweetie. Sorry it's taken me forever to get back to you about the banner thing. Like I said, I can probably make it with words only, but if you want to have something cute & fuzzy, you might see if anyone else knows how to do one. Also, since I'm on the topic, how's the page looking for you. I can make some adjustments if you like. Maybe make the table where your entry goes a different color so it's easier to read? Also tighten things up a bit? Would you like that or are you perfectly happy with how it is?
from neko-carre :
My new favorite commercial is the one where the mom is trying to get her son out of bed for school and he's like, "nnng" and she says, "okaaaay" (in a "you asked for it" tone of voice). And then all the sudden this LOUD heavy metal band comes into his room and is singing/screaming "GET OUT OF BED!" and they follow him as he's getting dressed and stuff! It's hilarious!
from shelly007 :
I just got tricked into looking at LeslieIrene's diary, again. Damn her!
from get-thin :
Carrie, you are such a sweetheart! Thank you so much for the encouraging note - boy did I need it! :)
from vintagegurl :
thank you baybeee! thanks fro the sweet message! I love your diary, you make me lol as in laugh out LOUD! for real sometimes, and YOU are motivating. Bye! <3 <3 <3
from legalbeagle :
Today, I shall honk my horn for you - you are doing an EXCELLENT JOB!
from neko-carre :
HAHAHA! My goodness! Why would someone actually WANT to hear honking? It's one of those annoying sounds, like cell phones. Huh... only in Texas!
from neko-carre :
Hee, thanks, sweetie! The tiara is all you. Oh, and my eyes are actually about as blue as they come, but they always look green with the flash. :)
from captvfirefly :
Thanks for the entry suggestion - I like that one too. :) Actually, I haven't seen or heard from PrinterBoyfriend in a long time (since around the time of that entry)! Of course now that I say that, one of our printers will break down and I'll end up having to call him.... lol
from maiarayne :
You never fail to leave me a note or message to always uplift me. I just wanted to say thank you! *hugs*
from neko-carre :
What??! Oh my god, what a freak! I mean, it's flattering 'n all, but hello! Personal space! I've been watching waaay too much City Confidential and that's a really scary thing that guy did. ~ But yeah, I love Fall perfumes too!
from bathtubmary :
a pedicure sounds like heaven...i'm long overdue. thanks, toots. xo, d
from neko-carre :
Quirky bosses! What a great idea!
from neko-carre :
Oooh! That's a good one, the "battery low" thing. I'm SO using that today!
from canadianna :
I wish I could say 'yes', just to get a reaction, but alas, I don't have the canisters. If you've saved up enough from the lip-gloss boycott, go buy these: http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=2655738415&category=1007 As for my husband's preferences, was it your name he was screaming out, only moments ago? Didn't think so. --Angela
from canadianna :
I DO have a rather nice ass, don't I? As for me being nekked on the net....meh, it's happened before. How much did you pay for your mug? I'm very curious. And just to add a little insult to unjury, I got one of these a couple weeks ago for $0.50. http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=2655358492&category=2697
from canadianna :
Now I'm all paranoid. Why can't they just ASK me to divulge all my naughty secrets? I'd gladly share. There wouldn't be nearly as much violence in the world if everyone was getting some. As for the Jadite: I payed $1 for the mug and the six sundae dishes. Nyah!
from neko-carre :
"Lip decoration"??? For a minute I thought that was code word for some kind of liposuction or something and, although I'd love to get it, I don't recall talking about it. THEN I remembered that you said you were sending me something and that must be it. So, NO! I haven't gotten it, damnit! Did you send it to my office? Of course you did - you & I sent everything to each other's offices. Fuck, man! Sometimes I wonder about the mail service there. This girl sent me something from MUA and I didn't get it for weeks - I thought she'd "swaplifted" me. But I've never NOT gotten stuff that I expected (the MUA item did come eventually), so hopefully it will show up? When did you send it?
from neko-carre :
You are so good! I love you. I just had to tell you that.
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for caring. It really means a lot. xoxo Kathy
from neko-carre :
Congrats to the Hub!!
from neko-carre :
Hey, babydoll. Haven't gotten to the banner yet. I've been computered out lately! Googly eyes. Like I said, I'm not sure I have the smahts to do it, but I will give it a shot (soon) and let you know. In the meantime, if you find any pics (remember that Getty site?) that you like, let me know and I can see if I can make minis of it for the banner. But it might just be words. Is that okay? What do you want it to say?
from melii :
hey! thanks for the nice words... i'm feeling much better today.... take care! and thanks for reading! xoxoxo
from neko-carre :
Ooh! *I* want a Russell! Mmmm...Benefit....
from neko-carre :
'kay! I'm thinking too. I'll work on something over the weekend (if I can figure it out).
from canadianna :
Thanks for the note. I like the new layout too. I'm flighty though, so I don't know how long it'll stay. :) And yes, I like money. I just don't like what some people do for money.
from canadianna :
I like penis too. But it has to be attached to a man. And that man has to be living.
from neko-carre :
A new project? You've piqued my curiosity! Do tell. More than likely I will concur.
from neko-carre :
Hee. Better a red bra strap showing than an icky, trailer-trash faded white bra strap. Gawd, I cringe whenever I see that. ~ No, I LOVE it when you (and others) rant about work! Makes me feel I'm not alone in this! ~ Good tip for the day. I should know that, but I've done it far too many times.
from krugerpak007 :
I am addicted to your diary. Good luck with your lip product no-buying... I wish I had such self-contol with my outrageous shopping.. Take care!:-)Kathy
from neko-carre :
Ooooh, I lurve the MAC eyebrow crayon! I never used eyebrow cosmetics until I dyed my hair red and needed red brows. I wasn't thrilled about using an eyebrow pencil b/c the product always chips off whenever I sharpen it and I end up wasting half the pencil. This stuff is like a thin, thin lipstick - you twist it up. Never needs to be sharpened. And it's so thin, it's perfect for getting your brows exactly right. I've been ADDICTED to the stuff ever since! Plus it's a MAC plastic tube so when you use up 6 plastic tubes (of anything MAC), you can recycle it for a free lipstick!
from rockitten :
So far I still haven't figured out a solution to get around the wall. It makes the Berlin wall look simple. Bah.
from neko-carre :
The squirrel! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!
from neko-carre :
Cool vacay! Slot machine luck 'n everything! You are truly pampered and you deserve it! I'm glad you're back (although I know you're not).
from beatlesgyrl :
Re: Sharpie idea. Good idea. But I'm getting performance anxiety. What if my penile interpretation isn't good enough? What if I bring fellow females to their knees with laughter at my not-good-enough wang? You can't lift weights with proper form if you are laughing! ;-)
from neko-carre :
You're so wonderful! Thank you!
from neko-carre :
FANTASTIC! Well done, my dear! I love the "eh, I'm just not hungry" realization, and when your mind doesn't go, "but it's cheeeeeese cake!" When I eat DESPITE that not-hungry feeling, I always feel like SHIT afterward. But yeah, one time? I was at this wedding with the most FABULOUS appetizers. I ate a couple of those and then just wasn't interested in dinner. And even when I tried to force myself to eat dinner, there wasn't any plates left, so I just said, "good" and left it at that. Yay for paying attention to the appetite!
from beatlesgyrl :
Short skirts in general? Yes. Short skirts on my relatives? Not a pretty picture. I'll just leave it at that for the sake of your sanity. ;-)
from neko-carre :
Hey, is the layout working okay for you? Getting tired of the red or the font size or anything you'd like me to change a bit? Let me know.
from neko-carre :
HAHAHAHA! Those photos are priceless! And JC, woman! That rock on your finger! Damn, I had to put on shades!
from neko-carre :
LOVE the toes, the hair color, the tiara! Honey, you're a hottie! Tsssss!
from bathtubmary :
if you aren't the most adorable thing, i don't know who is. thank you for sharing those pictures. xoxo, d
from neko-carre :
Sweetie, sweetie, sweetie! Remember... *life* first, weight loss second. [smooches]
from neko-carre :
OOOH, b-day shoppin'?! SQUEE! Sexy vs. trashy, eh? Hmmm. I'd say, glamourous movie starlets of the 40s & 50s = sexy. Current pop/whatever icons of today, like Britney, Christina, and Pamela Anderson = trashy. Does that help?
from neko-carre :
Wow! So that biological clock thing is REAL?! Oh shit. What can I do to stop mine?? Like, NOW, before I want one?? Should I take up smoking, maybe?
from beatlesgyrl :
I know I must be super raunchy to ask, but is it sex in the cab of a big truck or in the back that sets you a-fire for cowboys and big trucks? What can I say? Curiosity killed the cat. And I mean that in as nonsexual a way as possible. ;-)
from neko-carre :
WHAAAAT? You want a baby? Seriously? Okay, I realize I need to understand that, yes, most normal people actually DO want children and that I'm the freak for not, but... Really?!
from neko-carre :
WOW! You must've had a big neon sign above your head with arrows pointing down to you that said, "ASK ME OUT TODAY!" See? That's what happens when you're a hottie. :)
from neko-carre :
I'd say use of the "c" word is in order here. That little cunt! Well, you handled it well - I would've wanted to ring her neck too, but I think handling it with calm sophistication and patience like, "Oh you poor pathetic thing" was the best reaction. Because, after all, WHO did he marry? Not the ex-girlfriend, not Poor Pathitic Little Cunt Who Is Mean-Spirited And Probably Can't Get A Decent Man If She Tried With An Attitude Like That. Nope - he married YOU.
from neko-carre :
BTW, did Bo ever get with you about her password? She said she emailed it to you. Oh, and the Benetint stuff is a little good, a little bad. I had to learn how apply it with just the right "hand."
from neko-carre :
OH! OH! I know that one too! It drives me FUCKING CRAZY! When our staff goes out of town for a meeting, I can always tell when they're in the airport or taking a lunch break because they ALL CALL AT THE SAME FREAKING TIME! RRRRGH! Like you said, why don't they think, "Gee, maybe we shouldn't all bombard the switchboard by all calling at once." Liz will call and then Chris will call and I can hear Liz talking through Chris's phone! Come ON, you morons!
from neko-carre :
That IS weird that she's holding a piece of paper! I never noticed that til you pointed it out! Oooh, that's interesting! Like some Nancy Drew mystery. "What's on the piece of paper as why is she holding it in a portrait?"
from neko-carre :
It's because margaritas are the devil, that's why. Tempting and fun and prime evil. They're the devil, I say!
from beatlesgyrl :
Stealing pens is one of the only socially acceptable forms of kleptomania left. I know because I do it, too.
from beatlesgyrl :
47 gallons of water? Holy hell. You just may float away. Quick. Buy a Funoodle just in case; they're my favorite flotation device (except airplane seats, of course, which are not as readily available).
from neko-carre :
Oh yeah. Red is definitely the hardest color to get, permanent or temporary. Believe me, I've been every color and I could NEVER get red right. I'm a huge advocate of dyeing my own hair, but the times I go to my stylist for a dye job are when I'm going from one extreme to another (platinum to black, for instance - or vice versa) OR when I go red. It's just such a fussy color. Anyway, don't worry - sounds like you just put in a temporary. That's easy to dye over. Go to your stylist and have her fix it. Should be no problem.
from rockitten :
Thanks! The house looks mucho better, so perhaps I will be motivated to come home afterall. Heh. {I just wish the healthy food fairy would come along and stock while gobbling up all the junkfood. THAT would be perfect.}
from neko-carre :
Oh yes, motel sex. Love it!
from shelly007 :
I have a friend who massages my head. It IS the most delicious feeling! And where do you get that glove thingie?
from neko-carre :
I'd like to rent Chi-Chi for the morning of Saturday, June 21. Thank you.
from neko-carre :
HAAA! Yoga in your sleep! Now *that's* dedication! HAHAHAHAHAAAA! I'd probably eat everything in the fridge in my sleep - YOU work out! That's awesomely funny!
from neko-carre :
FABULOUS job on the 3.6 pounds, my dear! WOOOOW! That's effing GREAT! Well done! :-D
from beatlesgyrl :
Alright. I've neglected my red ant promise for long enough. But now it's got this buildup, and the pressure is excruciating. I hope I can live up to the expectations of a good story. OK. Here goes. Setting: At our yearly family reunion at Lake Palestine, I was 10 and a damn good fisherwoman if I do say so myself. Well, early one morning, I stood atop a bank and threw my rod (well, the line, not the rod) and caught a huge fish. In my excitement, I turned around abruptly and forcefully. The ground underneath me gave way, and I sunk into the dirt, nearly falling off the embankment. But that wasn't the worst of it. Oh, no. Then those bastards crawled out of the ground and onto my body. Not just one or two. Oh, no. At least 5,764. And I screamed bloody murder. My grandfather was forced to hose me down. The humiliation cannot be described, as I'm sure you can tell by the fact that this incident 14 years ago has scarred me deeply.
from neko-carre :
"Kill & Boss" was the closest, although I won't be actually committing any homicide (but I'll feel like it if his boss is a jerk when I call him to tell him that Dave won't be in on Monday). I'm nervous. They're not very nice people. I don't want them to take it out on Dave for something that he had no idea about. Fuckers. I'm already pissed! (No, Kari, everything will be fine. They'll think it's funny. Just keep thinking that.)
from neko-carre :
How are things going today?
from neko-carre :
Oh, honey, that's really unfair. What a bastidge. I'd say those are definite signs that it's time to move on. I had the greatest job in the world as an office assistant for the state auditor. My boss and I were an amazing team. Then he got a better job some place else and... A11ina the Hun came in. I didn't last 8 months before I got the HELL out of there. That job wasn't the greatest anymore - not with a boss like her.
from rockitten :
Ya know, 14 is my lucky number. Well, I guess you wouldn't know... but my point is, that's an awesome accomplishment. Think of all those people that bitch about their "extra 10 lbs" and never do anything about it. You've accomplished that and more! I have a question about the exercise bands, though... do you ever feel like they're going to fly out from under your foot and knock you out or something? I've thought about buying them, but they seem a little scary to me.
from neko-carre :
One can NEVER have enough lip balm! Bring it on! Dave uses it too and we're always losing one, finding one, having one in each purse/coat pocket/room in the house, etc. I LOVE it! And need it.
from neko-carre :
I think that's fabulous! 14 freaking pounds? That's 14 pounds you no longer have. 14 pounds makes a big difference! If you keep going it will be another 14 pounds and another and pretty soon you'll be all, "Whoa! I'm frickin' thin!"
from beatlesgyrl :
Red ant story to come later. I have not forgotten.
from beatlesgyrl :
Ha! I'm sorry to have driven you to tears. But at least they're happy tears, right? And cherish this moment of sentimentality. It doesn't happen very often. Even H was looking at my misty eyes during the toasts like, "Who is this woman and what has she done with my wife?" ;-)
from neko-carre :
Ahh, sweetie. It's okay. We've all cried in front of a boss. I know it's not something you're *supposed* to do, but it happens and then you both forget about it and move on, showing him how confident, professional, and self-assured you are. Besides, maybe there was something in you that told you it was okay to cry in front of him (just this once). He's human too. Oh, and the employee's C-word wife at my office - grrrrr. Just an on-going whiney, melodramatic, forgets-that-I'm-not-on-this-earth-to-do-her-bidding BITCH. It's like, "Hello? Do you even work here? No? Then FUCK OFF!" I'm tempted to chew out Employee, but I know his C-word wife is doing the same, so might as well make her (not me) look like a bitch by nagging at him and I'll just continue to be the LEAST help I possibly can be whenever she calls and whines at me that it's an "emergency!" (it always is). And exercise helped too!
from neko-carre :
An now for something completely whiney: I don't waaaaanna work out. I'm hungry. I'm comfortable right now. I just want to watch t.v. And complain about working out. [pout] (I'm not as good as you are... yet.)
from neko-carre :
Hey, if you think it's a workout, then it is. Water aerobics are supposed to be really effective anyway. Okay, okay, I'll get a workout in eventually tonight. But I look so cute right now, I don't want to change and get all sweaty. Tee hee.
from neko-carre :
BWAAAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA! Big white man boobs and stripes on the face can only show that you CARE. AHAHAHAHAHA! (P.S. [whine] I don't *waaaanna* workout! But I will. Heave. Or maybe I'll just *watch* my workout video. [wink].)
from rockitten :
I just started reading your journal this morning, so I'm way back on January 28th. Just thought I'd qualify my untimely comment. Anyway, your mentioning that wanting to wear slutty clothes is a motivator for you really struck home with me. Hoo boy, how many times have I said the same thing? One of these days...
from neko-carre :
And I just gotta say that I love how your entire notes page belongs to me and Beatlesgyrl. :-)
from neko-carre :
THE HELL?? What a horrendous story. I've been peaked at under the stall by a little monster too and I was so stunned I didn't know what to do or say. From now on, I'm taking your idea and I'll be kicking too. Damn mangy brats. I hate WalMart too. Once? Dave decided we really needed to go there and I bitched about it the whole time and then left him there while I waited out in the car, pouting. Fucking HATE WalMart. (BTW, thanks for the June 23rd chanting! It helps! I *know* it's gonna happen now.)
from neko-carre :
Thank you so much for the note you left me. God, you are so right. I'm going to read that note over and over again, esp. when I'm doubting myself. You make me feel so great. Thank you. I love you. :)
from beatlesgyrl :
For real, girl. Numbers may lie, but a smaller swimming suit fitting is the truth. Fuck the scales. Congrats!
from neko-carre :
Fucking RIGHT! ON! Damn, I haven't tried on a bathing suit in a long time, but I doubt that a size 14 suit would fit me. You are SO GREAT! I love that mantra "the bathing suit fits." That will definitely win over pizza.
from beatlesgyrl :
I remember Texas summers from childhood vacations. Did I ever tell you about the red ant incident? (Forgive me if I have; my memory is almost worse than Ronald Reagan's.)
from neko-carre :
Oh wow. You and I are so connected, we even nag at our husbands at the same time! And the weight thing. That sucks. You're doing so good with Gurlesque, you REALLY need to see some results. While I on the other hand... well, you know. At least I *feel* sexy.
from neko-carre :
Aw, you are so sweet! Well, I wear a size 6 wedding ring and size 6.5 right-hand ring finger. Probably a 7 on most other fingers. Would it ruin the specialness? I don't know. Probably not if I really liked the ring! ;-) And if it was a 6.5 or 7, I could wear it on other fingers.
from l-l :
thank you for the vote of confidence. love your diary. you are damn funny. keep up the great work!
from neko-carre :
Darlin', listen to what you said: "I'm in love, newly married, enjoying my life, and I guess, finally happy." And all NOT due to weight loss. You're happy! Weight loss shouldn't matter. I know that it does, but damnit - it shouldn't! All that matters is that you love your life, fat or skinny.
from neko-carre :
Wow. That had to have been sooooo hard, sweetie. I think under the circumstances, you were there for her as much as you possibly could be. These aren't your bad choices, they are hers. She made her bed, now she has to lay in it. Like you told me, you can only do so much. I think the fact that you were there AT ALL is enough.
from beatlesgyrl :
P.S. I changed my template again. I think the colors suit me better, don't you?
from beatlesgyrl :
Eh. I didn't go out that night. I'm so wishy-washy. H was like, "If you wanna go, let's go." And we turned the car around three times. But ultimately, we went home and made fun of infomercials. My 2 cents, for what it's worth: A little sangria never hurt anyone. If you choose wine over (bad, bad) wedding cake, I think you could drink an entire bottle and still end up on top.
from neko-carre :
You gained a minor amount of weight back because you were happy and living your life, not constantly obsessing about your weight. That's the way to live, darlin'. Right now your living your life and losing weight by doing it. Slowly. Don't beat yourself up for it. You're beautiful regardless... and you know it!
from neko-carre :
I know EXACTLY what you mean. I like it how you said "I wonder if normal people think this way?" Isn't it weird to think that there are actually people out there who DON'T obsess about food every second of the day? So hard to believe. I wish I was them. But, they probably have their own hang ups that we would never want to have in a million years. Anyway, old habits die hard. I can only think of two that I've been able to ditch in my entire life. (And eating badly is unfortunately not one of 'em.)
from racin-round :
We will be in the poor people part of the in field, which by the way is the most fun. thank you for the rum suggestions, you just rock! Oh yeah and a while back you asked how i eat only 12 m&m's, its simple, we have a quarter machine at work, and it takes $.75 to get twelve. I can't afford any more than that, ha-ha. Now if i could just eat them all and get rid of them, I swear i will rip that man's throat out if he brings more in to this store.
from neko-carre :
You have David Duchovny panties??! *I* want David Duchovny panties!!
from beatlesgyrl :
You have David Duchovny underwear? Do tell, I'm intrigued.
from neko-carre :
Hey, darlin. Sorry I've been so crappy with updating Gurlesque. Things have been just...weird. I'll go do it now. You're not doing it alone, I promise.
from neko-carre :
Re: what you wrote in Gurlesque. I think I was supposed to remind you that you hate tae-bo and that you never, ever want to do it again. Or wait, that was ab work. One of those anyway.
from neko-carre :
Mmmmmm...90 degrees.... [homer drool]. That lotion sounds great! I'll have to try it! Shimmery is good.
from neko-carre :
AW! You are so wonderful. It's so nice to have you right there for me, all the time. :D A free day of exercise? Hm, tempting, but no. In fact, I think a *lack* of real exercise has gotten me down. I need those endorphins to bring me back. I'll workout good tonight and if that doesn't work (it should), I'll let you know. Besides, I'll probably have your box by tomorrow too! That will cheer me up!
from neko-carre :
BWAAAAAAHAAAAAAHAAAAAA!!!!
from beatlesgyrl :
You're one resourceful woman. May I call you MacGyver?
from gurlesque :
Hi! I'm back! I just caught up on Gurlesque. I back-updated. :-)
from penchant :
Tech support is, indeed, hell.
from beatlesgyrl :
David Duchovny is hot. As you can tell, I'm catching up on the past few days...
from neko-carre :
HAHAHAHAHA! You are so good! Normally I convince myself that I'm not going to eat the donut and I do well all day, and then the last five minutes of the day, GORGE GORGE GORGE! BTW, is today the last day of exercise or is it the free day? I'm an idiot, don't remember what we agreed on!
from penchant :
Enjoy your alone time! And, I'd be more worried about the older uncles and his dad getting swept away. But, you know it will be okay, right ;)
from neko-carre :
Yay for GAT! Sounds wonderful! And your hubby is soooo sweet to send flowers! What a romantic guy. :-) Oh, and I had a 90210 and an X-Files obsession too. Especially X-Files. Seriously bad. Glad it ended so I could start having a real life. Nerd!
from neko-carre :
Auh! *I* want the day off! Whine! But, yay, some GAT! It's so wonderful, you will soon see. Yes, I get those worried feelings too. Sometimes I can really freak myself out. I feel the same way, "We've only been married [enter number of months at time of worry] months! What if he gets hurt and dies and leaves me??" It's the single biggest fear in my life. But I just have to breathe and tell myself he will be fine. He's a big boy, he can take care of himself ("but I'm not there to protect him!" No, BREATHE, Kari...). And he always comes back. Shew!
from beatlesgyrl :
You are one brave soul. Apartment=no yardwork. I knew there was a reason I am paying rent into oblivion rather than buying my own home. Thanks for reminding me. ;-)
from neko-carre :
[Shudder!] Horrid. Simply horrid. I was forced to do yard work as a kid too - my step-dad had a lawn care business and made me come with him during the summer. I hate, hate, hate it! And your comment about what you'd rather do made me laugh so hard!
from neko-carre :
God, I know that feeling. I always get panicky and claustrophobic when I can't get out of clothing. I actually had to take scissors to a pair of pants once. That sucked. And re: the shower? Maybe don't have it at your house. Meet at her favorite restaurant. That way it's fun and food and beverages are taken care of, and you're not footing the entire bill.
from beatlesgyrl :
You. Crack. Me. Up. And you know what? No bathroom foibles could ever compare to the horror that are the opening scenes of "Trainspotting." Can I get an amen?
from neko-carre :
Ha ha ha! After that note you left me, I thought you were going to say something BAD! ;) You're damn right I would retrieve the braclet! Especially if it was a Tiffany's round tag toggle bracelet.
from neko-carre :
You saw Chicago!!! I'm so pleased! What a great hubby you have. And yeah - our Groucho chose us too. Our of about ten little brothers & sisters all in one pen, she was making eye contact with us right as we walked in the door.
from neko-carre :
Hey! Did you see my jewelry entry?? I thought for sure you'd comment! :-)
from beatlesgyrl :
When I was in college and working at a supermarket, H said he would wake up to find me sitting in bed with my eyes closed, "ringing up groceries" and asking aloud, "Paper or plastic?" Frightening.
from neko-carre :
Ugh. We have to work out tonight, don't we? uuuuuuugh. It's so easy to take off two days when you take off one. We'll see what happens tonight.
from beatlesgyrl :
I'm glad you're happily married and didn't go off with Buffalo Bill. "It will put the lotion on its skin."
from neko-carre :
I was thinking about that too. I don't know, I was thinking... a day off! We should have a "free" day off every Meltdown. But then that would mess up the 15-days for the next Meltdown. I don't know - what do you think?
from beatlesgyrl :
Oh, you're so good. Actually cooking dinner. I just pop a Lean Pocket in the microwave. I'm all about instantaneous gratification.
from neko-carre :
Uuuugh, a shower. Lucky you. [snort] Oh, and go look in the notes in Gurlesque. Someone asked you a question.
from neko-carre :
Mmmmmmmm pedicure.... I freaking LOVE pedicures. DA-um! Hey, did you see that someone added Gurlesque to their favs? Another girl who's keeping a workout journal.
from neko-carre :
Mornin'! Let's see, a couple of questions you asked me that I'm just now responding to: Do I have certain store (Ultra-something, was it?) Nope. Don't have that one. Sounds cool. Sucks that we don't have it! :-( And you also asked, did I figure out how the bowl got in the hallway? Not really. Although it's probably been there since my wedding reception (in September). Dave seems to think someone put salsa in it. Which is weird cuz I've always used it as a coin/misc crap dish, not something you'd eat out of. Hm. Hope they washed it before they used it!
from beatlesgyrl :
I'm envious of your pedicure minus flowers. Perhaps I should make an appointment to give my toenails some pizazz, as well.
from neko-carre :
Hey, babycakes! Well, here we are at the weekend, the most difficult time of the week to get my ass working out. I can do it! Hey, Dave was talking about getting one of those big balls (giggle) too. Is it worth it? Also, did you see Red-Wine left us a note in Gurlesque? Cool!
from neko-carre :
Yes, I meant to praise you for working out AFTER sex! Impressive! You are incredible! And after too, wow! I like your attitude a lot today. Not feeling so down about this ideal "perfect" image. I'm really feeling better about myself just the way I am and suddenly, surprise! Working out became easier and more enjoyable. Ironic, really. (Plus, I have you.) :-)
from neko-carre :
You are so awesome.
from neko-carre :
Me again. So you used to take a BP med? Was it a diuretic (hydrochlorothyazide)? How come you don't have to take it anymore? Did your BP go down? I desperately want to stop taking it. I think that, more than anything right now, is why I want to lose weight.
from neko-carre :
Aw, you're so great. I love doing Gurlesque with you! It's been the most motivating exercise thing for me yet! Truly! ~ So Duran Duran. SQUEAL! They haven't set their tour dates yet, but you know they'll come to Dallas. I've been keeping an eye at their website which is, I think, www.duranduran.com.
from beatlesgyrl :
Glad to hear you're in better spirits. I think it's time for messed-up cliche phrase for the day: You have to know how to fail a little in order to succeed. You're on the Oregon trail, my friend. There's gold in them there hills, and I'm sure you'll be able to wade the river and fix the axle along the way. (Damn, I used to love playing that game.)
from neko-carre :
Too late. I had pizza too. Plus those yummy, greasy, cinnamon sticks. Maaaan... I don't regret a moment of it! (My body must've "needed" it because I didn't even feel full, let alone sick. Ha.)
from neko-carre :
Aw, I love you too, darlin'. And I'm sure any weight loss book/guide/teacher-who's-never-been-fat/etc will tell you that you have to have these little binges every now and then or else you'll hate yourself and your diet and you'll be an even more miserable skinny person. Like I said, ride it through and don't kick yourself for it. Start anew when you're ready. You will. I know you will. And remember, when you first started WW the last time, you were much bigger than you are now. Your body probably wanted to shed those pounds. This time, you're thinner and your body is thinking, "Wha? I thought I was just fine the way I am." Sometimes your DNA simply knows what's best. Dave keeps telling me, "You weren't born to be a thin woman." That's why it's often extremely slow-going when you try to lose weight. This workout thing will get you fit and tight, the way your body wants to be. You're doing everything right, sweetie. Let your body be who it wants to be. {{hugs}}
from beatlesgyrl :
Ahhh. Cadbury eggs. My nemesis. (I think a weekend of self-pity is healthy. I'd be willing to bet that you won't even gain any weight this week. What do you mean, I have to have money to place a wager? Is that how it works?)
from neko-carre :
Okay, I sent you an email at home (at the msn.com one). Go lookee see.
from beatlesgyrl :
Don't get too down about that wicked weigh-in, sweetie. I bet the scale's reading your muscle -- NOT FAT -- gain. Let those muscles feast upon the fat and before you know it, the numbers will plummet and you'll be wearing your cute sundress.
from neko-carre :
Honey, with all the weight that you have lost (and are on your way to losing), .6 ain't even a pea on your plate. (D'ya like that saying? It's Southern! [wink]). You're doing great. Stay strong. This is only Day 4 of Gurlesque! Imagine Day 30 and how good you'll look!
from neko-carre :
I lost in my boobs too back when I was losing years ago. I'd kinda like it now (they're TOO big and it makes me look that much fatter), but I know Dave wouldn't. Sucks.
from neko-carre :
Hi-yee! I love the picture and your commentary about the Fruit Dress. Dave said "She's pretty." Yeah, I'm here. Tired and sore as fuck. I'm gonna go write in Gurlesque right now. I almost forgot.
from beatlesgyrl :
Oooh! Excellent post-sex-in-a-cabin snack that's low on calories and big on flavor (not to mention messy and potentially sensual): strawberries dipped in light Hershey's chocolate syrup. Seriously. Fucking. Great.
from beatlesgyrl :
Happy birthday (sometime this week)!
from heidiann :
Bah! It pasted weird sorry!! Here it is again...http://tribalectic.com/glrydetails3.asp?UID=5219
from neko-carre :
P.S. Will you please email me your work email address again? (Just email me from work.) My effin' address book disappeared. And let's see if I can use the word "email" one more time in this note. EMAIL. There.
from neko-carre :
You sound gloriously happy! I love that! Viva la glamour girl!
from beatlesgyrl :
Fuck the scale. Fuck the period. You're doing great, and I can tell from your optimistic entry. Hip hip hooray for the Princess!
from neko-carre :
Wow, that picture. Damn, you are so amazing to have lost that weight! It seems like the bigger you [in general] are, the more you have sort of an "I give up" or "this is impossible" mentality. To see someone who's actually DONE it... wow. It literally blows me away. That is SO impressive. The things you've overcome. Now THAT'S strength! I am so proud of you! You are truly an inspiration. I am endlessly amazed. I bet you can't wait to post a Summer 2003 pic!
from neko-carre :
I sent you an email last night at home. Have you seen it? If so, let me know what you think. If not, I can forward it to your work.
from neko-carre :
Oh, I've seen that one! Very naughty and kinda... icky. I personally don't think female genitalia is that pretty. ~ I sent the package to your home. Hope that's a good spot! I'm excited for you to get it! :)
from neko-carre :
Yep! I agree with the lipstick/weight loss thing. I've gone that route myself. In fact, MAC should make Weight Loss Gloss. I'd buy it, just for the name! (Pssst! Look for your package! I mailed it yesterday.)
from neko-carre :
You've probably already read this if you've read the archives in my diary, but here's the entry where I was bitching about poor customer service. http://neko-carre.diaryland.com/customersvc.html
from neko-carre :
Hehehehehe! You're so funny! And btw, Donna Karan is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE designer!
from barenaked500 :
I'm 20 so I have my age on my side when it comes to hangy skin. :) I hope it helps!
from neko-carre :
I love reading your diary! You just make so much sense! ~ AH! Two bouquets of roses? For no reason? Oh, you have such a wonderful man! Dave's wonderful too, but Kevin could give him the Two Bouquets of Roses tip. I haven't seen that one yet! ~ So why is your period late? Should you be concerned? Is it a weight loss thing? Or worse [i.e. knocked-up]? Gah!
from neko-carre :
The blimp is still in the closet, looking a little, er, flaccid. It's a limp blimp. [giggle] ~ It's Saturday!!! So whatchoo doing today?
from neko-carre :
Congratulations, Princess! You motivate me more than you know. :-) I can't wait for the package!!!! We are so alike, I know I'm gonna love it. Weeee!
from barenaked500 :
Hey, here is a good salad dressing recpie - 1/4 cup balsamic vin, 1/4 cup water, 2 tablespoons of dijon/brown mustard (pretty much anything except for the yellow), 2 packs of splenda/sweet and low. It's pretty good and 0 points! Just thought I'd let ya know incase youre looking for something new. :)
from neko-carre :
Wow, that is so incredible (and not at all surprising) that you thought of being a glamourous prostitute too! It must be because we're from the "Pretty Woman" generation. My thought was that I'd open a VERY EXCLUSIVE whorehouse in Switzerland where only the very rich could patron. BUT (and here's the catch) it would be FOR WOMEN! Hire the best looking, most virile men and "train" them on how to please a woman. And she could be pampered to death and enact any fantasy she wants. It would be like a resort spa, but with great sex. And I was thinking, who could be my financer? How about Madonna? I think she'd really be into that whole woman-sexual-power thing and she's got enough money. I kinda got the idea from a book called "Butterfly." You should read it! It's exactly like that.
from neko-carre :
Ohhhhh-hoooo... I'd luuuuuv to go to Cancun. It looks like heaven. I will go there someday. Sigh... ~ A box?! For me?!! Weeee! I can't wait! Just wait til I get to Vegas, chica - I am so shopping for you.
from k-free :
Oh, btw. I think the stats thing was just a fluke. (Actually, I think it was just my crappy, evil home computer which should've been my first guess.) My stats are mine and yours are yours. So yes, THAT many people love you and read you!
from neko-carre :
No way! Somehow that doesn't surprise me though. I'd love to see it! Where did you go on your honeymoon? I MUST get to a place like that. To rejuvenate my inner self. :-)
from neko-carre :
BWAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
from neko-carre :
WAAAHAHAHA! That doggie pill story was so damned funny! Poor guy. Tee hee! Oh, and may I give some unsolicited advice? Get a new doctor! What a bastard! He is WRONG, WRONG, WRONG! Go for a female one. She's never once mentioned my weight unless I do first. ~ And lastly, "Clueless" & "Legally Blonde" are NOT mindless! (Those are two of my fav movies! Of course you'd love them too!) :-)
from k-free :
Oh my gosh, Carrie. You always make me feel soooo good. You make so much sense and you always point out great things (that, deep down, I know too). Whenever I need to be uplifted, I go back and read your notes. You are so amazing, I love ya to death. My heart is too big for my chest right now. :-) So... HOW'D IT GO LAST NIGHT?? I'm dying with anticipation!
from neko-carre :
Ugh, that stress bi'ness sounds nasty. Hate stuff like that. Puts my stomach in a constant knot (which is a good appetite suppressent!). You are handling it perfectly! And it gives you a GREAT excuse to get pampered. ~ HA! I love the "tormenting them in small ways so that they don't realize it." HEE HEE HEE!
from neko-carre :
Oh yes, I forgot all about the blimp! It's added now. Go see. ~ I never thought about displaying pics of me at my fattest (probably because that would be right NOW). I always display pics of me at my thinnest on the fridge. Maybe that's why I haven't lost any weight. Maybe I should put up a very unflattering recent pic.
from neko-carre :
Gah, stupid g-book. Haven't heard anyone having problems with notes though, but he is having a lot of probs with the "server" - whatever, it's so ongoing. Anyway! Yes, one reoccuring theme in my diary you will notice is that this fricking office always cranks the AC, even in winter. I sit beneath one of the vents. I bitch and I bitch about it. ~ Ha! That's a good one, giving them the lipstick shoulder! I'm tempted to try that, but my lipstick is always RED red and damn, that would suck for them!
from s-sbu2tun-ta :
Thanks for the message! I haven't been able to look through your diary too much yet, but I hope to be able to soon, and from what I have seen I'm really enjoying it! Honestly, the only tip I have to give is that you have to take it one day at a time... if you try to look at the big picture, it gets too frustrating. So focus on little daily goals (like getting in X minutes of exercise). Also, if you have a bad day, toss it out the window and move on (I'm very good at this part, as I have had more than my share of bad-erm-terrible days)! Good luck with your loss, and I'm looking forward to reading more!
from neko-carre :
Man, you're stronger than me! (Stronger than I? Me? I? Bah!) Whenever I drink, it creates this chain reaction that leads to stuffing my face (literally) with bad, bad comfort food. Of course I'm not in my right mind so it doesn't occur to me, in my drunken state, that I'm eating Cheetos in bed at 4 in the morning. Ugh. Drinking = BAD!
from neko-carre :
I know! How many frickin' banners does she have?? Have you seen the banner that makes fun of all the others, including hers? It's so funny!
from neko-carre :
10 pounds??! I think that's GREAT!! *I* want to lose 10 pounds. You've been losing, losing since you started. You're only getting thinner all the time. Don't kill yourself, sweetie! Enjoy your life while you're losing 10 pounds here and there. That's excellent!
from neko-carre :
Just wanna make sure you got my email with my address?
from neko-carre :
Damn GS cookies. They sucker me in every year. I'll be glad when my youngest sister gets the hell out of that cult. (Ha, ha, just kidding.)
from neko-carre :
Ahhhh... I knew you could lift me up. You are so great! You're right - what's a few pounds in comparison to finding a wonderful man who loves me the way I am? The past is over. In fact, it's almost like taking a class over that you failed. I gained all the weight back so that I could lose it the CORRECT and healthy way. I'm so glad to have you as a terrific and loving partner in this journey, making it fun and meaningful along the way, learning how to respect and love myself just the way I am. You are such a great friend, Carrie. :)
from neko-carre :
BWAHAHA! That's a great outfit! I love messing with the neighbors. :)
from neko-carre :
Arg, that sucks! I bet it was the alcohol. Everytime I drink, my weight skyrockets the next day. But don't let it discourage you. Just think, if you keep up the way you have been, I bet your next weigh-in will show a considerable decrease. You're so strong! You keep the outcome in mind - I need hang onto that thought better.
from neko-carre :
You are so cool. :-D
from neko-carre :
Re: Sephora. Yeah! They are TOTALLY nice on the phone. You know, the kinda thing where they, like, "claim" you as their own personal customer and if you ever have to call again, you ask for your girl. They're mailing me replacements before they've even gotten the returns! Way cool! I will definitely use them again. (THANK YOU!)
from neko-carre :
Ohhh. My. God. It's amazing that you didn't become COMPLETELY fucked up - like anorexic or a serial killer or something. You know - it's a wonder how some people come out ahead even though they were mentally abused. Step-fathers are Satan. My step-dad was mentally abusive too. Dave's step-dad was physically abusive. Some kids grow up into MESSED UP adults, but thank god we were three people who were strong enough not to let it affect who we are as adults. You are so wise.
from neko-carre :
You GO girl! Damn, you inspire me! Now *I* want to fit into my cute little summer dresses by June 1!
from neko-carre :
Oh HELL no! I would've been a sobbing idiot too! Ha! We just got done watching "My Big Fat Greek Wedding." It's the third time I've seen it and every time I do, tears just POUR down my face! I am such a "sensitive romantic"! We are alike, once again! Ooompa!
from neko-carre :
Tee! Now *I* have to go back and read 3/29 to see what I said! So, you'll have to tell me about Joe M.
from neko-carre :
Heee heee heee, you crack me up! Good for you and the no pizza! You are STONE! Well done, Princess. I've been bad. Very, very bad this weekend. What is it about holiday weekends that make you just LOSE IT? Cuz I did. I've eaten chocolate and more chocolate and wine and buttery things and chips and chocolate and jelly bellys and tons of junk and I haven't worked out since... Thursday? Good GOD! "Whoa! If she's gonna binge, she better purge." Anyway. Just a momentary slip up. I hope. Well! I'm flattered that you'd want me to write the 101 Things About Me! (Actually, I'd love to read one about you too!) I sorta did write one in various different entries last March, I think. It was kinda when I was in my transition to Neko from Qkari, so it's kinda all over the place. I might just combine them and post them all in one place. When I do that, I'll let you know. In the meantime, do yours!
from neko-carre :
Hahahaha, I can see you hurling it out your door. Damn effing smoke alarms. 'Course if it was just the smoke alarm, I could handle the beeps or replace the battery or whatever. But this security system thingy - I have NO CLUE about. I want to take a hammer to it and yell, "Die! Die! Die!" but I'm sure it would then probably call - oh, I don't know - the IRS and I'd be audited. Yeah, it's *that* evil.
from neko-carre :
Mmmm, sounds like a wonderful V-day! And congrats on the weight loss! Almost 10 pounds since you started! GOOD JOB! *I* want to lose 10 pounds [pout]!
from neko-carre :
Awww! Your entry put tears in my eyes! Girls like us are SO SO SO incredibly blessed to have the kind, caring men that we do, who love us even when we struggle to love ourselves. You've got a great man. It makes me happy to know that there are indeed good men out there and that you & I were lucky enough to find two of 'em.
from littlebub :
Lean Cuisine...let me see... I like Santa Fe Rice and Beans, Fiesta Chicken, Stuffed Rigatoni Bowl, Chicken w/stuffing and mashed potatoes (is ok)...um...that's all I can think of. I have a ton in the freezer that I haven't tried yet. :)
from neko-carre :
This is bad, but a blessing in disguise. Imagine if she would've MARRIED this asshole? She barely missed that bullet! She will get through it. She HAS to for her children - you need to remind her that they are her reason for succeeding. And I know you will, but do EVERYTHING you can to help her. She needs to move out NOW before he grovels and she stays. You know how the domestic abuse cycle works. If all else fails, just move her and her necessities until you and she can afford movers. Just get her outta there. (BTW with reference to your last note, you & I are INDEED so much alike! I love it!)
from neko-carre :
Surprisingly, no. It's relatively easy. Believe me, I have ZERO rhythm! I'm like a cow on stilts. TOTAL white girl, it's embarrassing.
from neko-carre :
Good LORD! The demons ARE after you! Especially with that donut-pushing bastard. Cripes, man! How many times do you have to say No?!
from barenaked500 :
Bring on the Skip Bo madness! :)
from melii :
ooh! that sounds delicious! thanks for the input... i love things that taste 'fresh!' cute diary.. love the red
from neko-carre :
Oooh, good idea to buy yourself gifts when you reach a goal. I really like the Tiffany's bracelet idea! I've been wanting one of those and almost bought one just for the helluv it. But upon losing weight, that's a great idea.
from k-free :
WOW, 27 bras?!! *I* want 27 bras! Where do you buy them at? And that story about your dog was soooo sweet. You're a good doggy mommy.
from k-free :
Over three pounds! Great job! See, this isn't that hard. (That's what I keep telling myself anyway.)
from neko-carre :
Princess dahling, I just sent you an email. Go lookee see.
from neko-carre :
P.S. Good luck with the weigh-in! If you've lost weight, EXCELLENT! And if you haven't, well at least the naked weigh-in part will be fun! I'm so impressed that you have no qualms about that!
from neko-carre :
Ah, isn't MAC the greatest? I ADORE their lipstick and every time I buy something else (cheaper) I'm never as happy. I have vowed to never buy anything but MAC ever again. Have you noticed how yummy it smells? Like cookies! :o) I like their reds. Yesterday I bought Russian Red which I love. It's kind of a matte. Did you know they have a deal where you can return six empties (of anything plastic - lipstick, mascara, gloss, "pencils") and you get a lipstick for free! It's part of their recycling program. Cool, huh? Anyway, no - I'd love to create a layout for you. Really, I enjoy it and it would give me something to do on the weekend. It's no problem on my end (actually I'm rarely busy at work - just yesterday). So if you'd really like something more personal, just let me know. (And yes, Grouchokitty is my cat's "diary." Tee hee.)
from barenaked500 :
Yay! I'm happy you found something other than oatmeal that you can enjoy! I don't know about where you live but here the only type of lite english muffins i can find are the generic store brand...I'm pretty sure the popular brands dont sell em for some reason?? And if you need help with the layout just ask...I'm not great but I do know some stuff! :)
from k-free :
Exactly. I'd die of embarrassment if Dave saw me flailing around like a walrus in spandex.
from neko-carre :
OH MY GOD, YOU'RE GORGEOUS! What fabulous hair! And eyebrows...stunning! You are an absolute beauty, I tell no lies! No wonder your husband is crazy about you! Keep it up, girl!
from neko-carre :
Ha ha ha! Inform them I will! :-) It's okay, I'm a fashion snob and I have no problem admitting it. I try to tone it down, but... it's just impossible! Hee! Hey, I can make a new layout for you if you'd like. I'm kind of an amateur at them, but I've done a few. I've done both of mine (neko-carre and k-free) and Bolashley and Lilybow and Grouchokitty and some of Red-Wine. Go look at those if you like and I'd be happy to put something together for you - something more you. You can tell me what you have in mind and we'll give it a shot. Just let me know. I enjoy doing them. :)
from neko-carre :
Ooooh! Great new layout!
from neko-carre :
You love Iyanla too? Wow! Like you said, hardly anyone knows about her - which is weird because remember she used to have a day time talk show for a while? I never watched it (and I'm not home during the day) so I don't know how it was or if it's even still on. It seemed like she was spitting out a book every six months or so - I couldn't keep up. I haven't really been following her lately because she was mostly "there for me" six years ago when I was going through some hard times (or "in the valley" as Iyanla calls it). Her books are sooooooo healing. It's so nice to know someone else knows how wonderful she is! I always give a copy of "Faith in the Valley" every time one of my friends is going through a hard time. I've probably purchased six or seven copies by now!
from neko-carre :
P.S. That last note was from K-Free, but you knew that.
from neko-carre :
REALLY??! Oh, you are so awesome!! Thank you SO MUCH for telling me that! I do feel better. God, you are great. Thank you for being in this with me. You are an excellent partner & motivator. :)
from k-free :
I love hearing your thought process as you write. We are so similar! As for advice, nuh uh. I am the absolute worst person to give advice on weight loss because 1) aside from five to eight pounds here and there, I've never lost weight naturally - I lost 45 on Fen-Phen back in 1997, and 2) this is the most I've weighed in my life and I haven't really lost any yet. I go up and down with five to seven pounds every month, I haven't seen any REAL progress yet, you know? So I don't see this 180 as a loss yet, mostly just a "good sign." Once I lose fifteen pounds & more, then I'll feel like I've actually done something right and I'll be able to give advice as to what that was. I know 180 seems so successful for you, but for me this is the heaviest I've ever been. Keep in mind that I'm only 5'2, so for my height, I am currently considered "severely overweight." So yeah - I'm just struggling along, failing repeatedly. But this time I actually feel like I'm on my way. I FEEL a change. So we shall see. I wish you the best of luck and I know you'll have success! You're doing SO much better than I - and you've been successful before. You know how to do it. I agree, it's discouraging when you don't see results right away, but think about it this way: three months from now, you'll already weigh a lot less! Spring time! I think of all the times I started and then quit. If I'd kept with it, I would've been thin a long time ago! So hang in there. You are an inspiration to me. :o)
from barenaked500 :
Doh! I just realized that you probably knew everything I told you considering you've done so well on WW before. Now you give me some tips! :)
from barenaked500 :
Hmmm, tips? Let's see - eat within your points, exercise a few times a week (even if it's walking once around the block twice a week!), and most importantly don't deprive yourself. I've found out that when I stay away from something I really love I just end up making myself crazy and eating a lot more than I would have if I just ate it in the first place. Hmmm, what else? JOURNALING! It is SO important. Write down everything! ("Before you bite, write." ~ corny, I know!) I did it religiously for the first few months, stopped from about Thanksgiving-New Years and have been back on track since the begining of the year. From what I can see it definately makes a difference. I also drink a lot of water (or Fruit20 - flavored water) which I think helps. When I'm not in the mood for water I drink Crystal Lite (no points!) or diet soda. I can't think of anything else off the top of my head but if you have any questions just ask! :)
from neko-carre :
"Steve." OH I KNOW! I HATE THAT ONE TOO!!! I forgot about that one. I mean, how rude! There's this other guy who calls and asks for our president, Jack (who's never around) and when I say, "No he's not in, would you like -" and before I can even say "his voice mail" he just CLICK - hangs up! Fuck, man! Talk about your bad phone manners. Especially in a business environment.
from neko-carre :
Awwww, you are so great! I love having you around! I love that you can relate. I'm soooo glad you're here. Seriously. (And, btw - I'm sure you can tell I'm TOTALLY sucking it in in that pic. That's one of the outfits that I put on that screamed "HELL, NO!" after I took picture. The one I posted was the only remotely flattering one. You should see the others. Serious fat stuffed into a too-small outfit. Gut. Starting under my boobs and going all the way down to my girl part, like I'm fricking pregnant or something. I'm all gut and boobs.)
from neko-carre :
Hi, I'm back already. I keep reading your note over and over again. It makes me feel so much better! Tis exactly what I needed. :o) By the way, I laughed so hard when you talked about your nipples-of-fire. BWAHAHAHA! That happens to me when I work out with a too-loose sports bra. They stay that way for almost a whole day. YEOUCH!
from neko-carre :
Ohhh! You are so wonderful! Thank you, thank you for your "I can relate"-ness. It's so nice to hear that it's PMS and winter blahs and NOT that we're unloved, fat nobodys. (Cuz we are loved and we are VIPs and we're working on our health - probably a lot more than skinny women do!) Sigh. I think I just need a facial.
from barenaked500 :
Hi! I found your diary on someones profile and just wanted to say hi! I'm also doing WW so its nice to hear how much success youve had. Keep up the good work.
from neko-carre :
(I know I keep going back and forth between Neko/K-free and your notes/guestbook - bah! Just trying to keep it interesting for ya.) I just read your note and I want to thank you for your kind words! You put a smile on my face and made me feel good today. :-D
from neko-carre :
Okay, I don't remember her username but look for the banner of the Porcelain Princess. Yikes, is all I'm sayin'.
from k-free :
Uuuungh. I know exactly what you mean. I have that exact same train of thought. "If I got started now, I'd be thinner in three months time." So why can't I get started now? It's amazing how much time I put into being depressed that I'm overweight, yet if I put even a fraction of that time into exercising, I wouldn't have this problem anymore. I've been procrasinating all my life. Sigh.
from neko-carre :
Hi! I love all things girly too! It's refreshing to find someone who doesn't try to tone it down. By the way, I also have a weight loss journal under the name k-free. I haven't made as much (if any) progress as you have though! Wow!

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