messages to bare-my-soul:
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from duoae :
Haven't popped by in a while. I was sad to see the site "closed". Hope all is well in your life. Have fun! ^_^
from liar-by-rote :
lets just say there ain't nothin simple about you. rosealina.
from saintz- :
i used to be devilish-, i've moved, in case you wanna carry on reading
from ahwell :
oh please dont close!! at least start a new one that you wouldnt mind having adonis read.
from i-read-you :
if you go, you'll be missed. Consider using the diary in conjunction with your writing class! ====================================== on a more dangerous note, have you considered asking adonis to let Bob stay in the basement apartment with you? does Adonis know/understand how much Bob means to you? Best of luck! :)
from salazabr :
I'm happy to hear that all is well with you. If you do decide to close up this for good I'll miss it and I hope that you'll still keep a diary in some form if only for the outlet it provides.
from chaosdaily :
i dont seem to be able to gain access any more using the same password.... did you change it?
from i-read-you :
it's been a while since you've written, rose. I hope all is well with you! :)
from phobetor :
Hi Rose, love reading your blog. Very dissipointed to see the site is blocked. Any reasons why? Are you giving out any passwords? Hope to get back in soon!
from smashley719 :
Hi! I love reading your diary, and am sad to see that it is now locked. Are you giving out passwords, or just deciding to hide away from the world for awhile? If you're feeling generous, I would really love to still be able to read. Thanks!
from i-read-you :
good to hear all is well with you. happy 2005! :)
from salazabr :
Did you change your password and if so may I have it again please?
from salazabr :
U ok?
from adulterous-k :
Happy Christmas!
from ohclaudine :
eee, I thought perhaps you didn't need a Sarah-sitter after all, I made plans to be in Philadelphia. are you absolutely in dire need of a sitter?
from ohclaudine :
eee, I thought perhaps you didn't need a Sarah-sitter after all, I made plans to be in Philadelphia. are you absolutely in dire need of a sitter?
from ohclaudine :
eee, I thought perhaps you didn't need a Sarah-sitter after all, I made plans to be in Philadelphia. are you absolutely in dire need of a sitter?
from elysium1982 :
dear rose, your heart is the strongest (and smartest) organ in your body. listen to it, not your friends, family, other outside sources. make yourself happy.
from krugerpak007 :
I am so glad I can read you again. I missed you. xoxox Kathy
from ohclaudine :
Hey Rose, Keep in mind I'll be home in Queens with the fam then, if you need a sitter for Sara we'd love to have her. xox
from browser17 :
Hmm so many things come to mind. So far pretty good diary, great description makes it seem like we all are actually reading a diary(like duh!). As to Adonis and his whole treatment or your relationship. You are a much better person than I. If I had a significant other treating me so I would have been outa there long ago. Some things to note though is this realization, he will be like this throughout the relationship so if you want to stick with it get used to it, or overcome it. I probably could go on about such, but this is your diary so I'll just go back to reading from the cheap seats.
from ejaculated :
glad to hear i could help. no problem.
from ejaculated :
hello darling. i havent left you a note in a while. i just wanted to (like everyone else im sure) talk to you about your last entry... the circus one. i think you were very right in being angry with him. it sounds exactly like a fight my partner and i would have. but i was sad when you said 'i know youre asking why dont i leave, ive taken enough' (or something along those lines, sorry). I was sad because i think youre a lot like me. Maybe because ive seen that youve had some bad relationships too. Either way, i think that were both worried about making the same mistakes; about spending too much time with someone that could infact turn out to be wasting our time. turn out to be a fucking asshole. i think you two clearly care about eachother. i think sometimes little fights are necessary. im a lot like Adonis, i think. he gets moody or irritated and right away snaps at you, and hurts you a lot, even if he doesnt mean to. he knows he does this, believe me does. im sure he will get better. give it time. im sorry if this is bad advice, but i thought id throw it in the pot anyways. good luck sweetheart.
from salazabr :
A very wise person (ionme) once told me "When you've had enough you'll know and then it'll be over." When it's time you'll know but try this for now. Picture yourself a year from now, what do you see and what would that person tell you today?
from adulterous-k :
Feeling your way into Rose? This feels like it will last though.
from i-read-you :
when life gives you lemons . . . make lemonade! store cookies will never equal home-baked, but they can be improved by microwaving them for ten seconds or so before eating.
from salazabr :
You "overcame" your past to become the woman you are today. Why are you letting his past be his excuse for the man he is today?
from i-read-you :
sometimes when reading you I sense poetry -- and then a line of iambic pentameter just jumps out at me! examples: "sometimes i think he thinks i drink too much." "we listened to my music for a change." just a little extra that I find in you! Thanks! :)
from ohclaudine :
Airbourne is supposed to be great. Lemme tell you I've been guzzling this stuff called Emergen-C, it's a packet you put in some water, it fizzes and creates a lemon lime seltzer type thing, totally cleared up my symptoms. (along with tylenol cold) thinking about ya. xox
from liar-by-rote :
i wish i had time for an entry...cause i'd write, i miss rose. that is a fact. kids will be home very soon and my headache will worsen...mom's in a mood...parents fighting last night...me unemployed...me missing rose.
from salazabr :
Our pasts are what make us the people we are today. If you love someone today you need to remember it was yesterday that made them who they are today.
from liar-by-rote :
where you been, Rose? I miss you!!!
from ohclaudine :
i changed it from 12 to 14px. Yeah it was small.. is this any better? ( I was bored writing my paper and decided to really pick something time consuming to help me procrastinate; hense.. template change ...again.)
from i-read-you :
survivors somehow get through times like this. ((rose)) hugs!
from bare-my-soul :
thank you so much! xxo
from x-plicity :
Lots and lots of *hugs*
from ohclaudine :
babes!.. I feel the same way about you.
from salazabr :
You're welcome, I think you would enjoy anything by Richard Bach, he's very talented. Thanks, I'm not doing too bad.
from adulterous-k :
No - didn't get it. Never mind - happy you haven't rejected me! You're back in my favourites x
from salazabr :
For what it's worth I've been reading One by Richard Bach and it talks about choices and how they affect us down the road beyond what we can see right now. I think you would like it.
from ejaculated :
nah, i just left the notes a couple days ago. thankyou.
from ejaculated :
can i have a pswrd doll?
from nycsexpolits :
Hi, interesting site... I started readin you while ago, seems like we have allot in common, seems like so many girls in the industy are looking for daddy so we can blame him, or something. anyway, you seem to have a password now and I would love to see whats up with you. my email is [email protected]
from x-plicity :
Hi, Sweetie. Just thinking about you and sending good vibes your way. *hugs* X
from ohclaudine :
*words (I'm okay now)
from ohclaudine :
Hey R. I apologize for the weird frantic message. It was such a long bad day topped off my some sexual harrasement. my works were jumbled.. didnt know what I was saying exactly just needed some contact.
from adulterous-k :
No? Please?
from i-read-you :
But then what do I know? I failed in my significant love relationship. So, figure what I wrote is worth no more than twice my fee for advice. And I hope for the best for you! Sorry if I knew I was going on so long when I started, I would have been better off sending an e-mail.
from i-read-you :
If it's to become true love, then doesn't the question have to change from "can we work this out?" to "HOW can we work this out?" and the viewpoint change from "put the focus on me and not on the other all the time" to "put the focus on us all the time?"
from i-read-you :
I'm clueless . . . but if you are both hurting and will continue to hurt, and build up resentment because the other isn't calling, then someone has to break that cycle -- and the sooner the better for both of you.
from i-read-you :
stand in his shoes a minute? you talked Friday and told him how upset you were. Then you turned your phone off. Suppose he called you later Friday, as you expected he would, and he found your phone was off. Perhaps then he feared that you were angrier than you showed . . . and now he's afraid to encounter your anger and afraid to hear you tell him the relationship is off? Perhaps he, like you, is waiting for the other to call, willing to re-act but not to be the first to take action? Perhaps he is hurting as much as you, asking advice from his uncle and George and other friends, but not taking action because of his fears?
from i-read-you :
Too much analysis and not enough talk? Is turning the phone off, the next day willing others to call you and not calling them, then asking advice and composing speeches the way to go? Willing others to call you sets you up as a re-actor, not one who takes action. Asking advice is often good, but when all is said and done with the advice, you're still waiting for adonis to make the next move . . . choosing to be a re-actor, not taking action.
from i-read-you :
too much talk, not enough action? Did I read that you talked Friday earier and said you would go to his flat after nine? And then instead of going you called? If so, then perhaps too much talk and not enough action.
from liar-by-rote :
hey. can't believe he didn't call. that's wrong. i'm sorry. call me if you want to talk...
from ohclaudine :
you may be writing now in private for yourself which is totally fab and I respect that, and when yr ready to share with others I'd like the password too, I miss you and your writing. love m
from rotted :
hey... you're locked.
from i-read-you :
password please! [email protected] oh -- and user name too, please! :)
from salazabr :
I too miss reading you and would appreciate a password.
from salazabr :
I too miss reading you and would appreciate a password.
from adulterous-k :
A novel? You think? Thanks for stopping by Rose, really made my day to hear from you again. :-) Can I have the password please? [email protected] Need to keep with you. xx
from asitwere :
I'd sure love a password.... [email protected]
from elysium1982 :
may i have a key? [email protected]
from x-plicity :
This is a good move for you, Sweetie. May I please have your passord? [email protected]
from sduckie :
hi I would like to keep reading [email protected]
from ohclaudine :
Oh Rose!! Reading your words makes me happy. I wanna keep reading!!!...I understand why you're doing this though. P.S. My cell number is my primary number here in B-more so keep using that. xox
from krugerpak007 :
Rose, I would love to carry on reading if you feel comfortable with it. If you do, my e-mail is [email protected] And if you don't, I totally understand and wish you only the best. I will miss you very much. xoxo Kathy
from x-plicity :
I'm sooo happy for you!!!!
from candoor :
at times your diary sounds like my life in NYC before I left, but what struck home most was your chrono-age vs your emotional age... that I understand too well, being about 4 emotionally at times...
from ohclaudine :
chances are I wont make it this weekend :( I was originally planning on next... I dont know what the hell it going on at this point but nontheless i would love to hang out with you again and when I know for sure whats going on I'll cawl you. xox
from liar-by-rote :
dreamboat,this is a new compute and e-mail accound not set up. i will call you with number.
from asitwere :
Hey hey ... happy end of summer! Congrats on working again!
from liar-by-rote :
hi cutie...impossible to call you. everything is ok...waiting for cell phone.
from elysium1982 :
your happiness just shines in your entries. best of best wishes for you two. <3
from i-read-you :
love -- or whatever we think is love, or think is on the way to love, hurts!
from ohclaudine :
Pssh girl.. talk about sweating, it happends to me too especially in this godforsaken tropical fucking weather. How can you not sweat when it's this humid. A blanket of moisture sits over everything.. this contributes to my uncomfortability here as well.. goddamit autumn where are you? xoxo M
from dalyrical1 :
now you go to sleep, wake up, and live...because that's all you can do. things change from moment to moment, and nothing you do can really deter or change that. one day you will wake up and you will know what to do. until then...sleep, wake, and live...and somewhere in there, happiness will find you.
from i-read-you :
maybe NYC will be fortunate enough to have it only as bad as Boston did for the dems. =========================================== as for adonis, the ball is now in his court. you can judge based on his behavior, or go with your feelings. hope you are hpv-free! best of luck.
from hamiltonian :
Your journal is lovely
from chaosdaily :
thanks rose!
from liar-by-rote :
i miss you too. kissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
from dalyrical1 :
i know how it is when you feel judged because people dont like what you write. truth is, you can never write everything, and the bad things stick out more, so fuck it. write your heart out girl. this is YOUR spot. ramble on as much as you want about whatever you want. *smile*
from x-plicity :
Rose, I think what you are experiencing is beautiful. It's confusing, yes. It's frustrating, yes. But you're feeling for someone who can feel the same way right back, without having to make excuses to his significant other. You both are so passionate, the best thing to do is make sure you tell him what's going though your mind, and make sure to encourage him to do the same. Hell, this might not work, but you can honestly say that it is always going to be one of the better experiences in your life. Enjoy, be careful and remember that people care about you. We just don't want to see you get hurt. *hugs*
from salazabr :
Go ahead and cruicfy me now, in fact you can even call and yell at me in person if you want to. To make it easier I'll even freely admit to the fact that I have ZERO relationship experience with women. But Rose, I do know one thing. This; "i told him if he ever so much as threatens me again he will never see or hear from me again." might have been the words that came out of your mouth but that's not what you told him...I'm sorry it's not and I bet you're samrt enough to realize that too.
from ohclaudine :
yep the celly is the same number. Don't worry missy, I'll be keeping my eye on you as well. xoxo
from salazabr :
Eah...no worries. We had a great time.
from krugerpak007 :
I still think that as long as you enjoy the time together that its ok. I think that because I think how hard it is for me to give up friends, even when I know they are not good for me. It's damn difficult, and I always hold on to the good and try and put the bad away. If you don't want to lose him right now, I would still spend time with him and enjoy. But when you start feeling hurt and he starts acting weird that you have to, absolutely have to stay away from him. He apologised though, and so I guess personally I would take him back, although what I do is rarely right. Anyway I loved the picture of the two of you. You both look like models, and his eyes are amazing. Take care of yourself, and look after yourself. I don't want to see you hurting. xoxox
from attngetter :
Rose - hon. Those of us that care and consider you a friend would never allow you to be put in that danger. You would never allow someone you are close to hang around to see if he actually makes good on his threat. Please get out because I'm starting to get $$ together to fly to New York and beat me some greek, possibly mafioso type dude ass! And I'm not kidding. It may take me a while but I will get there and protect my friend. MUAH! You are far too smart to not see it.
from i-read-you :
It's not always easy to find your way. Walking out on the threat -- repeated threat -- of violence sure seems like a smart move, though!
from x-plicity :
I had heard that you can tell what kind of person a man is by the way he treats a waitress. He's angry and seems violent. Stay away from this one. He seems like the type that likes to shove people around. Even the way he holds you in the picture...you're his property. He would totally bring you down. Abuse is sometimes common in certain cultures. Accepted at times. Be careful, it might not be over yet. *lots of hugs*
from i-read-you :
protective? us??? If you can't trust your diary with your secret, that's very sad!
from krugerpak007 :
Rose, I am addicted to your diary. I actually get depressed when you haven't updated. :-( I hope you are having a good weekend. That Adonis is spoiling you. Thinking of you. xoxox
from ohclaudine :
Isnt ikea fab? I have to give mad props to Target as well.. i bought a load from them. I hope everything is well with you...have fun at your party tomorrow. Give Lola a good luck hug for me. I'm sorry I couldn't make it, I'm trying to squeeze in alot of things in a small period of time. I would love to have coffee, lunch or whatever before I go. Also, yr welcome to visit me anytime! xoxo M
from dalyrical1 :
you know, i think at least he was honest about how he sees(looks at...thinks about) other women. most guys lis about that. and he is greek...a different culture and lifestyle...there are bound to be clashes. but i say, if you know who and what he is, and can deal with that in the time being, then just enjoy the ride. who knows...maybe he'll change for you...you never know how things can work out...you know?
from krugerpak007 :
I get so excited when I see your name in red when you have updated. I can't wait to hear what you and Adonis have been up to. Rose, I think you should enjoy every minute, try not to analyze everything too much. Just enjoy until you start hurting. Then its time to stop. But until then have a ball. lol xoxox Kathy
from x-plicity :
It's not until you finally fall for someone, when you start to discover their faults. Apparently it's natuarl for women to become paranoid about a man if she thinks he has potential. I think I read that in Cosmo. LOL!
from i-read-you :
your mentor situation at work will work out very well. she wants it to succeed at least as much as you do! :)
from retailharlot :
Hi. I just wanted to let you know that I added you to my favorites list. I can't remember exactly how I found you, but I think you're a great writer.
from liar-by-rote :
you called?
from liar-by-rote :
rose, read your tagboard
from dalyrical1 :
wow...i really like the way you tell a story. i hope you don't mind me saving you as a fave so i can follow
from salazabr :
Whoa!! It was never my intent to piss you off, never. Only to offer a different perspective. You're are the one in the situation and knows him. Your judgement is the only one who matters as far as Adonis is concerned. I'm sorry I upset you and I'll shut up now.
from bare-my-soul :
aRGGHHH salazr....you're pissing me off! adonis told me he was 39 as a joke...also mentioned he was 29, but by then i thought he was toying with me and didn't know what to believe....and didn't care. he has a sense of humor. that's what this tells me. would you all let me be my own judge of character? you're killing me!
from salazabr :
Congrats on your first day!! I hope everything works out there for you. =) Re Adonis...umm...isn't him lying (that's what it was) to you a little bit of a red flag and this isn't the first red flag is it? I honestly don't mean to rain on your parade, I just think it's interesting is all.
from attngetter :
CONGRATS HON!!! That job sounds great. Can't wait to hear all about your first day.
from i-read-you :
congratulations on the job. :) wow -- health insurance already!
from pos-ses-sion :
congratulations on the job! As for losing your post, I always cut and paste what I've typed into notepad. That way, if it does get lost, I can just cut and paste it back again. It's saved me once already. Again ... congrats on the job, it sounds awesome!
from adulterous-k :
hey Rose - ust checking you out again. Good luck with the job!
from purr67 :
Good luck regarding the job. The guy sounds a little flaky though. Take care of your heart. Jody
from salazabr :
Good luck on the job, sounds like you're a shoe in. =) Adonis...yeah...why aren't you paying attention when he shows you who he is?
from krugerpak007 :
I pray you get the job.As to the lang barrier thing, I know it well. My husband's 1st lang is not Eng. When we first began it was hell, we never ever understood each other. Give it time. xox Kathy
from ohclaudine :
p.s the NY phil got rained out of the Central Park dates :(, they're still supposed to play next monday.. will let you know whats going on with it if you still wanna go.
from ohclaudine :
Hey rose, I have some info about possible health care. The Ryan Chelsea/Clinton Community Health Center between 45-46th Street and 10th Ave. They offer a sliding scale set up based on your income to receive healthcare,free testing (STD etc), you need a proof of income, proof of address and proof yr a NYC resident. (212 )265-4500
from i-read-you :
you may have health insurance as early as next week! :)
from xperi-mental :
Wow, Rose…G.G. has you. The Hispanic culture is very similar to the Greek culture and he just unofficially proposed to you…and you accepted! He has let you know his intentions and now “knows” yours. He’s going to take that very seriously. Hope you’re ready, Hon. Hopefully that’s a good thing? If it is, I’m happy for you!!!
from artofliving :
i ADORE your diary and couldnt remember if i told you thought when i initially found it. so if not, you're brilliant
from ionme :
ok, i'll email you soon.
from ionme :
glad you're having fun! enjoy :)
from ohclaudine :
Nothing wrong wit' a little editing mamie ;) Did you get my voice message?
from kitten4gd :
I just found your diary, and plan to return to read more when I am not half asleep and can better appreciate your writing. Good luck with the job search.
from ionme :
hey! we'll be in nyc in a month, feel like showing us around? i locked my diary obviously but if you want a username & password of course i'll give it to u.
from phangasm :
Call the phone company, you can usually talk them into reducing or eliminating the charges, esp. if you give them a sob story (didn't know the phone was roaming, whatever). I've done it before, they may want you to sign a 2 year contract or something, but that beats $300 in changes.
from krugerpak007 :
Happy Birthday, wishing you an awsome day, filled with only good things! xoxo Kathy
from salazabr :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ♥
from impetuousme :
my but you DO scare me at times... and make me ashamed... sigh....
from ionme :
Of August by the way.....
from ionme :
Thanks for the correction, oops – I won’t be making that mistake again :) I’ll be there the 6th (evening) through the 10th (afternoon) but a couple friends including "GE" & Adam will be coming with so we're getting a hotel but I really appreciate the invite! That was very nice of you. We will definitely get together!!!
from ionme :
hello rose, i got my ticket for nyc in august :)
from adulterous-k :
Reorganising again, Rose?
from purr67 :
OK, I was 'away' for a while. What happened to your old job??????
from ohclaudine :
hey bebe, Im crossing my fingers and legs for you regarding all those job interviews. Baltimore- I may have to go back in July, in which case I would love your company! Let's get coffee or something, maybe hit a museum on these hot and humid days. love M
from krugerpak007 :
The past couple of days I had problems getting just in to your diary-weird? Today I finally managed to catch up.. I am holding thumbs for the job interviews...Take care, Kathy
from chaosdaily :
i dont expect a response to every note, so dont worry... i know you are reading them, and im glad if they help you in any way!
from krugerpak007 :
What a perfect end to a difficult day for you.Good luck with the interviews on Monday!And have fun with Amy! xoxo Kathy
from purr67 :
Hi there!! I am going to catch up today!! Write to you soon.
from krugerpak007 :
I wish I had a "Denny". She is lucky to have you too. I wish I could write like you too. Ok, I'll stop moaning. I hope your last couple of days go ok at work and that things maybe pick "up" with Ned. How do men have so much self-control sometimes? I don't know where they get it from? xoxoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Do it, do it. I wish I had your courage...
from krugerpak007 :
Mmmm, very interesting, so? Did you meet her?
from krugerpak007 :
No, you can not tease us like that, what happened, what....
from krugerpak007 :
I can't even imagine what it must feel like to lose one's mom. Thinking of you. Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Good luck with the interview! What is Ned's problem?
from phangasm :
Personally, I love the big ass-small waist combo! And I've looked at your pictures and your ass looks great to me.
from krugerpak007 :
Mmm, definaitely interesting dream. Who was better, Ned or his son? Hope your body feels less sore-maybe you need to relax too honey...More sherry....
from krugerpak007 :
It really does suck getting old...especially when you feel young, (really young) trapped in an old body, ughh. Good luck with the interview, and asses are sexy. I have a tummy and I just can not get rid of it. Take care, Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Interesting article. I hope that things look up soon! Take care! Kathy
from adulterous-k :
Hey Rose - just dropped in to say hello, and I know you don't read me anymore (and of course that's fine!) but the entry I read today just seemed so sad that I wished I could employ you and make everything OK again for you.
from pipersplace :
I've been enjoying your diary so I thought I would say hello. I also liked your pics. Very pretty. Piper
from ohclaudine :
HAHAHA I did update! I did! I did! [ yeah I deleted a few times but whatevaaaaaa ;) ]No love letter though, the moment has passed and I just can't bring myself to get mushy in front of others. Central Park soon ( before it gets tooooo hot ) miss you too. love M
from liar-by-rote :
yo rose, i feel oddly relieved this morning. like a popped a pimple and now it's red and ugly but the pressure is gone. you're coming to 'love' salon sat and we are having a weekend. i need real love. project love.
from sexyatheist :
oh my dear, you're writing is wonderful and you're an absolutely amazing person. i couldn't stop reading if i tried. and i know all boys don't cheat and i do trust mine. but i'm sure L's girl trusts him as well. you are wonderful
from ohclaudine :
Oh I would have loved to join you and Lola, but alas.. I was in Philly. Raincheck bebe. xoxo
from ohclaudine :
Your message board was being a bastard and wouldnt let me post!! Grrr. I said um... your 7 year itch post made me think of a band called 7 year bitch. You may enjoy them if you like Hole. <3 <3 M
from phangasm :
I'm not 18, but I'm 36, which is like 2 18 year olds, right? So could I ride you and Lola like a pair of 18 year old skateboarders? ;-)
from ionme :
I am certainly not judging you - everyone does shit like this. Fuck people who judge!!!!
from asitwere :
I LOVE THIS NEW LAYOUT. Fucking hottest one yet.
from ionme :
i have tentative plans for august, over the 9th to be exact (my bday)
from adulterous-k :
Happy, Rose?
from phangasm :
Mmm, toe sucking! You've made me all horny now.
from salazabr :
I loved "eternal" too. You forgot Kirsten Dunstm she's a cutie and I thought she gave a great performance too. I think Kaufman more than made up for Adaptation.
from ohclaudine :
Crap I forgot to give you the porno! Maybe I can meet you in Chelsea one afternoon. Thank you for today. ( and thank you for the perfume too!) xox Claudine
from attngetter :
Love the new layout. The green was an awesome pic. Muah back at ya. A
from salazabr :
I'm with you and Lizz on the evils of The Swan. It's scary as hell if you ask me. Also I for one HATE fake breasts and don't know how people can find them attractive.
from ohclaudine :
erm... correction *your thoughts*
from ohclaudine :
Hey sweets, Yeah you know, I was in Dunkin Donuts one morning on 23rd street chowing down an amazing coffee roll, MMMmmmm when Hot97 had it's commercial break, they played the ad for that godforsaken show. I thought I was going to vomit up my hazelnut coffee. It made me sick and I vowed to never watch it. It's truly sad and pathetic. FUCK Fox. You and Liz couldn't have worded her thoughts more perfectly on the subject. I'm glad yr home. *M*
from phangasm :
So glad you're home. I loved Paris, my memory is taking a nap after arrival, waking up and walking over to Pompidou and getting Croque Monsieur from a cart vendor. It's true about Americans and food, restaurants always give you too much. Food was usually good though. That was a few years ago, the food is always better when the exchange rate is in your favor :-)
from attngetter :
Welcome home! Love A
from liar-by-rote :
hey, you there?
from liar-by-rote :
hope you get this message micky rube in Paris...you freak bitch i hate u for leaving me. my 'puter is all f**ked up and i'm wrting in nyc internet cafe. so there. that is why u haven't heard from me. i miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from asitwere :
Have a wonderful time traveling. Enjoy every second, and take lots of pictures!
from adulterous-k :
Have a good time Rose. Sorry I won't make it down to see you now - too late to organise where you are I guess. (but hey! if you're immigrating...)
from purr67 :
Oh I wish I was going with you...... Have a great time. Find some fun little boy to have a fling with!!
from salazabr :
Nadine huh? Interesting that you assume it's a woman and that she's naked. Looking at the picture I think it could be a woman or a man in women's shoes. And while it implies nudity that doesn't mean that he/she isn't simply wearing something skimpy enough not to show. ;)
from lovely-freak :
just one last thing... i found bitchfest much the same way you did. i used my body on a banner (but mine was on clix) and i got a ton of flack for it. i do not regret using the banner but it did make me think about why i was using my body to gain attention. if you read me... or are interested in reading about my experience... it's a few weeks back. once i realized that they were critical for different reasons than i thought i gave it more time in my mind and figured it all out. i too changed my tune. i'm sorry for any of the hurtful things i said on bitchfest... i realize what i said was hurtful and for that i wanted to apologize.
from salazabr :
Nice response, well done. =)
from ohclaudine :
nevermind! got it! :)
from ohclaudine :
Oh rose thank you. DO you know how I can fix that PREVIOUS/ NEXT thing? :(
from meeyapede :
In your recent entry about bitchfest, you made some excellent points about women accepting their bodies and rejecting the (utterly absurd) "ideal" of pre-teens with fake breasts in favor of images of real, mature, beautiful women. I couldn't agree more, which is why I was disappointed that you didn't actually address the "charges" leveled at BF- namely, that through yr. emphasis on sex in your links and banner *to the exclusion of all else,* along w/ the cartoonish, totally unreal images of female "parts" that fill your page, you, sadly, accomplish the complete opposite. I love (and miss!) NYC, and am sure you have tons of interesting stories about your life there. And, as you say, you've surely got more going for you than simply being a woman who's able to get nekkid. Hell, the entry up right now isn't about sex! My question is, then, why resort to cheesy old sexploitation to advertise and decorate your diary? I'm sure you'd agree, the world desperately needs more smart, strong, sexually liberated and comfortable women. So why play into the misogynist, reductionary "I am worthy because I am desirable" crapfest? Hmm. You *seem* too smart for that, so what gives? I really do hope you write back (this is in response to the prev. note you left me) because I honestly don't understand, and I've got NO desire to simply mock women- I'm looking for genuine discourse, because I'm genuinely confused.
from salazabr :
I was a fan of the Da Vinci Code but not the author. Let us know what you think. =) PS. Scarlet is a major hotty and only 19. There's a girl at my gym who looks just like her.
from chaosdaily :
NP rose!!
from nycsexpolits :
wanting your relish does not make you silly or small minded, what if you were planning to attend that peace march today and wanted to have a hot dog when you got home?
from sirrybeans :
Hi ya! I've been a quiet fan for a very long time. I just wanted you to know that I think your amazing. But I also think that your the devil LET ME EXPLAIN. I have been quietly reading and found the most amazing things in this diary that you have turned me on to. So being the devil is a GOOD thing. I have visited and experimented w/quite a few sites from your page and I LOVE IT. You are amazing. Your spirit and openess area true rarity in todays society and a breath of fresh air. I'm glad the comments didn't bog you down. Their young and in time will realize there just isn't enough time in the world to be that fucken negative. In short - you good people Rose. Much love xoxoxox
from dustcloud :
Right the hell on, Rose. We're all "perfect" in our imperfections, just like nature itself. Though, I'm sure jealousy fuled them, as is the case when women trash each other, most of the time... Jealousy that you love yourself and are secure with you, unlike them. :( I'm sorry some jaded bitchies had to get on your case though.
from pantypulldwn :
hah! the the problem with the amendment. people think they have the right to freedom of speech, assholes! fuck everybody else, since when have you cared what anybody else thinks?? after all you're Rose! head up kids i support you and all the naked pics. i just feel kinda freaky about showing my full face on line but hey! it's not me! i clicked the bitchfest link and it took me to an error page. hook it up siter.
from liar-by-rote :
fucken a rosalina! but enough about that...when you leaving for Paris?
from pattymelt :
i would rather have an imperfect body than an imperfect soul. people who say shitty things about us, the superior, only prove how ugly thay are...on the INSIDE.
from purr67 :
Don't worry about people who can't stand openness. You are beautiful in every way in every place. Fuck them. Jody
from parlance :
Innnteresting layout.
from ionme :
lol, actually thegoodbiboy is an online friend of mine, that's his diaryland name (he's on my buddy list) and he lives there too. ;D xo
from ionme :
your diary is very busy but i love all of the new pics. about this summer, i barely say any of nyc last time but i'm sure you & thegoodbiboy will help a little girl get around a big city :)
from liar-by-rote :
i forgot we called it murder at the hudson. it's taking you all week to get the story out...cliffhanger you. i'm still laughing...lov you,lola
from pattymelt :
prey tell, what have you done to your diary that makes it take 10 minutes to load? on a high speed line?
from ionme :
not sure when i'm coming to nyc, tentative plans for this summer though :) i'd love to see you and thegoodbiboy while i'm there! i haven't caught up yet but i know i've been bad since i last updated.....very bad! ;D
from adulterous-k :
hey Rose - made a change but it may not last. I'm travelling back from Trinidad that day so probably won't see you in London. When are you returning? Email me?
from argylecool :
Your site looks just great. I wanted to ask your oppinion on a matter related to a "mutually benefitial arrangement". Will you drop me a note at [email protected] or IM me if you see me on?
from ohclaudine :
Oh shit. Rose, I'm SO sorry. I've had my head lodged up my ass the past week. That or I've been inhaling too much paint thinner. A.I.R. is @ 511 W.25th st. 3rd Floor. The show is up till the 26th so we still have time to meet up and see it if you still wanna. P.S. Great photos by the way ;) xox M
from plastictape :
your stories are awesome. ...god, that woman. jesus.
from salazabr :
I don't know if it's me or the page but your new pics aren't showing. Which is incredibly disappointing. ;)
from ionme :
u are so bad, i love u :)
from argylecool :
Oh my. You seem to be on a bit of a roll, Ms Rose. Thank you for sharing with the class. Is it hot in here or is just you?
from adulterous-k :
Thanks for the admonishment Rose! Yes I've been thinking that too - not sure when I'll get around to it though.
from ohclaudine :
Saturday I can be yours daaahling, if you wanna get together. :) let me know xox
from ohclaudine :
I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to go with you to some shows. Thank you so much for telling me about the massage place, you are such a darling. Meet me at A.I.R. one of these days to see that benefit show I'm in :) We'll talk soon. xox
from salazabr :
Sorry to hear that work is fucking around with you. I hate it wehn they pull that shit. Good for you for sticking to your guns and getting ready to give THEM the ultimatum. =)
from ionme :
NICE story.....made me wet. i wish you had climaxed too though....glad he knows where to hit it ;) i'm horny now----thanks!!!
from salazabr :
Glad to hear you had a nice weekend. =)
from salazabr :
good times...good times...=)
from ionme :
scrolling.....scrolling.....nope not on the list. DAMN ;P Pacino huh? nice!
from phangasm :
Sorry for dropping out, been very busy. Crazy month, I can't wait for March!
from poplord :
hhmmm...interesting quote you posted for me. :) i like it! lol
from ionme :
Hello. Anxious to hear if you have sex with L. He may be better than you think *wink* after all, I'm 24 Doogie is 33 and I'm going to have to teach him....*sigh*
from salazabr :
Damn!! I really should have been reading you all along instead of just recently. I missed the SATC finale but I heard what happened and I don't like it much either. I do LOVE that they made Smith such a stand up guy and showed that guys like that really do exist.
from it-is :
*sigh* working on it darling, working on it.
from salazabr :
Great entry (lipstick and new beginnings) and very well said. I wish I had found your diary sooner. =) Oh, and thanks for listing me.
from ionme :
I think I like to be fucked with too.....I don't know what life is like - without it....
from morceaux :
thanks, doll. you made my day<3
from salazabr :
Yes, life can suck and be shitty...but only if you let it. The trick is to focus on the postive things and release the negative things. I know it sounds cheesy as hell but it does work if you let it work. Just keep moving forward in a positve direction. =)
from pantypulldwn :
it is true, pantypulldwn is my second diary. if you'd read the fisrt you'd know what i mean. nothing lingers more than what someone that brought you into this world can do to you. it's hard, i deal with my own demons everyday. someday i hope that i will be strong enough to release them, so i can be free. good luck rose for this has been a battle i've never seen the end of, but yes i still have hope.
from pantypulldwn :
greive and mourn your pain in your own way, but know that you are not alone.......
from ohclaudine :
Stalk Shmalk, leave me all the notes you want!!! I love getting them. Feel better Rose, many hugs for you. xoxo M
from neckbreaker :
Hey how it going? I read the comment from Dr. Bob re: Al-anon. I've been to those groups and they information on the effects of addiction on family dynamics and relationships. They can be interesting places to go to sort out a lot of crap with people who are wired the same way. If you want I can tell you more about my experience with them. Happy Valentine's Day!
from purr67 :
I hate PMS. I also hate those slimy men who feel that it is their right to reach over and touch you. Someday I hope to hurt one of them. By the way, Good Morning! :)
from morceaux :
thanks for the compliment on my diary. i'm sorry i didn't reply to it until now, but it's well appreciated<3
from phangasm :
Oh, and I'm with you on meetings. I used to be famous for dozing off in long meetings. Somehow I missed reading about you fucking Ross, did you ever post details?
from phangasm :
I can relate to your sexaholic feeling. Especially in my 20's, there were a lot of days where I just needed to jack off to get on with the day. These days I think I oscillate between work and sex. I can sometimes go a couple weeks totally immersed in work, but then I go on a sex binge. I have to tell you, it's really hard to keep the hots for one person, at least for me it is. I'm jealous of these swinger couples you see who are apparently totally open in their marriage sexually, but still make the marriage work.
from ionme :
OMG! you are so right about the sex/workaholics. i may touch base on that in my entry today to explain....i'm not sure when i'll be in nyc again but hopefully this summer!!! :)
from dustcloud :
Thank you muchly for the luck wishing. I'm sorry about that date of yours...if he calls you again, I'll be happy to go up there and rough him up. You know...throw fruit at him. Push him down the steps of Union Sq. park. Kidnap any pets he may have. And have bumloads of fun with your birthmum!
from ohclaudine :
Dear Rose, I would love for you to design a template for me. Better yet, when the time comes, I'd love to commision you to do a page specifically catering to my work. This template was a shitty ass attempt to learn html. hehe. Let's make a date for the interview. xox M
from pantypulldwn :
funny thing is i didn't even read the title to this entry until the end. it was right after the part that you said the guy had called 4 times in one hour that made me think STALKER, TURN AROUND AND RUN~! lol! at least you can look back at this with a good sense of humor and laugh about it. too bad for the fifty bucks though! you could've bought a new pair of shoes! ;0)
from ionme :
Thanks for making me your blog of the day on 2/8 - that was a great entry too!!!
from oneatatime :
Doll, So, obviously I was a no show on Thursday. I hope you's all had fun - I'm going to go back and see if you wrote about it. ANYWAY, why I'm really writing is because I want to know what happened with the bartender ... deets to follow and it's BEEN A DAY. Get on the board and write it out, Ms.
from thisgirljes :
thank you.
from sectionsix :
Thanks for the invite Rose. Stupidly, I did not check my email or notes for a week (I'm not used to getting any notes, it was sort of thrilling, to be frank); I totally would have gone too. Love your journal and thanks for the link. Karen
from liar-by-rote :
oh rose, wish i could wave a magic wand to ur soul and make bad feelings go away concerning R-man. he's not even hate worthy. it would be easier if he were...
from ohclaudine :
Slate between 6-8.. dig. I'm one broke ass Jew, the lady I work for Thursday just canceled on me *cries*, so my funds are WAY low, looks like I won't be drinking but whateva... I comming for the company :)
from frail :
hey. i won't be able to make it on thursday. i am available m-t-w, if you guys ever do the get together again and keep me in mind. thanks so much for inviting me. :) i'd still like to take you up on the coffee offer one of these days too. take care, cathy-ann
from phangasm :
Hey, thanks for the nice note. Great entry, I think it's totally true. People set their expectations too high for marriage. Marriage and relationships won't make you happy. I think one other thing is that women are trained from early on to want to be married, to believe in that sweet prince, that knight in shining armor.
from sduckie :
great entry today rose, it really hit the spot. (p.s. no new job yet!) DUCK
from sduckie :
great entry today rose, it really hit the spot. (p.s. no new job yet!) DUCK
from adulterous-k :
Sorry - can't make Thursday (just feeling jealous again Rose!) - end of March maybe :-P
from stelanotte :
I'm in school at night until 9pm. Post the details and I'll see if I can make it to SLATE. XOXO Cheri
from les-cadeaux :
...thrilled to be added to your fave list, also glad to have found your site! If I can, I'll try to make it Thursday. Oh, I loved 'Red' best, but the trilogy is amazing. Great movies.
from proudnerd :
I would love to! Where is it?
from ohclaudine :
I would love to join you at Slate. I'm nannying until the early evening. What time is the shindig?
from neckbreaker :
I'm a fuckbuddy? Fantastic! Thanks for the note and will drop by often.
from argylecool :
Thanks so much for the invite and adding me to your list of favorites. See you Thursday!
from proudnerd :
Thank you! How you made me smile!
from pantypulldwn :
we do what we do to stay afloat. only poeple who have clearly never been in your shoes will judge you. i'm not ashamed of anything i've done and i've done a lot of fucked up shit. hold your head up high, the tough time are the one that made us the people we are today. the best advice my mother ever gave me was, your ass is the only thing you can sell and still take back.
from liar-by-rote :
Holy Shit Rose. YOU know I'm a hard chick to move, but that monologue was riveting. I told you, the best writing comes directly from life. for me anyway. Are they all this good?
from purr67 :
You are beautiful! I love your hair! Your friends are pretty too. That guy did not stand a chance. Trust me, you are far above average!
from liar-by-rote :
Wow, Stephanie! She did it! She sounds great, Rose. Two bottles of wine and food for HER celebration!! That's my kind of girl. Let Frenchie stay! Let her stay!
from adulterous-k :
I like your idea! TV world is ready for you Rose!
from adulterous-k :
Hope you're better now Rose! I got caught by the guestbook glitch!
from xperi-mental :
Hope you feel better...it sounds like you may have the West Nile Monkey Sars. Not a fun thing to deal with. Take two bananas and call Ross in the morning.*wink* XOXOXO
from ionme :
Bravo :)
from carrythezer0 :
your diary is one of my very favorites.
from charleyjo :
Rose! ya killing me just leaving me hanging like that! God!
from ionme :
nice rose, very nice :)
from ohclaudine :
Amen sister. xoxo M
from rae-babe :
A friend of mine had her daughter run away and she might be in the New York area. Please take a look at the picture. It's right at the top of my page and it will only take a second. If you have seen her the contact information is below. Thank You for your help, Rae-babe
from jillspill :
Hey, just wanted you 2 know that I ck your site everyday to see what's going on w/ ya....one night I stayed up all night and read all of your old entries, your a great writer :) Good luck in your future!
from hissandtell :
Mmmm...Bill Clinton. Mmm-mmmm...I got the whole Monica Lewinski look-alike thing, too, except mine usually came from old friends saying, "Hey, you used to look exactly like her!" as well as making all the obvious remarks about having similar oral talents...
from phangasm :
I'd say that my fantasies are future based, I usually fantasize about things I'd like to do but haven't. But I borrow elements of past experiences to "set the scene" too.
from purr67 :
Might as well send it to me. I promise to be completely honest.
from ohclaudine :
I would like the questionair please :) [email protected] thanks! love M
from liar-by-rote :
Yo Beautiful Rose, had a blast walking down the street with you tonight and i can't keep from putting my arm thru yours...it's just love honey, that's all.
from ionme :
thanks rose! my fantasies are pretty much future based....
from lola-rose :
thank ya rose! lol sorry 'bout the name thing..
from ohclaudine :
I think the two J's and the other fella from Boston would be good business. Maybe one of you should carry some Mace just in case? Sorry, it's the mom in me,I just want you girls to be safe.
from adulterous-k :
Be the peeer! How you doing sis?
from purr67 :
Two things, be careful and have loads of fun!!! Water sports though? Are you going to be the peeie or the peeer? Wish I could join you. Sigh.
from phangasm :
The going rate around here (bigger midwest city) is $250 - $300 for "full service" (straight sex). I've never really shopped for a dom experience, so I don't know if the rates are different. Hey, you can always adjust prices later if you decide you're worth it... and I'm sure you are! Never been dominated, not really my thing, though you and Lola may make me reconsider that! Good luck!
from phangasm :
If you're (or Lola is) worried about safety, you could check in with a friend at the start of the appointment and the end, that way they know to get help if you don't check in. Not perfect, but if a guy's thinking of any tricks, they'll think twice if you call your friend to check in in front of him.
from phangasm :
Sounds fun! I don't know what the NYC rates are, but based on where I live, you may be undercharging. I'm not much for B&D, though, so I could be wrong.
from xperi-mental :
Naughty, naughty girls! *grin* It sounds like you two are going to have lots and lots of profitable fun.
from chaosdaily :
sheesh only a dollar????
from ionme :
because girls are bitches that's why lol
from ohclaudine :
Dearest rose I'm so glad you found me dahhling!! Read my masterpieces and I'll read yours. *M*
from idiot-milk :
Thanks, babydoll. This Nyquil is kicking my ass. I can't seem to get it right. Either I take too much and I'm twitchy, or I don't take enough and I'm dopey, but still not feeling better. Stupid Nyquil.
from stelanotte :
I enjoy reading your diary. Where in NYC? Drop me a note if you'd like. xoxo
from adulterous-k :
Yes - I think I would have preferred your Christmas too (not that mine was too bad.. and not that I'm likely to have that choice!). Have good Hogmanay Rose, hope 2004's good to you. (brother) K xx
from phangasm :
Sounds like you and Denny had a wonderful time, I'm jealous! Man, I actually feel sorry for Ross! But only a little.
from pantypulldwn :
thanks for the update, i was hangin' by a thread there you know!
from pantypulldwn :
you so left me hanging! do tell, do tell!
from pantypulldwn :
i so wish that i was there instead of here. your christmas was the best things that i read so far. i would kill to get a girls night out! you really don't know how lucky you really are!
from adulterous-k :
Hey Rose - did you know you changed your name from 'Calderwood' to 'Costello' on one of those mails...? Have a good Christmas: catch you after the holidays. K xx
from hissandtell :
Thank you dollink! I've just read two of your entries; they are so energetic I'm exhausted already! I shall be back to read more. Oh, and I loved "Bowling for Columbine" too. Brilliant stuff.
from phangasm :
I'd sure like to go back. It's all I can think about lately. We talked about it last night and she liked it, though she was sore the next day. You know, the picture on your diary sets me off too - I never thought of trying anal in that position, but it was great!
from tevon :
Do you think that, maybe, by involving yourself with unavailable men, you're trying to work out some sort of formula for getting what you want from them? Something that you could apply to other people in your life to try and get whatever it is you need from them...Maybe it's so difficult to let go because you haven't figured it out yet. Hmm..Just a passing thought.
from pantypulldwn :
i really think that the abuse was his way of showing that he cared. i come from a family that is not particulary loving in any way, hugs and kisses are not something that is done in my family. but when someone is deathly ill like that they'll sit by our bedside for days. i'm sure that he thinks of you too, don't beat yourself up about it. keep your head up.
from adulterous-k :
Would a long-distance brother help, Rose?
from ionme :
me too sweetie. we'll hold each other's hands. i'm so glad to hear you talk like this.
from tevon :
I haven't changed anything...I didn't lock you out. Something must be up with diaryland. Try retyping everything in, perhaps. Baremysoul and you know the password. I'm still at [email protected] I don't imagine I'll be updating much for a while...I'll try and sort it out though. Let me know if it still doesn't work.
from pantypulldwn :
have no shame, i don't regret anything that i've done in the past. i would do it all again better. mistakes are mistake because we learn from them, so if you chose take this lesson and move on. if not take this lesson by the balls and ride that bronco, you have to live wtih the decisions that you make everyday. keep your head up.
from purr67 :
Don't worry what people say. You will know when it is time.
from xperi-mental :
I understand your addiction to Ross but, Rose! You are so much better then him! Hope you feel better.
from ionme :
i've got the holiday blues too babe. wish we could spend it together :)
from azelya :
Okay, you are being such a tease!!!! First you tease us with the Ross story, now with Len. Please give us the pleasure of reading the end!
from pantypulldwn :
there's something about the long gone entry that makes me sad for you, sad for the girl who didn't want to be left alone. sad for the woman that cries inside when he leaves. i have high hopes for you, keep your head up high.
from adulterous-k :
So we both had a succesful night! x
from adulterous-k :
Part two? PLEASE?
from pantypulldwn :
i'm so into you seducing a 19 year old after all that's what i'm doing. i enjoyed your diary. i'm going to add you to my fav.
from chaosdaily :
yea rose, you hit the nail on the head. great entry
from ionme :
hey! your entry makes PERFECT sense to me....
from adulterous-k :
...but it made you feel good didn't it Rose?
from ionme :
NO NO NO NO!!! IF I were in NYC today, I'd bend you over and spank your bare ass myself. Stay away from Ross - I thought I told you to seduce the 19 year old. Argh :P
from chaosdaily :
omg how i wish i was single...... lol
from tevon :
This last entry made me smile. Pitiful how monumental that feels. Thank you either way though, my darling girl.
from xperi-mental :
Thank you for your coment, it means a lot to me. Try to be strong when it comes to Ross, maybe a little fun with L will be good for you...it definitely would be good for him. *wink*
from oneatatime :
Rose, you is one sweet woman ... thanks for the kind words. We'll see what we see and Lola told me that I'm supposed to write more for you, so, I'm doing my best. Chin up, breasts out and let's get a bottle of wine with the Lola soon.
from chaosdaily :
for a nice morning treat, try cocoa with a spoonful of instant coffee... gives it a little kick!! hehe
from poplord :
thanx for the note! i've read a bit of your diary. don't have much time lately for this stuff, so i haven't been able to update. yeah, i'm hangin'.... :)
from asitwere :
Hey, thanks for the sentiment re: "my sweet ex". Hope all is well at your new job. Talk to you soon... stay warm!
from ionme :
i see you're starting on the right track of getting over ross, keep going forward and don't look back. stay away from him - be strong!!!!
from xperi-mental :
I only had a chance to read your last entry but I'm very intrigued. I'm going to have to start from the beginning now. Thank you for reading my diary.
from adulterous-k :
Very nice of you Rose! And it's comforting to know you're happy where you are now. I think you're right to wait to see if he comes to you - it's time he did make the running! Now you're not working with him it ought to be easier to acknowledge the friendship. Still coming over in the Spring?
from ionme :
yes! seduce the 19 year old and show him what's up!!!
from chaosdaily :
wow the job almost sounds too good to be true. but i suppose its good for therapists to have happy employees. and it could be the start of a new life for you. hmmm?
from ionme :
new job sounds fantastic babe! i totally understand your fascination with the married ones. the chase (even if it's a small one), the flirtation, the thrill, the accomplishment of getting what you wanted, the not being able to get TOO close to them because of the circumstances which makes you think that it's safer because you're scared of something real. i get it. i've been there. but, you DESERVE better. that bastard ross, no matter how many good times you've shared, does NOT deserve you. THAT is what's important. i haven't heard from the cop since that conversation where i told him i was close to cutting myself, he is a selfish bastard - i was too blind to see that before. actually i didn't want to see it. stay strong, find someone worthy without a ring on his finger sweetie! i need to call you soon, and i will!
from checkit-view :
Need a little truth in your life? Come get a review from us. Just leave us a note and we'll be sure to put you in your place! *wink wink*
from liar-by-rote :
oh rose, i screwed up! i meant 1+1=2! Yes, that's the one!
from liar-by-rote :
another OUTSTANDING entry from my girl! I'm speaking of the coutney love one, i'm off to read your lastest. things are really going well for you; let the goodness rub on me. and no, not that way silly.
from ionme :
so glad to hear you like your new job, sounds cool to me! miss hearing from you, maybe you need another call from *ellen* hehe
from chaosdaily :
wooooooo hooooooo!!!!!! hope you had a good day!
from adulterous-k :
How's it going then Rose? having fun?
from chaosdaily :
happy thanksgiving to you too rose, today i am thankful to be able to be part of diaryland, and to be able to read your diary. hugs
from sexyatheist :
yeah, ass play is a serious weakness of mine. i can't get enough of it. and luckily the boy can't either. which i know because he never leaves my ass alone anymore! as for pictures of helicopters, i'm confused. but whatever. as long as you found your magazine. and i love reading you
from ergoatlas :
Your finding those lovely strap-ons not a day after my fantasy involving a woman taking me that way was just too sexy. I am yours whenever you you want me.
from ionme :
hello! sorry to hear about your friend, i always hate to hear stories like that. that's why i always preach about condoms too. good luck today!
from adulterous-k :
Last day Rose? Have a good one! K x
from asitwere :
Oh, don't know him or of him. Just know the boss. If he didn't have a card, I'd be a little suspect. (or he's a sales VP). There's tons of those.
from asitwere :
I know your friend Henry's boss. Mr. Andre Dahan - CEO - ATT Wireless Mobile Multimedia Division.
from ionme :
do u know how many times i've thought about giving 'the cop' your site link because i know he would enjoy it? but, he would find me that way so i haven't.....i can't believe those google hits, i have no idea how mine has been found. do u have to have gold to see that?
from ilikepink :
Heeeey, Rose. I did your wonderful survey. It was awesome. :D Keep up your sexy-ness. <3 Tori
from chaosdaily :
if you would need a license for affairs, then they would have to grant people more than one license......
from chaosdaily :
hmmm maybe this new job is just what you need...... ;-)
from chaosdaily :
do you have a license to drive that vehicle? hehe as to training, have her write EVERYTHING down. she will remember better, and have a reference when she gets stuck
from tevon :
You know what, baby, it doesn't matter. Make him whatever you need him to be. Make him fucking Zeus in your mind, if that's who you need him to be. Just be careful that you keep the two distinctly separate. Know that Ross is really just Ross. Don't expect anything of him because of your image. Stupid man. I don't know how he could fail to realize what he has in his hands with you, dear girl.
from chaosdaily :
oh man do i know how you feel
from adulterous-k :
No - sadly my work is not dissimilar from yours at the moment.
from asitwere :
Congratulations, Rose! Look forward to hearing new and exciting stories. :-)
from adulterous-k :
Congratulations, Rose. And enjoy those cocktails!
from ionme :
CONGRATS!!! Also, I enjoyed reading your last two entries about Ross even though I think he's a bastard lol. I wish you nothing but the best :)
from adulterous-k :
So? Did you get it?
from ionme :
hi sweetie. i want to get stoned with you and laugh at stupid stuff. that sounds like so much fun. good luck today!!!!!
from adulterous-k :
Good luck for the second round, Rose.
from ionme :
yes, pink & vibrates. what do you think? tell me all about it! jim, the heart skipping a beat thing, hrm. . . . i don't know. he is too involved in skydiving-it's all he cares about or talks about. i thought there was something there, because when we talk - it's good. but lately, i have nothing to say to him and the sex sucked. i think i was just surprised he was calling. i don't know. oh, by the way, love your new layout :)
from ionme :
hi honey! sounds like your interview went great. hell, i'll take that job :) i hope you have a great weekend and i'll talk to you soon!
from sexyoldman :
How in the world can you work when you think about sex almost as much as me? lol. After reading your entry, I'm no good for work for a long time.
from chaosdaily :
hey sounds like the interview went well. it would be nice to have a job that is just a job. and who knows what will happen with ross..
from ionme :
You're not going to want to hear this - but I don't think he'll care if you leave. I may be wrong....can't wait to hear about your interview though. Same type job? Good luck and I hope you feel better sweetie :)
from chaosdaily :
it does make you wonder, doesnt it??
from ionme :
How long have you been writing? For some reason lately your entries are more profound. April, France, I'm jealous :)
from chaosdaily :
awwwww thats so sweet.... im gonna cry.... *sniff*
from adulterous-k :
You did right Rose. You did right!
from asitwere :
dude you are so IN LOVE with Ross!
from ionme :
Makes you wonder why we have to go through these things if they are going to end badly? Life is fucked up. Period! We shouldn't be able to feel that way toward someone if the ending result is heartbreak, it doesn't make sense. If we only felt that way when we found "the one" it would be easier, that way we ~would know~. Anyway....have a good day
from ionme :
Hello. It was so nice talking to you last night. We'll have to do that from time to time. I read your entries posted over the weekend last night. Nice writing as usual, always keeps me interested throughout. :) Oh, and I'll send you a pic or two today. Ciao
from adulterous-k :
Hey Rose. You made me smile when I saw the quote you'd chosen! You sound a little bruised still. Plenty of us here to hold your hand through this though xx
from liar-by-rote :
oh, that is so great roselina! can't wait to get the whole scoop, like names and such! i get the inside scoop, 'cause i'm your friend. hoolalhoola. hey.
from ionme :
gigglegigglegigglegigglegigglegigglegigglegigglegiggle
from ionme :
I'm glad you have closure sweetie. Even when you think they're gone - they're not. Look who came popping up in my life again (it happens about every 3 to 6 months). My affair. (Today's entry) Ciao sweetie
from purr67 :
Thank god I can read you again! I think no, I know I am addicted to diaryland. I can't tell you how many times I check this damn computer to see if anyone has updated! I also have to stop myself from entering more then once a day. (when the boss is not around). Example: this is my second note to you today! Glad you are feeling better and I wish I did not have those damn hairs on my chin also!
from purr67 :
All I see is black when I try to read you!! I am missing stuff damn it!!
from ionme :
I meant what if you don't live in NY oops
from ionme :
WOAH! Why don't I know about this ladies call free, phone sex thing? Oh, now it's on! What if you don't live in OH? I'm all excited now..... I got most of my homework done, it's right too! I'll get the rest done tonight. Talk to you very soon! xo
from liar-by-rote :
rose, i just said today that i thought i was asexual. the whole family/man thing is way overrated. the next time someone asks me if i'm seeing someone i will say yeah, me, everyday, fasinating.
from liar-by-rote :
i love u. powerful poem, rose. i hope this old man is history. keep writing.
from ionme :
I hope you feel better! I wish I had a bootay, mine's kinda flat but I have boobs for days.....can't have it all I guess. Being 5'2 I suppose I would look funny with an ass and big boobs huh? I can't have enough compliments, makes you feel good - especially from people who have no reason to lie to you :) Sunday should work, it's my lazy day. Ciao
from adulterous-k :
And yet another from me xx
from chaosdaily :
bummer. heres a hug for ya
from adulterous-k :
If Ross were afraid you were asking for more than he can possibly give then I could feel some sympathy for his position. But that's not it. You deserved honest human kindness on that journey. Hate to think of you crying without a shoulder to wipe your tears on. x
from ionme :
Hey girl, are you back yet? I'm sorry to hear about your Aunt. Keep in touch :)
from adulterous-k :
Leaving messages for me on YOUR notes? My, you were in a tizzy! Or maybe you just knew I'd come back to say 'Told you so!'. K x
from asitwere :
Hey Rose! Things look good next week. What are you doing this weekend? Brunch is always fun. - AP PS I dig that all your fantasies start with oral sex.
from bare-my-soul :
K., i actually gave Len my diary address and he read my entry from last night. read my guestbook. i am DYING right now! just DYING! love rose
from adulterous-k :
Don't be silly Rose - of course Len's thought about it!
from ionme :
Had a dream involving you & Asit. We were on the beach and at first there was jealousy - but we all ended up making out. There was fruit involved also, strawberries & cantaloupe specifically. Hrm...
from adulterous-k :
Now I'm jealous! You get to meet diarylanders in person!!?
from liar-by-rote :
perfect ending. great detail. that was a rock and roll entry.
from adulterous-k :
Rose, even if you're not looking for love and marriage you do deserve to be equal in whatever relationship you have. I know (how!) how hard it is to balance family with lover, but I'm sure there's someone who can do that for you with more sensitivity.
from ionme :
Thanks Rose, I adore you too :) I understand your thoughts & feelings on why you are the way you are. I hope that both of us get out of this rut someday. We're only hurting ourselves (and we're completely aware too). I'm always left wondering what's wrong with me. I'm pissed & feeling sorry for myself also - if you haven't read last night's entry, that's why.....I mean I'm ok, just left wondering what the fuck?????? Ciao!
from dizzy-bitch :
Rose, I've resurfaced. Sis in law got on my comp while babysitting and read a few entries - I had to skip town (sonshinegrl anyway) and DELETE LIKE HELL. I'm safe now. Sorry for the B.S. Love, Sonshinegrl--- now dizzy-bitch.
from judge-neaira :
You and I, beautiful, we are birds of a feather. I am glad I found and joined your ring.
from ionme :
I've thought about stripping several times. If I lived in a bigger city I would be. To feel comfortable I'd have to drive at least 2 hours away to strip. The money is so there waiting for me and my 34DD's!!! How much would you make nightly out of curiosity??
from adulterous-k :
This may seem like another soap-opera aspect (although I've not used it) but Jo is an adoptee too. And she discovered her birth-mother only a mile from home. We've had lots of those nature and nurture discussions..
from ionme :
i know not to involve myself with someone at work (been there done that lol) but i still can't help thinking about it, we flirt every day. is it just me or do tall & skinny guys have big .... shoes...? :)
from asitwere :
Hello bare; followed you along from Frail's journal. Love that chick and can't help but keep running into her downtown. Anyway thought I would say hello and that your layout and diary are pretty darn awesome. Ciao.
from sexyoldman :
I got a note from sonshinegrl which said her computer broke (and apparently it can neither be fixed nor replaced?) Anyway, she told me bye-bye, no more playing. Damn!
from other-life :
spectacular diary. and killer choice in music.
from bare-my-soul :
a note to MYSELF...don't go upstairs today unless you absolutely have to!
from sexyoldman :
Good God, I've got groupies!!! lol! Why do you both live on the opposite side of the country? Congrats on the tuition grant from your company. Watch out for sonshinegirl, she's got a wild streak in her. *smile*
from sonshinegrl :
Do you think sexy mike's as sexy as he sounds?? I would love to get together next year in NYC....W has LOTS of flyer miles (he's a 'million miler'). And, for mike's sake we could go topless...sounds like fun. Actually, I'd love to go on a short cruise, wouldn't that be delicious...
from sonshinegrl :
Thinking of you, enjoying your entries. I adore your writing style!! You're so interesting and precise. I love your words.
from tevon :
Various apologies for denying...I thought I could do it. But I need my hiding place more than I thought. Feel free to email me! Elated that you're enjoying your weekend
from mattferrara :
Bruce was my first grad school mentor at New England College.
from mattferrara :
I see you have my friend Bruce Smith in your favorites list. Just wanted to applaud your good taste--we're the only two on all of diaryland to list him.
from sonshinegrl :
Hi Rose! I hope you have a great vacation! You deserve it!!
from sexyoldman :
I laughed about your reading my note and getting confused...sorry! What I mean is I wish there was a woman at work (like you) who was thinking "I wish sexyoldman would ask me to suck his cock." In other words, I wish there were more women out there who wanted to suck me off (now what guy doesn't wish that?) Keep writing!
from liar-by-rote :
oh bare how much fun? we had fun. now, go eat cheese. ???
from tevon :
Mmmm...noticed you thanks to the sexworkers diary ring...That one always fascinated me. I got to thinking about it earlier today and wondering if I was the only actual..er...hooker on it (not that I have the patience to read all of them and find out). So odd to say hooker when you're a boy. Anyway...Love your porn (and don't get me wrong, I know it's more than just porn. And I love it all. I'm not the short that fastforwards to the naughty bits. I watch and enjoy the whole fuckhappy plot ;). You made me forget to be miserable for a few minutes. And I love you for it.
from nymphal :
hi thanks for the comments i'm finally upadating :P
from sexyoldman :
It's such a turn on to read what's going on in your mind.... I wish there was someone out there who wished I'd say, "come here and suck my cock" Very nice!
from astarslament :
that was a really nice comment you left me, i was beginning to wonder if anyone read my stuff anymore, and to know that you have and that you liked it is really great, especially coming from a terriffic diarist like yourself. xoxo sarah xoxo
from liar-by-rote :
i love you rose
from sonshinegrl :
HI! I've been incognito, but still reading your diary most days!! I wrote today so you can "catch up" on my life. I thought of you during the blackout - here I am in the deep south and thought "I wonder how Rose is doing tonight." Of course we were all concerned as we watched CNN - as was the rest of the country - and glad it was just a glitch and not something terribly frightening. Anyway, thanks for checking on me. love, Jodi
from sexyoldman :
Thanks for the compliment. I've often thought about writing for a magazine or writing a novel. If I put as much time into that as I do looking at naked women on the net I'd be as prolific as Stephan King. So, I blame procrastination and women..lol!
from liar-by-rote :
hi rose, no, i'm not liar. but where's your damn entry? jesus, i'm waiting all day! hurry up! your audience is waiting!
from matildanyc :
Thank You Rose! I am truly an old woman, unable to leave my apartment due to hip surgery last year...I stumbled upon your diary and i think you are fantastic! You have everything to be excited about in your life! If I have learned one thing it's this: don't create drama. It will find you soon enough. Enjoy your hips. Your hips and your lips. All four of them. God Bless and keep on Fucking!
from sexyoldman :
Hi Rose, I can't say I have a perpetual hardon, but the idea of sex does enter my mind about every six seconds. I checked out the findyourspot site and came up with Virginia, North Carolina and Washington towns. Thanks for the link. Hope all works out for you...I'm sure it will.
from sexyoldman :
Of all the things you worried about 5 years ago, how many are things you worry about today? You deserve a break from all that worry, or it will drive you down. I know it sounds trite, but there is much power in the "don't worry, be happy" way of looking at things.
from sonshinegrl :
Hi! I have unlocked my diary. I had locked it because of the possible of death by boredom for anyone who may stumble upon it. Although I did put a wedding pict of my husband and me in the Anniv. entry. Jodi

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