messages to xnavygrrl:
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| from wifemotherme : |
| Now that was hardly the note I wanted to leave. Shhhsshh. Sorry. Anyway (date below) Havent heard from you in a very long time and was wondering how you were doing. Please update or email soon. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| 4/18/08 |
| from marlen816 : |
| You are going to get through this just like everything else in your life that has happened that would make anyone else crumble. You are a remarkably strong woman. You will come out of this move and big change even stronger. ((Hugs)) for you and Jackie (btw, how is she doing??). Praying for you! |
| from cutiepie1983 : |
| Hey!!! Just dropping in to say hi!!! Love the music! hehe. Nancy |
| from idontpretend : |
| Omg, I'm glad you got out of there. I can only imagine, and I can imagine a LOT. I feel a great deal of relief for you. Hopefully this will be the start of something good and better for you and your daughter. *hugs* |
| from fitofdestiny : |
| *hugs* I'm starting to feel like I am in a similar situation. It's great that you have a plan to get out it. I'm sure you and your daughter will be much happier and better off away from his issues. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I am thinking about you. You deserve the best. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Wow, girl, you are going through a lot right now. ((hugs)) And you are doing the right thing for you and Jackie. I'll be praying for you! |
| from mpeacock : |
| Great pictures! I will think happy thoughts about the job! |
| from idontpretend : |
| Yeah, you tell those narcissistic assholes what's up! And yeah, there will never be another Nancy, or another Julia. The ones we love, truly love, are unique in our lives, aren't they? |
| from dragprincess : |
| You will move on - that's a given - but girl, you talk about this all you need to. Sharing pain is pain lessened. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Yeah, when I find those rare people who don't completely suck, I try to hold onto them as long as I can. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Dear lord, I want to ask exactly what happened, the night your mother died, but I don't want to reopen wounds or bring back memories you'd rather leave buried. Gawd, I'm so sorry, whatever happened. I hope he rots in jail for the rest of his life. As for these other people, they deserve to be shot. I'm glad you're finding your way. I hope you've found happiness in your life, even if life isn't all fun and games. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Wow, I've missed out on alot. I was busy for four days with an insurance class, then I was sick for at least 5 days before that, and before that, well, I've been in a huge funk. Reading about so much that you've been through, as well as Silvia, it still amazes me what people are capable of. Both good and bad. |
| from dragprincess : |
| Say goodbye to Lisa, write her a letter if it makes you feel better, and do NOT compare yourself to D. What's the point? You have many qualities that are amazing that I'm sure she doesn't possess nor does she need to possess them. Lisa has gone another path. It hurts. Mourn it. Grieve. And allow yourself to keep things moving. Being replaced is never fun, but remember -- people's rejection is often God's protection. I think you'll start to see things differently about Lisa soon. |
| from thedetails : |
| Hi Hon, send me the link for your new diary. Thanks. As for Di4u, I've sort of been in Xnavygrrl's postition before, having to deal with the loss of a friendship and I don't think she's coming after you so much as you are just a manifestion for her feelings over the loss of this friendship. I went through the same thing years ago and now looking back I realize that it wasn't the other person that I was upset with, only I was upset that I'd been replaced so easily. I would have left this comment on your own site but you don't have them turned on. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Hi hon. Pretty please - send me the link to your other diary? I send you hugs and good energy often in the hopes that it will help at least a little. Even though we don't talk often anymore, you're still in my thoughts. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I've tried to leave messages deveral times, but it wouldn't. Anyway, I am glad you're unlocked and I wish you all the happiness in the world. Don't ever appologize for being you. :) |
| from dragprincess : |
| Melissa, my suggestion is to let yourself mourn the loss of Lisa - and then allow yourself to move on. Lisa is not meant to be in your life right now - and that's okay. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Damn, that's a hell of a present for a 10(?) year old. :O |
| from idontpretend : |
| Yeah, I'm pretty much the same way. I can analyze a situation until I'm blue in the face, but sometimes, life just doesn't make sense. And I loved her so much, I made her the center of my existance, I would've done anything for her, I did do anything for her, all she had to do was be honest with me and tell me straight up what was on her mind and heart. But nothing I did was good enough for her. Nothing I said meant anything to her. Yeah, it does make me angry sometimes to think about it. I gave her everything, and she used it and tossed it aside like it was nothing. :( I did put her on a pedestal, but at the same time, when she lied to my face day in and day out, I wouldn't turn a blind eye. It sucked, to say the least. Meh, I'm rambling. Yw for the support. You seem like a good person. And I hate it when good people are used and betrayed and stuff. |
| from idontpretend : |
| You're doing the right thing. You can't compete with someone's friends, when they listen to them more than they listen to you. I learned that the hard way with my ex-fiance. She listened to her family and online 'friends' more than she ever listened to me. And none of them knew a damn thing about me. The only time she EVER talked about me, was when we were fighting about something. And 9 times out of 10, the fight happened because she was lying through her teeth about something. It's all a mindfuck, and I held on for ALOT longer than I should've. |
| from idontpretend : |
| That's great when a birthday turns out so well! :D |
| from boxx9000 : |
| ♥ HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ♥ |
| from idontpretend : |
| You and Dave, sitting in a tree, K I S S I N G!! |
| from marlen816 : |
| Thank you so much for your note the other day. It made me smile. ((Hugs)) to you for all you're dealing with, too. I am mourning a changed friendship, also and it is not easy, but change for me neither is. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Yay for dreams filled with death and despair! |
| from biodtl : |
| I'm glad you and Lisa worked thing out. I know it sucks to be on the outs with a friend. |
| from flicka : |
| Hey :) Haven't seen ya around in a while. I've been feeling sorry for myself.... |
| from idontpretend : |
| Where you been? |
| from biodtl : |
| Hey! I started up something new and private - only for a trusted few. I lost your email, so if you want the info, email me and I'll send it along. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Nice to see you in red today. I have missed you. Please don't fight Uranus in his effort to take you back to court. That is about the BEST thing that can happen to you. If he had been keeping up with his end in full the judge might allow the CS to stay the same, but since he hasn't, I am betting he gets nailed to the wall BIG TIME. Its time you got an increase and help with all the medical stuff. Let him do the leg work and the paper work. Sometimes having a Stupid Ex pays off. What ever you do, don't tell him to consult a lawyer first or they will explain to him what a stupid idea this is and then he will back off and be happy to pay the paltry amount. Let him nail his own coffin. |
| from mpeacock : |
| YOu are such a positive person! Take care!!! |
| from myexodus : |
| Haha, I didn't google you. I just clicked on the buddy list. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Girl EMAIL ME! [email protected] I have a question for you... |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Girl- You know I love you and I will ALWAYS be your friend!! Things in my life are getting more hectic as I get closer to my due date and you were pretty occupied with Dave, but not once did I not think about you, I will always be here and I will try my best to still lend an ear when you need it!!! HUGS!!!! Lisa |
| from mpeacock : |
| My best friend has a really good friend that she soes way way more with than me as we live 3 states apart (she also makes special trips for etc etc). Sometimes I think maybe I should be jealous, but then I think, I don't have time to be jealous. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Haha. Screw Osama. You know your journal is kinda messed up? Your entry goes right through that one part, instead of moving it down to the bottom or something. :o |
| from awittykitty : |
| Personal hygeine does seem to be a problem sometimes when people are ill. Not sure why. Its a regular topic at work. Congrats on finding love. That's great! I'm happy for you. |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Just dropping by to say *Hi*. Wow! I have a LOT of catching up to do here. You're getting married? CONGRATULATIONS. I want to hear ALL the details. I don't want to ever get married again, but I like hearing OTHER people's plans. |
| from idontpretend : |
| Thank you. In the last couple of months, I've discovered friends I didn't know I had. I was lucky, and yet not, having met my new love 5 months after my wife and I separated and she asked for a divorce. Finding her was something I never would've believed would happen. Especially so soon. She saved me from years of misery and a darkness in my heart. But at the same time, the end of my marriage also cost me this love that I found in the woman I now love. It was a double-edged sword, and it has cut me so deep, I don't know how I'll ever recover. Your words, and the words of others, have helped me when I needed my baby the most, when she was never further away. |
| from idontpretend : |
| I envy you. You're so lucky. The one you love loves you back. I envy you so much. :'( |
| from idontpretend : |
| Thank you. :( I've never felt like this before. I never want to feel like this again. I just wish she'd decide, now, and truthfully, if her heart is mine, or not, so that I can move on, and leave this pain behind. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| It's been such a long time since I have been here. I will be happy to get you my password. I don't have your e-mail. Send me one [email protected] and I will send it to you. I am doing a new site to start over. Lots of info to fill in. Don't want to broadcast the past or lose it. I will either do a new site or delete stuff and start over. Lots of stuff. xxoo Congrats. I see you are engaged! Love, Jen |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| It's been such a long time since I have been here. I will be happy to get you my password. I don't have your e-mail. Send me one [email protected] and I will send it to you. I am doing a new site to start over. Lots of info to fill in. Don't want to broadcast the past or lose it. I will either do a new site or delete stuff and start over. Lots of stuff. xxoo Congrats. I see you are engaged! Love, Jen |
| from boxx9000 : |
| I can't find your email addy to send you my password. My email is [email protected]. Send me your addy so I can send you my password. OK? |
| from mpeacock : |
| YOu're taking it so well, I am proud of you. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Sorry about the layoff, but you know that everything has a purpose and this could be a really good thing and good timing for you. Enjoy the time, find a new path, you'll get where you should be. Hugs. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| (((hugs))) sorry about the layoff. Hopefullty it means something better is just around the corner for you |
| from thedetails : |
| Sorry that your plans for moving got put on hold. I hate living in a limbo while you wait for stuff to fall in place so you can finally get to the things you want to do. Hope that things go well with you. |
| from dragprincess : |
| Sometimes what you can't do for yourself, God does for you. She's got bigger and better things in store for you! |
| from tuckandsophi : |
| Hello to all puppies who dwell in the House of XNavygrrl! |
| from mpeacock : |
| I just click on every once in a while and what a surprise to see you unlocked! Your daughter is gorgeous and I am so happy for you. Take care. :) |
| from flicka : |
| Your daughter is lovely!!! I'm glad that you unlocked as my memory is crap because of all the drugs I'm on (I'm bipolar too) and had trouble remember the password. |
| from bluemeany : |
| My iPod truly does wear a frowny face at times. I have no idea why. It displays a picture of an iPod wearing a frowny face, and underneath it gives the website for the support website. It goes away if you reset it a few times, though. Weeeird. |
| from biodtl : |
| That is a great picture of Jackie - her eyes are gorgeous! |
| from sallydallydo : |
| :) A psychiatrist said, sleep to a bipolar is like insulin to a diabetic. I'm sorry you missed out on some alone time, but it may have been a good thing! I am so happy that you have found a great guy. You deserve so much joy! |
| from poolagirl : |
| Writing is excellent therapy! Stay with Diaryland! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Long time no update...u ok? |
| from sallydallydo : |
| That is just absolutely fabulous. FABulous! |
| from biodtl : |
| Wow! Congratulation! I want to hear more about Dave. And the ring (post a pic, maybe?) Does Jackie know yet? I'm really happy for you and wish you all the happiness in the world! |
| from marlen816 : |
| Congratulations! |
| from seekingme : |
| Hi there, could I get your password to read your diary? Thanks. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| That's just awesome. And if anyone deserves all this awesomeness, it's you! |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Aaagh! Changed to Firefox and lost your password! Please please resend! |
| from tuckandsophi : |
| We love your hair! Poolagirl does too! It's a keeper! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| It is FINALLY time for you to have happiness in your life and to share it with a man is just a wonderful feeling!!! I am SO happy for you......... HUGS!!! Lisa |
| from marlen816 : |
| Happy for you and Dave. Love the blond-er hair =) |
| from biodtl : |
| Girl - you are looking absolutely gorgeous!!! |
| from poolagirl : |
| Thinking of you, sweetie. Sending you hugs. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| So glad to hear things are going great for you. congratulation on the weight loss, that is awesome!! |
| from ruachadonai : |
| Maybe I missed it, but what was the board's decision on the case? |
| from chicagojo : |
| What wonderful perspective. My thoughts are with you and your family. |
| from biodtl : |
| Aww, honey - I wish I were nearby, so I could give you a hug! |
| from sallydallydo : |
| 24 years later...you're an awesome person. I hope the next 24 years only get better and better and better! |
| from erianne1 : |
| Hon, I am so proud of you! You took control and took your power back. Good for you, chicklet, good for you. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| You go girl. You're a lot stronger than I could be. You did a great thing on befalf of those who have been victimized by evil. Staning up to it, is the only way to make it go away. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| You go girl! Just when I thought nothing could make me smile you did, I am so damn proud of you. I am excited for you that you had the courage to stand up and give the crime a voice. Thrilled that K got to hear what really happen and absoulty stocked that get to play a part in keeping that slimy rotten evil soul away from the rest of the world. God Bless and keep you X. Your my hero. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Good for you. I am glad that is over. |
| from chicagojo : |
| Wonderful work, Missy! Way to go! |
| from thedetails : |
| It seems to me, as I read your words, that the whole experience from Wednesday has sort of empowered you. I'm hoping that confronting him and seeing just how uncomfortable made him will help you to get past some of the stuff that happened because of him. I wish I could do more for you, more words seem empty and hollow after everything that has happened. ~hugs |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I am just so damn sorry you have to go read that. I want to get really pissed off for you and scream it's not fair that you have to, but I am so proud that your strong enough to do it. Use this to let out some anger and I hope you walk away feeling as powerful as we all know you are. |
| from thedetails : |
| I cried when I read that. On Wednesday my thoughts will be with you, and I'll be praying that your words are heard. |
| from biodtl : |
| My prayers will be with you on Wednesday. |
| from chicagojo : |
| Best of luck with the parole board. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Talk about your scary nightmares. Sounds like you have a lot of (to be expected and normal) anger about what happened to you. Now that you are a mother yourself, you are also worried about protecting your daughter from all the scary evils types in the world. Not that I'm qualified to really analyze dreams, but that's what comes to me off the top of my head. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| OMG- what a VERY scarey dream you had.....there must be an explanation for this....I don't think you are going to run from R.L........you will give him what he deserves, that is weird though......I will pray for you when you go on Wednesday, I love you. Lisa |
| from arianstar : |
| hey im on my space too, my name is Arian kemp or search my email [email protected],, YAY! new friends! |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) |
| from erianne1 : |
| I'm so sorry for your loss hon. Sending you good thoughts and hugs. |
| from chicagojo : |
| Im so sorry. |
| from biodtl : |
| I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt. *hugs* |
| from poolagirl : |
| I am thinking of you, sweetie. So sorry for your loss. |
| from dragprincess : |
| Honey, I'm so sorry about your loss. |
| from jackprague78 : |
| There's nothing I can say to make it better. But know that those of us with an interest in your life have you both in our hearts. Stay strong like we know you are. |
| from enfinenfin : |
| i wish i had a ghetto booty! Some girls have all the luck. i'd love to read your diary. Will you let me in? |
| from whinerwoman : |
| OMG!! Reading your entry about Jerry was exciting!! I feel a little sad that you never stayed in touch with such a sweet, handsome man........that just stinks that you 2 have lost touch with one another, but don't stop searching!!! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| OMG!! Reading your entry about Jerry was exciting!! I feel a little sad that you never stayed in touch with such a sweet, handsome man........that just stinks that you 2 have lost touch with one another, but don't stop searching!!! |
| from chicagojo : |
| On the other hand, be thankful that you only spent four hours with Jason. Better luck next time! |
| from thegrapevine : |
| Sorry Joe turned out to be a zero. What a weenie! I'd say that men suck, too, but I can't make that general a statement because I have three brothers that don't seem to suck. I just gotta find one I'm not related to! ;) Hehe. Happy St. Patrick's Day! |
| from bettyford : |
| if by "foxy", you mean "chubby" - then hell yeah! I am one FOXY momma. xoxoxoxxo |
| from whinerwoman : |
| And the batteries LAST ALOT longer than a man does!!!!!!!!!! I luv you big boo boo............ |
| from jackprague78 : |
| Thanks for the props. I won't sugar coat it - men do suck - I wouldn't even date myself. I have to wonder is it good or bad that there isn't a "machine" I can turn to in between women? I hope you have a lucky St. Pat's! |
| from jackprague78 : |
| Hey! I actually don't have a Yahoo messenger account - but feel free to e-mail me any time at [email protected]. I've been meaning to congratulate you on the piercings - it sounds like a good step. And I just printed out your latest entry, signed it, and sent it to my sister just in case. ;-) |
| from thegrapevine : |
| You're amazing! I would like to be as strong as you. I feel like I don't know how to let down my guard enough. That's probably why I meet so few people. I haven't found the willingness to take a chance, yet. But, you're inspiring! We have Il Vicino's here, too. They are fantastic. |
| from ruachadonai : |
| I think you are doing great with everything you are going through. :hugs: |
| from poolagirl : |
| 3/14/06 Good thing Jackie likes Joe. Very good thing! |
| from reese219 : |
| OH MY GOD! That song is fucking hilarious!I almost peed! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I LOVE the new song!!!! TOO FUNNY!!! SOO TRUE!!! |
| from thegrapevine : |
| Love the lists! Sounds like you've dated a few scoundrels and icky-types. Thanks for writing #15 on the "happy" list! I've been trying to find a way of saying just that for a long time. |
| from dragprincess : |
| Boy, you have a crush on me now, you should see me after I work out at the gym! Even I'm turned on! |
| from dragprincess : |
| Those are all great points -- my question is: who in the hell threatened to poop on your lawn? What kind of men are you associating with anyway? |
| from marlen816 : |
| Cool piercing! Happy Birthday Jackie! Love the matching shirts! |
| from dragprincess : |
| hot women with nose piercings turn me on..... |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I absolutely LOVE your nose piercing!!! You look SO sexy with your glasses and diamond stud.........MEOW.......now we need to go get tatoos together!!! Love Ya!! |
| from biodtl : |
| That was a wonderful entry. I'm so happy for you. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Good for you, Melissa. You are a brave woman. |
| from dragprincess : |
| Work it out, Miss Thing! Way to reclaim your body! |
| from linusthegirl : |
| Thank you so much for your kind words. They mean alot. I really, really want to write at my old diary more, but I can't find the words. Could you email me the password to your diary again? I can't find it! [email protected] Take care. |
| from chicagojo : |
| Could you please re-email me the password info? I got a new computer, so it's not in auto-fill anymore. Many thanks! chicago_jo at hotmail dot com |
| from poolagirl : |
| I don't understand about the text thing. I am doing very well (except for the unfortunate circumstance of not being able to read the diary and stuff). Could it be your browser? Everyone else can read just fine. It's a puzzle! |
| from ruachadonai : |
| Bravo. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Do you know how wonderful and beautiful you are to me?? I am SO proud of you for starting this path to recovery.......you AMAZE me and I am SO proud you are MY friend for life!!! You continue to STAY STRONG- HUGS and LOTS of LOVE, Lisa |
| from thegrapevine : |
| Wow! You're so strong, it's amazing. Good for you. Great for you! I have learned a lot by reading your entries. |
| from thedetails : |
| I wanted to write something here that would be supportive and let you know I am sympathetic to everything you are doing and going through right now. But I just can't think of the right words, so I'll just leave you a hug instead. ~Hugs |
| from erianne1 : |
| Good for you! |
| from marlen816 : |
| Your courage continues to amaze me. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| You are doing SO fabulous! You have got to be one of the strongest people I have ever encountered. Misplaced the password for a little while, SO glad to have found it!! |
| from jackprague78 : |
| thank you (blush). I'm always happy to hear when I can make you laugh. |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) You are an incredible woman with a tremendous amount of strength. I admire you for your courage to heal and cry for you because of what you went through, for why you have to heal. No one deserves what you went through, but I know you are going to come out of all of this even better than before - God makes beauty out of ashes. |
| from thegrapevine : |
| Hey. I've been away a long time at Diaryland. I liked your latest entry. I think I'm suffering a lot of the same things. Can you tell me more about that book you're using? |
| from artofliving : |
| i positively inhaled that entry. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| What ever "it" is, I'm sure your true friends will understand. We've all done things in the past that we are not proud of, but we've changed and aren't the same person we were back then. |
| from artofliving : |
| love. I'm back but i must have a password to get in and check on you!! the string of notes under mine are realllllllly worrying me. if you dont wanna leave it on my notes page, email me! [email protected] |
| from chicagojo : |
| I've got my fingers crossed for you. |
| from biodtl : |
| Oh Hon, I dn't know what "it" is, but it's never as bad as you think. And regardless, fuck other people and what they think. I'm praying for you. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Don't know what is going on, but you're in my prayers. ((Hugs)) |
| from chicagojo : |
| Thanks for the delurking comment today. I'd be interested in reading if you care to share the login information. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| To my DIVA- Ya know I LUV ya,did I ever tell you HOW beautiful you are?? IF I were to ever be lezzy..........you know I would want you.....BUT, for now I am sticking with Matthew!!!! SORRY, he is just to die for!!!! MMMMMM,BABY!!!! |
| from dragprincess : |
| Join the club...I want to marry George Clooney too. Ain't nothin' wrong with a hot little 3some! |
| from jackprague78 : |
| I'm back to the world of Diaries - what up? I don't suppose I could find out what's going on wit' chu'? - [email protected] |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I am SO proud of you for conquering your fears!!! I know you can do it...........I love ya girl!!!!! |
| from missspunk : |
| Thanks for the note. I would love to read your diary if you would give me the code. If not I understand the need for privacy. Anyways if you need or want to talk about any of the issues about gastric Bypass or if you have any questions what so ever please feel free to email me or ask me in the notes if you want. My email is [email protected] Keep smiling :) |
| from seekingme : |
| Hi, I saw that you added me to your list. Would you mind sending me your code so I can read you? Thanks. [email protected] |
| from amblus : |
| Ps. can you email me your secret unlock code? |
| from amblus : |
| Yeah, I've definitely been thinking about you, and what you went through, this week. I'm just stunned into sadness and dispair at the horrible things people are capable of doing - espcially to children. |
| from thedetails : |
| I got a new computer and can't seem to figure out what I did with your password, could you please, please send me another one? Send it to thedetails[at]diaryland.com ~ Thanks |
| from biodtl : |
| I know what you mean about not being alone, but you're not alone, anyway - you'll always have people who care about you and are here for you. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Hang in there, sweetie. I am thinking of you! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| MERRY CHRISTMAS 2005!!! |
| from bettyford : |
| also, could i get a password? please. |
| from bettyford : |
| i needed to hear something nice tonight. thank you. |
| from biodtl : |
| A candle has been lit. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| That is such a beautiful dedication to your mom!!! I lit a candle in her honor- she IS so very proud of you!!!! Love Ya- Lisa |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Wow! Don't let it kick back the demons. I felt em'. xxoo Jen |
| from marlen816 : |
| Wow. What an incredible entry. So glad Renee is okay. |
| from biodtl : |
| You should definitely call or write Target about that guy. Just because he's an employee doesn't mean that he isn't dangerous. And even worse is the employee's refusal to take you seriously. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| 150% with ya, girl. Very well written. I hope it gets featured big and noticed by all. |
| from dragprincess : |
| it's absolutely normal to be scared and excited when starting counseling -- that's a great sign, shows you really want to do the work. it ain't easy...but it's very rewarding. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| You post gave me chill bumps. It is really exciting that you are doing the counseling. I am proud of you. It feels really good when you get through the crap and look back to see how far you have come. I still think everyone should go. It is just as good for you as dental cleanings or GYN exams...why not? xxoo |
| from ruachadonai : |
| You are amazing. |
| from ingridwrites : |
| I have it. And I still read ~ when you write, that is ;) |
| from whinerwoman : |
| aahhh, yes i forgot to mention the mouth watering chocolate covered espresso beans.....they are divine and even hubby liked!!! welcome back to your journal,hot momma!!! love your bestest friend- lisa |
| from myexodus : |
| Thank you for adding me to your buddy list....I'm surprised I still have readers. Being half nuts makes it easier to face off with some of societies ugliest. I'd like to have entry to your diary, so here is my email: neurotic_one*removethis*@msn.com |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Some of the hardest work I have ever done has been in counseling. I am a much better person now because of it. I didn't realize how much crap I was carrying around with me. It also led to my developing a relationship with my mom again. I will always believe it is the best thing for a person to do for themselves and the people that love them. It is scary sometimes, but it feels so much better when you get it all out. Good job! I am glad you went. xxoo |
| from dragprincess : |
| honey, why am i not able to get into the diary??? did i lose half my brain cells and forget the password?? |
| from thedevlyn : |
| Thank you for the card, sorry I am locked out. Hope everything is beautiful in your world. Take care. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| It's called Dermatillomania, its related to trichtotillamania. It was only last year I discovered it had a name, much less that I'm not the only one who does it. I've been doing it since as long as I can remember. I used to wear long sleeves to hide the scars, and the blood stains. my mom and dad used to put me in mittens when I was little, but it didn't make a difference. I can stop for a while, but eventually its like I find myself doing it, and I'm not even aware of it. It's not something I like to talk much about |
| from r-y-r : |
| It is really good to hear you are feeling better. I hope you continue seeing this person who inspired the calmness and positiveness I am reading in todays entry. I just wanted to let you know I have Lisa's home addy and since i know you might not feel comfortable giving our your addy, I will be sending a christmas card to Lisa's for you. Hope you have a great holiday season. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Thank you sweetie. My grand parents are great. There is no law that says you have to update if you don't want to. If you have something to fill the pages, it will come. Doesn't mean somethings wrong, does it? xxoo Jen |
| from beauty-full : |
| Just wanted to say that I updated this beauty-full diary (finally?) and will be using purplebanana from now on to write about ALL aspects of my life, including my searching for truth. I'm going to stop ignoring it. |
| from thedevlyn : |
| i second that |
| from biodtl : |
| Hey - I'm locked out! I hope things are well. Let me know if/when I can get back in. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Chin up sweets. It's OK. I seem to write my best stuff when I am having a tough time. Keep on plugging. This is more for you than your readers anyway, isn't that what a diary is for? As far as locking your diary. With the amount of exposure you have from newspapers, etc., if I were in your shoes, I would keep it locked. I have realized also that I tend to censor my writing quite a bit because I know (through D-land)some people read it. It is harder for me to open up entirely and be completely forthcoming with the down and dirty when I know that just anyone can read it. I am considering locking mine too. Just my opinion. Have a great day today hon. xxoo Jen |
| from thecrankyone : |
| we must be on the same wavelength. Somedays taking a shower and getting out of the house are major accomplishments. My house usually looks like it was just delivered to OZ, no sooner do I get one room clean than the rest of it starts to look like it was picked up and shook. |
| from dragprincess : |
| i hear you...i too have bipolar disorder, but without the sudden extreme mood swings. it's more gradual, like you describe, but without meds, it's always elated or depressed...no inbetween. it's taken years to get the right meds and i still have bouts. the point of this note? just to say i get it, i understand, and it's just an ongoing fight to get what you need. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Great pictures!! They are gorgeous kids.. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Great pictures!! |
| from thedetails : |
| Adorable pictures. What a Great Idea. |
| from thedetails : |
| It isn't so much a case of not being believed, because I never told. It wasn't discussed. Up until yesterday I didn't even really remember what had happened. The only time my Mom asked about it was that one time, and all she wanted to know was what had happened with that one person. When I told her nothing she just dropped it. She never asked if anyone else had ever done anything, and I never volunteered. I think the message I got was that it was my fault and I would be the one punished for it. |
| from janie12975 : |
| Hey, got your note. May I have your password please? I would like to read you, if you don't mind. My e-mail is [email protected] |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I LOVE the titles you gave for the pics!!! You crack me up girl!!!!! Love Ya!!! |
| from biodtl : |
| I think it sucks that the article about the DNA neglected to mention that it had been done before to no avail. I'm sorry that your girl has been dealing with so much lately - I know that's your biggest concern and I hope things look up for you guys. As for your sister, I guess everyone has their own way of dealing with things, but she can't take your experiences away from you, nor your mother's memory. You can't please everyone and the issue that your sister has is her own. Do what is right for you and your daughter, no one else. And besides - domestic violence is not something to be embarrassed about. It's high time we all started talking about it and getting the stories out there, so other women can get help. |
| from reese219 : |
| Missy, please e-mail me. The 'idea' that you have, there are some things that I would like to tell you about it. My close friend is involved with the 'business' and there are some things I think you should know before you agree to anything like that. [email protected] |
| from thedetails : |
| When is this going to end, can't he just rot in jail with all the other criminals?? |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Is this good news or bad news? When did you and Kay spar on a blog? Hang in there kiddo |
| from dragprincess : |
| what an intense story. i wasn't pleased either -- that was some pretty bad writing -- but i hope you reach some sort of catharsis with this whole damn senseless tragedy and destruction. |
| from jultre : |
| Mel, its been so long since we talked. I read the newspaper at work and my jaw dropped, my life stopped for 45 mins while I read your story. We were close friends as teenagers, in highschool. To see your face on the front page.. the pain it it, it broke my heart. I remember riding in my car down hwy 70 and you showing me your childhood house and you telling me this story. And your pet rat. We lost touch when you were 17, I would love for you to email me seeing I have no other way than this to contact you. I look fwd to hearing from you. Sincerely, Julie T. [email protected] |
| from whinerwoman : |
| You have waited SOO long for this damn article to finally be printed and the stress you have been under along with your health,has been grueling to you,but putting all that aside you STILL continue to amaze me!! You are one of the strongest women I know and I am sooooo proud to be your best friend.....don't let your guard down for a second girl and keep your head up high!!!! Your your mother's angel and there are many reasons why your here.......I love you and you are in my prayers,my dear sweet friend!!! HUGS...... Lisa |
| from reese219 : |
| First, I would like to say kudos to you for staying strong through this whole ordeal. I admire your tremendous strength. As for that article,I am so angry about that journalist printing your user name. Not only is every wacko going to try and search out your diary, it was extremly insenstive!I really hate journalists that use people's lives to twist into their own sick little biased news stories.Just so they can make a buck!Haven't the families suffered enough without this moron's drivel? I am really sorry that something like that was printed about you and your family.Please don't let that idiot's ramblings get to you.You are a good person. It just makes me sad that they let anyone be a journalist and print whatever crap they want. The article was TOTALLY biased!It made me sick to my stomach.Stay strong girl! We love you. |
| from biodtl : |
| Wow. That wasn't biased, was it? Stay strong - there are people out here who believe in you. |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| punkrockdyke, amy, my pal. please leave me a note with your email address, okay? hugs! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I just read the article, I am sorry the reporter could not show more respect by not listing your user name (shame on him/her). My heart goes out to you that your not allowed to put this behind you. You are the strongest women I have ever known and I admire you deeply. I pray that they do test the DNA so that you and Kay both find some absolution in this. While I am sure the test results will hurt her deeply, in the end she apparently needs it to move on and accept his guilt. Your my own personal hero and your courage once again astound me. |
| from poopeyed : |
| Hello, I was following a link n some totally unrelated story, about a cop that was charged with sexual abuse, and ended up at the St Louis Post Dispatch. I read your story and then went to diaryland. I registered here for the sole purpose of reading your story. Can you clear me to your writings? Thank you, Christine |
| from evilkitty71 : |
| I just read that article and it made me cry. I will keep you in my prayers and hope they keep that man locked up so you and your family can always feel safe. Sorry u don't know me but i felt compelled to send a note to u because of that story. god bless you and your family. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Hello there. [email protected] I hope things are going your way. xxoo Jen |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Thank you for your prayers and making me feel special on your diary...........sometimes I just feel as if I am a pain to others........but I am SO glad that I have such a GREAT friend!!!! I hope you will be ready soon to be a "godmother"......to my future child........ Love ya!! Lisa |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Do you remember me? It has been a long time since I updated. 1 year and 2 days to be exact. How are things? Jen |
| from fight4fair : |
| Happy Birthday Missy. When was it? Your last entry just said sometime this week. I have been reading, just haven't felt like writing. I have been very depressed. I hope things turn out okay at work and with everything else. You really seem to be under a lot of stress lately. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and sending you good thoughts. |
| from biodtl : |
| Happy Birthday! I wish you happiness, money and a hot pool boy. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BESTEST FRIEND,WHOSE LIKE A SISTER TO MEEEEE......HAPPY BIRTHDAY-MI-EE!!!!! LOVE YA GIRL!!! LISA |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Hey sweetie I wanted to drop you a note to let you know I am thinking about you and praying for you. I know tommrow could be the day the artical comes out and regardless of what it says, or how it is written you are still a hero and pretty damn close to super women. I know things are rough right now but Please know your loved, admired, respected and adored by so many people. Your not alone, and God has not forgotten you (James 1:1-10) Big Hugs!!!! |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) Praying about your job..... |
| from pajamamama : |
| Hey Melissa - long time, no see! I'm sorry things are rough for you now. I know exactly what you mean. I've been feeling down for a couple of days now, too. Not sure why - the weather is beautiful, the Cards are in the playoffs (hehe) but for some reason, I can't get happy. I hope things are brighter for you soon! I've left dland - if you want to check out my new space, it's: http://www.myspace.com/midwestmom Hugs, Linda |
| from dragprincess : |
| it's tempting to become overwhelmed with everything crashing down at once....but missy, you have to take it one day at a time. stay in the moment. breathe. |
| from flicka : |
| My doctor never discussed that as an alternative to my meds. If it's new and/or expensive, that would be the reason (my meds are court ordered and paid for). |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I asked God to cut you a break, but instead you were over-looked!!! I am sorry to hear about Jackie not feeling well.....I don't think I will be exposed to the strep since we weren't around one another for too long.......I am going to say double prayers for you........ Love Ya!!! Lisa |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thanks for the note. It does help to know I'm not alone and that I have friends on my side. Know that you're in my thoughts and prayers as well. We'll both get through all this and be stronger people for it. |
| from flicka : |
| Thanks, I got in all right. Geez. You're going through a lot. Often, the bride's parents will pay for some of the things you were talking about (accommodations at least) and some other things as well. I'm sorry your family has been sick--that sucks. Maybe it'll stop raining cats and dogs and rain frogs instead ;) |
| from flicka : |
| What is Geodon? |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((hugs)) for you and yuor $$ woes and for Jackie to get better. It is such a vacuum when the kiddos are sick =( |
| from flicka : |
| I cannot get into your journal today. My email is [email protected] Would you remind me how to get into it. |
| from flicka : |
| klonopin-2 mg/daily trazadone-300 mg daily neurontin-600 mg daily lithium-1500 mg daily Wellbutrin-400 mg daily I am out of my mind half of the time. I think the drugs are actually causing me to hallucinate. I'm bipolar with psychotic episodes--and the "episodes", I believe, may be caused by taking all these drugs. I'm 5'7 and 100 lbs. I look awful--my metabolism is out of control and the drugs make it difficult to eat. I drink milkshakes and regular milk to get the calories, but I'm just on my last straw. I get so tired of people telling me to put on weight-even people who don't know me (supermarkets, workers in clothes shops, waiters, etc.). I know already! Sorry for the diatribe; I am still drugged from the clinical team who came yesterday (shot). Some asshole pounded on my door to wake me up. I'm going back to bed. I'm going to read your journal and head back to bed. Nice of you to let me ramble.... |
| from flicka : |
| hey, i accidently left a message for you on my notes..... sometimes i'm a bonehead!! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| What the hell was wrong with the paramedics. all chest pain should be treated as potentially life threatening. I'm glad you are okay and everything worked out. Take it easy, I hope you feel better soon. |
| from dragprincess : |
| INTENSE. now, go get some rest! |
| from thedetails : |
| I'm so glad that you caught it early so there isn't any hospitalization needed. Those paramedics were butt heads. If someone tells them they are on a medication that can give them troubles with their ticker they should just shut up and do what they are paid for. They are going to get paid no matter what, so what's it to them?? Feel better sweety. |
| from biodtl : |
| I'm glad you caught it early. I read about it in Lisa's journal, and was going to send you an email, so I'm relieved that you're doing OK. Get better! |
| from arianstar : |
| hey, i got your message, i haven't written in forever because i guess i just feel like my life isn't very exciting and all i ever do is whine,, i guess i need to write, it will help me get stuff off my mind. I'm still alive here! Thanks for thinking of me, your a sweetheart! |
| from flicka : |
| I need to read Angela's Ashes again. Thanks for putting that in as one of your fav's. When I throw megapitty parties for myself, I read that book, cry, and look at my life for what it is. There should be no crying in my life. I'm a wonderful disaster :) |
| from malthus : |
| I'm sorry to hear of your pain and loss also...thank you. Fortunatly, my mother survived the experience and went on to take us through more...few like that one though. |
| from biodtl : |
| I'm so glad to hear that your health is picking up. I am keeping my fingers crossed that all your medical tests turn out OK. And I swear, woman, if you ride around in the viking hat, you MUST post photos. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| My son takes Geodon, but he takes his at night as it tends to make him tired. (he currently takes 80mg/day) Zyprexa was a evil one, he didn't do good on that one at all. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Girl, the Z stuff is evil, EVIL I tell you, Son reacted badly from just one dose. Daughter had the G stuff for awhile (evened her out along with her thyroid meds until her thyroid began to function normally), worked well, but it would knock her out. No weight gain with it, either. Hope it works well for you! |
| from thedetails : |
| Thank-You for the note, sometimes it's nice to hear those simple little words. |
| from seekingme : |
| Hi, ran accross your diary from dragprincess's, would like to check it out. Can I have access? Thanks. [email protected]. |
| from imaphatpig : |
| http://dollywould.blogspot.com - like reruns only better |
| from malthus : |
| My note seems to have disappeared and I haven't heard from you, [email protected] |
| from flicka : |
| [email protected] I don't get why my diaryland email is no longer functional. It was at some time???? Some of the other functions I've not used because I'm not saavy with technology.....I'm sure there are 5-year-olds that do everything on this site.....I need their assistance! |
| from iluvsleeping : |
| Hey chica! Can I have a password to read you? You and I used to read each other....I had a different diary then. Found you through artofliving, who lives in Buloxi and for whom I'm terrified due to the hundreds of deaths there from the hurricane....you can email me at [email protected] and I'll tell you my OLD diary name.... |
| from flicka : |
| I am not a stalker, but would like to read about your life. I'm 30 (turned in July 6), love Drew Barrymore (really, I had my dorm room covered in drew), and I liked your comments to the bipolar mom (Gavin and Damien). You read a lot! or have a LOT of fans. take care, Felicia |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Momma- I just wanted to "THANK YOU" for being my best friend and making my birthday so VERY special......you are a lovely woman and everything,from the gifts to the singing and cake at O'Charley's was wonderful....and the card you gave me brought me to tears......i could never thank you enough!!!! You are a WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND and I LOVE YOU!!!! H*U*G*S...... Lisa |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Momma- I just wanted to "THANK YOU" for being my best friend and making my birthday so VERY special......you are a lovely woman and everything,from the gifts to the singing and cake at O'Charley's was wonderful....and the card you gave me brought me to tears......i could never thank you enough!!!! You are a WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND and I LOVE YOU!!!! H*U*G*S...... Lisa |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I'm so sorry for the pain your mother has brought you.......it's really sad how our mother's have treated us.....it hurts.....but you and I can move on and stay strong with each other's support.....you know I care deeply for you and I love ya girl!!!! Lisa |
| from biodtl : |
| Aww, honey, I wish i could give you a big hug. I know I could never understand your whole situation, but I know what it's like to have a mom that seems to despise you all the time. I know what it's like to keep taking shit from someone that you would punch anyone else for, simply because she is your mom and you want nothing more than her love and approval. And I know that no matter how easy it is for your mind to say that it's her problem, your heart stays broken. I know it doesn't make things better, but I hope that knowing you aren't alone and knowing that you've got a lot of people that care about you helps a little. |
| from thedetails : |
| Dear God, how much more crap has to fall into your life? I wished that we lived near each other so I could lend you a hand whenever you needed it. I lived through terrible neck pain, a mystery illness and a never had any support through it all. Everyone I knew didn't have any time to help me out, but they all sure had time to complain about the state of my house. What is it with folks and passing judgment? My Mother in law had terrible problems with keeping her house clean, and instead of saying to her that her house was a sty I just went over and helped her whenever I could. If you can't be part of the solution, then shut your fat mouth! That's what I always say! ~hugs |
| from sassyfras : |
| Thank you for sending me a note!!! I lost all my contacts and had to put them back on. I couldn't find you - I think the grrl messed me up, lol. I know I've forgotten people, but I'm glad you didn't forget me!! |
| from dragprincess : |
| wow. that's some insane hetero drama you've got down there. |
| from thedetails : |
| Hang Tough |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I think its been awhile since I told you how much I adore you, how much you inspire me and that you are my hero. I really should tell you that as often as I think it, but I hate to clog your notes with all wmm;s. Ya know one good thing about being in prison, there are lots of oppertunities to get what is comeing to you - those on the out side may never hear about how many times one was raped with the end of pluger but that does not mean it dosnt happen. I am sure to some it happens more than to others, even in jail child rapest are thought of as the worst of the worst - they may not get all thats coming to them at once, but I have no doubt what so ever they get it - and often. Just food for thought. Love ya! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| When I was that age, I had two friends like that. We changed our alligiances more than our mothers made us change our underwear. But when we got to Jr/sr hi we stopped hanging out all together and I haven't seen them since graduation day in 1987. Can't say I really miss them or the daily drama either, but I was limited in my choice of friends, and was lonely and just wanted someone to hang with so I put up with more crap than I deserved or would tolerate today, as an adult. |
| from dragprincess : |
| so then when are you coming over to the dark side??? |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Hey girl! FIL had that REM disorder. He and MIL had to sleep in separate beds because he acted out his dreams fully, fighting or running or whatever. Hope the meds help! Oh yeah, I hope that guy drops the soap. Repeatedly. And has lots of enemies in there... |
| from m0nique : |
| May i read ? - Totaly random. You were listed as a fav on a diary whos banner add i clicked on ?. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Go to the web page of the prison he is at and fill out a "victims notification form" . You will never miss being informed of a hearing again. More than likely you will also find victims resources that will help. I agree with the lady on the phone - Your remarkable! |
| from thedetails : |
| You hang in there. I can't believe that anyone out there would even give that creature the time of day, let alone listen to his bull. And he is a creature. He's not a man, he's not an animal. To call him that would be an insult to all animals out there. |
| from thedetails : |
| I looked through my closets and it seems like I had done that before, because everything that is too small for the kids has now suddenly gone somewhere else. Sorry. I really wanted to help. |
| from fight4fair : |
| Thank you for the note. It helps to get support from someone who has gone through similiar tragedy in their life. I am so sorry to hear about your sister and her kids. It just seems like one tragedy after another hits your family, much like my own. if you email me your mailing address, I will see what I can do about getting some clothes for your nieces and possibly your nephew and sister too. |
| from marlen816 : |
| You and Jackie look so much alike! Glad she is home safely. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I can't get over HOW much Jackie looks like you!!! Not only do we have 1 diva, we have yet another in training........I love you guys!!! HUGS!!!! Lisa |
| from biodtl : |
| The old photo of your mom is lovely. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Your little one is so cute! And you are such a good mom. Blessings from all the pie rats in San Diego. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I was just tonight able to get back into your diary (due to some changes to my computer) and was so sad to read your last entry. I wish there was something I could do to help, but all I can do at this point is offer prayers for your sister and her kids. I will keep them in my thoughts and ask the others here to do the same. |
| from taken-by-you : |
| I sent you a message via email...it says everything, really... Thank you for being so wonderfully kind and supportive to me! It is always a blessing to have strong women standing beside me! |
| from thedetails : |
| I'm going to go through my kids closets and see what I can do about finding some clothes for your neice and nephew. It's terrible when tradgic events cause good people to suffer. I hope that I can help you. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Did you lock up the entry today? I can't seem to get into your diary...it isn't even asking me for a password or anything now. :( |
| from thecrankyone : |
| You're welcome. I know what you mean..sadly most child molesters act like regular people and blend in, usually gaining the child's trust before trying something, which makes it harder for the child to stand up. The best we can do is teach them what is not appropriate and how to speak up, and to also make sure they know they can come to us at anytime for anything. Scary world |
| from thecrankyone : |
| you might want to check the code for you link to your notes. I've noticed when I click on it, instead of getting user=xnavygirl, I get user=%%xnavygirl%%. I'll say a prayer for you niece...yikes...I'd be going balistic if someone had done that to my son. Like you I've been talking about good touch bad touch, strangers etc since he was about 3. At least now he is big and strong enough to give any would be attacker a run for his money. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| You're an awesome friend. Sometimes I pick my nose and think of you... |
| from dragprincess : |
| missy, please email me at [email protected]. i need your address, if that's okay. abby |
| from thecrankyone : |
| I'm really sorry to hear about your coworker. I know the feeling of wanting to end it all, but having Warren has kept me here so far. As much as I've wanted to see WOTW, I've refused so far on principal, I refuse to see any money of mine go to support his fellow uneducated propoganda cult members, in thier crusade against psychiatry. Walk a mile in my shoes Tom than maybe we'll talk. Until I've lost all of what little respect I've had for him. |
| from fight4fair : |
| I am sorry to hear about your troubles at work but it sounds like you are getting things under control now. I hope it all works out. I updated. Email me please. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| This is going to make me look stupid, but I accidentally got a little clean happy on my computer and lost the username and password for your diary. Could you resend to [email protected] |
| from thedetails : |
| My husband was working on my system, new hard drive, new monitor and no passwords any where to be found. Everything I saved on my old hard drive is still on the old hard drive.. Aargh. Could you please send me the username and password once again to clutter_clearATyahoo.ca Thanks. |
| from autumnal : |
| i'd love to have a password. nice to meet you. i am terribly sorry for your loss... and also sorry you have to lock your diary because there are some bastard losers out there in the world. i wish you good things. glad to see you dig abfab, too... |
| from erianne1 : |
| Just out of curiosity...what manic Tom Cruise behavior do you keep referring to? |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Not bipolar. Maybe cyclothemic (similar, without the HUGE extremes). It will be OK, sweetie, it really will. Being in limbo over something is HARD and depressing, because you're out of control. Right now, you're in limbo about your job and finances AND having to trust someone else with your daughter. I hope you hear something soon. {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} |
| from deadpassive : |
| can I have a password please? [email protected] |
| from thedetails : |
| It's so terrible to see a father that doesn't seem to give a crap when it comes to their child? Why is this becoming the norm in this world? A man gets divorced and sees his child support as "going to the mother" and not to his child. He can't seem to separate his child from the mother. To him they are connected and he punishes the child to punish the mother. I'm sick of seeing this. And as far as your daughter's asthma and her other medical concerns, if things don't improve I'd let him know that if it's dangerous to her health to visit him, then perhaps she just shouldn't go. I know that your daughter wants to see her Dad, but I think she'd like to keep living as well. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Prayers offered. ((Hugs)) |
| from biodtl : |
| It sounds like you are making progress. The fact that you are doing something should weigh heavily in your favor. Keep your chin up, because you're getting it worked out and when Jackie comes back, you'll be thirlled to see her and even moreso knowing you have eliminated a lot of the stress. |
| from treesssa : |
| Hi, Good vibes coming your way! I don't know the extent of your debt but have you thought about consolidating? I think the consolidation companies charge high interest, but if they went and took care of your debt for you now , this might get your employer off your back temporarily. You would just have to deal with the consolidation company instead of seperate comapnies. Just a thought. I hope you get it worked out. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Hang in there, kiddo. You are in my thoughts and prayers. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| My ex is an idiot like that too. He hardly spends anytime with Warren and yet he judges all my decisions and then when he finally does spend time with Warren he gets mad that Warren won't treat him like father of the year.. and he blames me, instead of himself for not being there.. MEN!! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| hey you!! i agree with finding you a new layout.....your page seems "dark" and it doesn't fit you....you are beautiful and i wish i could find you a new tempplate....anyway, i hope your feeling better today and i am thinking about you!! I had a great time this weekend!! LOVE YA!! Lisa |
| from thecrankyone : |
| I'm really sorry to hear about your friend. But these days a person can carry HIV for years without developing AIDS, and there are many more treatment options than there used to be. He has many options. My prayers will be with your friend and his loved ones. |
| from dragprincess : |
| i have a lot of friends who are positive and yes, it's horrible and very worrying, but please know that it's not a death sentence like it used to be. i'm hoping your friend can get decent healthcare - there are lots of benefits for those who are positive, including housing and medication. you can certainly help him by doing research and helping to guide him to those programs. |
| from poolagirl : |
| What an amazing entry! |
| from biodtl : |
| Me again. I emailed you, but thought I'd let you know just in case your email addrsss is not current. If it's not, drop me a line. |
| from stillagirl : |
| hey! i moved the diary to stillagirl at diaryland:o) (arealwoman) |
| from biodtl : |
| I don't blame you a bit. I would be furious if someone else decided to have my child baptized! When I was in jr. high, some friends went on a trip with their dance class and the leader was born-again, or something like that. She took them to a big reveval type thing and made them get "saved". The parents were rightfully pissed. |
| from treesssa : |
| Aw sweetie. Don't be so hard on yourself. We all fall into that trap. I don't think I know one person that hasn't written a bad check or fallen on hard times because they underbudget. I'm guilty of it. We all are.Good luck to you and I hope things work out. |
| from dragprincess : |
| good for you for telling on yourself. i'm also now dealing with my financial wreckage -- no credit left, cards all maxed out and cut up. the good thing is: you can rebuild. and you can make amends, which is good. put the bat down. you're human. not perfect. and you can change. |
| from pajamamama : |
| I too, have knowingly written bad checks. I've maxed out credit cards buying things I neither wanted, nor needed - all in an attempt to make myself feel better. To feel like a normal person who can afford things. Shopping can be comforting that way. You're not alone, so please don't beat yourself up. I wish there was a way I could help. If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me. Take care, big (((HUGS))) to you. ~Linda |
| from poolagirl : |
| Hey kiddo - You have an ear here on Diaryland. We love you and will support you through these times. I am holding you and Jackie in my heart, knowing that your path is unfolding in a beautiful and loving way. Blessings. |
| from biodtl : |
| That's America - land of kicking you when you're down. Why don't these people understand that firing you will mean you'll never get the bills paid? This is ridiculous! |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) |
| from thedevlyn : |
| email me. |
| from dragprincess : |
| what? why? this makes no sense. if that's the kind of place you work, then my suggestion is find somewhere that has a kinder and gentler and more humane attitude. i've never heard of such craziness..... |
| from ingridwrites : |
| ((hugs)) |
| from thedetails : |
| Thanks so much for letting me read your diary. I have to say that I admire your strength and courage, you really are a very powerful person. |
| from biodtl : |
| Bra shopping is the activity of the damned for us "busty" girls. And I feel your pain on the expensive clothes. As for your mom and her comment to you, I am so sorry you were made to feel bad. It sucks and there's no excuse for it. And I understand how you can love someone even when they make you feel that way. I deal with it too. Keep your chin up. As for books, I know you don't have a lot of time, but I can send you some books (I buy way too many) if you want to go reading crazy while the girl is away. Let me know. |
| from thedetails : |
| Came here via Erlenweg6's notes, you sound like a very strong and courageous woman and I would love to read your diary sometime. From your profile it seems that we might have some view points in common. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Good vibes from that guy? It's gotta be the shirt. Who can refuse a guy in a Hawaiian shirt? |
| from fight4fair : |
| Mission accomplished? |
| from sunshine0221 : |
| I don't think barbeque causes migraines, unless there were sulfites in the sauce or something. For me it's hormones, stress, or not getting enough sleep that does it. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| DAMN girl! What a survivor! Tell your girl to kick some boy butt, courtesy of my daughter. She got picked on a lot, too. |
| from sallydallydo : |
| Hey, thanks for adding me as a favorite! I'd love to read your diary sometime. You sound like a very courageous and kick arse kind of person, you go girl! |
| from irisheyes70 : |
| Thanks for adding me as a favorite! I'm sorry someone is reading your diary that has no business. That stinks. Because selfishly, I'd like to get to know you. :) And of course because it's pretty sick. Hang in there, girl~! |
| from thegrapevine : |
| Sorry to hear someone's being a pain in the ass. Why people feel the need to torment people who like to write is beyond me. Anyway, good luck on your mission and come back soon! |
| from fight4fair : |
| You go, girl! Go kick some bad guy butt, Missy! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Its almost been 24 hours and I just wanted you to know I am still hating this! : ) |
| from artofliving : |
| ohhhhh....kitty cat!!! what happened?! is everythin ok?? do i need to start some shit?? lurve you |
| from sunshine0221 : |
| Thanks for the note! Come back soon:) |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I am sure I dont even need to write this for you to know how much I will miss you. I hate this! I hate them and karma will get his payback. Please stay in touch and know that I am keeping you in my prayers and that I love you. a million hugs from a million miles away. Peace be with you. |
| from fight4fair : |
| That really sucks! Don't forget to email once in a while and let me know how you are. I am thinking about you. Stay strong and remember the good guys DO WIN sometimes. Don't let them get you down. ((((hugs)))) |
| from thedevlyn : |
| hmmm, dl is not getting your email it seems. |
| from treesssa : |
| I'm sorry that you have to lock up your diary because of some scum bag piece of shit. There is always one person that ruins it for everyone. Don't worry, karma will get this person good!What goes around comes around.Good Luck to you and I will miss reading you!((((HUGS))) |
| from pajamamama : |
| "What 30-year-old woman cries for her mom who�s been gone 23 years?" A normal one. I loving one who's a wonderful mom to her own little girl. My mom is my best friend and when she dies, I can't even imagine the grief I'll feel. I cry just thinking about it and try to cherish the time I have with her. I can't imagine how you get up everyday knowing, not only that your mother is gone, but knowing and remembering how violently she died. You are so strong, it's unbelievable. I don't think I could handle it. Take care, hon. (((MISSY))) |
| from dragprincess : |
| you have the right to cry over the loss of your mom 23 years after the fact, 33 years after the fact, whenever you need to. you don't need me to tell you that. grieving is a life-long process. |
| from treesssa : |
| Hey I forgot about the stats thingy on my membership!Thanks for reminding me. I usually just look at the IP address and not the referer.I can't believe someone is trying to find your diary again! Are they stupid! Gawd, people piss me off! |
| from sunshine0221 : |
| Hey your Lush link didn't work, but I know about Lush's website. If I even started shopping online, I would never stop and end up homeless and selling my body for Karma soap. And it would be all your fault! Also, would love password to your journal if you feel comfortable giving it. |
| from treesssa : |
| Hey, you mentioned in a couple of your entries that you saw that someone was googling you.How can you tell?I wan to know if someone googles me!Haha! |
| from deardevlyn : |
| Thanks again for pimpin me out. |
| from arealwoman : |
| i've been reading you, started on page one:o) all i can say so far is, you are amazing! |
| from thedevlyn : |
| Hmmm, all the pages are working fine at deardevlyn, try reloading perhaps. Might be stuck in your browsers cache or something. Then again, it is diaryland, one never knows. |
| from arealwoman : |
| thanks for the note you left me. i tried to read your diary but you're locked:o( |
| from nimiiwin : |
| You found someone sick? All I ever find is teenage drivel. Man. I'd prefer sick, I think. |
| from artofliving : |
| hahahah! you bet, kitty-cat. |
| from ingridwrites : |
| Your hair is stripey like mine! ;) It looks good!!! |
| from ingridwrites : |
| Ouch! That is a hefty price for a ticket! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Happy Mothers Day |
| from artofliving : |
| hey sweet girl!! I miss you more than you know! Everything has been okay i guess...considering the split with Todd has gotten crazy bloody but we expected it to. I'm either shutting the diary down soon or just moving it to locked. If i do I'll let you know. Thanks for the note, it totally made my day! <3 |
| from jackprague78 : |
| Wow, I guess I'm not the only one - I was certain I'd be off for my potty mouth. On the other hand, I think I'll be more careful, and try to update more regularly. Yes, and a happy soon to be mothers day too! |
| from biodtl : |
| When I read about the cursing thing, I cracked up, because I figured I'm probably setting off all kinds of red flags with my trash mouth! I hope your money dream comes true. Have a great Mother's Day. |
| from purplebanana : |
| Thanks for the note. It's made me stop and think about why exactly I haven't updated the other diary, and how that might be a reflection on what's going on for me spiritually. I feel full up (in a good, happy way), but also sort of blank when it comes to labelling that or even knowing how to describe it. Thanks for making me think!!! |
| from tuckandsophi : |
| Yup. You're right. You gotta stay tough with kids or they will have a field day with you. Good luck with your little one. |
| from not-tuesday : |
| My dad is a trip, a crazy nightmare trip. And I do hate when no one notices my hair. There I was thinking I look all hot and nobody but me cared. By the way, I would have totally noticed your new highlights. I would have complimented you until you were sick of it. I'm just that kind of person. |
| from nimiiwin : |
| You're welcome. And thanks for the sweet note. I appreciate it. |
| from erlenweg6 : |
| Oh, I am so sorry...I thought I had given you the password! If you are still interested, please e-mail erlenweg6 AT yahoo dot com. Also, I'd love to get your password, if that is okay.... |
| from treesssa : |
| Nope, don't change a damn thing.Don't let anyone guilt you into changing. Fuck that!Girl, i hope you find your friend safe.Can you do a people search or have mutal friends that might know where he is hiding out?Goodluck! |
| from fight4fair : |
| What is sweeps week? Is this article being told from your perspective at all or just the other side? If not, tell us when it is being published and in what paper so we can write a letter to the editor telling them what a crock it is that they would print a story that re-victimizes a victim of a horrible crime. That just makes me sick. And don't ever censor yourself for those idiots. If they want to believe claims from mentally deranged people, let them. Your friends know who is speaking the facts. Sending you good wishes. |
| from biodtl : |
| I say fuck worrying about offending anyone. You have a right to your feelings and your words and it's YOUR diary. If you want to talk about "offending" - what offends me is all the boohoo-ing and not fair-ing by criminals, without regard to the victims. That offends me. Don't let anyone change you. |
| from taken-by-you : |
| Your gratitude was fully expressed in your email, and I will certainly refuse retribution! It's like in 'Pay It Forward' - but not limited to three. You are a wonderful woman, and I know that you have touched many lives and helped many people, this is just YOUR karma coming BACK to you. :) I am writing a real letter to you! (I AM SO SLOW!) :) You're in my thoughts! -Always- Lisa. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| My heart is with you today and ALL week!!! I know I called you to tell you that I love you and thinking about you, but I also wanted to share my happiness in having you as my friend!! You are a true inspiration to me!!!! Your mother would be SO proud of how beautiful you are and how caring of heart you have for others......:0) I love you- Lisa |
| from erianne1 : |
| Big hug, hon. I literally feel your pain. I've spent a few days in the past week crying over missing my mom. Chin up, chiquita. |
| from fight4fair : |
| Missy, I am sending you warm hugs and good wishes. I can honestly say "I Know How You Feel" today. I have been through this very same anniversary ordeal every year for 20 years. I just want to tell you to hang in there. It will be okay. I must say you are handling it very well, much better than I do. I completely fall apart and stop functioning every year on December 20th. You are such a strong and courageous person. You are a true inspiration to so many people. Please don't ever stop writing or talking about what happened to you and your family. It gives others the courage to go on and you know how important it is to have an outlet for these emotions. Anyone who is tired of reading about it can choose not to. This is YOUR diary, your world. Stay strong and know that there are people who love you and people who care. Thanks to you and your efforts, your mom will never be forgotten. She is known in death by people she may have never known in life, all because of you. |
| from pajamamama : |
| (((HUGS))) to you on this difficult anniversary. And I for one am NOT tired of reading about it. I think what you've come through is amazing and I commend your strength. I hope you can find some happiness today. Take care, sweetie... |
| from biodtl : |
| First of all, we are not sick of hearing it, second af all, even if we were, it would be tough shit for us, because this is YOUR journal. Anything that helps you get through it is fine by me. I'm thinking of you and hope you have an easy week. Love and hugs. |
| from r-y-r : |
| I just wanted to let you know you will be in my prayers and thoughts. Most likely you will always feel like this, the only thing that may make you feel better is for you to know that you count with many people here on DL and with that thought, you know you can talk to me whenever you like. |
| from ingridwrites : |
| (((hugs))) |
| from dragprincess : |
| an unbelievable story -- and sad. but i'm so glad you still have hope. hope is a wonderful feeling to have....and helps with the healing. |
| from nimiiwin : |
| You're in my prayers, girl. I'm sorry. May 3 is my grandmother's birthday. She was my only protector, my only cheerleader and the only one who cared about *me* not appearances. She died 22 years ago when I was 16 and I've never gotten over it. She was only 57 and WAY too young. Death is never easy but it's so much harder, I think, when it's unexpected or violent or the person is young. I'm sorry for your losses. |
| from not-tuesday : |
| Thanks. It's very spring like and pink and fabulous. I like it too. |
| from biodtl : |
| That is so fucked up!! It's not even my kids' school and yet even I want to call them and bitch at them about it! |
| from marlen816 : |
| Wow! That is just insane! I can not believe they did that - videotaping kiddos on the playground without the school's knowledge. Yikes! That is scary! |
| from rrs1005 : |
| yes thank you I still have the password, sorry again for alarming you. Dont worry about being paranoid I think you have earned that right ;} have a great day |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thank you, hon...for both the thought and the compliment! *hug* |
| from pajamamama : |
| I agree. What's worse is Cooey told the state of Florida he was a danger to society and to please not release him, because he WOULD strike again. This was in 1991. Check out: http://www.mshp.dps.missouri.gov/MSHPWeb/PatrolDivisions/CRID/SOR/SORPage.html ...to see the registered sex offenders in your neighborhood - it's downright shocking. I have two within a quarter mile from me! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| more than 20 times!!!??? Not a bad kid??!!! Yes dear she is on crack! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Our friendship is as I say in ONE word: PRICELESS!!! Thank you for all those sweet caring words.......we were meant to be friends FOREVER!!!!! I am SO happy to have you in my life,had I only wished to have met you a LONG time ago!!!! We stick together...........through good times and bad. HUGS!!!! |
| from taken-by-you : |
| Do you check your email posted on your diary? The specifics should have gone there... |
| from taken-by-you : |
| Just so you know...my present should get to you on/shortly after the 19th. :) Take care, hon. |
| from allykitty5 : |
| hi there, i saw your note in prncsaimee's diary, and was curious to read yours. if you want to give me the pw, my email is on my diary. thanks! :) |
| from pajamamama : |
| I wish we lived closer - I'd be happy to watch Jackie this summer! I'm glad I'm not the only one $300 in the red come payday. It happens every month here! It SUCKS! |
| from nimiiwin : |
| y'know, it's a good thing you did leave me a note. I "cleaned house" a while ago and deleted some people from my buddy list who I didn't like reading as much ... and somehow got you! I'm addin' you back. Thanks for the note. |
| from fight4fair : |
| I am very happy that things went so well for you yesterday. I wanted to go, but my mom didn't want to go with me, and I am not familiar enough with St. Louis to go driving around by myself. And from what you said about traffic problems, I would have been a basket case! All I did all weekend was stay in the house. I just can't seem to get out of this funk. I wish I felt more alive, but I just don't. Did you say that you did an interview with a reporter? When will that air? I would love to try to see it. I am sorry I didn't make it there to see you in person. I am sure your mom was very proud as she looked down on you. You are such a strong person, I am constantly in awe. Keep in touch. |
| from thegrapevine : |
| I was looking at your profile to see where you live and I noticed your comment about Dean Koontz and it made me laugh. I love him, too, but I have the same complaint that he spends so much time building up his stories only to have really bizarre, short and not-so-meaningful endings sometimes. So, where do you live? I read about your mile long trek to your speach yesterday and was jealous. I'm snowed in today! I'm glad it went well for you. I've never given a speach like that, but have been the victim of a crime. Hope your feet don't hurt too much today! Peace |
| from poolagirl : |
| Hey you. Congratulations on a winning day yesterday. I am proud of you. The world needs more people like you! |
| from sassyfras : |
| I'm slowly trying to catch up on everyone's diary and then found yours locked!! I'm sorry you have to deal with that on top of everything else. I'm with you - I can't imagine defending a pyschopath, relative or not. Take care of yourself!! |
| from rrs1005 : |
| I am sorry about not writing Hi the first time you inquired about the UTM webpage. I am the quilty one. My sister attends here and I drive from Gardner to use the computers in the Lib. I usually dont have time to write alot Hence my lack of journal entries :) Sorry :} |
| from mpeacock : |
| your password is peacock. Take care. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I think applause is appropriate at this point. Excellent work hon! |
| from tuckandsophi : |
| You are so right! The show tunes thing SUCKED on American Idol! Nobody sang a song from the Lion King! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| {{{ but I found myself marveling at my strength}} Join the club, the rest of us stand in marvel of your strength daily! I am soooooooo proud of you! Ironc, you found a glimpse of the women I look up to, in the child that she was. |
| from fight4fair : |
| That poem is absolutely beautiful. Did you write it? If so, mind if I copy it? I would like to put it in a Mother's Day card for my mom. |
| from fight4fair : |
| That sounds very interesting. I have not been to anything like that. I am not making any promises because I don't know if I can make it or if I am even ready to do something like that, but email me the details. |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Thanks for the note. Youdon't know how much i needed that today. For some reason my mood has been swinging like crazy today - must be the I'm ovulating. Anyway, thanks for the reminder that I am fun and fearless and I have come so far. Thanks so much. Hope you are doing well on your end! Much love, Andrea |
| from fight4fair : |
| I just went back and read your entries for the past several days. The pics are great! You and Jackie are both beautiful. Even though the coloring is so different, you can really see the resemblance between the two of you in that picture of you and Jackie at her B-day party. Also, I really think you should pursue that thing you mentioned about your life story. I am sure it would be wonderful. You are such an eloquent writer. |
| from jackprague78 : |
| I'm updateing more regularly again - I swear! But more than that, I find myself locked out of a certain diary, If you find me worthy, my e-mail is [email protected]... |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thanks for being so mondoly excited and supportive about my ideas today! And I'm glad you found something in there that spoke to you. :) Thanks for the pics...awesome chickie! |
| from pajamamama : |
| Not only that, Seal thinks of Heidi's daughter as his own and loves her to pieces! Can you imagine how gorgeous their child will be?! He's so beautiful. Thanks for your nice note today! I enjoyed seeing your pictures - it's always good to put a face with the names! You and your daughter are beautiful! ~Linda |
| from r-y-r : |
| I just thought I would let you know I really enjoyed seeing pics of you and Jackie, you are both beautiful. I was wondering how you got your pics on your diary, I am not a gold memeber, and have been wondering how you do that. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Your beautiful as I knew you would be. Darling Children. You know you always have the optoin to fight back just as hard. YOU can take it to the press first and hit hard. You do not have to take this lying down anymore. I am praying strength and courage for you like no women has ever known. God be with you always! |
| from biodtl : |
| She IS beautiful! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Wasn't it wonderful to see your Grandma again?? I knew she would come to you....in your dreams........hope you had fun yesterday!! Love Ya!! |
| from poolagirl : |
| Your daughter is such a cutie! |
| from not-tuesday : |
| I and all of her friends constantly tell her to take it seriously and she just won't. She has this way of ignoring everything, thinking she can handle and she can't. I don't know what else to do. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Cripes! I got a new computer and I can't seem to access my old hard drive with ALL my data. Can you please email me again with your diary code and password? Sorry for the inconvenience! [email protected] |
| from ingridwrites : |
| baci per voi (all one word) AT gmail |
| from ingridwrites : |
| I LOVE the Goonies too! Thank you for adding me. Want to share your password? |
| from thecrankyone : |
| I'm sorry I haven't been here for so long, thanks for letting me have the password. I just want to send my condolences on the loss of your grandmother. Losing a loved one is never easy, but eventually it does become livable. ((hugs))) |
| from treesssa : |
| Missy, my heartfelt condolences are with you. You are an incredibly strong woman. Your daughter is so lucky to have you. I admire you in so many ways. You are a true inspiration to us all. I have faith that good things will come to you and your family. Don't ever lose your spunk! I have faith that you will overcome anything (and anyone) whom tries to be deceitful and hurt you and your family. It is totally true that when someone lies or hurts intentionally, it will come back to him or her 10-fold. All your diaryland friends support you and love you. |
| from cactustree : |
| missy, when i saw your note to me about hothead's banner, i laughed and laughed. not because i thought it was funny, and i certainly don't think it's 100% about me, but because it reaffirmed something that i've been coming to for a long time: my blog needs to end. i'm letting in a lot of negative energy and it's not good for me in recovery. don't worry, i'm not shutting down because of this! it was just another sign that it's time to close up and move on. you are very sweet and i appreciate your concern..... |
| from whinerwoman : |
| You GO!!! You should become a Vicim's Advocate spokeswoman....seriously!!! I love you!!! |
| from fight4fair : |
| As so many times before, your story made me cry. You are a powerful writer. You should pursue doing some professional writing. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Huzzah for the changes to the profile! *snicker* May the snark be with you..muhahaha! |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| There is not enough money in the world that someone could offer me to do that... Take care of yourself, I am thinking of you... ((hugs)) |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Sending you LOTS of HUGS and prayers during this time of loss. I know how much your grandma meant to you and the pain of losing her really sucks!! Remember, now she is an angel and she is going to watch over you,along with your own Mom. I am here if you ever need to talk. All My Love- Lisa |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) and I will be praying for you. |
| from biodtl : |
| Be strong. For every jackass, there's someone who supports and respects you. |
| from taken-by-you : |
| Thank you for the wonderful notes you've left me! Please email me your password so I can read you, too! [email protected] |
| from amblus : |
| Oh! I was just catching up on my reading and couldn't get in to your journal, but now I see from your notes that you lost your grandmother. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs))and prayers for comfort during this time. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| (((((Missy)))) |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| Missy.. no words, just love for you and yours. |
| from pajamamama : |
| Oh Melissa, I'm so sorry about your grandmother. I hope it's peaceful and beautiful where she's flying! (((HUGS))) |
| from fight4fair : |
| Oh, Missy I am so very sorry for your loss. It is obvious from your entries how much she meant to you and how close the two of you were. If there is anything I can do to help you through this terrible time, please let me know. |
| from r-y-r : |
| I just wanted to let you know I am so sorry for your loss. It is inspiring to see what a strong person you are, I am sure your grandma would be very proud of you. If you ever need to vent or talk, feel free to email me. |
| from biodtl : |
| I'm so srry about your grandma. I have been lucky enough to have grandparents and great-grandparents and I was close to all of them like you were to your grandma. I know how hard it is to lose them. Keep those good memories with you, because they are what will get you through. |
| from fight4fair : |
| Just read your entry from Friday, I am sending good wishes and hugs to you. I don't think I would talk to those people at all. |
| from arianstar : |
| hey missy, In your diary, you keep mentioning that you dont give out your last name, but i wanted to let you know when you send out an email from your work account, it automatically tags your last name on to the email. (like when you sent me your password to the diary) Just be careful whom you are emailing from that account if you dont want your last name discovered.... love ya,, Arian... happy birthday jackie! love ya,, take care... |
| from wifemotherme : |
| ((((hugs)))) email sent |
| from manda-d : |
| Hey, can I have you password? I tried to read and I can't! [email protected] Thanks! |
| from manda-d : |
| Naturally curly, yes. I hated it for so long, but I guess it's OK now that I am a bit older. Thanks for your note :-) |
| from biodtl : |
| I loved the "the guy" stories. My own favorite the guy is the one who took me to his brother's house, who had a huge pile of shrooms on the table and the front door wide open, then we all went to a bar and I got sick and he let me sit outside all night, then almost started a fight with a gangbanger on the way home, then he didn't even park the car to let me out - just doubleparked and kept it in drive, then as I was getting out, started to yell at me because I didn't invite him in for a fuck. He was so charming. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| HAPPY B-DAY JACKIE!!!!! Give her a HUGE hug from us and we will see her tomorrow for a belated b-day dinner!!! Love ya!! |
| from fight4fair : |
| I hope the things that are happening are not as sinister as they seem to be. Can't these people just leave you alone for chriminy sakes. How many times does this jerk have to be proven guilty before they give up? It just doesn't seem right that you and your family should have to keep reliving this nightmare. I am praying for you and I hope that whatever it turns out to be, it goes away quickly. |
| from marlen816 : |
| ((Hugs)) - You seemed to really need them right now. |
| from cactustree : |
| excellent advice. that works for people in same-sex relationships too, believe me....(from a girl who was brave enough to get help for her drug addiction!) |
| from erianne1 : |
| You are a wise woman, my friend. Wise indeed... |
| from mpeacock : |
| I am with poolagirl. I miss reading you so IF you want to pass out the ole password, you know where to find me. I hope all is well. :) |
| from marlen816 : |
| Very wise advice for your cousin. I just wish you did not know some if it from experience. You are a very strong woman and I admire you greatly. ((Hugs)) |
| from poolagirl : |
| Your diary is locked! Whaaaaaaa! Whatever shall I do without you? I've been meaning to ask for the code, but only if you want me to have it. If so, please email me at [email protected]. |
| from biodtl : |
| It IS sage advice, and I hope she heeds it. She sounds like a good friendof mine who, after a sheltered beginning, marriage and breakup got herself into another marriage that wasn't all it turned out to be. It's hard to stand by and watch it happen. |
| from fight4fair : |
| Just wanted to say thanks again. I joined the murder victims survivor board. There are a lot of sad stories there but a lot of hope too. It helps. |
| from imaphatpig : |
| i hope you are doing okay. recently someone googled for you and ended up in my diary. this concerned me about you. i hope everything is okay. |
| from imaphatpig : |
| i hope you are doing okay. recently someone googled for you and ended up in my diary. this concerned me about you. i hope everything is okay. |
| from thedevlyn : |
| apparently you are a popular search on google today. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| : ( my password is not working |
| from biodtl : |
| "playing the victim"?? That's insane. You made the right move, eliminating a toxic person from your life. You are a good person and anyone who even knows you only from this website knows that you would never, ever CHOOSE to be a victim of any kind, that you are loyal and loving to your family and friends and that the issue was never about "going out to eat". Keep your chin up. And about the valentine thing - as a mom, it made me cry. The rules at my kid's school are that you bring enough for everyone - period. And at that age, I think it's the right thing. There are too many opportunies as teenagers to be excluded and hurt. Childhood shouldn't be that way, too. Love and hugs to both you and your beautiful daughter (and it doesn't matter that I've never seen her - I just know she is). |
| from rrs1005 : |
| I didnt know what to think when I tried to log on to your diary. I was confused and thought I was doing something wrong :)) my email is [email protected]. THANK YOU so much for writing me and asking for my info. Thanks |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I'm sorry to hear that you had to resort to this....it's really SAD. I still care and always will!!! HUGS!! |
| from linusthegirl : |
| [email protected] Thank you sooo much! |
| from pajamamama : |
| Ugh, Ameren makes me so mad. I just sent off my payment today "to avoid disconnection". I hope thy're slow to go to the bank and my check! Thanks for the password. You can always do what I did - make one username and password for everyone! Take care! ~Linda |
| from r-y-r : |
| Thank you so much for sharing your password, I look forward to your updates. |
| from arianstar : |
| yay! I am soo glad you too the time to write me and tell me you were going to give me a password. My day isnt complete unless i hear about you and jackie, keep hanging in there wonder woman! My email is [email protected] |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| About died when I saw you had locked... I am sure that whatever the reasoning it was well thought out and deserved.. Will surely miss you though.. email me and let me know things are okay... gypsypoet1 at yahoo.com |
| from thedevlyn : |
| you can assign one username and pw for multiple people. dland is not forwarding email to you by the way. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Locked? I need a password!! Can I have the password, pretty please! marlen816AThotmailDOTcom |
| from thedevlyn : |
| thank you. |
| from erianne1 : |
| It sounds like you had a lovely weekend and I'm happy for you! You needed some leisure time that was actually leisurely. :) I'll keep my fingers crossed on the job! And Happy Valentine's Day *hugs* |
| from pajamamama : |
| It's a catch-22 with these diaries. Spill your guts, which is why we have diaries, but then offend those who are reading. I've been there! If you do lock up, please let me know. I'd love to keep reading! (If you want readers, that is!) Take care. ~Linda |
| from thedevlyn : |
| ah, the double edged sword that is on-line diarys. good luck and i will pray for your positive outcome. locking it might be a good idea for a bit, though that kinda sucks. but it is your call. |
| from mpeacock : |
| It's still a freedom of speech kind of world we live in here in the U.S. It's your diary, always write what you want. If others don't like it, they don't have to read it. Take care. |
| from warcrygirl : |
| BAH! Just do what I do: cover the fuckers with hair dye. |
| from biodtl : |
| I would have been pissed and worried, too - and long before 2 1/2 hours went by. You are making the right decision to not live together. It sucks backing away from a friendship, but you have to do what's best for you and your daughter. If it gets tough, you know you have many (cyber) shoulders to cry on. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I will keep you and your grandmother in my prayers. Stay strong!! |
| from mpeacock : |
| Don't worry, the diary IS for outletting doom and gloom. It has to get out somewhere. |
| from erianne1 : |
| One foot in front of the other, love. That's all we can do right now. I'm sending good thoughts and hugs. I'm here if you need me. |
| from pajamamama : |
| First of all, don't ever apologize for venting in your diary - that's why it's here! I'm sorry about your grandmother. It's heartbreaking to see someone you love in that situation. Take care! ~Linda |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Yeah, I am pretty proud of him too!! Love is worth fighting for when you know that person is the "one".....this makes me love him even more!! Everyone deserves a second chance. |
| from marlen816 : |
| What a special friend you have in Silvia. I miss my friend, Holly! Sigh. |
| from thedevlyn : |
| You are doing well. Lighten up on yourself a bit, everyone else is hard enough on us without pitching in ourselves. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I feel for you as I do the same thing with my son. I love him so much but it's frustrating. Also I hear you about Walmart, I like it because of the prices but the overcrowded aisles with screaming children gets to me. The big new store by my work/school is not so bad, but the one by my house I can't hardly go to anymore. In fact I paid higher prices at Fry's this weekend to avoid Wally World. |
| from biodtl : |
| My son is 8 and we have that exact moment every day. He loses his hat and gloves every single God-forsaken day. I spend a bunch of time searching and looking and getting stressed out, while he idles away farting around, "looking" for them. Usually, he left them somewhere. And then the whining starts.."but I forrrrrgoooooot", and then the demon in me comes out. Ahh, motherhood. Also, it cracks me up when you talk about Wal-Mart. My friend and I have referred to it as Satan's Asshole, Lucifer's Anus and Beelzebub's Rectum from the moment they opened one up nearby. |
| from cactustree : |
| i feel for jackie. i do. i also developed early, around 10. when it seems hopeless and depressing, just remember: those of us who were bullied and tormented often wind up creative and fabulous and those bullies wish they were us. |
| from dailypieces : |
| My lil one is 9 and she's been wearing a lil bra for almost a yr now. She's petite so I wasnt expecting it yet yanno? I noticed one evening same as you, when she running loose around the house (at home we're very open about nudity.. well not WE but she's so damn modest we try to make it no big deal for her) and she was wearing a lil tee shirt and well... I noticed she had nubs! Tried to tell my husband but yanno men...complete denial the poor bastard! Lmfao. I bought her some bras from the dollar store to begin with. They fit and were cute and ok for her. Its getting to the point now where she HAS to wear one with certain clothes. It just shows. I thought the same thing "Geez I'm SO not ready for THIS!" Uhhh like we have a choice? Lmao. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I can sympathize with Jackie. At 7 I was wearing...not a training bra...but a full B cup. By age 10 that had become a C cup and by 12 my nickname at school was Boobs because I was a D cup. Luckily I didn't start my period or body hair any earlier than my peers, but the boob thing was enough. And no, it wasn't good to be first. It only got me teased horribly. |
| from biodtl : |
| My son's friend was 5 and in kindergarten when she started getting pubic hair. Her parents were understandably freaked out. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Bless her heart! I started my period in 5th grade, and while it was very odd, it made me the "cool girl" for awhile. the whole good to be first thing, well that was a lie LOL. While the boys loved me for it, the girls soon got jealous and they all had a few years before they caught up. My parents stayed in denial about it until finally a teacher pulled me aside and told me I would HAVE to buy a bra. Now days though they have sports bras and you can be a whole lot less conspicuous. She has a loving mother and regardless of what age you endure puperty, that makes all the diffrance in the world. She will be just fine! |
| from treesssa : |
| Girl! I know, this is scary stuff! Sara will be 8 next month and she already has the stinky armpit syndrome!No boob buddage yet.I didn't get boobs until I was 14, so maybe my kiddo will be a late bloomer like me.A training bra is such a big deal.Good luck with that and keep me posted because I'm sure I'll be going through the same stuff with Sara pretty soon. |
| from thedevlyn : |
| sounds like you handled it well |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Yikes.. I was ten when I started wearing a regular sized bra, by 11 I had my first period and I thought that was early. I can't imagine it at 7, though I do remember a girl in my class who started at 8. The scary part isn't the other girls its the older boys.. I feel for you.. Warren being a boy, at least I have a few more years before he starts shaving and growing hair, and having "those" dreams.. and I'm still so not ready |
| from mammas-pills : |
| Thank you, it does matter. Take care, Jason |
| from cactustree : |
| that was a fierce entry. thanks for remembering. my grandmother was liberated from Auschwitz and i'm glad to see there are others remembering. it helps to know there are others out there who are determined that it will never happen again. |
| from crazystephie : |
| I have been out of touch with everyone for a while and here you are when I come back offering your support to me. Thank you so much! I hope they aren't what I think either (the memories). I don't know how to find out. I am waiting on my husband to come home. I think I want to talk to him about it when he gets back. He always knows just how to help me somehow. I don't know how he will react to this though. But I don't imagine him being weird for some reason. Most women would be the opposite I bet, but he is the person I trust most out of all the people here. But I thank you so much for your support. It means a lot. ~Stef~ |
| from marlen816 : |
| Thank you for your nice comment. But, don't be too jealous, or I just might give you my life! Just kidding! And I admire you for plugging along with all that you have been through. ((Hugs)) |
| from kitchenlogic : |
| If you really, truly loved your daughter - you wouldn't smoke at all! (Easy for me to say, having never been a smoker) |
| from mpeacock : |
| You are so sweet, my parents made us sick with their smoke. My email add is [email protected] |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Thanks momma! I wish I could say that I feel 100% all-around great,but I am slowly getting there! Hope you get to feeling better soon!! HUGS!!! |
| from mpeacock : |
| What is your job? Just curious to why the in depth analyzing? |
| from erianne1 : |
| Honey, a lot of us battle that little voice every day with you. The trick is to keep battling. It's the struggle that makes us truly alive...because it's a choice. We choose to be here despite the pains we know we'll feel, despite the trials we know we'll have to suffer through, despite the memories that tug at our minds and hearts. We CHOOSE to stay here which makes us so much more appreciative of the beautiful things than those who take their lives for granted. The victory is in the continuing of the battle. Just know that there are those of us who know how hard it is sometimes and appreciate you as one of the beautiful things that help us in our own struggles. Hugs sweetie. |
| from cactustree : |
| tell that little voice to take a hike! |
| from fight4fair : |
| Sorry to hear things are not going well for your family. I hope things improve soon. When is enough enough? I have been reading some of your older entries when I have time to get on the computer at night. You have lived an amazing life. I hope you can lend your sister some of your incredible strength. I am praying for both of you as well as your sister's kids. Is this bozo their dad? I hope not. Stay strong, I am thinking of you. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Consider it done then. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Should I do something to help her "my way"? I mean like something protective for her personally? Just let me know. |
| from hamiltonian : |
| I'm sorry to hear about such a disgraceful person. I hope he never harms anyone again. |
| from treesssa : |
| Great news! Now maybe those kids and your sister have a chance to have a decent life without having to look over their shoulder for that psycho.I hope they lock him up for a long time. |
| from serenaville : |
| Phenominal news about Renee's stalker! Funny how prolific they tend to be... it's pathetic, really. Let's see how he likes having the tables turned on him behind bars! Convicts can be pretty relentless, I've heard. Glee! What goes around, surely comes around eventually. *HUGS* |
| from mpeacock : |
| have a WONDERFUL weekend! |
| from not-tuesday : |
| She IS gorgeous! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I'm not feeling all that well either,but I am sending you many hugs and I hope you start feeling better!! Hey,at least your accomplishing something at home,right?? LOVE YA!!! |
| from erianne1 : |
| I understand well since I raised a sister with bipolar and it was suspected that mom had it as well. You're in my daily devotionals, hon. I'm here if you need me. Besides...your mania is spurring me to do some organizing of my own. :) |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Oh my friend, how I wish I did not understand what you wrote today. I know a few tricks I would love to share with you. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| http://members.diaryland.com/edit/download.phtml Just make sure you are logged into diaryland. You will want to right click and save it, as depending on how many entries you have it will most likely be huge. |
| from soulstyce : |
| To download your whole diary click on gold member resources under "Other Stuff" on the left hand side. Downloading your whole diary should be the last link on that page :) |
| from cactustree : |
| girl!! you know i could never leave Madonna behind. she's the staying force in my life! |
| from cactustree : |
| "I think if I say, �I will lose 140 pounds in the next year, I may be setting myself up for failure. But if I say I will pay attention to my health that leaves me room to start doing some things that are good for me." -- that's exactly right. I've tackled the emotional and spiritual -- now it's time for physical changes. Let's succeed together.... |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I guess one of those fountains are one that I gave you?? hee hee.....I SWEAR that it worked.......anyways, have a Happy New Year!! Love Ya!! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| You may also want to clean out the cages and put in fresh bedding, just in case one of them is storing food or something. Also if you have a garbage disposal or anyother place where things might be hiding it could be a good idea to check there as well, and disinfect. |
| from pajamamama : |
| "Hemorraging money" Hehehehe... too funny! The expression, NOT the fact that you're hemorraging money! We too, had an infestation of "flying pissants" as we call them. My son had thrown away food in his trash, unbeknowst to me. Hope Jackie is feeling better soon! ~Linda |
| from wifemotherme : |
| If you have time read this webpage for some tips and tricks on killing the little mosters http://www.doyourownpestcontrol.com/fruit_fly.htm |
| from pajamamama : |
| I can only imagine how empty you feel on the holidays without your mom. My mom and I are so close, I would be lost without her. (((HUGS))) to you. So much for Dave Murray's forecast for a white Christmas, huh? Oh well... Valentine's we'll probably be up to our necks in it! P.S. I love black Santas, too! |
| from fight4fair : |
| Thank you for your kind words. I am so sorry I alarmed you. If my computer had not crashed I would have been able to respond to your concerns sooner. I would like to be friends. I think this online diary might be something I will stick with for a while. It does feel good to have my feelings understood. It seems to validate them somehow. Thanks for your understanding and encouragement. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Very Marry Christmas my dear sweet net friend. May the Lord Bless you in all that you do in the new year. ((((((*hugs*))))) |
| from thedevlyn : |
| I got your card, thank you so much. It got misdirected by a bad barcode at the bottom and took a full week to get here!!! And your mention of me in your diary is quite humbling. I assure you I am simply a regular person, no cape or anything. Thank you again, and Happy Giftmas. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| Very Merry Christmas to you...have a wonderful holiday... ((hugs)) |
| from mpeacock : |
| A very Merry Christmas to you and Jackie.:) |
| from pajamamama : |
| I wanted to wish you and yours a happy, safe Christmas! Did you get snow down your way? We didn't get a thing here - just single digit temps! Have a great holiday! ~Linda |
| from not-tuesday : |
| No one has ever said I have an interesting life. Thanks for reading. |
| from erianne1 : |
| You rock, my friend! You go on with your bad self, eh? *grin* Stick it to em chickie. Smelling like roses in my book. *hugs* |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Do you see me standing up cheering for you!!!??? You have been standing up to these people for so many years and it's a damn shame that you have to extend that, but Its not wasted energy. The Lord has really taking what Satan meant for evil and turned it to Good in you - and it shows daily. You are truly a blessing. |
| from linusthegirl : |
| You go, girl. How dare someone do that to you. I always admire your strength and courage. |
| from dailypieces : |
| Re:todays entry: Hell yeah! You go girl, and ya know you are SO RIGHT! |
| from betchy : |
| and you are just too kind when it comes to buying people gifts. bless you x |
| from betchy : |
| thanks so much for your lovely note, and the great comment on your profile. i will come and check you out ASAP, but i have been a bit of a slack Alice on the diary reading front recently. but after christmas i will be back on form i promise. and i will come and check you out then xxx |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Oh, trust me, he's already sorry. Choad. I swear. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| I know how you feel. I love writing, because I write for me, it is a release of sorts that I do not get in my everyday life. However, when people read me who know they are invading my privacy, it makes me feel very much in the open. I loathe feeling vulnerable to my past, and people who should have enough manners to just walk away, instead of continually prying into a life they are not welcomed into... ((hugs)) |
| from pajamamama : |
| Hi - it's Linda (formerly aiken4clay)! I just wanted to say what an amazing, strong woman you are. I admire you immensely! I don't know if you got my new diary info - if not, drop me a line: [email protected] and I'll set you up with a password! Have a great day! ~Linda |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| Hi fight4fair, Thank you for the note. Thanks for the good wishes too. For clarification purposes, I just want to say I never doubted who killed my mother. After all, I was there and I certainly remember looking at his face while he attacked me too. The only ones in doubt are his loser family and at the time, the Justice Department. Eventually, the results came back inconclusive, so I sort of got some closure. The reason I say loser family is that all evidence points to him being the guy, and his "daughter" gets up on the news with her buckteeth a showin' and she insinuated that I lied or didn't know what I was talking about. Mind you, she was a little one when it happened too. Mind you, her "father" killed another man long before he met my mom. Mind you, he had already shown he had no conscience. I feel for the family of the perp, but they are nowhere near as devastated as the victims families. It's us that have to live with the nightmares, panic attacks, phobias, bad memories, violence and lastly, the image of the deceased laying in a pool of their own blood, etc. I can understand how you would feel about an innocent being in jail, but I'm not in that situation, and I really don't care what my perp's family has to think or say about any of it. Maybe that's cold, but it's me. They haven't lived the life I have. As for you, I hope they do find the perp. Your family deserves justice too. I feel bad for the wrongly convicted involved. I hope you keep an online journal. It's therapeautic. I've been doing this for a few years and it's the best thing I've ever done. Just don't hold back. If something's hurting you, write about it. The only thing you have to do is leave out last names and other identifying details so people can't find you. Good luck. I've added you as a favorite. Write often. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| You are such a phenomenal woman! (ok that is an understatment) Your story about helping the lady in the post office made me cry. I wish there were a whole lot more of "you" in the world . .....even if you are a nose picker ; ) (is it just me or is the note below a bit odd?) |
| from fight4fair : |
| Hello, just stumbled on your site today. I haven't read a lot, just a few entries that someone suggested to me. I had a somewhat similiar incident in my life, but after almost 20 years, it was discovered that the wrong person was in jail. I was devastated that the justice system had betrayed me and my loved one like that and felt terrible that another family had also been destroyed for no particular reason. I was also very hurt that I had spent so much time filled with so much hate for someone who had done nothing to me or my family. I hope someday you get absolute proof so you can put any lingering doubts out of your mind. |
| from cmkern3 : |
| Hey there...just so you know, I loved those personalized letters from Santa too, but couldn't see the point in spending $10 when I could design one myself. So I did and it's awesome - if you (or anyone reading this) wants a copy of it to personalize for your own kid/s NOTE me with your email address and I'll send it to you. |
| from soulstyce : |
| Thanks for the sweet note :) I am enjoying your diary as well. I'm also a victims rights advocate, and I feel for you honey! |
| from sassyfras : |
| A divorce tree - I love it!! Good for you, and what a great friend! You're such a sucker, letting that little imp unwrap presents early. I am, too. That's why I keep my girl's presents anywhere but in my house until just before Christmas. |
| from compclass : |
| Hey, I was just lookin around and saw your name, I like you diary!! |
| from erianne1 : |
| *big hug* |
| from imaphatpig : |
| It's okay. I didn't actually go through with trying my tolerance. Yet... and I say it like that because I mentioned it to Stef and she was like, "Hmmmm... I wonder how much I could take too?" Mystery can is over so hey - we might be up for anything! Haha. |
| from biodtl : |
| I would sign a petition or send a letter for you in a minute. Just let me know and I'm in. Thsi time of year makes it harder when we feel bad about something. I know you want to give your daughter everything she wants, but I kow firsthand that growing up in an unhappy household sucks, too. Hang in there! |
| from cmkern3 : |
| Hey! Thanks for the note! Haley is also 7! And, to add to the list of coincidences already noted, I have a sister named Jackie!! |
| from sassyfras : |
| When you wake up first Christmas day, do you make lots of noise and "accidentally" wake your girl up? :D |
| from compclass : |
| Hey, have a nice day |
| from aiken4clay : |
| Thanks for your note! Actually, it wasn't you at all. I was referring to some other people here at dland who seem to be ignoring me lately! I'll get over it! Oh - and thanks for the compliment! You're so sweet! LOL! ~Linda |
| from treesssa : |
| Thanks for the Santa Letter thing. I have been making my own Santa letters on the computer. I think this is Sara's last year of believing also. Her best friend is a 9yr old, so I'm sure its going to come out sooner or later. I'm going to be so sad when this happens. |
| from thedevlyn : |
| What a great idea, the santa letter thing. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Stand by Me is one of my all time favorite movies. I rented it this summer thinking my daughter and my niece would like it. Luckily, I watched it late the night I got it. I hadn't remembered all that cussing, either! Still, it's a great movie. (And Labyrinth is one of my daughter's favorites!) |
| from erianne1 : |
| And about the snow...I know what you mean. Since I'm on the other side of the state, we got the day before you and boy, was it nasty. Missouri sucks in the winter, doesn't it? It's either really good weather all winter or tons of snow...no inbetween. I think this year will be snow. Ick. |
| from erianne1 : |
| It sounds like you had a really good holiday. I'm glad. :) I'm also glad you're doing holiday shopping already. My shopping will be done vicariously through you as we aren't doing gifts this year due to recent events. Christmas/Yule was Mom's thing. So enjoy it enough for both of us, ok? |
| from thedevlyn : |
| Shoppers unite! |
| from supermom3604 : |
| Congratulations! |
| from thedevlyn : |
| It's wonderful to be appreciated, and raises are a heck of a lot better than fancy titles and new business cards... |
| from sassyfras : |
| Woo hoo! Hope you and the girl go celebrate! |
| from cactustree : |
| i love that something good just came your way. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Yea about the raise! That is GREAT! |
| from erianne1 : |
| How cool is that?! I'm so happy for you! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| DAMN!!! That is freakin' awesome!! I'm so happy for you.. Just in time for Christmas too yet.. |
| from serenaville : |
| Phenominal!! That is a very nice raise, no doubt. Well deserved. Congrats!!! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| $5,000 raise? WOW! What type of work do you do? I think I'm in the wrong field! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| You're probably right about your EX using the late payment as a form of control. Passive agressive behaviour. |
| from notjustamom : |
| Oh wow!! Awesome!! Congrats! |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| Couldn't happen to a nicer gal! Yay for you and Jackie! |
| from imaphatpig : |
| congrats on the raise!!! 5k is excellent! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Better LATE than NEVER. At least your EX sends money. Houses here in California START at $600,000. |
| from thedaphney : |
| Thank you so much for your note. It means a lot. |
| from beauty-full : |
| I love getting notes from you. They are either incredibly supportive, thought provoking, or generally wonderdul. Thanks. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Here's hoping you have a great family Thanksgiving without too much drama. (You have to have a LITTLE drama, or it's not a true family Thanksgiving!) |
| from aiken4clay : |
| Thanks for adding me to your favorites! I enjoyed your diary, so I'm adding you as well! How can I not add someone else from Missouri who likes fart jokes? Hehehe! |
| from sassyfras : |
| My 9 year old told me she doesn't really want any toys this year. WHAT?!?! :O What she does want is new stuff for her room: new bedspread, lamp, chair, etc. Yikes! I'm scared, that's too teenager-ish. Spoil your baby while you can!! |
| from imaphatpig : |
| man. if only we all had christmas lists that were that simple. What's on my list? Hmmmm... getting my student loans completely paid off, a new car, another trip to the virgin islands, world peace, and a lifetime supply of cheese fries without the weight gain. Is it too much to ask? I think not. Congrats on making it through that list. |
| from thedaphney : |
| Thanks for adding me to your favorites. I'll check out your diary and add you to mine. |
| from sassyfras : |
| You WERE busy. Don't feel bad about taking that mental health day! They're sometimes much more important than actual sick days. As a matter of fact, they KEEP you from having sick days! :) |
| from erianne1 : |
| You are one of the bravest people I've known. Kudos to you girl for making it through and seeing it all for what it is and was...and choosing to rise above it all. My heart hurts for you and what you've been through, but your courage and conviction make me smile as well. I will keep a good thought for you and, with your permission, will include you, your daughter and your sister in my healing rituals for continued healing energy to be sent for you to help with the nightmares and other things. Let me know if there's some other way I can be of help to you, witchy or just friend-wise. :) |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| I hope you sent that letter. |
| from cactustree : |
| that was some powerful, powerful writing. |
| from notjustamom : |
| I leave big hugs and sad tears for the children you two were and what you both went through. I join my prayers with you that one day Renee will see the real truth. Never give up on Renee. One day itll happen and she will know real true happiness like you've given your child and you have found in yourself. Your so brave, did you know that? You are. And youre teaching your child how to be strong... like you are! **hugs** |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I dont even know what to say to that entry. I read it, I wanted you to know I read it, cried for you and I rooted for you and I cheered that you had the guts to write it and I marvel that you have the strength to live it. I am not prone to hero worship, I dont look up to many people in life -- your my exception. You really are a hero and a role model. I dearly love you, and I honestly admire you. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Wow, what a weekend! Sorry about your sucky haunted house experience. Hope the week is a good one for you! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| HAPPY HALLOWEEN.....BOO! |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thanks for adding me to your favorites. You're just too cool! I look forward to reading your diary as well. :) |
| from sassyfras : |
| I don't know that you'd ever be able to understand why that monster did what he did. You're just too beautiful and too full of goodness and love and everything he isn't. He's truly evil and not deserving of anything other than your contempt. That's just my opinion, of course, I'm definitely no professional. That aside, congrats on all your new purchases. I, too, love getting packages. I spend too much time on Ebay and half.com, so I get lots of 'em! |
| from thedevlyn : |
| Thank you very much. *hugs* |
| from sassyfras : |
| I'm sorry you're hurting - physically, mentally, and any other -ally's! I'll say a quick prayer that the doctor gets back to you soon with the news you want to hear! Until then, lots of good juju coming your way. :) |
| from erlenweg6 : |
| ((((hugs))))) |
| from wifemotherme : |
| A big gigantic hug -- delivered with the care to not hurt your back further - Feel better soon or at least spend your time writing while your down! |
| from treesssa : |
| Oh ouch! I sprained/pulled muscles in my back this summer and had to go to the ER! Not fun. I got 2 words for you PAIN KILLERS! Goodluck! I sympathize. |
| from missmidge : |
| Oh. Hey. I see you recently turned 30. Mazeltov! You think 30 is bad? Please. I can tell you stories!! Anyhow, your 30s are the great. Or if you are like you and me...bipolar and all...then your 30s are great/dreadful/great/dreadful...get it? Ha. Anyhow. Happy Birthday. Late. Which is typical of me. |
| from missmidge : |
| Well. How did you get into my head and steal my thoughts? Why was I not informed? I'm reading your entries...I'm liking it. I am slowly recuperating from my pseudo-hatred of you for thinking of calling YOUR ex-husband Uranus before I could think of it. I anticipate being over it in about 3 minutes. Then I can go back to envying you properly. I don't gush. But you ALMOST make me gush. You rock. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Glad to hear all's well in your world! Except for that Uranus. Men that don't pay child support really tick me off. You ask so little of them and still they can't even handle that. Jerks! You want I should come take care of him? |
| from shewhowalks : |
| Thanks. |
| from heidi75 : |
| It is taking me a while to "get to know you" because I am going through your archives and there are many, but I just want to let you know that you sound like an amazing human being, and a wondeful mother. If only all children could be so lucky with that unconditional love thing! |
| from biodtl : |
| I know it's easier said than done, but if you meet someone you would like to have as a friend, let them in. I find that it's a little hard for an adult woman to make friends sometimes - we're busy, we're stretched to our limits sometimes. But there's nothing like a girlfriend and I always have room for one more, even though I sometimes feel like I don't have the time or the energy or the emotion. I also have a cousin I grew up very close too, and we just aren't as close as we used to be, for a million reasons. I miss that, because it's often easier to maintain family/friend relationships than just friends. |
| from heidi75 : |
| Thanks for adding me to your list. I look forward to reading your entries and getting to know you! |
| from daringtobe : |
| thank you. I read your entry and I have not been nearly through nearly as much as you have. That would have made you intimidating except for the fact you are so likeable and have issues controlling your emotions and thoughts like myself. |
| from rollynn : |
| Hey have you ever tried Lexapro? My doctor started me on it a couple months ago (maybe a month & a 1/2) & I love it. The first day it made my stomach upset but now I have no problems...plus...bonus...I lost like 10 pounds in the first month I think so it's not one that makes you gain weight :) Just an idea...I hope you don't mind. |
| from supermom3604 : |
| Thank you for your note. I don't know if the boys are even big enough to know what it means to die, but they have been surprising me left and right lately. I suppose I could just ask them what they think it means, and go from there. Thanks for the suggestion, and caring enough to leave a note. I appreciate it. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Hey, I'm Average Christian too!! We can not go to church every Sunday together!! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Happy Birthday!! I thought 30 was going to be a big deal, but so far my 30's haven't been that big of a deal.. Though 35 was a bit touch and go..for a bit. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Happy Birthday!! If it's any consolation, I dreaded 30 with a passion, and all for nothing. I have loved my 30's!! |
| from tearstream : |
| Happy Birthday! |
| from biodtl : |
| I hope you have a very happy birthday! |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| Hey sweetie, Happy B-day... and thirty is nothing to worry about... when you are ten it seems old..when you are 80 it will seem young.. |
| from jackprague78 : |
| HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! (and many more.....) |
| from lizabee : |
| Happy Birthday! |
| from marlen816 : |
| Happy Birthday!! |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Happy Birthday indeed! Live it up and have a ball. I am SO jealous because I am totally looking forward to my 30th too. |
| from artofliving : |
| i love you =) get some sleep |
| from just-maggie : |
| Just read a few entries. I saw your diary description from treessa's favorites. I want a convertible named Louise. We could cruise together. Thelma and Louise.... |
| from thedevlyn : |
| Welcome, and thank you for the kind comment in your diary and note, I will have to read some of yours now... |
| from sassyfras : |
| I just this weekend told my grandma she's turning into a cranky old bat. (I said it with love. Seriously.) She said when you've lived as long as she has you're entitled to act any way you want to. So there's that, I guess! You go, girl, with your Halloween costume! I dress up every year - I love it!! |
| from artofliving : |
| YOU ARE SO FREAKING SWEET! thank you so much baby!! i adore you! |
| from wilberteets : |
| Thanks for the birthday wishes and a Happy Birthday to you, Libra sister. |
| from sassyfras : |
| Now that is some fine spendage of car sale money!! |
| from sassyfras : |
| Wow, you've done a lot!! I've been inspired, thanks! |
| from jackprague78 : |
| I've done some of that, but nearly enough. I think I may use that as a sort of yardstick over the next few years, and try to make my own list. Thanks for posting... |
| from treesssa : |
| That was a sweet entry. I like it. |
| from warcrygirl : |
| Glad you're feeling better, if only from the food poisoning. My MIL was murdered in 1977 (I never met her) and her murder is still unsolved. I really want them to reopen her case on Cold Case Files or some show like that but I can't get Hubby of FIL excited about it. Hope that creep stays in jail! |
| from marlen816 : |
| I never eat anything from Jack in the Box after they killed those kiddos in CA. I am sure it was their food. Prayers and hugs for you to feel better! |
| from tearstream : |
| Feel better soon! |
| from sassyfras : |
| Sending feel-good juju your way. (I admire your dedication to your diary!) |
| from imaphatpig : |
| I absolutely feel for you, girlfriend! For the past two weeks I had horrible laryngitis and then I got a serious cause of explosive diarrhea. Wouldn't you just know it started because of a reaction to the antibiotics that I was taking for the laryngitis!!! Sucked. Hope you feel better! |
| from r-y-r : |
| I hope you feel better really really soon> |
| from sassyfras : |
| I burned Clean Cotton last night. (Wow, that sounded funny!) I put Macintosh in my car, because I have a red VW Beetle and I think that as long as my car looks like a big old apple it might as well smell like one, too! Congrats on reaching 30 without a gray hair. I may just not like you for that! :p |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Oh man, don't stress about the whole 30 thing. Didn't you know that 30 is the new 25? And 40 is the new 30? No biggie! |
| from biodtl : |
| Hey, I'm jealous that you are reaching 30 and haven't had a gray hair yet! Consider yourself lucky - at 36, I am starting to look like a powdered wig. As for the Yankee candles, I love citrus & teakwood and fig & white plum. |
| from warcrygirl : |
| I love Yankee Candles! My fave scent is vanilla. I've just started reading but it does sound like you need to relax and unwind. Doing and doing and doing will take its toll on you. |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| I know where you're at with the waning enthusiasm levels, especially when you've been running yourself around trying to help people, and it all seems hopeless and overwhelming. I took some time off too from my situation, stepped back a little, and re-charged. Aroma-therapy sounds like a healthy way to do it. |
| from poolagirl : |
| The Mormon book is "Under the Banner of Heaven." Scarier than shit! WOW! |
| from sassyfras : |
| OMG, Night Ranger!! I love 80's music!! The problem is, my 9 year old loves 80's music, too, so she's stolen my Billy Idol, Pat Benatar and Duran Duran! Oh no, I just admitted to 3 embarrassing CD's :O. (Well, maybe not Pat, she still rocks!) BTW, thanks for adding me as a favorite! |
| from artofliving : |
| additionally, congrats on the car. you deserved it more than anybody. |
| from artofliving : |
| I was reminded today jsut how much I love your writing no matter what the subject. Congrats on being so fucking fabulous |
| from poolagirl : |
| I'm an ex-Catholic (now metaphysical). I can't remember the name of the book - but I'll contact you again when I get home to my library. It's a good book! |
| from supermom3604 : |
| Congrats on the new car! Send some of that good karma my way, I'm trying to get one too. |
| from sassyfras : |
| I've just started reading your diary (I found you through Treesssa.) You're such an expressive writer. I can totally appreciate your Imposter entry, because I feel like that sometimes too. But in the next couple of days you should channel your inner Diva and blast out an entry on why you rock! I'll look forward to reading it! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| I JUST read your profile and saw that you are an ex-Mormon? Me too! So is NateDogCool, a buddy of mine. I was raised Mormon/Catholic I've spent years in therapy recovering. |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Congratulations on the *new* car. Pictures please 9or a link to a pic) My VW has 198,000 on the odometer! |
| from poolagirl : |
| Oh, no! No beating yourself up allowed! No! You are an exceptional writer, lady! Exceptional! All the college education in the world can't make that happen - trust me. You have so much to give to the world. It's just a matter of deciding what you want to do. Thinking it is 90% of making it happen. All of those things you want to do can happen - in time. Set a goal (Disney cruise, for example) and start a fund. Even your loose change will pile up quickly. Put your dreams into your plan. Include yourself. You deserve it. |
| from treesssa : |
| Thanks for the note! As for you doubting yourself...don't do it!I see you as very intelligent, and a great writter. You don't need a degree/diploma to be intelligent!The only thing we can accuse you of is being a silly girl!LOL Keep on Keepin' on, and stop with the doubting yourself! Ya know, I'm in IL, i can easily drive down there and kick your butt! |
| from serenaville : |
| You're not an imposter, if you are being the true you that you've always been. Can't fake originality. Please don't doubt or apologize for who and what you are, where you come from, or how your life is. I read you for the sheer fact that you ARE *you*. I relate to you on levels, and learn from you on others. Want to know a secret? You happen to be more educated than I am. I only have a high school diploma, with Regents honors. Does that shock you? See yourself through my eyes for a minute, and you'll have an ego the size of Texas. *HUGS!!* |
| from artofliving : |
| It was nothing but a pleasure to tell you the truth. Now, go do something nice for yourself. When I leave here, I'm going to try and find a hot fudge sundae in this boarded up city...I suggest you do the same or book a pedicure. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I think your not knowing just how incredibly special you are is one of the reasons your so incredibly special. I would take you over a million"polished" people any day! PS....those folks are fakeing it too.. |
| from artofliving : |
| Sweetness, you have no backing to your self-doubts. Fuck the Suits at work because they're pretending as much as you are. It takes a very long time to find oneself but you have done a magnificent job so far. You underestimate your brilliance. |
| from artofliving : |
| Thank you for being so sweet. It's only gonna get worse for a while but then it will eventually get better. It means alot to me that you care. |
| from purplebanana : |
| Just wanted to say hi. And, you know, to wish you a Happy Tuesday. Tuesdays feel so neglected; they fall into the shadow of Friday nights. Anyway, have a good one. |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Didn't you just pay off your car? Is this a different car? A *NEW* car? |
| from nimiiwin : |
| Thank you! That was such a sweet note. :) |
| from marlen816 : |
| Congrats on the car! |
| from supermom3604 : |
| Hey grrl, thanks for adding me to your buddy list. I am totally going through the same thing right now with trying to get a car since my husband's crapped out on us, and it is no fun at all. Good luck with yours. I'll probably end up at one of those buy-here-pay-here places again, which doesn't improve your credit either. Suck. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Missy- Sorry to hear that things aren't going as you expected. I would call and talk to Nick...he gets things done for me and I would think that Matt would also,unless the route your taking is a different one. I hope you get some answers! HUGS :-) |
| from artofliving : |
| dude. you let those crazy ass enterprize people know that i have mob connections damnit and they don't even wanna KNOW what's gonna be up if they don't let you have the car. well...actually I don't have any mob connections BUT if I did, think about what a cool chapter that would be in our book!! I remember all the bullshit i had to go through to get mine last year. blech. |
| from artofliving : |
| dude. you let those crazy ass enterprize people know that i have mob connections damnit and they don't even wanna KNOW what's gonna be up if they don't let you have the car. well...actually I don't have any mob connections BUT if I did, think about what a cool chapter that would be in our book!! I remember all the bullshit i had to go through to get mine last year. blech. |
| from mammas-pills : |
| Thanks for leaving nice notes...it's nice :) Good luck with the car! Take care, Jason aka mammas-pills |
| from kathrynkaye : |
| Good luck getting the car! I'm sure something will work out. Credit sucks. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Good luck getting the car! |
| from artofliving : |
| I know how shitty it is to try and get a car. I'm really rooting for you to get this. Fuck a check engine light, man... |
| from artofliving : |
| i would LOOOOOVVVVVVE to write your memoirs!! I accept the position! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| pneumonia? Has she had it before? Once you get it you are more prone to get it again. When my daughter was 14 she had a cold that went into bronchitis and then pneumonia. I thought she was *faking* and I made her go to school. I felt terrible when I found out just how sick she was. This past winter she got pneumonia (again) and she didn't have any medical insurance. I hope your daughter is feeling better soon and HOORAY you like your daughter's teacher. |
| from artofliving : |
| how you stay non-fucked up will forever be a mystery to me. you are so ridiculously strong and I honestly wish I had just a fraction of that in myself. You, my darling, get the Awesome Possum Award for the week. (I don't know what all that means except for you're the coolest person for the week but how cool would it be to name an award the Awesome Possum?) |
| from r-y-r : |
| I hope things get better with your sister and that Jackie feels a whole lot better... |
| from starlight42 : |
| congrats on rebuilding your credit!! it takes a lot of work to get that stuff straightened out, but its worth it :) |
| from thecrankyone : |
| actually what you describe sounds a lot like Wiccan (witch), they use candles, spells, believe in Goddesses, and the law of three. Its actually a very old religion predating Christianity by over a 1000 years. I know several its a very private, natural peaceful religion. Some practice alone, some in covens. |
| from artofliving : |
| hehehe!! i'm SO glad i made you laugh! you've had a rough time lately, you need to smile more. |
| from artofliving : |
| thank you!! at least i dont feel like a bad person for my detailed planning! |
| from mammas-pills : |
| I just read you entry about your sis snooping...Was it her husband on meth? If he was I'll bet she was/is too. I know the meth tale all too well...and from what I've learned there are only three possible outcomes to meth...Prison, Death, or Recovery. The thing is, your sister is the one who has control of the outcome. The other thing...you can't really help her the way you might think you can...she needs to get to the point where she doesn't want to do meth, anymore. If she came to live with you then chances are she wants to quit. I have a sneaking suspicion she went back to Tommy (if he's using) as a co-dependency thing and because she just needs a little. Now, I'm basing this on my own history, albeit ancient, with meth, and watching my younger sister go through her meth addiction. The good news is we're both okay. Keep a close eye on her kids. If you ever wanna email back and forth about this...drop me a note. Take care. Jason aka mammas-pills Sorry, so long-winded...it's just I get very worked up when it comes to crystal meth. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| I'm SO sorry we didn't get together on Friday,BUT once again we had more unexpected events with the house, which resulted in yet another frickin leak!!! I have had a stressful last week and I am just worn out....sorry things are SO messed up with us trying to get together. I wish your time with your sister would have been better....anyway, we close tomorrow and everything is ALL final with this damn house! Now I can get part of my life back!! Still thinking about ya.....HUGS!!! |
| from petuniasb : |
| Well sounds like it is him. He was in navy boot camp in 1995. What a coincidence. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I am so sorry that families are so hard. I had to give up on mine, and I miss them. I love them, but they were not safe for me. |
| from artofliving : |
| Sweet girl...How I wish that I could but you a gargantuan hot fudge sundae and a cruise to Cozumel! You're the bizzity-bomb |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| I don't know if he's the same person. I only knew this guy briefly, a couple months or so, in 1995. I do remember he was a sweetheart..and he and I exchanged letters while in boot camp. We wrote for a while after we went to training school, up until I married my husband. |
| from petuniasb : |
| Just noticed my husband's name (Jody Ordeneaux) on your boot camp entry. Was just curious to know if it was the same person. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Thank you for the b-day wishes, that was SO sweet of you! Unfortunately, I have to work later this afternoon,but what a better way to celebrate another year older.......NOT! Bless you for not giving away my real age......lol.......love ya!! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| You are SO awesome! You stand strong and be there for Renee, she needs you right now and I am 100% supportive of that. Don't worry about calling me right now, you worry about you guys first then we will catch up with one another.....sending prayers and hugs, Lisa. |
| from notjustamom : |
| Woohoo for Sis! **hugs to both of yall** |
| from mpeacock : |
| I am proud of YOU! Wow, you amaze me. |
| from artofliving : |
| after reading your last entry, i found myself wishing i could make everything sweet and cushy for you again. i'm sorry about your sister and what you have to deal with, but i don't doubt you for a split second, you're a gorgeous example of a survivor. i'm sure that underneath it all, so is your sister. i imagine she just feels overwhelmed. you rock socks, though. dont forget that |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Isn't it amazing that we can have a preemptive WAR but NOT a preemptive restraining order? |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Hang in there and stay strong for yourself and Jackie.....just remember I am thinking about you and sending my prayers for your sister and her children!! HUGS!! Lisa |
| from artofliving : |
| there is nothing more that you need to do to showcase your infinate and gorgeous skills. i am terribly impressed already. thanks for adding me. i didn't get a chance to read very much of you last night but i will today and i can't wait. you're awesome |
| from jackprague78 : |
| I read "My letter to the parole board" and I cried. Wow hun. I watch a movie like "Thirteen" and decide I could never have kids, I've a lot of admiration for you taking all that and still making a life. Take care of yourself, write your stories, and I'll keep reading. |
| from jackprague78 : |
| Thanks for the comment, and I'll be adding you to my list also. I read your first entry - and here's to the "Moody Blues" - I never meet anyone else who listens to them. They were one of the first concerts I ever went to. Oh - and here's to swimming in money. I could go for a dip myself... |
| from boxx9000 : |
| this money situation (or lack of) is just ridiculous and so unfair. Maybe we should start playing the lottery? |
| from whinerwoman : |
| hey missy, thanks for the card, it was really sweet of you. I hope all is well and your family is in my prayers,as you are too!! Hugs!! Lisa |
| from missing-you9 : |
| I didnt like writing anymore. What I wrote, people riduculed, and I know I shouldnt listen to them, but when friendships are on the line.. I really didnt have much of a choice. I do check back in every once in a while, though. |
| from beauty-full : |
| Not to be weird, but I had to leave another note. I love that your profile includes the word 'evolving', because that really resonates with me. I respect that so much. |
| from beauty-full : |
| I just got your thoughtful, wonderful note. The 'evil' I say I do not believe in - it's Satan. It's sin. It's some presence trying to ruin our lives. I don't think that evil exists outside of the human mind - I think many people make destructive, damaging choices. It's easy to place that blame on an outside force; it's also comforting for the victims of those people to have something bigger than life to be angry at. But I do believe that while it's terrifying to realize that human beings, like ourselves, are responsible for the Holocaust/murder/rape/etc, it's the truth. We make bad choices because we have free will. I don't think God put some evil prince in charge of us; I don't think there is an ultimate struggle over our souls. I DO think that we'll all inevitably end up realizing our full potential, our full existance as creations of God, our wholeness. Eternity and infinity are present in only a second, and I think that it's up to us how we spend that second. Thank you for your thought provoking note, though - I love discussing this sort of thing with people. |
| from missing-you9 : |
| Haha, this hurricane is gonna be so much fun if it hits SC! Tampa must not be very happy at the moment, nor is anybody else in it's way. Mom's been watching the news all day since I got home from school ^___^ *huggles* Miss ya! |
| from serenaville : |
| Your sister is firmly in my prayers right now, as well. Having never experienced a hurricane, much less a Cat 3/4, I can only be sobered by the idea of nature's formidable power and wrath. Please keep us posted! *HUGS!!!* |
| from brandi-babe : |
| That's not a very positive note to give someone who is obviously having a hard time. I hope you could rephrase it and put a positive spin on it. None of my business, I know... I just care. |
| from brandi-babe : |
| You'll feel the happiness the first time you have extra money because there are no more car payments. THAT is when it hits. Good job, I just bought a new van and am paying almost $700/mo. YIKES! |
| from nimiiwin : |
| Three in a row from me. No, reading my archives doesn't border on stalking. It's quite flattering really. :) Thanks for the kind words. We are thrilled to be parents and love these boys alot. Already! Dreamcatchers belong above your bed. That's all. They are to help with bad dreams and all that. The boys are going to go to school on the reservation so they'll have culture and language lessons and I'll probably try to go, too! So, I'll know more one of these days. :) |
| from nimiiwin : |
| LOL - I don't know that I've ever been described as "Wild & wacky"! :) |
| from nimiiwin : |
| Hi! I found you in the most circuitous way but I've added you to my buddy list. I can totally understand that broke thing ... |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Hey Momma! Sorry I didn't get back with you the other day,but the realtor called and gave us news about the house inspection.......so you can imagine what this so-called-buyer wants US to do... anyway, it'a just crazy around here,but I promise once things calm down,we will get together!! HUGS!! Lisa |
| from boxx9000 : |
| HOORAY 8-10 is PAYDAY! I can so relate. I've been living off 9 days pay from June. Teachers are State employees that get paid only once a month. Summer school was paid AFTER completion. Hopefully I'll get a new job SOON. |
| from wilberteets : |
| Thanks! Sisters without cancer are a thing to celebrate. |
| from good-evil : |
| We'd love to review your diary but we need a link on your site back to ours :) Leave us a note once you've got that fixed and we'll put you on the pending list! Thanks lots ! |
| from r-y-r : |
| I just wanted to stop by and thank you for your note. Believe me all the prayers you can send my way will be received with an open heart. I too am praying continuously. Hope things get better in the financial department. I know what it is like to be absolutely broke.... |
| from arianstar : |
| I locked my diary... your username is your diary name xnavygrrl and your password is the same.. Im just trying to keep out prying eyes! and still keep my faithful readers! I hope you will still read me! |
| from ray0flight : |
| What a beautiful little girl.. that makes me so sad... her poor family... |
| from boxx9000 : |
| I'm hoping that my being broke is going to help my diet....I call it the starvation diet. I still have food in my pantry. Unfortunately, it was a cake mix. |
| from starlight42 : |
| well, I'm glad I am not the only weird one who can be down the middle at times about things! I'm glad that you're working at getting life back to normal for you. I really feel for what you go through, being scared about things and such. You're such a strong person though, you've come so far! |
| from ray0flight : |
| *hugs* |
| from treesssa : |
| Thanks Missy. I appreciate the prayers. Have a great weekend! |
| from mammas-pills : |
| Thanks for your words of encouragement. It's true it is a tough road to walk...the walk of a survivor, but I've learned so much a long the way. Just trying to look to the positive, and focus on the fact that the potential for humanity to do great things is there...if we only we can live through the fear. Take care, hope to hear from you again, Jason aka mammas-pills |
| from starlight42 : |
| The worst part about summer is facial breakouts. I hate that. Isn't that so sad about that lady in Utah? I hope she's found soon! Too much sadness. |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Thanks for the warm wishes. Men can seriously be such pukes. It'll work out one or another I'm sure. All I can say is that I hope that it hurries up because my sinuses can't take much more of my bawling. Oh and also, you okay? What's goin' on with the password? Let me know if you need anything. -A |
| from starlight42 : |
| Thanks for the nice message. Ya, it's sad to say but I've noticed, at least for myself, that I've learned the most from my mistakes. I wish I didn't need to make them at all...but I'm a much smarter & stronger person for it now :) |
| from crazystephie : |
| I am also praying for Lori. I remember when Laci Peterson first came up missing. It is so sad when someone is missing, but even worse when it is a pregnant woman. I think it is wonderful you put her in your diary for others to remember in their prayers. |
| from whereibegin : |
| I echo your prayer about the Utah woman... she's been on my mind all day today, and I'm very saddened by the likelihood that she is no longer with us. Thank you for writing about her. |
| from shewhowalks : |
| Think it's odd to be 55 in Missouri in July.... I never saw it above 60 here yesterday, with the whole clouds and rain stuff, and I'm in TEXAS! It's nuts! I'd like to know what's going in the world! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Hey Momma!! I have been busy today, but will write more later about what's all going on.....just didn't want you to think I was avoiding you.....btw- have a stack of mags if u want them!! Love ya!! |
| from sanguinity : |
| hey I'm sorry if you thought i was talking about you. I was just speaking of someone whome I thought was a close friend. But thank you for the note anyway :) Best wishes, Jess |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Thank you for sharing that with me. I know Diaryland is a public forum and anyone can read the stuff that you write but still... thank you. By the way, I had a Beta fish that wouldn't die once too. His name was Shamu and I flushed him down the toilet after my then roommate told me a story about a Beta that she had who used to eat the tails of her other fish - well, I started having nightmares about Shamu coming after me and also having babies (which made no sense since he was a guy fish - so, I flushed him. The end! |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Girl, errr... Grrl(hahaha!), you couldn't depress me if you tried. I've worked in a freakin' mental hospital and heard stories that you wouldn't want to try and believe. In any case, I'm off to try out the recommndations. Thank you! |
| from imaphatpig : |
| Wow! Thanks for the note! The name is really more of a way for me to me silly than anything. I've struggled with issues with dieting and eating and stuff (what gal hasn't, right?) and so the name helps me to be a little less serious about all of it. As far as the current diet, I'm doing it to try and be healthier more than anything - I have LOTS of bad habits to break. In any case, I'm gonna scoot and go and read YOUR diary. -A |
| from wilberteets : |
| Thanks for the kind note. It's so good to have friends pulling for us. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| The last thing that child molesting weirdo freak needs is more children.. What a disparaging world we live in that lets monsters like that procreate. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| You Rock!! I am so happy for you that things are looking up for you!! ::hugs:: I wish you nothing but happiness you deserve it. |
| from linusthegirl : |
| I am so, so glad things are going so well for you! |
| from notjustamom : |
| Woohoo!! You go momma! |
| from tearstream : |
| Good for you! That sounds like a good plan! |
| from shewhowalks : |
| I never know what to say when someone like you says something so kind. It's all such chitter chatter to me, and I'll never understand how anyone else would ever want to read it. So, thank you, very, very much. ~M. |
| from starlight42 : |
| sorry to hear about what's happened with your friend lisa. Unfortunately, it seems like she's not willing to face the honest truth though, and it seems like you made a good decision to stay away. It's too bad when friendships have to end like that...your daughter is very wise though! |
| from beauty-full : |
| Thanks for adding me as a favourite. If you ever want to see the woman behind the God diary, my main diary is purplebanana. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Sorry to hear about you and Lisa. I miss my best friend so much. You were lucky to have yours so close. I'll be praying for y'all. Maybe things can be mended. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| Toxic people...you are so much better off now. That is the truth of it. |
| from rollynn : |
| I totally agree with you, I think you are being a wonderful friend, don't ever change. I know what it's like to also have friends that cannot accept honesty, sometimes I think they just want to hear you agree with them even if you don't think they are right. I also have a friend that is in a very bad marriage, recently she's gotten very upset b/c I flat out tell her how I feel about the situation also. Keep being a good friend like you are...hopefully she will eventually understand. |
| from treesssa : |
| Hi! I saw Scary Movie 3 also. It pretty much was a waste of money. I think the only part i laughed at was when Charlie Sheen said "She broke her weiner?"LOL I know thats pretty pathetic!. Have a great rest of the week! |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| Linus: I'm not offended. I'm flattered. Thanks for thinking of me. :) |
| from linusthegirl : |
| Hi! LOL, you're right, I'm not 19 anymore. It will be 11 years this August since the robbery..I'm 31 now. No, it doesn't make me feel low anymore, I'm okay. Carol has really been helping me alot. You know, its funny, the other day, when we were doing EMDR, Carol brough up a point about me being so scared that I was going to die, and I thought of you, and everything you have been through. I really, really hope that does not offend you. It was your strength I was thinking of. |
| from notjustamom : |
| Oh my GAWD you talked to Renee! Thats wonderful!!!!! Hey we'll take ANY progress we can get huh? And the Fair....gawd almighty I was dyin' and sweatin' just reading anbout it. Lmao and now I'm chugging dt coke with lime like its going out of style! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| 7-4-04 Happy 4th of July! |
| from r-y-r : |
| You seem to be the type of friend to fit right into our group... The # 1 motto of me and my best friend is just that, "I am not your friend to tell you what you want to hear, I am your friend to tell you the truth and to be there for you when things dont go the way you want them to. I can completely understand where you are coming from. I hope things do get better with Lisa and your sister. I just wanted to let you know that I am in agreement with you and the way you deal with your friendships. |
| from notjustamom : |
| Hun if she cant understand being a single mom, doing it all, not having very many people to depend on to help with and the situation with your sister (especially considering all you've been through with your mom and all) then she really isnt much of a friend now is she? **hugs** I hope it all gets better and soon. Still saying prayers for your Sis. |
| from snarkypants : |
| Boy, it's a small apostate world, innit? Have you been to exmormon.org? That's kind of where I began my path away from the Celestial Kingdom. (Well, my path began much before that, but my *official* path began there!) |
| from r-y-r : |
| I wanted to thank you for adding me, how did you find me, seems nobody finds me ever...lol, any way, I added you also because just by reading your current entry I could tell I was going to like it. I usually try to read all entries, because lets face it, I have so much time at work that I usually can do it. Hope we can keep up with eachother from time to time. |
| from mpeacock : |
| Oh, but you should see how lovely I look in the hunting cap I have to wear on the skiff down here. Photos will be posted on my site soon! I bet I compare to the Britney hat! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| WHY did you have your tooth pulled? Could it not be repaired? |
| from brandi-babe : |
| Tommy doesn't need an attorney to get custody, he can represent himself. If he needs help filling out the paperwork, a paralegal can do the same thing at a much cheaper rate. |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| Just wanted you to know that I think you are doing the right thing regarding the situation with your sister and her husband. If she doesn't have the clarity to make good decisions right now the children should not suffer because of it. BTW I'm BACK! :) |
| from boxx9000 : |
| also....thinking that the bad treatment is deserved (provoked), feeling that they can't do any better than what they have, not wanting to be homeless. yep, I answer YES to all of them. Not physical abuse but definitely psychological abuse. Spouses of alcoholics fit into a similar classification. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Thanks for your nice note! |
| from treesssa : |
| I'm so sorry sweetie. I know how frustrating it can be with your sister's situation. Unfortunatley she isn't going to listen to anyone. My cousin was the same way and she went back to him after he broke her arm and her jaw!Its amazing how women put up with this. Just do what you can to help the kids, thats pretty much all you can do. And the reason why She is still with her husband is because that is her security.Obviously that loser guy cannot give her security. She is going to be sorry one day when her husband gets tired of the whole mess and kicks her butt out.I'm sure your sister realizes that you care and love her, thats why you layed in to her. Just give her time to get over being angry, because she is gonna need someone when that scumbag does something else. Hopefully it does not involve the kids or her getting seriously hurt or killed!You and your family are in my thoughts. Take care. |
| from starlight42 : |
| wow, your sister needs to wake up! I hope she does soon, for everyone's sake. |
| from brandi-babe : |
| We all make mistakes in our lives. And having children does not make us any wiser, unfortunately. It's sad that single mom's have to make so many mistakes in front of their children, but such is life. Children are pretty resilient, and hopefully she will come to her senses before too long. Just don't be too harsh on her. She needs your love and support more than anything. |
| from ray0flight : |
| sometimes being a good sister means standing up to her and telling her things she ends to hear even if she doesn't necessarily want to hear. It's tough - but you did the right thing :) |
| from rollynn : |
| I know it doesn't make you feel any better but I totally agree with you. I'm sorry to say this b/c it is your sister but she seriously needs to pull her head out of her hind region & get her priorities in line. I seriously hope she comes to her senses before anything happens to her or even worse her children. I wish you the best in getting through to her. |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| You're great, your diary is great, you are a terrific writer, startling at times, and if the reviewer had taken the time to get to know you, the review would've been worth reading. Even then, what matters is that your diary serve a purpose to YOU. |
| from tearstream : |
| Hi :) I've been going through some of the diaries that list me as a buddy tonight - I thought I'd been to you before, but I hadn't, and I'm sorry! But, I'm glad I have now, I just couldn't stop reading. I haven't laughed and cried so much in a long time. I'll be back for sure. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Ignore the reviews. I used to be about the reviews a couple years ago, now I've learned that reviews don't mean S*it. Your diary is YOUR diary, and you can write whatever you want, and set up your page however you want. Sure somethings are easier to read than others, but I like your layout, most of what reviews says is just one persons personal taste anyway, very subjective. Personally I like your diary. I wouldn't have kept you on my favs list this long if I didn't. :) |
| from rollynn : |
| I love it hon...don't worry what they say since we all know that they don't know what they are talking about |
| from new-outlook : |
| Do you like your diary, cause i know i do. And if that is all that counts shove the poor review. Obviously the reviewer didnt realize what they were dealing with. Heres my review. Content: 50/50 Updates nearly everyday, with long and intense updates. Gets detailed and very deep. Design: 40/40 Very interesting, goes well with your personality and desires. Extras: 10/10 You do a great job linking extras, notes, features. Overall 100/100 GREAT JOB |
| from marlen816 : |
| i like your diary =) |
| from starlight42 : |
| I saw that review, they suck! I think it's a hokey review site anyway. These people are probably about 16 years old, just like every other review site...take a look at their diary, THAT probably sucks. They obviously did not read enough of your entries to read the ones with some real emotions & stuff. Don't waste your time with reviews, they'll just piss you off! |
| from ray0flight : |
| I disagree with the reviewer. I think your diary is great and you DO show lots of feeling. Reviewing is not easy and get's tedious so maybe she didn't read back very far. Which doesn't make for a fair review. Anyway. I like your diary. So there :P |
| from amblus : |
| Uh, your journal rules. The person who did your review? Cannot write. It's stilted and makes no sense. I read different journals for different reasons. Your story and your past makes the day-to-day stuff more interesting, because you're a survivor and it's part of who you are. Don't let the poorly written, vague review get you down. Just say what you want and screw anyone who doesn't like it. |
| from starlight42 : |
| wow- you're getting the weather we had last weekend & beginning of this week. Sucky. I'm glad I dont' live near a river, some rains covered cars completely! |
| from easyreviews : |
| Your reviews is up! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| That is one hot momma! I knew you would be sexy- you can just tell by the way someone writes.... yep I really am homely! : ) |
| from starlight42 : |
| I like the new layout & the pics! I got to see what you look like :) |
| from poolagirl : |
| I forgot to tell you how much I really LOVE your new template! And you are so pretty too! |
| from amblus : |
| You are a hot mama! I love knowing what diarylanders look like. |
| from easyreviews : |
| This is a link code, so just copy and paste: <a href="http://easyreviews.diaryland.com">Easy Reviews</A> And remember: no link, no review! |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| YOU is pretty! Pretty, pretty girl. So nice to put a face to the words! And while I have you by the notes, I've been meaning to put my vote in on the Bosnian/Czech stalker guy, I mean, love interest: CODE RED, girl, RUN, don't walk. That's just my two cents, for what it's worth, but I do care about you. |
| from ray0flight : |
| You are a pretty little thing aren't you? |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Happy "got gold" day to you!!! |
| from linusthegirl : |
| Here I am!!! This is the new diary!! |
| from new-outlook : |
| i say steal the cookies... (blog design) oh good going with showing the mental case your axe... and did you mention to him that you won 1st Prize at the axe throwing contest too? ;) |
| from ray0flight : |
| Hey dont' feel bad for cutting him lose. I think he's a nut!! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Dont'ch just love it when I write a book in your notes LOL |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Wow, I seem to be the minority here but I dont see this as a fight or flee situation. It appears to be a cultural difference. As for the moving so fast thing.... My husband purposed to me after our first date (I was drunk and said yes) that brand-new lust thing passes and then it moves into something more (9 years later we got married). I read this as romantic. But please keep in mind that if you are terrible against any thing having to do with the whole submissive female thing, then the idea to date or become involved with a man from that part of the world just might not be a good idea. Its a simple cultural difference, that can be overcome with the right about of hard work and love. Also know that no one from BOSNIA/HERZEGOVINA could get out unscathed. You will be dating a man with deep issues if you chose to continue this relationship. Personally, I was more concerned that he drinks that any of the other stuff. Either way your 6th sense still works, you still have your GOD-GIVEN gut reaction and above all else listen to that. If he is scary or dangerous you already know it deep down, think hard and dig deep. You deserve all the happiness in the world! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Yikes!! That guy definately qualifies as very scary.. i would run as far away as possible, he sounds like he is totally messed up, in a scary mentally ill way. |
| from ray0flight : |
| Yikes. Get away. And stay away. Far far away. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| 6am! For a nonbooty call! He is either very smitten or very strange! Either way I think its going to be fun to read about Xandor in the weeks to come. Live it up dear, I am in need of some vicarious fun. |
| from ray0flight : |
| This new man sounds very intriguing. Him stopping by all the time makes me nervous so just be careful k? *hugs* |
| from serenaville : |
| The new layout is fabulous!! So whimsical. Light. Refreshing. I say "STEAL THE COOKIES!!!", of course! Heh. Well, unless they're sugar cookies with the big 'ol granules on top... then, not so much. |
| from ray0flight : |
| I love your new layout. I think it's fantastic! |
| from janna182 : |
| I don't really like livejournal, either. I don't know what the deal is. Happy Mother's Day! (i know it's late, but you are getting it before my mom gets her present, so hey) |
| from serenaville : |
| I'd like to add my warm wishes for a very happy Mother's Day. Hopefully you were able to have some time to relax and enjoy your day. You deserve credit for being a good mom every day of the year, though... not just on a specific calendar day! *HUGS!!* :) |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Happy M-O-M's Day! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! |
| from missing-you9 : |
| If things dont get better soon, and I dont find something worth living for again, Im going to so absolutely off the wall.. |
| from notjustamom : |
| My Niece was on Zyprexa before she got pregnant. It seemed to work well with her BiPolar-ness. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I really find my self engrossed when you share your life stories. You always make me cry, I wanted so much for this to end with the perfect marriage. I am so sorry it didn't. I have been divorced for forever now but it still holds its place in my life. In the end though, it was the key to my completion, not my undoing as I was sure would be the case when it first happen. God Bless you always. |
| from wilberteets : |
| Not only do I live in Louisiana, but I have family in St. Louis. I like Missouri a lot, especially in the fall. |
| from marlen816 : |
| Congrats on completing boot camp! My hats off to you, girl, as I could have never done that. |
| from ray0flight : |
| I can't believe that they booted her either. I heard that AI's ratings aren't close to last season so maybe it's fixed to get a little drama and attention? That's the only thing that makes sense. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| OMG- thanks hot momma for the juicy gossip!! I can't believe it,but now it all makes sense.....just out of curiosity......how did Piere find this info out?? I bet he's a real saint too!! Love ya and thanks 4 the update. |
| from kitty-kaboom : |
| thanks love!!!!!!! |
| from poolagirl : |
| George RULES! YAY! Hail to thee, kindred spirit! |
| from starlight42 : |
| I have never tried overstock.com- is it a good site? good deals? |
| from missing-you9 : |
| Im happy to know that I do have people I can talk to, even if I haven't met them in real life or not. After JD died, I totally lost it.. I didnt think I could go on, but if I didnt, I would be breaking the promise I made to him. I never wanted to upset him and I wanted him to have the best life he could. I guess with all that was going on, I didnt stop to realize how I was treating my parents. The rage that built up inside me really had no way out, and without even realizing it, I took it out on other people I loved. I have a lot of things to look forward to now. My education, my friends, my family, my OWN family one day *laughs*. You're right, faith does carry a lot of people through these days. But also knowing you can depend on another helps a lot too *smiles* Thanks for that not (The longest you ever sent!!! :D:D) it helped me a lot. ^___^ Luv ya always, Sessy |
| from missing-you9 : |
| Yer a good mommy!!!! Kind of wish I read this diary when I was young (Tho I dont think you started it 7 years ago ^_^), I might not have been so beeyatchy to my mom... |
| from treesssa : |
| Oh honey! Jackie and Sara sound like the same kid!Everyone keeps telling me "Wait until she goes through puberty"I guess the backtalk and the anger will get worse. Don't let it get you down Missy.I'm sure you are doing the best you can.Those 7yr olds are tricky ones to figure out.They aren't babies anymore, but they aren't teenagers yet.Sara threw a similar tantrum the other day, she could not stay outside with the other kids, because she had to come inside to do her homework.I talked to my mom about this stuff and she said i did the same thing when i was her age. So this is nothing new. My take on it, is all kids are like this. Congrats...you have a normal child! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| too some extent it is normal. All kids try the backtalking and so on. They don't really mean it, its just thier way of trying to hurt us, because they are angry we won't let them have their way. The key is to never give into it,or you reward it. I have also found that it helps if when Warren is in a good mood, I have a serious talk with him about appropriate ways to express his feelings, and how it hurts people and how would he like it if I talked to him that way. It sounds like you have the right idea. Also don't let it shock you, or get you all bent out of shape, because then you have just handed her a weapon to use when she wants to get you. Just be matter of fact and let her know, that talk is not acceptable and then ignore her until she talks appropriately. At least that usually works with Warren, most of the time. "I'm sorry, I don't hear whining. When you ask me nice, I will listen. " |
| from starlight42 : |
| Don't know if that's normal for 7 year olds or not, probably! You stood your ground though & that's good. I think you did the right thing. Sometimes parents have to make those tough decisions, you know what's better for her right now, she's too young to know! |
| from whereibegin : |
| Missy, I'm really proud of you. It's so easy to let our past and our pain define who we are, so it can be really difficult to let it go. But you sound like you're ready to do so, and I applaud you! |
| from boxx9000 : |
| Happy Easter. did the Easter Bunny come to your house last night? |
| from marlen816 : |
| I even got tired reading about all that you have to do! Have a good weekend! |
| from serenaville : |
| I am so remiss. I finally read the interview link you left in my notes. I would have gotten to it sooner, but have been dealing with a lot of laptop technical difficulties of late. Thank you so much for sharing it with me. That man is scary-ass looking. I've now caught up on your entries, and I'm glad that you are finding some peace now. You do what's best for you in terms of this diary. I'll avidly read your updates as you choose to make them. *HUGS* |
| from stephielove : |
| Hi, I found your diary through the Military diaryring. I skipped around a bit, and read your life story- I hope it gets printed, and I'm glad that he is in jail. It made me sick to read, but I'm glad you are doing so well for your daughter. How long were you in the navy? (did I miss that?)... Also, I read your entry on the people who are anti-war, and it made me happy... My husband is in Iraq right now for a year. boo! Anyway, great diary. Good luck with everything. |
| from starlight42 : |
| ya, that teacher seems wacky. I hope the situation is fixed. You just can't stick a child by themselves like that forever. Maybe she needs to work on her teaching skills or something first! |
| from treesssa : |
| What is up Jackie's teacher's butt?My daughter is 7 also and in the first grade. I got a report that Sara is also a chatterbox! Her teacher didn't seperate her from the other kids! She dealt with the situation like a well trained teacher is supposed to!Oh that makes me so made that she isolated Jackie!Sounds like she is just too lazy to deal with the kids!You don't seperate a kid from the others unless they are physically hurting the other children!Jeez! What a lazy-ass broad!Of course Jackie is gettng green cards! She is a good girl, she is just very social. There isn't anything wrong with that.Sara never shuts up, but she is still eligable to get the purple cards.Sorry, i just had to rant, because i'm afraid this teacher is going to make Jackie feel bad because she is too lazy to deal with the situation. Anyway, no, don't stop writing! We would all miss you hon!Take care and good luck with that goon teacher! |
| from notjustamom : |
| Id miss you tons and tons but its like a graduation isnt it? Sometimes you know its just TIME to move on. |
| from lilith73 : |
| NOOO! You can't go!! |
| from missing-you9 : |
| Dont leave!!!!!!! We'll miss you and your diary is very interesting! Dont goooooo! *cries* |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I am sure you need to do whats best for you, but I really hope you dont leave! PS got an email account you read and I will resend email |
| from whinerwoman : |
| r u crazy momma??!! U better not leave, there will always be something you will want to talk about and besides keeping a journal helps release all that you keep inside and at least you know you have fans out there that give a damn about you!! |
| from starlight42 : |
| well, you could always keep a journal, write a little less and just write about other stuff. you're right, there's only so much you can write about your life. But there's always new things going on you can write about, venting to be done or thoughts on current events! |
| from serenaville : |
| Best luck with the interview!! Uhm, any way for one to know who the potential interviewers are? Any link(s)? Will you be posting a transcript afterward? Inquiring minds want to know. ;) |
| from starlight42 : |
| good luck!! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| (((Missy))) sent you email yesterday. AOL has a tendance to lose my mail before it arives so I wanted to let you know. |
| from cactustree : |
| thank you for your sweet note -- it really does help! |
| from missing-you9 : |
| No problem ^-^ |
| from ray0flight : |
| Wow you have been through so much - I really respect the way you have handled things. I know it must be hard for you to relive it the way you do. I'm sorry *hugs* i think you are just amazing. |
| from lilith73 : |
| If it helps any, I am always rooting for you. I think you are incredibly strong. |
| from boxx9000 : |
| boxx9000 = mom of kitty-kaboom |
| from notjustamom : |
| YES YES YES!!!! good! |
| from treesssa : |
| Wonderful!! I am so happy for you!!(((((Hugz))))) |
| from kitty-kaboom : |
| ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from serenaville : |
| HUZZAH!!!!! That is just aces!! I am overjoyed for you. Wow. And? 'Mr. Pistachio'? HEE. Sorry, the juvenile sense of humor rears its ugly head. One can only guess how often he gets ranked on for his name. Anyhow, congratulations!! *HUGS* :D |
| from whereibegin : |
| Hallelujah! I'm so happy for you! |
| from wifemotherme : |
| I know this must have been a terrible week for you and you have often been in my thoughts. I am so happy that at least this much of it is over for now. (((HUGS))) |
| from marlen816 : |
| Yea! That is so awesome! I can't imagine how relieved you are! God is so good. |
| from arianstar : |
| yay! I'M SO RELIEVED, MAY WE ALL SLEEP A LITTLE EASIER! bless you, and poor toby too. Thank god for some happiness this week! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| ((hugs)) its been a stressful week for you, hon. But I am thrilled to hear the monster won't be free on the streets anytime soon. At least there is some good news. Toby wasn't your fault, sounds like somebody had it in for you and him. stupid vengefull people. ((hugs)) |
| from notjustamom : |
| awww man that sucks about toby! im sorry sweetie. been there and done that! |
| from sanguinity : |
| So sorry to hear about Toby. :( that's so sad. I wish you and Jackie strength. It's not easy letting go of a pet, whether they died or had to go away. I'm sure you made Toby one of the happiest pups for 6 weeks... but it's still a sucky situation. So sorry deary :( Best wishes |
| from mpeacock : |
| I am so sorry to hear about your dog. I truly think stray dogs are much better behaved than petagree (SP)animals. Just remember how hard it is to take care of your daughter AND a doggie. That is one of the reasons I don't have one anymore, and that we travel a lot. I miss my doggie too, even though he's been gone since 1997. |
| from missing-you9 : |
| *smiles* Thank you so much. It means a lot knowing there are people out there who care. :) Again, thanks. Oh By the way, I wanted to ask. Where were you stationed? Any place fun?? ^_^ |
| from whereibegin : |
| I'm really sorry about Toby. You must be devastated... Husband and I had to return our first pug to the breeder because of a serious congenital defect that we just didn't have the money (several thousand dollars) to repair. At the time, I was despondent - and we only had him for four days. After six weeks, I can only imagine how much more difficult it is to give up your dog. They become part of the family, don't they? I am so sorry for you and Jackie. Hang in there... |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| Sorry to hear about your dog, especially for your daughter. But you did give him a chance, which is more than a lot of animals get. I hope Toby is re-adopted, and that you find a pet down the road that's a better fit for your living situation. |
| from serenaville : |
| *TIGHT HUGS* That's a tough blow, for sure. I have long gnashed my teeth at the inequities and injustices of renting, having done so for the majority of my adult life. Yes, we're mercifully getting out of it in a couple months, but I still relate to the frustration of being complained about. No way to muzzle preschoolers, though! I am very sorry for you and Jackie. Mourn Toby the ways you both need to, for as long as it takes. When the time is right to get a new pet, you will know it. |
| from starlight42 : |
| Oh no- now your dog!! That so sucks. There should have been a warning. If I were you I'd talk to the landlady and find out what proper procedure is. I mean, what if there's something else you're doing that someone is complaining about, will they just kick you out, no notice? I think it's worth looking into. |
| from notjustamom : |
| oh gawd. oh baby....Im so sorry. Oh geezus the awful pain of not having Mom there.****Big hugs****lotsa tears**** |
| from missing-you9 : |
| That entry was sad.. *sniffs* I kind of stumbled upon your diary and just wanted to ask, how long were you in the Navy? My mom and dad were in the Navy for 20 years. Just curious. *waves* Baibai |
| from starlight42 : |
| Wow. Like everyone else who read your entry, I was moved. As I was reading, not skipping a word, my hands were balled up in fists and I was taking deep breaths, trying to fight back tears, since I'm at work. But I'm sure if anyone were to have seen my face, they'd wonder what was wrong. I know you probably don't want pity, but I do want to say that I am so outraged at what Rodney did to you and your family. And I know you go through a daily struggle now I'm sure, but I don't have any idea what that's like. I am so glad though that all these years you've held on and managed to make it this far. You seem so very nice, you didn't deserve something like this...I hope Rodney is in jail the rest of his life. I assume he's appealing or something, because you mentioned the case being re-opened. Anyway, I wish you all the happiness in your days to come. |
| from whinerwoman : |
| You go hot Momma!! If they don't print your story they are the biggest Glamour dingbats that I know!! Your an inspiration for others and don't give up submitting it in to other magazines!! I love you and your in my prayers!! Smooches.........momma!!!! |
| from trulypoetic : |
| I think anyone that read your story would be deeply moved. Stalking and women who allow it and the entire issue is so faceted. It's so easy for a person to think nothing bad will ever happen to them, to the extent that they almost seem to leave themselves wide open. I think you should write a memoir. Truly I do. I think you could touch a lot of people who need to hear your story before it is their own or worse yet, and I say this as a mother, to see your story become our own children's story. |
| from kaire : |
| The whopper comment cracked me up! I am going to use that one because it is right on the damn money! I just read your profile and I do believe I'm going to have to start reading you (haven't checked how long you've been writing, dear Lord don't let it be for 3 years!) |
| from trulypoetic : |
| I am amazed at your courage and your tenacity. I believe you have much to live for and many to pour your wisdom and grace upon. So many could learn from you that life is a gift...always. I'm positive that your mother is proud of you, very proud. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Oh babygirl my heart hurts after reading that. I want to give you a big hug and give you all the love in the world to make up for what you had to indure. What a beautiful mirical you are. |
| from erlenweg6 : |
| ohhhh.....I am sitting here in a state of numbness and shock....I am so tremendously sorry for what has happened to you, your mom and sisters. You have been through an absolute nightmare, and such torture I cannot even begin to fathom. Your resilience and strength amaze me. What heinously evil acts humans are capable of.... |
| from treesssa : |
| Gosh girl, you made me cry.That would be really something if your story gets put in that magazine. Good luck to you. |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Its such a shame I never run into nitwitts like the guy in the laundry. I could have put the fear of God in him (said in my best Pentecostal preacher drawl) using only the word. (So that's what that scripture about it being a double edge sward means!!!! hahah) Ironically I just read something over at kaire's diary along the same lines - I explained in her notes that the only way I know how to deal with people or life is with my faith based morals so I do tend to talk about God if I am offering advice or something. I am thinking what she was talking about was some incident along the lines of the person you encountered, and not some friends advice as I had assumed. In which case I can revert back to my old ways and say the easiest way to deal with that one would be a 2x4. |
| from starlight42 : |
| I think that letter was hilarious! Obviously it was a bit of a joke, trying to point out that somethings just don't work in modern society. If anyone was offended by that- I'd think they were a bit too serious! |
| from treesssa : |
| Oh girl you crack me up!! LMAO!! |
| from new-outlook : |
| there is no freaking way that that woman wrote that? IS she mentally insane? I can handle religous beliefs and their hatred towards homosexuals, thats fine, but holy mother of mary, that woman is taking stated passages way too far. GEEZ. Freaking weirdos |
| from awittykitty : |
| Bipolars rock...and never a dull moment, huh? welcome. :-) |
| from purplebanana : |
| Thanks for your support - I really thoughy my letter was so-so at best, but it's good to know that I am making people cry all over the place. I take a weird sort of pride/relief in that fact. |
| from starlight42 : |
| I hope it's not identity theft...and hope you have a nice weekend. |
| from mpeacock : |
| Yes, I had to lock it. Students found it. Your password is peacock. :) |
| from wilberteets : |
| Thank you very much for your kind note. I'm devastated. I find that Valium helps greatly. Maybe I'll survive. But it's still pretty iffy. |
| from sanguinity : |
| hello again. my father has never made a "habit" of slapping me. I just get a little out of control sometimes. But this time i didn't think I deserved one... so that's why I put it in there. I didn't say anything to have it coming to me... so that's all. But thanks for showing your concern. And the help seems to be helping (that sounds funny). |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Good luck today momma and just be calm and be YOU.....you have done nothing wrong, just remember that if I was there with you, you could hold my hand. I will pray for you and hope everything goes well, stay strong!! Love Ya!! |
| from whinerwoman : |
| Hey momma, just checking to see if your okay, I read your entry yesterday and I just want you to know thatI think you are a beautiful woman and I love you bunches!!! Have a good day!! |
| from notjustamom : |
| Girl attitude is EVERYTHING! Stop thinking negatively. I know, its easier said then done. My sister is obese to the point of wanting the Ginsu thing/Stomach jobber thingwhatnot done but she lost her 10 yr old job in January. She had a GREAT boyfriend for a while. And comapared to her (in her words "He was a runty thing". Now he was built nice (especially from behind!:) )Mom always said there's someone out there for everyone and I believe it. Mom wouldnt lie... right? LOL. (not MY mom) |
| from boxx9000 : |
| THANKS for adding me. I'll be back to read some more. ~Boxx |
| from serenaville : |
| *HUGS you tightly* We all have times of low self-esteem. "This too shall pass" is one of my mantras. For the record (As if you hadn't already guessed), I find you to be pretty damned terrific. Appearances are just that, and can be changed if one truly wants to; but personality, character and size of one's heart are what shine. You, my dear, are blinding. Chin check[tm leftunspoken], and keep fighting the good fight, hon!! You're not one of my new faves for nothing. ;) |
| from treesssa : |
| Shutup! You are beauitiful, no matter what size you are! Good luck with the interview((((((good vibes))))))) |
| from sanguinity : |
| Thanks for showing your concern. I've started to seek help... and we'll see how it goes. I hope things work out soon for you and the dog hehe. ::hugs:: |
| from treesssa : |
| LOL!! Honey, this is why i keep my dogs confined to the kitchen with a baby gate. Those turds can't be trusted in the other parts of the house.Good luck on the potty training!It took us a year!Now to get them to stop chewing on everything... |
| from treesssa : |
| LOL!! Honey, this is why i keep my dogs confined to the kitchen with a baby gate. Those turds can't be trusted in the other parts of the house.Good luck on the potty training!It took us a year!Now to get them to stop chewing on everything... |
| from serenaville : |
| I wanted to leave a proper sign, but couldn't locate a Guestbook in your gorgeous layout, so here I am. ;) Thank you, so very much, not only for your grin-inspiring comments... but for the honor of adding serenaville to your buddy list/faves. Any glance through my archives wil show that I don't take such things lightly, or for granted. That you would invest yourself and the precious commodity of your time by reading my ceaseless prattling, truly warms me! I can do no less, so will be bookmarking your space for more thorough reading. You have more entries than I might be able to fully read, but if you note a significant spike in pageloads, I am the culprit. Thanks again, for being a new regular reader! Take care. :) P.S. I would never laugh, as I find both names gorgeous. I know a Jacqueline, who will always hold firm place in my heart. Sentimental is as sentimental does, hey? ;) |
| from poolagirl : |
| You are so right, my dear. I have been ignoring my angels. I think it's time to visit them again! |
| from starlight42 : |
| oh ya, I still feel bad if I take someone off. I agree it makes sense, if you don't read someone on a regular basis to remove them. I'm sure everyone understands. I know I change my list often. I think it keeps it interesting to be reading new people and then keep the ones you really love. |
| from starlight42 : |
| of course, how can a cell phone NOT go off in the movies nowadays? heck, we've even had phones go off in church! Anyway, I can relate to your buddy list, I am always trimming mine down. I usually have people that read me, but I have several who don't. The worst is when you leave someone notes and they never reply, even if you've added them as a fav. I pretty much always reply, especially to new readers. Doesn't mean I will also add them, but I think it's only polite. So I only like the nice people :) |
| from wifemotherme : |
| Thank you so much for the great review you did for the Passion. I have really been putting off seeing it because....well I am not sure why - I am scared I think. Anyway, After reading your expriance I really want to go see it now. THANKS! |
| from ray0flight : |
| Wow. What a great review. I love this entry! THank you for your note of encouragment to me. Thank you for being so supportive *hugs* luv ya! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Happy First Anniversary!! I love reading your diary. |
| from poolagirl : |
| Happy Anniversary to you! Happy Anniversary to you! |
| from ray0flight : |
| Happy Anniversary! |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| You have an angel on your shoulder hon. What a sweet story about your baby. Thanks for the note earlier. xxoo Jen |
| from marlen816 : |
| What a neat story. I cried like a baby reading it! Happy Birthday, Jackie!! |
| from whereibegin : |
| Hey, thanks for the note. I hope you are enjoying your little one's birthday. I loved your entry - it was so touching. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I had my identity stolen and it took about a year to get it all fixed. They opened a cel phone account. I told them I could figure out who did it if they let me see the phone bill, but no. It's all fixed now. |
| from treesssa : |
| Yeah, well my daughter just turned 7 last week and she also has that 'attitude' Jackie has.I think its the age.Sara has been coming home from school all crabby/whinney and has a real snotty attitude.I just tell her if she keeps it up, she is going to sit in her room all day, no tv no video games.LOL Jackie sounds alot like my Sara with making up songs.I crack up alot with this kid. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I sure feel for you. I don't know what I am going to do if and when my child is sick enough to stay home from school? |
| from lilith73 : |
| Hang in there! I got your letter in the mail yesterday..thank you so much!!!!!! |
| from elleinad85 : |
| You left me a message... I wasn't aware you read my diary. At any rate, thank you for the comment. 'Twas encouraging. |
| from ray0flight : |
| That guy sounds horrible. What an ass. |
| from cactustree : |
| kick some ass, sweetie! |
| from ray0flight : |
| I am sorry things didn't work out quite as well as you had hoped! I am glad this nightmare is just about through for you (((hugs))) |
| from mpeacock : |
| Your doggie underpants story mad me laugh. I hope you're feeling better soon. I had to lock my diary, here is your password peacock |
| from arianstar : |
| just wanted to let you know that i'm thinking about you today and sending my good vibes to you. and to let you know i'm praying for you to have your answers finally. i hope you DO get them today...take care |
| from whereibegin : |
| Thank you for the ego-stroke - you know, you were my first reader, I will never forget that! I have so enjoyed reading your diary and following your journies. Your strength and courage never cease to amaze me. |
| from msironmonger : |
| I just wanted you to know that I've been reading your diary. You're a very strong woman. I really admire you. I'm thinking of you during this hard time in your life. Try to take it easy on yourself. You've been through so much in your short time on this planet. I'm hoping everything turns out the way you want it to with the DNA results. I'm sorry to hear about the death of your friend. |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| Takes one to know one, hon. You're a peach! Thanks for the note. Thinking of you, have been reading through your journal when I get a chance here and there, and haven't been able to put into words yet what I'd like to say to you. Look for an entry on my page devoted to xnavygrrl in the future. |
| from whereibegin : |
| I'm thinking of you... |
| from ray0flight : |
| Good luck with the results....I will be thinking of you. |
| from treesssa : |
| Good luck with the DNA review!!! I'll be thinking about you!! As for underwear and the dog....Yes, puppies do that.LOL I actually found of pair of my underwear in the backyard that our doggie stole! |
| from treesssa : |
| Good luck with the DNA review!!! I'll be thinking about you!! As for underwear and the dog....Yes, puppies do that.LOL I actually found of pair of my underwear in the backyard that our doggie stole! |
| from mpeacock : |
| Your entry was wonderful. I feel a tear coming dowm my cheek. |
| from lilith73 : |
| Thank you so very much. That touched me so very much. It has sent chills down my spine. Just..thank you, thank you, thank you. |
| from treesssa : |
| Listen to Martina McBride's song "In My Daughter's Eyes". You'll like that one. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| that was soo sad.. that girl is going to have a hard road ahead of her, but with caring people like you around she should have an easier time of it. Its really true, your babies will always be your babies no matter what. I can't imagine anything would ever make me stop loving my son.. (((hugs))) |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Most of the entries that you write are so moving. I can almost feel your soul sometimes and I find myself being constantly amazed at your strength and clarity. I should know more people like you. You would be the perfect person to be an advocate for people in crisis. I would certainly want you on my side. xxoo Jen |
| from treesssa : |
| Wow that was a great article/video! Maybe now they will get this thing going now that everyone knows you have been waiting forever! You did a good interview Melissa. Good for you. And good luck!! |
| from ray0flight : |
| Thank you for sharing that article with us. I knew that you had been through something and didn't want to push for details but I really had no idea of the full extent. Your strength and normalness astounds me.. what an horrible ordeal that no one should ever have to go through. You are wonderful *hugs* |
| from poolagirl : |
| Toby is a lucky dog! A very lucky dog! He will bring you so much joy! Congratulations! Keep us informed! |
| from mom-on-roof : |
| Thanks for reading my page. I'll be reading back through yours too. I admire how you talk to your dog. I yell at my dog and talk gently to my trees. |
| from sanguinity : |
| Sounds like you had a pretty nice weekend! ::Welcomes Toby:: hooray for the dog. glad everything is goin ok for now... any pics of the pup yet? much love and hugs |
| from ray0flight : |
| OH! Toby sounds wonderful... do you have any pictures of him? |
| from sanguinity : |
| Thanks hun! I thought it was cute, too. I hope you feel better soon deary. Just hang in there... it does get better, eventually. Maybe not today, tomorrow, or the next day... but don't lose hope! :) much love and hugs -Jessica |
| from false-apathy : |
| I just happened to stop by somehow... I hope you feel better soon. ^___^ Much love. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| Just letting you know that my diary is no longer locked..Take care! |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Very powerful letter. I wrote a similar one to my mom, but haven't sent it. This was a few years back. Even though she did some really painful, horrible things to us, I am now learning that I need to come to forgiveness...for me. That word still confuses me though so I am working on it. Just how do you forgive someone, for your own sanity and still not have them be a part of your life? hmmm. You have had such a painful life. And despite all the pain, you are such a wonderful mother and person. It is either despite -or- in spite of those things that have made you the strong person that you are. Keep on pluggin' sweetie. xxoo Jen |
| from marlen816 : |
| Melissa - What an incredible letter. You have awesome strength. I admire you forstanding up to your uncle and no longer being the victim. ((Hugs)) |
| from starlight42 : |
| oh! that will be so fun to get a new dog!! And I know how you feel about taxes, they totally suck! |
| from new-outlook : |
| thanks for teaching your daughter not to say the F word. I dont really like that word either. So thanks |
| from new-outlook : |
| thanks for the note, it booasted my self confidence ;) but i am no where as dead sexy as mister i want to hump all day long. Yay and congrats on the raise... well deserved i bet. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| ((hugs)) I'm soo sorry about your sis. Its sounds like on some level she feels that she deservers to be hit, adn doesn't think she deserves to be treated right. Some women go back to thier abusers because they are so used to being treated that way, they feel they deserve it as some sort of bizarre self punishment. |
| from chadin : |
| granted, i'm a boy and all, but of all your reasons why your flirtatious boss was giving you a banana, you forgot one (at least in my mind.) But then again, I'm a guy and perverted. AND JIM CARREY RULES! Maybe he was thinking naughty thoughts, "You like banana's huh? Hmm...interesting. I've got a good banana, too" I'm going to stop there b/c I can go on and on - seriously, I can. Just something for you to (not) think about. |
| from sanguinity : |
| Well hello there! I decided I would let you know that I leanred a lot from your post today. It was interesting. Good Luck with the prozac!!! I'm hoping that maybe I'll be able to start on it soon. I need to be done with these dark days. All my best, Jessica |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| I hope the prozac works. It seems there's some concern about side effects, but then, I'm on other medications that have tons of side effects too, like Prevacid and Allegra. I'm willing to sacrifice to see if the Prozac works. Thanks for your support guys. |
| from treesssa : |
| YAY!! Prozac!!! LOL I hope it works out for you.I'm excited for you. If you go to a dietician, let us know how that goes.I was on some meds a while back(been off 2 years) and trying to lose the weight. It caused me to gain alot of weight, so i know what you mean about being depressed because of the weight gain then eating because your depressed... Sounds like you are getting things on track! Good For You!! Good Luck Take care honey!I'm rootin' for ya!! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| They can't commit you unless you are a danger to your self or others. Legally that is the only time they can commit someone against thier will. |
| from chadin : |
| Don't even worry about the psychiatrist. They are not going to commit you b/c you are bipolar, unless you are trying to harm other people and yourself, then maybe. You only get committed anymore if you are a danger to society and/or yourself. And I doubt that is you. I know I can't comphrehend talking to my own child about life, since I don't have one, and I do know it is difficult to instill wisdom and confidence in them when you have doubts of your own (know where that's coming from), but the thing about uniqueness, it's a strange thing. You, as a person, are unique because no one else has the same characteristics, personalities, experiences all wrapped up into one. But there are alot of people that have the same experiences, same characteristics, same personalities out there. So, what's so unique then? God made you unique in order to challenge you. You are bipolar and have these fears. Now, obviously, you can just give in to them and live in fear, but I don't think that is you. Yeah, you might think you have it rougher than most, maybe you do, but you also have that spark inside you that is very strong. Hell, you are raisint a child, right?!? So, try to be HONEST with yourself, not CRITIZISE yourself because of your downfalls. Your child will know the difference; somehow, they just know. |
| from treesssa : |
| Yep those 6yr olds can be hell on the nerves.LOL Mine will be 7 next month...i'm not in a looney bin yet. Mini-pins are very cute and very loveable! My neighbor had one and i have known a couple of people that have had one. The only thing is, they bark at everything and nothing! They are very strong willed dogs too.I remember my neighbor accidently left the gate open and the little chooch got out. 3 neighbors including myself spent half an hour trying to capture the little runt!4 adults running around the front yard!LOL It was hilarious. It looked like we were playing tag. Good luck with puppy shopping. It can be very fun. Having a dog in the house is very exciting and rewarding at times...until they pee on the carpet.LOL Take care! |
| from chadin : |
| I mean, it seems like you are going through soo much shit right now, and you still have a positive aura about you. Just incredible really. |
| from whereibegin : |
| I'm so glad you are making some headway with the legal system - please let us all know what happens after your meeting with this attorney! I'm sending good thoughts your way... |
| from starlight42 : |
| just wanted to say I love your layout & good luck with quitting smoking. My boyfriend is working on that right now, and I know it's not at all easy. Good luck & hope things work out for your friends as well. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| Sounds like you and I have very similiar religious beliefs. That was one of my beefs with the the Catholic Clutch er I mean Church. That and the whole anti gay, anti birth control, anti- etc.. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| Let me know if you want the password to my diary :-) |
| from monitor : |
| P.S. I once gained about 30 pounds in 4 months on an antidepressant. I'd literally eat in my sleep, I'd wake up and all the cheese and crackers would be gone and I'd have no memory whatsoever of having Hoovered them up. It's scary, I know. I'll be thinking of you. |
| from monitor : |
| I don't know about yours, but my Y offers "scholarships" and reduced rates for those in financial need, especially for single-parent families. If this would make joining even the littlest bit more feasible, you should call and ask to talk to someone about that. Good luck, lady. |
| from ray0flight : |
| I am not sure when you started reading me but last year I was on a medication that did the same to me. I put on over 50lbs in 3 months. I understand exactly how you feel. I know what it's like to see people and to catch that look in their eye when they don't rcognize you. I know what it's like to try on normal clothes and cry when they don't fit. I know how it feels I really do. I would eat and eat and eat. I never felt full and these kinds of drugs change your metabolism so not only do you eat EVERYTHING but your body changes food to fat right away. I have been off that drug for a while but I still cry when I look at pictures, or think about the things people said, or look at my stretch marks. I get it. I really do. *hugs* Hang in there. |
| from sanguinity : |
| Hi there! I haven't checked my diary in sooo long! But thank you for leaving me that note. It's been over 3 months and it still feels like the 1st week w/o her. Thank you for beeing sincere :) I definitely look forward to writing less depressing entries... but for now, it's all I got. Looks like you are goin' through some rough times too... well, you're strong, from what I have read, and I know u can make it through whatever comes ur way. Good luck! ::HUGS:: -Jessica |
| from ray0flight : |
| I really hope that things work out for you. I am not sure of the details or anything but I am here for you if need be *hugs* |
| from fangedfemale : |
| I'm going to be locking my diary due to some harassment from some people. If you'd like to keep reading, please go to my profile and send me a note with your e-mail so I can have it e-mailed to you. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I love your resolution list. I have to think more positive this year too. Take care. |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| That letter is perfect...genuine and honest. You know you've come a long way when you can put yourself out there like that. Well done sweetie. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| ARGH! That complete ASS! Ooh I so wish I could get my hands on him..and my feet..and my elbows..and my knees..and just give him a good butt kicking! I think you know who I'm talking about...Shayne. I also want to kick Michelles ass. I'm going to have to start keeping a list of all the ass I plan to kick for ya. o_O I should buy some new boots. |
| from ray0flight : |
| Merry Christmas! |
| from fangedfemale : |
| That's exactly right. I have a chemical imbalance..that's what it all is..chemicals..Hey, Have you heard of Sylvia Browne? If so and if you like her I'd like you to read a certain chapter of one of her books. And hey, you still never said who mentioned Satan to you? *Puts on steel-toed boots to get ready for some mud-hole stomping* hehe. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| Firstly, Who told you that it was Satan and you should give up? I wanna know and I wanna kick their asses. Secondly, I want to kick Lisa's hubby's ass for her. >:-< |
| from treesssa : |
| Merry Christmas Missy!! I wish the best for you in the New Year coming up! Take care! ((((((HUGZ)))))) |
| from janna182 : |
| Hey, thanks for listing me as a favorite. I like your diary a lot, too. |
| from poolagirl : |
| WOW! You are quite a writer! Thanks for listing me as a fave! I am thoroughly enjoying your entries - and will be back soon! |
| from fangedfemale : |
| You continue to amaze me with your bravery and just how awesome of a person you are, even after everything you've gone through or are going through. I admire you. You have a lot of characteristics that are easy to look up to and admire. You've got yourself another fan. hehe. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| Thank you for your note about Paul, I really appreciate it :-) I don't know if I'm more paranoid or more aware..maybe a mixture of both. btw. That was hilarious about your Grandma and the shotgun. hehe. :-D I like her already! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| thanks!! I've never had any major trauma as a kid, but I am under major stress. I will definately check it out. Thanks!! |
| from mpeacock : |
| Your grandma made me laugh for the first time today. |
| from treesssa : |
| I'm glad you had a nice visit. Your grandma sounds like a riot!!LOL Rene sounds like a really great guy!Very supportive. I'm glad. Take care |
| from mentalblank : |
| I'm not sure how I stumbled on you, but I'm hooked! You rock my world. Your strength amazes me. |
| from tornchild : |
| Wow i just went through your archives..what an amazing story..you have come through so much. And are still going through so much. I have no idea what else to say lol. |
| from ray0flight : |
| I believe in you too. |
| from treesssa : |
| I'm so glad that my dog misery has made you laugh!LOL Some advice if you plan to get a dog... Don't get a BEAGLE!!!LOL Also, my mom has a chiuauha(sp?)and a Shit-zu, they yap their little heads off!!Maybe try a little mutt terrier. They are cute, friendly and are pretty loyal.Take care!! |
| from crazichicity : |
| thanx, i dunno it's just really hard and i can't do this all on my own but i can't find someone to help me, it's a long explanation that i have yet to complete but for now it is what it is and will be until i get through it which hopefully will be soon but it's encouragement from peepl like u that gives me a little kick in the ass to keep going. thanx, ~!~Katelynn~!~ |
| from treesssa : |
| Thanks for adding me! Please keep us up to date on the case. You are a very brave lady.Goodluck to you and i hope you find peace soon! |
| from mpeacock : |
| I just want to let you know I am thinking about you and i hope you can get your depression under controll. It's one day at a time for me, and you have been through so much. Don't beat yourself up. You are wonderful. |
| from fangedfemale : |
| You're very welcome for the note and thank you for the notes as well. I don't think you're brave. I KNOW you're brave! I admire you already.:-) I know what you mean by the government job...I was a temp for about 8 months working for the government. *shudder* I don't think I'll go back to that unless I absolutely have to. |
| from lilith73 : |
| Have you heard of a therapy called EMDR? It is used alot with people who have survived traumatic events; I've done it to deal with a robbery I was in, and it works really well. If you'd like some info, email me and let me know: [email protected] |
| from fangedfemale : |
| I'm so sorry for the things you've gone through, and at such a young age :-( From what I've read so far and what you've told me, you are such a strong woman! You're awesome :-) As for Cinders, (that's one of my cats names btw hehe), I don't know her and I already don't like her. Ok so she did some nice things for you back then and took you in, but that does not grant her a lifetime of making you miserable or hitting you up for money for that.Grr. She sounds like a sourpuss. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I admire you, and I can learn from you. It is very important, you MUST let the little things go to spend time with your child. The laundry will still be there, and the grass too. But our babies will be grown before we know it. |
| from lilith73 : |
| All one has to do is to read your diary and it is then made perfectly plain that you are indeed the bravest person in Diaryland. I don't know that many people could have made it through half of what you've been through. I'm going to sound like a great big giant cliche: You go, girl. |
| from mpeacock : |
| I totally feel for you and the money issue. My step-daughter is just now learning this when it's HER money that is being spent. Now that she is working she understnads, but before that, boy did she want to spend other's money. |
| from whereibegin : |
| Here is my unsolicited opinion (not that you asked for it, but that's why it's unsolicited and you are free to ignore it) - Cinders is playing on your guilt, my friend, and she's playing dirty. The worst part is, she knows she can get manipulate you like this again and again, or else she wouldn't keep doing it. So here's some (unsolicited) advice from a former doormat - it's okay to stand up for yourself. It's okay to tell her about those cash payments. It's okay not to lend/give her money, especially when she's coming pretty damn close to extorting you. You have a right to provide for yourself and your child and you shouldn't feel guilty about it. It's really hard to say no, especially to people you care about. But honey, she is WAY out of line and you don't deserve to be treated that way. If she gives you any problems, we in D-land have got your back all the way. |
| from mpeacock : |
| Thanks for the note. I do have children, one of my own and several step. That is just a character I made up. :) |
| from janna182 : |
| You're not a prude (at least not in this situation) all that touching was both unnecessary and inappropriate. Also: Happy Thanksgiving! |
| from treesssa : |
| Have a Great Thanksgiving! |
| from ray0flight : |
| Happy Thanksgiving.. have a good one |
| from thecrankyone : |
| "I don�t know, I guess, I see people trying to jump through hoops for their churches, and I think, �Why are you letting yourself be controlled by them?� It doesn�t matter what a church, pastor or congregation thinks of me, I only care that God finds me fit." A-MEN sistah!! As a former Catholic who has used birth control, shacked up for 10 years, and had a kid with never being married I hear you.. :)(I won't even go into their stone age views on homosexuality.. :) |
| from msironmonger : |
| Thank you for your note! I appreciate people noticing my attention to details! I have always thought I should be a writer and I get a little better every year! It's not quite as lonely with the hubby around. But, I keep feeling there is something....some...thing...missing in our lives. I'm not quite sure what it is, however. It could be the lack of friends, or the satisfaction of work, but....whatever it is, I'm sure it'll show itself soon. --Thank you for reading! |
| from swirledgrl : |
| marathon in philadelphia? chickie, that was like AT MY HOUSE. literally. funny. and yes yes yes to the christmas story. poor Ralphie!!! you know, tnt plays it for 24 hours straight christmas eve-christmas day. unreal. and we still watch it, like a car accident! glad your "babies" weathered the cold!!! |
| from swirledgrl : |
| thanks for the notes. i'm adding you. i've read through some of you archives and i think you're amazing. (and I bet you'd have enough courage to post some pics...) |
| from treewillow : |
| Thank you for your note you left me. Some times it's nice to know one isn't alone out there. And yes, my son loves to draw. I am trying with him now, where when he's angry at me or whatever he's feeling with me to draw it out for me. If he's angry scribble all he wants all over the paper, if it's sad make tear drops if that's what he wants to draw. Will see how this goes. |
| from inscrutably : |
| hello :) thanks for using my layout! |
| from treesssa : |
| Hi Yeah i know what you mean about the teachers.My daughter is also in 1st grade and is having a problem with attention span also. When you go to this meeting just lay down to her that you are only interested in improving your child's school work and that her home life will not be discussed. She is there to help your child learn, not be judgemental.You could say "how can we work together to help Jackie improve on her school work?" That should be the only thing discussed. If she starts battering on with critcizims, then cut her off and ask her if there is actually any positive input she could provide and could she please stick to the subject. If you get irrate with her it only makes it worse for Jackie. I'm sorry you are going through this with her teacher. Some of them can be real assholes. GoodLuck! |
| from cleanstart : |
| HUGS..... |
| from ray0flight : |
| You should try weight watchers. It's a bit of a pain in the butt at first with all the points and what not but it works. And you can still haev the occasional chocolate bar or whatever. I went on it and lost just over 30lbs in 4 months? 5 months? Something like that. Anyways... try it! |
| from cleanstart : |
| I also have the same problem with receiving compliments from others. I look at myself and think, what are they seeing that I dont see. Honestly. I think they are looking at someone behind me at times. I hate having low self esteem!! |
| from arianstar : |
| you are too funny... i swear the tree thing is the exact thing i go through every year. i have a special tree too. the only thing is, i somehow believe that the more full and lush a tree is, the more full my christmas is. it makes me feel so lucky. every year i add to it. I have lighted grapevine balls that are used for decorating weddings- not trees! I have 2 foot long red tassels that are Asian inspired. Instead of people stringing tinsel or cheap garland- i opt for a few rolls of expensive Christmas ribbon purchased after the holiday of course. and i unfurl them vertically. My mother used to have a beautiful victorian christmas tree and used to put in sprigs of baby's breath to look like snow. So somehow i try too come up with something new and inventive every year to decorate with , in her "Crafty honor" you tell a good story. I can see your tree from San diego. |
| from treesssa : |
| Hi Melissa! I love the Christmas Tree entry! Take care, Teresa |
| from ray0flight : |
| Good luck with your results! I hope you get them soon! |
| from thecrankyone : |
| I don't mind at all if you read the letters for Warren. I wouldn't have linked it if I didn't want people to read it. Thanks for the sweet comments. I had thought of Warren seeing this diary someday, but then I realized some of the things I have said in here about his dad and such he really doesnt' need to read.. even when he is an adult. So I started the other diary as a way of communicating my feelings to Warren in a form he can read someday when he is an adult. |
| from seussie : |
| Hiya - thanks for stopping by and leaving a note! It's such a pleasure to learn that people are reading! I've had a chance to read a little of yours and you have a wonderful way with words. It's a pleasure to read you. |
| from arianstar : |
| your message the other day abut your wicked beast child makes it sound like my kid stayed over at your house. ha ha! Im so glad that im not the only mom out there that has totally lost control to a 7 yr old. I hate spanking and raising my voice to yell at hunter because it sounds eerily like my mom's voice. Sometimes i am about to lose it and i feel like my mom is right there yelling at me..." dont spank him! thats my grand baby" even though she's gone now. Keep up the funny stories. im laughing all day. And at least if your crazy or weird... you arent in denial like A LOT of people :) I still love ya. |
| from stephielove : |
| hey, thanks for the support in my notes. It really means a lot to me. I love your layout, btw. It's gorgeous! :) Thanks again... |
| from treewillow : |
| Hi there, thank you for your note. I have been back reading your diary. And I must say I have so enjoyed reading it. There are things that you have said that have either happened to me, or I have felt that same way. Thank you for leaving me your note, so I could read your diary. |
| from some-trouble : |
| Thanks for stopping by and for taking the time to leave me a note. You too have a beautiful layout! I'm afraid I haven't a chance to read very much of your diary yet, but I'd really like to come back and read more. Happy Halloween! |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| I love the layout. It's perfect. And dramaqueen, we all have our issues. |
| from inscrutably : |
| Thanks for using my layout! :) |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| I read your letter to the parole board today. I am speechless...other than to say that I don't have any right to be feeling crappy over the state of my life right now. My heart goes out to you and your family. You are a fantastic mom and such a strong person. Don't forget it. xxoo Jen |
| from cleanstart : |
| BIG HUGS! I'm sorry that you have had to/are going through some tough times! |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| I am still here..still reading you...still wishing that I could see my inner strength and you could see yours. And there are men who like bbw and they aren't all freaks either. ((huggles)) |
| from whinerwoman : |
| hey crazy momma, what are you doing to your page?? You are fusin' me, which doesn't take much!!! HA! HA! |
| from arianstar : |
| i am so sucked into your story- people in love...ive seen it a million times being in the navy. i cant wait to hear the rest of it, even though i guess i know how it ends. As for wanting to be back in, i guess you can just live vicariously through me. KEEP WRITING. And hey thanks for the note you left me a while ago, i was having a bad day,,, it meant a lot. |
| from ray0flight : |
| Hey thanks for the note! |
| from x-soldier : |
| That last note didn't really make sense after a second reading. Guess I should start editing before I hit done! |
| from x-soldier : |
| I typically don't read more than one entry at a time from any one person. I have to say, for the first time I will be watching for the next entry of a perfect stranger. You left a note for me, but I dropped off the sight for a while. Just wanted to say, most members here are 15 year old girls with teen angst. I guess they havn't figured out that it doesn't go away. Anyway, glad there are a few veterans out there. (Even if you were in the NAYY) Stupid squids : ) |
| from sanguinity : |
| Hi there! you don't know me, but I just read your "greyhound" entry...and I must say that it was quite interesting!! It lifted my day...thanks hun! You are a ray of sunshine, love! Don't let anyone tell you any different! -Jessica |
| from whereibegin : |
| Happy birthday grrlie! I wish you much happiness as you begin this new year. May this year bring you the knowledge and peace you seek. Now go celebrate! |
| from whereibegin : |
| I agree with everything you said in your note to me. It's not up to me to forgive this man - it's up to whatever "higher power" you believe in. And also to the victims - the children and their mother. And I think it's because I am not one of his victims that I'm able to separate the act from the man. I, too, am a survivor, and although I have healed many of my old wounds, I have not reached a point where I can truly forgive my perpetrator and I'm not sure I ever will. It's just too close... I had a wonderful social work teacher who said that working with offenders means working with the other side of the coin. It's easier, in a way, to work with victims because it wasn't their fault. You don't have to go into the dark side as much because it's not something about them that made this happen. But with offenders, it's very much about them - they had the power and control, and they chose to use it against another person. It means looking at the dark side of humanity. But the thing is, if you don't go there, if you don't treat the offender, you can never break the cycle. The only way to prevent abuse is to stop it at the origin - and that's with the offender. The group I ran was very general in nature, and I could handle that kind of offenders work. But working one-on-one, every day, with sex offenders... I think that's too much for me. I'm glad there are people out there who can do it, though, because someone has to. Anyway, thanks for your note - your sentiments match mine exactly. |
| from suburblife : |
| hey its me, just call me Trevor now... thats my new name... plus i like it better. Anyways glad to see that all went well at the hospital... if you think that is fun, try having some hot doc play with you... its fun! Gotta go... class and then therapy... YAY... |
| from whereibegin : |
| I'm glad you enjoyed the Personality Disorder Test - I see we have a lot in common! :) |
| from whereibegin : |
| Shame on Toys R Us for using a b'day party as a bait-and-switch! That's pretty low... I think it's time for a boycott. But you must be some kind of mom, driving back three times and going out of your way to make your little one's day - wow. Oh, and I dream of a nice little Kate Spade purse, but I'm still clutching my rainbow-colored macrame with the sewn-on sequins. I think we all are. |
| from thecrankyone : |
| HI!! Thanks for the lovely note you left me the other day. You have a very intersting diary. I will definately have to come back and read more. I am also adding you to the list of reads I have blogrolled. I know all too well how down the depression cycle can get. And as for Zyprexa, my son was on that, but we had to take him off, because it made him want to sleep ALL THE TIME. Even a quarter tablet had him zonked..He's only ten, but he is physically larger than some adults. So yes it can make some people very sleepy... |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Sorry life has thrown you a curve. You are an extremely strong person. You will get through this. I have faith. Wish I could give you a hug sweetie. xxoo |
| from whereibegin : |
| Hi xnavygrrl... thank you for the note. I think you may have been my first visitor - congratulations! :) I read your entry and was quite moved - you're setting such a wonderful example for your children. I think it's natural for people to mourn the losses we experienced from 9/11, but even more important to reach out into our community and thank those who continue to help us and be our heroes. So thank you, for caring about others as well. |
| from arianstar : |
| hey i was a member of the mormon church too,grew up going till i was 18.thats also the reason i got married so i could haev a little freedom. ha! i knew we had a lot in common, including the fact that i dont go anymore either, i just dont feel the need to go to church, and im not going to feel like i am going to hell if i dont go, being a good person is the key to happiness. not sitting there for hours on end. hehehe small world.. hope your having a good day, and feel better!! |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Hey sweetie. Thanks for the note. I have learned to appreciate the things that are really important in life. I think that is because of age and experience. She is truly an amazing person and I have been lucky that she is in my life. I have learned so much from her. They don't REALLY think it is cancer, just taking all the appropriate steps because there is still a small chance. I'll keep you posted. xxoo Jen |
| from arianstar : |
| hey thanks for writing me the note the other day, i am stationed out at the end of rosecrans too. except i am actually from san diego so i dont find living here as a bad thing... i just wanted to tell you that i agree with your opinion on the NBA guy -vs victim . i went through it this year and i found that even when the guy plead guilty in court.. that i still needed to prove my innocence.. and its followed me for a long time now.. and i got the closure i wanted, but closure still doesnt help you sleep sometimes... have a better day! |
| from suburblife : |
| Yeah isnt life depressing, hey wait two pathetic lonely souls in stl, we should go clubbing once i start school, i know i will need the break. what about you? |
| from gypsy-poet : |
| I loved your entry today..it made me laugh so much!! Thanks, after my day I sure needed it. And I think you should ask Mr Smouldering out... if not just to ...see if he meets the criteria. ((hugs)) |
| from arianstar : |
| i just wanted to drop you a short note, and tell yuo that i am sucked in to your life, as a girl in the navy, as a mom, as a victim,as a scared girl, i am all of them. im going to read everyday.... hopefully we will both get wherever it is we are supposed to be going together... |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| I forgot I made 100. Thanks for acknowledging my work. Love ya'll too... |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Congrats on your 100! You made me cry today. Wish I could give you a hug sweetie. I can't even imagine... I wish you lived closer so we could go hang out. I bet we would get along so well!! xxoo |
| from suburblife : |
| Did you know you celebrated a special entry today... its your 100th entry..welcome to the club... i need a bf too... i am bored of this town too... need to get away... |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| LMAO. I bet you wanted to DIE as soon as you saw the last line! Oh my god! I would have been laughing my butt off, saying shitshitshitshitshit!!!! or crawling under a rock somewhere. :) You made my day! So, is he kinda cute? |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Slimy soul suckers. Yep. I getcha! There is more to life than feeling down and out all the time, isn't there? Some people just need to take a good look and then get over it! Have a great day! xxoo Jen |
| from drahmaqueen : |
| Hey girl. Thanks for adding me! I've only read a couple of your entries because I am at work and if I don't finish some stuff they will fire me and then I can't feed my kids and other important things. :) I plan to curl up with the old laptop and read more tonight. I think you and I would get along well. Have a great day! Jen |
| from suburblife : |
| Its ok, I am a half full person too and recently i have been down too... i think its the heat, we can blame it on the heat. Anyways... have a good day... dont look too red... |
| from suburblife : |
| Pride is being held at Tower Grove this year, and btw I dont have a boyfriend anymore, I Single. Back into the pond of fishes. |
| from suburblife : |
| Awww sweetie, I am here for you. Yeah that guy should fry. He did the most horrilbe thing, he hurt a child. You dont need to worry about him, his pathetic life is nothing but wasting good air. FRY HIS ASS. |
| from chloecat263 : |
| Yeah, and the post on my diary was about a guy who had an entire relationship with me that I completely missed. How do they do that? I wish I had known... I thought we were just friends. Glad to see you're still out there. |
| from suburblife : |
| Well, I am staying the university apartments... so it will be nice, although I am a bit hessitant to be living with three other people, sense i did have a private room and bath last year... but who cares... :/ Later babe...and yeah attitudes together although i need the dance lessons remember?... |
| from suburblife : |
| Ok... if you have PMS, I dont want to talk to you... jk... back in stl now for good. Gonna go to SIUE next year, yeah me! Hope you are having a great time. Drop me a line sometime and we can go out and party this town up. hehehe... |
| from suburblife : |
| Ok you people and getting all up set over tornados. I have been threw three or more the last one was classified as straight line winds, but yeah my ass i saw the mother f*****. Yeah dave was up here this weekend and a tornado went through the middle of the college... it was fine didnt touch down but everyone was freaking out, me I was perfectly fine. Damn sirens are annoying as hell though. Laters dear... I am coming back to StL on thursday for good... yeah so excited. |
| from xnavygrrl : |
| Raven, I'm glad we understand one another. We are both passionate about it, and that's okay. That's what makes our countries great, that we can express ourselves. Much love. |
| from suburblife : |
| Thanks dear, I am sure that things will turn out ok... he is really upset about this as am I. I havent cried today. Thats a good sign. I guess. Yeah I drove home in the crazy Easter traffic too, but the traffic on Friday before Easter was worse. Everyone from STL is a crazy driver, dont worry you will get use to it. hehehe... |
| from amblus : |
| Your entry today stunned me. I'm glad my journal could lighten your day a little. I look forward to reading more of your entries and I've added you to my buddy list! |
| from prowlingleo : |
| Thank you for the note you left on my diary. Yes Rob is a sweetheart, I love him a lot. I'm glad he was able to bring you to me! I appreciate your comments, although given my self esteem issues I have a hard time believing them, but I wanted to thank you. And if I were you, I wouldn't put myself down about your words, they are beautiful. |
| from suburblife : |
| Awe that was so sweet what you wrote about your daughter. I can tell that you love her with every inch of your body. I know that you want her to return as soon as she left. You have an amazing way with words. You opened your heart to let the world see that you love your daughter and now, now you are waiting for it to heal now. Just remember that she loves you right back with more love than imaginable. Have a great day. Rob |
| from suburblife : |
| K... sweetie please hit enter a couple of times when you are writing huge entries like this one... i keep losing my spot or skipping lines... have a good one... i bet the flowers look great. |
| from suburblife : |
| Ok, first of all never go to Phillips 66, its a pain in the ass. Had a problem with them overcharging me too, the pump said on thing and then the guy said another... Different story but thought i would share that with you. Then secondly always go to quick trip they have better gas and service. Glad you got to see your dad... hope his gf works out for the best if that is what you want... good to hear that your weekend was entertaining. Take Care |
| from suburblife : |
| I love the comment you left for me. What can I say gay men are damn gorgeous. So have you ever gone back to a class reunion to reclaim you sanity? Or are you going to let the world sort it out? Either way, keep updating... i look forward to seeing your name in red. |
| from suburblife : |
| Wow i am the first to leave a message. I bet your daughter is a mini you, so she must be beautiful, intelligent, and has a great sense of humor. If you ever need a shopping partner, gay guys make the best ones... I am always willing to go shopping. Wipe the drowl from your mouth one day Reeves will walk through your door. Later |
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