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hey you. i am thinking of you, i am sending you all kinds of wonderful positivity. you can do this!!!! you can make it through this. you are strong. love you.

from chillier :

Good luck, lady. You can do this.

from limes-sugar :

ah. baby girl. what are we gonna do about it? the sitch with K sounds ..... very very tough. are we working thru this? or do you think no we are not??? You deserve whatever you want. whatever you really want.

from limes-sugar :

hey you. justing thinking ab you and wanted to check in. hope work is going ok.

from limes-sugar :

his name is f*ckwad? ahhahaah. anyway- i want you to note your note to me made me cry. NO you didn't cross any lines, it was so thoughtful and kind. Thank you. You are right...i have always gone next/next/next...and I should spend more time on me/me/me. Deal with my shite. Cause the next rela I'd like to be one of those 'the one' kinds. thank you so so so much. how in the world did your boss' boss say that to you??? didn't it make you want to kill someone?

from limes-sugar :

hey you. thank you for that very sweet note, it made me feel better when i was feeling so fking low. what's going on? update me, yo.

from limes-sugar :

which is exactly why i am not going to see that movie. i'd like to think certain people are no longer interested in me for big, romantic reasons. Like I am fucked up in the head right now, so they want to respect me. hahahahahah.

from krisbell :

I don't think it's that you're "not good enough" for him. Maybe he thinks you're unavailable because of your situation? Even if things are rocky, it's still something Most likely, it's about him. Easy for me to say, but it doesn't really help to hear.

from thebeesknees :

apparently my brain doesn't remember the password, even though i was fairly certain it did, and that is why i did not ask for it when you gave fair warning to your locking up. please help my brain! [email protected]

from misstress :

I don't remember the old password! [email protected]

from fledgling- :

I'd like the password if you don't mind. Been reading awhile. [email protected]

from deez-nuts :

I'd like the pw for your secret online diary please! [email protected]

from life-my-way :

PW for me too, please. life.my.way at gmail.com, I'd miss you too much otherwise.

from chillier :

Password please! lngstoryshort at yahoo dot com

from beckers-j :

Hmmm, I don't think I remember the old password. Can you please send it to me at [email protected]? Thanks for sharing, man. :)

from life-my-way :

How in this round world have you been subsisting on cayenne-laced lemonade and salt water enemas taken orally for 12.5 days??? I want to do MC so very badly but I am clearly too much of a pussy. But I envy your resolve and your squeaky-clean colon too.

from life-my-way :

Thanks for sending me the love--it's especially significant as you are probably the only one. I think that I might love you, too.

from limes-sugar :

duh- forgot the most important thing-- CONGRATS ON 21 lbs. WOO HOOOO! Does it feel sweet?

from limes-sugar :

jesus, i can not believe you have done the MC for over 11 days. that is either incredible or incredibly crazy. :) ha.

from deez-nuts :

I shouldn't read your diary after I've been up until 6am watching Dexter.

from life-my-way :

Hi, I found your diary today (love the name!) and read many entries (while dying, slowly, of boredom at work). I'm locked up but username is life and pw is onthesly in case -you- are ever bored at work. I'm bored at home now and so will read some more, I just didn't want you to think you had a stalker or anything. K.

from limes-sugar :

i say LOCK. just saves you the worry and headache.

from deez-nuts :

Say whatever the fuck you want! It's your secret online diary. If he gets mad or upset, punish him for lying about not reading it. If you do lock it, don't forget me when you're handing out the password!

from limes-sugar :

hey you. thank you SO MUCH for the notes, i really value your comments, as you've been through similar. thank you thank you. also: regarding the MC, you wrote this: "I am doing this all the way too, no lotion or chapstick or deodorant."-- what's that all about? i don't recall ever reading that about the master cleanse. what's that do? xo

from vla :

aa seems like a good place to meet boys. ;)

from chillier :

I want to be Facebook friends with you.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Uh, excuse me ma'am, but I'm having bettyford withdrawals! xoxo

from omniscia :

Oh, good. You're doing better than I was then! It'll feel good to have the weight of it off your back, and you can start over. Have a great wknd, -K

from omniscia :

Hey-- I recently stumbled across your diary and added it to my favorites. (Unfortunately mine, if you happen to read it, doesn't have many entries because I hated some of what I had confessed on there so much I deleted a year's worth of writing.) But anyway, with the bankruptcy thing, I've been there. When I was 23 (go me!). But I had a huge nervous breakdown and couldn't work, and thus the credit card companies had me on a hit list. I just wanted to give you a head's up on spending right up until you're filing-- I think, but I'm not 100% sure--- that the credit card companies have the right to fight the bankruptcy if you have recent spending going on. I know, you probably want me to suck it for passing that along, but I hope I'm wrong and that it goes smoothly for you. Take care. -Keri

from hbaybee :

You bet your buns you can sit at our table! I'll try to have the links fixed by noon today. Today is Tuesday, by the way. So, hopefully by noon Tuesday. Good work =D xo

from hbaybee :

Hey, guess who has a review up on our site? YOU DO IS WHO, silly. xo Sarah

from vla :

did you ever watch In Treatment on HBO? I wanted to fuck that therapist. and, hee. I think that have a term for that...

from vla :

no bridge in cali, sadly. also, I'm attracted to rob because of who he is regardless of his belly situation. But when I am not feeling attracted, it usually has to do with what is going on inside of me, you know? like when my head is in a bad place and I'm hating myself and therefore hating allll others. even if R was looking perfect, i could find fault with him at those times. so, basically, I think it's great if you want to join a gym, but do it for you, not to be hard for J, cause that will always set you up for feeling not good enough in the end. when in reality you are so, so, so good enough. you are totally hot and smart and a great writer and awesome. so there.

from vla :

Thank you so much for the insurance info. I will look into the KP option. I had no idea about that... As far as CP, I am reading Lullaby right now. It's not as good though. I read Fight Club and I think a few others? I will have to check. I am not a *huge* fan of his, however. Do you like Murakami? Totally different, but I am way into him. I'm reading his recent book on running, but his fiction is really good. Also, on the topic of the dumbass boy: I think we give a fuck about idiots as a distraction only, so don't sweat it too much. You're just using him. Allow that to make yourself feel better. ;)

from theotherman :

ha, ha... love it. that is a saying i will def have to use and pass on to my friends. so true.

from vla :

Oooo! The Hitachi. love. How do you like Choke? I liked it. The ending, eh. But overall, I liked it.

from killsbury :

God, the guy I told you about was named Joe too and the similarities amaze me. If you lived in Memphis, I'd swear it was the same guy. I think you're my long lost twin anyway.

from limes-sugar :

Make no decisions, my friend, while crampy and bloated. bad idea. if I let myself do that, people would probably be dead. :)

from killsbury :

Happened to me. Haven't had sex since, which is not cheering, but you're not alone. Don't forget he might be on meds though; a lot of those can take the trick out of the pony.

from limes-sugar :

Shut up, Ma$e!!

from limes-sugar :

I just went back and RE-read it. it's that funny.

from limes-sugar :

OMG. hahhahahah. Shit. the laughter. can't quit. that was the best fucking post EVER, my friend. so good. too good. 1, I felt it. I felt what you were saying. 2, HILARITY. You are too funny. 3, You should write a television show, i swear. I have missed you and I hope you are well. God that post was good, brightened my whole day. One of my faves: that is my husband's favorite hardware store, but enough about him. hahahahah.

from malc2 :

just read ALL of the past few months at one sitting. Sorry to all the fans, but I don't understand why you don't reach out to those who actually 'know' the wonderful emory!? Please don't make this an issue of pride, It hasn't been on my side with you. Certain other people in my life, for sure....but never with you. The last email/text I got from you, you said you were "so fucking proud of me". I never told you straight up, but that meant so much to me, because I knew YOU knew the destructive place that I had been,and still teeter around. I knew that when I was using, and whether or not you were at that time or not, you truly understood that place I was in. From that place you expressed concern for me, and I took that in. In a lot of ways, your concern warned me the most.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

jesus, woman. when you do something, you do it with a bang, eh? i won't offer any sugar coated sweet nothings because we both know life sucks as hard as a hooker at a blow job convention, but i will offer to listen if you ever need to vent. stay safe. take care of yourself.

from vla :

also, besides the holy shit, I want to tell you that you're a really gifted writer.

from vla :

holy.shit.

from deez-nuts :

Damn girl! Hope ya get to gettin' better soon. Good luck!

from coldandgray :

oh my fucking god, I am hoping hard that you are OK. I am thinking of you, girl.

from thebeesknees :

lady, i hope you're okay. xoxo.

from limes-sugar :

oh my friend. I hope you are ok. we've missed you.

from vla :

omg! UPDATE. wtf? I didn't think it's been THAT LONG. please write soon! are you ok??

from deez-nuts :

Haha! I know I know, and see that's the problem. People always see it as a sexual-type companionship. That's why I'm worried, because it's not like that...I'm just afraid that it'll be veiwed as something more than wanting friendship. I used to be friends with all sorts of guys in my hometown. Then I moved up here and realized that the guys in this city want one thing from a girl, and if you aren't giving it up, then you're nothing to them. Ugh.

from somstar :

I would say the benefits look good lol. And I am completely obsessed with Twilight :)

from somstar :

Thats the worst feeling, being caught in a lie.

from deez-nuts :

Haha, I'm not there yet. Thank you though, I do appriciate it!

from limes-sugar :

I think you were very honest. :)

from vla :

well, yeah. I didn't know how to comment on this situation really so I just haven't yet. I don't think you should try to get any sort of revenge on him by trying to tell his wife. I am pretty sure she's living her own version of hell with a husband like that... why would you want to get more involved in it? I guess I agree with the post below. I would try to put your energy into working on your family, your life. forget about him. I think it's waisted energy, honestly. maybe look at why you're so caught up in it though, like... what's it serving you? distracting you from? god, annoying. i know.

from bluzigirl :

i'm new to diaryland and found your diary to be mindnumbingly addictive. not to feed your need for attention but i couldn't help but feel the need to answer your call for advice about the muslim. maybe you need to just focus on what is real in your life and stop obsessing over what you think you want in it. you have a great husband and kid and even though you think you don't deserve either you sound smart enough to know you'll never be this lucky again...so don't piss it all away on some meaningless affair. you may not think your family is aware but every second you take writing about and obsessing over this guy is time you are stealing from your family. and it sounds like they deserve better than that.

from vla :

I am just about done with The Center of Winter by Marya Hornbacher. It's sad, but so, so good. About being crazy and raising kids and drunks and life and stuff. I think you'd like it. :)

from limes-sugar :

sorry, I had an additional comment. Regarding new work slut, the odds are they can't last either. So feel a little better knowing that inevitably it will blow up in his face. He is married too, right? Wellll....you could always anonymously inform his wife about new slut? But...keep in mind there is always a chance you'd get called out too.

from limes-sugar :

hey there. I think what is hindering the process of it getting better is also having to fking see him every day. Does he have any idea you are feeling any of this emotion or does he think you are over it. My advice is prob so so so lame but it's the only thing I can make myself do in these situations that isn't detrimental to one or more persons: just act like you don't give a F until you don't. I know, easier said that done....sending you good kharma vibes. :) ha

from somstar :

I kind of thought the same thing that Deez-nuts said, but it's not my business or my life, but curiousity gets the best of us all and your life is much more interesting to read about than others.

from deez-nuts :

RE: Muslim Bastard....or something or another. I really have no idea who you are but I've been reading your secret online diary for a few weeks, and even some of the archives. What I can't figure out is...does your husband have any idea what is going on here? I don't know if you have an open marriage or what...but it's my understanding that if you are in fact sleeping with and obsessing over some other dude behind his back, you really have no right to be surprised when it blows up in your face. Unless you've never heard of karma. I can't tell you how to feel about anyone, but maybe you should think about WHY you feel so strongly about muslim dude. Why are you so jealous and attached? Why isn't your husband's relationship enough? If you can't come up with good answers and you're still angry, try peeing in the coffee pot or something at work.

from beckers-j :

Hey, lady! I'm sorry, but I'm not giving out a password this time around. I have been thinking about starting another diary somewhere, though, and will let you know if I do. And I'm not much for revenge, so I don't have any thoughts on the subject, but know that there is no judgment from me, and I can understand your fixation completely. :)

from somstar :

okay so I am very behind in reading since I took oh about a year off from Diaryland... this is your husband you're writing about right? I don't want to sound like and idiot, but I could be wrong *shrugs*

from somstar :

You shouldn't care, but caring is the part that makes us human... we cna't help it :/

from vla :

take care, sweetie. thinking of u.

from zoobomb :

Thank you. I truly appreciate it.

from thebeesknees :

He's getting so big! I'd have a terrible time saying no myself. I can't say no to my dog, so I think it's fair to say I couldn't look at his sweet face and do any better.

from coldandgray :

Glad to hear you are holding strong to sobriety. Also, your hair looks so cute! Not as important, but still...

from thebeesknees :

Unfortunately, the baby elephant trip could not come to pass. The baby isn't out all the time, and they couldn't guarantee a time he'd be there. Turns out for the best, though, because it would've been this past weekend and he had to work all weekend anyway. Still, that baby elephant was about the cutest thing I've ever seen...at least on video.

from coldandgray :

You know, it is really fucking hard, but you are almost 30 days and that is AMAZING! Keep it going. You can do it. You are strong.

from vla :

this really stuck out to me: "all that intimacy i forged with all of those people when i was inebriated was, come to find out, (not surprisingly) not real." *sigh* I hear that... I am hesitant to hang out with any of them now and I think you just hit the nail on the head, actually. I feel like they think they know me, but they really don't. and I feel like I look back on all those times and I am like: ugh. not real. it's hard for me to be with them now and I just have been totally avoiding it. I say to myself it is to get through this period where I am adjusting to being sober in the world... but I think it is also because I don't want to face them sober. you know? it makes me anxious. I also don't want to be reminded. anyway. hi. I love when you write.

from vla :

is it lame I'm kinda glad we're both going through this sober issue stuff now? even though I know it is not really the same... But still. I kinda like reading about this from your perspective. anyway, I have a hard time being around people that aren't where I am with this... so I can imagine it would be super hard if your husband was still using. would be stop? is he glad that you stopped?

from killsbury :

That pic is perfect lol You left me a comment a while ago that started me thinking, you may get a long email...

from vla :

was he sober last time when you were sober? i can't remember. that's hard. and dude. smoking DOES NOT COMPARE. lame.

from vla :

god i love CK!

from jocelynjunk :

Hi. I've been reading your diary for a couple weeks now and it's amazing how much of what you say makes me remember how I felt my first little while of going to meetings. I may be young but I've been in the program for about two years and even though I may not know you personally I'm so glad your doing this. :]

from krisbell :

Glad you're writing again. The shit is hard, we all know. All you can do is your best. I'm rooting for you.

from pyroguysr :

I'm proud of ya, dear! Oh, I wish I could tell you stories about Gina and her problems with booze, but there isn't enough space here. You have a wonderful life, a loving husband and a beautiful child, so it will be totally fuckin' worth it!

from coldandgray :

I am rooting you on.

from thebeesknees :

good luck. you are strong and brave and a fighter, and as stupid and motivational speakery as this will sound, i know you can do this.

from coldandgray :

I thought I had been leaving you comments, but not sure if it works. Anyway, I am sorry for what you are going through. You are doing the right thing for you & the boy. Hold on tight.

from vla :

i dunno what to say that doesn't sound lame here, but I just wanted to say I am here and reading. I know this shit is so hard. I also wanted to remind you that you're strong, lady.

from killsbury :

I haven't known how to respond, but for what it's worth, I just wanted to say that you're not alone. That last line really hit home.

from coldandgray :

Thanks for checking in. Not sure what to say about your currentness, but hang in chicka.

from beckers-j :

Wow, man! A short time ago - even two weeks ago - I wouldn't have understood this. But I get it, and it sucks. And at the same time, it's amazing, right? I don't know your entire situation, but suffice it to say I have an idea of what you're going through. Just a taste, but still. Man.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

God I missed you.

from vla :

whoa, omfg, WHAT? you seriously need to update more!

from ramanda :

Hey there! Sorry I missed your note. Not sure when you left it. I don't share the password for my archive with anyone, but you can find me at: http://www.elusivebalance.com/blog/ Though I will admit I don't update much anymore.

from coldandgray :

Hey lady, I am back from being gone and now you appear to be gone, what gives?

from vla :

UPDATE.

from killsbury :

Merry XXXmas to you and yours, doll face :)

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Where are youuuuuuu?

from for-tart :

Sounds like you were trying to be a friend. I'm sure he feels bad about the situation.

from vla :

gah. she sounds terrible.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Good luck with your final.

from geek-betty :

i overreact as well. it helps to pass the time.

from beckers-j :

He really is a gorgeous kid. :)

from vla :

loved this entry. he's amazingly gorgeous, that kid of yours!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Miss you. xoxo

from zoobomb :

happy happyday!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

where the hell are you, woman?

from misstress :

Hey you. Hope all is well.

from bettinas :

Where art thou?

from thebeesknees :

Not to be an enabler, but there is also prioritization in "the biz," so you can blow off lower priority stuff to get out your expedited transcripts. Also, you can push off some of your transcription on co-workers unless you're a solo.

from coldandgray :

Holy fucking shit, that looks like such a bad accident, all that blood is so freaky. I am so glad he is OK & that no one else got hurt. DANG!

from thebeesknees :

Dude, I actually like your hair. Also, the best revenge would be to dress all ultra feminine and sexy and then flirt with boys in front of him and be like "Oh, don't worry, I'm a big dyke, right?" And by "best revenge" I clearly mean the most evil and passive aggressive. Whatever. I think you look cute either way.

from coldandgray :

I would be your girl in a hot second, Toots!

from thebeesknees :

You could also be wearing a tragic vest while doing that. Seriously, though, you are a pretty girl so I doubt it looks bad. All short haircuts look better about 10 days post-haircut, so have faith!

from beckers-j :

Wow.

from misstress :

I tried emailing you, but it bounced. So here's mine: [email protected]

from krisbell :

Reading your entry reminds me so much of myself. My issues manifest differently, but the negative self-talk (therapy, much) is the same. My therapist always reminded me to not judge myself, but really, how do you not? Just try not to be so hard on yourself because no one is perfect. You don't expect anyone else to be I'm sure, so why expect it of yourself. I'm rooting for a sober you! I understand it's hard, but in the end I hope you'll feel better.

from misstress :

Crap. I'm locked out again.

from beckers-j :

Distraction is definitely your friend. Hope things turn out. And I'll be waitin' on that new password. ;)

from bettinas :

I'm worried about you. Please keep us all posted. xo.

from krisbell :

Crap. For what it's worth, I'm wishing the best for you. You'll be fine. kb

from thebeesknees :

it sounds trite, but hang in there, lovely girl. xo.

from thebeesknees :

Yay for school acceptance. The court reporters I know are all pretty happy, make really good bank and/or are constantly going on vacations because they largely make their own schedules. Also, I have heard some funny stuff and seen some really juvenile fights in depositions, and you'll get to eavesdrop on all of that. And get paid for it!

from thebeesknees :

Ugh, I totally missed that last entry. Poor kitty! I am glad he is okay.

from krisbell :

I couldn't get into that book either. I think I returned it, actually. Sorry about the cat. There was a chance Milo ate some Aleve last May (which is dangerous for dogs) so he ended up with 2 days in the hospital to the tune of $1500. Never knew if he ate any. At least the ex guy paid for it!

from bettinas :

Sorry about the kitten...hope he's better. In the meantime, READ LOLITA. Seriously. Do it.

from thebeesknees :

Now that is cute. He looks like he is, but is he happy with it? We've all hacked off tons of hair and had that moment of "aww" even if we like the new hair.

from krisbell :

He looks like a new boy! I love it! Take that, Grandma, now his hair is short. Such a gorgeoud, badass kid.

from krisbell :

Ok, you don't post anywhere near enough pictures of the kid. More please. I'm finishing up Obama's book and have Confederacy next up. You made me all excited and it sounds like something I can get into. I don't know why I've been all intimidated by it. Or maybe disinterested? I just picked up a couple more books the Human Stain by Philip Roth (he won the Pulitzer for American Pastoral), On Beauty by Zadie Smith and another book but my fucking sprained ankle prevents me from getting off my ass to look at the title. As for Tucker Max, I just can't do it. I read parts of his website a few years ago, and find him to be an annoying genero-guy. I can imagine his stories are funny, but anyone who writes anything about "fucking a fat chick" will never get a dime of my money. So, yes. That's it.

from bettinas :

That kid of yours is so stinkin' cute. Hair or no hair, I'll bet.

from beckers-j :

Aw, I love his long hair! He is literally beautiful.

from thebeesknees :

Maybe you can get him a hipster short haircut like a fauxhawk or something to soften the blow?

from razor-vixen :

Hope all is okay with you, I'd love the password: [email protected], thanks hon!

from thebeesknees :

MENSES!!! I totally would be reading your neighbor's messages as well. I am nosy, and if someone gives me free reign, watch out. I had a year of reading a backstabby friend's e-mails during college that was very entertaining. She screwed me over, so I got all up in her biznass.

from beckers-j :

Oh, that was FUNNY!

from stellarrobot :

I emailed you, FYI. Also, apologies for my ramblings, I am getting over food poisoning and I may be delirious.

from thebeesknees :

Ha! Dare to dream! I actually sent him that link and said "That place looks great. I mean, aside from the total Laura Ashley decor."

from bettinas :

password please! bettinaswiggerATgmail.com

from beckers-j :

Fuck. ;)

from misstress :

oh no! you're locked. hope everything is ok.

from thebeesknees :

This is the one place you never need to put on a happy face and be miss sunshine, so let loose with anything you want. Not as if you need my permission, but sometimes I lose sight of that fact myself.

from beckers-j :

If you make it clear to him how bad it is, maybe Kevin can get help for you. Or at least help you get help. I hope things get better.

from killsbury :

Password please. catinblack99 at gmail dot com. Stay safe.

from thebeesknees :

I'm going to need that pwd. And I concur in the f'd-upness of the situation. I cannot even imagine, as internets people only meddled in my life unsuccessfully. As I told her, snitches get stitches. Hope I figure out who it is!

from bettinas :

gaim: mcswigb

from vla :

take a wild guess who that made sense to.

from thebeesknees :

Hey, I pretty much concur with your 4 a.m. assessment at most times.

from vla :

living *is* messy. and it does look weird when all written out. brilliant. hee.

from thebeesknees :

I think I'm about five seconds from a similar talk from one of my bosses, as my ability to apply myself is for shit. Re: the move stuff, BB has a better job with more opportunity, and wants to start his own business down the line, which he thinks has more viability in his market. After chatting, we may be in a "live here for another year until I don't have to take a bar exam again and then re-evaluate" spot.

from bettinas :

Good luck hanging in there---if you were on IM, I could totally keep you company...

from vla :

ha. I know. I was thinking that too. like... who cares. ? ha.

from vla :

eh. I am with you. hiiiighly fucking unlikely. but I like that your friend spilled it like you were going to file for divorce immediately. hee.

from vla :

omg. ok. that was fucking hilarious. ur ttl the mother I am going to be. "Your child's head is stuck in a cup?" ha!

from vla :

Autumn Sweater - Yo La Tengo. me too!!

from bettinas :

You can do it!

from beckers-j :

Good luck! I hope it works out.

from thebeesknees :

Good luck. xo.

from vla :

p.s. how's your thursday? I wanna come work with you.

from thebeesknees :

Yep, she gets a mid-day walk every day. The times she has acted out like this have been on the weekend and then this morning so it's not even a "You're leaving me alone!" thing so much as an "I demand your undivided attention!" thing.

from thebeesknees :

I wish she did, but she doesn't, which is why I can't even drop her at daycare for playtime a day or two each week. We're in a class to resolve the issue, but it's a slow road.

from vla :

from bettinas :

Hey, you be nice to yourself.

from vla :

omg, I ttl could have written that entry on tuesday night! weird! well. minus the husdand/kid thing. ha.

from vla :

aw, thanks. this wine is only sorta helping. that convo sucked.

from vla :

no, it doesn't. :( love you.

from beckers-j :

I'm sorry, but Running With Scissors? Hated it! That was the worst alleged memoir I've ever read. I didn't feel a single thing for any of those people. They were like caricatures! Anyway, I had to rant. Sorry. ;) It's cool that you got to meet him.

from coldandgray :

and us, your closest internet friends, do not get a tit shot?

from malc :

girl i'm there with you. My Vday was spent chopping ice from the walkway, sprinkling salt and shoveling slush. Glad I never hoped marriage would mean an end to manual labor. As of today, think i need to either step up the dog-walking or sell the house. Mr. Cho wants a D. Not that I blame him.

from beckers-j :

Ouch. I'm so sorry things are crappy.

from bettinas :

On Valentine's Day? Really? Hugs.

from vintagepearl :

A Walk in the Woods . . . I almost read that. I ended up trading it in for Madame Bovary. Anyways.

from thebeesknees :

Don't worry, soon you'll be able to buy the book. Seriously, though, good luck today!

from thebeesknees :

good luck with the interview. refrain from mentioning putting your child in a cage when he is naughty and i'm sure all will be well.

from bettinas :

I live for those rambling entries of yours. The brutal, flinching honesty of bettyford. xo.

from vla :

ha-ha, did you call the sean thing??? I just remember you being pro-mike. dude! you need to warn me about this shit! hahah. (like I would listen. hee.) sigh. and I dunno if I have it in me to pull rob out, as you say. like, dude. I need boys who step up to me. enough with the emails & texts about movies & music. jesus. and thank you for the little pep talk about the "escapes"... I think I have been taking it a little far sometimes lately. but. maybe that's just a good thing to realize. Like, just reign. it. in. you know? and hee. "hot mikey sex."

from m91879 :

lol at the laundry blues. Thanx.

from bettinas :

re: HS Confidential. I, too, was excited and then so fucking pissed at the way he writes the story. The one that really got me was when he describes cute nontraditional freshman girl as walking down the hall being aware of pushing her small breasts out proudly. What the fuck. I think he's just an asshole.

from vla :

been there, baby. sorry.

from coldandgray :

Mr. Rogers was so wise.

from vla :

aw, I am ok. just lost my words.

from vla :

I know, dude.

from thebeesknees :

thanks for the dog porn. it was nice to see pups during this day when i am at work (and so are most other people but i stew in bitterness by pretending "most" people don't have to work today).

from applerobot :

hoorah for Hornby (although I admit, 'a long way down' wasn't too bad, was it? Fever Pitch was not for me either). Morven Callar (sp?) is good, but a not-as good movie so hopefully you havent seen that and can read it instead! Invisible Monsters, you might have read that one, it's good. I'm going to go nuts on amazon in a few months, but I'm going to grill yr brain again before I do!! xx

from applerobot :

I like middlesex a lot but as such an epic tale I think that any kind of ending would be disappointing. I totally need you to recommend some books for me (as it would appear you have pretty rockin taste) and maybe I can recommend some for you too. Have you read 'How to be Good' by Nick Hornby? If you haven't then you should.

from misstress :

It was pretty popular a few years ago and I've been recommending it left and right. I may have already recommended it to you because I'm redundant like that. Heh. I quit smoking while I was pregnant, no problem. I just didn't want to smoke. Then I get home from the hospital, husband lights a smoke, I say "give me a drag" and voila! Smoking again. So lame. Good luck with your quitting.

from misstress :

I've been trying to quit smoking for a while now. I do well when I don't leave the house, but the minute I do... it's hell. /commiserating. And a book recommendation: Crimson Petal and the White by Michel Faber.

from pyroguysr :

Just keep reminding yourself that Christmas is for the boy... *hugs*

from beckers-j :

We all "suck" like that sometimes. Don't blame yourself. Feelings are valid and organic, and there's no way you can blame yourself for feeling them. I have moods like that all the time. It's rough, but you'll get through them. You don't actually suck. ;)

from vla :

you do not suck. you are human. and that shit happens sometimes... just need a break sometimes. also, my note below was about ur question to me. I was just saying that nothing much really happened & I was just freaking about nothing.

from vla :

not much. internally overreacting.

from pyroguysr :

*pouts* I'd hit on ya! I still think yer totally hot and I ain't even met ya!

from vla :

omg! that little boy = ridik cute!

from coldandgray :

This is exactly why we are spending T-giving and X-mas with just friends.

from beckers-j :

Wow, fucking in-laws. I'm glad I currently get along so well with Ted's mom and dad. I hope it stays that way. His sister-in-law, on the other hand... ;) Sorry your plans got wrecked, man.

from misstress :

Fuck that sucks. We're dealing with the same thing, except they're all afraid I'll cut off contact with their only grandchild if they piss me off too much, so they try to mind my boundaries.

from coldandgray :

Family & the holidays. Gotta love it.

from pyroguysr :

*smiles and hugs you*

from coldandgray :

NAW, YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. I am sure nothing is happening, but it still is not cool for that chick to do that, she should know better.

from beckers-j :

Wow, I'm sorry you're having such problems. I think lack of sex is something that happens to all couples at some point. Honestly, Ted and I haven't been having it much the past few months. I don't really have any advice, but I hope things get better. :)

from applerobot :

I can't leave the alarm on because kittens will make it go off (it's controlled by invisible lasers!) - and if you steal my car (aka hot rod) I ill LOVE YOU! Take it, take it!

from vintagepearl :

:) Ohh I just noticed, your profile has lyrics from "A Better Son or Daughter" by Rilo Kiley! Amazing song. Kudos.

from vintagepearl :

Your entry wasn't terrible, my dear. Rant on! Thoughts are best useful when expressed. Take care.

from m91879 :

You gotta wear the mirorshades babe, they protect you from the forces of normalcy. Brightest Blessings.

from pyroguysr :

Since when do you have to be in love/lust to snuggle with someone... I'D snuggle with ya (and even grope ya a bit) if you laid next to me (and vice versa) and not feel a bit of guilt! Savor it, but don't read too much into it least you set yourself up for disappointment, hon!

from vla :

"crushes are not the same thing as loving someone." so wise, sweetie. I mean... yeah.

from pyroguysr :

You're too special to look like anyone but you... *smooch*

from coldandgray :

you fit right in with those ladies. I did it & they gave me Vincent D'onofrio.

from coldandgray :

Wowee! Who the heck is Tuii Kuik or whoever?

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

miss you :(

from pyroguysr :

Awwww...your kittykitty looks like my Graeling did just a few short weeks ago... now he's a right lanky little bastard, catching bugs, toads and terrorizing raccoons at the Renaissance Faire! Congrats on 4 years. And as far as the rest of it... when it rains, it pours, eh? I love you, my cute little elfin blondie! *smoochies and a grope*

from vintagepearl :

Congratssss :)

from bettinas :

NO WAY!

from bettinas :

Oh, that cat is to die for...

from geek-betty :

pretty kitty...

from vintagepearl :

Congrats, madam! I'm happy for you :)

from awittykitty :

It is strange meeting people on d'land, because if they write a lot, you do, in fact, know them pretty well. At least their writing personas. Glad it was a good experience and that you're feeling better.

from after- :

Hey there! I would say more but when I read your entry I felt like I just butted into two people having a very personal conversation, so I don't know what really to say except hey there ;)

from coldandgray :

That is very good news.

from vintagepearl :

Chocolate cigarettes = Icky.

from geek-betty :

hmm ? - is leaving notes about private entries okay?

from geek-betty :

hmm ? - is leaving notes about private entries okay?

from geek-betty :

I need a shrink, one that prescribes.

from geek-betty :

you have my email address I think?!

from vla :

aw, thanks! that means a lot.. i read a couple just from this spring and was struck by that too... thanks. it is really good to hear that from another person.

from bettinas :

Sending you good energy.

from coldandgray :

save a copy of your current template code in word before making any changes so you can go back to the original in case it doesn't work. Only if you want to, of course.

from coldandgray :

I think if you just put the code for comments in your template under where it says: <p>%%entry%%</p> that should work.

from coldandgray :

Gotcha, girlfriend! I like the secret spot, too bad it is necessary.

from geek-betty :

you dawg I'm totally locked the eff out.

from bettinas :

Did you lock your diary for your birthday? If so, I hope you have a happy one. Any chance at getting a password?

from pyroguysr :

Hippo birdies, two ewes; hippo birdies, two ewes! Hippo BIRDIES dear sweetness! Hippo birdies two ewes! *smooch*

from vintagepearl :

Happy 30th! It's a good age! Your still young but have made it a long way, enjoy it babe!

from serenaville :

Happy birthday, Wonder Twin! Love on all 30 years of you. Soothe your soul, and celebrate yourself... there's SO much to revere in you. *HUGS!!! and spanks x 30!*

from beckers-j :

Don't be lonely. All my friends say 30 is when it gets really good. Plus, you're hot. ;) Happy Birthday!

from geek-betty :

I hope that whoever I settle down with will be as awesome of a parent as kevin is.

from bettinas :

Yep. Have you been there?

from killsbury :

I'll be waiting on that egg.

from geek-betty :

ha!! your lunch box story is filarious.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

ooooo i like the shoes. the bad thing about being the jolly green amazon giant is that if i wear platforms, i look like an over-sized drag queen!

from pyroguysr :

The way his finger was positioned in the second photo was very suggestive of a certain "uncut and limp" something else hanging out... I was wondering about you for a second

from coldandgray :

Nice shots! I wish you got the action shot of him flinging wine in his eye.

from geek-betty :

haha the pictures of your hubby passed out with the glass of wine made me laugh

from pyroguysr :

The HELL you haven't changed. Your face is MUCH thinner in the newer pictures! And you look happier in the newer ones!

from beckers-j :

Yeah, that's what I'm hoping, too. That THINKING about doing something for so long will eventually get me to do it and keep doing it. But I'll settle for being Miss New York. Ha! :D

from geek-betty :

Good! Perhaps you will inspire me to do the same. I never believed all the self help books, but I AM happier when exposed to sunlight and when I exercise and eat right.

from coldandgray :

Good for you. I often feel that if I could get up and exercise at 6am all my troubles would be solved, but alas, I cannot.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

We can be each other's cheerleaders.

from beckers-j :

I'm trying the same type of thing - except I haven't actually tried it yet. I'm working on trying it. ;)

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

I really wish she was trying to protect my feelings. The cold, hard truth is - she really is that much of a bitch.

from beckers-j :

Eeek, hope that anxiety goes away. And I'm glad you and Kev had such a good weekend together. I love weekends like that with Ted, too. ;)

from applerobot :

I love all the pics & videos youve been posting. awesome! also.... apologies for the lack of diaryland design correspondance! I suck a lot (any pics you can send me would be good because a search has come up with not much at all).

from pyroguysr :

I'm constantly wondering if you know just how adorable you are, along with the rest of your family! *grins*

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

i need in on some friends like that too. maybe we should get over our phobias and give it a go.

from bettinas :

I'm trying to return to diaryland with more regularity, and damn if I don't actually miss you like we're old friends. Especially with your youtube videos. Meow.

from geek-betty :

I would have completely laughed at aspirin chick. I'm subtle like that

from after- :

You have the best ideas!

from coldandgray :

Great idea!

from vintagepearl :

Hahaha. God your family sounds cool.

from fridayfilms :

That was lovcely. You look so happy.

from awittykitty :

your kid pictures are great. none of that cheesy smile for gramma crap. just real kid stuff. they're lucky to have you there capturing all that. just thought I'd mention it.

from crazybaby45 :

Right on, I should be taking the basics course because I taught myself...I'm pretty sure I'm going to find out I'm doing it all wrong!

from prolifique :

Hee! I don't think we knew each other, but if you'd like to email me, I'll let you know who I "was".

from kitchenlogic :

If you e-mail me, I'm willing to talk with you about it. (kathy at kitschinart dot com)

from kickme-tryme :

He is just adoreable, you're so very very lucky!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

I swear to jebus, that is the cutest little boy I've seen (since my son was little of course)!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Ha! you know it. my papaw lived off of cornbread and buttermilk.

from after- :

lol that video is aweome.

from applerobot :

awesome!! ps: sorry ive been so slow on the owl hunting. I havent forgotten!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Miss you.

from pyroguysr :

Hmmmm... why is it that every time you put up pictures of yourself, I see a very pretty woman with a wonderful husband and a gorgeous son? Something must be wrong with me... I know my eyesight is bad, but... *LOL*

from coldandgray :

Jesus!

from coldandgray :

Did they ever get their butts cleaned? I missed the story about DogHead and the Chihuahua, HUH!?

from m91879 :

Thanks for favouritising my Bedbug. My boy's doin' the stairs as of today so I'll say goodbye for the next 2 1/2 years and be back in touch in my next spare moment. Good luck with living NOW, I'm told by those who'd know that NOW is kinda cool. -Munch

from vintagepearl :

ADORABLE.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

M had that horrible zombie thing with one of his meds. It eventually subsided. I hope it does for you as well. Have a great time tonight! I'll be sitting here. Jealous.

from beckers-j :

I can't wear skirts like that either. Shit!

from pyroguysr :

Whether you feel it or not, in your previous post, I can tell you that you are a very beautiful lady... you are blessed with a loving family. If the Lexapro doesn't work, ask for Lithobid. It helps me a lot!

from coldandgray :

spoke too soon, eh? I have my fingers crossed for ya.

from vla :

his little face (huge smile) is amazing.

from geek-betty :

new camera? yay. He is so cute!

from killsbury :

I had to smile back. Man, he's adorable.

from coldandgray :

That is one sweet tent. Glad the period of doom has subsided. Your day off sounded NICE!

from beckers-j :

Great tent! And I'm glad the weirdness is over. ;)

from geek-betty :

how are you feeling? better I hope. last entry (before this one) it sounded sad and desperate and lonely. I'm sorry.

from applerobot :

yes, i know what you mean (i think). kind of old-style kitchen red-orangey look? i'll scout for pics this week and send you some to give me yr opinion of?

from pyroguysr :

*teary-eyed hugs*

from applerobot :

it shouldn't be a problem at all m'dear - what kind of thing did you have in mind?

from coldandgray :

I hope you woke him up & rocked him

from pyroguysr :

I still love ya, no matter WHAT size you believe you are! *big hugs and a tiny grope*

from bettinas :

Are you all right? Paper and pen is fine, but we love you here, too....don't forget.

from m91879 :

I reckon your movie's cool. Reading some of your entries has really helped me through the more drudgelike aspects of stayathomedadness and, for that, I thank you. Peace to you and yours, Munch.

from vintagepearl :

I often ask myself why I enjoy dramatic television shows when my life is filled with the same drama, if not more. So I guess it's because maybe I can relate, or I like seeing others deal with their problems and take a break from solving my own. Hmph. Kudos.

from pyroguysr :

God, I know so well what you're feeling! *hugs*

from awittykitty :

It really hit home when you said the only closeness you feel is your baby "and the words of people i've never known". I so totally feel that. Its like having having friends without the emotional commitment. Just sit at your computer and be part of their lives...without all the fuss and muss of actually having to deal with them. Wow, that really sounds cynical and sad, doesn't it?

from fridayfilms :

Thank you. I feel the same about you.

from after- :

loss of limbs definitley!

from vintagepearl :

Eck. That's terrible :s good luck with it all. That's what I'm worried about, falling in love with a chap who's parents dispise me. Because chances are if they hate me, I'll be quite inclined to be unloving toward them. And there's already enough tension with my family, haha. I guess I'll fight that dragon when it comes to breathe fire on me. Thanks for the tip :) Except all the girls and teachers said something about my contacts, none of the guys, haha. Except for like two maybe, but I couldn't date them, just friends. It reminded me of how non observant guys are. A few weeks ago, this guy Richie in my biology class somehow got on the topic of makeup, and asked every girl if they wore makeup or not. We laughed, because most of us girls could tell who was wearing what makeup, and what is was, and who was naked in the face. He was like "What? What!" Just like when we tried to convince him there weren't couches in every girl's bathroom. And that couches wouldn't help with cramps, haha. Cheerio!

from vintagepearl :

Gll. So many people hate in-laws it seems, my parents' sides of the family are pretty much like the British and the Americans during the Emancipation Proclamation. (? Does that make sense) Anyways. TV doesn't help much either. And it probably wouldn't help if your significant other didn't get along with his/her family. Eek. How bad *is* gettin' with the in-laws?

from beckers-j :

Sucks to the in-laws. ;)

from pyroguysr :

First, I'd say get off Effexor because it's ineffective. Get on Lithobid. Second, your boss may have more training, education, time in the job or other things. Bosses are paid for their ability to manage people - something few people do effectively. The fact that you were able to have a good time on your own bonus should be looked upon as a blessing and you should cast envious stares at what other people are compensated. Lastly, I want to give you a huge hug and tell you that I love you for who you are. *grins*

from geek-betty :

oh shit. i never feel like an adult when speaking to the other parents at my daughter's school. We live in this really secular small town. All of the people from other towns move to ours because that's "moving up". shit. And then here I am, all hungover and wearing skull tee shirts with blue hair and they just have no idea what to say to me. Fuck 'em. I don't want to grow up yet.

from vintagepearl :

Thanks for the add as well :) Don't worry about your mom. My mom does the same, I'll say something, and she'll ramble on for fifteen minutes about an awkward solution I'd never do. Take care!

from kickme-tryme :

:) Thank you

from geek-betty :

wide awake. ridiculously awake. trying to sleep under my bed with mace and a steak knife awake.

from killsbury :

I'd blame your grumpiness on the cuke; evil vegetable ;)

from chillier :

I just added my worries to that entry. I figure I might as well put them out there, and hopefully someone can relate.

from pyroguysr :

"...followed a tooth." ROTFLMAO! That's a good one!!! And no, they just wear very tight, very thin cotton thongs... but you get to pull them out to stuff money inside! (I organized my sis-in-laws bachlorette party. Geez you girls are noisy!)

from mom-on-roof :

Your boy is so beautiful, he should be on the Cheerios box! I love the tooth too, I had to look again to see it. You are quirky and cute!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Note in my diary how I talked about M and I staying up all night talking...THAT'S how I fell off the wagon *hint hint*. My friend from Disgusta brough us a "prize". That will be the last time I fall probably. I felt like fucking shit for days afterward. Yes, I'm a dumbass.

from coldandgray :

YES!

from killsbury :

Nothing is better than unexpected random cash. Enjoy!

from coldandgray :

CLENCH!

from geek-betty :

oh I know. I even have a LIST written out for the CDs and I ... uh. well thats as far as I got. No more camera? no more pics? what a suckfuck!

from geek-betty :

myspace?! link?!!!!!!!

from pyroguysr :

I'm sorry... I cannot... I shall not... I WILL not... participate in this hunchin' stool! Damn... damn you, vile woman! You've tricked me! *walks off muttering to self*

from after- :

I definitley need a nutritionist!

from coldandgray :

A nutritionist sounds like a cool idea. I am crying just THINKING about French fries.

from after- :

You look troubled.

from pyroguysr :

Angst and Effexor aside... you look positively hot! *grins lecherously*

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

for the record, you so do not have honey baked ham arms. i'd probably choke a cute, furry little duck to be that size again. in other news, i fell off the wagon but hard this weekend. how about you?

from coldandgray :

Yes, I feel it in those photos

from vla :

how can someone get under your hood without popping it from the inside? goooooooooooood question. The whole thing is a mystery to me.

from m91879 :

ps. you'll still get some withdrawal, but it will be easier than what you're dealing with now. -Munch

from m91879 :

Yep, she felt like her head was "wooshing" and a whole bunch of similar side effects. As a Psychiatric Nurse, she would have cut down slowly but she was terfified of hurting the baby (she was pregnant at the time.) All I can suggest is to half the dose for a week, quarter the dose the next week and then take that every other day for another week until you stop. You should be OK this way, but it's still worth a trip to the Doctor... Best of luck, -Munch

from geek-betty :

cute shoes and bag.

from m91879 :

Usually not that mad about handbags but, even to the untrained eye, that's three different kinds of cool. Your diary continues to be four different kinds. Glad your effexor withdrawal was easier than my wife's - she went to hell and back on that stuff. -Munch

from killsbury :

You know, you're too cool.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

very jealous indeed!

from bettinas :

DYING OF JEALOUSY. SO CUTE.

from metanephros :

I think you would look fucking hot with Working Girl hair to go with the sneakers.

from chillier :

Our salad bar at work is *soaked* with water because they weigh it by the ounce. It's really disgusting - they dump ice on top of the lettuce so it melts into this soggy, expensive mess.

from coldandgray :

NO WAY! I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT! ug! I am sorry. and that guy with the pics of starving children is beyond creepy.

from serenaville :

What a kick in the teeth! I'm sorry, hon. :( Even though I often don't know what to say in response to things you write, I'm out here reading and pulling for you, and as close as an e-mail. Or more, if you're ever interested. *HUGS!!!!*

from bettinas :

I wish you the best, and hope that you continue to feel good. Just be careful you aren't self-medicating with the sauce? Hey, now maybe we could have a drink together some time (emphasis on the "a"). xo

from chillier :

I should mention that I started my drinking diary in February of this year, because I was drinking every day. I have zero willpower, especially after work when there is wine in my house. The calendar somehow makes me feel accountable.

from coldandgray :

I am trying #2 on your list, too. It is HARD!

from chillier :

I keep a drinking calendar in my desk at work. On the days I drink I write a tiny red "d", and I count them up at the end of the month to find out what percentage of the month I drank. I try to keep it to 50% or under, usually I'm at least close.

from beckers-j :

Yeah, I guess I put up a pretty good front. I manage to get things done, but I have to force myself. I'd much rather just stay in bed. ;) As for the guest entry, don't worry about it. Do it whenever you're up to it. I'm not in any hurry. XOXOXO

from geek-betty :

I slept from 8 p.m. to ten a.m. today. yay! depression does it.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

go. to. the. doctor. (!) Seriously. Go. Fatigue was the first symptom I had before I was diagnosed with Lupus. I was very non-chalant about my slugishness at first. Now I know it can be serious.

from beckers-j :

You sound the way I feel. Seriously, I don't know how I drag myself around half the time! It sucks.

from anipunk8831 :

I'm so happy that you came to my diary! I haven't seen anyone like you before. :excited:

from cacophic :

crappest car luck in the world. i flushed all my xanax. they make me feel like an addict. things are just low right now, but i've been in worse situations. i'll pull ot of it. i'm still laughing. :) XOXOXOXXO

from geek-betty :

is the medication the source of the dullness? I hated that feeling when I was on meds.

from after- :

The Cardigans are still around? Love me-love me ;)

from applerobot :

thanks for the congratulations! does the candy bar really say that? i dont know about over there, but here they put horrible pictures of decaying lungs on cigarette packets to deter smokers. maybe someday they'll put pictures of larger people on chocolate bars?

from coldandgray :

THANKS! I like your twist on the six things, but now I want to know the why behind your collections. Elephants rule. I am not sure what I collect, but I will look around to see what might classify as collecting or it may get switched around a bit more. One time Sasha did not come home or call & was not answering his cell phone. I vaguely knew where he was, so at 2am I got on the dark and rainy freeway, drove to an unfamiliar area sans bra and tracked him down & brought him home. He barely apologized, but I think men can be super dense sometimes. Spending spree sounds healing.

from pyroguysr :

Glad the Effexor is working for you. I didn't like it a bit because of the "zombie" feeling it gave me - meaning that I was still depressed, but I just didn't give a fuck about it. I like what I'm on now because it doesn't affect my passions, my thinking or my sex life (such as it is)! *grins* *hugs you*

from geek-betty :

vintage dresses... *drool*

from killsbury :

I think I'd be pretty happy playing in your closet.

from beckers-j :

Dude, that's idiotic. I'll smack him for ya. But Happy Anniversary anyway. ;)

from pyroguysr :

Happy Anniversary anyway, beautiful!

from coldandgray :

Oh no! I'm sorry. Men can be clueless turds.

from serenaville :

Awww, hon. I'm sorry about your wedding anniversary not being what you'd hoped. Mook and I both clean forgot about ours last week. Wonder what that says about us? *HUGS!!*

from coldandgray :

You are tagged, but only if you wanna.

from bettinas :

I just wrote an entry answering both your questions. Weird! I wish Miles could play with Annyong, but then we might die of cuteness. And that would be sad.

from bettinas :

Dude. Let's crack out on Metabolife. When the boy worked at the restaurant they had a full-fledged system worked out with that stuff. One particularly disgusting method of ingesting the stuff was when they ground it into the espresso filter. Eeeyuchh. Also: that toothbrush is the coolest thing ever. EVER.

from geek-betty :

Jury duty!!! Avengers assemble!! I'm jealous. I'm a true crime lova' too. Metabolife = evil. I have to take energy pills every day. I honestly HAVE to otherwise I sleep all day. Yay depression.

from coldandgray :

Jealous! I want to get Jury Duty! Hope you get a good case. I wish Zebra cakes were the cure-all. Keep on hanging on.

from geek-betty :

ahh, I just got your email. I'm such a slacker when it comes to checking gmail! swap info is coming!

from m91879 :

what's the beef with AA? No axe 2 grind, just curious.

from pyroguysr :

on your 24 April post... hon, having the strength to "handle" things is like building up any other muscle, you have to start small and do it repetitiously.

from bettinas :

I'm glad to hear that it didn't work out. HIgh on life, bay-bee....

from serenaville :

I'm glad you ended up not getting anything. If you self-destruct, who will be my Wonder Twin? *HUGS*

from beckers-j :

So when should I move in? I've never had a girlfriend before - I'm really excited! ;)

from cacophic :

a nice easter, i take it! :) XOXO

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Your son is adorable.

from pyroguysr :

Hey love... I've been away a few days, but you still write some of the most interesting stuff! *Cuddle?*

from chillier :

I'm a new reader and just wanted to say hi. Loved your bullet-point analysis of time spent with the In-Laws.

from geek-betty :

yay another CD swapper. email me and we can switch addresses, [email protected]

from geek-betty :

I have to say, I have the same thought : whats it going to take? when will I stop feeling so sorry for myself?... I'm still not sure.

from coldandgray :

What a nightmare. I found that appalling, especially #17, 23 & 25.

from pyroguysr :

Errrrm... I hate to break the news to you... but it'll be the South Siders again in the Series... and they'll win.

from after- :

I love when people chime in when I don't really want to be talking to the other person!

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

my m-i-l has a habit of making really cutting remarks. there are times i want to stab her in the eye with a spork ;)

from pyroguysr :

Fambly coming in? Get out the Heilman's Old Sytle and some Jay's Potato Chips!

from after- :

I've never had a terrible two, but I'm sure I was one!

from after- :

hot-lanta :oP

from applerobot :

what a cute cowboy! xx

from after- :

Those goats are pretty damn friendly!

from metanephros :

I am addicted to reading your diary when I should be sleeping. Why do I love to read bettyford at 2am?

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Great aquarium pics. I absolutely love that place. :)

from after- :

Eeek, Number 2 picture is my favorite, how cute is that?!

from geek-betty :

There is an aquarium in VA that I used to take my daughter to and you could look up and see the sting ray's smile. She thought it was magical. Wonderful pictures!

from vla :

those aquarium pictures = beautiful.

from after- :

Start now, heh.

from pyroguysr :

Forgive yourself now, even though you may not believe you deserve it. Do good things for others without expecting anything in return to pay your way up out of that karma deficit. It takes 90 days to change your way of thinking, so leave little notes around the house saying that you ARE a good person. Repeat them aloud each time you see them... SMILE when you do it. Your conscious mind has to convince your subconscious mind and the easiest way to do that is through your ears. And know that others of us out here love you. If you need to hear it often, we will tell you often. I love you dearly as an internet friend and I think you are a good human being! *hugs*

from pyroguysr :

I'd have to agree with your friend. Lighten up on yourself! *hugs* Righteous house, dudette! (I miss my house. The wife has it. *sigh*)

from after- :

*waves*

from coldandgray :

Cool. It's done. I love your yard. & your boys.

from coldandgray :

aboslutley? woah.

from coldandgray :

I love it! It is just what the place needed, your defining photo is perfect (it actually ached my heart a little bit). You could never disappoint. Thank you for humoring me. I noticed there was aboslutley no link or reference to your site, do you prefer it that way or can I link you?

from somstar :

OMG I'm doing the same thing with MY popcorn, oh shit fuck me for my inconsiderate "OMG", I swear I'm not 13.

from serenaville :

Christ, we ARE the fucking Wonder Twins... feeling similarly at the same time. Only difference being, I passionately love spring. I'm thinking of thwipping you a private e-mail about some things. I figure, if anyone can relate and maybe offer advice, it's you. *HUGS!!*

from beckers-j :

Aw. No expiration date, but I do hope you cheer up sooner rather than later. Not because of the guest entry - just because. ;)

from beckers-j :

Would you do a guest entry for me some time? I'll go ahead and add you (when you click "Add an entry" you'll see that you have the option to post to my diary), but let me know if you'd rather not do it. I won't take it personally. ;)

from serenaville :

ACK! Blisters in the ear canal?? You deserve to scarf down a case of peanut butter eggs, for that noise. (HA. Ear canal. Noise. Me = Cracking up.) Really, though... that's awful. Hope it clears up soon. *HUGS!!!*

from coldandgray :

Ooh, how exciting. Thank you so much. and yes, please post as many photos as you want/can. I do know how to scan things on my cheapie little scanner, copier, fax thingie at home. Do you have access to a scanner? Kinkos can do it, too, I think. Let me know what help you need. THANKS!!!

from coldandgray :

I love your site very much. You have permission to post on mine if you want...

from beckers-j :

Those pics are too freakin' cute!!!!

from oladybug0 :

Your son is so adorable!!

from mom-on-roof :

GREAT dress! And thanks for the image of you "clawing your cooch"? I believe is the term you used. Thanks for that.

from somstar :

i rather like the dress, very nice, but yes I'm with you on fake pockets, very misleading.

from bettinas :

Okay, but that dress is fuckin' adorable, so I would have made a big deal about it too. So there.

from somstar :

That is a lot of damn books!

from m91879 :

Not familiar with the choon but I gotta lotta respect for Nick Cave. Kudos to your camels and may Allah bless your son's toenails.

from d1mndn3r0ugh :

Haha! I totally understand about the X-Box. I had to start playing, just so I could actually conversate with my S.O.

from misstress :

It was a Fiat! Damn, it's sad that I know that.

from serenaville :

My friend. Thank you so, SO much for your wonderful note to Erianne, and for your lovely support of her and her sister. I was touched at how you worded things to people you know. Damn, but I'm consumed by the urge to meet you... toss the fucking points out the window, and stuff ourselves silly while gabbing about everything under the sun, no matter where our mood swings take us! Love ya. WONDER TWIN POWERS -- ACTIVATE!! ;D *HUGS!!!*

from m91879 :

I just dropped in to see what condition our condition was in. -Munch

from cacophic :

something dark, maybe dark green? or black. They do look nice and clean i love the grill in the front.

from somstar :

someone loves the f bomb

from serenaville :

Beautiful, thought-provoking, and affirming entry. I am so blessed to have you as a part of my "now". I can't know how many "tomorrows" I'll have, any more than the next person... but I sure as hell hope there will be more "nows"; with you still someone I read, admire, and hopefully get to know better. *HUGS!!!*

from coffeegrind :

I found you through mom-on-roof. No wonder she's got you on her buddy list - she's a genius! You're wonderful!

from vla :

that was a really beautiful entry. made me cry. you have a lovely, full life.

from cacophic :

nice entry

from pyroguysr :

Ah! Another clothes-piling person!! I stack mine on the dresser and then forget to put it in the drawers (it's usually folded, though). Some days I think you are trying to tackle too much and set yourself up for failure. Try doing things in little bits instead of jumping into the whole thing. Start by simply eating healthier and not worrying if it's "vegan" or not. When given the choice between potatoes and "steamed veggies" as a side, take the veggies instead. Same at home. There are some days when I wished I could just talk to you and convince you that you can do things... and other days when I wish I could just hug you.

from somstar :

I love me some pictures!

from beckers-j :

God, your family is so freakin' cute. ;) Hope you feel better about yourself soon. I happen to think you're pretty damn cool.

from somstar :

Thirty's not that bad unless you look at it like I do... only 25 years and I can get my senior discount and only 20 years until I can join the AARP :P

from cacophic :

:) and love too, not just a smile

from xnavygrrl :

You foxy momma!

from cacophic :

personally, i like it

from f-i-n :

i love short pixie hair

from beckers-j :

Wow! Crazy! I can't believe you just chopped all your hair off like that. I was diggin' the mullet. ;)

from beckers-j :

You're right - David Caruso is ridiculous on that show. He's so damn cheesy. He had some horrible line at the end of last night's episode about how "hate is something we should all be concerned about". Yeah. Hysterical.

from vla :

shit, thank you so much for that last note! that meant a lot to me. I am trying. and sometimes I feel like I am going to fucking crack... but. yeah. I am trying. anyway. the eating stuff has been ok. the b/p stuff went away with fuckhead, as you said. for the time being anyway. who knows. I have been eating less though probably. always got my finger in that pot at least a little at this point. but honestly? the e/d stuff is better than it's been in years. thanks for asking. you're like the only person that does. aside from my therapist and she's on maternity leave, so yeah. you're it! thanks.

from beckers-j :

Yeah, I hate writing cover letters. I always have to look for samples first, which is exactly what you should do. Sites like careerbuilder.com and monster.com have sample cover letters. Or you can just do a general search on google or something. You said it was your dream job, right? Then won't you kick yourself if you don't at least apply? ;) And thanks for your remark about Ted and me - I hope he knows it, too.

from beckers-j :

I think a lot of people pretend things like that. Maybe I should give it a shot, too. ;) By the way, did you apply for that job?

from zoobomb :

I believe it was Dr Phil who referred to that as, "fake it 'til you make it." Don't ask me how I know that.

from pyroguysr :

OK, the EX grrrlfiend didn't work... perhaps that's why she's the EX?

from somstar :

great tits aren't everything...

from serenaville :

*Slinky eyes* Okay, you're onto me. Pick me up at the corner of West Genesee and Erie Boulevard, in an unmarked van. I'll gladly live in your basement, if it means hanging with someone so kickass. ;) (And, it's true: Of all the Charlie Brown heads in the world, Mook's is the Charlie Browniest! :D ) *HUGS*

from serenaville :

I'm sorry things are rocky for you just now. All you can do is take deep breaths, and get through jags like this one minute at a time. Wish I could help more, than just giving lame advice. Too bad we didn't live closer. *HUGS*

from vla :

the long term suppression of his homosexuality was totally S's theory too!

from serenaville :

All I can help with, are stabilizing hugs, and every positive thought/hope/wish that you'll get the job. Go for it, full stop!! *HUGS*

from beckers-j :

This job you want requires you to do grant writing? Does it say that you need experience? E-mail me the job description at [email protected], and I'll help if I can. ;)

from pyroguysr :

Ahhhh... but the "Key" to the conspiracy is "how do those other fuckers manage to get out of the cubicals and eventually run things?? Learn that and the two of us can RULE THE WORLD, Pinky!

from serenaville :

Yes, the "cycling" does seem to be worse, the older I get. It comes faster than before, with the 'highs' seeming higher, and the 'lows' feeling more crushing whilst lasting longer than before. At the rate I'm going, 37 ought to be a hoot. E-mail me anytime, chica... methinks we should form our own little mutual support group, or something. Love on ya. *HUGS*

from beckers-j :

I haven't read that book, but I hope that girl never gets published again as long as she lives. ;) 21! Bah!

from pyroguysr :

Good thing they're bitten off flat... I'd hate to see that pretty face looking like something from the Central Congo.

from pyroguysr :

And Huzzah! I didn't think I was bi-polar either!

from serenaville :

You're hella tight, woman. Never forget. Oh, and? My mom and friends have been telling me for years that I'm bi-polar. I fucking refuse to believe that's what I have, too. However, lately I've had to seriously question why the "high cycling" and "crashing" I do, is happening with increased frequency and severity. I wonder if I'd know what it felt like to be "me", were I ever "balanced out". God. I can't believe I'm even writing this. Sorry to ramble! *HUGS*

from pyroguysr :

Well, if you want to practice first... I volunteer!

from zoobomb :

Meg and Kevin and Miles, oh my! if you continue with these real names, i might just need a key.

from pyroguysr :

I've talked to five guys and that "belly button gorge" you talk about as being hideous? Five out of five guys think its sexy on a babe to see that. It's the reason we love tight sweaters! (well, that and pokies)

from somstar :

Oooo, can't wait to hear your reply!

from beckers-j :

That sounds pretty serious. Hope it goes okay.

from beckers-j :

RELIGIOUS? NERVOUS? It's a good thing you put all those "hahaha"s in there, woman. ;)

from beckers-j :

You did NOT do that, did you? That's fucking awesome. ;)

from somstar :

Ah yes, another exciting weekend for bettyford, how I wish no rubber grapes onto thy self.

from pyroguysr :

I personally find patchouli to be one of the sexier scents out there, but it can be overpowering. My ex used to wear a particular lotion that would make me sneeze constantly if she got within 10 feet of me. It was her favorite scent, so I let her wear it and just avoided her in the morning. By evening, whatever was in the scent had dissapated and then she just smelled nice. Now, do these two twits either smoke or have bad breath? Heheheheheheheheeeee

from beckers-j :

Awesome. Fuck 'em.

from beckers-j :

Thanks. ;) And yeah, I bought a pack just before I made it home last night. Then I hated the first, second and third cigarettes. I really think I am going to quit soon. I just don't like it the way I used to. Anyway, thanks for the note.

from pyroguysr :

Clingy is good... a better word would have been "cuddly" though! *sends you all sorts of mental hugs and positive vibes* Meds help... doctors help more... but mental attitude helps best! I love you, Miss Clingy Cuddlepuss!

from vla :

yeah, *that's* nice! just what you wanted to hear, I am sure. (about the clingy thing.) but maybe it helps to take the oh-so-perfect sheen off of the, um, lost weekend or whatever? well... anyway. showering is good. just take it one retarded step at a time. and I say retarded because I REALIZE how fucking cheesy that advice is *as* I am typing it. but, you know. You kinda just have to do it that way? Like you have to just pick back up and move on. call the doc. do all the things you probably know you should do until you feel better again? and I say don't feel too bad about calling in sick. it happens.

from somstar :

I like clingy, and hat epills :( Depending on medicine is sucky.

from somstar :

I'm the same way to myself, pushing snooze and being a lazy fucker. Don't beat yourself up too bad.

from limes-sugar :

FYI/FFR/FTR, you are soososososo funny. I've happened upon you through our girl Vla...and you say such funny things. I love you. In a d-land way of course. XOX LIMES ([email protected] and limes-sugar.diaryland.com)

from pyroguysr :

OOOOOH! Smells like good sex to me!

from pyroguysr :

Ah liyuv down heyah in Raaawwwwlay, Nawth Carolaaahnuh?... um, ah meeyun Raaaawwwlay, Uppah Saowth Carolaaaahuh? Or what somebody called thuh "Yankee" side of Carolaaahnuh? Because ah hayuv been told it hain't polite to use thuh "N" word down heeyah! (But I ain't from here...youse guys should know I'm from da Chi-ca-ga area! Sout side, where da White Sox play and Al Capone ruled! InnyAnny suburbs though.)

from somstar :

I love soda and monk, we're almost a lot alike ;)

from vla :

I have to agree with that last message. Especially with the kido around. But you know.

from beckers-j :

I won't preach to you because I have a lot of respect for you, but you should think about what you're doing. Just be very careful.

from pyroguysr :

Interesting randomization. In spite of all I said, I do love you, ya know!

from pyroguysr :

Argument well met! If you are truly doing the veganism for YOU, then go for it. THAT is not "rebelling." It's a health/lifestyle choice and if it's a choice, I support you on it. (Just don't try to convert me. I LIKE my dead animal flesh along with my dead plant flesh!). But with this choice you have to be highly watchful for oesteoporosis, which is a very common side-effect of veganism. Our bodies do NOT assimilate minerals like calcium, iron and B vitamins from plants as well as they do from meats (Yes, I was a vegetarian once. The commune I lived in was primarily vegans and vegetarians. I read extensively about it, even though I was one out of economic necessity more than conscious choice - I couldn't afford meat!) As far as the tattoo inks... well, that's what they TELL you. I've read the bottles. You have to have some sort of chemical to RENDER and PRESERVE those vibrant colors they stab you with... and it's usually chemical in nature. I still don't trust anything or anyone that has to stab me 10,000 times so that I can make some sort of statement and look like a gang member... not that you look like a gang-member, but that's primarily what >> I << associate with tattoos - a product of my upbringing. Piercings are SOOOOOOOO much better. As far as dreds, the only reason that a workplace "has" to allow them is that they are a part of the "rastafarian" religion - whose tennents I respect, but don't necessarily agree with. In some way, I find those NOT of that religion and sporting dreds to be... not "making fun of"... to be... taking advantage of that religious custom. I'm sure that muslims would be offended if you wore a burka, but did it more for shock value rather than out of respect for and enjoining their religious beliefs. What I will say in conclusion to this is: I don't have a problem with you doing these things. I'm not attacking your doing these things, simply asking if you are doing them to draw attention to yourself or because you truly DO believe that it is healthier for you. I am viewing you from a different perspective and one that is probably held by a good majority of people. How you present yourself is going to cause folks to form an immediate impression and determine if they like or dislike you... if they hire or fire you... if they offer you a raise/new positon over someone else or just pass you over, if they view you as a person or a "freak." I've joined "revoluton" twice in my life... once as a young man and then later as a father/parent/husband which leads me to where I am now. And yes, I've lived under a president that's lied to the nation over and over again. I'm just hoping his wife doesn't run in '08! *grins* Blessed be to you and your path choice and may you find inner solace with it!

from pyroguysr :

True, the renfest has a lot of the counter-culture types... people that never quite left the 60's and children of people that are still stuck IN the 60's. But to me? No, it's a business. A FUN business, albeit, but a business. I don't just walk around the fair just to be seen. I'm selling very expensive stuffed dragons ($200 for the largest, $69+ for the "adult", $39 and $27 for the "baby" and $14 for the "bodice dragon") so it's not an easy sell. I joined into this venture with the thought of expanding it and making a lot of money. In the course of working in this business, I had the chance and tried growing "long hair" again for "the part" and cut it after 6 months because I couldn't stand it being in my face. Kept the handlebar until recently because it wasn't hurting other job prospects (my partner doesn't want to expand the business the same way I do, so I'm forced to find other employment because her business plan doesn't make enough money to make this a "business" instead of a hobby). I am very cautious not to be judgemental of people and their habits or appearances, but there are certain ones that I have to question. Like, there is always the my-mind-is-made-up-because-I-once-read-a-book-about-it, counter-culture, airy-fairy, vegan girl at a fair that starts lecturing me about eating meat and how bad it is for you, putting poisons into your system and how I'm giving in to the establishment, etc, ad nauseum. I point to her tattoos and dreds and say,"How many times did that needle inject you with god-knows what kind of chemicals in the inks? How do you wash your scalp and get those dreds clean? You CAN'T! You might have lice or ringworm or other critters in there and not be able to get at them! How 'healthy' is that? And, outside of this place, looking like that, what other kind of job are you able to get? What plans do you have for your life? Yes, I'm tailoring my looks to match the people I'm trying to convince to hire me. Yes, I'll be wearing a suit and tie and I don't mind it, just like you are wearing the uniform of the supposed counter-culture - which is just an 'establishment' of a different order." I don't have to dress in "all black" or "all leather" to go into a goth or techno club. I don't have to dress in tie-dyed shirts to hang out at a campfire and sing folk songs with the hippies. In fact, they look at me and say, "Dude, you always seem to wear a sports coat and dockers... but you look COOL in it, dude!" I don't critique in a mean tone and I try to be very matter-of-fact about it. The airy-fairy types generally don't have much to say to me after that, but some of the others will get into long discussions with me about things. (and, usually, they are surprise to learn how old I am!) When I was young, my dad used to chide me to just "be myself." I know what he means now. I conform only to what I wish to conform to. I'm involved in different "cultures" but that doesn't mean I "adopt the uniform." I quit doing that once I was married and had a child. When my son was born, all my energies went toward him. He was the #1 thing in my life and everything I did was geared toward providing for him and spending time with him, making sure someone was "there" for him. He became the center of my universe. I guess I'm saying that THIS is where your energies should be focused... not on fads and appearances, but on your adorable son and husband. You have a family now and you need to concentrate on being a mom - not on "rebelling."

from pyroguysr :

*smiffles* But do you still LOVE me? *blows nose* If'n you do, I'll send you some vegan recipies!

from pyroguysr :

I'm sorry... that last note was neither polite nor called for. You have goals for your life and I have mine. I just don't understand how the desire to eat healthier goes with your obsession with prescription medicines. Makes me wanna hug you and bop you upside the head at the same time. As far as being vegan is concerned, remember this one thing: Squash be your friends. Stuff them and eat them! Make them into soup and be glad!

from pyroguysr :

*sighs* You're going VEGAN now? That's soooooo counter-culture cliche!

from somstar :

BTW I wanted to add that you had the longest entries ever, but hey, at least they're not boring.

from beckers-j :

I tagged you, but feel free to ignore. I won't be offended. ;)

from somstar :

Congratulations, smoking is ... icky?

from pyroguysr :

That purported "friend" is what I call a "drainbow" or a "psychic vampire." You try very hard to "bring them up to your level" of happiness or satisfaction but they resist every fucking inch of it. They will say, "I can't do that!" or "I'm not like you!" or "I'm not that strong!" They won't admit that many or all of these "problems" in their lives can only be solved by themselves. These "problems" are, of course, never THEIR fault, but someone elses. They LIVE for the drama it creates because it makes people notice them... even if it's in a negative way. They suck any and all positive vibes out of you and still want more. In reality, no matter how much you love these people, it will never be enough. And you should unload these folks from YOUR life before they drag you down into the morass that is THEIR life. People like you and I have enough on our plates to deal with, let alone worrying about someone elses desire for needy attention. That's my piece from personal experience. Hope I didn't offend.

from pyroguysr :

Hopefully you've read April's corresponding Seuss poems (mrscoble.diaryland.com) as well so that they made sense! LOL Me sweet? But now you're gonna let the secret out when I've spent so much time cultivating a "dirty old man" image! LOL

from pyroguysr :

Then pretend it's written by a woman and tell me what you think! *grins*

from cacophic :

locks rock.

from fridayfilms :

Hey you. Thanks for the add! I had my hair in dreads for three years, and loved those sons of bitches. I have pretty fine hair, though, and they were small and would sometimes just break off, so it couldn't last forever. Anyway, nice place you got here.

from pyroguysr :

Ha! I may grow back the 'stache after I'm gainfully employed. Of course dreds are itchy... they're icky! LOL... and if you really want to get into the *long kiss while naked by the fire after battling polar bears in a cabin in upper Saskatchewan* then you'll probably want to go read my erotica at: http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=66949 If you go to the chatroom, you can look for either "Pyro" or "Quiet Knight" *grins*

from pyroguysr :

*sighs* I like hair I can run my fingers through during a long, romantic kiss while lying naked in front of a fire... http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/deadsquirrelpubs/my_photos

from pyroguysr :

Also, try going to "DeadSquirrelPubs" for pictures instead of PyroGuySr. The latter got hacked and I no longer have access to it. No dreds!

from pyroguysr :

No dreds! NO! NO, NO, NO! Dreds on blondes? NO!

from somstar :

Ah! i can't see your entry!

from pyroguysr :

Mose? Did I say "mose??" Well, when you hab a snuffy gnose from weepink over the loss of substantial lip-hair, you say "mose" instead of "most"...

from pyroguysr :

Twas as traumatic for me as it is for you ladies... *sob* Now you'll have nothing to hold onto when you pay your 25 cents for the worlds most incredible moustache ride! *wails* I had to... *smiffle* look RESPECTABLE again! *wipes eyes, blows nose* Now that I've said that, let me tell you that I think you have the mose ADORABLE child I've ever seen! You are truly blessed there! And a husband that looks like Lindsey Buckingham to boot! You are a VERY lucky lady... and they are lucky to have you as well!

from pyroguysr :

If they're leaving you drained rather than "even" then you should talk to the doc about a change... which means getting OFF a medication for two weeks and then gradually introducing a NEW med. I have my "manic" moments... which are, thankfully, being directed creatively into a novel... but I have my depressed moments too... just the swings aren't quite as violent anymore. I actually made it through the holidays without wanting to slit my wrists! LOL MAAAAjor breakthrough there! Other than that? *Huggles*

from pyroguysr :

Crikey! (he says in a fake Aussie accent while trying not to laugh at how bad it sounds), I shag one bluddy bitch for two-and-one-half-years whilst still married and I have "mistress issues?" LOL I just wanna be married to a babe that gets me wanker goin at night and continues to raise the dead in the mornin'! Blimey! (OK, you can be my "next" Mistress then!)

from vla :

so... what's the deal here? what's going on? no judgment, just curious. was this a planned thing or did it just happen? & are you ok with it, er. yeah. questions. and as for me, the eating stuff has been going well. no b/p at all, actually. maybe restricting a little more than usual but my appetite has been a little off, of course thanks to the break up blues type thing. just really recently I have had my v. first thoughts of b/p again. but they have been kinda minor. it's weird but I think having kevin out of my life has released a huge weight off my shoulders, a huge depression and pressure that was a major contributing factor to my b/ping... not that it won't be hard again at some point, but I sort of wonder... anyway. basically I feel like having him out of my life is good for my e.d. so, back to you, take care. hope my questions weren't nosey. but then again, I am nosey, so..

from pyroguysr :

OOOOH... now would be a good time to try and convince you to marry me, eh?

from pyroguysr :

Yay for good sex. Now I want pictures! LOL

from pyroguysr :

A little jaw? Hell no! You're shooting for that "Make Up Sex!"

from beckers-j :

I give you lots of credit and wish you lots of luck. I need to make a committment like that myself. ;)

from pyroguysr :

Next time the hubby does that, don't come back with "how you feel about how he feels." Try saying, "You know, you have a valid point. I need your help to get me motivated. How can we work together on this? Could we possibly do some of the housework together?" Instead of becoming defensive, you are now asking for help, which always makes the other party feel better because we ALL like to help our loved ones. You see, when you become defensive and tell HIM how YOU feel, you are belittling/negating/making excuses to ignore his point. By asking for help, you're being inclusive. Try it. May not work the first time, but the next time, you may see a change in him AND you. *hugs*

from beckers-j :

Actually, it doesn't really make me hungry. At least, not anymore than usual, which is hungry enough!

from beckers-j :

Ithaca is Gorges! Have you seen those bumper stickers? Always loved those. And I always really liked Ithaca, too.

from serenaville :

You want to move to Ithaca, New York??

from candoor :

may 2006 be wonderful :)

from serenaville :

Your Christmas recap was great. You also have the most kickass hung stockings, ever. (I take double entendres wherever I can get them.) Mainly, just wanted to say I love your diary, hardcore. *HUGS*

from applerobot :

I lost yr email address on my phone but THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOME parcel! I got it yesterday! You rock my socks off, lady!

from xnavygrrl :

Hey doll, Can you leave me a note with your email addy? Then, I promise I'll erase it. I need to send you the password information. I hope you had a great holiday! Missy

from shawntasy :

Hey Miss Betty! No password needed. It's unlocked now. You can find me there or http://shawniegirl.blogspot.com here.

from drahmaqueen :

Damn! That's probably the best piece of advice I've gotten in a long time. Now, if you can tell me how you actually pull it off, I'll be your best friend. :) I am going to say it over and over again to myself and just do it. You nailed it. I was feeling like that. hmmm... Having someone looking outside in is a huge benefit of this diary. Love that. xxoo

from applerobot :

merry xmas to all Po's!

from drahmaqueen :

Well sweetie, BTW thanks for adding me. I added you. Permanent....My oldest has a tatoo of a Celtic Cross on his left upper chest...HUGE. Gigantic on purpose. I believe for spite. A present for himself for his 18th and about 10 minutes birthday. I swear I saw him checking his clock for the I-am-officially-legal time. Then a couple of weeks ago, a stupid skull on his left back shoulder....hmmmm. Deep breaths...he is rebelling. This child was "perfect" for longer than he should have been. He is making up for it. No problems, responsible, good grades, always was on time for curfew...etc. I actually laughed outloud when I saw the 3 pics of your 2yr old in mid-tantrum. That took me back to the grocery store a few years ago with them. Merry Christmas. I am a Texas Gal. You are Georgia? I looked at stats. Is that you? Merry Christmas! xxoo Jen

from drahmaqueen :

OK, you are too funny. I (instead of getting ready to leave in like 5 minutes) have spend the last 20 mins reading your stuff. I am LATE! I love the fact that you are so in love with your kiddo (who by the way is precious). I have two of them that are waaayyy taller than me now. Can I add you to my buddy list? Merry Christmas.

from pyroguysr :

Not Martha, PLEEEEEASE!!! I'd shoot myself if I were her!!! *chuckles* My EX was Martha. I'm perkier! More like Rachel Ray. Yeah, that's it, Rachel Ray! (but only because I want to get into her pants like you wouldn't believe! Now, THERE is a WOMAN! *drool* *drool*) but wait, no... no... I'm a guy. Must be Alton Brown then. Yeah, he's quirky enough! Alton Brown. Martha IS the Anti-Christ! Alton is gleefully eeeeviiillll! LOL

from pyroguysr :

It always seems to be a matter of too many people trying to please too many other people and trying to make things too perfect, then being thrown together with all the other wound-up, stressed out peoples and worrying that "what we give might not be as good as what they gave." I got over that stress by learning how to make some home-made, crafty gifts for folks that you CAN'T put a price on (apple butter, herbal vinegars and oils, etc). Second, perhaps Celexa isn't working for you because the doc is misdiagnosing. I'm in a study now that is combining two common antidepressants in a new way and I'm sleeping soundly for the first time in years PLUS I'm feeling much better about myself. Contact me at PyroGuySr at Yahell dot com if you want more info. And you're still adorable.

from serenaville :

I just thought I would share: Based solely on our recent warm exchange over Harriet the Spy... I purchased the book for my eleven-year-old, as one of her Christmas presents. You, dear lady, inspire in more ways than one. ;) *HUGS*

from xnavygrrl :

I wanted to tell you I enjoy reading your diary. I find your diary funny and enlightening.

from pyroguysr :

awwwww... Miles looks soooo cute when he's upset. Almost looks like he has anthropomorphic ears in the first piccy. And, as for gifts for the unexpected... I always have some baked-goods and/or extra gift cards on hand for emergencies like that. (that way, if they aren't given away, I can use them!)

from pyroguysr :

AAAACK! Paragraphs! Use paragraphs! Eyes are awash in letters and words! Take a breath! *grins*

from beckers-j :

Your kid IS the cutest. ;)

from pyroguysr :

"Doghead" *LOL* That's a classic!

from shawntasy :

Youre back! I just noticed your diary was back up!

from geeked-out :

Oh baby snores! And then you just want to lean over and bite their cheeks because they are so soft and chubby and you can't stop smiling. wait. What?

from serenaville :

I laughed so hard at the Miles' b-day entry, Mook told me I was way too tired and getting punchy, and that I should just go to bed now. (8:30pm! Bedtime Nazi!) "Ain't no party like an Elmo party, 'cause an Elmo party don't stop." Another line I am so stealing from you. P.S. Yes, I do remember Harriet the Spy, and her daily piece of cake. (Tomato and mayonnaise sandwiches!) I also recall the costume pageant, and her wanting to know the motivation for being (I think?) an onion. *snrk!* :D

from yeahimadork :

Um, I wish that was the case. But unfortunately, I get about halfway to work and realize I have no bra on. I don't know how you forget something you've put on every.single.day for twenty years, but I do. Dammit.

from yeahimadork :

Clicked your banner, and laughed at your bra/back fat story, and someone saying "how do you forget your underwear"? I'm here to tell you that not only can it be done, but I do it about once every month or two. It's sad, really.

from serenaville :

Dude, I worshipped Harriet the Spy. I walked around with a goddamned notebook, and a flashlight hanging from my beltloop, for MONTHS. I was just pissed we didn't have a dumbwaiter in our 70's raised ranch. Gawd, the memories flooding back now...

from pyroguysr :

Clicked your banner and chuckled at your entry. Gotta say girl, that back-fat or no back-fat, I wouldn't kick you outta bed! And I mean that in the NICEST way!

from beckers-j :

Those pics of Annie and K-Po are the best. Ha! And I am jealous. ;)

from candoor :

interesting, you ramble well (and happy birthday, whenever it was :)

from killsbury :

Banner hopping. Have to add you!

from applerobot :

happy birthday little cutie!!

from serenaville :

Awwwww! Happy birthday to your gorgeous little guy! (It sure IS a 180, isn't it?? Dayum.) Enjoy 'two' while it lasts! *HUGS to you both*

from applerobot :

Sorry I couldn't come & hang out in a Texas hotel with you. Bummer! I would like a holiday card, but I think I'm just too far away! Oh, I suck.

from beckers-j :

Sounds like a perfect family Thanksgiving. ;) Enjoy your alone-time!

from applerobot :

have fun on your trip. are you staying in a hotel? I AM SO JEALOUS!

from cacophic :

do you like waxing better? I've actually never tried it, i thought that would hurt more. Interesting. I'll have to try it. Here's your stumbly nikki [virgin of course] XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO back to you.

from cacophic :

I think I agreee with you...you have to actually WANT to stop before you can. Like, I still LIKE drinking. Some times I feel out of control and I know I SHOULD stop, but I don't really want to, so I don't. If you want to do something, just do it. If you don't, don't. :)

from misstress :

I didn't mean for my "take responsibility" comment to be directed at you; quite the opposite. I meant that people in these sheeple organizations (cocaine anonymous/alcoholics anonymous) over-rate their own pain to the exclusion of all else. But you know that, cause you figured it out per your entry. Awesome email to your friend by the way.

from vla :

I've been reading through some of your archives today because I'm bored at work and because you're an awesome writer. It's so weird how much I relate to some of your entries. anyway. I just wanted to say hi. Have a happy thanksgiving.

from misstress :

I feel the same way about CA that you do about AA. Take some responsibility, people!

from applerobot :

two boys in suits! awesome!

from bettinas :

So you already know that i think you're insightful, brave, and deeply funny, but have I mentioned that your child is THE CUTEST THING EVER??

from applerobot :

fringe, fringe, bangs! Your photos are always so funny!

from applerobot :

no! i dont film the porn (that made me laugh!), just supplied the content (seriously, everyone would do it if they knew they could download free porn from these people under the pretenses of promoting it). I dont know if that makes any sense at all. ALSO... love the photos & adventures! Your bangs are cool!

from cacophic :

your spawn looks like you.....and he's SUPER cute

from applerobot :

yep, serious about the porn thing. i made porn movie galleries (not of myself, of course!), but tried to make it my career before it failed forever! I was also working in a porn store at the time. Hmmm.

from applerobot :

those photos are awesome m'dear!!!!

from beckers-j :

I feel like I'm at a similar point with Ted - he's just not as affectionate and solicitous of my feelings as he used to be. It sucks.

from vla :

aw, thanks for adding me! 76. a baaad year indeed.

from misstress :

Easy way to get rid of Jehovah's Witnesses quickly (and so they'll never come back): tell them you're disfellowshipped.

from vla :

of course! email me for the password at [email protected].

from applerobot :

you're a delight! a pure delight!

from serenaville :

I clicked on your banner, and instantly fell in unabashed 'like' with your diary. The gorgeous pictures (Your SON. My heart, it melts into a PUDDLE. GOD.), and the straight-up way you write... brilliance. Your space is an immediate 'add' to my buddy list, hardcore. Congrats on the sobriety, woman... good on ya!! So glad to have found you on here. Take care! -Serena

from sopretty :

hey i just found your diary. loved the silkwood reference haha. also-300 DOLLAS!?!? no way. i do hair and all that stuff,you could've done the same all on your own. they just spend more on their product,thats all. i would've been picking too.haha.

from beckers-j :

Holy Moly, those are some expensive eyelashes! But they looked damn good. :)

from cacophic :

how CUTE is boots!?

from zoobomb :

i have an email in my head that is addressed to you. one of these days i'll actually type it out. but not today. hope you're doing well.

from cacophic :

I am SO proud of you. Christ.

from cacophic :

BETTY!!! My alcoholic co-pilot, how ARE you!? Missing you.

from zoobomb :

i hate to admit how many days in a row i have done that. with no problem.

from beckers-j :

That's a great analogy. :)

from beckers-j :

Yeah, I will definitely need to quit smoking one day in the near future. Let me know if you decide to quit. :)

from beckers-j :

I love all the pics! That was so great - especially that last one. ;)

from beckers-j :

Thanks for adding me! :) I'll be sure to check your diary out as well!

from somstar :

Well, don't feel bad salty foods are the only foods I can eat. I wonder which is worse for you salty or sugary? I would imagine it'd be salty.

from stellarrobot :

I just had to clarify: "Tarjay shoes" - you mean Target? I'm Australian, and more than a little confused.

from cacophic :

You sound like you're doing well...I'm happy for you, 'keep up the good work.' I know how you feel when you said..."For the first 9 months of his life I was drunk..." It's like you finally wake up and realize all the shit you can never get back. Take care.

from tornshadow :

In reference to your latest entry - the last part - I hope you do too, screw the AA mantra of "You neeeeed us..." and "You're just a dry drunk if you aren't with Us!" It's like a freakin cult, I swear.

from bettinas :

Just in case you're wondering, that was me who read your whole diary. I'm glad you're back. Miles is beautiful, and good luck with going clean!

from ozwald :

Hey there! Send me an email at [email protected] and I'll hook you up.

from tornshadow :

Thanks for dropping me a message, if you would like to chat sometime too that would be great :) I'll fire ya off my email addy if you like. Talk to you soon and keep it up.

from adultcontent :

done and done, i'll see you in the VIP room next wednesday so we think of a fundraiser to help bobby brown pay off all those aggrivated battery charges

from adultcontent :

"There are freaks at Bingo who bring in large quantities of "Lucky Charms" and spread them out all over the table." I honestly thought to my self "...the cereal!?" oh what a mental image of senior citizens going into church basements with economy size boxes of Lucky Charms...mmmmmhmmmmm. I think you are really strong for taking on alcoholism. True story. I'm considering asking you to join my gang. [A-T-L PEACE UP, A-TOWN DOWN] How good are you with a bowstaff?

from adultcontent :

your latest entry won me over. you are adorable, miss!

from tornshadow :

Just read you latest entry. I'm fighting the same battle you are, every day. I had a lot of problems when I went to AA when I lived in CA, it TOTALLY turned me off to the whole system. My problem was the exact opposite though, I hated people trying to force me to speak about my problem. I went primarily to listen and to hear that there are many other people just like me that struggle daily with alcohol. What I didn't like as well was that I was the only alcoholic there. Everyone was a former drug addict of some sort. I did not like being reproached by other members, telling me that all addicts are the same. I couldn't relate to any of their stories once they went into drug tirades. I never had anyone put a gun to my head when I went to buy beer. I never got robbed or beaten or anything when I went to the store to get a 12 pack. I never cleaned out my bank account and sold my car to get more drugs. I spent $14 and drank myself into nowhere. At 29 myself btw - I was the youngest person in the room :( Sorry for ranting on and on and on, just wanted to let you know that I'm a kindred spirit and I offer you much luck in your desire to quit as well. If you ever want to talk anytime, drop me a note on my diary and I'll send you my ID on Yahoo. Peace, J

from ozwald :

OMG - that is brilliant! I think every Republican in the world needs to see that. Thanks! I think I will post that linker.

from cacophic :

You're right, you know. When he walked into the room he thought it was serious, he didn't realize I didn't know the guy on the phone. Everyone was drunk. Things got out of hand. I'm so fucking miserable without him that I can't do anything but be with him. I'm okay, really. Just sad. Things will be better tonight. If we are both this upset without the other what's the point in staying away? Thanks for listening. (and I like your entry today!)

from serenitymac :

Hey Betty, Was reading your last entry, and I just wanted to say to you, your beautiful, and there is so much wonder in the world specifically for each individual out there, and I know you will be set free, and recieve your rewards!!!!!!!!!!Life is a grande thing, and it's up to us what we choose to do with it....Make your coice sweetheart, and know you create your own destiny!!!!!!!!!HAVE AN ABSOLUTELY, POSTIVIELY, AWSOME GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Serenity

from cacophic :

I'm not sure when I'll be on chat today...east coast time around 10:00, maybe later on around 1 or 2. The boss will be around a lot today but I will try to keep checking chat. I'll be okay. I've got booze.

from cacophic :

You're baby is SO CUTE! I love baby pistures...awww, cute. And you're fucking pretty, you know that?

from cacophic :

LOL, I love your car's name. Yeah, I love VWs, too. I had a scirocco, it shit the bed...so I got this jetta, which I love. :)

from cacophic :

HAHAHAHAHA. What a fucking freak your co-worker is.

from cacophic :

LOL...I love your comment for me...so true! :)

from stellarrobot :

Mmm, Velvets....

from zoobomb :

damn...always a day late and a dollar short.

from pixiia-8 :

Hey bets :). Seems like you were around again, and now you're gone again, hmm....BABY? wow. Congrats! :)

from zoobomb :

wow. sounds like you've had a lot going on this year. congrats on the baby and marriage and everything.

from shawntasy :

Hey Miss Betty!!!!

from zoobomb :

50 days and counting....we miss you, betty :)

from pixiia-8 :

I echo the statement of the previous note. Betty, dahling, where have you goney gone gone? Getting it oney on on, I am forced to assume... well when you return come say hi :).

from bettinas :

Is everything okay? Did you run away with the person for whom you were discussing leaving Oli? The problem with these online diaries, you know, is that once you start reading them, they become real...please update, betty...

from shawntasy :

Dang my poor Miss Ford is going through some MAJOR shit and here I am begging for an update. I dont have any advice to give you, but I'm here if you need a sympathetic ear. I hope whatever decision you make, that you are happy. In the end that is all that really matters, your happiness.

from shawntasy :

Tsk Tsk.... bad Betty!

from shawntasy :

Dont make me come down there!!! When are you gonna update! Want an update please!!

from shawntasy :

Miss Betty!!!!! Wanted to drop by and give you a super hug! How ya been?

from pixiia-8 :

Hiya drunky drunk :). Sounds like wedding plans are in full hysteria, and all is good wit' ya. Congrats on it, it sounds like fun. WOW, you got eyeliner tattooed on? Holy eichewawa, that's kinda cool...what does it look like? I've always been curious about that. What does it look like in the morning when you have no other make up on...natural? Do you love it? Does it make you feel all minxy and flirty all the time? Describe it to me!!

from shawntasy :

What's up Betty Chick? I miss my daily dose! Where are yooooooooooooou?

from shawntasy :

My deodorent smells like a tampon? hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe How I miss my friend Betty!!!

from shawntasy :

:D Shawntasy is in Mexico!!!!!!! And why you distracted chickie? Upcoming nuptials? Big ole hugs Miss Betty Chicka!

from shawntasy :

Betty doesn't love me anymore. It's okay, I understand. Sniff, sniff. Hey Miss Betty Chicka! How ya doing? I've missed reading your diary. Read it today. Made me smile. Hehe! Hey do you have any suggestions on how to decorate an apartment super cute, but really cheaply? I'll talk to you laters Miss Betty Chicka!

from shawntasy :

You are not a cunt, and you definately don't need anyone living with you. Stick to your guns and where is my invitation???? :( I know you don't like have my address but sheesh. Hehe, congratulations Miss Betty!

from shawntasy :

hola senorita betty la borracha, no te creas! hehe just kidding. since i'm in mexico, i thought I'd try out my espanol on you. how you doing chickie? great i'm hoping! well i'll talk to you laters. much love, me

from shawntasy :

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetty!!! Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetty!!! It's me and I'm nuts and I'm still in California! Sighs! I don't know when I'll be back in Vegas, so I wanted to say howdy! Hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowdwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!

from pixiia-8 :

Jimmy buffet tickets are $100?? Omg. I saw Elvis Costello a few summers ago at a music festival it was awesome :). YOu have red couches! Bitch! I want red couches :{

from pixiia-8 :

Yay! Betty and Oli sittin' in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g! :D

from shawntasy :

hehe I forgot! just kidding, I think I will email it, instead of writing you a note.

from shawntasy :

hehe booty shake? hehe, hey miss betty I gotta question for you.

from bettyford :

~woo hoo~ my boss is outta town so i got all day to play! psychosugartoxicity

from coolassaward :

Hey Miss Betty lady! You aren't a racist, and even if you were, you'd be a funny and well informed racist. So believe me, you really don't have much to worry about. We only give the young ones advice. But Cool Chicks like you we love interviewing and unreviewing because you make us smile and laugh lots. So we are game if you are.

from coolassaward :

Hello, Shawn nominated you to be recognizes for the difference you make in her life. She thinks you're a pretty Cool Chick and everyone should know it. It is not our policy at Cool Chicks to "unreview" anyone without their permission. If you'd like to participate in an "unreview" and/or interview, please leave us a note and we will proceed to the next step. Thank you, CC

from shawntasy :

Hey, all I'm doing is telling the truth Betty Chickie!

from bettinas :

Hey there-it sounds like you're going through some rough stuff right now (even though you're being painfully ambiguous in your fabulous diary), and so I thought I'd give you a very cheery, too-much-time-spent-at-liberal-arts-college online hug. Hang in there. (And tell us what you're talking about, dammit!)

from shawntasy :

"I loved the fantasy of Jose, but loathed the fucking reality that was Jose." Do you know you summed up my entire relationship with Wicasa, but the sad thing is that I find it so incredibly hard to let the fantasy go and deal with the reality of him and move on.

from shawntasy :

I changed the font color. Is that better? And I love your diary layout, it's perfect! But then again I'm a dork so..... Since you can't open attatchments, I'll put the link on my diary. :D Talk to you laters!!!!

from shawntasy :

locks off! how you doing chickie? you get my email? :o( hope so.

from shawntasy :

i am such a dork! i erased my html. :o( I feel naked. i stayed up all night creating a new one because i didnt save the old one. man im on crack. ima take the lock off tonight

from pixiia-8 :

Omg are you shitting me? Tellll meeee! Email it to me, k? Pleeeease! I won't tell a soul.

from pixiia-8 :

Omg, LOL. Punch her in the pussy! Do it do it! That is hilarious. NO, actually she needs to be photoshopped with her head on mussolini's body, and have her making out with a donkey, just for effect, yeah, that's good. And then send it to her in her e-mail. Oh wait, you check her e-mail for her though don't you, hmmm. Yea, just punch her in the pussy.

from shawntasy :

You know how kitties faces are! Bad lil asses always into something.

from shawntasy :

Fraulein Vundebar? Now that's just precious. Seriously, it is!

from shawntasy :

Wiggedy-waxed? Hehehe! Where do you come up with this stuff! You are so brilliantly funny!

from bettinas :

For some reason I thought you would appreciate this. My boyfriend is in the process of naming his new band, and the #1 name so far is "Oedipus and the Motherfuckers" I just thought you would appreciate that as much as I do.

from grug :

Well I am currently accepting button aplications through my secretary. I must warn you tho. There is some stiff competition! :P

from pixiia-8 :

It's good to vent. You are right, peeps who don't know about it just don't know about it. Oli loves you, and if he's hurting that should matter to you. If it didn't you wouldn't be a good partner. But you are, so your girls are probably just jealous that you've got love...it's amazing how people can resent good things in their friends' lives. You know who you are so that's that. Love notes? AWWWWWWW. :)

from shawntasy :

I'm praying my breast size has nothing to do with my back pain. I love my breast, they're beautiful. And looking porn-worthy is just a bonus. (Baby Tee's are some of my best freinds!) hehe. So, yeah my reaction when thinking of altering my "big ole tits" (hehe) is definately more like hell F*CKING NAH! LMAO! I've never really had a problem with them. I like have separate birthday parties just for them. Consult them when buying new clothes. Call them by thier given names. hehe. I've been my same bra size for years. And I used to have to buy the ugly granny bras till I discovered Frederick's! I LOVE that store. No one should love a store as much as I love Frederick's. If it were to ever close down, no, no, I won't even contemplate such a travesty. Frederick's bras are not only gorgeous, they have wonderful support. "Franken-boobie"? HaHaHaHa! I hope you know what a rad chick you are!!! And funny? Ha! That dosent even begin to cover it! :o)

from shawntasy :

"What if my cootchie taste funny." HaHaHaHaHa HaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHa!Not laughing at ya, just sharing your cootchie anxiety. HaHa! Reading your diary definatly livens up my day. THANKS!

from grug :

I am not sure you'd want to be my button. It did fall in the toilet :P

from pixiia-8 :

nuh-uh, no u din't! I doubt your coochie smells like a tupper ware bin. :)

from pixiia-8 :

Yay! :) You are a wicked sweet girlfriend sigh. You and Oli are lucky to have eachother. Yea, u r right, it's a good thing to be able to be humble and make ammends. I've been through what Oli felt, and u r right, it sux. Sometimes whims need to be respected to get over it. You guys rock! :). Tuff luv, Pix xoxo

from pixiia-8 :

PS I must state this again I really really know Oli rocks the cazbah, and he seems like just the sweetest. I am NOT dissing Oli. I just want you to go to DC with your girls, *sniff*.

from pixiia-8 :

NOOO! NO NO NO! Ok, none of my business, I know. But...I'm nosey, (nose full of love though, hehe). So, I gather you cheated on him...that's not as unbearable and disgusting as you make it sound, you guys are young, and you are not married, so you made a mistake, you are one in billions who has. In my opinion, cheating hurts, no question, and it is our responsibility as loving, sentient beings to try to be faithful and respectful to our chosen partners, but people freak out about it too much. We arrre all only human! Sooo, my point with that is fuck that noise if you messing up a little, what, like a full year ago, means you can't go WHEREVER you want WHENEVER you want with you girls!! What, are you really going to be happy with this dude in 10 years if you have to remember your twenties as some rule infested state of stifling, constant coupledom? I'm so sorry to be harsh, and i re-iterate, this is none of my business, but I just get all inflamed over this sort of thing because I had a boyfriend for 2 years of my twenties who told me what to do, and wouldn't let me go where I wanted to go, and kept me from my friends and having fun, and I freaked out! Thank god I left, I would never compromise my freedom like that again. Youth is gone before you have a chance to appreciate it, don't deprive yourself of wonderful memories that will make growing old more pleasant...GO TO DC WITH YOUR GIRLS. I know Oli is lovely and worth sacrafice, but I honestly believe no matter what you've done in the past, in this scenario he is being insecure and manipulative. LOTS of love, don't be mad at me, Pix.

from pixiia-8 :

Sigh...I love entitlement :). Thank-you lovely Betty, it was all pretty shitty dammit! Don't feel blah for too long, we need your funnies :). Pix xoxo PS, yes belly is more acurate, and cuter U R right. :)

from pixiia-8 :

Damn Betty that was great! You are such a smarty girl! Good debate, bravo. :)). Pix

from zoobomb :

smooth operator undercover, huh? i like it. i just wish i fit that description.

from pixiia-8 :

Damn. I wish I lived in Atlanta. I like GnR. I like books. I like drinky drink and phen phen. Sigh. Anway, about the friend thing, it'll come together I know it. I was feeling exactly like that last month (somehow everything you write I am all about, it's mental) and then, twist of fate, it got all good. I reconnected with friends I had been neglecting, and I got off my ass and made some new ones, and you will too! I sound like Richard simmons! I am going to write in a motivational fashion and end every sentence with an exlamation point for the rest of the the night! You have to give me your e-mail for me to tell you what gross thing Jules did, it's too yucky to say here. I mean...it's too yucky to say here! Luuuv, Pix xoxo

from pixiia-8 :

I do :(. But ok, have fun :). luv, Pix xoxo

from pixiia-8 :

Lordy, where'd u get to girl? Pix

from pixiia-8 :

:). Pix

from pixiia-8 :

Doesn't that killll you? My boyfriend is completly helpless in domestic life as well. It's a god damned joke really, I want to strangle him sometimes. *wistful* Sigh, the burden we bear...heh. Pix

from pixiia-8 :

aww yeah, purple dash board lights. Betty, I truly share your love of all that is tackily glamorous. Sigh, I LOVE purple dash board lights. Pix

from shawntasy :

"hunch on it"? Dang, LMAO. Must be some dang car. LOL. I may try Metabo-crack, but right now I am still thinking about it. Thanks for the info though, I really appreciate it.

from hizee :

Thanks for the note! It gave me a great laugh only because I was a total tomboy as a kid and ended up being the cheerleader. Not my finest moment. Hey...congrats on the new car and thanks again for the note!!

from pixiia-8 :

I'm sooo going to check that out! I've always wondered how such a song could be overlooked by cover culture! But yes, Dolly will always reign queen of that song :)). Pix

from shawntasy :

Metabo-crack? LMAO. I thought of trying it but changed my mind. Does it work?

from pixiia-8 :

OMG. Dolly Parton and Juice Newton were my first loves too! No wait, Juice Newton was a crush, and yes, I wanted that hair...Dolly was true love. Still is. I found Dolly live in London on video tape for 5 bucks last month, and I smiled the WHOLE day. My boyfriend winced at me when I brought it home, but 20 minutes into it and he was aware of the glory that is Dolly. We watched it 4 times in two weeks. And I really dig Geek Love...great quote. :). I'm glad you wrote me, cuz then I got to read you :). luv, Pixiia-8

from bettinas :

Woke up feeling crabby and read your diary and you made me laugh. Is the metabo-crack working? Because I can't seem to sleep enough, and I'd much rather just get out of bed and get some shit done...

from zoobomb :

you can cut it, you can paste it, you can stick it up your ass and shake it all around if you want to... whatever turns you on ;)

from shawntasy :

Your welcome and I wish you and yours a safe, peaceful, blessed and joyous holiday. :o)

from shawntasy :

Hey! I'm like halfway through your diary and I just thought I'd let you know (as if you didnt know already) its great and sometimes funny as hell. I can totally relate to the weight issues, but hey you just gotta keep on keeping on. I love when I find a good diary, it like totally makes my day. So thanks a whole bunch for being an interesting, kick ass type person. Toodles

from livingston :

Couch day, couch day...moments away...I am SO looking forward to this, my Betty, my pretty little Betty. Love that T thang, doan yew?

from bettinas :

Hi Betty--people used to call me Betty all the time. thanks for linking to me. I'm going to sit down and read your whole diary tomorrow, then write something more lucid and inspired...

from livingston :

Betty...what is going on? I feel kinda sick like something is bad wrong. You were so weird in the bosses office yesterday...and now all this with Oli? Or is that why the weirdness? I'm coming to find you this morning. I love you so much. I see so much of myself in you. (God, do you hate it when people say that? I feel so fucking old and too like Cassandra...you know that myth? She was given the ability to see the future but also the curse that no one would believe her...) I'm so afraid for what all the hurt you feel is gonna do to you. I know what it did to me. You seem so fragile but I know you're NOT. I'm about to loose it typing this. I know you think I'm worse than...I don't even have a word but I have such a hard time making time to do the diary thing...my phone's ringing...FUCK...

from bobbipuzel :

Your diary is really great. I have really enjoyed reading my way through it. Hope you have a great day!!! Take care!!!! I will be sure to stop back here again soon! :o)

from ladeeleroy :

Dear Bettyfors: I'm sitting here in 6th hour. It is such a bore. did you see what Tina Hopkins is wering? What a whore. I bet you a Slim Fast that she scuffed my new Keds on purpsoe. Dumb beeyatch. Anyway. Are you going to Saide Hawkins with anyone? i think I might ask Ned, but that may be weird, he's like my brother, you know? Anyway. I gotta split. Dr. herring's looking at me. What a dumbass. LYLAS, Ladeeleroy. PS. Are you trying out for Show Choir? I think I am.

from twospirits :

Here's a note for ya! I hate it when people don't sign gbookies and such, so...

from ms-m :

Type Betty Ford's Diary Voila! Done. You've linked to another site.

from ms-m :

Where you bin? Where you at? Where you be?

from ms-m :

I'm normal. Seriously, I'm normal.... Okay sane. No really, I'm psychologically sound. Fair enough, I'm breathing - that's gotta count for something.

from ms-m :

Are you getting a Guest Book?

from ms-m :

Deep breathing is your only solution with Oli. You have the patience of a Saint, because I would have rammed the bank up his arse! In regards to the Love Cruise, I like Tony and Laura - I'm glad they got booted off together... stupid Anthony. I like the Toni gal, Monday's episode should be interesting.

from ms-m :

Nice layout girlie! ~high-fives the coolness that is Betty!~

from ms-m :

Consider the horrendous error, corrected.

from ms-m :

Yo Betty! Word up!

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