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from whystinger :
I didn't realize you had moved to Wordpress. I see you did do an update here, so will you be writing more here? Either way, I hope this finds you well.
from killsbury :
I will be waiting!
from readnglst999 :
Where is clarity25? Recent vacation blog - http://twoshotsoftequila.blogspot.com/ "Eric's" Photobucket account - http://s795.photobucket.com/home/sketchbookshark/index
from teranika :
thanks, cloudy, you've hit the nail straight on the head with your note, and it made me all weepy! When I picture Susi, I picture her toddling happily through our house. I tie my memory of her life so far to this house. Wow. I hadn't realized it. sigh.
from urbancadence :
Thanks for your virtual hugs :'-) I'm getting better with each passing day, but the look on Squeaky's face as she slipped into unconsciousness will probably stay with me forever. Sigh...
from whystinger :
I hope you get some good R & R while in Vegas. BTW, head wounds bleed a lot and usually look much worse than they are... thank goodness
from secret-trail :
Hello, thank you for the warm welcome to the cloud ring! :) Have a nice day!
from trapeze-act :
Thanks for the well wishes. I hope your boy's rash goes away.
from trapeze-act :
Your suicide story is hilarious.
from for-tart :
Let me know your email and the passwords will be on their way.
from for-tart :
Things are not so good. The wife was just laid off from a job she held since 1983. Trying to come up with a plan to keep body & soul together.
from teranika :
yes! but not a substantial snow - just little flurries here and there. enough to coat the mountain tops right after bandy went back to england (he came to go skiing...). I hope that you are all healthy where you are.
from sparkspark :
I haven't heard from him, but there are often long spells between communications and then he shows up again, so it never struck me as unusual. Have you tried to communicate with him lately and not heard back?
from dirtysweet :
well, I do like to do my bit to keep the blogosphere beautiful
from teranika :
Thanks for your note! Can't wait to see the next brag photo. I did something terrible this morning. Susi was breastfeeding, and she bit me. HARD. I made a sound to get her to stop but instead she bit harder. I was half-asleep and I said STOP IT! and slapped her on the side of the head to get her to stop. Oh boy did she cry, and wouldn't relatch. I felt AWFUL. I HIT MY KID. (Mind you, I was also bleeding). It took a lot of cuddles to get over this. I fear that our bf days are numbered if I can't get her to stop!
from urbancadence :
Yeah it totally sucks ass :-( But yes, change has definitely begun. Let's hope this is just a teaser for even more amazing and wonderful things to come over the next 4 years!
from urbancadence :
Tell me about it :(
from teranika :
I'm glad to hear that Finn is such a good size. Oh yeah, she's started crawling. Her favorite pastimes are standing up and sitting down (repeatedly) or motivating across the room to pick up any small thing that might get lodged in her throat and kill her.
from midautumn :
red rover, red rover, send Cloudy right over!
from teranika :
Hey I just came here to leave you a note! "Grandpa" is actually my stepfather. Funny how the child becomes the reference point for all names. And yes, I think it is going to work out. My friend was completely understanding, and we are about to sign a contract for the new nanny.
from urbancadence :
Well depending on how he behaves this weekend, the next time he asks me "Is he hotter than me?", I'm might just very well say "Like you have NO idea"!! I've always known about his ego problem, but it's never been this bad before! ARGH!!
from suckledhoney :
re: "you" That is exactly the entry I was thinking of adding earlier today!
from urbancadence :
HA HA! Geronimo!! That'd be so damn cruel to your kid, but it'd be FUNNY! And whoa, full college sponsorship? That had gotta suck to turn down! Haha!! But I'm sure Finn will thank you when you tell him this story when he's older ;)
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you :)
from urbancadence :
Me too!! I think Mr. Big is such a jerk compared to Aiden. Aiden was the PERFECT guy to settle down with. He was ready to commit, he was sweet, he was a perfect gentleman, and he had such a good personality. AND he never broke her heart like Mr. Big did... I dunno, a gazillion times?!? You'd think after the first two times she'd have learned! But bah... anyway, wasn't it a great end to the series? I was on the verge of tears at the very last scene, knowing that I'll never see them again (in new stuff, that is)!
from sbellem :
His real name is Barry and I don't dig that name. The gaelic root is Finbar and from there he became Finn almost immediatly and then a host of nicknames...Fionn, Fionnivar etc!! I need your son's name story!
from teranika :
You know, blighty said to me that now that I have Susi, every little baby will look all the more special to me, because they will all remind me of how she looked when she was born... It's so true already!
from teranika :
We are super lucky here - it's stayed nice! Well, we have Vancouver grey in the morning, but it clears up by afternoon. Had drinks on the terrace yesterday evening - wahoo!
from urbancadence :
Aww, thanks, you!!! Actually it's not my b'day yet, but I'll take it in advance ;-) I'm just glad not to be spending alone at home! What say you and Sasha take little Finn on his first trip to LA say, this Saturday? Hahaha!! Ok ok, I know it's impossible, but all the same, I'd like to extend the invitation to you :-) Perhaps not this time, but in the future... who knows?
from marzipanmind :
Yay, thanks for the note(s)! I hadn't updated in months so I wouldn't have been surprised if you'd just assumed I wasn't coming back. And thanks also for the wedding congrats. We didn't get married in Vegas, but we managed to make a great night of it nonetheless :)
from teranika :
would that be, say, $375k per year? Or total? ;-)
from elgan :
I have very few photos hosted at Diaryland. Mainly banners. Not much else. It's the comments I don't want to lose.
from amazinfuckup :
Haha, shut up, you're so mean to me.
from amazinfuckup :
Probably that any day now we're gonna snap and kill everyone. Or that we just like gross stuff. Who knows!
from urbancadence :
SHE'S BACK!!!!!! Brand new mom, ladies and gentlemen!!!!!!
from geek-betty :
must have more baby photos. please. I'm living vicariously through you.
from teranika :
Thought of you today when I got out of the house - alone - that is, without baby - for the FIRST TIME. It felt...weird. And after two hours, I knew I had to get back to the cave where my family was hibernating for the winter. I feel for you - good luck getting adjusted to work!
from webmiss :
I've opened it back up now. I figure since Jeff & I are no longer an item, there is no reason to hide. Welcome back. It's a hard transition to go from full time mommy, to working mommy. Hang in there!
from elgan :
I've missed you too. As for the spam thing, no, I don't get spam in my comments. But I do get tons of it at my Yahoo email address which is embedded in the site, most of which gets filtered out, happily, but not all. I have been considering leaving Diaryland as well, not because I want to, but because I'm sick of the lack of tech support. I still think of it as my first blogging home. But I do have a wordpress site all set up and ready to go, just in case. I hope we can chat soon. - El
from killsbury :
I need an update and specifically, pics, mom. Feed my hormones, please :)
from teranika :
Hey Cloudy - great to hear from you!!! Photo is posted. Will work on the birth story soon, when time allows. oh the adventures...
from amazinfuckup :
Was reading about babies earlier, and got to thinking about you and baby Cloudy. How are you guys doing?
from unctuous :
Hi. *waves* *blows kisses to the little guy*
from urbancadence :
Thanks, you brand spankin' new mom! :) Yeah, it's hard to pull the reigns back, but I refuse to let what happened with French Fitch to affect my ability to do so. Give baby Finn a hug for me! And I'm so sorry about everything that has happened with you since the hospital. That's quite a lot to take on one plate, sweet and sour and all. I hope you're doing well. Do take care! :)
from elgan :
I just got your thank you note. I'm overwhelmed.
from sbellem :
Thanks hon...I truly hope so. Give little Finn lots of love for MN! I am so happy for you and the new family! XOXOXOXOXOXO
from webmiss :
So, you've been a mommy for a month now...and how does it feel? How is little Finn? How are you and Sasha holding up? Hope you're well!
from pantrypuff :
I can't wait to see more pictures of him in his own room :))
from pantrypuff :
Your baby is so beautiful!!! If you have any questions about preemies, just ask! I'm no expert, but I know lots of resources with people who are. Congratulations!!!
from teranika :
Thanks, cloudy - good advice to just go with the whole being-the-pregnant-lady thing. I'm so glad to hear that Finn is doing well even if he's still in the hospital. I thought of you when my head went into a glucose spin today.
from killsbury :
Cyberland or not, that's about the last word I would use to describe you. Thank you.
from idiot-milk :
Ted is a big, dopey, slobbery love. I wasn't into the whole dog thing before he arrived, but I admit I'm a convert.
from messymegs :
Yeah, SMEG might be the worst name for any product ever. But it's foreign, so it can possibly be forgiven in the name of retro-styled kitchen cool. Possibly. And if not, just think of the fun to be had with letter magnets. :)
from messymegs :
Now I feel guilty. So guilty I updated (sort of). How's the little one treating you?
from urbancadence :
I've heard about it, but I actually haven't seen it. I know what to get when I return "Big Eden" to the video store now! Speaking of which... go rent it whenever you get the chance! I'm really interested in knowing what you'll think about it :-)
from elgan :
The poem is a rather blatant admission that I am not perfect, and that I'm going through a rather emotional ordeal at the moment.
from urbancadence :
Nah, not exactly NORM... I didn't get piss-ass drunk, I didn't make out with any random strangers, and I didn't develop any crushes on any losers! That's progress!!! Haha! :-)
from urbancadence :
Yep, that's the plan! I've forgotten how much fun I can have at home without going out!! :o)
from webmiss :
I tagged you on my site. Play if you want to. Oh when's the official due date?
from killsbury :
Hi there, I never did have to drink the "Oh, it tastes like orange Crush" ever again. I believe it was about a week or two later that I had blood work again instead which came out fine. I recall a doc telling me that if you eat a lot of fruit or have juice the day before blood work, that can affect it. Similarly, if you haven't eaten well...I'll keep things crossed for you that everything works out as well for you & the wee one ;)
from urbancadence :
That's exactly what I did yesterday - stay home! ;) BUT... being alone and locked in just made my mind wander even more, it seems. I was THIS close to playing Eric Carmen's "All by myself" on repeat (But I didn't - call off the men in the white coats!). So I figure it's like the flu - it's bloody unpleasant when you get struck, you don't wanna get struck by it, but you just do from time to time... and you just have to get over it. To avoid it completely, you could kill yourself... but that would defeat the whole point of life itself, so... just gotta take the bitter with the better, I guess. Even if it is a WHOLE lot of bitter :(
from urbancadence :
It also takes away your sanity! Everytime I strike out, I promise myself never to try again, because I can't stand the way it makes me feel. But I always seem to end up relapsing. *Sigh* I just don't know how to protect myself anymore. Perhaps there's just no way to.
from urbancadence :
Aw thanks Cloudy!! That guy stopped calling me, so I'm thinking Mission: Accomplished. JAG asked me out tonight, so I'm feeling quite nervous but excited at the same time. Argghhh, how can human emotion be such a blessing and a curse at the same time? I'm cautiously optimistic, though! Wish me luck!! :-D
from teranika :
oops I just saw your other note about morning sickness. Well, it felt like hell at the time, but no, I never got super sick. I slept and felt nauseated all the time, but I know some people for whom it was ALOT worse. How about you?
from teranika :
Thanks for all of the info - I've felt a little in a vacuum this week, but maybe I just need to be more forceful about asking my questions next time...Your note makes me wonder if the doc meant 10 pounds over my *starting* weight - since I've lost ten, that would allow me to gain nearly 20 pounds in the next five months, which seems much more reasonable. I'll be at 19 weeks by the time I get the US, maybe we'll be able to tell then! Thanks again..
from urbancadence :
Yeah I'm okay, thanks for asking :) Well, I think I'm okay so far. I'm gonna go get some shots, just in case... 'cos there's no way of knowing if that darn dog got its shots or not. Did you know that a person infected with rabies dies invariably once the symptoms start appearing? Not that I think that dog was rabid (oh gawd I hope not), but reading up about the possible complications from dog bites on the internet is mucho scary. And there's the scarring to worry about... sigh. One thing for sure, I'm not petting any dogs on the street from now on, however cute or friendly they may seem! I hope you had a good weekend - ten million times better than mine!! :)
from webmiss :
Hey, thanks for the comment. How was your trip? Would you mind sharing what was on your 5 year plan?
from unctuous :
with some plastic wrap and postage, this bread could travel. just a thought...
from teranika :
Oh that sounds fantastic! I loved walking on the cross-country trails around the lake to the NW (forgot name), and I attribute my fertility to the AMAZING massage I got at the solarice spa (probably isn't the cause, but let me have my little superstitions). Those were my favorites. Have a terrific trip!
from unctuous :
the kidneys are good so far. i've been mainlining cranberry juice and water. i miss coffee. i might not lock up after all.
from webmiss :
Hey, just wanted to let you know I tagged you with the Rockin' Girl Blogger award. You can check it out on my page: Webmiss.wordpress.com
from unctuous :
thanks for all your notes/kind words lately. i don't see things being mended with my friend anytime soon. and strangely, while i do miss her, i'm okay. i think this is the way things need to be.
from raen :
Thanks for checking in. :) And I've locked. Diary is 'locked,' 'yeslocked.' *nudge / shifty eyes*
from urbancadence :
Thanks!! I'll be sure to keep that in mind, 'cos I really REALLY hate the chore of packing, moving, and unpacking. But then again, who loves it? Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you're okay after the fall - next time if it's dark, STAY WHERE YOU ARE, don't take a single step unless you're 101% sure that it's okay! And don't worry about the baby getting knocked around a bit, that's what all that amniotic fluid is there for. If babies were that sensitive, none of us would ever be born! Just be careful from now on, okay? The bigger you get, the clumsier you'll be... but that lil' bundle of joy will be worth it! You'll see! Happy 4th!!!!!!! ;-)
from unctuous :
i like your new profile quote. and i adore the sprinkle idea for my cake! i think i can do something brilliant with that.
from unctuous :
no deletion. i'm going to work through that.
from amazinfuckup :
You're right. Thank you for the support. :)
from unctuous :
you've met mike patton twice?? *jealous* wasn't he in a band called mr. bungle for a while? i never listened to them so i have no idea if they're still at it or not.
from amazinfuckup :
Hey yourself. How goes it? :)
from unctuous :
your new band name and the title of my autobiography.
from urbancadence :
I was thinking, "Gee, I'm too lazy to cook tonight, and I'm too lazy to go to the store to get food. Hey, here's some leftover sushi from 2 nights ago, it still looks good! Lemme have it!"... and a few hours later, HELL!! Lesson learned, for sure!!
from unctuous :
you made me laugh. and smile. thanks for the note and the myspace comment. especially the myspace comment - very appropriate.
from unctuous :
i can't speculate about the longevity of this particular account because i'm flighty. but i'm very happy with the current state of things.
from killsbury :
I did notice my stats lol I guess I'd better update now!
from elysium1982 :
congratulations on the future bebe. i wish you all the luck in whole world during your pregnancy and of course, afterwards =)
from pantrypuff :
I think caterpillars are better :)
from teranika :
funny, you don't see catheters advertised in any of the maternity wear shops...you'd think they would be a big draw. Incidentally, what's UP with maternity wear?? Do they think that being pregnant means that you lose all sense of fashion??? I'm hardly a fashion queen - HARDLY - but PLEASE you ain't gettin' me in a frilly neckline that looks like little bo peep on helium!
from teranika :
:-) :-) :-) :-) !!!!!!!! :-) :-) :-) :-) !!!!!! that's so cool!
from urbancadence :
You'd think that everybody would love a gift-giver, no? I mean... who doesn't enjoy receiving thoughtful gifts?? Why does everything have to seem like a hop and a skip away from hardcore commitment? Can't people just be nice and use gifts to show that they're interested in getting to know you better? Now, if I'd given him a key to my apartment, or a ring, or a mushy love note, I can see how that'd be freaky. I wouldn't even dare to go there yet, 'cos I'm not an insane psycho stalker. But a bloody cheap watch (made with synthetic 'leather', no less) to replace the one that he'd broken? Yeeesh!! But anyway, about the Heroes finale - what a let down, right?? When Nathan and Peter exchanged 'I love you's, you would've thought they'd start making out. I know they're brothers and all, but still... it was cheeesyyy! Although... I really wouldn't mind seeing them making out (as Adrian and Milo, not the Petrelli brothers - eww)... Nathan is HOT!!! =P
from teranika :
thanks, cloudy! fingers crossed..
from bettyford :
maybe you should be my girlfriend?
from urbancadence :
Hi! What a wonderful word! Hahaha!! P/S. Hearing it from you puts a grin on my face too ;) Hope you are well!!
from dinosaurorgy :
You're welcome, and thanks :D
from dinosaurorgy :
Howdy, howdy -- I opened up a club of sorts (question-it) on here, and I'm wondering if you might be interested in joining? (Hope you don't find this irritating.)
from teranika :
Whistler's a total trip - Legoland for snowboard bums and fruity adults who talk about 'vibes.' It's great! The trails are gorgeous. Can't recommend it highly enough!
from urbancadence :
Thanks luv!!! ;-)
from urbancadence :
Aww thanks, luv! ;) The search for MY Sasha begins! Haha! Hope you are well!! *Hugs*
from urbancadence :
I guess you're right. Now that I've gone through the horrible breakup, where's my Sasha?? I want my Sashaaaa!!!! :)
from raen :
Thanks for adding me, too!
from urbancadence :
Thanks so much!! It went well... not exactly CRAZY, but I'm glad that I actually did something that distinguished between my b'day and just any regular Saturday :P As for American Idol, you can watch now that Sanjaya (the worst!) has gone! Anyone you vote for from this point will be good, so c'mon!! Haha! ;D Thanks again!!!
from urbancadence :
Yeah I love Nyquil... the best sleep ever!! And c'mon... just google Blake Lewis. He's from Washington too! Just look at him! How could you not fall in love?? :P C'mon, just a search, I'm not sucking you into American Idol. Just a peek... it's harmless! You know you wanna! ;-D
from poolagirl :
Thanks for making me a fave!
from iamafatgirl :
Hey! The email addy is tia (dot) rawls (at) gmail (dot) com (without all of the parenthesis and dot and at spelled out, of course), or you can just use Rawls. Either way works.
from glibertine :
No dice finding him on MySpace.
from pantrypuff :
Hey man, Laura ROCKS! When they made that robot, they threw away the mold...
from urbancadence :
I guess since this is the first time I've been in a relationship that was so deep, I'm taking this a lot worse than any other breakup I've ever been through. I'm not feeling it as yet, but I hope my birthday will bring me some comfort too. As always, thanks for your encouraging words, and thanks for putting up with my mopey drivel :')
from urbancadence :
Yep, he's Mr. Two Bricks Short. Guess I'm not missing out on anything after all, huh? Which is great! Tragedy would be if he's Mr. Perfect and I'm not ready for a relationship!
from poopielocked :
I did not mean to give you the heebie jeebies. To be honest, I felt compelled to write it out, hoping it would help to purge the visions from my mind which had haunted me since I'd dreamt it. As for the new template, it felt like time to change, and this one seemed to reflect my recent state of mind.
from urbancadence :
That last line was supposed to read: "But then again... what isn't?"
from urbancadence :
You're so right about being single. I simply need time to build up my relationship energy again, and I need to get used to being happy and content on my own in the meantime. Which, unfortunately, is a lot easier said than done :( But then again... what is?
from elgan :
No, it's not a fanny pack, it's my digital camera case. I got in the habit of wearing it around my hips when we were on holidays. The British people we met found it very funny that we called a "bum purse" a "fanny pack" since fanny for them refers to genitalia, and a fanny pack would be a man's junk.
from urbancadence :
And OH... Happy belated birthday!!!! ((((((Cloudy)))))) Many happy returns!!!!!
from urbancadence :
Thanks :) This "We'll see" mantra is really working out for me, suddenly everything seems less intimidating. I think I'm finally ready to start crawling out of my hole and start putting my life back together. Which is about damn time, I'd say! :)
from bettyford :
it is the most evil. the rest are innocent comb overs.
from glibertine :
Thanks for the hugs. I needed them.
from poopiebitch :
I miss you, poodle.
from urbancadence :
Thank you for your support. I've been very depressed the past week, but I think I'm starting to crawl out of the woods :) Thanks so much for being my virtual buddy!
from teranika :
oops. it's there now. blighty.diaryland.com it's here now, too.
from urbancadence :
Thanks Cloudy!! I definitely needed the good news. About damn time I received some of those!!! Now I have something to focus on to take my mind off you-know-what a bit... a task ahead of me that I can just follow day by day until I get back on my feet again. Couldn't have come at a better time! :) Thanks for your kind thoughts - I really, really appreciate it! :)
from urbancadence :
He told me the additional info because I dug it out of him. I know it's foolish, but it's kinda irrational. If you know that someone is keeping a secret from you, you'd want to squeeze it out even if you know that it's bad news from you. So in a way... I guess I did it to myself. :( But you're absolutely right, I will never sacrifice my friends to appease anyone else ever again. As for trusting people again... well, I guess only time will tell. I gave everything and lost everything... which makes it especially hard. But I think I'll get there eventually. Thanks as always for your kind notes :')
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you. I really appreciate it. You were the only one that took time to read my actual writing and say anything about it. Thank you. :)
from elysium1982 :
yesterday i was on the bus into the city, sitting behind a woman who at first i thought was crazy, talking loudly, cursing, crying, then i assumed she was on her cell phone, i mean it went on for the entire hour ride. then she stands up...and theres no phone. no ear piece. score one for the crazies...
from urbancadence :
Thanks :-) I'll get there... eventually. All I can do right now is tell myself that I'll get there until I actually do... one day at a time. As for you, I'm glad you're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel of your stress-induced funk. Smell the flowers for me while I catch up! :'-)
from elysium1982 :
xo
from urbancadence :
I wish I lived in Seattle or you lived in LA. We could have bought up tubs of Ben and Jerrys and devoured everything :'( I know the pain will go away... eventually... but it sucks that there's nothing that can be done in the meantime to alleviate it. It's not like a headache, where you can take an Advil and be done with it. The only known cure for such emotional pain is a bullet through the head, but I'm not insane, so... unfortunately, I have to let time do its job. But I've read that talking about it helps, so I'm probably just going to rant a lot these days. And of course, knowing that you're concerned about me is really wonderful. Thank you so much, cloudy... I really need it :') Why does time move so slowly when you want it to be quick, and vice-versa?
from teranika :
thanks for the sympathy - and I've been hesitant to type it to anyone but I'm completely empathetic to fertility issues. I can recommend some really great lube though. ack, I can't believe I typed that.
from urbancadence :
As always, thank you for your note :) I wish he would consider therapy... I've suggested it, but he refuses to open up to strangers. With each passing day, it feels more and more like a dead end... but I guess it's just something that needs to be allowed to play itself out. In the meantime, I'm very grateful to be able to rant to cyberfriends like you. Thanks so much cloudy, I really appreciate you :)
from glibertine :
I'm not gone, just locked. E-mail me and I'll give you the username/password info. Satelliteheart29 at yahoo.
from vintagepearl :
I loved your predictions for 2006 - that's a swell idea. I don't think I have enough motivation to do that for 2007 though. Maybe 2008. Maybe.
from vintagepearl :
Heyyyyyy :) What is up?
from vintagepearl :
Haha . . . that last one I was like "PENIS STUCK! WHAT! PENIS STUCK WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!" and I was seriously reconsidering my existence. Then I realized the author of so called "Penis stuck" meant "Pen is stuck" and that's why it was funny.
from dandlioneyes :
Happy Holidays and a good start to the New Year!!
from zoela :
Yeah. It's been awhile. Thought I'd check up on you.
from zoela :
username: guest, password: guest
from vintagepearl :
OH MY GOD THAT'S ME & MY COUSIN! Hehe, just kidding. I'm a girl.
from notyourcure :
Looks like I am. but i'm also new to the entire diaryring concept so any tips would be appreciated. I've also joined....oh nevermind i almost broke the first rule. ;)
from glibertine :
Thanks for the concern (and really, I did get the holy living Bejeezus scared out of me...AND, to add insult to injury, I fell on my ass in the mud when I got out of the car). As far as seeing a doctor goes, one of the girls in the league recommended a chiropracter/massage therapist to me (someone she's courting for the league, aptly enough). Turns out, he's in my health insurance network but there's a really super fun (NOT!) approval process that I have to go through to see him. I'm doing a little better today but I still feel like someone beat the hell out of me.
from adelnye :
Dear coldandgray, I would like to invite you to write a guest entry for me. The topic would be whatever you think would be appropriate for my diary. Please note that as I am not a gold member, the entry would have to be RSVP-ed to me via the email found on my page. Adelnye xxx
from urbancadence :
Thanks once again :'-) *hugs*
from vintagepearl :
Who the hell is that!! Hehe
from urbancadence :
As always, thank you sooo much for reading through my rants and giving me such supportive and consoling words... it really, really means a lot. :) The big move is scheduled to occur this weekend... I bet it'll hurt a lot, but it'll be over soon enough. I don't know what's going to happen between us, but I know I'll live. Perhaps the distance that he has put between us will allow me to gain some perspective... and grant him the same. I'll cross the bridge when I get there. For now, it's one day at a time, and I am very grateful to have your kind concern and encouragement. Thank you, Cloudy!!!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!! And good luck with the big office move. It'll be over soon, so hang in there! (You know they kept you around 'cos you KICK ASS!!!) :)
from glibertine :
Happy Turkey Day.
from f-i-n :
happy turkey day
from metonym :
I deleted the comments. I don't want to talk about this in my diary too much - he reads it - but he is doing that thing, where if he can't get positive attention he'll settle for negative attention, and has been kind of harassing me...it's starting to get to me, and I think he's done enough damage. He's started to really get to me and I can't react any other way than shutting him out.
from vintagepearl :
Picturessssssss
from dandlioneyes :
hey, i'm so sorry about the fertility stuff. i've been there. it hurts like hell. and the silence this society puts on issues of fertility and infertility is ridiculous. i couldn't handle one more "just relax", because hello, i tried that, and it didn't work. the whole gamut of tests ain't fun either. clomid did the trick for us, even though i was ovulating regularly. might have just been that lucky egg, too. i'm keeping my fingers crossed, and thinking of you.
from urbancadence :
Thank YOU so much for your kind thoughts, cloudy :) Yeah, the whole situation is really weird, and I don't think I've figured out how to deal with it yet. It's a constant battle to keep re-evaluating myself to see if I'm being self-centered or if my feelings are valid. I'm just at a loss. Perhaps the moving-apart thing will offer me some perspective after it happens. Perhaps he will realize that he misses all the things I do for him... the things that he's taken for granted. But even if he realizes that moving apart is a mistake, what then? Can't make the house grow larger. Will never have enough room for me in it. Guess I'll just have to deal with it when the time comes. But anyway. As for your troubles, I hope Sasha's swimmers will come back normal as well. Ever considered in-vitro? I understand that it's quite costly, but I have no idea how costly. You hang in there yourself, Cloudy. Cheers to a better tomorrow for the both of us :)
from elgan :
D-land chat is good. I'm there now.
from elgan :
Do you want to talk? I'm online. Just tell me how.
from marzipanmind :
The Hallowe'en costume of Pluto bumming change made me laugh out loud. I wish Australia had a national day of wearing silly outfits and focussing on unhealthy food. Closest thing we have is the Melbourne Cup, which is all about big fancy hats and champagne for those who can be there, but that's just a big horse race that hates me (I've never won anything in various office sweeps I've been in). Anyway, I'm not going to go all pitying on you for your fertility 'issue', because I hate it when people pity me. Instead I'm wishing you heaps of luck and support (and lots of fun along the way *nudge nudge*). If you've been on the pill, apparently it can take a while for your fertility to go back to normal. But yeah, I hope you're doing OK :)
from bettyford :
OK, so that is inappropriate and I'm not being crazy?
from wickedcrazy :
mother fucking lost. I wont spoil, but you might have heard me scream about 10 minutes ago. I cant freakin believe it.
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you. I'm always so flattered when you give me compliments because I think so highly of you. <3
from devils-rose :
Fairly impressive claim to fame, lol. :) Thanks for the welcome note.
from glibertine :
I watched the first season of Weeds three times (that's right, three times) in one week. I liked it that much. Go ahead and be a season behind everyone, it's worth watching. And the soundtrack ain't too shabby.
from glibertine :
I did know that you are Cloudy on MySpace :) Did you know that I used to be Lumpy13?
from vintagepearl :
Ah . . . the beauty of the aging process :)
from urbancadence :
Thanks so much... you're too kind :) Yeah well it's hard, but I guess I'll get over it... eventually. Things are a little strange right now... we haven't officially broken up, but he's moving out, and there's obviously some problems that we need to either fix or give up on. I'll make a post about this later. Don't really feel like talking about it presently :( But anyway, thanks so much for your kind thoughts! I really REALLY appreciate them :)))
from elysium1982 :
xo
from sbellem :
I am just disembarking after my bummer ride. I wish you well, come back soon!
from lettynow :
That's crazy! He's all on myspace and ebvery one thinks he's dead!!!
from urbancadence :
Nyah nyah, I got to go to the Banksy show and you didn't!!! ;) Hahaha! And I don't think Mac had a choice :) Also, on the last day of the show (yes, I went back), Kirsten Dunst walked right in front of me! She was TINY! And real pretty too. She looked like a porcelain doll. I had a camera on me, thought about asking her for a picture but chickened out. I'm regretting it still :(
from sbellem :
oh gosh I hadn't thought about that! Maybe I could cure his OCD!
from amazinfuckup :
Hell yeah LEGAL DAY. Also thank you ^^
from fairygodmum :
Thank you sooo much for the well wishes. I spoke with Nephew this morning and he wants me to bring him a chapstick and batteries for his cd player. Needless to say, he's doing so much better. Also, I wish you took pictures of Bruce & Brandons site, is that wierd or what? Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from bettyford :
i've no idea, but that shit was way to flattering. i mean, come on!
from glumphett :
Just letting everyone know I fixed my notes and guestbook features. Come and visit sometime and be sure to leave a note! :)
from maredeath :
i accepted you. the internet is a weird place, how we sort of infiltrate each other's lives.
from f-i-n :
Thank you! :) I spend way to much time watching tv and worrying about random crap. I love your elegant template, by the way.
from vintagepearl :
Thanks :) Yes, it's quite confusing, haha. How've ya been?
from dandlioneyes :
yes, adult diapers! you say so in jest, however: i've been using the "liner" version of those things!
from amazinfuckup :
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love <3
from fairygodmum :
I vote for Butterfinger! ONLY because it is my favorite candy bar in da Woild! Thanks for the good wishes, I really appreciate it. Kinda nervous about starting a new job n all. Guess it's just new kid on the block jitters. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from vintagepearl :
Thanks. I like your templates too. Haha, I always say that. And then it changes. The one I had previously though I had up for quite a while, at least for me. I'm going to mess with the links a bit more, I'm still not fully satisfied. And I have to archive my older entries, the page is getting too long. It's so uncertain being grounded here, it depends on the moods of the parents, not right or wrong, haha.
from urbancadence :
Thank you so much for your encouraging words... I really, really, appreciate them :')
from amazinfuckup :
Baby you already psyche me out. In a good, sixties sort of way. Except with less drugs and more sexual promiscuity, if you get what I'm sayin' ;DDDDD
from teranika :
wow!! I wasn't even counting, neighbor! Yes, and I remember that you sometimes take a road trip north...
from amazinfuckup :
That's the one! Your brain made me cry a little. -sad face-
from dandlioneyes :
oy, no fun with the burns. i'm keeping fingers and toes crossed about you and a baby... :-) that would be awesome!!
from dandlioneyes :
how are your burns???
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you ^^
from vintagepearl :
The last thing I cooked was Ramen. And I used the microwave. Feel 100% better soon.
from amazinfuckup :
Eating is for mere mortals! Anyway, you are on my favorites list, and that pretty much means you're awesome and I couldn't give you a bad review if I tried. Not to mention that you just rock in general.
from lonelylatina :
8/10/06 - thank you. they found the cancer in her bladder when they did the hysterectomy. now they have to run some tests to see if it has spread to her kidneys.
from ohell :
the website is onefreedinner.com but there's nothing really on it yet. Keep checking back! Also the tongue cut out thing was just me holding a resentment from the 70's.
from elysium1982 :
the interpretation of the wedding went off fantastico! and that agency i interviewed with hired me. (oh happy day)...a couple of more interviews this week and if they are a successes, goodbye freak-o customer service job!!!
from dandlioneyes :
exactly a year, actually. uncanny! that knife holder was creepy, by the way....
from bettyford :
yeah, i like totally should have just locked my whole diary instead of making every entry private. not only was that really time consuming, but it's confusing - and there is something wrong with that feature on DL and it post twice and blah blah bblah. oh, i still have not moved my comments thing either. but i will. xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxxo
from bettyford :
i would move my comments but i have very little knowledge of html. heh.
from geek-betty :
The font looks fine to me?! what browser are you using when you view it?
from marzipanmind :
Hey, how sweet! I just got a note from you even though I haven't written in my journal in months! I haven't been on d-land much at all but your note brought me back like a fly to flypaper and I read a whole bunch of people's back entries (mostly yours, actually). You still make me laugh. And fart jokes still warm the cockles of my heart, especially after my one-person symphony last night (Daniel is still traumatised). It's nice to know I'm not the only one. Feel free to drop me a line any time!
from fairygodmum :
We had a good time at the reunion, glad I didn't get drunk.. lol.. Thanks for the good wishes on the job hunt too. I really appreciate all of the positive vibes. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyHallibutGodMum
from preshusthorn :
thanks for leaving me my first entry in my guestbook!!! i thought the stars were pretty nifty too. -L
from amazinfuckup :
I guess it was that kind of trip. Fuck, I'm glad I made it back too. I didn't realize how much I love things like America or the internet. Internet, I love you <3.
from fairygodmum :
On my way to Japan, I had a 3 hr layover in Vancouver, BC Canada! If I had know you were so close, I'd have at least given you a phone call. But even at the airport, I had the best time people watching and eating some really good food. Glad you were able to see auntee and hang out with some much loved family members. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from idiot-milk :
What I don't understand is how they didn't discover the problem with the medications sooner. You'd think at least one of his doctors, or a nurse, or a pharmacist would have seen something amiss. And maybe Dad should have questioned the prescriptions, but in his defense, he's on so much shit right now, it's hard to keep track. I probably wouldn't have questioned anything. I mean, you trust your doctors to know what's best, you know? Le sigh. At any rate, he's doing better now, and that's the most important thing. And thanks for reading until the end. I'm going to make an effort to be less dull in the future, pinkie swear!
from amazinfuckup :
Dammit Canada, WHY MUST YOU SPOIL MY FUN. I guess there's still prostitution, huh? Anyway, what an awesome coincidence. We're supposed to get there late Thursday night. (A day and a half of driving; I am gonna die.)
from vintagepearl :
Congratulations! I wish you even more years of love and happiness!
from pantrypuff :
Today, I'd be happy with another 50 cents. I want a soda.
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you... I really appreciate that. Maybe you're right, maybe she will be okay. Either way, thank you. <3
from pantrypuff :
Possible. My last therapist brought that up. Notice how I say my last therapist. I never stick with any very long.
from pantrypuff :
I know, I feel so lucky. My stupid camera sucks and just makes me mad, so we don't have any new pictures. I need to buy a good camera, but they're so expensive.
from pantrypuff :
Torment me, will you???? It's 100 here. EVIL. Hey you know what? I'm probably coming to Seattle later this year as part of my project. We shuld have lunch or something :)
from pantrypuff :
I can't even imagine not having to worry about my weight. It's been like this forever. But that's what happens when you're a lazy ass who hates to exercise...
from elysium1982 :
oh jeez, i felt your pain with that cooking class entry. sometimes, i would give anything for the power to disappear at any given embarrasing moment.
from sbellem :
I am never reading your posts while I am on a conferance call again. The part where you spastically laugh made ME spastically donkey laugh in the middle of my call. I told them I was coughing, I don't think they bought it!
from pantrypuff :
God, catholic school is such a freaking horror
from urbancadence :
Thanks, Cloudy!! :) Is there any way you can get the people to change the reception bell to a buzzer or something? That way, you'll stop salivating while you're talking to people who need assistance ;)
from wickedcrazy :
shut up dick neck? i clicked, got here and now am laughing mad!
from serenaville :
Cloudy, thank you SO MUCH for your wonderful Guest Entry in my space!! From feedback I've gotten, my readers have truly enjoyed and been touched by, your moving account of Snacks' life. I will post a comment in the entry as well. You're a doll. Thank you for bringing some class to the joint, sistah! ;D *HUGS!!!!*
from glumphett :
found your page thru geek-betty. I have really enjoyed the last few entries(especially the Long Beach pics and the couch entry!)and I will be adding you to my fave list! :)
from preshusthorn :
Yeah that's what my girlfriend keeps saying. I found the doctor I can go to and everything, it's just getting there. Thanks again for the comment, and for the concern :) -L PS If you want to add me to a messenger, addresses are on my profile
from thayer-p :
yeah...his shit is mad tight
from preshusthorn :
thanks for your comment - L
from fairygodmum :
Gotta do a google search on Star Jones thingy. Been outta the country for a few weeks shure has me in tabloid rehab! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from bettyford :
my parents took is on a cruise for xmas 2004. we were gone for two weeks and we had a neighbor watch the dogs. DogHead *climbed* the chain linked fence and freaking killed our neighbor's Chihuahua. When we got home we had 5 code enforcement violations on our door and a court date. i talked to the neighbor, appologized, and paid his $900 vet bill. Went to court and paid a $35 fine. The neighbor wanted a new Chihuahua too, and I was going to get him one but he never returned my calls. He lives on the street behind me and I am always afraid I'll see him - but he never called me back! what could i do? besides save 500 freaking bucks. It was a real fucking fiasco. And no, as of 3:21 EST the dogs have yet to have their butts (and the rest of them) washed. I will never own dogs again.
from ohell :
damn it I wish I would've known you were here, we could have had fun.
from urbancadence :
Aww, thanks!!! I *am* proud of myself, except that I can't exactly tell it to everybody and still expect to have friends! ;-) I have the MCAT class that practically goes on till the end of August (the test is on the 19th), so I'm gonna have to muster up all the stamina I can get. Hopefully, things will turn out completely opposite of how it turned out last year. Anyway, BIG HUGE THANKS for your sweet note - I really, really appreciate it!!! :o)
from dark-embrace :
Money does make the world go round but it's far nicer sharing it, or lack thereof, with someone who has, or is doing, the hard yards with you. I've been in a relationship where money was always there and available but it sure didn't make me happy. Thanks for your words of encouragment.
from amazinfuckup :
That's like three times now you've cheered me up. You win the Awesome Award. Thank you :). As for Craig, he's a cool dude. I'm trying to find a job using craigslist right now actually. It's not going so well, but that's hardly his fault. <3
from lonelylatina :
6/14/06 - thank you colleen =D it's good to be back!
from vintagepearl :
I'm sure your hair looks fine. You look amazing in that picture! xD
from amazinfuckup :
Thank you :D. And while I'm over here, man that is a creepy pose. o.o
from serenaville :
Silly. Of course I still want you to do the entry, even after posting that horrifying snap! No topic, I'd be pleased to read whatever most moves you to write about. Unless what "moves you" involves fiber or Colace. Which, ew. Can't wait! No deadline. ;) *HUGS!!!*
from vintagepearl :
:D That's amazing! I think I got the link then off your diary, on my random search for good links. And I love it! How did you two meet?
from urbancadence :
Thanks!!! :-)
from vintagepearl :
Thanks :) It's true.
from elysium1982 :
yeserday, 6/6/06...the angels played the devils in baseball. isnt that funny. i believe the angels won.
from amazinfuckup :
That's very kind of you to say. I've wanted to leave you a note for a little while now but couldn't think of anything to say. Ah fuck it, thank you, and you've been added.
from preshusthorn :
you have been added -L
from teranika :
being lucky doesn't stop the pain of losing that same luck. It hurts to be real. If I still had my copy of Velveteen Rabbit, and I actually knew you, I would offer you a cozy blanket and read it to you.
from heartanalog :
my diary is loading correctly. look closer.
from urbancadence :
If I hear him say the words "soul patrol" ONE more time... I'm gonna throw my TV set out the window :)
from urbancadence :
Haha! Yeah, I was kinda disappointed with Elliott's performance as well last week. But I still think that vocally, he should have been in the finale with Katherine. Wasn't that a teary farewell to Elliott though? I felt so sorry for him!!!
from licalicious :
I mean I have the guestbook section for comments - d'oh - sorry!
from licalicious :
I don't think I'm getting comments back - I do have the notes section on the side, though.. Thanks fo rthe comment on the pixelator! I love it!
from poopiebitch :
dude, I only just got your tag. I may still do this, even though I am pathetically late. Sorry :(
from bettyford :
tagged you back! xoxoxoxoxoxbf
from camera-girl :
Oh boy! A white house with red dots. hihi. The house and the car should be united. If you ever walk by the house and has a camera with you, please take a picture so I can see. :-)
from sbellem :
OMG the ladybug story was priceless!!!
from serenaville :
Your thoughtful comment meant a great deal to me today, thank you for leaving such heartfelt sentiments. I appreciate the confirmation of my decision not to reveal the whys and wherefores. It definitely is a difficult period, but I hold sweet support such as yours close to heart, and it sees me through. For someone nicknamed "Cloudy", you certainly are a ray of light in my world. *HUGS!!!*
from fairygodmum :
That's a pretty deep Ukiah, and that's coming from a Buddhist Monk! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from sparkspark :
I miss him, too, and yes: I have read his daughter's book, a while back. I should re-read it. XO Violet
from sbellem :
30%???? Now I am banking on it happening!
from thayer-p :
those stncil clouds would make a sick icon for u, no? Chek out who makes them: http://the-poop.yayhooray.com/
from fairygodmum :
Cool Prom Dress.. Tee Hee.. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum Here's sending you some Dalai Lama LOVE Your Way!
from bettyford :
your note meant a lot to me. sometimes i think maybe i'm just being petty and looking for a reason to hate her. so you made me feel justified and i needed that. you fucking rock.
from urbancadence :
The grey haired dude? Seriously?? Ugh :( BTW, go to the Golden Girls gay bingo night if you can and take pictures! I love that show (Sophia is my goddess!)!!!
from urbancadence :
Hahaha! I guess Sims isn't for everybody :) But how could you not get addicted, seriously!? Have you tried raising a child and carrying him/her all the way through infancy, childhood, teenage, college, adulthood, and elderhood? Build a family, have lotsa kids, climb to the top of the career track? Did lotsa "WooHoo" with as many Sims as you can? If so, how could you not find it addictive? :) Oh well... maybe it's a psychological statement that you're much more of a 'real world' person than us geeks who live vicariously through a bunch of animated pixels. :)
from f-i-n :
Thanks for the sweet words. It's really generous of you--mentioning me and your other bloggie buddies. Now I have more to read...
from bettyford :
oh, goody!i am really glad. i thought that a link would just "show up". hahahaha. i'm not trying to stay secret or anything. xoxoxoxxo
from bettyford :
so i did sort of like a defining song entry. with like a defining picture. thanks for letting me! i kind of had this inferiority thing going on where i was afraid i would just end up being dissapointing, as a guest.
from licalicious :
That was totally a middle of the night forgetful thing, and thanks for linking me. The guest entry thing is sooo cool. Sorry to give you some middle of the night ramblings but it was all I had. Thanks!
from teranika :
Sure! please link away! (I should have done that meself...)
from teranika :
Thanks for the invitation. I've been so out of the loop recently - totally overwhelmed - that I didn't read the instructions. But I think that may have followed them even by accident - Saturday was kind of a defining day in my life.
from licalicious :
Thanks for the invite! I loved the Pac Man/Cubicle comparison - so apt.
from geek-betty :
I very much want to do an entry! I'm still thinking of what to write about!!
from onewetleg :
I would be honored to post some photos at your site. gimme a while to pick some and I will post up. I don't quite know how, so if I can't figger it out, I'll ask you. Thanks, JJ
from bettyford :
i love that you love my site. because i love your site. and i would love to post an entry all up on it. i know exactly what i want to do but it involves scanning a photograph so that i can upload it. you know, cause it's not digital. actually there are three in all. at least if i do what i think i want to do. but i guess i could scan them all into one picture. kind of. wait maybe there are four pictures in all. is that cool? man, i hope that i can do it. do you know how? to like, scan stuff. heh. let me know. thanks!
from tofalldivine :
Thanks a bunch for letting me post. I really enjoyed it. I love your diary so much, it was an honor to grace its pages.
from ohell :
Of course I would love to do your guest experiment - what do I do? I'm in AZ from tomorrow till Sunday, but can I do it when I come back? ~hellie
from f-i-n :
Thanks for letting me rant on your page. You rock!
from serenaville :
You are always quite welcome. Thank you for allowing me to participate. Thank you also, for your kind words not only about my entry... but the sentiments you left about Jax's niece's passing. Both are as appreciated. I would like to extend official warm invitation to have you do a reciprocal Guest Entry in my space, whenever you would like. I don't know how to do the spiffy entry page thing, but if you e-mail it, I'll post it immediately on receipt. *HUGS!!!*
from f-i-n :
Tell me when you need a guest entry. And if there is a theme. I would be happy to do it.
from f-i-n :
I believe you. My friend went to paris and took pictures in the old graveyards. The photos came out as bleary as fingerprints on a windowpane. I told her not to throw them away but she didn't listen to me.
from kittybukkake :
Thank you. I can barely muster the will to post on my own site, but I appreciate it. xo kb
from serenaville :
Thank you for your kind support of Erianne and her sister, sweet one. I now have precisely the topic in mind, for my guest entry. I really want to do this right ("Obsessive and perfectionistic". Imagine!), from the first... so please indulge me if I take a bit of time to construct it. I'm hoping to repay the patience handsomely. *HUGS!!!!*
from fairygodmum :
Love the idea! Gotta find a picture that best describes me.. oh that's good!!! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from lettynow :
I have no idea what happned.. I noticed she popped off my friends list then i tried to see if i had an old comment from her or something I thought maybe she deleted me.. Than I checked here and she's gone.. i emailed her, maybe she'll email me back
from f-i-n :
Thank you! I was afraid of posting my sketches online but I've been sick in bed, drawing for a week, and I finally gave up.
from cdghost :
enjoyed your words
from urbancadence :
As always, thanks for your lovely note :) And I LOVE Seattle! I seriously wouldn't mind moving there to settle down someday. But then again, I've only made two short trips there so far, and both times I missed the infamous rains, so... yeah. But I seriously think it's one of the most romantic cities in the US. Very nice people (like yourself)!!
from sbellem :
http://www.flickr.com/photos/sarabellem/ New Hair!!!!
from urbancadence :
Thanks for your well-wishes :) I know that eventually, things will work out (as it always does). It's not knowing exactly how that's so fearsome. But I guess moving out of the self-pity phase is step one, and that's what I'm gonna have to do! :) BTW, love your new layout!
from sbellem :
Heart new layout! I am over here now...
from mjraven87 :
Love the new layout xxx
from elysium1982 :
whooo...good luck with your trip and search for your uncle. best of the best wishes.
from urbancadence :
Thanks! I feel much better today :) But seriously... why does shit fall on us all at once?!?? For dramatic effect???
from teranika :
and NOW I know what Gary Larson took up after he retired the Far Side. Somehow, strangely appropriate..
from elysium1982 :
username: nonono password: youme
from wickedcrazy :
are you fucking kidding me?!!!!!!!!!!!! oh holy crap i just realized, is it even on yet where you are? I'd better shut up just in case, haha
from wickedcrazy :
where the eff is Eko! hahaha at Locke playing 20 questions. I have so much locke love. I just might leave you random comments during commercials. I know youre thrilled.
from sarabellem :
Couldn't find your email- I had to lock up shop email me for password if you are inclined! sarabellem0@yahoo.com Cheers!
from sarabellem :
I am really sorry! I don't know why the place we spend most of our lives has to be so unpleasant. Don't let the bastards get you down!
from f-i-n :
Nothing like a stick in your throat to ruin the joy of marshmallow-roasting.
from wickedcrazy :
I cant believe I missed the shows. Worst.
from zoela :
You didn't miss anything. It's just time to move on. Thanks for everything. You will be missed. Lots of love, Zoela <3
from fairygodmum :
Yes I WiLL! How did you know me so well. Here's Wishing you the BEST of New Year! Let's make it a good one. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from teranika :
Thanks for the summary. I can only hope that 2006 is a much better year than 2005. May we hold peace in our hearts if nowhere else. -t
from wickedcrazy :
raccoon city = Resident Evil reference, haha. Cause I'm really lame like that.
from bindyree :
I'm not the best feedback leaver in history -- in fact, that's one of my resolutions; to be better at that -- but I just wanted to stick my ones and zeroes in here and say Happy 2006, and that I'm glad you're on my Buddy List. ♥
from bunnysuit3 :
Hey there! I love your site. Thanks for dropping me a note. The things we can learn from the internet and TLC......
from sarabellem :
OMG girl I did not need to see that at 6:00am. Why didn't I heed the warning WHY WHY
from wickedcrazy :
"At least you have a face" BEST.COMMENT.EVER. My stomach hurts from laughing.
from zoela :
...Or was it that you noticed entries are mysteriously vanishing?
from zoela :
Tee hee, you said ferklempt. ;) Does 111 have some kind of cosmic significance I'm unaware of?
from sarabellem :
Merry Christmas Freezebaby! I am very jealous your getting away from the insanity for the weekend.
from badmj :
I like your pictures :)
from teranika :
WOW! Fantastic photo!!!
from dandlioneyes :
in this weather, all i want to do is drink things that are hot. evening drink: hot eggnog with rum and brandy. come to mama!!!
from mjraven87 :
My Christmas motto is always "bah humbug"
from mjraven87 :
Wow, your parties sound brilliant! Ours always just include a dodgy DJ, buffet and a bar (which we have to pay for ourselves if we want a drink).
from urbancadence :
Haha! Thanks!! The shopping Jesus pic just about sums up the entire holiday season, doesn't it? (It's by a graffiti artist who goes by 'Banksy') :)
from sarabellem :
OMG that Dane guy WAS hot. I was a little ashamed but I dont know why???
from wickedcrazy :
>:| beepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeep
from wickedcrazy :
Yes. 6 freaking weeks. I could cry. Hell, I did cry. I also talked to myself during the entire episode and for about an hour afterwards.
from mjraven87 :
Burnt orange, lime green and pink??!! *screams for fashion police* lol
from urbancadence :
Thank you for your nice encouraging words :) Life does seem to do that, doesn't it? Freak you out till the last possible moment? Well, I've always complained about life always turning out this way, but this is one time I'm hoping it actually does! Dammit, why hasn't anyone invented a time machine yet?!? :)
from poopielocked :
Thanks for all your nice comments, I always look forward to reading something insightful from you. I think if I were in your position I would be the same way. Why do options always seem so temporary?
from marzipanmind :
Hey, I guess you found me out ;) Sucks a bit for whoever owns that car. I'm guessing that that person isn't comprehensively insured or else they'd have burned the car and claimed it as stolen.
from teranika :
must be an epidemic...
from mjraven87 :
I hope you get better soon!
from wickedcrazy :
Consider yourself trident stabbed. Dammit. I warned you!
from sarabellem :
Thank you! I am totally terrified in a way. She doesn't appear as housebroke as they told me and I am now worried constantly she will be sick and I will fuck this up. Paranoia!
from fairygodmum :
That reminds me... know a good dentist who is FREE??? TGIF! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from metonym :
The problem with studying Arabic is that it takes years of frustration and cluelessness before it even starts to get interesting. Most languages aren't quite so unfriendly.
from badmj :
dogs need a lot more care and attention than cats!
from urbancadence :
Thanks for the love :) Well... you always hear about some really stupid people with crappy GPA's and low scores getting into schools, as well as people with perfect scores NOT getting into schools... now I'm hoping to be part of this statistic (the former one of course). All I want is these schools to give me a chance to show them who I am, you know? Just an interview. Don't reject me outright just because of my scores. There are so many parts of a person's character that cannot be judged by scores. *sigh*
from dandlioneyes :
i should have been warned before moving up here!!! vitamin D, where are you? does everyone just turn pale as a ghost? :-) seriously, though, i don't mind the rain or the greyness, just the lack-o-light. LOVE the area! i'll send some sunrays back home, too, ok?
from urbancadence :
Thanks for the good wishes! Unfortunately... it wasn't good. I'm still trying to make sense of it all.
from dandlioneyes :
ah, i'm sure it is barrels of monkeys of fun when your bro gets to say: kitchen's in the kitchen! but hey, i'm easily amused! :-)
from mjraven87 :
Oh I know, after a day of criminology I nearly fell of my chair laughing. Then came the excitement of using a cheese knife for the first time!! My MSN screen name is currently "You know you've had a bad day when you get amused by a cheese knife". Oh so true
from fairygodmum :
Have a lovely vacation! Chi Town is waiting for YOU! Good Luck with the Athletic Training Plan.. always good to hire a good assembler.. a Hunky One at Best! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from firechild :
Found your diary at random and read a few pages. I hope your elliptical machine is ok. Ciao.
from fuckshitup- :
thanks. :)
from sanetwin :
Thank you for taking my survey!! It made me feel really good what you said about me :)
from ohell :
well you are so invited to the reading.
from poopiebitch :
Okay, here I come! It IS so damn hot here, although it's finally dropped out of the 90's (for now anyway) so I'm pretty happy about that. It's just pissing with rain, now. lol
from coldandgray :
Yes, move to Seattle! We are also due for a major quake and Mount Rainier is ready to blow, but the weather is so pleasant (it is 61 & sunny right now). I keep seeing footage of the impending hurricane & it just looks so damn hot over there.
from dark-embrace :
If you would like an answer to what my plates read then you'll have to either email me (so I can email you back) or leave me a note with your email address. I know i'm being heaps paranoid but since they are one of a kind, hence easy to track me, then id rather not post what they are. Unless of course I delete half my diary and not say as much as I do now that is *L*.
from f-i-n :
You're so sweet...that's just some dumb thing i wrote in class because i was bored. I loved the camping pix...wish we could do that in miami.
from mjraven87 :
I keep trying to keep my foot moving clockwise but I just can't! How very annoying.
from licalicious :
You were right about that guy that stabbed me. I looked up his criminal record online and found six arrests including these gems: Child support, Property damage of over $1,000, Theft of a movable object ofer $1,000 (most likely a car).
from lettynow :
unfortunately becasue I'm a little beaner girl and our last name ends in ez its mandated by mexican american law that I have my daughter a quinceanera a fifteenth birthday party. ITs basically the equivelant of a mini wedding, bridesmaids, limos and my daughter in a white dress. So I had to threaten her yesterday with the cancellation of her 15th birthday if she kept this shit up. yeah and that's in like three years. Spoiled f-ing rotten I tell you. I don't know what i did.
from f-i-n :
I miss making forts too---esp. "igloo tents" in the living room with bedsheets.
from mjraven87 :
Wow, that random entry thing is very cool
from urbancadence :
YES!!! IMPEACH!!!!!!! (He'll probably think 'impeach' is a fruit of some sort) :)
from imaphatpig :
yeah I am! http://dollywould.blogspot.com - pure fun, that's all.
from retailharlot :
You know, I'm still not exactly sure why she stopped blogging, other than she just kind of lost interest and started paper journalling more. I guess it was a rebirth of some sort. She's fine, though.
from mjraven87 :
Makes a change for somebody honest and decent actually getting the best out of something :)
from badmj :
thanks
from mjraven87 :
Thanks! People have said to me (even on the phone!!) how much happier and confident I seem at the moment so yeah, I hope it lasts! I have my fingers crossed that I don't accidently lie on my ear during the night as although it doesn't hurt now I am expecting it to at some point soon!!
from badmj :
I watched that about the birthday party and I was really shocked that girl was so spoilt and stuck up! Anyway I just wanted to say I enjoy reading your diary.
from mjraven87 :
Three hours in a dentist chair??!! What the hell were you having done to you, you poor thing?!?!
from dandlioneyes :
my info source on all things washington! :) is mold really that common? should we get a dehumidifier? i threw a tantrum when i saw it. hope you are feeling less bored. *hugs*
from ohell :
missed you.
from shadowdress :
hello cloudy!! it's been so long, i forgot about the funny stories and touching memories you share. i've been having a good chuckle catching up a bit. your story about your 4th grade confession reminded me of when my best friend and i got in a fight because she insisted that i had sinned on a particular day and i felt very sure i hadn't. she based her assumption on the fact that all people are filthy sinners constantly so it would have been impossible for me to have made it until afternoon without sinning. we were like 11 years old or something. never too young to be a filthy sinner!
from mjraven87 :
Thanks, I just need to lose weight to be happy with how I look now. Then it'll be perfect :)
from mjraven87 :
My nan always used to say that only boring people get bored but I know I have always been a boring person, lol. Those days where you wake up and go to sleep feeling as though you are moving through treacle are crap, I can empathise
from dandlioneyes :
is it fun? my in-laws will be in town... and i think if we venture into the city, we'll DEFINITELY be taking the bus, not driving. parking will be awful, no?
from f-i-n :
Thanks, Cloudy. In fact, that's not a slug. It's a Florida tree snail cruising in the resurrection ferns on that oak!
from beelucky :
It's the deal we worked out, and I think it's rather fair. Whoever cooks shouldn't clean. I even offered to switch jobs with him every month or so but he says he would rather eat my food than his. Also, I refuse to cook if the kitchen is a disaster. If Dan could cook or even fend for himself (besides cheerios, ice cream and granola bars) this tactic wouldn't work so good.
from urbancadence :
Thanks, C.!!! I would not wish this experience on anybody, believe me. I'm still recovering from all that stress. But it's certainly great to be back in the land of the living again! Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts :)
from beelucky :
Thanks so much for your email. You're right, I need to confront him. I'm still toying with the idea of a letter as I'm much more eloquent on paper, and if he doesn't respond I guess I can feel satisfied knowing our relationship wasn't meant to be. Although it would be quite satisfying to watch his face after my torrent. Hmmm...this requires a little more thought. Anyway, it was really great of you to take the time and respond to my entry, your words helped me to see some other more realistic options besides the ol' "call me when the bitch is dead" routine. Thanks again. :)
from urbancadence :
Hahaha!! Thank you for all that positive energy!!!! I'm gonna need all I can get! :-) THANK YOU!!!
from wickedcrazy :
I have worn them, I guess. I mean they were popular when i was a kid, but i must have blocked out all memories. I do keep getting flashes of a navy blue pair. Its like gaucho post traumatic stress syndrome.
from andreeb :
They're back now. I don't know where they went for a while there. Weird...
from poopiebitch :
It's okay to lie when it involves chocolate, right?
from fairygodmum :
Well.. finally got Hot Water Yesterday... whew.. what we take for granted. A HoT ShOwEr! Yipppieeee... Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from dandlioneyes :
thanks for your kind note! i think you are right, somehow, that there always has to be a balance. but we ARE happy. :) hugs!
from mjraven87 :
Aww, such pretty mountains. I want to go!
from mjraven87 :
Urgh, I shouldn't imagine that smell would be a nice one *holds nose*
from fairygodmum :
From what I understand... Just by getting OFF the Pill Gets YOU Preggers Right Away! I give you 2 weeks! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from mjraven87 :
No problem :) as for just not getting on with people, I think we all get it but it always seems much worse when it is directed at us for some reason. Humans, pfft
from elgan :
When I was a kid, my brother told that joke (and it is a joke) to my other brother, and they both roared with laughter, and I didnít get it. Thereís nothing to get. Period. But the idea is that you tell that joke to a group of people, and the ones who are in the know will laugh uproariously while the oneís who are not will keep saying, ďBut I donít get it!Ē, which will of course make the others laugh harder. Thatís all. And yes, the cloud thing was phenomenal.
from lettynow :
Theres nothing in there except me threatening my son Some one hacked into it!!!
from anamomda :
Hi. Got your request for the key, but damn it, D'land is fracked-up. No matter how many times I try, it will not lock my entries, or accept my password. Arrrgghhhh! I'm starting to write about my family of origin. Need to lock that 5h1t up! I've been posting under "friends lock" over at LiveJournal. I realize it's a bother, but you could create a free account over there, so I could add you to the friends list for viewing. I know a number of folks who do this, including http://www.livejournal.com/users/harri3tspy/ ( http://harri3tspy.diaryland.com/index.html ) Just a thought. Thanks for showing an interest. .r anamomda
from tofalldivine :
I'm jealous. Stupid Canada. I live here and I've only every seen a bear once and he was real small. Congrats though! The animals are exciting. Hope you enjoyed your trip.
from beelucky :
I hope you see a bear too. As many times as I go to the Rockies, I've only seen one once briefly before it went running back into the woods. Okay it was our horn that scared it away, but I had to because a bunch of Japanese tourists were out of their cars, trying to approach it. And you know what happens when bears get used to people...BLAMMO! They have to get destroyed. :( Anyway, have fun and I hope you plan to post some pictures!! :)
from mjraven87 :
I'm glad things went well for you, congrats :)
from wickedcrazy :
Your entry isnt showing up. it is listed in the archives but its not there. :oS
from beelucky :
I almost forgot, you should go see the falls at Johnston Canyon, and if your feeling particulary adventurous, the hike to the Inkpots past Johnston Canyon is awesome and the Inkpots are beautiful. Just bring lots of water with you. Dan & I almost died on that hike because it was so hot and we ran out of water!
from beelucky :
Only if you're camping...in which case my recommendation would be Tunnel Mountain campground in Banff, it's awesome. Oh yeah, and a restaurant called Magpie & Stump...if you like Mexican, that is. Have fun!
from beelucky :
How cool! Where about are you going? Jasper and Banff are two of my favorites. I go to both almost every year...they're so beautiful!
from bettyalready :
I locked it but am unlocking it now. My friend found my diary and I didn't know she would look for it. I was trying to asses the situation. Her bfriend is getting progressively abusive and is mad at Lee and I. I was trying to determine if she would give the diary name to him. I don't exactly want him reading...but then again there's nothing he can use against me. I'm also at bettyalready.typepad.com
from dandlioneyes :
thanks again for the tip for the website- - it helped us a lot to figure out comparative house prices in the area. and we are super excited. :) i will try and post pictures at some point.... hugs!
from sarabellem :
Your last two posts have been more hilarious then usual. I can't help but hope more crazy things happen to you to amuse me. Since its all about ME you know!
from mjraven87 :
I'm sure my diary wouldn't interest you as much as yours does me but if you email me I shall email you the password. You can find my address on my profile :)
from dandlioneyes :
that has to be the coolest real estate site EVER! we've been clicking around it now for the past two hours. :) thank you for posting it!!!! i'll let you know how the search goes. and sunshine, too? couldn't be better!
from bettyalready :
if he has been to a Rheumatologist, he needs to see another one. If that doesn't work, he needs to see yet another one. Something can be done to ease the pain and make life better. At physical therapy this week I'm going to try a TENS unit (muscle stimulator)
from bettyalready :
And the symptoms don't all happen at once. He can probably be semi-ok and do a lot one day and the next day, totally incapacatated. I feel bad for him. Has he gone to a regular doctor? If not, he has to right away to make sure it's nothing MORE serious.
from bettyalready :
Of course I meant blood work. But all those symptoms are what I have.
from bettyalready :
Yes, that's my illness, in a nutshell (haha). He needs to see a Rheumatologist. It could be Rheumatoid Arthritis, Systemic Lupus or Connective tissue disease (the latter is what I have). Whatever he does, when he is referred to or makes an appt. to a Rheumatologist (if he isn't already seeing one) is NEVER mention "fibromyalgia" if that is part of the vocabulary his main doctor has used. Most Rheumatologists do not want to deal with fibro or chronic fatigue. They'll do a lot of bloodword and by the end of the appt, the doctor will probably be able to determine what he has. These types usually have a waiting list...if he's not already seeing one. If he's also in seattle, have him to to www.dr-overman.com. I know his waiting list is at least 2 months & am not sure he's taking new patients. Again, if he's in seattle the U of W medical center has GREAT Rheumatologists.
from elysium1982 :
thank you dahhhling.
from redtoaster :
sorry ... forgot to unlock it... I think it is unlocked now...
from elgan :
I have from time to time posted stuff about my estrangement from my brother and then deleted it because I felt it was just too personal. But I would be pleased to tell you the whole story sometime if you would like to hear it.
from wickedcrazy :
Thank you :) I feel a lot better now that I am registered. I did on wednesday. Another great thing is that when I was talking to the head of the dept. she took me into a class room to look around. 3/4 of the students were women my age or older! All in the same boat. Thats incredibly encouraging. I left there feeling so good about this. How is your friend?
from beelucky :
The wedding was fantastic, the food was great, and the bar was open. Oh yeah, and Dan and I ruled the dance floor as usual...not because we're Solid Gold dancers, but because we wouldn't leave.
from ladyloo :
I was searching to find out what happened to squirrelx, and I came across a note you left somewhere. Would be able to fill me in on where she's gone?
from poopiebitch :
A business loan, huh? I'm not sure I could muster the balls to do that, what if I FAILED?
from urbancadence :
Haha! And a cute lil' ass it is! :P Thanks!!
from elgan :
Check your gmail.
from beelucky :
Gods be praised! I get to keep wearing bras! 38D is apparently the magical size, however only in bras from La Senza. Out of 15 brands only one works. Sheesh! I'm tellin ya, there's not enough variety here in Canada...damn our puny population!!!
from urbancadence :
Thank you SO much! :) I'm gonna need all the luck I can get, and then some more on top of that. I'm so not looking forward to it :(
from less-than3 :
i finally got it to work...it just is taking forever to load today. don't know why. f'n diaryland. :(
from beelucky :
You bet I danced sister! And how! I think I even pulled a butt muscle from shakin it so hard! Like you, I also invent dances-although most go un-named. I do have one called the pelvic thrust (it sounds dirty, but it's mostly hilarious).
from elysium1982 :
i know about 3 people who would rock that shirt with pride.
from imaphatpig :
hey - want to send you a link so you can see him! Where should I send it? You can send me a good addy to my diaryland addy.
from wickedcrazy :
When youre lost you can look and you will find me....
from elgan :
Thanks for that great compliment. I owe it all to Yves Rocher.
from anamomda :
Re: not being able to view vacation slideshow. Try this link: http://anamomda.diaryland.com/050516_72.html then click "Edisto Show" near the top.
from elysium1982 :
that is actually where i work customer service and they are the creepiest things ever. thankfully, my store does not have a casket kiosk, but most do. our managers are looking forward to that installment. thanks for shopping and have a GREAT day! =/
from beelucky :
20 lbs! That's something to be excited about!If I were you I would make a t-shirt with a picture of Jiffy on it, saying "PROUD OWNER OF A TWENTY POUNDER" and I would wear it everywhere!
from tofalldivine :
I hate how these diaries make us narrate our lives. You should start a support group. I'd join.
from poopielocked :
Thanks. I like it too, I'm thinking about changing my main diary template as well. I can't decide whether to find a new one or use the same, watcha think?
from poopiebitch :
girl, I just read the comment you left me on my private diary. you're such a great person, and I always look forward to reading a note from you because you always have something so helpful and encouraging to say, and you're always so open and... cool. I think of you as a friend and I'm honored you would consider me as one. thanks for being there for me and making me feel like it's okay to be me. smooches.
from poopiebitch :
Hey, thanks for all the awesome comments on my photoblog site, you're too nice! I'm totally flattered you would use that photo as your background, thanks for that, it made my day!
from ohell :
thanks for the note/ass kick. I'm glad I dropped back in just in time for the 3rd anniversary. It was special, that one.
from less-than3 :
locked? nooooooooo! password? :D
from andreeb :
I fixed it! Thanks for letting me know about that!
from andreeb :
Hit number 2 on the bottom for archives. I don't think there's a before and after yet, though I'll try to figure that one out...
from moonbaby8u :
*spanks* for the note.As for the typo,well,I guess drugs do make you stupid.
from elysium1982 :
thats the plan...we went back to see the apartment again for colors, this time without the landlord, and the tenant revealed shes had TWO cats there for five years. my babies are coming with me...
from poopiebitch :
hey, thanks for the advice, chickie. I'm so lost right now, I just can not figure out what to do... maybe I'll move to Seattle?
from andreeb :
Dang. I tried to find the new Dove ice cream at the grocery store and could not. CURSES!
from dinky-creek :
I'm glad to know that I'm not the only gal who stares at cleavage. It's not like I'm lustfully attracted to it or anything... it's just that it's like art, where the lines kind of draw your eye in to the focal point(s). Weird. PS Your words of congratulations to Dove made me laugh.
from sarabellem :
That is the sweetest thing...
from poopiebitch :
Thanks, homeslice. It's good to know someone's got my back. I'm here for you too, babe!
from onewetleg :
ha, you left a comment on my 69 things. you are the only one so far. gotta love you. happy teeth. love, jj
from wickedcrazy :
hey, I got 12 german porn mails today. I noticed the spam started when I signed up for fare alerts. the bastards!
from dandlioneyes :
back in windy california-- and i need to keep the hawaii spirit alive!! therefore the template. whereabouts in the seattle area do you live?
from sarabellem :
Ants are super gross. For me its rodents. When I was about 11 I was eating Grape-Nuts my favorite cereal at the table. My Mom came up to me and looked in my bowl and said, "How do you know those aren't rat turds? Grape Nuts looks just like them." I was horrified since I have an extreme fear of all rodents. My Dad came in and said he had left the Grape Nuts open on the counter all night so there probably was crap in there and I must have eaten a lot of it already. I ran up to my room crying in terror but on the way up I heard my parents laughing it up Big Time because they had pulled one over on their kid... I can't wait to psychologically torture my kids.
from dandlioneyes :
i like seattle. we stayed in redmond for 3 months a few summers ago.... :)
from elysium1982 :
my 2nd taste...(have 4 designs on my back)...i think if i can endure that, this should be cake. =)
from onewetleg :
ty cloudy. i love encouragement.
from hippychickie :
lol... did I do what? send my daughter back or write the entry about colour number etc...?
from elysium1982 :
oh thank you...im SURE gonna need some.
from urbancadence :
Well... I *could* tell you something if you emailed me ;)
from andreeb :
What's your email?
from tons-o-fun :
in regards to your entry in autumn-'s guestbook: somehow, i don't think it was the used car lot. it was probably the type of car you chose.
from crowhihs :
No, I wasn't there. :-( Maybe we should set up another gathering!
from andreeb :
Thanks for the add! Oh, and the Camus thing -- don't get too used to it :)))
from hissandtell :
Oh, you old silvertongue, you. Smooch. xxx
from hissandtell :
Come on, don't be snarky, darling. Apart from the fact that I have no control over when Andrew runs them and how many of mine he runs at any one time, you don't have to click on them, you know. Love, R xxx
from tofalldivine :
Thanks a lot. Your note couldn't have come at a better time. It's nice to know someone is listening and it's great to have the option to listen to them as well.
from imaphatpig :
I will not post links publicly like that what with my recent turnaround of who I am and all but for you? You may have your own private showing PLUS you can see what the new man looks like. What email should I direct said links too??? Let me know... and also, I expect feedback(!)
from imaphatpig :
Yeah, about that letter. Can you believe this? Some time ago I sent EricMomma an email regarding my most recent painting that I completed - asking for critiques and stuff since she is an already very well established artist (as in, she sold 200K in original paintings last year alone - I know, right). Wouldn't you know it, after my unsent letter, I got a damned response from her!!! What do I do now. What in the hell do I do??? She insisted before that we could always have a relationship separate from what Eric and I would be or in this case what we were. ARGH! What do I do.
from less-than3 :
the sundae toppers are VERY new, so keep looking. they are SOOOOO worth it. yummmmmmm
from off-trac :
Thank you for welcoming me to the world of diarys. I worry I may just use it for a good old moan to often! Still.... we'll see! Tx
from dinky-creek :
*cough* "tother" of course being Australian shorthand for "together"...
from dinky-creek :
Wow, isn't it weird how technology links cultures tother... you're in the States and I'm in the Arse/Ass of the Earth (thanks for that description Mr Seinfeld) and yet I, too, saw some of that doco about the massive volcano in Yellowstone that was supposed to have gone off 40,000 years ago or whatever. But hey, ignoring global trends seems to have worked for politicians for this long so let's focus on the important stuff: no shower, no non-bed clothes and no people for a whole weekend? You sure know how to live it up!
from zostrich :
the url of my new journal? it's curvatura.diary-x.com.
from ohell :
Oh my god I've missed reading you. Your 80's diary entries had me rolling.
from sea-change- :
the important thing to remember about cell phones is that just because other people have bad manners doesn't mean you have to...it is definitely bad manners to forget to turn you phone off in a theater or answer it during dinner, but it's the owner of the cell phone who is a problem, not the machine. I got my first cell when I was living in France, where they're pretty indispensible, and then I got addicted...they are pretty practical.
from poopiebitch :
Thanks for the suggestion (about the vitamins, it's taken me a while to respond!) per your advice I have gone out and purchased my very own one-a-days. I'll let you know how it goes!
from fairygodmum :
Ain't San Francisco FUN when your Young and Full of uhhhh.... New Ways to Explore the Future.. yes... and the past. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from imaphatpig :
Really? You shan't me. No joke, it's making me dehydrated as hell and it's a major pain in my ass - no pun intended, please.
from fairygodmum :
Congratulations on your 1 yr anniversary! Yeahhhh... Love the pics especially Stone Henge. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from poopiebitch :
I don't take a daily vitamin, although I know I should (bad poopiebitch!). Do you think it would help? I'm open to anything, especially if it's natural. I spent too many years in a drug-induced haze prescribed by my neuro to want to go down that road again. Also, the weather here is awesome in the spring and autumn, certainly worth a visit. Winters are mild, not much to speak of, just avoid summers here like the plague. Unless you enjoy temps of over 100 for WEEKS at a time, and humidity so high you can swim through the air.
from lonelylatina :
ooops, sorry about the duplication on your comments page. please erase them. i promise i won't do that again. thank you :)
from elysium1982 :
poop entry: infinitely interesting.
from juddhole :
Oh, you TAKE that survey woman! Um, first, wait until DLand is done fartknockering around and you can actually navigate to surveys. Then, gimme yer best shot, lady, me wants it.
from bettyalready :
I went back and saw what you meant about being able to just get the top of the diary entries. For some reason I hit refresh and it came back with the whole thing. What is that??? I'm way irritated because I don't know how to fix any of this stuff. I just know how to upload the pictures again.
from zoela :
Oops, oops, and oops.
from imaphatpig :
I actually almost went down that route but in the long run didn't because I can't deal with the rules and structure of the classroom environmental. I do better in recreational settings and also those where I can sit online all day and pass the time. Haha.
from lettynow :
I love your diary!!!
from adelnye :
Thanks for the wishes and thanks for reading me still. ^_^
from dark-embrace :
Wouldn't it be great if they at least sent you a reject letter first. Something along the lines of "I'm sorry but I no longer like to read you so don't bother leaving me messages, etc, etc because I am not going to reply. Sorry that it had to be this way but your just not what I am looking for in a diary anymore." At least then you would know where you stand.. *L*
from anamomda :
Thanks for the supportive comment. Can't help myself---I'm a chronic template fiddler. Fun, isn't it?
from poopiebitch :
Girl, what are we gonna DO with these men?! Why is it that even though we are EXPECTED to work our asses off to help earn the moolah, they don't see why they should be expected to share in the household duties? If I'm doing "man's work" then HE should be doing a little "women's work"! CAN I GET A WITNESS?!
from lonelylatina :
:D
from fairygodmum :
Hey gurl... yes I'm ok... just don't know what's going on with this server as I can't see anyones diary including MINE! Oh well... and I just joined this thingy.. Hope your doing well. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from poopiebitch :
Thank you for your comments, I always appreciate the nice or funny (usually both) things you say. I almost didn't post my last entry, and today I almost deleted it. But it is my diary, after all, and what is it for if not to share my personal thoughts and feelings? So thank you, so so much, for caring.
from jrie1985 :
I totally understand about the bra dilemma! I think maybe it's our cup size that's just difficult for anyone to figure out. But another thing I've been thinking is that the bras look good on the models because they only wear it for an hour then take it off. My bra's even look that good when I've only worn them that long! Ugh. Life can be so complicated sometimes. :)
from redtoaster :
I love love love your new layout....very nice.... I painted my girls celing in their room like that...sorta
from simplify :
i don't always reply to comments, but i appreciate it when you leave one. no, i won't be sending a gift. first of all this isn't a wedding invitation and secondly the invitation is meant as a jerky thing and not a nice thing, so there you go.
from dandlioneyes :
unfortunately i am no longer high on caffeine and am yawning. *sigh* so temporary, this fix.
from nosafehaven :
Yes, I did! I've always said I'd never use a layout with a celeb in it, but I had to break for Conor Oberst. :) *sigh*
from lonelylatina :
let's see. try it out.
from lonelylatina :
wooohoooo i got a new template also. it's fun to change things around from time to time. the bigger font on your new layout is much better.
from dandlioneyes :
the template is a bit, well, hard on my poor myopic eyes... but i also have a mac, and scroll bars and so on have a hard time showing up on my computer (which i love- love love love my computer). what do you think? and how is your cat??
from dandlioneyes :
i hope your cat feels better soon. i totally understand the anxiety that goes with having a sick pet.... hang in there!
from poopiebitch :
Thanks so much for your kind comments, you know better than I how difficult it is dealing with the loss of a loved one. It never gets easier, does it?
from teranika :
I am very sorry, coldandgray. Your story is a tragedy, and moved me very much because it reminded me of my own experiences - my dad was an alcoholic and killed himself this way. I realized that his addiction stemmed from a need to kill a deep and profound pain inside of him. I think in his heart he put us first, but in reality, somehow there was never enough space for us, the pain, and the painkillers. I hope that there is some part of your father, divorced from this, that you can hold onto as something positive. With my dad, it was music. He may have made alot of mistakes, but that will never take away the memory of his singing me to sleep when I was little. Thanks for your entry.
from ohell :
Whenever I go home I regress to age eight.I hope you took a picture, you have good ones.
from lettynow :
Im so sorry but i would have done the same damn thing and I believe i have!!!
from poopiebitch :
always marry the ones your parents warned you about, and you'll never go wrong. my parents HATED the idea of me marrying someone I met online - an older man from another country, no less! especially since I was only 18 at the time. but then, what do my parents know? they didn't give me a goddamn birthday present. you're right, it IS a crime. dirty rotten bastards.
from dark-embrace :
I don't think the subject of spooky things has ever come up in my diary so no opportunity to write about it. It was so totally freaky at the time I must admit. I thought I was going to have gremlins chase me, or something as equally scary, home every night afterward. hee hee.
from poopiebitch :
so, what stopped you? if you don't mind me asking.
from poopiebitch :
oh hey, I JUST noticed your question of how I met my hubby. we met in a random chat room, and just got to talking. we had a nice chat and agreed to meet in the same room at the same time the next day. that went on for a while, eventually we exchanged email addresses, and the rest is history. can you believe it?!
from elysium1982 :
that means its your birthday right now too...happy birthday beautiful!!
from jerrbear :
Thanks! The boobies banner is getting 5.4% clickthrough right now, though it's had as much as 9% in the past. My 30 seconds of painstaking Photoshopping have finally paid off!
from dandlioneyes :
not a bad notion. the issues i have right now are jealous (his job successes), but i am quite vocal to him about those. i'll keep thinking. maybe you have a good point there. hope you have a good evening!
from dandlioneyes :
maybe it does. any suggestions? :)
from poopiebitch :
oh yeah, and I do own a TV. it just doesn't work. good guesser!
from poopiebitch :
yeah, I'm still doing the photoblog thing. I haven't had much time to take many new pics lately, that's why I haven't updated in a few days. that's my story and I'm stickin' to it!
from imaphatpig :
YAY! Thanks for joining up. Little do you know... you have joined the COOLEST and most EXCLUSIVE rings in all of diaryland. I mean - anyone can join but I'm just saying that's all. Anyway, YAY!!!!!
from imaphatpig :
that's a great name for a cat. awesome! I get so sick of people who pick gay names for animals like precious or muffin or shit like that. You should train eggplant!!! it's not that hard. and while you're out it you can join my newest ring = "whizkitty"
from less-than3 :
yeah, i'm okay. just really frustrated with the amount of flux in my life right now.
from poopiebitch :
yeah, it warmed the cockles of my heart. (heehee! I said "cockles") and.. uh.. about that midget thing... we were just STUDYING. really.
from shadowdress :
when my best friend and i used to play "Grease" it was always suggested that i play Rizo or the beauty school drop out since i had brown hair (my friend had blonde hair and therefore felt it her birthright to play the prized role of Sandy). boy, did that piss me off. it wasn't until adulthood that i realized Rizo was actually a much cooler character than wus-ass Sandy. you were way ahead!
from poopiebitch :
notes CAN be fun! and learning can be fun, too! but only if it involves lots of alcohol. and a bong. and a midget.
from poopiebitch :
thanks for adding me to your favs and supporting my fledgling blog, you totally rock!
from nora555 :
HOw sad, You have good friends. Thats a good/sad story.
from fairygodmum :
Did I tell ya I'm dancing in the show "Knockers" the weekend of Feb 12th? I'm tap dancing and singing a song about people looking at my Boobs! tee hee.. It's a benefit for Breast Cancer at Laney College in Oakland. Sorry you live so far away.. I'm sure you would enjoy it. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from threeletters :
Thanks for calling my diary pretty a while back. It just snowed here too (in Victoria, BC), and I was given my first experience watching it fall! The best snowman in my neighborhood had every facial feature made of carrot bits, instead of just the nose. Ha ha.
from ohell :
I loved your handshake prep, it killed me. Then I read about Levi and I felt like he hurt me too, that little bastard.
from elgan :
My god, woman, you have had THE most interesting life!
from shadowdress :
i really enjoy hearing your stories. thanks for sharing.
from dark-embrace :
Yup! And the little bugger was hard to catch on camera because he wouldn't sit still for more than two seconds! And you should just move to Australia and get a job at a zoo and all the animals could be your pets in a way *L*
from lostplatypus :
Hey, thanks for the note. The reason I've not written for a while is because I've been busy being a SUPERMOM, of course. Actually, just exhausted. Need to get back on track. Maybe shorter entries and more often like Piehole. Love your banners today. I don't know how to do the fancy ones with images and other goodies. You're quited talented. But we already knew that, didn't we? Have a fabulous day!
from elgan :
Maybe I did. I cannot remember now. But whatever it was, I'm glad I found you.
from dandlioneyes :
happy new year's to you, as well. let us hope it is a quiet and peaceful new year.
from licalicious :
I should warn you that the alt blog is crap... come to think of it the normal one is too.
from candoor :
happy merry new year :)
from archangelica :
actually I gave you your own username - coldandgray and your password is password
from licalicious :
it's archangelica and to unlock it the username is suzie, the password is password, I think. There's not much in there but take a shot
from dinky-creek :
Thanks for the notes, it's nice to know you care! My snowboard hasn't got me get - I won't get to test it out until about the 22nd of January. I know what you mean about over-gifting, but thankfully for me I am also a tightarse at heart so that counteracts the urges I get to buy excessively.
from fairygodmum :
Gosh you made my cookies and milk left for Santa worthwhile! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum.. Happy NEW YEAR!
from sanetwin :
Merry Christmas.
from ohell :
God how I feel for second hand smoke recipients. A smoker walks into the room and I cough. I hope your holiday is great, I loved your Xmas entry.
from amalthea23 :
awesome :) be careful when they arrive! they have a habit of jumping off shelves and going reeeeally far!
from amalthea23 :
thethey are indeed real. they're called crazy newts and you can get them on www.kidrobot.com. they're by jim woodring and they're part of his time capsule series. thanks for stopping by!
from elgan :
Thank you. I am touched.
from less-than3 :
now i'm all embarrassed and blushing and stuff. thank you for the compliment.
from dandlioneyes :
thanks for the note. the whole thing is just frustrating, and i can *never* settle down on a decision. i don't mind taking his name, but i don't mind keeping mind. mixing them doesn't seem to bother me, but i always come up with "but what if's", and then my mind changes again. well, i'm renewing a driver's license shortly, and will have to make a decision then.... thanks again. happy holidays and a good start to the new year!
from less-than3 :
wow as in good? wow as in bad? :)
from elysium1982 :
wishing you the best of health.
from ohell :
hey, keep us updated on your results, you.
from fir-designs :
hi there` :) ive just started a fir-designs webbie. to provide free layouts for diaryland users. n ive picked random users to go visit it! i wud love to haf u visit it wen you're free :) http://fir-designs.diaryland.com--dats it! thanks so so much. n much love <33
from dinky-creek :
Hee. I had a hearing test for a job once, and I was so paranoid about it that I was the opposite - every tiny ringing in my ears made me press the button, and I was worried that I'd come out and be told that I now needed to be tested for Voices In My Head.
from sock-girlie :
Thanks for the adorable holiday card!
from sanetwin :
Happy Thanksgiving!
from licalicious :
"David Sedaris comments: the smoking will be the end of him"... but out of the smoking comes the writing. I feel the same way. The cigarette is the thing that appeases the body while the mind does it's thing.It may kill you, but you had a richer life for it.
from shadowdress :
yes! sarah vowell is the greatest! i share your distrust of the medical community. now that we are more informed than ever and their budgets are tighter than ever it seems like everyone is guessing as much as the olden daysexcept without the good bedside manner. my shitty (former) dr. told me i had cervical cancer and then asked me why i had such a horrible look on my face--a if i was dumb for being worried. i found out later (but not from her) i had pre-cancerous cells--an easily treatable and very common condition among us gals. i couldn't believe the rude and careless way she had talked to me about it. sorry this is so long :)
from love-fatal :
i like you.
from dandlioneyes :
i appreciate the link to the i'm sorry page. i might put something up there as well. it may do aboslutely no good, but i think it is about a) feeling better personally and b) not giving up the fight.
from dandlioneyes :
yup, i tend to go for men's deoderant too. except in germany i found women's deoderant from nivea (from germany, and huge there), and it smells pretty clean and not-so-frilly. you aren't alone!
from dandlioneyes :
i do. down here in the bay area i see signs for ukiah on 101 north. :) drove through it on my (long) drive up to seattle two years ago. i'm a huge fan of northern california, and my whole whining about berlin etc. is actually stupid, because i can get to half moon bay in 45 minutes, and to napa in 2, and to mendocino in 4 hours... thanks for your note.
from fairygodmum :
Thank you for that very lovely pet story... Spell Dog Backwards and you'll know why! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from rotted :
thank you for the banner compliment!
from dandlioneyes :
i thought i needed a change. hope you have a nice weekend.
from shadowdress :
i can not follow up that touching and bittersweet story about your mom with what i came here to tell you so i'll tell you later. thanks for sharing that.
from ohell :
what a beautiful entry about your Mom. It made me think of mine.
from shadowdress :
hi! thanks for adding me. i know a trick for dealing with workplace poop smudges that you do not want to be blamed for (be they someone else's or heaven forbid, your own) but perhaps i should save it until you know me better?
from dandlioneyes :
i'm sorry, too. i think patriotism is dangerous, so i've never been, but it is absolutely awful to be ashamed of where one is from. i am sick. i am embarassed. and i just can't tolerate this. bad dream, wake me up damnit. someone pinch me. what the hell are all these people smoking?!?! yegads.
from dandlioneyes :
i think we can do this! ra-ra-ra!
from dandlioneyes :
thanks for adding me. much appreciated. ;)
from dinky-creek :
Thanks for the hug! I feel so much better today. Do you always have election lead-up dreams? That must be terribly depressing...
from sanetwin :
Nope I'm still dating Aaron :). I was saying good-bye to Sarah before she headed back to Chicago.
from fairygodmum :
Albertsons has a sale on C & H Sugar right now for $1.88 for 5lbs. Ooops sorry am I contributing to your addiction? I think that if you take a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in the morning and evening it inhibits your sugar cravings. At least it's helped me! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from ohell :
I am ok but I didn't think so while I was away, hey! glad to see your stuff again!....
from elysium1982 :
whats fwew?
from nora555 :
I was just wondering that very same thing, I always remeber sonic booms. Playing in the yard then suddenly BOOM. Never hear that any more wonder why?
from nora555 :
Yes you may a123456
from ohell :
how horrible of a secret would it be? You should dedicate a page entirely to us guessing. 1) you did a hit and run.
from dinky-creek :
Oh! I knew I should have clarified... "fairy floss" is what we call "cotton candy" over here. Sounds prettier though, doesn't it? ...PS Sounds as though Sasha didn't pay attention to the old adage, "grass then beer, you're in the clear; beer then grass, you're on your arse" :)
from monstre :
Thank you, lady.
from nora555 :
Thank you- Lety
from ohell :
c&g! thank God you don't smoke is all I'll say about that entry. Do you? Per your request, here's your suicide note I was a heavy smoker but I kept it well hid cigarettes didn't kill me but the oven pilot did
from imaphatpig :
GET YOUR OWN!!! Text spinny thing that is... http://www.3dtextmaker.com/ Seriously. You can do all kinds of things at that site and then you just save it as a GIF and upload it and add it to your site. Have fun with it!
from bonkrood :
I got your guestbook message. I would be happy to help you with a layout... what do you have in mind. My gmail address is bonkrood and you can contact me there.
from dark-embrace :
I've never dreamt of chocolate myself which is not at all worrying really. Knowing my luck i'd wake up and half my pillow would be chewed to bits. Ever had that?
from licalicious :
I'm sorry, you must be mistaken, Ira and I are engaged. Check out the bling on my left hand! Yeah, that's right, it's a diamond encrusted radio.
from gumphood :
At least I wasn't Catty
from dinky-creek :
I clicked on your "email" link and sent it there as a word document... well, never mind. I'm glad your friend had a good time down here in Oz without my (overly wordy) assistance!
from ohell :
how funny was that entry? Your "friend" needs a beating.
from gumphood :
I am glad that you added me. I will just assume you like laughing at cripple people. It's okay. "I love those goofy bastards"
from fairygodmum :
Get Better Soon Hon.. and ThankX for the Germ Info... I'll have to remind myself to wear GLOVES! :P Hugz, Bebe da FGM
from ohell :
who's that? Is that the guy you married?
from ohell :
thank you! I've missed you and your humor, it was good to see you've been so diligent on the boards -
from imaphatpig :
Well I refused them so then everything should be okay, right?
from elgan :
Thanks for that encouraging note, dear.
from imaphatpig :
Actually, I would be okay with the whole bandwagon thing. Because then you would be upping the popularity of my people. And I am all about that because my new thing is trying to take over the world and spread the yellow-belly love.
from imaphatpig :
Because of the beauty of the cat costume or are you one of those heinous people jumping on the "I love asian people" bandwagon. If you are the latter, god help you.
from dailywisdom :
Thanks for leaving me a note! Sorry if my banner was better. I'll make a sucky one next time! xoxoxox! J
from imaphatpig :
Sadly, no, I am not. But I swear, if I could have one wish in the world, it would be to be able to "act authentically crazy" for just one day (I'm not greedy, see?) just so I could see people's reactions to the stuff that I would pull. I might try and do this on my own except that I know I wouldn't be able to keep a straight face through it all. Life is SO UNFAIR!!!
from licalicious :
Thanks - you made me smile. And there is a reason I added you as a favorite, I like your diary thingie too.
from licalicious :
Thanks for the note... and for actually caring about my trivial incidences of love gone wrong. I'm curious now, I saw you added me as a favorite... What rang true?
from licalicious :
the sad movie route...
from elysium1982 :
well thank you very much =)
from ohell :
nice entry, and congratulations, I said a little prayer for you -
from ohell :
are you guys one unit yet?
from ohell :
stark sad poetry he wrote, I'm so glad you're reading it. You candy thief.
from minstrelite :
Well, I kinda think the guy you're paying $50 an hour to who complains about his free food and free parking has the attitude that he doesn't need that job because he could easily work somewhere else. If that's the case, you and I both know that news doesn't get better, it gets worse.
from liebling :
ha, see? no one important ever came out of my hometown. well...some weird german tv dude and a pop idol weirdo did but i don't think that counts. so...thumbs up for ukiah!
from raven72d :
That's a lovely dream. I tend these days to dream of empty Italian architecture and penguins in water.
from mcearstix :
it isn't embarrassing, it's nice.
from adelnye :
ooohhhh...... I like that. Thanks!! ^_^
from adelnye :
Hi there!! Thanks for adding me on your list.... despite being "curiously strong". Actually I'm not. ^_^
from raven72d :
Private parties don't lead to as much ruined furniture.
from raven72d :
Great story... But-- never, never do party flyers!
from elgan :
Thanks for adding me to your favourites. Welcome aboard!
from elgan :
I found you through your banner and Iím adding you to my favourites. Like you, I also did not get my driverís licence until I was 25.
from adelnye :
thanks for adding me on your list. :D
from raven72d :
I did all those things... Though I was never grounded, and I went out upstairs windows anyway. What did you get grounded for?
from raven72d :
They weren't so great for me, either-- same reason, too. "Parting Glances" was wonderful... What are your teen horror stories (I'll tell you mine, too)...?
from raven72d :
You're forgiven, lovely one. Now why were the years before 18 so dark for you?
from raven72d :
A ghost would be cool... Thanks for the kind words, but I'm not a "she"...
from ohell :
How is it that you are able to make every entry have a punchline? and thanks for the interest in how he was taken when she comes back I'll know too.
from trancejen :
e-mail in progress to you.
from ohell :
thanks the feeling is mutual. The blood on the step was classic, I had to read it to two people.
from ohell :
you are hysterical.(ly funny) I happed across your diary this am and laughed at all the funny parts.
from dinky-creek :
"What's up with you, Dinky?" Is that some sort of threat?! Fisticuffs, eh? Ah, I jest. As for IceBalls... I think the hilarity speaks for itself.
from raven72d :
Thanks much! I hope you keep writing...
from dinky-creek :
No, not the Cha Cha... I think it was Tia Lou's (yes, I did have to look that one up on Google). It was like a dungeon in there, though it turned out to be a fun night (some middle-aged woman started coming onto the Pigeon, so he ran away and hid behind my skirt). But yes, you are lucky to get the mild and clement weather that you have... at least you don't get 45 degrees celsius in summer...
from raven72d :
Such enigmatic yet lovely entries...
from dinky-creek :
I'm used to expensive airfares - to ago anywhere from Sydney ain't cheap. It cost close to $3000 (return) when we went to Canada, but then, that was after taxes and travel insurance (which came in handy since I concussed myself). That aside, I remember this weird bar/club in Seattle. I think it was supposed to be Mexican but it was like a dungeon inside. Weird. I know how you feel about your mum (mom). My favourite uncle died of cancer a couple of months ago and I think about him every day, but he lived far enough away that I can pretend that he's in his room having an afternoon nap like he always did.
from dinky-creek :
Seattle huh? I was there in January, but only for a couple of days (we were staying in Whistler, Canada, and hired a car). The Pike Place markets reminded me of a place in Sydney called The Rocks, mainly because of the bizarre variety of things that I love to gawk at but woul never consider buying.
from dinky-creek :
Thanks for the note! I love getting notes from strangers and since I think I still count as a stranger to you, I'm going to send you a note so that you might experience that same little tingle. (PS Should I be hurt that I'm described as having nothing better to do than to sit down? I'll have to start writing more about the more active stuff I do. Like, today I washed my dog...)
from unknown- :
Your notes virginity has been broken.

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