messages to starzero:
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| from fuckxthis : |
| i love that you've been on diaryland so long. |
| from anhelo : |
| I like it when people have been using diarlyand as long as I have. Can't see your older entries, cause it only shows up until 2011. But, I clicked on 'first' and brought me to your first entry in 2001. And it made me happy that you've been on here for so long even though I don't know you. |
| from lunarsea : |
| thanks :] i'm glad you're still around this dead place. something constant. |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| also, i hope it's a smooth transition. and also, i am the same with paintings, i have a thousand paintings inside that will probably never be applied to real canvas. |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| not to worry, it's really okay. i just need to man up, you know? |
| from malloh : |
| i am sorry for being a terrible burden, but I could use some wisdom on this one. |
| from dearcynthia : |
| rebound? that's silly. i'm much more level-headed than that. |
| from malloh : |
| (ha, I seem to be full of hope!) |
| from malloh : |
| Thanks, I'd hoped so. I hope it doesn't make me evil or something. And hello, hope you're doing well :) |
| from secret-motel : |
| Thank you! It's great to be back. I think. |
| from jonathan : |
| Great to be listed as a favourite. How have you got to over 10,000 entries!? I thought I was doing ok at 1,700. What's the word count? (Not that volume is ever better than quality) |
| from lunarsea : |
| Hey, um, thank you. Thank you for helping with your words during that time and for the belief in me. I really do appreciate it, still. |
| from omfggwtf : |
| i like your diary :) xo. |
| from lunarsea : |
| thanks :] it'll get better when sam comes home and i can make him fetch stuff for me. i read your happiness and now i totally want my teddy bear. |
| from xxholding-on : |
| hi i saw you were online and i really wanted the vote from diaryland towards a contest i joined. It's a coach marketing contest and i need as many votes as i can get, please help! http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx?picid=975395_34070543&pid=2767347&scid=452 |
| from dearcynthia : |
| "put your foot down"? i pratically had to force you to come out with what you really wanted. and if you love her, why didn't you just say so? |
| from the29th : |
| resent, did it come through this time? |
| from the29th : |
| hey, just curious... i sent an email a couple weeks ago to starzero@diaryland and just wondered if it had gotten to you. thanks for the note - i don't know if my way of dealing is good or not, but it's what i've got at the moment. we do what we can when not doing what we must, right? |
| from lawliiet : |
| Of your albums, which do you suggest the most? |
| from longitude : |
| email address? |
| from longitude : |
| how did you get into astrology? |
| from secret-motel : |
| Ha! I think there should be an optional thirteenth month for those who lovelovelove the holidays and the music and the whole everything. Christmas should be removed from December, just so the cranky sorts (like me) can enjoy pure winter satisfaction without all that holiday trauma. |
| from longitude : |
| Seriously, those texture dreams.. omg. And I completely relate to the layers.. holy crap. |
| from starkitten01 : |
| I'm glad I found your journal, I really feel that I can relate.. I hope that you find what you're looking for ultimately. I know it's been difficult for me, I still have yet to get there myself! |
| from january-rain : |
| to answer the question you left on my old Dland. you didn't need to find me, i found you. |
| from raven72d : |
| Quondam is a good word. And people tend to find diaries via favourites lists and notes--- like following up on the bibliographies in books. |
| from lunarsea : |
| you should try it soon. one day i'll pick up where i left off, when i have spare time again. |
| from longitude : |
| It'll be here in about 10 days. When is yours? Sometimes I think being alone is better. |
| from suckledhoney : |
| I do, too, to be honest, but that layout was limiting. It was truly a pain and I needed something simpler. Or wanted something simpler, I suppose. |
| from ohmegah : |
| Hey, how are you? Good I hope. I'm doing a survey of what people think of my current concept. I only ask that you read the most recent entries and then respond via diaryland. Thanks and take care. |
| from choose-life : |
| my mind is seriously wrecked... |
| from choose-life : |
| you know your 'comment' link on your page doesn't work? anyways, i dont know if i share your enthusiasm, i said to myself 2008 is going to be an unforgettable year, but then i say that every year. however, im turning 25 soon, it's time to hit a turning point in my life such as buying a house or commit into a serious relationship or whatever it is that adults are supposed to do... we'll see how that turns out. i sure hope your year is going to be filled with excitment. best of luck. |
| from lunarsea : |
| ah don't get me wrong, i'm thoroughly enjoying being happy. its wonderful to wake up and realising i like being awake. it just means i have no need to write words or untangle anything. thats the only reason ever had to put things here. |
| from lunarsea : |
| just for now, i'd rather nobody did. i added one entry and its not my usual fare, just... a message from somebody that i wanted to keep safe. things are very different, mainly in that i haven't been panicking or punishing myself very much and it doesn't make for interesting thoughts to write down. i will let you know when i do have some though. i am not sure how i feel being a winner, i do find something hilarious about the word 'foam' though. |
| from lunarsea : |
| hi, i'm still around. |
| from robiin22 : |
| HI |
| from choose-life : |
| the comment you left under my link on your fav diaries. |
| from choose-life : |
| what does 'under the needle' mean? |
| from lunarsea : |
| oh and now you have to go and draw attention to the fact that i have no life! |
| from lunarsea : |
| she should try to see past the things that annoy her, and instead try to understand the reasons behind them and accept that its part of you, try to understand the person and the thoughts beyond the surface. i know i don't have a clue about your life, that i've no room to say these things really, yet i can't help comparing it to the situation i'm in. i don't really have the right to dictate, since i know there are things i do that i'd disagree with from a distance. still, i want there to be truth. that... our internal selves didn't have to be so different from our external selves. it's so difficult to keep others happy, isn't it? |
| from lunarsea : |
| i read what you say, and i think perhaps you're like me. i am sick to death of dwelling on my faults constantly, spending every day wishing i could be happier and more fun. it's never going to work because it's a negative way of thinking to begin with. i wish i could be the kind of person who just lets go and laughs it off and doesn't worry about how much i am disappointing everyone. thing is, we're anxious and serious by nature and sometimes, no matter how much you realise the things that are wrong and the things that apparently need changing to make life easier, the more we worry about it, the more serious and upset we become. i wish... i had a solution to offer at the end of that thought but i don't have any answers. truth is i am very drunk and on holiday with my school friends and things are very very very strange, which i'll write about when i get home. i wish so much that everyone would just get past all these negative, selfish thoughts and internalised criticism and shit and remember that we are all people and we all have good points and bad points and that there's no use getting irritated because that doesn't help anyone to progress. |
| from lunarsea : |
| O_O the fbi will be at your door next! |
| from lunarsea : |
| oh, well thats ever so kind of you. but really, i think you make far too many attempts at helping already since you have no obligation to. i ought to stop collecting people to dump my problems on to. it's not attractive. still, thanks a lot :) i'll resume reading through your archives as soon as i can, though i won't get back to my flat for a few days and after that i'm going on holiday. my grandad still has dial up. its making me want to cry. |
| from lunarsea : |
| true, you're not light and fluffy but the uk isn't having a real summer this year and i'm too pale to sit around on a beach all day if we did, so it works out. |
| from lunarsea : |
| i'm finding it really addictive, is it okay that your life is now my summer read? |
| from lunarsea : |
| ohhh i get it now! YOU SAID IT 'CAUSE I SAID NOT TO! |
| from lunarsea : |
| i don't want to be silly! i want to be normal! i really do! i don't know how 'cause all the supposed silliness seems to make perfect sense to me. i've been trying to read through all of your entries from the beginning for something to do! its loooooong |
| from lunarsea : |
| Rockall, Malin, Hebrides. Southwest gale 8 to storm 10, veering west, severe gale 9 to violent storm 11. Rain, then squally showers. Poor, becoming moderate. |
| from lunarsea : |
| no i don't want to be 'fantastic youth' anymore. i don't want to be young, being young is being ridiculous. |
| from lunarsea : |
| i'm sorry :( its just hard, i don't want to be growing anymore. i want it to all slow down and be okay and normal now. |
| from lunarsea : |
| no one said you have to read what i say if it upsets you that much. i know that things that have happened are only little but i fear what they symbolise for the long run. like, if i can't even keep little things together then how can i keep big things together? oh ugh, it doesn't matter. don't trouble yourself. |
| from choose-life : |
| sorry, i didn't think twice it just slipped. |
| from choose-life : |
| That is very sweet of you, i'd love for you to get to know me better in real life, but if it were the case i'd probably fall in love with you, it'd be madness, there's no win-win situation with me, platonic friendship with a caring man will always be a fantasy. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| everything okay? you didn't write anything yesterday, but then again the servers have been down some too so maybe that is all. hope so! |
| from lunarsea : |
| i was introduced to mono when my friend wrote 'i love mono' on the back of my hand. i like them. |
| from lunarsea : |
| i didn't know you had a myspace link on your diary... you look absolutely nothing like i imagined :) |
| from dreamsongs : |
| what the hell, a change from e-mail. just to say "freedom is salvation" is a great line. is it uniquely yours? i like it. also that writing "miss u, love & kisses" is something i do with my close friends, without romantic or sexual connotations intended, though obviously the context you describe is quite different. there was something else i wanted to respond to but i've forgotten. i'm sure i'll e-mail if i remember. i'm going to go find my daemon now. |
| from lunarsea : |
| angry jellyfish |
| from lunarsea : |
| i dont know sometimes it feels real and other times everything seems fine and i feel like i must have made it all up, but then it goes back to being bad again. i can never decide which is real and if i'm just worrying too much about stuff that doesnt exist. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| doesn't anyone else write here anymore? you probably do sometimes make people spin. spinning makes life a little more interesting, anyway :-) still waiting here for a reply to my last e-mail, i hope you got it okay. i'm glad you and your baby enjoyed looking up transatlantic routes on google maps. having friends outside a relationship is way important. it makes you take each other less for granted, makes the other person more interesting and less irritating because they actually have a life that doesn't revolve around you, and vice versa. it's not an easy lesson to learn, but it's a crucial one i think. going out with friends without my hubby along is hugely satisfying, and makes him respect and appreciate me more as well; it doesn't have to involve romance or sex, even. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| I think I forgot to mention in my last e-mail that if you're going to Spain, you should definitely get to Andalusia, particularly Granada and Seville. I don't know how much time you're working with, or whether you and/or your sweetie have made the trip before in your adult lives (going as a kid with family doesn't really count), but please don't hesitate to ask for suggestions of places to visit, where to stay, what to eat, etc. because my hubby and I LOVED Spain and would be happy to advise :-) |
| from lunarsea : |
| i'm too scared. he'll just think i'm taking things too seriously, the last thing anyone wants is some paranoid insecure nutcase. |
| from the29th : |
| the problem is not a war between the heart and the mind. the problem is that both know what they should do (or should *probably* do) but neither is willing to actually do it. |
| from the29th : |
| your new entry... deja vu. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| ah. . .the baby question, answered at last! |
| from dreamsongs : |
| what's all this about babies? |
| from estero : |
| You wrote about this a week ago, but.. if people are so offended by the use of "gay" as saying something is retarded or stupid, then why don't they just find another word for homosexuals? Seriously. In other words, "I'm not gay anymore. I'm just homosexual." "Gay" is too perfect a word for something retarded and doesn't have anything to do with someone's sexual orientation anymore in that sense. There's been a divide. Lots of words can mean good and bad things. Get over it. You speak about first amendment rights, but then there are certain words we can't say? C'mon.. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hmm. . .okay. still curious who/what is "due" any day now. i got a package slip from the post office but probably won't get to pick it up til thursday or friday; hopefully it's from you. i'll keep you posted. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| am i the only one who writes here anymore? well, shoot. i'm assuming you're off in indy this weekend. just letting you know that, a) i still read here, and in fact have been keeping up better recently, and b) curious who or what is due back any day now. of course it could be a generic "you" meant to make every reader think that you mean them personally. . .hmm. |
| from brutusben13 : |
| Hello |
| from dreamsongs : |
| you thought about oberlin?! dang. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| not to nitpick (though that can be fun, too :-)), but you actually have plenty of links on diaryland that take your readers to sites that allow them to fairly easily identify you, certainly if they know you already but really even if they don't. you link to your baby's livejournal, you link to myspace and photos of yourself. what you don't have is links TO diaryland FROM other sites, which is really the main issue in terms of maintaining privacy here. that's definitely important, and i really appreciate being privy to some of the things you share here. i should say that more often, i know. by the way, msn had something recently about more couples living together not being married now than there actually are currently married couples, so there should be no reason whatsoever to be annoyed/scared/defensive if a colleague asks about 'wedding bells.' it's a shame our society is so marriage and kid centric in so many ways - and i'm even saying that as a married person - though i'd say i like being married i doubt it's that different than just living with my hubby would be, really. the wedding was a lot of fun, though, and it makes taxes and insurance a lot easier. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| we got snow on valentine's day - i have no idea why new yorkers are so scared of snow; my hubby and i had a great time and the restaurant we went to was nice and quiet (though not empty) as a result of people chickening out. |
| from estero : |
| "so how do i present things in a way he'll pay attention." For starters, don't lecture! Kids always tune you out when you do that. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| when did you send your package??? |
| from estero : |
| it's not fair you keep telling yourself i will leave if you don't do someting. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| "children of men" is incredible - interesting that you and my hubby both chose the word "harrowing" to describe it. i agree totally. i've just done a marathon session of catching up on your dland entries. hope that you got my xmas greetings and that you and your baby are managing to stay relatively warm; it's crazy cold here as well, but really not that unseasonable after all - we just got spoiled by a mild early winter. Hope that Benadryl works better for you than Chlor-Trimeton; that's what I've found as well, and it also helps me sleep. I was going to comment on other things but I've forgotten what and have to work tomorrow. Wish I could be there to go out and get drunk with you. I miss our chats a lot and should really try to be in touch more often; I apologize for lapsing in that regard. hmm. . .i started to capitalize randomly halfway through this message. sweet dreams. |
| from heelandlass : |
| hahah, just read the comment you left me - you know me so well! I am Scottish. You're right, and since then I've had quite a lot of booze. Oh well. Hey - glad you found your mobile, it's a nightmare losing your moby eh? I had to write all my numbers out in a book cos I was losing my phone so much. And you had questions for me?!?! Ask away - I am glad to help out with any Scottish/British based questions that you have xxxxxx |
| from geeked-out : |
| OOO I should check my mail more often! so great I don't know if i'll ever be able to wear socks again. Good thing it's unseasonally warm here. |
| from dope-slave : |
| THE PRESIDENT HAS BEEN KIDNAPPED BY NINJAS. ARE YOU A BAD ENOUGH DUDE TO RESCUE THE PRESIDENT? |
| from dreamsongs : |
| wasn't antm basically just a recap episode tonight? i caught the last 15-20 minutes and it looked like it was just a recap episode. what a cop-out. hope your sister wasn't too annoyed. |
| from lunarsea : |
| i am lost |
| from lunarsea : |
| disabled jet, har har har. i lost it. now its just about swapping fantasies. |
| from lunarsea : |
| ohmyjetsabel: unsure where. answer: here |
| from choose-life : |
| just wanted to say hi and thanks for the notes hon. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| actually, dunkin donuts and subway are pretty omnipresent in new york, too. |
| from the29th : |
| i really really like it. i think the style suits the songs. as i say, i listened to it on repeat all day. |
| from the29th : |
| of course nothing last forever but isn't it the point of being human to try to make it as close as possible? |
| from the29th : |
| (i don't usually do notes because i always get sucked into reading previous notes which is always strange because they have no time or date and could be about anything. it's like overhearing one half of a telephone conversation. but smguestbook is being a jerk right now, so...) just a random comment because you mentioned gchat: i love that stuff. thank god (er, google rather) for coming up with a chat that doesn't require a software install. i spend a ridiculous amount of time on it while at work. it's probably the only reason i've made it through my four weeks notice before the new job. i hope i can still use it at the next job - probably but you never know. i suppose then i'll have to come up with a new way of getting through. |
| from heelandlass : |
| "baby and i can have a long-term, deeply emotional committed relationship without being married, so what does marriage give us, practically and emotionally, that we can't have without it?" - I totally understand why you would feel like that - it's unfortunately an unanswerable question unless you get married and see for yourself, but if marriage is something that you feel is un-necessary, why does it bug you that baby is still married to someone else? Surely if you can still have a loving and meaningful relationship with her without getting married, you can do the same whether she divorces or not? I'm not trying to get on your case, I just thought maybe you feel stronger about marriage than you at first realised? Just a thought... |
| from heelandlass : |
| For what exactly? His Sony walkman? Sheesh. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Well then here is my excuse: I had to reinstall iTunes and I lost all my playlists so I had no idea what I had sent you before. At least it was just TWO songs and not an entire CD worth of repeats. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Well I have an excuse though you probably don't care. So on my next attempt I will only send newly acquired music. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Read? Huh? What? I sing your entries in my head. |
| from recieveher : |
| unlocked |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hmmm. Something tells me no matter what I write here I'll end up shooting myself in the foot! I guess, nothing's wrong with it? If you're into that kind of thing. I don't know how good it is though, it might be utterly embarrassing and shite. You'd have to tell me the truth and the truth might be awful. Or something. |
| from heelandlass : |
| It seems everybody is running out of things to say at the moment. That's why I've resorted to nearly writing saucy things. I couldn't possibly share them with you - I reckon your saucy stories would laugh in the face of my saucy stories, shag them rigid and then leave them feeling dirty and used in the morning.. |
| from estero : |
| while you were wishing someone would notice you, i was sitting here wondering why you never notice other people. |
| from geeked-out : |
| You mean you've never been to the batter place? Great for drowning your car woes. |
| from recieveher : |
| you have a pw. give me an e-mail address. |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| Is that a fire hydrant with frozen water coming out of it? How can that happen?? |
| from heelandlass : |
| hey...for the record, I've not stopped reading. Waiting with baited breath.... |
| from geeked-out : |
| It's something we are taught from birth, how to destroy everyone who isn't a Texan. It's subtle but eventually it takes over and even the smartest people become card carrying republicans. I'm trying to get out before that happens to me but you can see whats it doing to me already. Oh and I can't find your address, send it to me again and I'll send you a mix CD or two. androidtomato at gmail dot com |
| from geeked-out : |
| And here I was hoping the shampoo actually contained a disease. I suppose I'll have to carry out my plan of injecting small pox into Pantene. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hope things work themselves out my friend. xx |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| Well, Americans write the dates the other way to us. Like 3/8 is March 8 for me but August 3 for you. So today is your UK birthday, hurrah! But you don't get an Australian birthday I'm afraid, unless you are actually there for your birthday. Or for 22 of your birthdays, as I was. Australian seasons are opposite, so it was always winter until I moved to London. Do you see now? Happy UK (and rest-of-the-world) birthday! |
| from heelandlass : |
| Everybody always seems to leave you really aggressive notes on your guest book so I'm not leaving notes there and I've lost your email address that I know is active so I'm not leaving any notes there either. But what I was going to say was that yes, I am totally aware of those sneaking feelings and so care has to be taken. I will always watch out for Bandito's feelings first and foremost and I sincerely believe there's nothing to worry about with this situation. Maybe some other things I'd worry about, but I don't make a habit of this kind of thing for 2 reasons - I am completely in love with Bandito, bordering on being obsessive about it and because I know that things can get out of control and I don't want to lose him. I totally relate to the love/bodies thing. If you put it into practice let me know how you get on! And I found your other site by the way. The dark blue one. Saucy. |
| from heelandlass : |
| More fun eh? What's the plan? |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| No idea of the origin of "taking the piss" I'm afraid. Or of "taking the mickey". (I'm assuming "taking the mick" and "taking the Michael" probably derive from "taking the mickey" if that's any help... nope, didn't really think so.) |
| from heelandlass : |
| Must be something in the air, the world over. Tables, Walmart, doing the dishes, buying drills. When did relationships get this....silly?! I've just bought that green necklace I was on about. I did it because I love it, but I have a feeling the cost of it might cause another fight. I might hide it till pay day...there I go again. Awful, cliched wifey nonsense. Grrr. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Thanks for your 2 cents worth (Canadian or no). I love that you leave notes for me, especially when you're right. Spacial needs and future worries are exactly what this is all about. I feel much better now it's written down and people don't think we're on the road to wretchedness. xxx (enjoy your dinner tonight. Although, is 'enjoy' the right word?)x |
| from heelandlass : |
| It was rubbish, honestly. A British film called 'Dead Man's Shoes'. Maybe if thrillers are your thing you might enjoy it, but it disturbed me too much! |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| Ikea visits on the weekend are enough to put anyone's back up (or their shoulder out). Capote still hasn't been released here, but I really want to see it. |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| i forgot to reply to the note you left me. thank you, thank you because it is comforting to read things like that and i think maybe things will get better. there will always be regrets now but i'm starting to think about it less. i suppose everyone goes there at some point. i'm glad you survived, too. |
| from geeked-out : |
| I got the Star 2005 Mix today. So where is my artwork? |
| from geeked-out : |
| If I told you, you'd just get better locks. Then what would I do? |
| from geeked-out : |
| You know I have a Star shrine. Does it creep you out that you are my hobby? |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| Woo, picture of you! My new year's eve turned out well, hopefully a portent of things to come. Happy 2006 to you, Starzero. |
| from recieveher : |
| e-mail address? |
| from geeked-out : |
| Do! |
| from geeked-out : |
| Well your guestbook is smart. Us dirty texans will turn everything into crap. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Alllright your guestbook wouldn't let me leave one. Jerks. How about shut it, belt up, or Shut it you maafy slag. Maybe I've read the british slang dictionary too many times. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Thanks for doing my survey my love! |
| from heelandlass : |
| How'd the party go? |
| from heelandlass : |
| Oof. Seriously - get the CD. They are nothing like black eyed peas. Second rate or otherwise. Yeuch! |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| I've just turned off the pop-up blocker and I see what you mean (although it was a WWF pop-up, so it could've been worse). I guess it's that stat counter thing on the bottom of the page, which I suppose I should take off... thanks for letting me know though. |
| from heelandlass : |
| I am a bit nutters sometimes aren't I? Oh well. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Don't fall into that trap. Just because one person did it doesn't mean to say everybody will do it. It's really easy to assume it though, I'm not judging you, I hope you don't think I am. And it sounds like you're mentally preparing for baby doing what a. did. The thing you're dreading so much. So maybe it's you that's starting to leave. In your head anyway. Catch it before it's too late. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Okay, feedback. Sorry it took SOOO long. I'm going to be honest: 1) Didn't like it at first, but it grew on me. It does sound a bit dated, but I didn't mind that. 2) REM? I like it. One of their lesser known ones, which is not a bad thing. 3) Really lovely. I can't work out who that is. I probably don't know them. 4) I LOVE this song. It reminds me of so many bands/singers. Melanie from the 60s in particular. 5) This is really interesting. At first I didn't like his voice, then I did. I think it's my favourite on the CD. 6) This has been bugging me. I know that I know who it is but can't quite put my finger on it. Is it aerosmith? This kind of rock passed me by to be honest. It's a bit too rocky for me. 7) No. Don't like it. 8) Love it. Love it. Love it. 9) This is lovely. It sounds a bit Kate Bush-y, a bit Tori Amos-y. Is it either? When I heard it the first time I was walking across the livingroom and I stopped in my tracks to listen to it. I like it a lot. 10) I sounds like the opening sequence to a movie. Really fresh and calm. 11) another familiar one. Kind of like Pearl Jam or Crash Test Dummies... 12) For some reason I instantly thought of Sting at the beginning. It's too rocky for me. 13) Too long!! It built me up with no reward. I don't really like the singers' voice. 14) Really lovely song. I like it where it is. Light relief from song 13!! 15) I like this an awful lot. It's the sort of song I'd play if I was feeling sorry for myself. Who is it? I have the singers' name on the tip of my tongue but I'm just not getting it. 16) A classic. 17)I like this one, although I thought I'd grow to hate it. It sounds like someone struggling uphill with a very heavy load. Determination! Strength! Strong will! 18) Bloody hell! What a finish. I can picture myself rocking out with my mates to this one... The end. |
| from heelandlass : |
| I was about to say 'you better be careful - fingering means something completely different over here'. Until I read 'hand out of my baby's pants' and realised it meant the same over there too. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Ash are Irish too. It depends where about in Ireland everybody are from. If they're from Southern Ireland, then they're not British at all. If they're from Northern Ireland then they're classed as British, but some of them hate that. Hence all the agro. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hmm. I can't remember what note I was supposed to leave here. Maybe it will ome back to me.I am a bit tipsy after a big nigt out Anyway. i tought I mighe send you the CD that I send to the other person.fnacy it? email em your address sxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from geeked-out : |
| awww. If I'm ever in Chicago you better watch out. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Really? I did not know that. And I really didn't know boards of canada were british. Are you sure? Well, we've kind of got it easy because after all Scottish options run out we can pluck from England and Wales and Ireland. It's only fair. And when we've run out of all of those options we can also pluck from the rest of Europe. Who said we do as we pleased? Hmm? Who?!? |
| from heelandlass : |
| Your CD is doing just fine. I have listened to it twice now and I'm looking forward to listening a few more times. I have a bit of a cold at the moment and my head is a bit tender so the RAWK ones are even rawkier than they would normally be, hence I'm reserving judgement. And do you HAVE to do a theme? And the Proclaimers are not American. I saw them recently and they were very 'spitty'. If I was to do a Scottish theme CD it would be a bit rubbish. What with the Krankees and all... |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| Well, 1) is the Australian band Hoodoo Gurus, I guess the song was out around 1983, it�s called �I want you back�. Wow, I love that song. 2) is the Cruel Sea, who are Australian but fancy themselves as a bit Texan I think. Song is �Honeymoon is Over�, if you wanted to download another of theirs I�d recommend �Better Get A Lawyer Son� for amusing lyrics. 3) IS Courtney Love, off her recent album �America�s Sweetheart�. It�s called �But Julian I�m A Little Bit Older Than You�. Yes, the Cramps hurrah! 5) is Voice of the Beehive. The song is �There�s A Barbarian In The Back Of My Car�. Then, yes, Marilyn, Princess, well down. 8) is a not brilliant cover of one of the best Australian pop songs ever written. The song is �Quasimodo�s Dream�, the version on your CD is by Kate Ceberano, but the original is by The Reels and if you or anyone who reads this can get hold of a copy, I would love one. You�re right about Frenty and Prefab Sprout. 11) is a band I know little about, they�re called Can and the song is �I�m So Green�. 12) I think is a bit of an Australian one-hit wonder, a woman called Max Sharam and the song is �Coma�. It is brilliant though. More Australian stuff with 13) and 14) (13 is by Deborah Conway, and is on an album of covers of Paul Kelly songs, if that means anything). Hurrah for the Clouds. And 15), you�re right, at first I thought� �no, it was the album version�, but I guess I got it off my flatmate�s computer, so it may have been an MP3. Oh, but no, it does come out as separate tracks when you put it on iTunes. Hurrah for Prince; thank you for playing Here�s Your Free Mix CD. I look forward to the Xmas mix. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Oh and p.s - I read a note you left on someone else's note thingy you said 'I've said some provocative things and nobody comments on them' or something along those lines. I commented on the last provocative thing you said! Don't forget that at least! |
| from heelandlass : |
| I could tell you, but I won't. It might be because I'm tired that I don't like them. It might be because it's been raining. It could be any number of reasons. I'm going to listen again with fresh ears and then I'll know for sure! |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hey he who knows quite a lot about wee-wee! Guess what arrived this morning? I'm listening to it right now. With a beer. So far there are 2 I'm not so keen on, 2 that have made me stop in my tracks and 1 that I forgot about all together and am so glad you reminded me of it's existence. Proper synopsis after at least another 4 more listens. Exciting!! |
| from geeked-out : |
| I still read you, I'm terrible at coming up with comments though. I hate it when people tell me to delete notes. It's almost not worth getting the pswd. Anyway I'll send your super cool prize Monday. =) Oh and I do hope you have fun at the ukranian gypsy punk concert. That sounds like a lot of fun actually. I do hope all that stuff with baby works itself out. See I suck at sympathy comments. It's just better I read silently. |
| from geeked-out : |
| well...you are the closest. I added some hints. |
| from heelandlass : |
| And my CD will get you sorted too don't forget!! Good sweet talkin' last night, does your baby know this is something you fancy or is it still at the 'in your head phase'? See - there's one question already. I will ask many more in time. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Thanks for your note! I enjoyed reading some random things about you - you don't give much away about yourself...anyway, I got an image of someone dancing the way you described, it made me laugh. Talk to you later xx |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| The dream leader is French but that's not an excuse, that is more reason than ever to use at least spellchecker. Bastard. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hey thanks for the music tips. I'm going to check them out this weekend xx |
| from heelandlass : |
| Righto - I've emailed my address to the new email address. And don't worry about time - it's great that you're doing it at all!! And they are very special and incredibly tricky. Especially when you know nothing about the recipient. I'll put it to the back of my mind and then it will be a nice surprise!! xxx |
| from heelandlass : |
| Did you ever get my address email to your d-land address? I'm not sure if the d-land email's working at the mo.... |
| from heelandlass : |
| Here! Here! I'll 2nd that, absolutely. Here's to hedonism. xxx |
| from geeked-out : |
| gee thanks...well I mean it's true, but still. |
| from heelandlass : |
| Ah, but I like the way Americans sound, so we're all happy! Between us we have the writing and talking pretty much well covered! xx |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hurrah!! I have already scanned your music preferences in your profile and am quite looking forward to this! I very rarely win anything so I am experiencing much happiness at this! My address is in your inbox as we speak! xxx |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| But you seem to have a winner, so you can be as offensive as you want now! (Heelandlass has been trying really hard to win both times, so she deserves it.) |
| from heelandlass : |
| I'll take up the CD challenge!! |
| from gumluverxoxo : |
| Hi I'm gumluverxoxo and I'm new. Note me sometime |
| from geeked-out : |
| oh yeah and I think I'm going to be sending you a new CD soon, I forgot to put some really geeky stuff on there. |
| from geeked-out : |
| I'm betting you are just really hot. Silver foxes man, thats a beautiful thing. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Like that should come as such a surprise. |
| from recieveher : |
| what does it matter, anymore? |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| I don't have it anymore... does your Diaryland email work (mine doesn't seem to). And... um, just hypothetically, can you play cassettes?? |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| You've won. Although it looks like my CD is just going to be one of many. When you get mine, then you do the next bit of the chain, as per the instructions (more details on Mousemilk's diary). CONGRATULATIONS. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Okay I mailed some more Cds this morning. Let me know if you don't get them in the next couple of days. I'll drive them to you or something |
| from geeked-out : |
| You mean the CDs that were up until 10 minutes ago sitting in an envelope stamped and in the backseat of my car? Yeah, I'm a moron. I put them in the mailbox. I'm sorry. |
| from the29th : |
| how? odd? yes. scary? no. |
| from the29th : |
| strange that you should be thinking about {and that i should read about} death by drowning because last night i went to the funeral of a man who drowned. |
| from recieveher : |
| you can open up again. |
| from recieveher : |
| shut up. |
| from recieveher : |
| neither ends and neither begins. they simply are as they are. |
| from ravengreen : |
| Dewy. Huey, Dewy, and Louis. |
| from ravengreen : |
| Found you completely by random. ...and "prevous" because, frankly I'm a lazy typist and forgot to inclulde the "i". I only just put up the layout the other night...being all giddy for the release of the new album. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Your right...I can't put a sentence together either. Hell I can't even spell you're correctly. |
| from daktrix : |
| "someone like you, with real pain, real struggle, somehow knowing how it could be, keeps me alive." Interesting, your writing is simply interesting. You can take that as a compliment, it couldn't be any other way. |
| from geeked-out : |
| So how did you enjoy His Dark Materials series? |
| from dreamsongs : |
| your interview is in your guestbook! have fun :) |
| from paperfriend : |
| do you mean you don't know what to think about all of it, or the mormism/conservatism entry in particular. and i am not sure i understand what you are saying. that you hate hypocrisy, but becasue you are sometimes a hypocrite it is okay? |
| from recieveher : |
| haphazard and encompassingly |
| from geeked-out : |
| OH yeah I would like an interview from you as well. Even if I am a freak. |
| from recieveher : |
| well, it seems that you already know what it means. |
| from geeked-out : |
| I wish I knew how to spell baby mama or err babymama. I'm guessing it's two words. Because I think baby daddy is two words, so it should work both ways. Are you upset she's getting married? I'm predicting breakup before the wedding in Corky's case. |
| from erato : |
| Figurative, darling, it's figurative. Live, don't question. That was the whole point. |
| from completeliar : |
| dizzy dizzy doodle. smoodle doggie noodle. flap flap flip flop beat bap boggie bop. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hey, check it out. you're in a dream. |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| and i am in there. a few times. you just have to dig. if you were wondering. |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| thank you. |
| from sleepingin : |
| infidelity. Unfaithfulness to a sexual partner, especially a spouse. An act of sexual unfaithfulness. Lack of fidelity or loyalty. this is why i don't like it. the unfaithfulness part. even with open communication, trust and respect. we are somehow programmed to feel it is a disloyal act. and it becomes a voice that you have to push aside, if you accept sleeping around with others. even if you think it is okay and think it is a good thing, that nagging doubt remains |
| from sleepingin : |
| thats not a yes no question, so not poll-like. =P answers = STDS! |
| from geeked-out : |
| Yeah William Shatner can totally pimp me to Alan Rickman. He can even hit me a couple times too, I don't mind. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Why would Shatner be a better pimp? I don't know if I'd want him pimping me as much as I'd want him being my John. I mean he is a pretty sexy 73 year old. |
| from geeked-out : |
| You don't like being stalked? I'd say having some crazy mofo after you is the highest form of compliment. And if they try and kill you it's even better. I guess putting out would be a little easier than killing someone but what if they are nasty? I might throw up on them and then lose my money. If Ice Tea will be my pimp its a whole different story though. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hey. i kind of like the idea of my unconscious becoming your muse. i can't decide whether it's flattering, exciting, spooky, or what. i'm the last person who would want to put any conditions or restrictions on creative play, but i am assuming that in dreams that involve real people (well, i've already disguised them somewhat anyway by not using names) you would probably be inclined to make them less rather than more recognizable. i'd also be curious to read them, of course. this definitely sounds interesting. my husband doesn't let me read his dreams when he writes them down, though that isn't often, because he saves them for story ideas and doesn't like anyone to read his story ideas before they're finished. so i would love (i think) to see my dreams turned into stories. keep me posted. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| i always forget something when i write these. i also meant to add that i sometimes have a tendency to connect sexual arousal with emotional intimacy. this has been excellent fodder for psychoanalysis (and yes, i have sexual fantasies about my female analyst). i've got to wash dishes (fun), but if i finish washing dishes before my husband gets home (he's getting out early due to the BLIZZARD - snow is nothing!) i'll be updating my diary. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| yay, i can finally read my notes again! there was something in one of yours that seemed vague. oh yes, what wouldn't you be adverse to? am i allowed to know what/where your "sex journal" is? do i even want to know? |
| from notalptrixie : |
| blow for cookies? what the heck does that mean. Keep me updated on my guestbook entries, please :) |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hey, well, at least this is one way to stay in more regular contact :) i should really just pick up the phone, of course. i'd love to see birthday pictures, whether as e-mail attachments, digital photos on snapfish, or actual physical photos in the mail or on a cd, whatever is best for you. gotta love our digital world. i'd also love to get back in touch with 23, tell her that would be wonderful. does she read my dreams? does she know 23 is my favorite number? i think i left a comment about that on one of your sweetie's entries, actually. i also noticed one of your recent entries about reading diaries, and couldn't help but notice a probable allusion to one of my dreams. i assume that's the futuristic laundromat one. did you read the one where i grind naked on my sister-in-law? dreams are fun. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| happy birthday to monkey! i remember when i'd send him cards care of you, but i feel silly doing that now, as he should get his own card but i don't have his address and hell he probably doesn't know who i am anyway (or only vaguely, he briefly met me when he was about two i think) and i don't have enough money to actually buy him a nice present he would really like a lot. but tell him happy birthday for me anyway :) i wish i could remember more about being 9. i think it was fun, but then my family moved and i got depressed. luckily childhood never completely ends. who wants to grow up anyway? i owe you a letter, and a visit, and whatever else it is two people who have known each other for almost eleven years and know dark secrets owe each other. |
| from the29th : |
| if you want the vocalized version of the lovage cd, let me know. i should be able to put it up today if you'd like. |
| from the29th : |
| If i ever get a functioning, internet-capable computer again i'll be happy to rip the vocal version for you. i like both versions and just pick depending on mood. in a separate but related question, did you know that UNKLE had a new album out last year and that they also did most of the music for the soundtrack to "Sexy Beast"? i just picked up the soundtrack and am awaiting delivery of the second album. Though i know neither will be the same since DJ Shadow is absent, i still have high hopes since the debut was/is one of my top 5 favorite albums. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| that's intentional. you're forced to enter a date, so 11/22/33 is my default for dreams that weren't recorded with dates. hey, i owe you a letter or e-mail or something. i hate when i let myself lose touch with long-distance friends :( come visit brooklyn sometime. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Yeah my mom wasn't impressed it at all. She told me I was stupid and if I wanted to scar myself up she'd leave me to it. My plan failed miserably. Maybe it was just a pre mid life crisis. then you can live to 50 or 55 even. |
| from geeked-out : |
| Yeah cutting oneself is not so good. Luckily I was a loser and did it to scare my mother so I only have a few small scars. I think my friend who says the boys I like are ugly just has bad taste. Though he is right about the gay thing. I think it's the well dressed. I dig that. William Shatner is wonderful. |
| from sleepingin : |
| -22 celcius |
| from sleepingin : |
| i should send you my xmas one i did, i do owe you |
| from candyslut : |
| you are very right about the lying, but i am trying to stop it, stop it all. but every once in awhile, i'll find myself with a lie dripping out of my mouth and there is nothing i can do to sotp it from slipping through my lips. but, i notice when i am lying now, so it is a little better. |
| from letaboo : |
| i did get the cd's! about a week ago. i've been meaning to email you and thank you, things are just really crazy right now. i would be interested to know the titles of the songs, and why you chose them when you have a chance. |
| from sleepingin : |
| since i am in note writing mood, you get a note. i miss notes. sing me to sleep |
| from prevalent : |
| you need to get call display |
| from cherrygirl : |
| DEAR STARZERO: May I commend you on your brilliant choice of a username? You truly are a Zero... did you not notice that I indicated in the diary page in questions that I was going to **buy** the Coltrane CD in question, and not just download it? Don't hit me with your bullshit lectures about artistic/financial responsibility. If you would have delved into my journal further, you would have seen that I too, like you, am a jazz artist. However, that's where the similarity ends, because I do not whine and moan about how soul-killing holding down a regular job to pay the bills might be (and in fact, it isn't)... I have my art when I am away from the office, and that is what makes me happy. Why do you feel working at an office is more soul-killing than death might be??? God, the drama,,... because you have to be at the office at a certain time, and can't waste half the day away being "inspired" by some paint splotch on the wall or by a beautiful sunset??... So-called artists like yourself need to wake up and meet reality halfway, because it is never going to end. Downloading/file sharing is one of the best things to happen to any music genre, especially jazz, whether it inspires anyone to buy the CD or not, because it spreads artistic awareness and appreciation of the form. If you weren't so busy wanting to smash the alarm clock that gets you to work on time in the mornings, you might have sufficent energy and awareness left over to consider these things.. Peace. In parting, I would like to remind you to laugh at your problems. I'm willing to bet that everybody else in your circle DOES. Don't use my "notes" page as a place to display your "artistic credibility" because you obviously have very little. :hugs: |
| from prevalent : |
| you know i would be at your party. but unfortunately i am going out tonight and its too far away for one night :) |
| from notalptrixie : |
| I thought it was just my guestbook...guess it's everyone's. blasphemy. |
| from teclo : |
| i am tired and full and have more money and am happy and covered in sweat. and i get to look forward to it tomorrow all over again. oh yes, and i don't want to do any work. |
| from prevalent : |
| you need to say, i don;t want to talk on the phone right now. and hang up. but first practice it in front of your mirror :) |
| from prevalent : |
| yes it is all your fault |
| from prevalent : |
| yay for lost money found in pant pockets, you should check all your coats now too :) |
| from prevalent : |
| i think someone was designing you a template. they beat me too it. darn that drinking and having fun last night. boohooo |
| from prevalent : |
| i hate jackhammers, i feel like i have been hit by a truck.. tired. poor tummy |
| from prevalent : |
| the stone roses- the stones roses. I think. their first album. the jesus and mary chain. album with i wanna die... |
| from prevalent : |
| haha, i just want it too look good, the layout. but i am having difficulties with remember the years i worked places |
| from prevalent : |
| you could help me with my resume! |
| from prevalent : |
| i wish you took the day off like i did then i could talk to you. just saw the for sex link hahaha |
| from pornoviolent : |
| what is with the gayness? could someone explain that to me plz?? OMGWTFBOMBS |
| from pornoviolent : |
| STARZERO SAYS: "so is 'gay' a good thing or a bad thing in your bigoted world?" well, sir, to answer your question, i'd have to tell you a little story. see, i was in europe a couple of years ago, followed around by dudes with digicams. it was something like a documentary. i was just supposed to act as if nobody else was around, which is fine by me, cameras don't bother me at all. so basically, the finished product was basically a porno. there are a lot of smokin' fine women in europe but they're all taller than the guys around, self included, and i'm 6'3". so you have these women with legs that go forever, which was great because i love legs. anyway, they have these private sex clubs in europe where they have all this wild shit going on right on the dance floor, and there are models writhing around in a sea of fantastic bodies and everybody's getting fucked one way or another, nobody's discriminating they're just looking for tongues and mouths and hands and certain other body parts i'm sure you can imagine. it just happens as natuarl as anything else. because everybody's boozed up and drugged up and out of their goddamn minds and you can't see straight and these fucking lights keep shining in your eyes, and all of a sudden there's some sexy as hell spanish girl all up on you, and wait, here comes some kid with a mouth and you're sure he has a y-chromosone in his genetic makeup or something, and stuff happens but you're not really caring because this spanish beauty with raven hair and coffee-colored skin and the darkest, most captivating eyes is whispering in your ear and she's so fucking wet and your whole goal is to sink into soft, warm, encompassing, wetness somehow, someway, and there are all of these available outlets and everything else fades fades fades. so the moral of the story is: never pass up an invitation to a european orgy, especially when some gorgeous runway model friends invite you. i remain objective about the whole homosexual community. whatever floats your boat, right? thank you! |
| from pornoviolent : |
| NOW, YOU FOUND THE MOST IMPORTANT MAGIC IN THE WORLD. IT IS LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP! |
| from pornoviolent : |
| mindboggling! |
| from prevalent : |
| i dont think they would let it come across the border. you will have to mail order me one haha. i guess you are at work? |
| from prevalent : |
| i want one. me me me. but i don't fit the requirements :( |
| from prevalent : |
| it's the not knowing that is going to drive my crazy in the next few days, hopefully the power wont be off for long |
| from prevalent : |
| pere ubu? |
| from prevalent : |
| we updated at the same time. and your previous update was a lucky time. did you make a wish? |
| from prevalent : |
| i wish i had all my archives for you, then i could return the favor. c'est la vie! |
| from prevalent : |
| i've got one!!! What past entry do you think describes or encompasses how you view who you are? GO! |
| from prevalent : |
| how can i think of questions when you are going to delete all the answers? |
| from prevalent : |
| well, since i have not much of a life this summer i have been online lots :) i update my livejournal more, and it is more emotional then the diary. so reader beware!! it is linked in my diary. how about i promise to leave you notes at random intervals!! |
| from prevalent : |
| i dunno. something about rings and tactileness. i just was drawn in. i can go away if you if you like? |
| from damonjones : |
| I didn't think I would like it given that it was for a school assignment. Lucky we had a choice and I picked a good book. Enough time has passed that I barely remember that much about the book but certainly it made a big impression on me at the time. I should reread it. Thanks. |
| from damonjones : |
| That is a cool story. If that had happened to me I would tell anyone who would listen. Have you tried used bookstores? |
| from damonjones : |
| I wish I could help you but it was loaned from the library for a school report a while ago. Sorry. |
| from cdghost : |
| enjoyed your words.. poste scripte..great taste in music..the cdghost |
| from onewetleg : |
| eek! i just read your note to wench77 about the movie happiness. i was working in a video store and when it came out in the comedy section i rallied to have it put in 'midnight movies.' i won. i could just see some poor depressed person thinking, 'hey! a movie called happiness! there couldn't be anything sad or ironic or child-molesting in that, could there?' then two hours later, BOOM! i think i did the right thing. love, |
| from alwaysange : |
| Thanks for filling out my love survey. I have to say I think you're the first person to really nail the Meatlaof question. |
| from lightfallsup : |
| he doesn't say no one can. he just says it's rare is all. |
| from smokeshack : |
| the reason i clarify who wrote hallelujah is that some people don't know that jeff buckley didn't write it and some people don't know who jeff buckley is. some people never heard jeff buckley sing hallelujah, but may know that leonard cohen wrote it. i was trying to appeal to the people who are too young to know leonard and maybe too old to know jeff. |
| from wench77 : |
| I THINK i've seen storytelling. I've seen Happiness like three times. Love it. Makes me feel so normal. Not normal like fitting in, but normal like not totally over the edge fucked up. hehe. Oleander ... I dunno, here it blooms in summer, but I don't know if that is cuz it is inside trying not to die under the stingy flourescent lights all winter. It is blooming right now. Took that photo last week. To use it on your highly selling album, you could send me copies of the cds in exchange. If you ever went big time and signed a deal, I'd like a couple hundred bucks, but not as it stands now. yeah. But I could send you a way better scan, or a copy of the photo. That is only 72dpi jpeg4. |
| from eloquent- : |
| perhaps eloquent is not for you if you do not like cliques |
| from wench77 : |
| I THINK i've seen storytelling. I've seen Happiness like three times. Love it. Makes me feel so normal. Not normal like fitting in, but normal like not totally over the edge fucked up. hehe. Oleander ... I dunno, here it blooms in summer, but I don't know if that is cuz it is inside trying not to die under the stingy flourescent lights all winter. It is blooming right now. Took that photo last week. To use it on your highly selling album, you could send me copies of the cds in exchange. If you ever went big time and signed a deal, I'd like a couple hundred bucks, but not as it stands now. yeah. But I could send you a way better scan, or a copy of the photo. That is only 72dpi jpeg4. |
| from wench77 : |
| Well, here's a quote from the interview: "The real challenge was to find safe ways of having a chainsaw in your hand while you walk around"... well,I'm glad you like the photo... it's my oleander in my backyard. Now do I have to sue you for stock photo payment? LOL! Anyways, there will certainly be a review of the show after I've seen it... |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| i just can't anymore. |
| from im2evil4u : |
| Hey, you don't like me anymore? : ( |
| from pantypulldwn : |
| thanks for the note! |
| from elliorange : |
| Babe. I'm not someone to agrue with. I don't know many things about politics. I will never claim to either. He was a human being who died. I watched his state funeral. I shed tears for the family. I'm just a passionate person about life. Nothing to do with politics. |
| from elliorange : |
| Mmm... I know, hun. Gas prices are out of this world. People won't be eating - just putting gas in their car. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| whew, has it really been 24 days since i last wrote an entry? i'd better do something about those airwaves. i'm also going to try and catch up on e-mail this weekend. anyhow, just thought i'd leave a note to be friendly, and also since i noticed you included a couple of dreams in your diaryland. i don't know much about your relationship with your mom, but while i don't want to advocate a sterotypical freudian interpretation, i wouldn't be surprised if the references to a (looking like her house) and the presence of your mom in the dream do have something to do with qualities you wish the n had. or something like that. courtesy your semi-professional dream analyst. and although i'm not an atheist, i also don't believe in an afterlife, and am in total agreement with your idea of living for the people you love and to try and njoy life whenever possible. i also have a tendency, which comes in handy as a psychologist-to-be but can be rather distracting otherwise, to imagine what it's like to be other people. this made watching _s21: the kmer rouge killing machine_ rather intense. highly recommended documentary, by the way. bears watching for its contemporary relevance, too. be seeing you. |
| from leonmcphelps : |
| Ralph Nader is THE MAN. |
| from jcesar : |
| one minute |
| from elliorange : |
| word* Blah. Spelling is not my forte. ;) |
| from elliorange : |
| I just love how you words things. |
| from snailpetal : |
| Hey there: I'm visiting Chicago in a month's time - what do you recommend I visit? Also, where's good to shop and eat? |
| from elliorange : |
| So far, I like your words and what you have to say. I think that's why people read each other. :) |
| from elliorange : |
| I like reading you. :) |
| from wench77 : |
| A quote for you from squirrelX's: "We write to show what life looks like through our own little broken piece of beer bottle." __Robert Traver |
| from wench77 : |
| Hey there. Hell, you're 4 days from me.. I'm Aug 7. But I will be 41 can you believe it. That is older than 40 so it is not even a turning point. Just older. Hell, you are a young little pipsqueak. Ya got years and years to actually accumulate some life experience. Do some amazing poetry when you're 60 for god's sake! Just call it practicing now. Like some one practicing the piano... it sounds pointless and like shit until years later they can play a symphony. And yeah, symphonies are played by a bunch of nameless musicians we never know about, but they wouldn't exist without all those little ant-like people who practiced violin all their lives. Anyways, I dunno why I wrote that. I feel the way you do, about how you are in the 23rd or 28th or whatever row it was and only the 1st get recognized and even then for a generation if they are lucky. I feel like there are too many books out there. Too many drawings and thoughts and shit, why should I make more. I have talent but so does everyone cluttering up Amazon.com. Blah blah. Oh well. I have to remember that it is not so important to be the #1, though like you I'd like to be a #1. Brilliant enough to make a contribution. haha. Like dropping pebbles into a sea is my contribution... a tiny little splash seen locally, maybe a ripple or two if there aren't any bigger waves at the moment, and then invisibly settling to the bottom of the sea to be covered with years and millenia of dross. Oh, what a cheery note. Perhaps we read your stuff cuz we can relate. And for that you don't have to be a good writer, brilliant or great. Just human and expressing it on a regular basis. Which is more than most people I have contact with do. tah! |
| from wench77 : |
| Hmm, uhaul to California. Been there, done that. Dress warm if it is in May! You'd move so you wouldnt be too far from Monkey? that' s great. He sounds like a great kid. And if he laughs when you tease him, that's cool. Usually if someone gets me to laugh instead of cry it is a good thing. How old is he again? |
| from wench77 : |
| I like this line: "growing new faces to keep the old ones from lying" |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| I know that they always tell you that you should watch what you write in your work emails because they're never deleted, but I've kindly been informed that it would be really difficult to get my emails back so they're not bothering. Trying to look at it in a postive light though -- I've been liberated, really. Really! Sort of. Cheers |
| from smoke-falls : |
| Rebick was writing about Canada. And for the record, Bush is not a neocon (http://www.csmonitor.com/specials/neocon/index.html). I've looked at Nietchze...I dunno...not my style. |
| from bornearly : |
| I think it's more about keeping an awareness of where the boundaries are between fantasy and reality. And that seems to be a respect issue - realizing that there's another real person involved, and maybe going in a step at a time to see if it's okay to proceed. Nothing wrong with that as far as I'm concerned -- but donning the wetsuit and plunging in is the presumptuous part. |
| from wench77 : |
| Oh my god that looks LONG in the notes. hehe. Well, you DID ask as if it was a poll or whatever. Anyways, other topic. I totally agree with you about the promise thing. If you make promises that you cannot keep, then you are making your word worth less. If you are really naive and say "I'll love you FOREVER" cuz in that moment it feels true, well, when it changes in a year, and you change your mind, then it undermines the relationship even more, AND the other's trust. I once read a book that said something like "anything worth promising cannot be promised"... as you said, little things like life interfere even if you wish to carry them out. Like "I will always be there for you"... not so great when your loved one is trapped alone in a burning car on the highway while you are unaware of it at work three years down the line. Or if their big day on stage happens when you have to be at a job training in another city for your dream job. And hehe, maybe you ARE proud of being more of a nihilist in college. I think quite a lot of people are proud of those sorts of "negative" things, like anticonformism, antisocial, tortured soul etc. That's it. tah! |
| from wench77 : |
| Ah, two completely different topics. The second first, the first in another note. Artistic differences. Well, I find it amazing that bands work at all. I cannot imagine how hard it would be to have to find four different other people who have the same idea of how a painting I am working on should go, so it ends up being a work of art, and not a hodgepodge that five different people have added their little bits to. So I think that having coinciding artistic goals is probably the MOST important thing for band members. If not, if one of them says to the other, "that's crap!" to a new melody, or drum beat, or wants mixing or not, then why would they want to then learn to play, help to develop, and have to perform professionally over and over the same song that they consider to be "crap"? I wouldn't. I'd say, well, I think we want to do different kinds of music, so we should part ways. As for pleasing your fan base. I think that is the surest way for artists to hate what they're doing, and for the music to have 1) no originality since the artist is basically trying to repeat what was successful to start with, ie doing imitations of themselves at a younger age 2) no life to it, since music should come out of their feelings and interests and inspirations at the moment it is composed and played, so if they are NOT working out their feelings of the moment, but actually working on some recipe of outside expectations, it is likely to be disconnected from their lives and 3) be a way for the artists to actually come to hate making music, since they are basically being asked to be frozen in time, and not evolve. It would be like asking a twelve-year old to draw like a five-year old when you thought his dogs were so adorably naive. Or asking a writer to not mature, but rewrite his first novel. It breeds contempt for the artform, which becomes just a stylistic exercise in producing a product to appeal to the buyer. That's what I think. So if people want old Radiohead, they should buy the old records. And Radiohead should do whatever they are inspired to do now, and if the old fans don't follow them, perhaps they will get a new fanbase. I dunno. But you cannot stop people evolving or it is just cliched and sad and there is enough of that out there already. That's my opinion as an artist. |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hi again. i owe you a real e-mail, but in the meantime... re radiohead, i think they should experiment and put out whatever kinds of albums they want, i personally like their recent ones (though my husband listens to them more, but he also listens to music more in general). re mercury, i kinda like the idea of asking if we can sue the president for endangerment or charge him with attempted murder, but unfortunately he's not the only one responsible for the ridiculous environmental regulations, and although some might argue otherwise, he was at least technically "democratically elected," as was the congress that passes these bills. so the best thing to do is try to convince people to back environmental legislation and only support candidates who also back environmental legislation, and spread the word. on a complete side note, my curiosity has been piqued by your new "comment" on my diary (washed out but feeling fine?). tell me more! |
| from wench77 : |
| hey, did you ever rescue that chocolate from the car?? Hehe. Well, I'm reading your gettinolder survey answers. Cool answers, though I admit I laughed out loud when I read that you think life isn't fun after 30. HAHAHA!! Actually I find I am less rigid the older I get, just cuz I live more different sides of things. I was a pretty rigid adolescent and I am learning to be less self-critical which means the ability to take more chances doing goofier things. I would NEVER have taken flamenco classes, or done performance on a stage when I was younger. In the past 10 years I've been self-employed instead of punching a time clock, and thus can travel, arrange my life around what my values are, all kinds of shit. So there, maybe that'll help ya. Does my diary look like I stopped having fun ten years ago?!! LOL! OOPS! I laughed again "older men are sexy" ... do you mean older as in 27 yr old yunguns like you?? hehe. I'd say you got another 40 years to be sexy at least. hehe. Anyways, I don't see why any of your answers are "crapouts"...looks good to me. Were you one of those kids who mumbled about doing badly on an exam and then got 89%?? LOL! thanks for doing the survey! tah! |
| from the29th : |
| i'm really sorry. i feel like an ass about the whole thing. |
| from wench77 : |
| eep re the cassette under the seat in the car. OMG I know how that feels. Suddenly all that emotion coming up again. So hard. (((hugs))) At least you didn't crash the car. |
| from wench77 : |
| Thanks for doing my dimmemories survey! Thanks for the cool anecdotes about the milkman and public school voting. As for Chastity... we just thought it was cool that there was a little kid on the Sonny and Cher show, since we were kids and didn't get so very excited over Cher's lounging on the piano in a sexy manner. As for the "us soldier shooting a vietnamese"... do you mean this photo? http://www.detnews.com/2000/nation/0005/01/a05-46895.htm No, you said, "on his knees"... I am trying to find that photo. Drat. Haha! What do you mean comic books were never twentyfive cents? I remember when they went up to 35 cents... a pain in the ass since I needed a quarter AND a dime. hehe. I collected Betty & Veronica and Archie &Me. Haha re Who are the Bay City Rollers! And you call yourself a music man... you should at least know who they are so you can cringe, yes CRINGE!! They came and played live at the Exhibition in Regina in 1976 I think, or '75. I am amused that you say party lines sound kind of dumb. They were probably the only types of phones for ages, before they could put multiple wires into one wire.On the farm some places still have party lines. The phone rings specially and it is for you. Anytime someone is on the line, anyone in any other house can hear them if they pick up the phone. A great boon for eavesdroppers. And haha re the big mac thing... you have 100% purity on something else now! Anyways, yeah the boxes are too small, like this one. And I think I'll write an entry on this survey and put links. I mean really... "who is the Bay City Rollers" ROFL!! GRIN! tah! |
| from the29th : |
| the decemberists? i'm so fucking jealous i could just die. i got to the dc area too late last tuesday to see them. i keep *just* missing them at the black cat. same thing happened last october. |
| from wench77 : |
| I think I should just keep asking you questions cuz then you leave me such interesting little tales in my notes! btw I put a new survey up... you can see in my latest entry. Like I don't have better things to do hah! |
| from wench77 : |
| Hmm, I can see that "angela, THE reason for Canada" thing. That's just sort of cute and funny. But why put that as MY profile comment? I shouldn't be in Canada? I AM a reason for Canada? very curious. (btw Canada is there to keep you guys from sliding into the vaste icy waters of the North Pole eh) |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| i wish i could just pour words here, but i'm no writer. i have to plan. so, i'll give you a heart instead: <3. |
| from teclo : |
| the photo is a photo i took of our kitchen in the late afternoon of a sunny day. we now have four plants on that window, and a hole in the celing above the sink. and the dishwashing soap is now green. and the sink is steel. |
| from wench77 : |
| I agree with you. I should start enforcing a bedtime too unless I have a contract deadline. I end up staying up too late, then there is no time in the day to go to the gym, and then I feel tired and don't exercise blah blah. I feel all creaky and like I need to do regular stretching so my joints will actually move. I've gone to the gym ONCE since Christmas. my gosh. tah! zzzz |
| from wench77 : |
| haha, I like your latin phrase better than mine! Can I be you?? |
| from the29th : |
| I really liked the ravine thing, reference to me aside. |
| from the29th : |
| darn, wish i hadn't read your newest entry because i haven't watched the newest episode of the l word. guess i know what happens now. {the show is not quite what i expected but i still like most of the characters. plus i like jennifer beals and whoever that chick is from the crow 2 though her character there makes me want to punch her. QAF is better, though. Er... was better before last season anyway.} |
| from wench77 : |
| I say, romantic evening or no romantic evening, GO RESCUE THAT EXPENSIVE CHOCOLATE BAR!! Chocolate will help everything, I tell ya. Same stuff in it as falling in love. Good stuff. How do you think I get through the day?? Expensive chocolate!! Go get that chocolate bar! Or I'll sic Chaosdaily on you too... it is a sin to leave the chocolate out there! I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight fretting about it!! |
| from dreamsongs : |
| ah yea, i'm back. and yes, i guess i have gotten pathetically "busy," i sent you an e-mail february 27th, did you get that? regrettably when i get busy, one of the first things i tend to cut back on is diaryland. whenever i see the local "dairyland" trucks, i always get confused and think of diaryland. ahem. but i just got caught up on your entries, and assure you that despite my irregularity, i plan to be here to stay. it's a good thing i'm married, or more to the point actually living with my husband, or i'd have trouble finding time for him too. it's insane, yet i also made the time to sign the rod paige petition. remind me to get back to you on the female president discussion. feel the love. |
| from wench77 : |
| Hiya! I don't think it's you... I think it's the weather. I came to Diaryland in Sept and saw my hits climb daily. At one point always like 60 hosts per day, over 100 pageviews. And lately it has been like 30 if that. Yup. Springtime! You know what I would love? If you would single out just one or two bands in an entry and speak of them... what kind of music they are, maybe a link or two, why you like them, why they are special. I see this list of albums, songs, artists you listen to and to me who knows nothing it is like a list of foreign words that I don't even get a flavour from let alone a story. Cuz I am just so clueless. I always just think... wow, other people must read those songs/ artists and have soundtracks running through their heads... I am so out of it. Thanks!! And yeah, I know it means 100% het, ie gay purity 100%. hehe. Does that mean you don't even play with your own dick? (wink nudge) |
| from wench77 : |
| please help? I'm not gonna give any advice hehe. But I think you don't need any advice. You totally sound like you are very aware, both self-aware, and aware of where the n is at, and how she needs to help herself and that there's not alot you can do, and you're being pushed away by her and you are not so interested. You know you're more interested in laundry than in sex with the n. That's ok, except that you are trying to have sex with the n. That must be very hard on both of your egos. Myself I feel like you still. I am more interested in the laundry than in having sex. You may have noticed I write glowingly of washing the dog or the laundry or vacuuming the floor. Those things now give me a sort of hedonistic pleasure. But I'm really not so interested in sex now, and haven't gone forward with any of the people who would obviously have offered it to me. yup. So i can relate. But it's ok in my life cuz i'm just with my pillow and cats so I don't feel any performance pressure. Hugs cuz it sounds real hard. But like I said, you got a whole grip on what's up. |
| from wench77 : |
| "I have to make time, what can I cut from my life"... I feel that way and I'm not even dating someone casually... I have no idea how I'd have a personal life and a family life cuz already I feel that way. Hugs. ps, I sent the Rod Paige petition to a couple American friends. |
| from wench77 : |
| hiya! I recommend you going to read tosborne's entry about the movie "The Dreamers"... he talks about HIS adolescence/ college period. I think you'll find it personally and philosophically interesting... http://tosborne.diaryland.com/040307_92.html |
| from wench77 : |
| hey, about the pseudonyms, "use the first letter" thing... hehe, I have about 6 "n" people and six "m" people. And Mlatex freaked though It was supposed to mean Monsieur Latex, cuz his real name starts with an M... egads. hehe. so yeah, Librarygirl... |
| from wench77 : |
| yo... I put your "partial philosophy *O" entry in my favorites... tah! |
| from the29th : |
| You're welcome. I look forward to receiving it and hearing future months. I hope the venture works out for you. |
| from no-oxygen : |
| thanks for stopping by!! i appreciate the note, i never get any =) |
| from wench77 : |
| ps, here in Quebec they changed the rating for the Passion from pg13 to 16... not 8 years old. |
| from wench77 : |
| here all the reviews for the Passion thingie are dismal. No depth. Horrid violence leading to you seeing no humanity in christ, just beaten flesh. Pornographic in its graphic detail. An assault on the senses. No context about the forgiveness, love etc, as you note. Thanks for what you said about the forgiveness and sin. Exactly. He died for the sins of the terrorists, like the sins of Bush, and you and me. If you accept Christianity that is. As for making $ back... I don't even think about it for my comics... I put the $ in, if it makes me feel good, and then if I don't lose it ALL I am happy. hah! Not a very good business plan. But then my comics are my hobby sort of, not my paying job. tah! |
| from wench77 : |
| hey, thanks for the link to the fines for "obscenity"... I cannot believe you can talk about stoning women in Nigeria, and embezzling, suicide bombings and murder but not excretory functions. Any newborn is familiar with excretory functions and how good it feels to touch naughty bits, but I don't see why a five year old should hear that someplaces they kill people by throwing rocks. The world is totally twisted |
| from dreamsongs : |
| hi there, i see you found me! i didn't know i even had a "next" button. eh. do you know how to go about fixing these things? i'll send you a non-diaryland e-mail soon, hopefully this weekend. gonna go read your most recent entries now. . . be seeing you. |
| from wench77 : |
| re "god of love"... you make me chuckle... you write that this is no place for meaty entries then give us the second meaty entry in as many days. hehe. So yeah, go ahead, keep on being shallow and jaded... we like you that way! :) BTW totally agree with you on the vengeful god thing... what is up with that? Today I read three or four review of M. Gibson's movie, and they said "don't take the kids, pornographically violent, lacking in depth and humanity, would make Hannibal shiver". What has that got to do with a Jesus that died so we shall be forgiven our sins? A jesus who preached love, who was a hippy outcast who made friends of mere fishermen and prostitutes? I really don't get it. It is just more love of gore and violence. Sadistic voyeurism for a society without feelings. Where is the hope and the striving to help your fellow man, no matter what his creed? What about the Good Samaritan?? (in those times a Samaritan was the equivalent of say, A Palestinian in Israel now. Sigh. |
| from the29th : |
| funny that you've listed so much of the beatles today, because i've been craving them all day and my albums are at home. all i could swing was my mp3s or Eleanor Rigby and For No One that reside on my work computer to get me by at times like these. And my own copy of the red cd with Something. |
| from wench77 : |
| I want more meaty entries like this one: "mr. president and a response to charges", which I thoroughly enjoyed. Thankyou. |
| from bornearly : |
| Yes, your twangers are over the edge. You forgot "bidness" instead of "bizness." Fortunately Will doesn't sound like a hick at all (how could I stand him if he weren't articulate?); he just does the messeege, luggeege, rummeege thing. |
| from wench77 : |
| Hmm, thanks for the Cronenberg musings! I havent seen rabid or shivers but most of the others I have seen more than once. The gun scene in Videodrone is quite good I think. hmm. Very disturbing when you wake up on the couch and have lost something! :) |
| from the29th : |
| i scare you? |
| from tool-nin-fan : |
| Why don't you try a tagboard? It's similar to a chat. |
| from wench77 : |
| hehe, when it is that cold it is not cold wet stuff, it is cold dry stuff!! Easier to play in the snow when it is not slushy, but gotta be wrapped up against the wind! :) Here it is drattedly cold as well. |
| from wench77 : |
| hiya. I like your long chatty entries. Hmm I agree boys kissing is not the same. It makes me smile, boys kissing. Instead of smacking eachother or making war. I like boys (men) holding hands too. It seems like a different type of society. Hugs. |
| from the29th : |
| I didn't get your email. There was a lot of confusion so even without having seen the email let me say that I'm talking about an actual cd I'd mail out, not a file or link to email. Let me know if you're still interested. |
| from wench77 : |
| hey, thanks for the allmusic.com link... it is very cool! :) And I await your wise words on the sinead album! thanks! |
| from wench77 : |
| YES YES!! A song about internet porn! :) |
| from dearcynthia : |
| now, why is that so odd? i usually link favorite entries that leave me with something significant to ponder about. something to go back to for the future. obviously, your gasping for air entry is what drew me to you in the first place and really hit home and all that.. but you were describing something that i already know. even though you put it much better than i ever could. these entries that i choose hit me as something to learn and want to remember. or something like that.. :p |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| i know who carter usm are! |
| from wench77 : |
| hehe. You don't want to be in a relationship with n. You just want it to break up the way you want, which is HER pulling back and you graciously remaining friends. Express how you feel? You have been saying it is over between you two ever since I came onto Diaryland in Sept. If you express how you feel she will leave. (ie this is EXACTLY what happened just now) I would. You would. So again, you will not express how you feel. You will try to make it end according to your plan. If I were your schoolteacher I would smack your fingers, tell you to break up, deal with it, and then get over your cowardice and go for the girl in the restaurant. Haven't you learned yet that everyone is afraid of the beautiful girl, and assumes she is taken, and they are not good enough, and so the beautiful girl is beautiful and mostly alone? She MIGHT be taken, but you never know. (boy am i brutal! LOL!) |
| from wench77 : |
| hehe, I think all of my favorites pretty much hate gwb. It is just a pity that speaking slowly with spacing gives a sense of gravity thoughtfulness, rather than just showing someone who couldnt string simple words together faster than a tortoise. sigh. |
| from ohmyjetsabel : |
| oh darling, that's just not true. i've been reading your diary again & again since you left that note. you have an incredible way with words. i think we're all envious of each other. i know there are a lot of diaries that i read and think "i wish i could write like this person", but we all have different ways of expressing ourselves & each one is unique and beautiful. including yours. i loved the ending to that entry you wrote ("burned at the stake. tied to a sinking stone. the titanic in flames."). everyone suffers from low self confidence when it comes to writing, i'm sure. as long as you step outside of that and just see it as a kind of free expression then you'll find it just comes. anyways, i love your diary, and you are added. xoxo |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| Your guestbook won't let me sign again, so here's the code. You can delete the note if ya want, just wanted to make sure I remembered to give ya the code. Q. How do I stop my diary from showing up in search engines? A. To stop your page from showing up in the search engines add the code inside your HTML tags that say < HEAD > </HEAD >: <META NAME="ROBOTS" CONTENT="NOINDEX, NOFOLLOW"> into your entry template here. Also add it to your older template here. It will probably take about a couple of weeks or so before your diary stops showing in the search engines because you will have to wait until the next time the search engines crawl your site for them to pick up the removal code. |
| from wench77 : |
| oh my. yes, yet another of those kind of breakups. Dern. It is funny, cuz I always say that I leave most of my relationships, but in reality it was the other person who "left" while we were both still there, and eventually I wanted physically out. good luck! |
| from bornearly : |
| Star, thanks for the nice note and for taking the time to read. I'll continue to check in with your diary, too. Words are not all you have; they're just part of the execution of your ideas, which are lightning fast and just as brilliant. |
| from girlsdontcry : |
| That just made me think of "is she weird, is she white, is she promised to the night". I like it when you say things, especially slightly cryptic things, in my notes. So thanks. |
| from wench77 : |
| haha! stuck in the 90's huh? I am stuck in the 80's with much regressing to the 50's and 60's "do you believe in magic" la la la. Hope things are going ok with the n. yup. |
| from perceptionss : |
| Thank you very much.. It just came in the mail and I was very happy. Now I can learn to dance ;) Honestly, thank you. |
| from wench77 : |
| ack! guestbook wouldnt post, so here is: hey, great entry. you totally make sense to me. I can relate yes very much. keep to it, bein yourself. tho my therapist says it can be a lonely thing it is a very good thing. yup. there are girls out there like that too. ;) Happy 2004!! |
| from wench77 : |
| hugs and merry christmas! :) chocolate mints chocolate mints! mmm christmas! :) other people? it is about my tastebuds. :) |
| from wench77 : |
| egads! you sound like me! big ego, "hey, I'm good shit" and then beating myself up "stupidfucker stupidfucker no wonder your life is a mess!" hell yeah. ;) |
| from wench77 : |
| hi! why do i read you? well, i admit I skip through the entries that have two lines and a list of songs, cuz i dont even know those songs, or most of them, so I don't get the flow of mood I would get if I knew them. I started reading you through sleepyzoe i guess. And now I am just interested in your little insights and musings on relationships gone wrong, same as the rest of us. As for real life. I dunno. I think more people read my diary than listen to me in real life. Maybe cuz they have a choice about when to do it, when to stop and when to start? I have this experience with my comics. I can tell the same story in person and people say stupid things, dont listen, dont find them funny, whatever. And they love it when it is in comics form, and reccommend it to their friends. Maybe it's my tone of voice, maybe cuz I am interfering in their real time, maybe cuz i am too intense in person. Maybe cuz i am more succinct in comics. I dunno, but it doesn't carry over into real life. And my real life friends aren't interested enough to read my diary. |
| from wench77 : |
| hiya. may I say I can totally relate to your feelings about abby? That it wont happen, it wont work but it is the actual connection which was great that we are missing. yes. hmmm. agh. |
| from wench77 : |
| hehe you don't need to kill your television!! Just leave it unplugged in another room. I tell ya!! You're the master! Just don't let it forget! Nice to read someone who understands that 51% democracy thingie is just another name for mob rule. yeah. "Majority rules" is not the same as "justice for all", which a great variety of people seem to forget very often. Hey, I just realized why I have so much time to spend on diaryland!! I dont watch tv!! :) |
| from wench77 : |
| I liked Monster's Ball too... there WAS something that kept it from being a great movie, but it couldve been a horrid exploitive movie. IT walked the line of making a difficult subject engaging, touching horror and twistedness while not being totally voyeuristic i guess. I will skip the monkey one you mention. And I DID see the trailer for Kill Bill in the theater, and even before I knew it was Kill Bill, i thought "urk, i will hate this movie". Maybe that is wrong. but i think you're right... looked like something a gang of intoxicated boys would love. Liked your flameflame lyrics... kind of feeds into the off again on again breakup feelings i've been feeling the past day or two. yeah. ciao! |
| from wench77 : |
| do you read SquirrelX ? She communicates with haints all the time, as she calls em. |
| from wench77 : |
| The sleep paralysis dreaming entry was interesting. At Banff School of Fine Arts I had a few very very strange sleep/ dreaming( maybe?) /spectre like experiences along with someone who is sensitive to that sort of thing... it was scary and very freaky, though fascinating. I should do a comic about it one day.... |
| from teclo : |
| i was alone in caples when this happened. it was christmas break, and i heard the shower in the mens room turn on while i was washing dishes from my dinner of peanut butter and jelly with tomato soup. i walked to dave & jason's room, but the door was locked. i walked to the boy's six person suite, and the doors were locked. so, i walked into the men's bathroom and said "hello?" and the shower went off. there were no shadows of people in the bathtub shower, or the shower stall. and i have another ghost story of kenyon as well. and i have confirmation on that one. |
| from wench77 : |
| and happy for you too, would be a good thing. One does get tired a little saying "i'm happy for you" to others. some happy for starzero, and for wench77, please!!! |
| from wench77 : |
| oh mygod! I would like DIE!! I live in a paper, dust, junk, old furniture hellhole!! eeek! Though I do have hardwood floors (or pine, which i guess is softwood)... and they do help alot. Hehe, I didnt mean you should die in dust, just agreeing you could prob let the dishes and tidying go a little... and like I said, your entry sounded like something that runs through my little brain about a gazillion times a week! |
| from wench77 : |
| Hmm, we will miss you. You can always come back! I recognize myself in your entry. yes. I mostly change my expectations of myself, more than I change myself. It helps alot for me. Makes me more understanding of myself, cuz like you say, one remains oneself,eh. You WILL do great! :) fuck the dust anyways! |
| from wench77 : |
| yeah, dying people make you think about it. yup. I didn't go to my fave grandmother's funeral either. I had been there to see her the week before though, cuz it was expected she would die (she had had a stroke). hugs. |
| from wench77 : |
| boy, am i the only one who writes you notes anymore? it is peppered , or perhaps more correctly, gratineed with my name!! |
| from wench77 : |
| no sun, rain, clothes that need wringing, tired, fucked up and getting worse. mm. damp and soggy, non??!! :) |
| from wench77 : |
| wow, that was a damp and soggy entry! please watch your fingers in the handwringer! That would definitely be "getting worse"!! oooch! |
| from wench77 : |
| Of course there are both explanations for fossil fish in the rockies, and also visible proof of such things happening, such as volcanic creations of islands where there were none, and earthquakes changing the relative position of lakes and mountains in moments, without them being put there by God as a joke at the beginning of time. mmm. I had almost forgotten about my proposed Aral Lake entry. Now there will be bones of boats and fish in the middle of the desert. All to do with 40 years of irrigation, not a God who instantly created riddles. |
| from aussois : |
| a note on your note to the wench... do some research, and you'll find that there are some crazy things in the fossile record to mess with our minds. Tropical fish fossils have been discovered on the tops of the Rockies, in the far northern circle a woolly mammoth was discovered, perfectly frozen, with perfectly preserved tropical plants in its stomach and an insect that evolutionists claim lived millioins of years later in amber between its toes, all dated the same. Just this last century and a half, the java man and pekings were proven to be false, and "lucy", the vital missing link, resembles a chimpanzee 90% more than it does a human who dragged her knuckles on the ground. Not to mention that a Neanderthal was discovered in the Phillipines in the early twentieth century, millions of years after they were all supposedly extinct, and that a several tombs of medieval warriors contained armour fitted for "Cro-magnon". The truth is out there. I applaud your thoughts and largely agree; thinking is not always the easiest thing. Life is full of illusions and paradox, both seeming and real. |
| from wench77 : |
| hugs |
| from wench77 : |
| mmm, now that was a worthwhile read. Thankyou. Very scary. And very pertinent, considering I just wrote a letter to someone saying that I found the rape of the earth (often by Christians) to be morally worse than the use of religious effigy didoes in consensual sex. Ah, but God gave Man mahoganny for his own use, non? geez. |
| from wench77 : |
| Oh, thankyou for the bill story. I understand. |
| from wench77 : |
| me again. Dont know what to think of the uranus penthouse entry, but I am very sorry about Nikki's Dad. Hugs. |
| from wench77 : |
| hehe, you can see I am still on the surveys... really I have answers from about three new people to each of them today... taking me hours to read it all! No, I didnt expect essay answers for all the "three of" questions... but I wrote as my own comment upon completing said survey that it took way longer to do than I thought, cuz i had to THINK!! Though of course later I thought of better answers for many, such as things I used to dislike that i like now... black olives, licorice flavour etc etc. hmmm. Also, who the hell is bill? I would like to know what happened to bill too! Thanks again for doing my surveys! I will go read your diary now. ciao! |
| from wench77 : |
| Looking at the weapons survey... hey thanks so much for all the thoughtful surveyfillingout! I am dying to know how you would use chapstick to hijack a plane! I am totally amused that you found it morbid and violent, and think that in some way I am representative of Canadians! LOL! Lots of the questions had to do with things that have happened to other people, or reactions people have had to me, or for instance, airlines insistance on confiscating nailclippers (when i think that bare hands of a blackbelt, or a ballpoint pen, or even a laptop would be more effective holdup weapons than a nailclippers! snip snip!... even the little file on nailclippers is REALLY short and tends to fold in if you try to press with it) I really will write a whole entry about this survey and why I wrote those questions at some point. Stay tuned!! |
| from wench77 : |
| hey, I liked the survey answer: "I do drama well. see my diary." I also liked your questions at the end comment. I may well write another survey in that vein. I love wearing my intimate other's clothes, but I once had a lover who just freaked "that's still clean enough for me to wear again!! Take it off NOW!!" urk It made me feel really really rejected. |
| from wench77 : |
| I was coming to put another note and got waylaid by the "surveys" link, and thought... oh,maybe I can find a survey I want to do (like I need to do random survey's at 4:41 am)... and found the sexdrugsrnr one. I liked your answer to "which is more sinful" and you answered "most sinful since there are more than two"... i really like that pickiness of mind! LOL and then of course you went on to enjoy the survey. Also liked your answers to the "what if you found your teenaged son..." and the "i am a rock star". I went out with a rock star once. But not for long, cuz for him the drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, rock all came before the girl (and sex) part... very disappointing. |
| from wench77 : |
| hey you! I linked to your quote in sleepyzoe's naieve entry yesterday, and she wrote me and told me your real diaryland name, so I've been reading your entries for a couple hours now (time flies)... I like your two lostorange entries... I felt that way too... stupid cunt, and then, hey, a fucked up person like us all, who just blew a gasket for a moment. mmm. And I am writing about your verbose/schizophrenic entry... yeah, you hit it right on the button every line. I am a bit obsessive about looking at my stats! LOL! and almost no one leaves notes. I once calculated that 7 people left a note out of 83 entries. whoopee. Anyhow, I like how you write and I am going to add you to my favorite diaries. ciao for now (unless I think of something else to say while I read more!) |
| from amorrequiem : |
| DIVA was for me a turning point. I saw it for the first time, when I was 19. So much of the images just struck me. It had everything... love, comedy, pain...all wrapped up in such beautiful images. The same writer/director did "Betty Blue". Have you seen that? |
| from amorrequiem : |
| I'm torn... you've risked enough to be ripped to pieces... and yet the pieces still hope enough to feel pain. I'm sorry for your pain and your willingness to risk so much makes me wonder how brave I truly am. Good Luck to you. |
| from the29th : |
| Thanks for answering. That museum sounds pretty damn bizarre. The kitten wedding in the Radiohead video is the creepiest scene in the whole video - worse than the whole screaming tree man bit. |
| from the29th : |
| Here are your questions: 1. What do you notice first about a person? 2. Strangest thing that you've ever seen? 3. Favorite drink? 4. Skill you'd most like to have? 5. Best thing you've ever won? |
| from cookie-bitch : |
| Thanks for stopping in and taking my survey : ) |
| from finalscore : |
| really! wow! that's ... impressive. i have that edition, actually. i've reread the intro all the time, i loved what he said about the letter and it just made me cry. i read that book all the time. wow, thanks for contacting me, that made my day. |
| from finalscore : |
| the one that's JUST ender's game, not the one that has two other stories in the same book. i've read all the other books too -- the continuation of ender's journey, and then ender's shadow and shadow of the hegemon and so on. absolutely the best "series" i've ever read. or just, i love the enderverse. the version, though, is the one from 1994, 324 pages, mass market paperback. why do you ask? |
| from the29th : |
| I have no idea why it took me so long to finally read you. Glad I finally did. |
| from morbid-lover : |
| Fear is okay, i guess. I'm not afraid of much anymore, though. |
| from anticrew : |
| for christmas, i was given the sleepaway camp box set. i would totally have a slumber party with you. |
| from starzero : |
| where do your nightmares go in the day-time? |
| from starzero : |
| you puffy-eyed sleep-demon. |
| from halcyondream : |
| Join the The Orb diaryring! It's orbfiends. Do it or I'll.... I'll.... well, whatever. |
| from katpowah : |
| you better be taking care of yourself... you hear? am i gonna have to come and kick some booty? |
| from katpowah : |
| who knows anything anymore. when you're hurt and living itself is maddening. but we go on, don't we. |
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