messages to life-my-way:
(click here to add new message):

from jarofporter :
men are awful. most of them make me ill. this is why i don't have any good/close male friends.
from swordfern :
"I'm always concerned about how it will be received so much more than about what I'm going to get out of doing it." You just taught me something profound about myself.
from annanotbob2 :
Glad it arrived - I was worried for a bit as they both took so long. XX
from catsoul :
5.2.2020. Hi There. Sounds like a good day. Happy Birthday to your dog. Your last line today rang a bell in me. Sometimes all we can do is just listen to others and that is what helps them. Just for them to say it out loud. I know it is sooooo hard to stop being "the fixer," in life's challenges and/or situations. There are times when one has to let another person we care about learn a life lesson personally. By the way, I would have had that cigarette. Take Care. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Wow - you did loads today! Good work that woman! xx
from catsoul :
4.20.2020. Jesus Fuckin' Christ. You need to stop with that woman. She is so not mentally healthy, in my opinion. Sometimes we to be at peace within= ourselves, have to cut the ties with negative people. Peace. =^..^=
from floodtide :
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THAT WOMAN?
from catsoul :
4.16.2020. Damn our mothers sometimes, right? Gee, reading all you got done makes me need a nap. I see you get me when I say, I finally showered and washed my hair. Self-care is always the last thing I want to have to do. Oh, you would be proud of me, I soaked and buffed my feet for over an hour yesterday, so a win-win for self-care. Take Care. Be Safe. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Wow I feel tired just reading what you're going to be doing. Good luck with all that!
from annanotbob2 :
I'm glad you're safe - you're so blase about the wild weather! Did my last card arrive or are you somewhere else? I sent it to the address you last gave me on our facebook messages. If I need to send one somewhere else send me the address. Hugs x
from annanotbob2 :
The note below reminds me that I meant to say I saw Harold and Maude accidentally in Madrid one afternoon in 1975 when I was wandering about with my Spanish boyfriend and it suddenly started to lash down with rain so we ducked into the cinema. Very hard to grasp what was going on - it's very weird and seemed weirder then but Cat Stevens soundtrack - ah - blissful. Stay safe my friend. Thinking of you. The wind has returned here, but only 20mph not 175. Big love darling xxx
from cocoabean :
Love Harold and Maude! It was one show I insisted my kids watch. Dude loved it, Kid not so much. Another movie I made them watch was Monty Python and the Holy Grail. They both loved that one!
from catsoul :
4.7.2020. Hi. Oh the challenges life gives us. I would have been so frustrated with that computer puzzle issue you dealt with and got to work. You are just so amazing. Hey, is it possible to email me your address for down there, pretty please. Keep doing. Take Care. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
I hope you feel totally better by tomorrow xxxx
from annanotbob2 :
I hope you feel totally better by tomorrow xxxx
from swordfern :
Planting thyme during a pandemic; beauty and optimism in the midst of a tragedy. Very strange times indeed.
from annanotbob2 :
I sent the painting to H Hill - is that where you are? Love xx
from annanotbob2 :
I'm glad you're looking after yourself and getting the tick sorted out. Early morning love qi gung sounds perfect - wish I lived nearby x
from catsoul :
3/8/2020. I just love losing that hour. I feel even more energized. I went for walk one at 7:45 am this morning already. I don't pay attention really to a clock, maybe that is the key to it all. Live in the moment. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Love you xxx
from annanotbob2 :
I like writing every day and I like you writing every day too xx
from annanotbob2 :
Drive safely. I just did a big drive west, now you're going east!
from cocoabean :
Most of the limes on my trees fell off. They weren't ripe, so that's a bummer. I lost at least 40 when it got down to 24 degrees.
from catsoul :
2.14.2020. Hi. Thanks for the compliment. I have always done all the snow removal so that is nothing new. Remember I am the "outdoor task girl." I prefer to be outside. Have a good day today. I am not into Valentine's Day, I feel that love is and should be given out to all and especially those you care about. Thanks for being you K. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Dogs know.
from annanotbob2 :
Thank you for your comment - it meant a lot, especially as last night I watched a TV prog called 'The Shock of the Nude' in which an academic explored all sorts of aspects of nudes in art and also posed as a life model. She's my age and shape and I could see the beauty in her in a way that surprised me as I'd not been able to see it in myself. I tweeted her to tell her that then found your kind note this morning! Take care dear K xxx
from catsoul :
2.7.2020. That's right. One is never good for oneself when tired. Rest, then try again. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
2.3.2020. Maybe I don't remember, but who the heck is Cora and how is she related to you and Bill. Yes I agree with you that she was asking, for money help, only wanted the offer to come from you, so that she wouldn't have to take ownership of her errors in her money management. So glad to read you didn't offer. Harder than heck not to do, since you are such a kind person. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
2.2.2020. Hi. Thank you for your heartfelt words. I appreciate them greatly. I don't know who would talk to me through writing as the friends I have read for years. Thank you. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Thanks for your offer of help - I left a private message on facebook. Liking the ten gratitudes too - go us xxx
from cocoabean :
I keep powerade in the fridge. When I get cramps, I hobble over to the fridge and drink one, cramps go away in a few minutes!
from cocoabean :
Happy Birthday!
from annanotbob2 :
Happy birthday, darling K. man, I so much know what you mean about annoying men - Bloke shares almost all of those infuriating habits.
from cocoabean :
Husbands can be so annoying!
from annanotbob2 :
Wimpy woman! The cheek of the bloke - good for you. x
from catsoul :
11.14.19. You are sounding mighty fine. Letting go is tough, so just let it go and be free!!!!! Words easier written I know this from when I was all done working. For myself, I started to walk each morning to help me. You know instead of having to get in the car, and go to work, I got up and dressed for the outdoors, and went. This is when I trully started feeling wonderfully joyful about me. Just sayin'. Glad you wrote this. Take Care. Peace. =^..^=
from jarofporter :
congrats on getting out! it'll get easier as time goes on...
from annanotbob2 :
xxx
from catsoul :
10.31.19. Hi. I reread your previous entry again because I remember you wrote something that your grandmother said. Well, K. I will add to what she said, you can do what you want with it. I think that when put together, they could be a mantra for you. Mine is life is as it should be...... Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
How exciting!
from linguafranca :
The one I posted on FB? It’s yours whenever you want it! I feel like I’m guilting you into buying stuff with my incessant whining here. Whatever works, I guess. 😂
from catsoul :
10.12.19. Howdy Do. Glad your life is in the "flow," for you. It is all good. Thanks for remembering Sadie. She is now with her Taffy Cat. Remember Taffy passed away Jan. 29, 2018. Anyhoo, it is snowing here, though not enough. It is is going to snow, Mother Nature should gives us enough to go play outside in it. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
9.10.19. Congratulations! So all the worrying about hiccups were for not. Lesson learned as you said, lean into it. My contribution to that would be: smooth is as smooth goes. Hahahaha, don't know where I am going with that, just so very happy you can relax. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
8.31.19. What a great way to have August come to a close for you. Congratulations for all your endurance and hard work to make it happen, not just for you, but for MJ. So relax, and just breathe. It will all be a.o.k. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Yay!!
from catsoul :
8.18.19. Morning. That sayin' "hurry up and wait," sounds exactly where you are at. So just sit back, chill, relax, and wait in Peace & Harmony. As for your last note to self: make better choices. Come on, K. you have and always will make choices that are good, especially for others. I just wish that at times, you would be kinder & a bit selfish, for YOU. Do you get where I am coming from with this. Having read about YOU and your life, I have come to the understanding and realization, you care so much about family and others. Give yoUrself a break here. Breathe. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Change is good... you will enjoy having a new life!
from catsoul :
7.18.19 Your new purpose is just a stone's throw away from you. Don't you feel it? Change of purpose is a great thing for one's soul. Also I want to thank you for your kind hearted words,your words are always uplifting to me when I read them. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
7.1.19. Hi. Are you looking for a new purpose of who you are? Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
downsizing? google "the joy of gone"
from cocoabean :
Welcome back! I don't think it's wrong of you to give John a bit of time before he moves out on his own. What's wrong with helping one of your kids??
from swordfern :
It's been a while since you last wrote. Hope things are OK. xoxo
from catsoul :
5.14.19. hi again. I clicked on floodtide and I can see that person's entry. Just so you know. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
5.13.19. Hi. Glad to see you wrote here, been wondering. I get dressed for the day after I go potty each morning, otherwise I would probably stay in my loungewear all day. So I get that. It will be o.k. Peace. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
What a sweet, unexpected, and incredibly astute note you left me. Thank you! I honestly assumed our relationship was a one way street, since you almost never leave me notes. Now that I know otherwise I'll be over with flowers and a bottle of Veuve Clicquot post haste! Lol...ok, I know you are just terribly, terribly busy. I always read your entries (when I'm sober enough) and marvel at how many things you juggle - and with a bad hip, no less. It's been sad to read that you've been so weighed down with anxiety lately, but it's certainly understandable given all the incredibly important decisions you have to make regarding retirement, etc. I do hope things lighten up for you, and soon. Have you tried eating more lasagna? That always helps me! Best of luck to you, really, and thanks again for the note. It really was lovely :)
from catsoul :
4.11.19. I wouldn't say anything about the text you got to read. Sorry that happened. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
I feel for you. Getting messages about you meant for someone else is a sucky way of finding out what people think about you.
from cocoabean :
Make sure to get all the add ons to the appliances so they can be hooked up... people in the store can advise you on that!
from cocoabean :
The red purse with a black hole?
from catsoul :
3.31.19. Holy crap Batman, that is fuckin' insane. Just glad you found your phone and you got a bonus, your keys. I am still looking for whatever it was, I can't remember now because that was 3 plus years ago. I can so relate. Peace. =^..^=
from floodtide :
Cannot thank you enough, my darling, for your love, support, encouragement, and - especially - your most recent note here in d-land, about the letter to Bob. I had no idea at all that I was actually going to START THE LETTER within that entry; "Dear Bob" just flowed out of me before I knew it was going to. And reading your affirmation - "love love love" you said, in response to something I hadn't thought much about, and certainly hadn't deemed worth anything - convinced me to send it. And I did. Facebook messenger says he read my letter at 8:04 this morning. I will be hurt and disappointed if I don't hear back. In fact I'm trying not to be disappointed that he didn't respond already, but of course that's entirely unfair. He's got a life that includes commuting several times a week between different states, etc. So I'll wait. And if he DOESN'T respond at all, I'll have learned something important, and I won't have lost anything, will I? I'll just know to finally and for good let it go, because he won't be worth it. You, on the other hand, are worth all the stars in the sky. Love love love YOU.
from annanotbob2 :
Love xxx
from catsoul :
3.2.19. Hi. Safe journey home traveler. Now I can relate to your current comments and past comments about drinkers. For myself being a diabetic and all. The last alcohol I partook in was as a Freshman at Stout University. I ended up in an alcohol coma because who knew that I was a diabetic. So from that day forth, no alcohol has ever touched my lips. Forward through my adult life. I have seen and been around so many people who drink alcohol way too much. I feel that in reflection of this over the years, alcohol is a wicked mistress. It changes a person's whole reality, you get it. So K. please be careful and know that you can not change a person and what they choose to do. OK, enough of that. You know overall, your travels and journey went well. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Drinking sure screws a good thing up, doesn't it? Once you are out and driving away you will feel much better!
from catsoul :
3.1.19. Hi. I agree with you. Let it go. You had to say what you did. The truth to others is a mirror looking at themselves. It isn't you she is upset with, it is herself that she is upset with. Let it go. Enjoy your last day. Pack your car however, that to will get done. I believe in all of your capabilities. Peace.
from cocoabean :
I agree, drinking isn't as much fun as it used to be.. and I feel much better in the mornings!
from catsoul :
2.20.19. Laila and I always, always have tissues in our pockets for nature's tinkling. I can not tell you how many times we tinkle out in the Woods. When you got to go, you go. Once when Randy took her over to the park, she had to go tinkle, and off she went into the Woods there. Randy when they got home mentioned this to me, saying Laila, said to him, grandpa you might as well go too. She yells from her spot, grandpa do you need a tiss? Peace. =^..^=
from jarofporter :
it's true there's a difference between 'Failure to contact' and Failure to miss', but i spent the last 10 yrs (at least) out in the bar scene3-6 times/wk, and not one of those friends i made bothers to contact me. i don't mind instigating, but a little reciprocity would be nice, you know? *sigh*. thanks for your note, and for an alternate perception. :-)
from floodtide :
I agree with Anna; all of your SGi entries have been especially noteworthy (literally), and thought-provoking, and lovely. And what a treat to visit D-land entirely randomly/arbitrarily after the gym just now and see that you'd posted again. I got to panko-on-the-floor being scraped off and I HOWLED with laughter. What a gift you just gave me. What a gift you are. Heading downstate for a full afternoon of Panera "training" on things I've already been teaching other people how to do for four years. Attitude really-not-awful under the circumstances. I adore you.
from annanotbob2 :
Ooh lovely entry, so much to say to you! Are you enjoying the walking? I've become a bit neurotic about doing it every single day but I think it has to be good being out in the air and doing what humans have always done, which is keep moving. It was interesting that you mentioned breathing alongside anxiety - my yoga guy has been talking about deep breathing a lot recently, as the key to everything, a few big, slow, deep breaths whenever you remember, but especially when things feel a bit crap for whatever reason. I've been doing it and it really helps, I find. Also, I'm watching Russian Doll too! I love her as a character, though I probably wouldn't in real life as she's so fucking rude, but how great to have something led by a rude woman. Love xx
from jarofporter :
forgot to say thanks for the info here, it's good to be able to read you!
from catsoul :
2.16.19. It sounds so Zen for you at times. Hey, do you want a challenge? If you jump right on this and say yes, here it is. Turn off your phone, use no alarms to wake up. This too will bring you more peace. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
We love you too, K, we love you too x
from cocoabean :
Dangerspouse would start cooking.... glad peace has arrived at last
from swordfern :
A walk on the beach alone is a great act of self care, perfect for this day dedicated to all forms of love. xoxo
from jarofporter :
thank you for the insight in your note, i appreciate it. wondering if you'd mind sending your pw info? my email is listed on the right side of my journal - hover over the "email me!" link. thanks again..
from dangerspouse :
You've never hurt me (other than the snub of mentioning Swordfern and Anna, BUT NOT ME *sob*) but I forgive you anyway. And yeah- why DO oystercatchers need wings? You'd think a shovel bill and a small knife would suffice. Stupid evolution.
from swordfern :
You mentioned me in your diary! *starry eyed* xoxo
from catsoul :
2.11.19. Howdy Do....Isn't sifting through all one's bullshit fun? Sounds like you are making headway in it all. I felt your epiphany, you wrote about. Keep doing that, then you will hit the truth soon about you. Peace within yourself. To be in control is to let go of control. I am content in this moment. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
You and swordfern just makes me feel good! two lovely people - three of us, all so far away from each other, sharing our sorrows and joys! If there's any trash on the beach you can always pick it up and snap it and tag it #2minutebeachclean and join our big family. I'm so glad you're getting this time and space. Hugs dear K xxx
from swordfern :
Hi K! You know what's great about going through a super rough time? People delurking!! I'd love to get to know you through your diary. My email is swordfern23@gmail.com
from annanotbob2 :
Hugs xxx
from annanotbob2 :
It sounds blissful from here - hope you have a peaceful time, dearest K x
from catsoul :
2.3.19. Fuck the lists, just be........Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
2.1.19. Wow, here you are ready-to-go. Going to a quiet place to be quiet, that is so ok. Just sit and breathe in the peacefulness and serenity of the moment. Give this to yourself, and that is so, so ok. Have a safe journey. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a foreign language. Don't search for answers, which may not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke ~ (Letters to a Young Poet, translated by Stephen Mitchell)
from annanotbob2 :
xxx
from dangerspouse :
You're welcome. Thanks for the shout out :)
from annanotbob2 :
Eight weeks! Yay! It's going to get easier and easier all the time. Sending love and wishes for a good night's sleep xxxx
from dangerspouse :
Congratulations on reaching the 8-week mark! I understand quitting smoking is one of the more difficult things one can do. I hope you stick with it, for your sake and the sake of those around you whom you love. (And bravo on the deer chili, even if it did require a baking soda run!)
from catsoul :
1.8.19. Hi. Question for you. When things are right, why do you need breadcrumbs? Shouldn't you be savoring how good it is? That was my thought. Peace. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
I hadn't realized until recently that Mr. Church was based on a true story. I haven't seen it yet, although I intend to. I understand Eddie Murphy gave a great performance - I've always been a fan of his acting, so it's good to see his return. All the best to you in 2019! :)
from catsoul :
1.2.19. hi. It is hard to sit alone in a room with someone. You know they are there, but where is the connection, wondering, if there was/is even one? I believe deep, deep down you know alone at times is never enough. You are at peace now, time to share your peace joyfully with someone else. Peace. =^..^=
from jarofporter :
thanks, you too!
from floodtide :
You ARE beautiful.
from cocoabean :
When I quit smoking, I got fairly sick afterward... I kind of think it's your body retaliating for taking away the nicotine.. keep it up!
from annanotbob2 :
Sending love xxx
from catsoul :
12.3.18. Interesting word, "intent." It is related to the word, "intend," also. I know you didn't intend to become sick, getting sick is your bodies way, it's intent to tell you it is time to slow down and take care of yourself perhaps? With all good intentions one should listen, your body is screaming to you, please, take better care and love me. Peace. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Happy impending birthday!! :)
from annanotbob2 :
Glad to hear from you dear K. Any chance of a peep at some of these photos? xxx
from catsoul :
10.25.18. Howdy Do. Just being is a.o.k. Chill down and look up at the stars/galaxy, and remember, in this life the most important is love and peace within ourselves. Stop K. and just listen to your soul, you will know when the time is right to do whatever, wherever you wish. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
10.19.18. Oh my, a stumble and fall. Glad you got up with not too much hurt. Where you talking on your phone and walking? I can't talk and walk on my phone anymore. Enough said, Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
10.8.18.Hi. The world is your oyster. There maybe for sure a pearl. So much to desire, so much, just remember K. find your peace within yourself, then from there all is and will be extra peaceful. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
I got my countertop dishwasher from smallappliance.com. That was one of the better purchases I ever made. I bought an Avanti. I would have bought a Danby from Home Depot but more than half the reviews said it came damaged. I loved it!
from catsoul :
Hi. I know you have to work with M. When I read what you write about your dealings with her, I commend you on your patience. My I just say, I would give her a time limit to say or ask what she needs in so many minutes. M. sounds like a person who just loves to repeat and rinse about her life. Again, tell me how you deal with stupid people who think or pretend they are smart, and that everyone should and need to stop/listen to them, no matter if they have a life. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Oh my gosh. My fav number is 11. Has been forever. 11/11/55. Now today is double 11, 11 + 11=22. Even more awesome it is the beginning of Autumn. Time to dance!!!!! Peace Sista. =^..^=
from catsoul :
8.31.18. hi. I loved your paragraph beginning...Something happened...I know you were in the moment. It is glorious when that happens. Work on that. Oh, I will have Laila open her letter from you while she is here. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Hey there, maybe the hidden message is: wait for it....explosions occur, then carry on....I shit you not!!!!!! Hahahahaha.....ok. Maybe there is no hidden messages K. it was just a day. Take Care. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
BINGO....Save your energy for good things which happen to you and your loved ones. Better now, then never to realize that, be kinder to yourself by not getting so fucking upset, right!!!! At-a-girl, you made me proud, and carry on. Peace Sister. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Thank you. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
7.27.18 Your Auntie sounds like a blast. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
7.16.18 So nice to read that you are getting in the "chillin" groove! Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. read that Boo is still limping. put your hands on the area you think the discomfort is coming from, then move up about 3 inches, probably is near his hip joint. Now rub your hands together until you feel heat in your hands, place them on that spot. Hold a few minutes with some pressure, now moving your hands down his legs. You should feel Boo start to seem to sigh and lay his head down, this is good. Do this as often as you can for him. I have helped a number of animals this way. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Safe Journey to you all. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
I have doing research on clove cigs, out of curiousity for you. Here is a tidbit, I am not judging. Clove cigarettes typically contain between 60 to 70 percent tobacco and 30 to 40 percent shredded cloves (a spice). Considering their tobacco content, clove cigarettes are probably as harmful and addictive as regular cigarettes. As a matter of fact, kreteks may hold even more risk. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
When I left Wisconsin, my family didn't really understand until one of my sisters found my diary. It's so difficult to convey how living in a relationship really is. I never wanted my family to find my diary, but they did. So do what feels right to you, and to hell what other people think.... you are doing what you need to do and you need to keep that up. Hang in there!
from cocoabean :
Working now in the millworks department, I could sell you a dog door. Through the door, the wall, or even one that fits a patio door. That would solve the issue of leaving him home alone for hours. Heh.
from hitch-hike :
Hello, and thank you for the add! You are also a librarian? I was at the ALA conference these past few days. I think you are the first I’ve interacted with through the blogosphere. Are you in publlic, academic, or special? :)
from catsoul :
Take Boo for a doggie checkup. You wouldn't get this feeling if something wasn't off with him, just a suggestion. It will help you also to rule out anything. Also, we were so excited to get mail. Thank you ever so much. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
So sorry to read about your body's physical pain. I don't know what to really say about it. Physical pain can affect your total emotional self a zillion fold. Just, just do for you at this time, and fuck the rest. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
I feel that way too - it's just hard. Sending love across the pond to you, standing with you as we struggle onward xxx
from catsoul :
hi. You sound spent. This is what Laila and I did since she got here: played with the doggies, biked, jogged sort of with her jogging stroller, swingset and meditation, went to see Mikey, had a snack. Swingset, Sweet Street People time to cool off in the basement, ate an early supper, yes she and I had chicken/veggies. Then biked again, decided to clean her pool again, filled it, and covered it with a tarp. We did the jogging stroller, decided to call it a day being outside. Came in, drank a bit of Gatorade, put on PJ's, got out her doctor's kit and she checked out doggies, Randy, and me. Randy checked her out. She now uses his real stethescope, watched some cartoons, had our bedtime snack, put our choice of day stickers on the 16th, talked about how grand our day was, brushed teeth and combed our hair, and went to bed. She is now still sleeping, and I am up with the doggies. Sadie actually slept until almost 3:30 am. Another hot and super humid day today, so we will be in the pool. She will be here until next Saturday. Randy being off this weekend has also been getting to do some fun stuff with her. He likes to bike, so he bikes with her. He pushed her in the jogging stroller. I told her no I wouldn't do that, and of course she convinced him to push her around. It has huge wheels, so he pushed her into her Woods. Bless him for that, I would have made her push her own jogging stroller around. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. Just one of those sucky days. You made it through, at-a-girl. Sea glass is so beautiful, your friend is very kind. Hey, you got to mow, that makes everything better. Peace. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
The pleasure is all mine xx
from catsoul :
How wonderful another doggie. It was meant to be, and look how happy your Boo is!! As for Bill, who the fuck cares anymore. It is his go to behavior, and it still gets to you, and he knows it apparently. Stop that. Enough said. You do what you need to for that doggie. Good for your son, he is your son and it shines thru. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Good for you, life is but a beach, and you get a whole month, at-a-girl. =^..^=
from linguafranca :
Oh, that’s awesome. I’m invited, right?! :)
from catsoul :
Come on up for a visit with us sister!!!!!!
from catsoul :
Thanks K. 10 days to go before Laila's arrival. Bam. =^..^=
from catsoul :
K. I so agree with coccabean. Some people combination are so, so toxic to our peace within us. Go with your gut, release them to move on. You can do it. Peace. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Really, you don't need people like that.... people come and go, and sometimes its best for both to be done with each other
from annanotbob2 :
Aw, thanks for the best note ever! The gig was FANTASTIC - it would have been so brilliant if you were there too... one day... xxx
from catsoul :
You are welcome. It took that long to get there, wow. I wrote that out last week. Glad your friend M. got your less words message. I always say that be honest, though be careful of those over sensitive friends, who churn it around for decades, why, I don't know. I say it and move along. It is so freeing to be honest, always start with yourself. Anyhoo, smiles & Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
at-a-girl
from catsoul :
oh my god, your friend who has reoccurring c-diff and 95 lbs., needs to get a fecal transplant before she dies. c-diff remember almost killed me, wrecked my colon and digestive system, affects my kidneys, and ate away at some of my heart sac. She needs to get a fecal transplant. Hurry. =^..^=
from catsoul :
ok, sounds like a plan. You send me your address. Thank you ever so much. =^..^=
from catsoul :
You ask many times, "what's up with that?" like you are surprised. I suspect you really aren't. Patience is a tough one, I know, especially when a person likes to have the controlling advantage so that one feels more secure and less anxiety. It is something you just have to keep on working on. One of my old mantras though I still say it often is: "to be in control is to let go of control." Life happens with our control or without it. Just be part of it and enjoy. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. Thanks for the note. I am starting to write some more poetry. That sentence wasn't about me. I am working on one or two liners and seeing if I can connect them into a poem. I guess that sentence reached inside of you, and I appreciate your kindness to me regardless. Thank you. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. Here is a note to read. I am not wondering what to do. I am shoveling. Will be shoveling today again, and more shoveling. Oh, I am watching Wanda Sykes on TV right now. Her twins were 3 months then, I had to Google how old her and Alex's twins are currently. They are 9 years old. I have a pot of water on the stove to put more humidity in the house. I can't think of anything else. I have shoveling on the brain. OK then. Peace. =^..^=
from linguafranca :
Thanks for your note. I haven’t listened to the podcast yet, but I’ve got it there ready to play at some point. I don’t know that I’m doing that great a job, sometimes I feel like I’m just giving them ptsd and exacerbating their existing issues. *sigh* All while feeding them processed food.
from catsoul :
I got tired just reading about how busy you are. I don't know how you do it, it would be way too much for me, whew.....Thanks for the note, I appreciate that. Peace. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Hi. A lot of thinking going on in your mind at nights. Stop thinking at night. I am are at peace within myself. Repeat. I am at peace within myself. =^..^=
from catsoul :
How about just waiting and not offering? =^..^=
from catsoul :
Sounds like a great plan you have going. I to like my routines. Take Care. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. creme burlee candles smell awesome, just sayin'
from annanotbob2 :
Plank!! Go you! xx
from catsoul :
It will be ok. It is ok to be just yourself, and to love yourself. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
I agree, Boo, needs you and you need him. Please do not delay for both your sakes. Peace Out. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Thanks for the wishes, but...I DON'T WANNA KEEP BEING ME! Can I be a billionaire, please? Just once? *sigh* Oh well. Hey listen, why not keep going without smokes even after Lent? You're SUPER SMART, don't do that dumb thing to your body! (Because this is the internet I feel free to give obvious and unsolicited advice.) :)
from catsoul :
hi, don't you think everyone has some sort of "lump of fuck," going on? So, become friends with "lump of fuck," it too can become a happy "lump of fuck." I wonder where I am going with this? I will ponder your words today, because I hear them so loudly. Peace Out. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Hiya - these are hard times for so many of us, aren't they? I posted a link on FB last night of naughty Russell Brand interviewing Andy, the guy who founded headspace, which I had established a good practice in, but somehow have let go. Andy mentions something about acceptance of where we are - easier said than done, but more possible with that 10 mins meditation and something I did achieve before. So I'm off to put in ten minutes. Sending love and hugs, sister K xx
from cocoabean :
And I'm so glad you're enjoying your own place. You should talk to Bill, but don't make his problems yours.
from cocoabean :
I probably would just have bought new bathroom rugs... lol just sayin'
from catsoul :
hi, sounds lovely at your place. As for Bill, I say let him do it on his own and for himself, you did this for yourself. You must have a greenhouse, you could have herbs, veggies, flowers. That would be sooooo lovely too. Peace Out. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
These are indeed hard times for many of us - hoping they're moving along, love always xxx
from catsoul :
hi. When I feel lonely, it usually is about being lonely for someone, i.e. like Taffy or my neighbor dog Zima. When I am going to mediate, which I do at least a couple times a day, I start with telling myself, don't think, clear out the thoughts. To bad you aren't closer because I could help you learn how to mediate. It takes time. I have been mediating since I was in my 20's, which is at least 40 years, and I still am learning. Mediating is so calming for the soul, opens up feelings and peace within. So, don't think, don't think all the time, be present in the moment, listen with your soul. Thinking too much stops the peace. Take Care. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Sue who??? Calm you think I have been fucking calm lately? Maybe, though my damn mind seems awfully busy with conversations of their own. I admit, I am not always as Zen or calm as I think I should be. Why? This day and age, you younger folks seem that friendship effort can just be cast aside whenever you want. I am referring to the "new" neighbors." No one else. Lesson learned. Don't put myself out there too far. I don't exist anymore to them. Yesterday I thought about this, some more, got to turn off that conversation in mind, that if I ever get a call for help or something from them I will assist/help them, because this is me. So K. thanks for including me in your entry. I still have to work a lot on myself. Peace Out chickie!!!! =^..^=
from catsoul :
K. it will be alright. As a parent raising a son for 9 years alone before I met my husband, it was tough. Always wondering if I should have made different choices on raising him. Well now that he is in his 30's I realize that I did pretty darn great, as you have done with J. He has is own opinions, his own life. Be proud of how he is always. Anyhoo, enjoy your time with Boo. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Yes, I agree, get Boo home. I would chuck all tasks and get Boo home. Peace out. =^...^=
from dangerspouse :
Congrats on the Instant Pot! I don't have one myself, but I've read accounts from many people who love them. Particularly if, like you, they may have space considerations. For future reference, if the reason you wanted the brown rice was in order to add it to the chili, you cook the rice with the chili rather than seperately. Just add more liquid initially. It's perhaps not ideal, but it does work. If you're flu-ish and any extra effort hurts, or even if just counter space is limited, this might be something you'd want to try. Hope you feel better :)
from cocoabean :
I finally googled your instant pot. I actually have one of those and I love it! Only the one I bought was called a multi cooker... and yes, that and a toaster oven would work for me!
from cocoabean :
Maybe thats why its on sale....
from dangerspouse :
Now THAT'S a letter of protest to be proud of! Wheeee! Sic 'em, girl! Well done. I'm sure the 17 year old after-school $5.75/hr. Amazon part timer who reads it will be duly impressed. Speaking of, I see they put your blistering diatribe up on the product page! YAY! Lol...hey, in a bit of kismet, in the "Compare to Similar Items" a bit above your glowering review I see that they've placed your ex-grinder right next to the Krups that I recommended in my last note. GET THE KRUPS! That way if you hate it as much, you can write directly to me. I make more than $5.75 an hour, so you know I'll care! :)
from dangerspouse :
May I ask what brand of killer coffee grinder that was? FWIW, I use a Krups spice grinder for my coffee pulverizing needs. It has an asymetrical chamber which throws the contents around, rather than having them whirl in a continuous cyclone. The result is a very fast grind, turning the beans to dust before they have a chance to heat up and lose some of those volatile compounds. And only 20 dollars. Now stop reading this and get some sleep. Or coffee :)
from cocoabean :
Living alone is so awesome. For food, crock pots are the bomb! Put a bunch of food in and when you get home, it's done. Not fussy cooking... but yummy!
from catsoul :
You have reawakened, savor it, and go forth deeply. Peace Out. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Many more, kiddo. Although...a vacuum cleaner? Really? Well, to each their own. Enjoy! :)
from dangerspouse :
What a coincidence - I decided at almost the same time that I will no longer pull out the grey pubic hair of others. This must be the next Thing!
from catsoul :
Wow....that was some call for sure. There are no words sometimes what we hear of others despair. Just be there for her and others when you yourself can. Give your permission not to be there, sometimes you need to keep your sanity. Peace Out. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Exciting!
from cocoabean :
I know just how you feel. Planning my move to CA gave me a huge sense of relief.. once the decision is made you get a whole new outlook. I struggle to pay rent here, but living alone is the absolute bomb!
from catsoul :
Sounds like you are starting to live even more in the moment. Atta girl. Bam. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
You got it!!!!!!!! Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
hi. Never ever be afraid or embarassed by your feelings surfacing. Listen to them. Embrace them. Feel them. Take Care. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Jesus. My wife is right - women are crazy (present company...nah, you too.) ;) Seriously, that was an impressive blast of pathological nuttiness in that email. Any chance you could write her back with something like "I was great for fucking, wasn't I? Shame he never met anyone of my caliber again. Ok, I'll take him back."? I dunno, seems like it would be worth it just to see what sort of entertaining response you'd receive back. Anyway, I sure hope you feel better soon. Sounds like a real toughie you've got there. Hang in there.
from cocoabean :
Don't stress over that email, she said things because she is clearly angry with him, and wants you to be too. If you send him an email once every 7 years, I hardly think that qualifies as "not leaving him alone". Sheesh. Just ignore it.
from catsoul :
hi...feel better quick. c-diff is what almost killed me way back when and changed my whole health/body chemistry. I was lucky and didn't die from it. Randy told me once I got home after two weeks being in the hospital's ccu one week and icu the other week, that c-diff when bad enough will kill you. So do stay away from your friend. To this day I still only use one bathroom for pooping. I haven't ever had a second c-diff occurence. Fecal transplant does work. Anyhoo, enjoy your walk tomorrow with Boo. Take Care. Peace Out. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Best of luck to you and your candidate. Really, I'm hoping for the best for you over here. Oh - and Boo, too :)
from catsoul :
good morning. sounds like you are on a roll. you go girl. I second what dangerspouse wrote in his note. remember do a moon dance for yourself. dance in the night barefoot singing moon songs. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
I can't believe you're gonna go see the eclipse - good for you!! I'm very jealous :)
from catsoul :
Just a thought, how about putting some of those balls away, they don't need you to all the time, just sayin'. Sounds like to me, from what you read, you are doing a bang up job. Take Care. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Been there.....
from catsoul :
How the heck are you able to stay up so late? I am in bed at 8 pm, reading or something. I do stay up later when granddaughter is here. I don't know how she can stay up so late either. Your food sounded delicious. Somtimes I dream of food. Peace Out. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Yeah, where does the time go?
from cocoabean :
almost as bad as being in Wisconsin and losing heat during the winter. Hope those possums leave!
from catsoul :
atta girl....getting into some altered art. I love doing that sort of stuff. Good for you. =^..^=
from catsoul :
I really, really loved this entry. You know helping others also helps yourself. I loved your connnections or you called it links. Life and people are linked to one another. look for the links of love, they are everywhere. Let love be the answer. OK then, peace out. =^..^=
from zenayda :
What a cute pair of pooches! <3
from catsoul :
Mothers....right.....we all have them....we didn't get to pick your mothers....so here we are. K I can so relate to what you wrote about your mom. I at times regret even mentioning something about my son to mom. She then goes off on one of her tangents, she is like a dog with a bone, no offense to dogs, won't let go of it. At times it is a leadin topic starter for her. I now just don't tell her a lot and only tell her the good stuff. I find this helps me more than anything. If you have any ideas of how to deal with aging moms, I would love to read about it. Hey, good job on the job by the way. Have a good day, and I know today is Thursday. Peace Out. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Love for you always. Holding you in my thoughts - I have no money and no prospect of any but I shall visualise us driving round together and hope for the best. I am scared of big dogs, but maybe Boo will convert me. Thank you for thinking of me xxxx
from annanotbob2 :
Sending love and hugs dearest K. Hold steady, these days will pass, that's all we know for sure. You are amazing and one day I will come and tell you that to your face. xxxxx
from catsoul :
Sorry it is tough going right now for you. Are you letting outside influences you have no control of get to you? Are you dissecting each and every word someone says to you? When it is sunny out I am hoping it will be brighter for you! Let your light shine from within K. Take Care. =^..^=
from catsoul :
When you have your tiny traveling home you are so welcome to pop up here for a visit. Yup, do it sooner than later. Plans are a great thing to have. Hope. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Loved, just loved your XOXOXO entry. I think I am the Sue, so I love you too K. I appreciate your words and your caring spirit. You are loved. Peace Out. =^..^=
from zenayda :
Never delete that "XOXOXO" entry. Ever. HEH!
from catsoul :
Thanks for the note. So you are going to chainsaw the "things," well that leaves a lot of "things" you could chainsaw!! Hahahaha!! At a girl!!! =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
10/5/17 we can hug too - {{{{hugs}}}}
from cocoabean :
raising kids is difficult for everyone... just in different ways.. At some point they do turn into adults!
from catsoul :
When starting to clear the Woods, you start on the edge. You cut from the outside in. Remember always look up checking what branches or parts of trees that are hung up. I always have rope approx. 50 feet and also cinch strap. Whenever you cut and then buck up the tree, you must clear out that space, and stack your wood in the place you want it. Never stack your wood right up next to your house because of critters. Hope that helps a bit. =^..^=
from catsoul :
I love the power of the chainsaw. Glad you got to use one, now you are not a chainsaw virgin!! =^..^=
from catsoul :
I love the power of the chainsaw. Glad you got to use one, now you are not a chainsaw virgin!! =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
1/5/17 I want to rush over and hug you and hold you tight. Fuck! Love and strength and peace and resilience and all that from me to you always xxxxx
from catsoul :
You know the answer. Your son is very much like you. You didn't ask to be sad a lot. You are who you are and so is your son. Embrace it. Share who you are with him. Just talk more. We aren't perfect, we do the best we can raising our sons. He loves his mom, forever, YOU. Peace Out. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Sending hugs - we're not well, are we, either of us - hugs is what we need xxx
from catsoul :
Jimmie Crickets, girl what a fuckin' day you had. Hope you got some shut eye though. Have a good day today perhaps. Peace Out. =^..^=
from catsoul :
You are so right Miss Dixie. Nothing is ever ever as it seems, it could be something perhaps. So think, are you worried about something that is nothing about your son? Just thinking about something. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Supergold! Wow - there's a vote of confidence for Andrew! Hugs xx
from catsoul :
Awwwww sucks. Thanks. Just be YOU for the pure JOY of it. Like Boo was doing, swimming just for the pure JOY of it. Take Care. Peace Out. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Oh my God - you are heroic! 10K! Can you hear the marching band and parade I have going for you? Big love xxx
from catsoul :
Makes sense. As for calm. I have always been rock steady and having an inner calm. I have done mediation since age 19. Hit it big time in my 20's, I had an awesome guide. You should try it, so worth it. I like physical work, feels good. OK, Peace Out you Dixie Gal. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
7/4/17 Brilliant, happy weekend with Boo! xx
from catsoul :
OK. Just wondering why you would have to leave? Maybe J. just has to process it for awhile. Sorry to read he is taking your power as a parent away from you. Please don't be upset with my comments, they are just sincere concerns for you. My son has been a handful. Take Care. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Way hay! Four days, no fags, 10k steps! You are a star! xxx
from annanotbob2 :
xxx
from catsoul :
Thank you for the note, you are so kind. Take Care. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Hey, thanks so much for the follow-up note, and for the shout out here. That all has meant a lot to me. Lol, how come I never get to dream about glamorous things like septic systems?? I'm very jealous. I'm glad you had a wonderful day out with Boo, too :)
from dangerspouse :
Lol. No, it wasn't an April Fool's post. Sadly. Tormorrow I learn my fate. Anyway, thank you so much for the note of support. And I hope you had a swimmingly great time with the puppy! :)
from boombasticat :
Hi, and thanks very much. I had to do a little research to find her old names (she changed handles a lot for privacy reasons, I think) but she went by division-day and red-river and I think some others. She lived in Portland, Oregon for a long time. Thanks again and I'd love a password if they're around!
from jarofporter :
thanks for the note, that's a good song too!
from dangerspouse :
Thank you for the lovely, sincere birthday wish! And the scary, awful expression of trepidation for the year to come - which I also share. *sigh* Oh well, at least we've got a lot of great pussy hats to wear this year! Lol - caught a cold from your hubby, huh? Well at least now you can't accuse him of being a sharing individual. Hope you feel better soon, and thank you very very much again. You rock, babe! :)
from dangerspouse :
No wonder your oysters taste awful! Oh man, but that Jason Isbell song was a hoot!! Lol, I almost couldn't stop laughing in time to go back on the air. That'll teach me to click on links while I'm at work. (That was a very moving, well written entry btw.)
from jarofporter :
thanks for the note! :-)
from catsoul :
I love it when a raptor gets close. It makes you feel so alive and deserving all things possible. It was meant to be for you. It evokes a connection to all creatures of Mother Earth which we are. Accept it and cherish it. It was for you and only you. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Let's see: you started putting smoke into your lungs, and now you're feeling pneumonia-like symptoms. I'm no doctor, but, hmmmmm. Stop smoking!! (Lol...I know it was stressful, and it's disappointing you didn't reach the 20 year mark, but get back on that wagon. Your body - and the rest of us - will thank you for it. We need you! Alive!) :)
from annanotbob2 :
Don't leave us! We love you! Rest up and get well again, dear K xxx
from dangerspouse :
Oh my god, I love dog parks! THEY'RE FULL OF DOGS!! The only reason I may ever get a dog again is so I can go to a dog park and have a (legitimate, for once) excuse to run around with all those furry love bombs :)
from annanotbob2 :
Keep coming to leave hugs and love xxx
from annanotbob2 :
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from catsoul :
Sounds like things are really, really moving along nicely for you!!!!! I have a Boston Terrier named Sadie, what are the odds of that? Sadie also could be better trained. Boston Terriers are so energetic I tell you. Sadie keeps up with Laila. So have a good day and fun drive in the car with B. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Lol. That note you left me was longer than most of your entries :) But yeah, good to know you really know your stuff when it comes to this. Awesome, in fact. Don't think you're too spastic for click training, though. Yeah, poke around for info and see what you think. Barring that, there are - as you say - plenty of other options, and I'm sure you're more than up to the task for any of them.(And...they GAVE you the dog after shelling out a grand for it? Must be nice to have money....) :)
from catsoul :
K. he needs to know you will always be there with him. Malcolm and I have a bond so deep because I rescued him, cared for him through his two back leg surgeries. Your B. needs your comfort and kind caring way and voice of love. You have all of that. You and he will a comfort to each other. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
In all seriousness, the best single decision we made was to crate train our dog when we got him as a puppy. I highly recommend it, it will pay literally years of sleep dividend. Also, as a one-time experimental psychologist who used to train pigeons to peck lights for a living (no, really!) I can also attest to the effectiveness of "click training" for modifying behaviors and making for a well trained, obedient, and happy pet.
from dangerspouse :
What a terrible trainer! Canned pumpkin? Always use fresh! ;) Hang in there, kiddo. Germann Shepherds grow into wonderful, loyal companions. Who poop a lot and eat half their body weight a day. Think of it like getting a second husband!
from dangerspouse :
"Dave's Kick-ass Bread"? Is that one of those packaged mixes that uses baking soda as a leavener rather than yeast (like beer bread or banana bread)? My wife used to like some of them, particularly a brand that was sold at their yearly Renaissance Festival. I generally make my own breads from scratch whether it's yeast or soda risen, but if you like that pre-mix stuff, good for you! And...hooray for the doggie!! :)
from nineofswords :
Thank you for your kind note. :-)
from catsoul :
A puppy....so excited for you. He needs you. I am sooooo excited for you. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Mmmmmmmmmm, bacon and tomato sandwiches. Good call! Do you make your own bread?
from floodtide :
I had no idea notes made you so happy - I would have posted them all the time. Here's a note that I hope makes you happy for Tuesday evening/Wednesday morning. Dad's outside mulching. I should be helping. But I'm not. I slept all day until dinner time, then I went and got junk food and watched "Downtown Abbey" with my Mom. If all goes as we hope, she will COME HOME TOMORROW. I miss you and love you with all my heart. You are a beautiful, good, generous, wonderful human being and mine is only one of the many lives enriched by your existence among us. So grateful for you. Have a good Wednesday. Have a good Thursday and a good Friday, too. XOXO
from dangerspouse :
Thank god the flooding didn't affect you (this time). Following the news about the horrendous flooding going on the last several days has been all kinds if distressing. Glad you - and that frog - are safe.
from catsoul :
Hi....You love notes. I will start to leave you more notes then. I love to write "real" letters also. Do you want some of those? You know I love to write. You have a son who can cook and clean, holy cow batman. You taught him right, you go mama!!!!!! DangerSpouse just posted a recipe for making Ricotti Cheese, it looks delicious, John should give it a try. Anyhoo, this is all I got for now. Take Care. =^..^=
from dangerspouse :
Ooops! LOL, sorry. Well done John the SON! Cooks AND cleans? Gee, I wonder what 19 year old couch potato girlfriend sees in him? My owl penis and I thank you for the great note, babe :)
from dangerspouse :
Scoring a decent parking space can make one's week, let alone day. GO JOHN!! I tell ya, more hubbies should learn to cook. I hope he keeps up the interest :)
from dangerspouse :
Glad to hear you had at least a "tiny win"...and some good food! Well done talking John - or anyone for that matter - through the Parm recipe! I hope the job situation works out as successfully. Good luck, really
from dangerspouse :
It's the middle of summer. Aren't kids off on break/holiday where you are? Good luck with John. You've got enough stress.
from annanotbob2 :
Hugs and love xxxx 9/8/16 xx
from dangerspouse :
Ok, I'm stumped. What's a "Molnar"?
from annanotbob2 :
29.7.16 always love xxx
from annanotbob2 :
27.6.16 Love xxxx
from nineofswords :
Thank you.
from dangerspouse :
I just LOVE when women beg. Lol...thanks for the note and well wishes. I'll probably be back sooner rather than later, as a friend is lending me her old laptop during my recovery. And by "old", I mean "oh my god, this is OLD!". It's got *shudder* Vista loaded on it. Anyway, I'll probably e able to hunt-and-peck a few sentences on it now and again to appease True Believers like you. Bless you, my child :)
from dangerspouse :
It's actually heartwarming to hear, in the middle of all the horrific news we're bombarded with, that random strangers can and will still perform acts of kindness unbidden. I hope the rest of your trip is filled with such pleasant experiences.
from dangerspouse :
Oh man, I would sell my wife's soul for a loaf of blueberry lemon bread, paleo or other. You go!
from dangerspouse :
Congrats on the fitness goal reached! That's really something not a lot of people achieve. Be proud...and enjoy that pizza :)
from cocoabean :
Way to go on reaching that goal! As for mean friend, maybe you should just block her emails.. out of sight, out of mind you know.
from annanotbob2 :
Jesus I am outraged at you being called that, my sweet friend. Fuckers. Big love from here to there, from me to you xxxxx
from dangerspouse :
Blueberry lemon loaf! I love you, man....
from dangerspouse :
A good tomato pie is a real treat. Enjoy!
from dangerspouse :
I'm in, giggity giggity! Thanks, babe :) (And just an fyi: "neurotic schnauzer" is redundant.)
from dangerspouse :
Thank you thank you thank you for the sweet note (and for having the stamina to read that entire epic)! BTW...care to divulge your Secret Decoder Ring password so I can admire your own scribblings in return? notepad101 (at) yahoo or hotmail, if you care to. Thanks again!
from annanotbob2 :
xxxx
from zenayda :
No matter who you are or what you say or do, someone is going to dislike it, or you, or whatever. So hell yes, raise that flag and be YOU. The people who know you, love you, and respect you will still know you, love you, and respect you, and the rest can go jump.
from catsoul :
Holy shit Batman....that is alot of shit to think about. For a moment just be, breathe within your soul, hug yourself, laugh and smile. Then move on into the sparkle. =^..^=
from melodymetuka :
{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry you are going through this. Been there, done that... hope you come out the other side, soon.
from annanotbob2 :
hard times - we can do this. Hugs across the pond. I feel like this and think it's true till I see you saying it and it's clearly not, these are hard times but we will prevail. xxxx
from catsoul :
Gee whiz....let it go.....why can't you? Take Care. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Xxxxxx
from catsoul :
Float your way down South. You will be alright. It will all be OK if you let it. Take Care. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Let it ride out....float along with it....harboring it when necessary. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
I would guess your uncle is more upset that he will be leaving soon, rather than later... and I would think he's also scared, since no one knows what it's like to die. I have accepted that I will die at some point, and I'm not afraid of it, more curious than anything.
from annanotbob2 :
Just found your note to me! Thank you, darling - that's exactly how it is, on and on and on, but we are doing our best, you and I, in the midst of the storm. xxxxxx
from annanotbob2 :
Belated happy birthday (how did I miss that?) and big hugs xxx
from catsoul :
Clapping for you and then standing and clapping harder. Let it be, let it be, and let yourself go free. -^..^=
from melodymetuka :
Happy Birthday! I hope this is the best one yet. ;-)
from catsoul :
11/28/2015....WOW....Glad to see you back writing. I have missed your words/thoughts/feelings about life. I can't/don't/want to do family drama either. I feel for what you had to go through. You wrote about it sooooo nicely. You know, just saying, you don't have to do the holidays. Just enjoy family when and how it works for you. Take Care. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Grateful that you're here xxxx
from dangerspouse :
Hi! It's been quite some time since I've been able to read your diary, and I'd like to rectify that. Would it be possible to get the current password so I could hassle you in the notes section again? Thanks!
from jarofporter :
funny, i was expecting the opposite... "What a great looking car! The guy seems a bit needy though." ;-) thanks. :-)
from cocoabean :
No, I'm back in... it was a temporary glitch in my computer. All better now!
from cocoabean :
You make your own chocolate? The answer to my dreams!! Please share your secret...
from catsoul :
hi there :) it does always seem like more land once you get in there and start working on cleaning up Mother Earth. I divide it into quadrants and just focus on one quadrant at a time, doesn't seem so overwhelming then. I also want to say how impressed I am of your dilengce(misspelled but you get the word)to stick with organic. After awhile it will become so natural like breathing. Do you consider yourself a hippie? Just wondering is all. Take Care. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
I haven't been able to access your page, did you change your password?
from catsoul :
Sorry to read about Bruce. The pain we hid is so sad. Reach out and share. Each day. Wow is all I can say really. Just feel your sadness. Move on as best you can. Thank you for your honesty. =^..^=
from catsoul :
8/8/16....loved your entry today. I could feel your energy through your words. Hip, hip, hooray. =^..^=
from catsoul :
7/11/15...Good Morning...I know chuck everything and move up here by me. Just a thought. My dad has always thought and probably still thinks that some day I will move into a commune. Why? Because one of my best friends joined one called "The Rainbow People." There is one group here in Northern Wisconsin. He asks me once in awhile if I ever hear from her. Yes I do alot actually. She and I write to one another and sure organic recipes and such. Anyhoo, chuck it all, move up here and let's start a commune on the Island perhaps. I hope that I just made your day! Peace Sister. =^..^=
from catsoul :
6/14/15....You need to be joyful and happy. You need to do what makes you joyful and happy. Make yourself happy. That's all. Peace and joy. =^..^=
from nineofswords :
Hi Katherine! I just now discovered the notes you left! I cannot tell you how delighted I am to find out that you are trying the low carb thing and it's going well!! I am going to get back to writing about that after I finish purging my lengthy and terrible saga. Nice to meet you! I can't read your blog because I have no password. Can I have it?
from annanotbob2 :
Oh darling k how sorry I am to hear you are going through this. I wish I had words of great wisdom and/or a magic wand but all I have is love and virtual hugs and the news that I am in the same way, incapacitated with an endless stream of fears. It will pass, it really will but for now hold on and be very kind to yourself. Time off work sounds essential xxxxxxxxx
from dirtyboots :
Hey, by the way, may I please grab your password? My email address is clarechad@gmail.com if you're willing to share.
from annanotbob2 :
xxxx
from zenayda :
Here's where I remind you of the words a wonderful woman once told me: Be kind to yourself.
from catsoul :
2/23/15...howdy do. Thanks for the note and two things. At first I thought I was going to get a scolding. haha right, a girl 59 years and 3 months old. It hit a cord because my mom always started something with that phrase and oh, she still does. So thanks for the note, really glad the note giving section is working. Have a good week yourself. Be Zen. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Whooppee.....we can note each other.
from annanotbob2 :
Way hey - the notes are back! Love and hugs xxxx
from linguafranca :
The etsy store is JumbleberryRumpus. Not too much up yet because CHILDREN but I dyed a few things yesterday and hope to print/ add to store soon. Thanks for taking a look!
from zenayda :
Sounds like you have a good direction for 2015!
from dangerspouse :
Thank you, and thank you again for such a nice comment at my place. Knowing my experience has been shared by others has provided some comfort. I can't believe how many have chimed in with tales of one pet reacting to the loss of another. I have to deal with a 10 pound cat. I can't imaging how sad it was watching a disconsolate German Shepherd mope about. Thank you again. (And...woo hoo, you like my tree! Lol. Thank god I married an Irish woman. It only took me a month to gather all those corks.) ps...do you share your password with others? I'd like to read your stuff, if so. Thanks!
from zenayda :
Thanks for the kind words, my friend. They mean a lot to me! I hope the farming works out. Sounds like it might be just the right kind of challenge at this point in your life. Also, I love this: "These are times of discomfort, uncertainty, but also of optimism." I can relate to that, boy howdy!
from zenayda :
Don't feel bad about it. Like you said, he needs to go through this process. That's part of the education.
from annanotbob2 :
Hello sweet K, hope you are well - my pc died and I no longer have your password - could you remind me - in a pm on FB if you want it private. Many many thanks for your continuing support in these dark days. Love and hugs xxxxxx
from cocoabean :
I put on anywhere between 8 and 11 K steps at work!
from zenayda :
It upsets me so much to think what students have to deal with these days. It must be exponentially worse for a parent. How frustrating and frightening.
from zenayda :
Hugs, chica. I can concentrate long enough for that!
from catsoul :
8/31/14....when you are ready, you will do you are ready to begin your adventure. As she peers down the new adventure hole, thinking, just a bit more, and I will be there. How about doing a little skipping today, we never forget how to skip. Let's skip for JOY today and forever. You take care, we, your Diaryland readers understand. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
and your friends understand!
from cocoabean :
and who knows? you might have gotten one of those jobs and hated it. The right one is out there waiting for you...
from zenayda :
Good grief. Is it really too much for them to provide something concrete by way of an answer or explanation?
from catsoul :
8/2/14....it does make a person wonder sometimes about others. I probably would have gotten up and left the interview. You should regard yourself with more importance, because you do make a difference. They didn't deserve your time. Don't dwell on this, I know easier said than done. Take Care. =^..^=
from zenayda :
Fingers and other body parts crossed for you! Also, I read MelodyMetuka now and then. She didn't know me, but I'd click on her name when it appeared in the public entries box. I hope she's okay.
from zenayda :
Isn't it something how an unexpected call can stir up thoughts of the past? Hmmm... Maybe I should change my numbers. D'OH! Hugs, chica.
from zenayda :
Whew! One well-wish from you and the sky opens up with fortune! Sending you hugs and love.
from cocoabean :
and we love you, too!
from jarofporter :
...and what kind of an insult is that, anyway? then i realized maybe he meant this - http://farm1.static.flickr.com/50/108309074_5c93022c76.jpg :-P
from jarofporter :
hi! i noticed you added me as a favorite, but your journal is locked. i'd like to read a bit, get to know you, might i have a password? of course, i understand if you'd prefer not to, no sweat!
from zenayda :
WHAT?!? Oh, that is sooooo very, very, wrong! Does no one live by their word anymore? I can't blame you. A pox of fleas on that place. Really.
from annanotbob2 :
Brilliant work, both of you! xxxx
from catsoul :
6/4/15....you are a very lucky woman.
from zenayda :
Woo-hoo! Yay sharp-dressed J!
from annanotbob2 :
Hugs, dear K - hard times, but we plod on through - just listened to Hold On and thought of you. Holding hands across the ocean xxxxx
from zenayda :
Oh, you are definitely not alone in feeling that way. When my parents dropped me off at school in DC, my mother was so down about it that you could see it in her face in my father's photos of her on their first night in Aruba--the Empty Next Second Honeymoon trip. He said she would barely talk for two days. It's natural for a mama bird to feel blue when her babies fledge the nest. *hugs*
from catsoul :
5/22/14....Congratulations to both of you. Awesome, awesome, and more awesome to come. Take Care.
from annanotbob2 :
xxxxx
from catsoul :
5/15/14....Thanks, read the ones I have missed. Talk about floodgates. Good for your son, he has and is doing well. Just think, your tears are for you both. You will float into the next chapter, and it sounds like it too will be a rowing great time. The tears will stop, ready for the next. Time to let him go and smile sunshine beams his way. You did great mom!!!! Take Care. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
It's hard to stop those tears...
from catsoul :
thanks for the note....I had to switch to Chrome now, and I forgot your PW here. Would you mind emailing it to me. I haven't been able to read your writings lately. Thanks. =^..^=
from zenayda :
Thank you, sweetpea. And this too, shall pass. Maybe like a kidney stone, but it will pass!
from cocoabean :
It's amazing when they get to college and suddenly start kicking butt!
from cocoabean :
Again, trust yourself. Look at your work situation logically. Your boss is behind you so you can relax. Just think positively and do your job well and you will be fine!
from zenayda :
What Cocoa said. Trust yourself. Big hugs. Life is so short. You deserve to be happy.
from cocoabean :
Trust yourself...
from cocoabean :
Sometimes its worth the effort to make it to counseling.. make sure you have enough "me" time..
from annanotbob2 :
Not sure exactly what prom king and queen is, but it's clearly a good thing and clearly any son of yours must be exactly the right person for it xxx
from catsoul :
4/12/14...Thanks for your kind words. It will be alright no matter what, you have a great son from the sounds of it. Think Zen and remember to just breathe in the moment, the calm will come. =^..^=
from annanotbob2 :
Good for you, leaving when you should xxx
from zenayda :
Ugh, yes, that is a huge sign, when knowing that you have to go to work brings on awful insomnia. I feel your pain.
from melodymetuka :
Forget about it. I shouldn't have bothered. I won't write you any more.
from zenayda :
Are you still in touch with Frieda? Why not let her know you're thinking about her, and how she affected your life? She might appreciate it.
from cocoabean :
Hang in there... it's early spring fever. Exactly why, every March, I get the urge to move. It lasts a few days, until I realize I really don't WANT to move..
from annanotbob2 :
Hope you had a good deep sleep and feel refreshed today xxxxx
from annanotbob2 :
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from annanotbob2 :
Naps are always good. Love and more love and a big hug my friend xxxx
from zenayda :
Awww. I'm sorry to hear about your dog. :(
from annanotbob2 :
xxx
from annanotbob2 :
Oh what am amazing thought! See you soon!
from annanotbob2 :
Wish I could just beam over to see you, like on Star Trek... xxx
from annanotbob2 :
Love and hugs always xxx
from annanotbob2 :
What she said - I came to say it too! So sorry to hear you are in pain xxx
from zenayda :
Seeing your name in red here makes me happy. :-)
from annanotbob2 :
Good to see you sweet K xx and yay for the artist's way - I did that as a course and it literally changed my life! My understanding of morning pages is that they're different to this - to just keep writing without stopping once even if you have to write 'I don't know what to write' and then to not look at it, to burn it even if that might be politic, and to do it always, every day. Love and hugs, dear K xxx
from cocoabean :
I'll be glad to read you every day!
from dangerspouse :
Woo hoo, what a rockin' way to start my new year! Thanks for the ego stroke/note, kiddo!
from dangerspouse :
Hey, I just saw you added me into your buddy list. Thanks so much, I'm flattered! If your own diary is "access by request" and not "for ME only", how 'bout e-mailing me the password so I can read yours in return? Either way, thanks again and all the best to you :)
from l-empress :
Sounds good. Maybe a little July is what you needed. 8)
from l-empress :
6/24/2013--Be sure to save that offensive email. (I kept a folder I named CYA...) With luck, you may never need to refer to it again. But if she does that again, you have proof, as well as reason to complain. At the very least, change the pronouns and send it back. 8)
from catsoul :
6/22/13...Thanks for your kind words. I appreciate the grade. Have a good weekend. =^..^=
from melodymetuka :
Very much enjoyed those music videos. Thanks.
from annanotbob2 :
20/6 xxxxxxxxx
from cocoabean :
I could have a little extra.. one of my former employers still has a retirement plan for me. I realized today I could have been drawing on it $54 dollars a month. I leave it in for 5 years and it goes up to $183, so I think I will leave it in. I don't need it THAT bad!
from cocoabean :
Once a decision has been made and acted upon, a big pressure is relieved. Seems to me you are in that place. Great!
from cocoabean :
Hang in there.. life alone is (financially) scary, but definitely doable!
from l-empress :
Utopia. (If only.) There is a process called "evaporating the cloud," in which you can diagram a problem ("the cloud") and try to find the fallacy in assumptions. Changing the assumption evaporates the cloud. ***Sorry, it's hard to explain in a short note.
from annanotbob2 :
14/6 (I like the idea of putting a date on the notes). Brilliant stuff, K. I am with you every step of the way xxx
from catsoul :
6/14 good for you, making small steps, when added up later on, they will be a huge advancement in the journey to your self improvement. When my son was going through a lot of things, the way I helped myself through it all was that I came up with a mantra. Here it is, maybe it would help you. "To let go; you need to give up control." I still say this to myself frequently. Another one that came to me a couple of years ago do to situations was: "You can't forgive forever, time to move on." Anyhoo, have a zen weekend. Take Care. =^..^=
from zenayda :
6/12 I'm glad to see you writing again, although I wish there were more joyful reasons for it. Hugs to you, sweet lady.
from annanotbob2 :
Glad you are writing again. Sending big love and hugs and wishes for peace xxxxx
from melodymetuka :
I can't get to your pages. Have you changed your password? Or I've completely forgotten. Can I have it? I was delighted to see your diary show up in red, hope I am still welcome
from cocoabean :
Writing it does help get things out and clear things up. HOping things go the way you want.. I'm behind you!
from l-empress :
I'm glad to see you write. I hope it will help you see the solutions. (Writing it out first always helps.)
from catsoul :
6/9/13...writing is a great way to put it out there for yourself. All those years of being one way, and probably not feeling that you like or respect yourself. I hope on your journey of soul searching finds you a place of joy and a contentment within yourself. Take Care & let it happen. =^..^=
from l-empress :
Just a few {{{hugs}}} to help you through the week.
from l-empress :
I'm hearing your journey and remembering parts of mine. After a while, the little things become easier -- practice, I guess.
from l-empress :
You are sounding better. Hooray!
from zenayda :
Love and gentle hugs to you and your kitteh.
from l-empress :
Poor kitty. That's enough by itself to take the bloom off everything. *** It's a real pain when you find yourself the only person who can do what has to be done. (I remind myself of that whenever I find myself wishing I was still working...)
from annanotbob2 :
Oh no, poor Mizzou and poor you. Me and Bob send love to you both xx
from annanotbob2 :
xxxxxxx
from melodymetuka :
Sorry things are so tough at the moment. You know it will pass, hang in there! It all works out in the end ... if it's not working out, it's not the end. :-)
from l-empress :
Aug. 21 -- How exciting to see the red type that tells me you've written!
from la-the-sage :
I can't leave comments on WP or Haloscan. Why? Who knows? Glad you're around though. I've been wondering! ~LA
from annanotbob2 :
That link to wordpress didn't work. xxx
from l-empress :
Ouch -- for you and John both. It sounds to me as if he has his act together: "do what has to be done..." You're a good mom.
from catsoul :
Thanks for your kind words, I appreciate the time you took out of your life to write them to me. =^..^=
from la-the-sage :
Sounds like the hormones got you by the short ones, my friend. A condition I know all too well. This blast of fear and sadness and regret will pass, promise. In the meantime know that you are loved and your son is and will be fine. ~LA
from annanotbob2 :
These are hard times. Sending love and a shoulder to lean on. Hugs xxx
from cocoabean :
I don't do much on facebook other than play Gardens of Time.. I probably spend a total of 20 minutes reading peoples posts...
from pattypat :
Congratulations on your presentation! That's great! And I LOVE Big Bang - one of the few network destination views. Have a great weekend!
from pattypat :
Hope you are safe and sound after the storms.
from annanotbob2 :
Thinking of you, dear K, and hoping the storm is teeny weeny and passes quickly xx
from pattypat :
Yay for you. Fifty is kind of freeing, isn't it?
from l-empress :
I don't know if it's the age exactly. But somewhere we learn patience with ourselves as well as with others. And we learn "not to sweat the small stuff."
from la-the-sage :
YAYYYYY!!!! I knew you could do it! That someday you would give yourself some kindness and perspective. Reading about the spilled coffee made me grin and grin. I am proud of you. To finally see that you're worth more than that hideous scalding judgment you heaped on yourself all the time...YES! You just made my morning, dearest K. xxoo-LA
from l-empress :
Thank you, thank you. We're back in business. I rebuild a bit at a time -- important things first.
from la-the-sage :
Flipping the "I suck!" turtle on its back and saying, "Look what a good thing I did!" is very hard, but once you make a habit of it? Life is very sweet. Give yourself the chance to shine to yourself, K, I already know how wonderful you are. You should know it too. ~LA
from catsoul :
I like your ideas to be kinder to one's soul and self. Have a great & satisfactory short week. I just had to use your word. Take care. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
There's nothing better than reading in bed!
from fatcowww :
Hi, sorry, I just tried to email you but the gmail address you left in your comment bounced. It's possible my smtp is playing up... I dunno. you can reach me directly via dandelions@ operamail(.com) ... please delete this after reading ;)
from fatcowww :
Hello dear reader ;) I have decided to lock my diary again, probably indefinitely, starting the entry after next. I hope you would still want to read me - if so, please let me know where to send your details for login (via email would be best). Note me or email me (fatcowww@dl). xxx
from catsoul :
I loved reading that you dipped in the Gulf!! I wear a step thingy all the time. Marching in place adds steps. I march in place when I wait by the microwave. I march in place alot when I am holding Taffy and we are looking out the windows or watching the dogs outside. I march in place when I am folding clothes. You can march in place pretty much when you are standing up, just an idea for getting more steps. Action/movement is better than no action/movement. Have a good drive back. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Can you imagine being in the polar bear club in Wisconsin?? Usually the water temp (about 42 by this time) is warmer than the air temp (usually around 0)and they have to chop holes in the ice to allow the polar bears access to the water. Not for me!!!
from annanotbob2 :
That sounds like a great plan. Wishing you a very happy new year, full of great stories xxx
from pattypat :
Happy birthday! Merry Christmas! Healthy and happy New Year!
from melodymetuka :
I may not get back here tomorrow, so let me wish you a day early: a very happy birthday and many returns of the day. Fifty is such a great age to be, I hope you really enjoy it! :-)
from l-empress :
So glad you had such a good Christmas. May it be a portent of the year to come.
from l-empress :
Thank you. Everything in my house is different, but basic Hanukkah is the same. The Daughter and her Gentleman gave me a soft blanket, with a picture of the little girls on it. And yes, I survived the party, as we found out that putting more than 30 people in the basement will not knock the house down.
from pattypat :
Happy Birthday to John!
from l-empress :
He's not a kid any more; he's a young adult. But he'll always be your baby, as long as you don't mention it aloud. Tell him happy birthday from me.
from pattypat :
Thanks! Back in. Ooooo - chocolate soft sheets with a turquoise cover - sounds amazing!
from fatcowww :
Yayyyy! Thank you for being my first survey-taker =) I actually learnt on a typewriter, too - a manual one (only at the very end of the course did we get electric ones, although I didn't encounter the iconic Selectrix until 1987). When I got the 100wpm score I was shocked, actually. I'd just installed a typing tutor prog for a friend and he wanted me to demonstrate how to use the speed test, so I did one at learner speed, but he wanted to see me at my "natural" speed (which usually caused him to scoff) and it gave me the 100wpm result. O_o xxx
from l-empress :
I tend to be tentative; I hate to call people when it's inconvenient for them. I may email and say "call at your convenience." On the other hand, my sister phones and tells me she sent me an email. Go figure.
from enurta :
hi. i got a new computer and lost all the passwords...including yours. could u send the user/pass to my e-mail? I'd love to keep reading. my e-mail is deadpassive@hotmail.com and please delete this note after reading it.
from l-empress :
I wish I could send you strength. What a horrific experience!
from catsoul :
oh my god...you didn't really want to go and do anything for Thanksgiving anyway, right!! Just a side note here. When we flooded last year, we were told that you have 24 hours before the bacteria in the flood water affects you. So bleach the hell out of things. I recall having to put on a mask, and bleached the fuck out of the basement floor and walls. Fans help. I laughed hysterically also throughout it, and I was on vacation that week also. So all said and done, hopefully you can take the new toilet back. I know, what would be relaxing, do some FV or Gardens of Time. Take care. =^..^=
from l-empress :
Lovely. We are all a part of everything we've known.
from annanotbob2 :
xxxx
from l-empress :
Maybe you could inquire of the notifying lawyer, whether there were (genetic) medical issues about which you and your offspring should be aware. It might or might not get you answers, but there can be dangerous results of not knowing about some subjects.
from annanotbob2 :
Sending love and hugs and wishing we could traverse this path together sometimes, when it all gets too hard. For now though, metaphorically arm in arm, onward we go xxx
from cocoabean :
Sounds like Sally got bit!
from l-empress :
I'm glad you checked in; I empathize with the feeling. New clothes always help, except they don't affect the *real* cause. Always remember, there's an idle ear here, willing to listen.
from l-empress :
You have to take the upper hand with pets. You tell him, "Schnauzers can't type because they have no thumbs!" That's what we told Cat.***Hope you get some allergy relief.
from catsoul :
Thanks for the recipe. Sorry to read about work. I too hope that your day goes better today. I don't miss the drama from work at all. I now commune with nature and talk to the animals. Take care. Sending peaceful thoughts your way. =^..^=
from l-empress :
Isn't it wonderful when your kid turns out to be all the things you wanted and couldn't do yourself? The only thing better, would you believe, is hearing the compliment from my little brother.
from catsoul :
The bean soup sounds delicious. Any chance posting the recipe, and do mention if you tweaked the recipe too. Glad work was alright, and awesome how great your son is doing in school, he found his groove! Take care and thanks ahead if you post the soup recipe. =^..^=
from catsoul :
I haven't written you a note in awhile, but I thought I would just stop in and say "hi," sounds like you have had a relaxing week for the most part. Sometimes one needs to take a vacation from the vacation. Take care. =^..^=
from l-empress :
I saw the photo you posted on FB. I would have commented, except I wouldn't want to embarrass the young man. He looks terrific!
from annanotbob2 :
Big hugs across the ocean, dear K. You are an inspiration to me and a great support - I thank you for your kindness. xxxx
from l-empress :
Vacation plans sound wonderful. Enjoy!
from l-empress :
I would have sworn I typed "Ask your doctor..."
from l-empress :
Ah, allergies! When I'm so fearful of the side effects of the prescriptions. (Not for everyone else, just for someone with my ideosyncrasies.) As your doctor whether you can use something like [your favorite brand of] pain reliever P.M. The P.M. meds are usually mild allergy relievers, so that I sleep well and wake up without a sinus headache.
from annanotbob2 :
Hope you feel better soon, dear K xxx
from l-empress :
Oh, wow! A combination of your John, who is so handsome, and Leroy Jethro Gibbs. Be prepared for female invasion!
from fatcowww :
Hi, I see you have added me :) Am curious about you, but you are locked. Wondering if I can be allowed to read? If not, I understand. Cheers...
from l-empress :
Right back at you, my friend. I am so glad you feel like writing regularly again.
from l-empress :
Re AnotB: She's on my Buddy List, but it's asking for a password, which I never got. Rather than ask you to give it to me, can I ask you to have her mail me at the email address you have. My thanks.
from annanotbob2 :
xxxxxx
from annanotbob2 :
God, I love Wally Lamb xx
from enurta :
Thanks for the note, Im just used to others being mean to me so I am mean to myself. Or rather, the voices are mean to me. And I let them, I agree with them. Everyone keeps saying Im a good person but I have a hard time believing it. If I was good, why would monster abuse me? He is my father, arent parents supposed to love their children? Treat them with kindness and love? So I figure, I must be a bad person. Otherwise, monster wouldnt have treated me the way he did while I was a kid, teenager, and now adult.
from enurta :
I'm sorry for your loss. *hugs*
from annanotbob :
I'm so sorry for your loss. Big hugs, darling, big hugs xxx
from bluecharis :
Hi there! I'm a bit back and wanted to check out your diary... But the password doesn't work anymore... Could you send it to me (blue@gruft.de) - I'd love to read from you again!! Love, Britta
from l-empress :
So nice to see you writing regularly again. More power to you!
from la-the-sage :
Planet of the Apes totally sucked. So does being awake when you need some good sleep. Hope you get some. (That sounds naughty.) ~LA
from l-empress :
I guess you're all set, as far as Noxzema goes. (And it does work.) However, should you ever find yourself sunburned without Noxzema handy, you might find milk of magnesia soothing.
from annanotbob :
xxxxxx
from cocoabean :
I know what you mean about buying a big box of something and it being a "lifetime supply". Even a big roll of saran wrap lasts me three years!
from cocoabean :
I've been told the best way to find a phone in the dark is to call it, because most of them light up when a call comes in. However, that requires a second phone, something not everyone has. heh.
from annanotbob :
Thanks for the kind comments. LOst PC means I've no longer got your password, could you send it again? Message on FB? Hope all is well with you all xxx
from l-empress :
Back in the days of 8-letter file names, I often found old files I had named ****anal, and I would wonder why I did that... I'm not always that compulsive, aka anal.
from la-the-sage :
I figured it was just summer keeping you so busy. And I was right! However it is very good to hear from you. Dunno if I could deal with autocorrect, my spelling isn't that bad and I'd hate it if my machine insisted it knew what I meant to say better than I do. ~LA
from annanotbob :
Big hugs and love to you and your family xxx
from l-empress :
I know that D'land is unreliable, but is it really two weeks since you've written?
from fifidellabon :
Dreams seem to be linked to the tornado. My sister that I never talk about lives in Springfield, where they just had tornados. I thought of you. XOFifi
from catsoul :
Good for your son. Is he seeking summer employment? He could volunteer to help with clean up. I always think and still do, a happy person is a busy and productive one. It helps build character and compassion for others. Just a thought. Take care & enjoy the company, don't fret about the house, who are they coming to visit, you and your family or the house! =^..^=
from annanotbob :
So relieved you, your family and your home survived. As soon as I saw your town, I rushed to see if you were OK. Wishing you all the very best through these difficult times. Love xx
from melodymetuka :
Glad to hear you are okay. When I pray I am remembering all who are affected.
from pattypat :
I am thinking and praying for you and your family, and your neighbors.
from dirtyboots :
Hey, champ, can I get in on the secret diary you've got going on here? If yes, my e-mail is clarechad@gmail.com. Peace out and continue the good work with not wearing one-piece long johns.
from swimmmer72 :
I agree (below). When I heard where the storm hit hardest, well, you know. I'm glad you are safe and will pray for those in your area. XO
from casa-rosie :
So glad to see that you and yours are safe, I came on here to check after hearing the news. My prayers are with everyone in the devastated area. Hugs!
from swimmmer72 :
I hope you came through that horrendous weather in your area in good shape! Scary stuff!
from catsoul :
Awesome son....you go mom!!!!! =^..^=
from cocoabean :
With weather like that, I might take two Xanax!
from enurta :
thank you so much for the support. it means a lot <3
from annanotbob :
Thanks for your kind comment - it meant a lot. I'm so glad you had such a good day today and love the sound of your back garden. There was a great old gardener that did a TV series here called 'Paradise Gardens' about making your patch your very own little piece of paradise, whatever that means to you and mine is always as overgrown as I can get it. No turtles though. Hugs xx
from fightn4life :
Of course I would love you to read my diary, I locked up because of things going on with BM and I don't want his friends or family to clue him, especially when I file for divorce. Write me at ozarkdrm@gmail.com and put pass word or key in the subject line. I'll get it right to you. xo Sandyz (fightn4life)
from cocoabean :
Consider checking out your ponds before you go to the Depot... it could save you a trip or two..
from wifemotherme :
Did you change your password?
from catsoul :
Hi, sometimes I feel just like how you are. I am rowing in a boat and getting no where, then I realize that I wasn't even rowing, just adrift. At those times, like my little dog Sadie, I am just looking for that sunshine spot to encompass me and make it all better. I am sure that in time friend, it will pass and you will go on rowing in your merry way. Take care & my thoughts are with you in your boat. =^..^=
from fifidellabon :
Sounds a good time to attack the STBM List. That is the Stuff That Bugs me List! XOFifi
from melodymetuka :
What is Words With Friends? How does one play? I'd be happy to join in a game if you don't mind training a neo.
from cocoabean :
The basil plants we sell smell sooooo good!
from cocoabean :
Glad John is improving and positive! You are truly blessed!
from swimmmer72 :
"Poor democrats, they need all the help they can get." <- That would be really funny if it wasn't so true..... :)
from fifidellabon :
HAH! I was deffo not down with Lack-O-Ork drama as well! You totally rock! XOFifi
from fifidellabon :
Oh, I know what you mean about drama. I am simply exhausted from all that has been going on. I suspect that I might like it even less than you! XOFifi
from annanotbob :
(((hugs)))
from pattypat :
Maybe your son is still recovering from that virus that seems to have kicked the tar out of him a few weeks ago. I'm thinking healthy, positive thoughts for you all!
from linguafranca :
Mmm, Kelp Mung Surprise! Just add a can of cream of mushroom soup and top it with cheese. Either that, or something involving lime jello.
from h2ophobic :
When I read this the phrase "all that and a bag of chips" popped in my head, except you got "all that and a bag of peanuts." Ha! Is John participating in Destination Imagination? Hooray! I was involved with it for several years, first as a team coach and then the school liason. It's a wonderful wonderful program. Unfortunately it was dying out in MT. I'm glad to see it's still kicking somewhere. Take care!
from cocoabean :
I have had days like that recently.. they are fairly new to me, since I never had them in Wisconsin.. I realized that I was just happy with the way my life was. I must say, I really love that feeling!
from la-the-sage :
YAY for feeling good and new jackets! Mwah! ~LA
from catsoul :
I sure hope that your digestive system realigns for you. Ouch to say the least. My I suggest you empty out your system. Then start with water and broths, jellos, and toast. Then add some rice. Dont' move on to another food entry until you feel that your body is OK. Then lots of rice, and a half a banana at a time. If you eat too many bananas they have been known to ferminate in the gut. So I sure hope it gets better, it does really hurt times a zillion, I know. Take care. =^..^=
from pattypat :
Hi! I never got the email with your info. You can try sending it to pmcgowansamson at yahoo dot com Thanks!
from catsoul :
Hi, you did well, congratulations are in order for your great, productive day!! Hey, have you tried Whips by Yoplait? They have more protein in them than cottage cheese and alot less fat. I love the orange creme and peaches one. My huband loves the key lime. I used to hate the taste of yogart, but the whips are like eating fluffiness!! =^..^=
from annanotbob :
The Artist's Way changed my life! Literally - I would never have attempted any kind of visual art before doing it and there were many less definable benefits as well. I am thrilled for you - I definitely think a group is the very best way to do it, too. xxx
from cocoabean :
Wow, what a day!
from cocoabean :
Teens are such weird animals... perfect one day, total wrecks the next. Dude was a struggle, but it's worth it now. Thanks!
from boombasticat :
Well, thank you, very much, for your note. I'd love to read your journal, too, if I can. Thanks again.
from pattypat :
Yes, I've missed reading you this last week, and I would welcome the "log-in junk." Thanks! PattyP
from la-the-sage :
Got in! (I hope, with D-land one is never certain.) I understand your wanting to give your son the keys to the broadest options possible and admire your smarts to have broken it down so well. Most parents do want the best for their kids but nary a clue as to what best is or where to find it. ~LA
from catsoul :
It is wonderful to care, being an ex special education teacher(was a special education teacher for 16 years), I have to say that I have seen people who have given up on their children, I wish that I had you as a parent for the children I worked so hard to read and comphrehend. Thanks again for letting me continue reading what you write about. Take care. =^..^=
from casa-rosie :
Came back from my busy week and it looks like you have a new PW, I'd love to have it if you are sharing! casa.rosie at gmail.
from annanotbob :
I don't know the novel, so checked it out. The first review on amazon.uk was from someone who couldn't get it at all in high school but loved it later. In my experience, academic ability does not rise in a straight and steady line, but more in leaps and bounds intermitted with periods of stagnation and even regression. Which is inconvenient for target-driven teachers, but that's another story. I'd be inclined to make him a cake and say better luck next time, kiddo. Hope you're feeling better xx
from melodymetuka :
Don't fret about boy's reading (or not) clearly he can read, he is not illiterate. If/when there is something that interests him enough, he will read it. A Separate Peace? Never read it, am not considered illiterate (in English at least) by any. In terms of life skills needed to survive in modern life, I'm sure he has all he needs at this age. Don't fret.
from h2ophobic :
My pet peeve too is people who go to work/school/outinpublic obviously ill and contagious. Myemail is h20phobic@msn.com (that's htwenty). Take care!
from catsoul :
awesome, thanks so much. ambereyesforyou@yahoo.com Oh it's me, catsoul =^..^=
from catsoul :
Wishing you and your family the best in the future. I will miss reading what you so eloquently write. Take care. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
drkchoclover at gmail.com... thanks!
from annanotbob :
Hope you feel better soon - strangely good to hear your righteous anger! I'd like to keep reading, if that's OK with you. annamills46@hotmail.com xxx
from catsoul :
hi again, you know that a C grade is average, and I am sure you also know that 10 years from now the only one who may remember the C- grade on this English quiz may be you. In the big scope of life, we as moms shouldn't feel that a C- grade is a personal poke at us. I have been there. Your son John needs to know that he can control his grade by studying more, if he so chooses, I will leave it at that. Males due mature mentally later than females also, just some fodder for thought. So other than that, have a great Friday night. =^..^=
from h2ophobic :
I'm glad to read that John is feeling better! I thought about you yesterday...I was watching the Barefoot Contessa on TV. She went to a local farm and got a vegetable box. I've always wondered about them when you wrote about it. Now I know. ;o) It seems like it's a different array every week? I'm going to ask around here to see of we have anything local like that. Take care!
from catsoul :
Hi, do you ever wonder if maybe you think too much? How about just breathe in the quietness of your soul, letting yourself just be, therein lies the peace within yourself. =^..^= P.S. I just thought of this. Go me, K. this is what I do for myself, and I just put it into words. :)
from melodymetuka :
Off the top of my head I would recommend In The Garden of Emuna. If you send me your address I'll happily send you a copy, or you can find it on Amazon. There are undoubtedly others that are easier to read and less wide-ranging (I don't always care for the author's way of presenting the message, but it's fundamentally sound). The fundamental premise is that Hashem wants us to be happy and values our happiness more than just about anything else. Here's hoping you don't get sick, and son recovers quickly. ;-)
from minstrelite :
I am sorry to hear that John is so sick, and that you had to spend Martin Luther King Day in such a way. You certainly have my prayers and well wishes.
from cocoabean :
Obama might not be perfect, but at least he has a heart and soul... something a lot of politicians lack. I am glad too, that he's the president.
from catsoul :
Hi K, so you missed my words for what they are worth, right back at you then for when you haven't written in awhile. I have a new laptop computer, so I had to go looking for alot of user names and passwords. As you see I was successful. I hope that you keep your "buzz" going. It is amazing how joyful and upbeat life can be when one's spirits are abuzzzzzzzzzzzzing!! Thanks for your kind words. Take care and have a excellent pm. =^..^=
from minstrelite :
Happy New Year. :)
from catsoul :
Happy New Year right back at you and your family. I also want to add how eloquently you write. I always enjoy reading what you write. It is very inspiring and gee why didn't I think of that. You are such a thinker. Take care. =^..^=
from pattypat :
Happy Birthday! I hope you have a happy, healthy 2011.
from catsoul :
Happy, happy birthday to you. When I turned "50" I thought, wow, half a century under my belt, then why do I still feel like an teenager sometimes. So hope that you are already having a great day! Stay in bed all day having fun!! Take care. =^..^=
from swimmmer72 :
For what it's worth, I'm a few years older than you and to give you some hope, it has only been the last few years that I've really felt I've gotten my act truly together. Sure, just as many changes to deal with as ever - you know, just when you think you have something figured out, you get a little older and it changes all over again - but the good news it that it took tweaks and not major renovation. So, to use an analogy, don't tear down the whole damn house, just strengthen a wall or two. You seem pretty together to me. May your 50th year be a good one!
from h2ophobic :
Merry Christmas to you, Bill and John! Take a few moments to enjoy your company. I promise, you're the only one who will notice the little things that aren't perfect. We're having Christmas Eve dinner here and my only cleaning will be a quick dust-mop to pick up the pet hair! (Ah...if only that last line were true! I'll be running around like the crazed person I'm advising you not to be!) Take care my friend!
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry about your step grandson. HUGS! I also have the inner dialog issue. Someone once told me it was RTD (Rapid Thought Disorder.) After Jeff died and I was on anti-depressants, I thought it would get better but it didn't. As I've had it my whole life, I'm fairly used to it, but like you, get very tired of it. Take care!
from annanotbob :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLcyJ3qNcGg I suffer from the same thing a lot of the time, the running commentary, never able to just be. The mantra above has been very helpful - I chant along with it. Every time thoughts come in I try and gently push them away and concentrate on the words of the mantra. It's a mantra to Ganesh, thnking him for help given and asking for more help to remove obstacles to progress. It has been very soothing. There's a load more info if you google. Best wishes xxxx
from catsoul :
Maybe if you figure out the "why" of the inner voice dialogue they too will cease. I always wonder if anyone hears when we speak. Could it be that you need to be heard. That would be darn annoying, I know, just do more FarmVille! Hey that was funny, ha, ha, are you giggling yet. Hey there could be worse things going on in your head, right? Take care. =^..^=
from swimmmer72 :
I'm not trying to rub it in, but reading your entry gave me another reason to be thankful, and that is that my life is not nearly as complicated as yours. I think I need to be reminded of just how hard most people have to work at normal complications of life and how lucky I am to have it be so simple. I admire your diligence in working to get it right!
from catsoul :
P.S. oops, about a hobby, what do you like to do? I knit, knitting for me is like having a thread to sanity. :) =^..^=
from catsoul :
That simmering, harboring, underlying anger is very sapping. I have been there. I have a mantra I made up, that helps me. "To let go, you need to give up control." My anger I have is always against myself, so when I let it go, because as a person we are worth alot, it helps me. I hope that things improve. You have to take care of yourself to take care of your loved ones. Easier said than done, as they say. So do a little FarmVille! It helps me alot. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Could I get your password again please? drkchoclover AT gmail.com... thanks!
from pattypat :
I'm sorry you're feeling down. I hope things turn around for you.
from catsoul :
Sounds like as the days get shorter in sunlight for you, the darkness creeps in around the edges, and doubt in yourself rears up. So, how about taking in more vitamin D, just a passing thought. Take care. =^..^=
from swimmmer72 :
Yes, big difference between short and long course! I remember the first time I swam in a long course pool - it was a little cloudy to begin with and visibility was less than ten yards (meters). It seemed like I had swam into a twilght zone fog from which I would never find my way out, just following the line on the bottom of the pool that went on forever. It takes some getting used to! As far as everything else, you're doing what you can - just be patient and all the pieces, including John, will fall into place. Just a transition of sorts! Good Luck!
from annanotbob :
I must get back to swimming! Can you send me your password again as I mainly use my laptop and I don't have it on there. annamills46@hotmail.com thanks xx
from swimmmer72 :
Good analogy!! Yep, you're right - the less resistance you make for yourself, the easier it will be and it doesn't matter if you are swimming laps or back in the workplace! I use water analogies all the time and I'm surprised that (as a swimmer) I never thought of that one! Just keep yourself long and lean!!
from cocoabean :
I lost your password, would you mind sending it to me? drkchoclover at gmail. Thanks!
from swimmmer72 :
Thanks for the good wishes!! I'll do my best to make it happen! :)
from swimmmer72 :
It's too bad we don't live closer - I could teach you to swim whatever stroke you wanted and it wouldn't be long before you'd be putting those triathletes to shame! Wouldn't that be a hoot!! :)
from swimmmer72 :
Good job on the mile!! Especially under those circumstances - no swim buddy and hotshot triathletes - you did well just going AND getting in the water! You don't swim freestyle? You should work on that - you'd swim that mile soooo much faster! Next would be flip turns and then you'd be beating the crap out of those triathletes! Good for you!
from h2ophobic :
A mile? Good for you and your big girl pants!!
from annanotbob :
Fantastic - what an achievement!
from l-empress :
And I was going to continue, thank you for commenting. Please don't e-mail me, until I have a usable e-mail address again.
from l-empress :
And I was going to continue, thank you for commenting. Please don't e-mail me, until I have a usable e-mail address again.
from l-empress :
Sorry to use this awful site for messages. It's just that my last link to the world, FB, doesn't exist according to my browser.
from flicka :
I'm back with my journal unlocked. Paranoia is getting better every day.
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry about your friend. {HUGS} Idiots tend not to like me either. My grandmother used to say it was because I "don't suffer fools gladly." I'm actually proud of this trait, and have passed it on to my children. I guess that's why I don't care for reality TV. "Fools names, fools faces, always seen in public places." Take care, my friend.
from swimmmer72 :
Personally, I think you have to be true to yourself. If morons dislike you, let that be their problem rather than yours. Being admired for your intellect is not a bad thing. BTW, I'm glad to see you're sticking with swimming! Until they bulldozed the pool I always swam in, I swam as much as I could. I miss it.
from h2ophobic :
The photo of John is amazing! Thanks for sharing. I love your deep thought! "Deep thought: Act the way you want to feel. Keep trying and then try again."
from casa-rosie :
I did the 15 albums, and I must say that the picture of John with the hummer is awesome!
from pattypat :
I visit that anxiety place frequently. I wish I knew why we always assume that we are at fault and consequences will always involve us personally. I'm right there with you on the trail of no job, destitute, living like a bag lady...then I try and smack myself out of it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I hope you find something that works for you!
from h2ophobic :
As a fellow anxiety sufferer...a cyber hug to you from me! You must be so proud of John for his behavior with your older friend! Teenagers always manage to surprise us, don't they?
from h2ophobic :
"Tomorrow he may knock over a Pick-n-Pay, but today, he rocks." I laughed so hard, I choked on my coffee. Having lived with 3 separate 14 year olds...I know the truth of that statement. I would love to visit you and your boys if we get to your area. Unfortunately, I only have a vague idea of where that is. ;o) Let me know and I'll drop you a line if it looks like we'll be out that way. Take care! Oh yeah...you rock with all this swimming and yoga!
from swimmmer72 :
Don't be jealous - the same circumstances that brought them to me could also bring them to you somewhere down the road. And, for the record, they are an amazing couple! Friendly, interesting, obviously loving! We had a great meeting and I think they seem inclined to try it again, possibly in your area. You never know!
from h2ophobic :
You're so sweet. :o) My new blog is at h2ophobic.wordpress.com. Take care!
from h2ophobic :
I'm sorry that life is giving you such a hard time right now. Definitely keep up the swimming. (BTW - you ROCK at swimming!) You deserve to have something that you enjoy and the fact that it is good for you makes it even better...even if you can only spend a 1/2 hour a day doing it. The physical and emotional lift that it gives you is well worth the time. I'm sending positive thoughts your way! I hope this week brings you much joy and laughter. Take care!
from pattypat :
Hey! You're a person who swims! Alot! I'm feeling motivated.
from catsoul :
That is awesome...the swimming. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Have you considered reading sci-fi to him? Robert Heinlein has some fun books!
from onmyquest :
Thanks! I've tried looking at your entries but it's locked. Any way I could have a peek?
from h2ophobic :
I cried the first day of Kindergarten for all 3 of my kids. With the two boys, I was excited for them on their first day of high school. For Shelby however, knowing she was the baby and the last one at home...I shed a tear or two on her first day of high school. It's such a different world for them. They truly do begin to shrug off the cloak of childhood and put on the beginning of who they will be as an adult. Having gone through this three times I can only advise you to embrace every bit that you can. Also...walk softly and carry a big stick! ;o)
from pattypat :
Hope you have a restful weekend.
from h2ophobic :
I've started my new blog. It's h2ophobic.wordpress.com. I hope to get caught up with my reading too. Take care!
from corposant :
Delighted to hear that ESR#2 is a good chocie for those who are wary of poetry. You're on my list of favorites. Am reading now.
from corposant :
Thank you for adding me to your favorites. I won't presume on first aquaintance and ask you for your password, but I will admit I'm curious. Hope you continue to enjoy reading me.
from mel-is-dvash :
Oh, man, I would so like to have a pool like that. I'm a bit jealous, I *love* to swim. :-) Good luck with Bill back, & keep counting your blessings. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
from h2ophobic :
Hi! We arrived safe and sound in Oklahoma on Sunday. I've been without the internet for a week! I'm just catching up with everyone. Take care.
from planetpink :
Just wanted to thank you for your kind note! <3 I really appreciated the insight on my writing... I'm thinking more and more of trying to publish a book, and when I receive feedback like yours, it makes me feel like I might actually be able to do it some day! Thanks! And I'm glad you're still around, reading. What's a blog good for if no one reads it? :D
from planetpink :
Hi! I used to blog as astralounge. I know it's been a million years, but you'd asked to follow when I started my new blog. Well, I finally did and here it is! Take care! :D
from dirtyboots :
Oops, I mean, thanks for the message on MY diary. Arg.
from dirtyboots :
Hey, thanks for the message on your diary. I can't read yours becauser it's got a password protect thingy but I bet it's ace. I think I unlocked the secret to partially lint-free black jeans - wet your hands slightly and wipe down. Better than a lint brush, surprisingly. And it lasts up to two whole hours. Then you just have to pretend to yourself they're still unfluffy, otherwise you'd just go mad.
from h2ophobic :
Have a wonderful time at the beach! I hope you come back all tan and relaxed. Try not to worry/stew about your "friend." Whether she's terminally ill or not, all you can do is pray for her. (Shakes head sadly) Anyway...go HAVE FUN!
from h2ophobic :
Cobbler for dinner sounds perfect to me. Sometimes we have feed our soul, as well as our body! I'm so happy for you (and jealous) that you get to go to the beach next week. I hope you have a very relaxing and fun time!
from manvsdevil :
Thanks for the add, I apologise for not thanking you earlier- I hardly check my notes...
from pattypat :
Your farmer's market dinner sounds FABULOUS!
from catsoul :
How about John looking for a job. Maybe he could create a job for himself. He could make things and sell them on line. He could structure his day, keep a log to show proof of working on his ideas. Just an idea for you. =^..^=
from msleslie :
If you would send me your password, I promise not to make a scene.
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations John! BTW Mom, I have found that high school is MUCH more fun than Middle School. For both the student and the parents. A lot of the MS drama just fades away as they enter high school. Good luck!
from minstrelite :
I often appreciate the way the Italian people are a little more passionate (or at least expressive) than the norm.
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations to John for having/showing outstanding character. I believe that's a rare thing these days. Congratulations to Mom...for teaching him to be that way!
from catsoul :
You are so close to having the water run over your hands....you must be dreaming about running water! That is so awesome about John, congrats to you. Have a good Thursday. =^..^=
from h2ophobic :
I feel your pain. {{HUGS}} Several years ago we did a huge remodel upstairs and downstairs. It seemed like it went on for YEARS. One day I snapped and just started cleaning surfaces. My husband thought I'd lost my mind because all the workers were coming back the next day. I didn't care. I couldn't look at the mess and dirt for one more second. :o)
from h2ophobic :
You are now officially the "turtle lady." That's how I got into rescuing chihuahuas, I would see one that wasn't in a good environment and would volunteer to find it a new home. The new home usually ended up being my home. ;o)
from swimmmer72 :
I'm glad I asked for the password! It may take me a while to figure out the cast of characters, but you have an interesting diary and I'm sure I'll enjoy it. My camera? I have an old Minolta SLR film camera which I supplanted w/an Olympus digital SLR E-500. I like it but it is a monster, so the new cam is an Olympus Stylus 7030. Pocketsize, w/lots of features. I think it will be much handier and should still take great pictures at about 1/5th the cost. It won't replace the other Olympus, but I'd use it when carrying the big camera is a pain. Anyway, I hope you get all your construction finished up - it sounds like you have a heck of a project going on! :)
from swimmmer72 :
Is there any chance I could get your password? If so, I can get reached at SELsteveO at verizon.net. Thanks! I appreciate you adding me as a favorite!
from catsoul :
I think that you need a good dish of your favorite ice cream! Just hang in there, look at it this way, at least you don't have to cook or do dishes! Distract yourself with FarmVille, that's the answer. Anyhoo, take care & hey Happy Mother's Day to you each and every day. =^..^=
from la-the-sage :
Having had the ultimate luxury of renovating this house while still living in the other, I can only imagine the horror and inconvenience of renovating a kitchen that you have to live with while in progress. My deepest sympathies, my dear one. ~LA
from h2ophobic :
I used to love to weed. It's back breaking work, but you can see the results immediately. I also loved the way the warm dirt felt on my hands. We don't have any flowers now, only a rock garden that requires little or no weeding. (Shelby's allergic to bee stings.) That's probably a good thing...I don't think my back would allow it now.
from h2ophobic :
I loved reading this entry. You sound so relaxed and happy. You deserve it! These little pieces of life that work out make the other days more livable, don't they? I hope your weekend is absolutely wonderful!
from cocoabean :
Strangely strong margaritas? Sounds like a plan to me!
from h2ophobic :
Yay for you enjoying your 4/10's! Enjoy your three day weekend. Double (triple?) yay for Bill putting on his big boy panties and standing up to Girl on his own! May this be the first of many! I know you love and care about her, but when we make grown up decisions (marriage) we have to produce our own grown up solutions. That's how we become true adults. {{HUGS}}
from la-the-sage :
Guess what? The kid STILL hates you even if you wait until he's supposedly all grown and shit. Do what you gotta, when you need to, dear heart. Age of child is no guarantee of patience or acceptence on the kid's end. Alex spit in my face for daring to get out and be safe and happy. Wolf freaked right the fuck out, but is doing okay now. Go figure. ~LA
from h2ophobic :
Enjoy your Monday off! I worked 4/10's years ago. There were things I liked about it, but more that I didn't. Shelby was in Intermediate school and I always felt I was too tired to ever do anything with her. I did love having an extra day off to run errands and clean the house, though. I might try it again after our big move.
from floodtide :
Range hood: A+. Faucet - I'd go with it; it's the kind I'd choose. Sink: not sure about this one. Is it under-counter? flush? drop-in? If you're spending that much for a sink get an under-counter mount so you can just brush stuff into it. Also: why do you want a double sink? The older I get the more convinced I am that the divider between sections just gets in the way. Unless you're someone who washes dishes with one soapy side and one clean-water-rinse side. Thanks for the nod about my meeting today. It's why I'm awake at 1:30. Went to bed early for the cough and congestion but woke at 12:30 and can't sleep. Shit. Glad John's track meet was good.
from la-the-sage :
Might I suggest that on Friday night you load up some music that does ya best, like from college or even high school, pour yourself a stiff drink and then DANCE! Sing it loud with a hairbrush microphone. Don't mope, but cry if it comes. But above all DANCE. Love you always, ~LA
from h2ophobic :
I understand the not fitting in feeling. I've felt that way for most of my life too. Even when it comes to writing notes and comments...I try not to read the notes and comments left before because then I feel silly writing what I mean to write. Enjoy your night of gluttony and sloth! I'm alone all to often now, but remember how much I looked forward to it when the kids were younger and all at home. Eat something you would never serve to your family. Watch a movie that you've wanted to see. Do whatever makes you feel relaxed and happy. Take my word for it...you've earned it!
from cocoabean :
There is nothing worse than a co-worker who won't talk... been there, done that. Wanted to slap the bitch.
from catsoul :
I hope that today(Tuesday) was better for you. I call my MIL "psycho bitch," frequently, so I so get what you mean. Sometimes she decides I said or did something offending, though I don't know ever what it is, and she decides that she will not talk with me for a time. I like that when it happens. So take care and play some FarmVille, it is very mindless and relaxing, no pressures! =^..^=
from la-the-sage :
The hormones are whacking me right the hell out too. Wanna come over and stab things with me? We have cats with diarrhea here so the smell will be somewhat familiar. ~LA
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry yesterday sucked so badly. :o( The grandmother who raised me has been gone for several years. Occasionally I can hear her say things like "You paid money to have your hair look like that?" "I thought you said you'd lost weight, I can't see it." Aaaahhh the love. Hang tight. I think you're wonderful - from you shoes to your lost wallet. BTW, how does changing your handwrititing change how many pairs of shoes you own? That's some maternal wisdom I've never heard. P.S. I loved the Bill O'Reilly comment.
from la-the-sage :
OMG! Your notes actually opened! Been trying for weeks! Anyway, I do know the zen of the endless chore (you powerwash, I scrub floors, same diff) and it's great. I also have one of those home kid/school cool dudes living in my house. Weird how he changes back and forth. Can we take it as a sign of how much they love us that they're willing to be our babies when in their 'real' life they're on their way to being full-fledged guys? ~LA
from h2ophobic :
As you know I do payroll for my little school district. I always appreciate when someone notices a difference/mistake on their check and calls right away. We are human and we do make mistakes (even though we try very hard not to.) Mistakes caught right away are so much easier to fix. I think you should talk to your doctor about your anxiety meds. I had to try three different ones before I found the one that worked for me. The second one actually increased my anxiety. Meds work differently for different people. Anxiety sucks and you shouldn't have to suffer. They can find something else to help you. Good luck!
from la-the-sage :
OW! No tucking in? Ow, ow, ow! As a fellow sufferer who always sees ill omens in chicken entrails (and bad weather, good weather, suspicious smoothness, choppy seas, etc) let me just wish you all the luck and happy breaks as required. ~LA
from h2ophobic :
I've wondered many times, but always forget to ask...are those your turtles in the photo? Spring break flew by here as well. :o( It's so good that you got good news on your stress test. One less thing to worry about,right? Don't be like me and move a new worry into it's place! Have a great week!
from minstrelite :
Why did you delete all my notes of the last three months or so? Are you mad at me?
from minstrelite :
I've missed you on DiaryLand the last few days. I hope all is well.
from mel-is-dvash :
A plague of *toads*? Wow. My silly bone wants to say 'can I have one?' I've always had a soft spot for a toad. I hope things start looking better soon - I'm living in a state of utter disrepair myself. Now that the plumbing is working, sort of, John will *never* actually fix the walls, put up new tile, paint, &tc. *sigh*
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry. These things seem to all band together so they can slap us silly at the same time, don't they? I was wondering, is it possible that your Drama Queen is Native American? If so, she may be the long lost sister of MH. ;o) {{HUGS}}
from h2ophobic :
No lunch? You're working too hard!:o) I hereby give you a note excusing you from ANY work this weekend. I have a funny feeling that your next week will be just as busy as this one was.
from h2ophobic :
I hope you have a great week! After reading your entry yesterday, I realized my doggies were a bit "odor-challenged" as well. We washed them all last night. I told them it was your fault. They'd all like to have a word with you. ;o)
from catsoul :
I just read 2/15/10 entry. I feel your rage sister and then some for you. Hang in there, we do what we need to do and you are doing it, this to will pass, and damn those passive-aggressive incidents. I so hear what you were writing. Take care and find your happy place. =^..^=
from h2ophobic :
Yay for John! One of my boys was like that. He made A's or F's. No in between. It was hard to celebrate the A's because I knew the F's were close behind. ;o) I freak out when I can't find something too. Especially if I think I KNOW where it should be. If my OCD kicks in, I'm almost unbearable. Then when I find it, I always feel silly for overreacting. I guess that's life. Have a great Wednesday. Hooray for Hump Day!
from catsoul :
Yeah for John!! I like your word, "engage," meaning being there, as part of the support system. Good thinking. =^..^=
from catsoul :
Your son knows what will happen if his grades slide. It will only take it happening only once to sink in if it does. He needs to step up and take responsibility to meet the assignment deadlines. Think of it as getting prepared for life. Alot of parents, just keep pushing and overly helping(can I say doing the child's project) because they soooooo feel it is a reflection of themselves and don't want to fail). So with that though shared, you have taught your son that hard work does have its merits and let him find out what happens when he doesn't do his schoolwork. I know, easier said than done, I finally only asked once in the evening, do you have your homework completed, and sometimes I knew he had some to do but just didn't do it. Life is a journey to self merit and it only comes and is learned by doing it ourselves. You have set the foundation, and now let the young man build for himself. =^..^=
from cocoabean :
Having been through this, the advice given to me was to let the kid do what he wants, and suffer the consequences. Being off the team due to grades might just do the trick.
from cocoabean :
If you come to San Diego, I would love to meet you!
from h2ophobic :
That is so cool that they named a bkbl play after John! Woot!
from catsoul :
Hi, I read your entry about your upcoming tests, and I would recommend that you do have a driver. I have had many of those contrast/dye injections and it takes awhile for it exit the old body. I will tell you a little about the beginning feeling so you don't feel so nervous. For me, the give me a little drosy meds, then they do the IV hookup thingy, when the dye begins to flow into you, you start to taste a little metalic in your mouth, then I swear it feels like you have to tinkle, but you don't. Just breathe and relax, drift into your mind. Having had numerous heart related tests and other stuff, find your zen and/or favorite escape place and go there. After reading about the drive of 80 mph or so to get there, how about someone else, like a good girlfriend to drive you. Other than that, I can say, don't dwell on it because what use is that, what is, is, I say. Take care fellow FV Farmer!! =^..^=
from minstrelite :
Thanks, K. I appreciate the kindness of your note as well. Many blessings - A.
from minstrelite :
I am very, very sorry for the last email that I sent you. I don't know why I ever get so mad. I haven't been on the Internet for two weeks now, and I thought about you often, and how I lashed out at you. You don't have to reply if you don't want to, but I want you to know that I think well of you, and wish you well.
from wifemotherme :
Don't delete your FB account. you can block people from seeing anything about you at all. Have people you dont like that you think might try to friend you, just look them up first and block them. Easy breezy. PS I wish you had a link to notes on your page. I do suck at leaving notes but by the time I track down the link to leave you a note, I tend to have forgotten what it was I was going to say in the first place. PSS: Our daughters could be twins!
from h2ophobic :
I had to close my FB account too. I enjoyed it for awhile. Then, the crazies started coming out of the woodwork. Three people in particular. I had tried very hard to remove them (and their craziness) from my life. Then one day...there they were on FB. I hope it works out better for you.
from h2ophobic :
I too am the heavy in our marriage. My Bill also cannot say no to anyone (except Shelby & me.) I wonder if it's a Bill thing? Anyway, I will say (having raised three children with the youngest about to graduate high school) our children tend to quit speaking to the one they know they can depend on. They know our love is unconditional and we truly want what is best for them...in the long run. Therefore they are "safe" when they reject us. They know we'll be waiting with open arms when they get over it. That doesn't change the fact that it hurts us, though. {{HUGS}}
from floodtide :
You. Are. Not. Broken.
from floodtide :
The raw honesty of your entry last night helped me. Thank you for sharing it so candidly and so generously. I am thinking of you with much love and care and gratitude.
from h2ophobic :
Very few relationships can cause pain in the way a child/parent relationship can. It's so hard for us to watch and listen to them make mistakes. It's hard-wired into our being to protect them and advise them. God bless you and Girl. May your love for Him temper your love for each other. {{HUGS}}
from h2ophobic :
I am guilty too of going into work early, but not leaving early. I always THINK I will, but one thing leads to another and there I am. Good for you for treating yourself to a mani/pedi! I love to get a pedicure. I feel so pampered during and after!
from h2ophobic :
"Realized that any asshole can be miserable, discontent, etc., but it takes a clever and principled person to be happy and contented." On a section of my work bulletin board, I have various inspirational (to me) thoughts, such as "So it goes" and "If the accident will" and the Serenity Prayer. I also have the lyrics to various songs that mean something to me. I'm adding your quote to the board this morning. Thanks for sharing!
from la-the-sage :
Mwah! ~LA
from h2ophobic :
I think you've live your life in an amazing way this year. I've laughed and cried with you this year. You're one of my "online buddies" that I truly consider a friend. God bless you and your family. May 2010 be the year when all your hopes and dreams come to be.
from la-the-sage :
Merry Christmas, sweetie! ~LA
from la-the-sage :
Sorry you guys are so ill. Sucky birthday present for John. "Hey! Here's a buttload of finals and some flu!" Sending happy healing thoughts at you full blast. ~LA
from cocoabean :
I doubt anyone would want to do surgery on him if he's sick, so cancelling might be a good idea!
from minstrelite :
Man, I'm brain-dead. I meant: "my friends in real life" (not me friends in real). I should probably start composing my notes on Notepad or Wordpad too, that way I'd have only left you one note on this theme, not four. These are the kinds of problems that don't seem to have a parallel in real life; they are entirely a result of my warped-out relationship to the Internet. Anyway, I gotta get back to work now. Nice talking to you.
from minstrelite :
Oh, one other thing - for some reason, it's pretty easy for me to go for fairly long periods of time without talking to me friends in real. An incredibly short period of time will go by on the Internet before I start to believe that there's something wrong. I think that evidences my overall problem with Internet relationships, as opposed to what seems to be happening irl.
from minstrelite :
I meant: "because that's what I would like for them to do." (I wrote "be" by mistake.)
from minstrelite :
If I'm going to stay on the site, I really should get into the habit of writing my entries on Notepad or Wordpad first, and waiting until I'm sure I want to post them before doing so. The reason I say that now is because, as I got back to work, it occurred to me that I hadn't really wanted to write that, because it had the appearance of trying to solicit a response, which I dislike doing, or even appearing to do. I've done that kind of thing before here, and it usually doesn't lead somewhere positive. So I went back and changed the entry in such a way that it no longer complains about people not leaving me notes. Then, after I was done, I saw you had left a note, and I felt as though I hadn't gotten there in time. But as far as what you say, I know that this is true, and that it is common for people to read each other's diaries without commenting. I do it myself, although after four or five reads, I usually note them just to let them know I'm reading, because that's what I would like for them to be. And to answer your question, no, I did not see you as part of the problem, because you and I have a friendship that, while still Internet-based, extends beyond DiaryLand. I mainly wanted to express my own uncertainties as to what am I doing here, if the way that I am approaching this site so frequently results in an excerbation of my frustrations. It just came across as though I were getting on everybody else's cases, and I hadn't wanted to sound like that. Outside of a single person right now, I am not angry with anyone on this site. But I'm pretty angry with myself. Hope that explains it.
from poolagirl :
Holding you in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry things are rough. (((hugs)))
from casa-rosie :
But...but...you guys CAN'T beat Auburn! It would make Jimmy Rane unhappy, and Jimmy is mah frend! (sic) Really, he is the nicest man, (for a Republican) and I'm sure nothing personal was meant. *Grin*
from minstrelite :
Such a beautiful entry, K. And if it means anything, I read the words "Soldier on, Andy," just as the main theme to Elgar's 'Pomp and Circumstance' was beginning on my playlist. The best things in life are meaningful, or at least we succeed in giving meaning to them. Happy Thanksgiving, my friend.
from h2ophobic :
Deep thought: Make me an instrument of your peace and give me a grateful, joyous heart. Thank you for this deep thought...I needed that.
from minstrelite :
Easy for you to say.
from mel-is-dvash :
Laughing Out Loud about the silent 'U.' I know it's not funny, but, it's too funny. Hope it's all sorted out now. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
from minstrelite :
I guess the logical question would be: "What does she see in the guy?"
from catsoul :
So I added you to my read list here, and I see that you are locked, any chance of getting your password. You can e-mail it at ambereyesforyou@yahoo.com Thanks a bunch!! =^..^=
from casa-rosie :
OK, my two cents about the kid and the money, but you knew I'd say something, didn't you? Don't give it to her. Tell her she has to wait two or five or ten years for it. It's the old, "Root hog, or die" principle, because as sure as a bear shits in the woods, they will run through the additional 8k within weeks, and then they will be running to y'all for another infusion. So stop the expectation right now, and let them know that if their bills are to be paid, then they need to get off their dead asses and pay them. I am fond of reminding folks that I had no welfare, and I went back to work when Erin was 2 weeks old just to keep a roof over our heads. OOOHHHH!!!! I just had a GREAT idea! Tell them that they will get the money on the day the her hubby becomes a citizen! THAT'S a goal that is at least 5 years in the offing, and it gives her time to see what he's all about. Then when she needs to divorce him, she'll have the money to do so. I just hope that she realizes that if she sponsors him, she has to support him for ten years even if they divorce. Ain't that the shits! I do hope that your job gives you the bennies and perks that will make it bearable, and that things with the hubster get better soon. Hugs to you darling, and feel free to tell me to eff off, OK?
from la-the-sage :
Having viable options goes a looooong way toward constructive thinking and decision making. Good! Nothing worse than being trapped. Love, ~LA
from minstrelite :
Hm - three notes in a row here. I just wanted to say that, although I can see you going through some difficult stuff, you still strike me as remarkably graceful about it. Also, I've always liked the three "regular" blurbs on the bottom of each entry. Maybe I ought to come up with something like that for my own diary, just for the sake of inserting a little note of discipline and stability into my otherwise all-over-the-map presentation. But I was mainly noting to ask something about swine flu - the washing of the hands. I keep noticing people putting some kind of lotion or something on their hands in restrooms in public places, such as at meetings or in coffeehouses, and the scent from it just about knocks me out. Is there something I shouuld know, and does this have something to do with H1N1? I can probably google it. It might be some local thing. Some of the meetings here are being advertised as "scent-free" which I've thought is odd.
from minstrelite :
Thanks, Katherine. The program really is a simple one. It's a simple program for complicated people. All a person really has to do, is do it.
from minstrelite :
Hi K. - I ought to have emailed you when I had thirty days of sobriety. Then I thought to email when I had 35 days, because everything had built up and I was pretty sure I was going to slip. I just came off of a five day drunken binge and am back on the program. Now however I have problems I didn't feel before. Email me if you want to, if not that's ok. Take care and God bless.
from h2ophobic :
You haven't written about seeing a doctor/therapist, so I'm going to urge you to do so. Depression is often BOTH checmical and situational. You deserve to feel happy. I know how hard it is to admit to someone that you can't get better by yourself. We wives/mothers are hardwired to take care of everyone/everything. Make a phone call my friend. Reach out for help. If the first person you contact doesn't help, try someone else. Keep trying until you get the help you need. God bless!
from annanotbob :
'Perfectly nice guy who makes you depressed' Sigh of recognition. Hugs xxx
from h2ophobic :
I hope you have a great time on your trip! I went to a conference there several years ago. I couldn't take any of my family, so I felt guilty about all the fun I was having. ;o)
from annanotbob :
Hugs xx
from la-the-sage :
I've never minded flying, what I DO mind is how crazy getting through the airport and onto a plane has gotten. Oh for sure the world is a MUCH safer place because my lipgloss is in a ziplock bag, my shoes have been x-rayed, my papers questioned and my boobs felt up by a TSA agent who wanted to make sure they were real and not 42DDD worth of plastic explosives. The humiliating, frustrating, dehumanizing, nonsensical 'security' has kept me off planes for the last 3+ years and I'm in no hurry to get back on one. Trust me, after you've run the gauntlet of 'Keep 'em scared, embarrassed and confused' security the actual flight part will seem a breeze. ~LA
from floodtide :
The conversation you chronicled today was bizarre but only surprising in that she had the guts actually to come talk to you to try to present her case when her case is so unbelievable - she obviously KNOWS deep down that she is incompetent and is desperate to have someone else see it differently, even if she has to try to MANIPULATE someone else into seeing it differently. And as bizarre (and unethical, and rude, and juvenile) as it was for others to listen in, might that not be greatly to your advantage? Surely they heard that NW is not only incompetent but delusional? Thinking of you as you cope with the insanity.
from annanotbob :
Thank you so much. I've printed out yesterday's comments to remind me, if/when I get that low again. Wishing you peace and a big old hug xxx
from casa-rosie :
Having been on the other side of the equation, I can honestly say that it would perhaps be better for the girl if you saved back about $10k for when she needs to divorce the hubby and she comes to you for the money. Seriously. $10k now should see her through the worst of it until she can go back to work, and it should also, with careful application, see them through until his green card comes through. I know you no longer want to be involved, but the reality is that when the poop goes flying in a few years, she will come to you for what she needs, and better to be able to give her the money that is hers than to have to wish you had held some back. Just my 2 cents worth based on my personal experience. I wish my mom had NOT given me the remainder of my trust fund when I had millions. At that point $15k was nothing to me, and I put it in with our other money. Fast forward, and there are days when I'd give much to have that money again.
from poolagirl :
Thinking of you. Hope the clouds lift soon.
from minstrelite :
Just writing to say hi. I've been back for a while though locked. I don't remember much of our last email interaction as I was extremely inebriated that night. These days I am clean and sober and at a meeting every day, and calling my sponsor every day. But every day brings a new struggle. I am sorry to have been so self-preoccupied. You can read me if you want, or if not that's ok. But write me for the password if you would like to. I think about you often. Take care..
from h2ophobic :
So you're a grandma now? I know the circumstances are less than ideal, but I'm sending you congratulations anyway. ;o) I'm so glad to read that John is feeling better.
from la-the-sage :
Glad John is up and around! Wish I could do something about those flighty buggers who are leaving you dangling about stuff. ~LA
from wifemotherme :
please please can I have the PW? WifeMotherme1 @ aol. com
from h2ophobic :
I hope John is feeling better soon. I can't believe it's already flu season. I took Shelby to the doctor yesterday, thinking she had the flu. It's bronchitis. I hope this isn't a sign of how this winter is going to be. Take care of yourself!
from la-the-sage :
Hope J's feeling better quickly! I can smell that soup from here...delicious! ~LA
from h2ophobic :
A few years ago my doctor suggested I stop drinking anything with caffeine after 8am. It was the easiest thing I've ever done because our work coffee is HORRIBLE. I drink ice water all day in the summer and herbal tea during the winter. Every once in a while I'll have a Diet Pepsi, just because I want some caffeine and nasty chemicals in my body. ;o)
from floodtide :
Thank you for the shout-out in today's entry (Sun 8/30). JUST sent off my last syllabus/handout to the copy center, so am feeling somewhat better. Know it'll be good when students arrive. But God, they are putting me through the wringer.
from annanotbob :
Hugs and best wishes xxx
from h2ophobic :
I'm sorry to hear about your health and marriage problems. I wish for you, healing in both areas of your life. Hey! Congrats are breaking the 150 mark! I still remember the first time I was weighed at the doctor's office and the nurse said "Hmmm, the 150 is too much, let's try the 100 and go from there." When I stepped off the scale, she gave me a hug and we giggled together.
from poolagirl :
Lovely words about Kennedy. This family has endured so much. They were all wonderful people.
from h2ophobic :
Life seems to work out that way, doesn't it? When you're the most stressed and exhausted from work is when your home life seems to be stressful and exhausting too. Wouldn't it be nice if they would take turns? I hope you have a nice, relaxing weekend.
from mel-is-dvash :
Congratulations on your MS. It's sure better than my MS - :-)
from boxx9000 :
*Time dwindles* (sigh)
from h2ophobic :
I don't have any magic words to help you feel better, I just wanted you to know that I often feel that way too. Like everyone in the world knows something, except me. What little I know about your job, I know that you must be very intelligent to have been hired. Bill and John are very lucky to have you in their lives. I'm pretty sure they know that. ;o)
from mel-is-dvash :
I haven't gotten to photos of grandkids yet, but thanks to your note I have put some photos up on my fotolog from the trip. Grandkids will be coming. Enjoy!
from floodtide :
Thank you for taking the time to write such a loving, generous, encouraging note when you are feeling so insecure and uprooted yourself. THANK YOU. For everything: love, encouragement, friendship. You're not - I've no doubts about this - the "worst" at anything. It is only the feelings that suck, not YOU. We saw some signs of hope today, so I am in less of a funk. If Matt could just get some sleep I think I will begin to feel less miserable.
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm not really sure what you mean when you say that you need focus. When I think about focus generally, it seems to me that more often than not when I am *trying* to focus it tends to make it harder, whereas if I take a step back and try to let things be as they need to be, then things will spring back for me, often without my noticing how it happened. Probably related is that when I am trying to force things, I feel out of sorts and out of place as well. Just mulling here.
from poolagirl :
We called that "hot bunking" on the ship. I was never too comfortable with it either.
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi again, I'm just caught up with you. Praying that the project and graduation go smoothly, that this is just the last in the wrinkles that come up for everyone. I really love the 'vile, blameless child of Gd.' Must remember that! D3's been fighting the same fight with not being able to eat. I wonder why no one warns people - and why it never occurs. It wouldn't have occurred to me and D3 is just going through it. Hmmm....
from h2ophobic :
I remember how miserable Shelby was when she got her braces. I'm sorry to tell you this, but she was miserable each time she got them tightened too. She ate a lot of angel hair pasta, soup and tylenol! Hang in there!
from poolagirl :
Well, I got me a hater out there in Cyberland. If you try to access me through Diaryland as of Friday, you are going to need a username and password. Email me at aol and I will give them to you!
from poolagirl :
YEEEEE! Braces! I had them as an adult too (and as a teen). The technology is quite advanced, but it still hurts like a fook when you are getting started. Hugs to you. I'll send you some wax. How long are they predicting you will wear them?
from la-the-sage :
Stellar news! Well done, my dear! I am so proud of you and delighted you feel so good about what sounds like a dynamite presentation. ~LA
from annanotbob :
Hugs and hugs xxx
from boxx9000 :
yoga and a run sounds good.
from boxx9000 :
I've had *bumps* for a week from my last time in the sun. I thought maybe I had some sort of virus or an allergic reaction to the lotion or something. But, look up *sun poisoning* and see if those are the type of bumps you have. So sorry about the cash drain. Do the two of you have some fun plans now that you are alone together?
from acaldwell :
john should be ok with what raingear he has! i hope you have a wonderful holiday!
from dreams2tell :
Like the deep thought. Happy Fourth.
from h2ophobic :
I had to laugh at the description of your dog at the beach. Bless it's little heart! Have a great vacation!
from la-the-sage :
When the ex lived on Okinawa as a kid they used to take their Siamese cat, Ralph, to the beach. He loved the sun and chasing crabs but would NOT go potty. Ralph held it all day and then raced to the litter box when they got home after being on a beach full of sand! Crazy kitty. ~LA
from acaldwell :
great great great entree!! at the beach!! yay!! happy holiday!
from dreams2tell :
I come to D-Land about once every five days, and leave kinda quickly, not because of DiaryLand, but because of me. Hope the morning (if you're still around) has progressed better. I've been up for an hour now & things aren't going too well over here either, although it's mostly in my attitude. I'm meeting with my sponsor at 10:30, so I'll try to get some work done between now & then. Yeah, I took care of a 13-yr-old girl for about 7 months out-of-the-blue w/out ever having been an active full-time parent before, so that one I do know. Anyhoo have a good time at the beach. :)
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations on your weight loss. Slow and steady is the best way. Have a great vacation!
from boxx9000 :
so sad to hear of Karen's passing. She will be missed by so many.
from dreams2tell :
K., that was a nice informative entry, and sounds like you're "good-busy" these days. It would be a little tedious to email everyone all the details of my new living situation, but there's basic info on my recovery blog which I posted early this morning. Also I made a couple copy-and-pastes of essential information that I'll put in an email to you. I am very thankful! ~ap
from floodtide :
I KNEW that if anyone was going to get the "Big Chill" quote it would be you! Thanks for your note.
from dreams2tell :
I haven't been keeping up with friends' diaries lately, but when you said you hadn't been sleeping and that there was stuff going on, I thought I better step over to see. I'm sorry about your dog. That's a really hard thing to go through. It does sound from the tone of your most recent entry that you're getting better with it, and that's good. Anyway, maybe see you on google chat or elsewhere. Take care.
from pattypat :
I'm so sorry about Sam.
from acaldwell :
my condolences to you. i know how you are feeling right now, having gone thru cat death myself. (((((((((HUGS))))))))))
from casa-rosie :
So sorry to hear that your baby didn't make it, it is a hard decision to make, but the kindest thing we can do for those we love. I had to go through it twice last year, once for my 14 year old cat, and then for my 8 year old lab with severe hip issues. It is never easy, and know that I hold you in my heart today. Hugs
from poolagirl :
Oh sweetie! I am so very sorry. Please know I am with you all the way in spirit. What you have done is such a hard thing. It takes a noble heart to let go. You are an angel.
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm sorry to hear about your four-legged-friend. Whether he comes home today or not, it's hard when the end is near. He's been very lucky to have you, too.
from acaldwell :
i hope that sam will be all right. i can never understand the rigamarole these dog adoption places makes one go thru. it was obivious that sam was going to a good home.
from poolagirl :
Oh.....sweetie. I am so sorry to hear about Sam. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
from acaldwell :
john will be fine, and so will you! he will improve on his basketball skills, and have fun!! sports camps are FUN~ i used to attend baseball camps and they were a blast!! enjoy the weekend, and dont worry!!
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm kinda late, but anyway, congratulations on full-time permanent employment! May you always love your job. ;-)
from la-the-sage :
THAT'S my girl! ~LA
from acaldwell :
ive never had goose eggs! that must be a real treat in itself!
from floodtide :
5-30-09: Thank you for sharing this ebullient, happy, beautifully-written entry. I am experiencing your joy and contentment vicariously, and am wishing I was gonna be at the table to enjoy all your farmers'-market bounty. Sending you much love today and every day, you amazing woman.
from acaldwell :
howdee doo!!! woop!! woop!! job well done!!! yay!!
from la-the-sage :
WAAAAAAAH HOOOOOOO!!!! That is simply wonderful! Congratulations! ~LA
from floodtide :
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!
from floodtide :
Thank you, you doll. I had forgotten you were a Reiki healer! Much love.
from blighty :
Hi. I was passing through stepfordtart and saw your notes, and wonder if you would send me your password. I am an American ex-pat in England, mum of a near 13 year old who of course is a year in school ahead of my sister's 13 year old. Anyway, it all struck a chord. Thanks. xb
from minstrelite :
Waiting till Win7 releases might be a good goal for me, too. I still can't get the better sounds (from the Virtual Studio Technology) to manifest in mp3 or .wav format, as this Dell hardware seems to be miscommunicating with my Finale software on that subject.
from stepfordtart :
Over here, the CSA is the body who chase up dead-beat dads and make em pay for their kids (or, if you prefer, hound perfectly reasonably men into the ground with punitive demands). I didnt realise they gave out veg as well! My ex pays maintenance - shall I ring 'em up and ask for some kale? s x
from la-the-sage :
Wow, indeed! Happiest wishes, dear. Congrats to John. Gosh I remember when our little guys were wee squirtles heading off to pre-k and now they're all old and shit. Are they allowed to do that? ~LA
from acaldwell :
happy anniversary!!! congrats to john also!!! good stuff here!!
from mel-is-dvash :
Congratulations, mazel tov, happy anniversary! So many good things, it's good to read them.
from stepfordtart :
Oh no! Now its even stupider! Our first year is Year R (Reception) for 4 to 5 year olds and then they go up to Year 1 (5s and 6s)which I think is your Year K. When your kids go to 1st Grade, our kids go to Year 2! I shall start campaigning for a world wide standardisation IMMEDIATELY - if only so that you and I can read diaries without thinking "hang on...does that mean her kid's older than my kid, or is her kid younger than my kid?". Lets just say "oh, cool. Your son is a month or so younger than my daughter." Its just ALLLL too tiresome! s x
from stepfordtart :
Aha! I think I get it now: Your 7th Grade (12 & 13 year old) = our year 8. After the summer holidays, Jooj will be Year 9 and will be 14 in November. I take it, next semester, John will be 8th Grade and will turn 14 somewhen before next summer. Confusin' aint it, this transatlantic school comparison?! s x
from stepfordtart :
Way to go, John! 7th grade? How old is that? 12/13? He looks about the same age as my older daughter and her friends - she's 13 and in (UK) year 8. s x
from poolagirl :
What a great photo!
from minstrelite :
You know, I've actually recently done that same thing; that is, cranked out an assignment while in bed with my laptop, propped up on pillows, constantly shifting positions, getting charleyhorses, etc., and you're right about it not being a fitness program. By the way, Happy Mother's Day. :)
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY and I wish you...."fast typing and fair winds, lots of coffee and "so-lattes" and luck, luck, luck plus a ton of inspiration and a slap from the hand of the almighty."
from acaldwell :
happy mothers day!! you will be all right!!
from la-the-sage :
And YOU are a train yourself! The Little K. Who Could. ~LA
from fifidellabon :
"Like a kidney stone..." huhhuhhuhhuhhuh...that was awesome! XOFifi
from acaldwell :
in my day that student woulda gotten a smack! how dare he write something like that! he dont know how lucky he is, hey student! wanna see real crap? cmon, lets switch places like in the movie!
from floodtide :
You should have responded in exactly that way, verbatim: "Students shouldn't write 'this is crap' to teachers who are trying to help."
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs))) re: all the student problems. HOW many more days are left in the school year? Soon, very soon it will be summer vacation. WhEeeE!
from acaldwell :
its amazing how stupid supposedly smart students are when they think they can pull the wool over the teachers eyes and try to cheat, if they try to cheat now, in school, they will cheat in life.
from la-the-sage :
I love today's deep thought! Just what I needed to be reminded of. Thanks. Hope the Olay is working for you. As for the poodle rodeo? Yeah, there's just some things you can't help but watch. Like car accidents. Heh. If Mr Jesus Shouter thinks YOU'RE disrespectful, he'd spontaneously combust if he read my stuff. ~LA
from stepfordtart :
Thank you! I just had a little scroll back (to see what all the fuss was about, if Im honest!) and really struggled to find anything to get bent out of shape about. I dont capitalise my name when I sign my notes here...does that mean Im disrespecting myself? s x
from stepfordtart :
Hi! Thanks for adding me! May I have a password to reciprocate? If so, you can email it to stepfordtartATdiarylandDOTcom. Thanks very much. s x
from poolagirl :
Ooooh! I got dumped from his read list too! Only he did it quietly. No nasty notes.
from poolagirl :
WHOA! What an uproar! It's amazing how much trouble we can stir up with a giggle or a grammatical choice. Sorry this happened, kiddo.
from acaldwell :
you didnt offend anyone of any real significance, and you can say what ever you want to in here, its YOUR BLOG and if folks dont like what you have to say, they dont have to read! so, there!!
from cocoabean :
You should be able to post what you want, and how you want it, whether or not your page is locked....
from minstrelite :
That story was one thing, but I've been stewing for the past fifteen minutes over the way you didn't capitalized either "Lord" or "Christian." Kinda shows your true colors, doesn't it? I'm removing you from my favorites list, and goodbye. I've not enough problems without having to deal with a Christian-hater who pretends to be concerned for my welfare.
from acaldwell :
sunday greetings!! all is well! post toastie coming up, the sunday edition!
from la-the-sage :
Sigh...the jeans are only loose so far. A down size is still pounds away. But thanks for the shout out! MWAH! ~LA
from acaldwell :
hay! hay!! hehehee!!
from floodtide :
I'd go so far as to say that ANY downward dog is "too much." Love, flood
from acaldwell :
i been having wierd dreams also, but by the time i awake from the coma, they all dissipate!!
from boxx9000 :
5:55? Please let me know if you ever discover what the meaning is of those triple digit sightings. They happen to me quite frequently. coincidence?
from acaldwell :
doncha hate it when the panic police call and give supposed grim news and then it turns out all right?!? glad you dont have any problems there!!
from cosmic :
I can't get into your diary! Did I do something wrong?
from minstrelite :
Just read your Saturday night entry. Yeah, I can remember when life was normal, too, and those were the kinds of things that were on *my* mind. Fuck.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for your kindness, Katherine. Hopefully we will chat sometime soon.
from floodtide :
If you need a smile today, find David Sedaris' book ME TALK PRETTY ONE DAY and read the chapter (it might be "Jesus Shaves," but I'm not sure) in which he and his non-French-speaking classmates try to describe Easter. There's something along the lines of "He go to die on two pieces of wood."
from acaldwell :
jesus on a stick! i hope he doesnt see his shadow!!! muhahahahaaaaa!!! im LMAO here!!! reminds me of a lil someting i used to post long ago!!! wheeeeeeeee!!! you will see it tomorrow!!
from boxx9000 :
Sending Happy Easter vibes your way. Peace, Love, HEALTH, and Happiness. ~BoXX
from minstrelite :
Hey K - can you possibly give me your password again? Every time I go to read you it prompts me for a password that I have stored on a different browser and I lose my train of thought, because I read everybody else off of stored passwords on Mozilla. I know that sounds petty, but I'm too spaced out to do the navigation these days, and it helps if I can read everyone's diaries at one time. If I navigate off of the browser, I wound up surfing the Internet aimlessly and I forget that I was going to be about reading people's diaries. You can email me at andy at music-transcription.com - I hope I did not offend you.
from minstrelite :
I liked the "deep thought." I was on the bus in San Francisco one time and I must have looked really worried, because all of a sudden I felt a hand on my shoulder, and when I looked up, there was a young man with long hair and a beard looking down smiling at me, saying: "This too shall pass." I thought it was really funny, because at the time I was having a daydream about my ex-wife putting a contract on me and killing me, which of course had nothing to do with reality. So yeah, it passed - and *this* will, too.
from acaldwell :
naptime is the best time, grab em when you can!!
from floodtide :
Did not get the Florida Atlantic University job. Details in tomorrow's entry. Sounds like some politics were involved, which makes it better in some ways and worse in others. I am devastated. I told my best friend in an e-mail and will probably offend him because I explicitly said "and please don't send me any buck-up-little-camper/look-on-the-bright-side notes about how lucky I am to have Kutztown as a back-up" because that's EXACTLY what he would do. After thirty years you'd think he'd know, but it is in his nature to avoid actually acknowledging any negative emotions; he will "remember" the Kutztown job as nearly perfect for me.
from acaldwell :
the turtles are no where to be found, and the fish looked stunned??? something is up, and the fish know what, and they aint saying! yeee!!!
from mel-is-dvash :
I find nothing more annoying than when other people 'discover' what I've been saying all along, and act as if they've never heard it before. I'm in a similar situation w-D1, she's gone back to acting as if nothing is wrong there. I can barely breathe thinking about it, so I try not to. It is definitely made more difficult when people persist in reminding me of the situation... I have no suggestions, but I can keep you (and her-them) in my prayers.
from boxx9000 :
Anna is visiting me right now in CAlifornia and your name was mentioned. I'm sorry you are going thru this situation with your step daughter. SOMEhow it really will all work out, it always does. Congratulations on your diet. Anna & I are going to YOGA this morning. Wish you were here to join us.
from minstrelite :
Hi again, it was the idea of momoireneko here on DiaryLand to establish the spread sheet. I don't know much about it but I will give you my ideas in an email. I think my income and my outgo are probably going to remain at around the area of the figures I described for a while, but it's what to do with the $1000 or so that falls in the Middle, considering I have free hi-speed Internet and no other bills really except for a $50/month cell phone bill, so obviously I am spending too much money somehow - probably on frequent trips to coffee shops and donut shops where I plug in my laptop and gain a lot of weight, all of which seem to be in the immediate neighborhood, no less, therefore giving me less impetus to exercise than when the nearest Starbucks was a three mile walk from me in the Valley. Of course, there I had other problems. So it's all about me getting on the stick, and seeing where the money is going, as well as the hours, the calories, and everything else that needs to be monitored, managed, etc. Thanks for being willing to help with this.
from minstrelite :
I just read your entry about C. It sounds like your situation is almost parallel to mine, or maybe slightly perpindicular, in a perplexing way. I can't believe Bethany married a guy she only knew for three months and is pregnant already. It's not like her - and yet she's all happy about it all. Guess it's none of my business. Also, Echo is on anti-depressants now (finally) which means she will have to stop drinking. It's worrisome - but it's not anger-provoking like your situation is. Just worry-provoking. Also, with all my problems, I need to just step back. I'm doing better now, but I'm definitely in no position to judge. I can see the old problems rearing their heads - it's just that so far I've been able to shove them back down again.
from minstrelite :
Hey K., the previous note is from me but from a different D-Land account I started at some point earlier but never did anything with. The problem is I clicked on my Outlook and it opened to the browser that is not actually my default. Please delete the note, but anyway that is my information. The spreadsheet would be a good thing, given the figures I stated and (I think) their implications. (I should only have one browser running at a time, but I alternate between Mozilla and IE8 so sometimes something wonky like that happens.) - A.
from poolagirl :
Wow! It sounds like quite a night! It's neat to meet great people like that.
from minstrelite :
I'm having to cut back on sweets too. I never used to eat them at all. My weight is becoming a real issue these days. I've got to start exercising again - I can't believe how fast I put on all those pounds. It's unlike me, and unbecoming.
from h2ophobic :
"Those who are not content with what they have will not be content with what they want." Truer words were never said (written.) Good luck this week. I'm jealous of your warm weather and newly changed out closet. It will be a month or two before I dare do that here.
from dreams2tell :
Ah - I know where you got your latest 'deep thought.' :-)
from cosmic :
I lost your ID and Password!!!
from acaldwell :
hava wonderful last day of rest and relaxation!
from mel-is-dvash :
Education Revolutionary! I love it!
from acaldwell :
thanks for the mention here!! now, where do i sign up for these online courses?? i have my ACER at the ready!!! wheeeeee!!
from dulligirl :
Thanks for the add!
from annanotbob :
Hugs xx
from acaldwell :
what? no NPR?? why, thats blasphemy!! hehehe!!
from annanotbob :
Good luck with the 'high shit'! I did that once and it was very scary but exhilarating. xx
from annanotbob :
Hugs xxx
from minstrelite :
Thanks, Katherine. I appreciate that. :)
from floodtide :
Thanks for your comment about missing me, but I'm here (did you see the note below?). I updated yesterday and will do so again today. Tomorrow the internet gets turned on (theoretically, anyway, but as it's Comcast we're talking about I've no real confidence that [1] anyone will show or [2] be able actually to connect us) and I'll be back to updating regularly. Much love, ft PS: Those three points would have bothered me, too, but let 'em go. Just sayin'.
from floodtide :
I know a soft-G "Gilly," also male, a rock musician in fact (son of the actress Joanna Gleason; she named him "Aaron" and he picked Gilly for his, as Joanna calls it, nom-de-rock-and-roll), and the (female) British choreographer Gillian Lynne uses a hard-G, go figure.
from minstrelite :
That was interesting - about "joy" and "joylessness."
from h2ophobic :
I work with a few joyless people. It's so hard not to shake them! Alas, often it is easier to catch their joylessness than to spread my joy. Good luck.
from minstrelite :
Third and final note. I just tuned in to your liking of "Young Frakenstein." I love the part where he says: "His work was doo-doo!" - and stabs himself on the knee with the knife. Priceless.
from minstrelite :
You're like me sometimes (in citing the exact figures - $760, $920, etc.) - somehow that helps me to keep on track, in the diary as well as in other writings.
from minstrelite :
You wrote: "Well, it will if I can figure out the food/eating deal. And I can." Add: "And I will." Just a suggestion. (I've been liking to add that lately - a statement not only of the ability, but of the willingness.)
from minstrelite :
Three more notes coming.
from acaldwell :
that waitress just lost her tip!! but your job is super duper!!!
from boxx9000 :
are you going to be a grandma? How many kids does that make for your son-in-law? I seem to remember he had 4 already? yikes. Your daughter will gain a new perspective to what a parent goes thru once she has a child of her own. Perhaps she'll have a daughter just like herself.
from acaldwell :
GREAT JOB!!! WOOT WOOT!!!
from annanotbob :
Hurrah! How nice to know that good things happen to good people! happy weekend xx
from minstrelite :
http://minstrelite.diaryland.com/090212_1.html, as soon as possible, it's all good, it's so good, it's so wonderfully, marvelously, good...i was a laughing buddha on the streets of this beautiful, wonderful city....i have never been this happy before in my entire life!!!
from sixweasels :
Thanks! It was an amazing game! I'm just starting to get my voice back : ).
from cocoabean :
A blog? Gee, wonder where you could get one of those!!
from annanotbob :
Hugs sweetie, hugs. I killed my ipod by accident, but it always scared me a bit. xx
from floodtide :
I think the iPod CLASSIC is the way to go. Why do you want the touch? More money for less memory.
from minstrelite :
Got your comment and left a reply in my comments section, which is private.
from minstrelite :
If it makes you feel any better (which, if you're at all like me, it probably won't), my own daughter has called me up three times with the same information. Only the third time was I truly dismayed, because only the third time was the father deserving. In your case, however - well, I don't know what to tell you. All I can say is that I am a parent myself, and that I empathize. I hope that whatever happens is for the best.
from poolagirl :
Pregnant? Sweet JEEBUS! This is a living nightmare!
from la-the-sage :
Holy shit! Is it possible the 'bun' is an imaginary one meant to play you for money? And how much does it suck that this would be a good thing? I'm sorry, hon. ~LA
from acaldwell :
heya! ya know, thats not a bad idea! i aint been to a meeting inna while, thing is tho, most of the meetings around here are (A) in the mornings, filled with street people or (B) in the evenings when i HAVE to be at the mission to claim my bed! but i'll figgure something out!!! thanks!
from la-the-sage :
YAY! New dishes! Glad Mick's nifty gifty was such an inspiration. I think Pier 1 owes me for all the new business. Enjoy your dishes, sweetie. May the meals on them be eaten with fellowship and peace. ~LA
from hissandtell :
I was deeply touched by the elegant way the Jeeves-boy handled the china crash. Years ago, I was with friends in a delicate-breaky-store when one of them moved something which sent a badly-balanced glass shelf crashing loudly down on top of a ridiculously expensive Royal Doulton basket of flowers. As my friend was out of sight of the store assistants when it happened, she had the presence (or absence) of mind to call out over the noise, "It's okay! Nothing broken!" as she nimbly kicked shards and shards of bone china under the counters and quickly made her escape. That was in the days when most stores, quite illegally, used to demand that customers pay even for accidental breakages. Karma indeed. Love, R xxx
from violetsmile :
Thank you so much for your note! And a belated happy birthday to you!!! I'd be very proud of him if he turned out anything like you!! :-)
from minstrelite :
I hope you don't think *I* am someone who is hateful about this day - I just meant that I have found myself not as interested in it as I probably ought to be. What I saw of the Inauguration was wonderful. I'm just having one of those weird days is all.
from boxx9000 :
We're watching the inauguration at school this morning. I'm wearing my Obama shirt. WhEeee!
from minstrelite :
My dispassion toward the Inauguration is making me feel guilty. I suppose if I stop and watch the proceedings, that will go away. (It usually does.) Oh, and I didn't know you read bindyree too - she's one of my faves, and also the only person I know from online whom I have met in person. (There's a picture of the two of us together on one of her pages - not a very good picture of me, but there's a good energy in the shot.)
from annanotbob :
Thank you so much, dear K. I may well be unable to resist a visit to Tuscaloosa, Alabama... Hugs xx
from acaldwell :
23 married to a 40 YO? whats HIS major malfunction he cant pay the bills? i know times is bad, i dont know all the details, and i as you know, live inna mission. i get my innernet from the employment office and library. when i wanna watch CSI i goto cbs.com at the library. i get water from a drinking fountain. etc. and so on. i feel bad for her, but whats her hubby's major malfunction?
from minstrelite :
I don't read you every single day (although I try to) so sometimes I miss a link. Is "Girl" your 23-yr-old daughter? If so, I think your deep thought is probably appropriate. If I worried about everything my daughter was into, I'd be even more on-the-edge than I am already. My only stab at counsel would be to try-and take the good-with-the-bad. I enjoy the fact that my daughter calls me every night again (that is, before she gets drunk), and that we seem to see things similarly, even if we don't live them that way. And as far as the things a parent would worry about (addictions, dangerous lines of work, etc.), my confession is only that I try not to think about it. In my own case, it's incentive for me to be a better role model - but I think, in your case, that's probably not an issue. 23 yrs old with 4 kids and married to a 40 yrd old is a loaded cannon, there's not a whole lot you can do other than to stay out of the line of fire.
from poolagirl :
Oh jeeze. She sure got herself into a deep pile of crap, didn't she? It's tough to be tough, but you do what you gotta do. She went into this marriage with both eyes open, yes?
from annanotbob :
Sending you hugs. Bloody kids. xxx
from bettyford :
I think that I might love you.
from fifidellabon :
Hallo, Fifi here. I wantd to check you out (hee!) and say hello as well, but you are locked! Oh, cats! Whatever shall I do? And now that I've read your profile, well, if you'd be so kind as to drop me the password, I'm fifidellabon at g mail, I'd be grateful. Thanks ever so much! xoFifi
from minstrelite :
I really liked your "deep thought" (1/14/09) - I hope I can remember the next time I feel threatened, that the part of me that feels threatened really doesn't exist. Nothing to fear but fear itself, as it's said.
from acaldwell :
i used to do day labor and hubby will get another ticket out somewhere! if he has a car, thats a big plus also!!guys with cars get the jobs more than the ones who dont! your guestbook dont work, its server is graveyard dead!
from la-the-sage :
Hope John's team kicked butt!!! Most recent entry contains all Olay info, to better share the 'wisdom', you know? Bill's daughter...oy. ~LA
from floodtide :
Two or three reactions to your lovely entry: Amen to "do what I can and let the rest...." What "external" keyboard for the MBP? Is this one of Apple's new "shortened" keyboards? I'm curious. Most important, though: THANK YOU for the absolutely exquisite image - it gives me such joy - of John "writing on the floor" in "paroxysms of ecstasy." That just makes me so happy.
from acaldwell :
thanky yous for the gold!! but you are locked up tighter than leavenworth penitentary!! can i pretty please have the keys, and can i add you to my scroll of diaryland pals? my email is acaldwell1958@gmail.com i'd email ya but i dunno what that is either!!
from la-the-sage :
My machine had a 'helpful' security program pre-installed and I can't get anyone's passwords to stick. Am I using the wrong one? Confirm entry code and password, please? I miss you!!! ~LA
from minstrelite :
Sounds like you made a good decision.
from bluecharis :
Hey Katherine! Thanks for the nice comments! I wish you and your family a very happy 2009. Let's just make it the year of our lives, shall we? Hugs and kisses, Charis
from minstrelite :
About my "age-old conflict," I'd like to draft a more detailed response, because it's something I have a difficult time articulating. In over-simplified terms, it seems to me that the basic thrust of the Constitution (or at least of the Bill of Rights) is to the end of upholding the equal rights of all, with the emphasis on "rights." Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness are regarded as "inalienable rights." In the core of Christianity, one relinqushes many of one's rights in order to surrender one's will to the will of God. This is why some branches of Christianity emphasize moral *responsibilities* which at times come into conflict with *rights.* For example, one has the right to do whatever one wants to in the privacy of one's own home, and the Fourth Amendment was established primarily to protect that right. However, if I were to engage even in legal activities within the privacy of my own home that were in opposition to the Commandments (for instance, casual sex outside of a committed relationship), then I would be skirting one of my responsibilities as a Christian. Another facet of this is that many of the Founding Fathers were Deists, and as such they believed that human beings are basically good, whereas the Christian view is that human beings are evil by nature. Now, so much for the points of conflict. There is actually a very inspired place where I find no conflict, but this is found only when I am in obedience to Christ, in which event I find myself liberated from bondage to the flesh and to the corrupt values of the world system. In such an event, I am free to exercise my rights without reserve, and enjoy my liberties, because I have done no wrong. This is the "perfect law of liberty" to which Paul and James refer in the N.T. Phrased differently, when I feel no need to do the things I might have to do in hiding, and when I feel no need to do the things of which I am ashamed, I become liberated, for only things remaining are those that, as Paul writes, "against such there is no law." So, the inspiration I derive from the Consitution pertains to the enjoyment and exercise of rights, but this occasionally conflicts with my Christian beliefs because I have legal rights which, as a Christian, I cannot exercise. What's nice is that there are plenty of rights to go around. Twenty years ago, I would not have thought it possible to be a Libertarian and a Christian simultaneously, but my views on the matter have changed. I hope I've made some sense here - I didn't sleep at all last night, and even when well-rested, this theme has always been difficult for me to verbalize.
from floodtide :
Happy new year, my darling. In my entry this morning I refer to you several times, and I go on about "Christmas Bells" - thought I should write you as well, so I'm not disabusing you of a particular notion indirectly: Longfellow's son did not, in fact, die of his wounds. However, at the time he wrote the poem L THOUGHT his son was dead or dying. Even more hope there than you realized. I love you.
from minstrelite :
Great entry, Katherine. This was definitely a tumultuous year, with a sign of hope toward the end, for me as well as for many others. I've been thinking about the "let it begin with me" theme lately. I've had a fear of success that is so unreasonably huge that I've often thought that no sooner would I finally get my act together than the whole world would explode. Lately, I've been thinking differently: if a person who has made as many mistakes as I have can finally get it together, then so can the Planet Earth. This gives me the impetus to do the best I can - because it just might make a difference. Have a great year in 2009.
from annanotbob :
Belated happy birthday - I did that with a year once, got it wrong. Ah well. Also wishing you a very happy new year, in which you find a path out of the bastard depression. Hugs xx
from poolagirl :
Happy birthday! You are still a puppy even though you repeated the 47th grade.
from minstrelite :
Shucks - when I fixed my ex-boss's Internet connection, he gifted me with sixty dollars. I should have kept that job. Anyway, just stopping by to say hello - haven't heard from you lately. :)
from boxx9000 :
MERRY CHRISTMAS. Peace, Love, Health & Happiness in 2009
from casa-rosie :
Merry Christmas! I, too, enjoyed steak and broc tonight, though I like mine with taters instead of rice, and I don't do wine much. I hope your Christmas is wonderful, blessings on you and your family!
from floodtide :
Just stopping by to say merry Christmas to all three of you (plus the various critters), not to mention happy birthday in a week. Thinking of you with love. Are you hosting a zillion visitors for the holiday? Hope you get some downtime. Sounds like the job is going (at least relatively) well - I am happy for you! Love, ft
from floodtide :
Thank you, beautiful friend. I love you, too.
from h2ophobic :
Marriage Rule #1 - an idea is only a good idea if it comes from your spouse. Marriage Rule #2 - in case of household emergencies, refer to Rule #1. HUGS!
from boxx9000 :
We have USAA insurance, too. They used to be really good 30 years ago, but they have been horrible to deal with for the past 7 years. We have never had a claim. never.
from casa-rosie :
I have a suggestion for the "on fire" person's pseudonym..."Manica". You are very welcome! *LOL*
from bornearly :
Oh - I was going to try to ship it to this guy today -- I'll hold off if you can let me know soon whether you're interested. Obviously it's advantageous to me to go ahead and sell it rather than put it on consignment in another state! Thanks -- :)
from bornearly :
Hi, K -- It's an Avalon S350, concert style acoustic guitar. It was handmade in Ireland for me (my band endorses Avalons) and has had relatively little use. You can see photos at www.adriennejones.com/puck/index.htm. Comes with its case. This retails for around $3350, last time I called around; in an ideal world I'd love to get $2000 for it. Take a look at it and email me if you want to discuss it: talkingriver at sbcglobal dot net!
from hissandtell :
Hi K -- I got a new laptop yesterday and I've lost all my passwords. Please may I have yours again? Love, R xxx
from poolagirl :
YAY! Thanks so much for playing! You are awesome! T-shirts and truth! YESSSSS!
from poolagirl :
AHHHHHH! I have consulted the oracles....and your meme letter is...... "T" Have fun!
from minstrelite :
Hey Katherine, pardon my density. I woke up, saw you'd updated, and spent the first 1/3 of the morning cup of coffee leafing backwards through your entries to catch up. After having read approximately ten of them (to the point of it being 72 hours prior to your starting your new job, and maybe a couple before that), I was still unable to discern exactly what your job is. I take it you're a librarian at a University somewhere? Anyway, cue me in, please. You have an interesting world.
from floodtide :
Oohhhhh, but that Kool-Aid is SOOOOOO good! Don't be afraid! Come! Join us! C'mon, just take one little sip.....
from cosmic :
Your guestbook won't let me sign so I will say it here. I have no idea about any of the programs you mentioned, but yes it whould work fine. Becaue you said so. And I will take your word for it. That's what friends do. So there.
from minstrelite :
I'm trying to grasp the situation. Considering all those variables, I would say that it would depend on your motivation, and on your knowledge of yourself as to how long you can stay remain motivated under the circumstances. But I will need to read the entry a second time when I am feeling a little more focused.
from la-the-sage :
Though THE day was yesterday, I wish you and yours a Happy Thanksgiving. I'll add it to my own blessings that you sound chipper and hopeful! YAY! ~LA
from poolagirl :
Blessings to you. This has been an amazing year for you. You are such a noble person. I truly applaud you.
from floodtide :
Thanks for mentioning ME, in turn. Happy Thanksgiving, my beautiful friend. Je t'adore.
from h2ophobic :
"I must be the change I want to see in the world. Be the love." That is one of the most beautiful lines I've ever read. Thanks for sharing it.
from minstrelite :
Nice "deep thought." (11/24/08) :-)
from boxx9000 :
sorry. ((((hugs))) Yes, I was joking. Whenever my son acts up I turn to his fiance and say, "He's YOUR problem now!" I thank her EVERYday for taking on the task of managing him. He is a total artist brained type person. He NEEDS someone to keep him organized and on task. His fiance has relieved me of that job. We've never had any serious problems with either of our 2 kids. I suppose that would change my perspective. Both my kids are getting married in 2009. I hope your daughter's wedding goes well and her future, too.
from floodtide :
You're getting a MacBook Pro?!?!? Ahhhh, bliss! So happy for you. That said, today's the day of the wedding, so I am thinking of you. "Courage, mon ami!" Thanks for what you said about calm, about trusting. I need to be reminded of it so often (even went to church this morning, shows you how desperate I am). Much love.
from poolagirl :
Wishing you the best on this ominous day. Keep smiling. It will be over soon. Hopefully, the whole marriage will be over soon. Blessings.
from pattypat :
Thanks for the birthday wishes, the nice note and the listing! I've been reading back a few weeks and enjoying your journal. I'll keep good thoughts for your step-daughter.
from poolagirl :
OH....MY...GOD! I am truly speechless with the news of this marriage to a man with FOUR children!!!!! I wish this was all a bad dream. Well, it really IS a bad dream. I only wish it was the sleeping kind of bad dream.
from boxx9000 :
Well, G won't be your problem anymore, she will be her husband's problem, no?
from la-the-sage :
The math and the incredible stupidity here leave me breathless. But children will do what they'll do and no wise words of counsel from a loving parent has ever stopped a child from doing somthing spectacularly idiotic. Didn't stop you. Didn't stop me. I'm sorry your step-daughter is in such a tearing hurry to screw up her life though. Still, 15 years from now when she's heading for 40 and is finally all growed up and doing okay you two might actually get the chance to laugh about this weekend's shenanigans together. That's when you'll get to knock her upside her head and ask, "What the HELL were you thinking?" In the meantime here's a hug from a former foolish girl with a currently foolish kid of her own. ~LA
from minstrelite :
Hey Katherine, I got your comment and read it. Consider it done! Write me for the username and password, and God bless you, my sister.
from mel-is-dvash :
Congratulations on the job, and the fantastic salary. That is just awesome! Sorry to hear about stress and angry people. I hope everything only gets better. ;-)
from poolagirl :
That is absolutely FABOOO news! You go! You go! You rock!
from la-the-sage :
YES!!!! Congratulations, sweetie! That is fabulous news all around. The job sounds like it suits your skill set to a T. And to hear you've unloaded some of that woe is really wonderful. YAYYYYY!!!!! ~LA
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations! What wonderful news, just in time for the holidays! I hope you're very happy at your new job.
from annanotbob :
Yes!!! SO Pleased for you - especially the salary and the recognition of your ability that is implied!! Wishing you every good thing and a big hug xxxx
from floodtide :
YAAAAYYYYYYY!!!!! Congralations, SOOOO happy for you! And the salary, wow. I am so proud of you, too: you deserve this, and you earned it, and you're going to be fabulous. Much much love!
from boxx9000 :
CONGRATULATIONS! WheEeeE! I'm so very happy for you. You deserve to be happy. Hooray.
from la-the-sage :
300mgs, bay-bee. The highest amount allowed by law. It's the only thing that keeps the black from doing me in. Good luck! With kids, job and meds! Love you lots, ~LA
from floodtide :
Yay for slivers of dawn! Okay, so I have to admit that when I first read "John's having lunch with my mother, I think I'll take the little dog out for a spin. She was so good with the company last night--slept on the floor, didn't beg at the table, the picture of proper behavior...," I had somehow blipped over the sentence about the little dog in my thought, and thought that the antecedent for "she" was YOUR MOTHER. So I read it as, "She" - i.e., your mother - "was so good with the company last night [so far, so good!]: slept on the floor...." At this point I realized I'd made some kind of brain processing mistake, and had to back up and start over. But it was a very fun mental image to hold, even if only for a moment.... Love you. Let us know about the job. Selfishly, I'm hoping you get it. I say "selfishly" because then ONE of us would be employed.
from boxx9000 :
I BETCHA she can't even name the 50 states or locate them on a map! She'd NEVER pass "Are you Smarter than a Fifth Grader?"
from minstrelite :
Hey Katherine, I keep wanting to read your diary, but the user-pass was stored on my old system, and I've forgotten it. If you don't mind my reading, can you send it to my G-Mail? Or to andy at music-transcription dot com. Thanks.
from boxx9000 :
GOOD LUCK on your job interview.
from floodtide :
Good luck today! Sending love, a prayer, and much good energy.
from boxx9000 :
It's PRESIDENT Obama! WhEeeee!
from casa-rosie :
OK, I am SO stealing that video! It's a hoot! And the gal on the end looks like my sister Kat! I'll send some good energy your way too. GO OBAMA! (((Hugs!)))
from poolagirl :
I do SO hear you! Holding us all in my heart for a new political outcome!
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY HALLOWEEN
from boxx9000 :
It makes me sad to hear that John is being bullied. WHY isn't the school stopping it? Ever since the school shootings, we take bullying seriously. We are required to work on social skills EVERY day with our students. I have a really good group of kids this year, but Devil Child last year just about drove me over the edge. I documented everything he did and I kept his file. It's sitting on a shelf in my closet. I am sure I will be asked one day in the future about his behavior. The kids only do (bully) what they are allowed to do. Someone at the school needs to take the situation seriously. ZERO tolerance for bullies. Please go to the school, call, write letters, and complain EVERY day so there is a paper trail. please. Whenever I see something happen at school , I usually think, "Oh, that's just kids being kids" Then I think, what if the parent calls the school and says, "My kid got hit, pushed, tripped, called a name etc and WHAT did the teacher do about it?" I have to act on every one of those instances. To NOT do something about it is to allow it to continue, no?
from mel-is-dvash :
Wonderful video stars. I wanted to say something cute or funny, but I am completely dry. Ah, well, I hope you feel better. Zyrtec was a life-saver for me, but that was for skin reactions, not sinuses. Good luck.
from poolagirl :
Oh, I SO hear you! You said it SO well!
from boxx9000 :
I just finished watching the debate and my blood pressure must be off the charts. I don't know how Obama could keep his cool thru all the bullshit McCain was pulling. The more I hear McCain speak the more I really can NOT stand the sound of his voice or the sight of his face. What an absolute jerk. I can't imagine how anyone could ever think MCcain and Palin could be anything other than a huge disaster for this already very troubled nation. There's HOPE tho, HOPEFULLY OBAMA in 2008! Think positive...think positive....
from boxx9000 :
congratulations on the weight loss.
from poolagirl :
What a wonderful video! OMG!
from poolagirl :
Hope you feel better soon, kiddo. Take care. Thinking of you!
from floodtide :
I am very concerned about your health - please let me know how you're feeling. I'm also here to say that I don't think anything has made me happier lately than coming across you calling McCain a pussy.
from boxx9000 :
sorry you are sick. I hope you are better soon. I'll be thinking of you as I'm watching the debate. OBAMA 2008.
from boxx9000 :
I wish you were unlocked so MORE people could read what you wrote today. I'm with you 100%. Palin and McCain are a very thought for our future. People with any intelligence will vote for Obama. Unfortunately, there's a whole lot of STOOPID out there in our country.
from annanotbob :
Thanks for the note, Katherine. I've lost all my passwords - could you send me yours again to annamills46@hotmail.com. Thanks xxx
from casa-rosie :
Hi there! Taking a few hours to update my diary and my reads, I've wanted to add you, but you are locked. If it's OK with you, I'd like to read too! You can write to me at casa.rosie at gmail dot com. Thanks!
from poolagirl :
So glad you like the voodoo queen - rack, nips, and all. YOU are so fookin' funny!
from boxx9000 :
OBAMA in 2008. Keep the hope. One of my buddies was requesting POSITIVES about either candidate. http://wyndspirit.diaryland.com/080904.html
from poolagirl :
What a rockin' entry! You spoke so well!
from sixweasels :
No news to report on the new dude front yet - he doesn't start working there till Oct 1. But you'll be among the first to get my thoughts then : ).
from bindyree :
Speaking of family values, the Palin acorn doesn't fall far from the tree. Sarah and Todd eloped on August 29, 1988, and their oldest son Track was born on April 20, 1989, and there's no indication that it was a premature delivery.
from poolagirl :
I can't watch the convention. I want to throw up in my mouth.
from bluecharis :
Couldn't agree with you more... I'm going to keep my fingers crossed for your country! Hugs from Charis :-)
from floodtide :
Check your e-mail: I've sent a request to copy and paste your letter, verbatim and in its entirety, into my own diary. And everywhere else I can. Love, ft
from cocoabean :
Clinton and Nixon's problem was they got caught... makes me wonder what other presidents did that no one figured out...
from boxx9000 :
I saw Obama speak last night and he was so powerful it scared me for his safety. Some BOZO will try and kill him. Our government does not allow us to have such GREAT leaders like Obama.
from bindyree :
Thanks for that fantastic open letter!!! xooxoxo!!
from minstrelite :
Must be quite a different perspective growing up in the heart of the Bible Belt than out in Greenest California.
from cosmic :
I tried signing your guestbook, but it doesn't like me. I love your pup. She is gorgeous!
from acaldwell :
stay dry! i hope you dont have any damage!!
from minstrelite :
I didn't realize you were under siege of Fay. I'll be praying for you.
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi there! It's way after the fact (how long since I read anything), but I thought I'd let you know that the dog stink is quite normal. Our dogs have variations of it - Our little black beast gives off what we call a 'happy stink,' when she is most content - and they have various types of odour for different situations.//So sorry to hear about your floors - I hope they are well on their way to being fixed now. Lot's of little thoughts but I'll just wish you the best right now. My middle son is turning 18 on Friday. Yikes! :-)
from boxx9000 :
We're learning about *nature's fury" in our English section and I'm also teaching about weather in our science unit. California doesn't really HAVE much weather (sunny 70 everyday) other than earthquakes. Earthquakes are actually kind of fun as long as no one gets hurt. I hope all is well where you are.
from poolagirl :
I am holding you in my thoughts and prayers during Fay's raging times.
from acaldwell :
i have embraced drifting and uncertainty for a while myself, and i tell ya its not a fun place to go! are those contractors licenced?
from acaldwell :
ill read you too, but you is locked up!! email me the goods please!
from sixweasels :
Yep - I definitely think its the same guy - he's not the registrar but he does the class scheduling and stuff there, and I think he was involved (with my current boss as the lead) in bringing up their system. I will take Bill's thoughts as a good sign!
from mskindasorta :
Hi, about 5 months ago you left a note in my diary and I can't remember if I replied or not. I apologise if I didn't but my memory is terrible since my son was killed. I'm ok about you wanting to read, I don't want to leave the password here but if you want to email me at rebeckajane@gmail.com I will pass it on. I love Carolyn (h20phobic) too. Thanks for the note. x
from mel-is-dvash :
I've just gotten caught up, but not enough brain to have anything to say. I'm glad we don't have your heat, but, oh, you get rain sometimes. Be well and Gd bless,
from bindyree :
I cannot brain today, I have the dumb. Email would be good here: brininsf@aol.com. Thanks. :-P
from bindyree :
Minstrelite says this is one of his recommended reads; was dropping a line to request the password. I'm a complete stranger to you, so if you don't wanna, that's okay. Thanks, either way. :-) Have a good day!
from minstrelite :
Wishing John luck with Vista and Office 2007.
from h2ophobic :
I'm glad you get to keep your job. Your floor story seems to go on and on. When we did our remodel, we only put hardwood floors in the kitchen and dining room. The man who laid it did a great job. Except when it came to the trim. He did a bit and left. AND NEVER CAME BACK. Over 2 years later, we finally found someone to come in and finish it. I hope it doesn't take that long for your floors to get laid to your satisfaction. (Is it just me, or should that last sentence be rated R?) BTW, you mentioned that you'd purchased some palm plants to help clean the air in your house. I'm very interested in doing the same thing. Is there a particular plant I should look for? Thanks!
from minstrelite :
I had to think about your deep thought for the Monday August 4th entry for a while. That's pretty profound.
from minstrelite :
I mentioned in my entry I was going to go up to the library. But they're only open from 1pm to 5pm on Sundays. I've been able to work there. Right now I'm at an out-of-the-way Starbucks where no one will ever find me. It cost me $1.80 though (to buy water.) But I got a free lunch. Thanks for the suggestion.
from poolagirl :
LOL! Your language is just fookin' fine!
from poolagirl :
Thanks so much for your kind words. Can you email me again, please with your address so I can send your prize? I lost a lot of important stuff in the move. Well, I just don't know where it is. Ahem....yeah.
from minstrelite :
Thanks -- she's actually someone I've known for some years, but she was waiting both for her son to be of age and for me to get my head together. So I'm really happy.
from la-the-sage :
Ow! My sympathies. When Wolf declared there'd be no more Go To Sleep song...well it's been 4 months and it still smarts a little every night at bedtime. A quick hug and an offhand, "'Night, Mom!" and poof! he's gone. These sons of ours! Why do they have to grow up? ~LA
from floodtide :
Ouch. He may be growing up, and part of that (probably especially so for us males) is wanting to feel independent and "above" such things as cuddling. In other words, he'd like to think he's getting too old for such things, and - while he may need/wand them less - Riley wanted to cuddle in bed two weeks ago at age 19, and my friend Simon tells me he had the same experience with his son at the same age. He still needs you, and in that way, too, he just doesn't want to think he does, so much. Not your last cuddle by a long, long stretch. Love, ft
from hissandtell :
Ahhh, nothing like the sight of a puppy snoozing peacefully to restore balance and harmony to utter chaos and confusion! Glad things are on the up for you. Love, R xxx
from floodtide :
Oh, sweet friend: I am sorry for the headaches, and the upheaval, and the idiocy, but thank you for sharing them all with such graceful touches of both honesty and - however inadvertent - a little humour. Because when I got to "suppressing touches of homocidal rage" I cracked up. Not laughing at you, but literally with you, because, hoo girl, that has been me, too. I'm just out of patience for dumb shit, and it sounds like you're having to deal with more of it than I am. I am thinking of you with love.
from cocoabean :
Ummm I'm sorry, but he wouldn't be spreading his bodily fluids on my yard, and I would have no problem telling him so.
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) Somehow it always works out in the end, it always does. ((((hugs))))
from violetsmile :
Aww, thank you! Yes, moving in together and planning our future is huge! But so exciting! I'm a happy bunny!! I'm glad you found the boy's diary! I'm hoping he will start updating more often! By the way, your puppy is adorable!! Especially stood next to your cat!! Cutie!! x
from floodtide :
You can stalk me anytime; I love getting your notes. And I love "Owen Meany" as well; one of my favorite characters in literature (another is Duncan Garp). I was looking for something lighthearted - read the nativity scene and (just as good in other ways) the scenes of Owen as the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come. Unfortunately I was awake long enough to re-read the ending, too, which made me sad (though I skipped the funeral; that would have made me lose it completely). Love, ft
from minstrelite :
Hi, I left you an email with the user/pass if you still want to read me. Sorry if I over-reacted, I am in bad spirits today, and it just seemed strange that you seemed to assume I didn't want you to read my diary. I very often lock it and unlock it, depending on what I'm saying and who might be reading it. It's not about you, it's about me.
from floodtide :
Thank you for YOUR note. I've been meaning to write to you anyway: I like "Scout"!
from enfinblue :
Thanks so much. I look forward to getting acquainted with your diary!
from minstrelite :
"What would help look like?" That's a really good question, and I don't have the answer for it. I only have the beginnings of speculation. What I was trying to express is that a person in that position (such as me at times, or perhaps your friend) is naturally hoping to find help, but we ourselves don't know exactly what form help -- real help -- would take. By and large, we have to help ourselves, and then (if the principle holds true) the forces of the Universe will allign themselves on our behalf and further the self-help along. "Help" that comes either in the form of money or advice might fail, because money can come into the hands of a person whose problem is difficulty handling money; and advice might fall on ears that aren't ready to hear it, if indeed the advice is even good advice to begin with. We will always find people ready to tell others what they ought to do, but how often have they walked a mile in that person's shoes? What I'm slowly coming to believe is that it is only within the oneself that one's help will be found, and to access it requires both willingness and faith. Once that happens, if it happens, money and words will both be useful; but beforehand, they are not. Please remind me I said this the next time I complain that nobody ever helps me.
from cosmic :
I would like to suggest Tawny.
from cocoabean :
How about 'Intrepid' for a name? You could call her "Treppie" or just Trep.... it's what she is.....
from h2ophobic :
She is too cute! How can you get anything done? I'd be snuggling her all the time.
from la-the-sage :
My goodness what a sweetheart! Welcome, welcome little precious! ~LA
from cocoabean :
ohhh how sweet!
from boxx9000 :
those are some pretty cute pictures!
from floodtide :
I put on my facebook profile status: "Proud to be an equal-opportunity corrupter."!
from floodtide :
(Maybe I just came on too strong: unabashed discussion of a same-sex relationship, saying "fuck" several times while directing the actors, and having two actors suggest anal sex - even briefly - may have been too much on his first night.)
from floodtide :
Your note cracked me up! I had no idea I'd been so instrumental in leading you to Satan. Should I be proud or ashamed? Usually it's children I'm accused of corrupting, so I'm glad to know my influence is much more universal. I don't know what I did wrong in this case; usually my intellectual seductions are successful...
from boxx9000 :
I LOVE hardwood floors. so pretty.
from h2ophobic :
We had wood laminate floors put in our kitchen and dining room a couple of years ago. I absolutely love them. I bought a swiffer mop set for wood floors and it's a breeze to keep them clean. A friend of mine has a Pomeranian and she's so cute and cuddly. I love to watch her walk, because she kind of prances. Of course, I'm a Chihuahua lover, they are quite the lovers too, but they tend to only be lovey to their owners.
from minstrelite :
Annanotbob got $495 on the meme? I must still be missing the point.
from annanotbob :
Bob is a Tonkinese - a Siamese/Burmese cross. I think she did grow darker over time, but she's never beem as pale as a Siamese. I got 495 on that meme...
from minstrelite :
Hey. Before I do the "meme," can you clarify if (1) there were any other questions besides the ones you answered (I ask this because I didn't see any $0 as answers) -- (2) there is a significance I'm missing to these all being mulitples of $5. (In other words, did acid 10 times would be $5, smoked pot 30 times would be $15, or something like that.) Or was it, if you did acid at all, it was always $5, no matter whether you did acid once or 100 times? I want to answer it but am not sure I get it. It looks as though almost everybody would add up to exactly $455.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for your note. I agree with you. I was having a really bad day yesterday. I had been triggered, and I was having great difficulty controlling my flow of thoughts. I also sent angry emails to John and Rob. I saw that there was an email reply from John in my Inbox, but I deleted it without reading it. He and I have been through this before. I do forgive them, of course. Also, I'm aware (with some embarrassment) that nothing they did was intended to be hurtful, but that I was too sensitive about my work. I probably ought not to send them my music in the future, if I'm not going to be able to predict or control my reaction to criticism from them. I guess what it is, is -- all the industriousness of the work I do is never acknowledged, but the criticisms are levied so casually, that it feels like an affront at the time. I wish somebody could just say, "Nice work, Andy," and leave it at that. But somehow, on this planet, everybody has to be my guru when it comes to Art. Anyhoo, this all serves to illustrate just how distorted my thinking can become around this issue. I am just thankful that today is a new day, and that somehow the Lord enabled me to get a good night's sleep last night. Also, I am going to edit out the part about the 12-Step programs. That's my personal irrationality due to stuff in my past, and it tends to surface when I'm not thinking clearly. I feel better this morning. Thanks again for your note.
from h2ophobic :
I had to laugh at your comment about your husband feeling he shouldn't have to watch your son during his vacation. It shouldn't be funny, but it was. Thank you for your offer about your book. I'm currently in therapy and working very hard at it, so I think I'll pass on the book for now. I know that my anxiety stems from Jeff's death and my feelings of being "not" in control. I'm slowly learning to work through it. It's just that some days (like yesterday) it catches me by surprise and I cannot seem to get on top of it. P.S. Go to the doctor! It's a pain (literally and figuratively) but you're already not feeling well, you might as well get it over with! Feeling achy all the time...that's your body's way of telling you "Hey! Pay some attention to me!" HUGS!
from minstrelite :
Glad that this, too, has passed.
from minstrelite :
You're welcome. A couple other people had asked about that (I guess I'd set myself up for it) and so I figured I'd better just post it, even though I had a hard time gathering my thoughts around it. Also, I love it when I happen to run into an old friend and we're able to spontaneously grab lunch or breakfast -- events like that are the spice of life.
from floodtide :
Thanks for the nod in your diary this morning; yes, believe me, one of the first things I thought of was, "well, we'd be close to K...." I'll let you know how the interview goes. Do you know anything about their dep't? It scares me more than a little that I had never heard of it, never worked with a graduate of it. And whatever your awful news was, I've been thinking of you. Love, ft
from boxx9000 :
I hope you are getting to enjoy some of your summer vacation and it's not all work, work, work? You know how that saying goes, "all work and no play blah, blah, blah" I started teaching after my kids were out of High School. I can't imagine trying to do this teaching job with young kids still at home. Even HIGH energy people have only so much energy and limited hours in one day. Tomorrow we leave for our mini vacation. I'll send you a post card. I have your post card of the university hanging on my fridge. HAVE A GOOD DAY. ENJOY.
from annanotbob :
Big hugs, sweet thing. Mothers, huh. {{{hugs}}}
from minstrelite :
I don't know what happened, of course, but I can identify with the sudden realization that there is a limit to the connection one can have with one's mother. I'll send you those verses if I can email you through DiaryLand (?) -- and thank you for seeing me as I was originally created, before I made the mistake of trying to alter the original design (through various means of "recreation," if you get my drift.)
from floodtide :
Thank you, beautiful friend. It won't be for long. It's just that right now I'm interacting on an almost daily basis with a few people who have passwords, and I'm uncomfortable with having them read my diary when it includes comments - not all of them flattering - about them. So I keep finding myself watering down or censoring. So for now I'm writing, but keeping it to myself. There'll probably be a few public entries, and I'll be back online as usual within a few weeks. Love, ft
from mel-is-dvash :
The barrels are fishless? Oh, please explain. I'm glad to hear that things between the ears are good. I pray it should stay that way.
from floodtide :
In case you should need to be reminded: you are a treasure. I, for one, am grateful. Much love.
from minstrelite :
I believe that too -- that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. I also think that the teachers are always among us, but we don't notice them until we're ready.
from la-the-sage :
But you MUST come! Please? ~LA
from cosmic :
If you are even the tiniest bit hesitant about going to the Javalina hunt, please don't be!!! I personally can vouch for some of the people going because I have met them in real life. Three I have had more than one phone conversations with. These are some of the most wonderful people you will ever meet. Seriousely, if ever there were a bunch that will make you feel at east at one, this bunce is them. I only wish I could go, because trust me I would!
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi. Glad you're back. Sounds like it's been good, I'm glad. :-)
from cocoabean :
Oh, please come! You will see how much fun you can have with people you *sort of* know. We will welcome you with open arms and javelina hunting gear! You will be glad you did!!
from minstrelite :
I liked your "deep thought" today (June 13th.) I'll consider applying that one to my own situation.
from minstrelite :
Cool. Nothing like a prompt response! By the way, I forgot to tell you I also relate as "step-parent." I'd almost relate as "mother" if it weren't for gender issues.
from minstrelite :
This is a trip, but I've been cleaning out some of my older entries, and I just now saw the comment you left on January 6th to my entry of January 1st. I want to thank you for that, and ask you if it's all right to get the user/pass to your diary. You and I at least have "hippie" in common, if not the political party. ;)
from cosmic :
Happy Vacation!!!!!
from boxx9000 :
TRAVEL SAFELY.
from la-the-sage :
Happy Anniversary, sweetie. ~LA
from mel-is-dvash :
I love the turtle parable. I don't know what it means, but I love it. I'll say this for goats, they will stop stampeding me to eat whatever is thrown or given. But then they snatch it up so fast it is of little use to me, I still get mobbed. Still, I love my goats. ;-)//I'm a bit jealous of your yard work, I have so much I want to do, especially with fruit trees, but I have to wait for the shmitta year to be over. Sometime in the fall. *sigh*
from poolagirl :
I love the turtle stories! And happy Mother's Day to you!
from h2ophobic :
Happy Mother's Day! I hope you have a wonderful, relaxing day. P.S. More turtle stories please.
from boxx9000 :
I hope your headache is gone? I had a headache for the last two days and today I worked out REAL hard and my headache disappeared. HOORAY. stress? I think so. THANK YOU for the post card. I LOVE IT! Especially since it has a family connection for you and an art connection for me. WHEeEEeeee!
from boxx9000 :
I LOVE getting new toothbrushes. I have a whole drawer full of new toothbrushes. It's like a mini-present.
from h2ophobic :
Your summer plans sound wonderful! I'm more than a bit jealous. P.S. When we're sick, I put our toothbrushes AND hairbrushes in the dishwasher daily to kill the germs. It may be only in my head, but it seems to help.
from poolagirl :
Take care of yourself, keedo!
from floodtide :
Shame on me, I haven't said 'thank you' yet. THANK YOU. Much gratitude and much love, gwm
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry about Bill's mother. My prayers and thoughts are with your family.
from boxx9000 :
so sorry to hear about your mother-in-law. ((((hugs))))
from floodtide :
"We won't be over-rehearsed!" I'm going to tell my sophomore BFA actors that that should be our mantra in the two weeks leading up to juries! A battle cry for the stressed and coasting, to be sure. I'll be thinking of you as you travel and as you sort-of-prep the presentation. Knock 'em dead, anyway, okay? I have a feeling you can, actually, and will, and I'll be there in spirit, just over your left shoulder, whispering "Brava!" softly into your ear, with encouragement and love.
from son-souvenir :
when do i get to read your journal 0?_, since, you do get to read mine apparently.. i do know darren (adorkable) offline, and maybe some others, but if you have personal reasons i suppose i don't understand
from annanotbob :
Sorry things are tough and hoping they get easier soon. The breathing exercises in the yoga booklet are very calming, especially the alternate nostril one - sounds gross I know, but it just works. Big hugs from your friend across the pond xxx
from annanotbob :
Sorry things are tough and hoping they get easier soon. The breathing exercises in the yoga booklet are very calming, especially the alternate nostril one - sounds gross I know, but it just works. Big hugs from your friend across the pond xxx
from mel-is-dvash :
Just catching up. I can't think of anything to say except {{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}} You should feel better soon (that's a wish, not a 'should')
from mzbee :
I don't want you to be sad. ((((hugs)))) been there, done that. Your turtles always make me smile when I see them. I keep having *mini* panic attacks every time I think about having to go on this 3 day camping trip with my students, and then I just shift my attention to the NOW and the anxiety STOPS. It's not a perfect system but it IS helping and it's drug free, too. ((((hugs))))
from floodtide :
Oh, sweet friend, I am so sorry for your hurting heart. I am sending love and healing energy and the simple fact that I believe in you. We will both emerge from this time with new possibilities. I promise. Thank you for continuing to encourage me; please let me encourage and love you in return. You are in my heart and in my thoughts all day. Love, flood
from bluecharis :
Gee, yeah, let's get well soon!! :-)) BTW: Love your new turtles template.. Have a nice weekend with your houseguests, love, Charis :-)
from mzbee :
((((hugs))) on the being tired thing, but just think, IT'S FRIDAY! Hooray for the weekend!
from floodtide :
You are a genius. And a dream.
from mskindasorta :
Thanks for the kind message. I don't want to leave my password on here but if you want to email me at rebeckajane@gmail.com I will give it to you. Or just ask Carolyn for it.
from mzbee :
I LOVE that your turtles are now part of your template.
from mzbee :
I'm *OK* with spring break being almost over because TODAY is fabulous and I plan to enjoy every minute of it. (how am I doing with staying in the *now"?) I meant to ask you about a book you have mentioned before, was it A Course In Miracles?
from mzbee :
Oh, I just love, love, LOVE your turtles (envy: I wish I had turtles!) They are just so cute. I'm so happy to hear that they are OK. I can't wait to hear more about them and MORE pictures please. (pretty please with sugar on top)
from annanotbob :
Hello - Hey, guess what? I have ten copies of my yoga booklet sitting in a nice little pile. Email me your address and one will be on its way. Turtles? Ponds? Must get into those archives... xx
from goodsandwich :
May I read your diary? (I remember I used to, and would love to again, if you care to send the password.)
from annanotbob :
That poster sounds great - yes please! xx
from readersguide :
You're here! Hooray!
from floodtide :
I wasn't all that surprised to get your note; in fact, when I go two or three days without diarizing I know I'm liable to worry you. Thanks for your concern, and your sweet friendship. I'm okay, actually, just - I don't know, maybe 'hibernating' is the right word. Spring break, books, tea, drinks in the evening, time alone. I think I'm re-charging or rejuvenating a little. Love, flood
from annanotbob :
Hiya - thanks for the kind note and the add. I can either post you a booklet or scan it and email it. However, neither of these will happen for at least a few days as I haven't used my printer/scanner yet (and I'm crap at technology) and I used to get the booklets printed in reprographics when I was a teacher, but now have no access to such a facility. This is not me giving you the brush off - I intend to get some printed and need to learn how to use the scanner. So, let me know which you prefer. Thanks again for your kind words - I intend to dive into your diary later today!! All the best, Anna xx
from chaosdaily :
thanks for adding me! Any chance I can get the password? email to drkchoclover at gmail... thanks!
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm glad your kitty made it back. She is so cute! IMHO it's not wrong to get attached, it's just hard sometimes.
from h2ophobic :
Oh my goodness, that photo of your kitty is so cute, I could just scoop him up and love on him! I'm so glad he came back home. Every once in a while, our cat gets out at night and I worry all night long too.
from hissandtell :
Hi Katherine -- sadly, I've lost your password (new laptop and all) -- would you please leave me a note/comment/email when you get the chance and remind me what it is? Love, R xxx
from h2ophobic :
I miss you!
from boxx9000 :
STAY-AT-HOME MOM is my dream job (envy)
from readersguide :
Hey! I'd been meaning to write to you , too. Thank you for agreeing with me. Ha! (You are right -- I did know it.) And about your dilemma, I can completely see both sides of it -- I partly work (well, aside from the money, without which we'd starve in a hovel) just because I'm afraid I'd lose all social visibility if I didn't. But life would be so so so much easier if I didn't, and it would be much better for the kids, and we'd all eat better, and the house would be so much easier to live in. And I would be less frazzled. So enjoy it. John will grow up quickly and you can reevaluate then, and just don't fall into the stupid trap of thinking that without a paying job you don't exist. Take pictures! Also, that library sounds like a mess, and you probably don't want to work there. And also don't think that just because you're mostly home, that you have to cook dinner every night. No.
from flicka :
too funny! I am looking forward to reading! I love Oprah most of the time.....esp when we're on it selling my book.
from flicka :
Co-author? Thanks for the info. Happy reading :)
from flicka :
I have to read you just for the fact that you like Jimmie Dale Gilmore and that you have my favorite line "Babe, you're just the wave...." up on your favorites page!
from flicka :
who would believe it? And the Million LIttle Pieces person was a fraud. I started a book, and I stopped. I just don't know where to go with it. Although....I did get stuck in New Mexico for a few days on my return from my Dad's house where I did a lot of thinking. I hope to be new and improved (even more).
from mzbee :
I really, really, like your list.
from mzbee :
HAPPY NEW YEAR! WhEeeEE!
from mzbee :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! You don't sound like you're running out of steam to me! hehe. My Dave is 54, but I'm 52.
from h2ophobic :
Happy Birthday! I just realized that you and your Bill have the same age difference as me and my Bill. I'm 44 and he's 52. I hope 2008 is the best year ever for you and your family.
from junkmel1 :
I'm a fairly new reader, of a few months, I guess, but I'm enjoying your site. What does ACIM mean? Just curious. Also, I love love love my Rowenta iron. And I desperately need a new ironing board, as mine got bent by the movers and wants to fall over when I use it.
from mel-is-dvash :
Happy Birthday! I hope this year is as terrific as the last one was hard. Love, Mel
from cosmicrayola :
Happy Birthday to you (tomorrow)<br> Happy Birthday to you. (tomorrow)<br> Happy Birthday dear Life-my-wayyyyyy<br> Happy Birthday to youoooooo.(tomorrow)
from h2ophobic :
I have a Rowenta iron too. It's a smaller version of yours, but I absolutely love it. It's amazing to me to be able to iron something so well and so quickly. Jeans got left in the dryer overnight? No problem! I now wear clothes that used to be ignored, because I can iron them and they LOOK ironed when I'm finished. Have fun with your new love!
from floodtide :
First, thank you for the beautiful and thoughtful Christmas card - love the picture of John. Second: I'm with you on irons. Jim gave Karen (Jim and Karen are our friends/hosts in Naples) a Rowenta iron that might be similar to yours; it keeps the water in a separate unit, connected to the iron by a long steam cord. No longer needing her old Rowenta, she handed it down to me, and I'm in an ecstasy of ironing, because the thing irons like nothing else I've ever handled. Here's to flat, smooth, wrinkle-less sheets and pillowcases and shirts and dishtowels in our 47th year, which brings me to (third): Happy birthday. Love, flood
from mzbee :
an ironing board and iron?????
from boxx9000 :
I'm so sorry about your cat. ((((hugs))) When my daughter was 14 she lost her cat and put flyers up all over our neighborhood. A neighbor called and said they had found a cat that fit the description and she could come take a look. The cat had been mauled to death and it was in their garbage can. My daughter said it was the worst thing to remember her beloved cat in that way. I wish I could have spared her that experience. ((((hugs))))
from la-the-sage :
I am so sorry about Delilah. No attitude adjustment needed right now, sweetie. 2007 has been major suckitude for you and yourn. Love, ~LA
from poolagirl :
Oh, sweetie! I am so sorry for your bad fortune. Please know I am thinking of you!
from boxx9000 :
CONGRATULATIONS on being done with all your homework and classes. HOORAY for you. CONGRATULATIONS on your new iPod, how exciting! How are your turtles? I think about them often. MERRY CHRISTMAS.
from h2ophobic :
I know it shouldn't be funny, but the divorce conversation make me laugh out loud. Especially that he kept talking about it even after you told him that it wasn't happening. When they're not annoying the hell out of me, people crack me up!
from h2ophobic :
I've been reading you for so long, I know I should know this, but I can't for the life of me figure it out. What is ACIM? P.S. I hope you do enjoy your time alone. I love my alone time (to a point.) If I don't get enough of it, I actually crave it!
from boxx9000 :
You remind me sooOooO much of myself! hehehehe. (((hugs)))) for you. I'm glad all worked out well with John's backback. side note....of COURSE I could NEVER hate you for being a lawyer! The type of lawyer "I" hate is my brother-in-law who sued me for alimony for myt ex ( cureent husband) and made sure that his own nephew would receive ZERO college support AND the lawyer who forged my name on court documents and is currently serving a 6 year prison term on a drunk driving and weapons charge! Yes, I have "lawyer" issues, but I think I have a good justification, no?
from poolagirl :
You won! I need your email so I can send you the icon - or you can grab it off my page about 3-4 entries ago. YAY! poolagirl@aol.com
from boxx9000 :
11-22-07 HAPPY THANKSGIVING
from hissandtell :
Hi Katherine -- I don't appear to be able to get in. If you're prepared to share your password, can you plase leave me your email address (which I'll promptly delete) in my comments section so I can contact you? Love, R xxx
from mel-is-dvash :
Hmmm... I never saw Forrest Gump. So that makes two. There are probably a handful of others. Or not? // I hope things are more settled now with your son and school. None of this stuff is easy, is it? {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} Mel
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) middle school is not an easy age. It will pass. ((((hugs))))
from floodtide :
Thinking of you - and John - as you weather this bumpy (but I hope fruitful) transition. With much love, flood
from h2ophobic :
I can never seem to get your guestbook to take my entries. ;0( Thanks for the warning and passwords before you locked up. I'm not great at leaving notes, but I love reading your diary.
from boxx9000 :
All of my student's test scores and assessment info is online. I could run you a report on just about anything you could imagine. Here in California we are test crazy. (sigh)
from boxx9000 :
Not ALL public schools are bad and some are even quite excellent. Fingers crossed for a positive public school experience for you and John. I never expected a public school to educate my child, only to encourage lifelong learning and some socialization skills. The REAL learning takes place on their own. no?
from boxx9000 :
HOORAY for jammies and a plan-less Friday.
from readersguide :
Huh. Why did I think that? I somehow imagined her living in an apartment in the basement. Well, Good! Keep it that way!
from boxx9000 :
Tired of summer? I wish it would last FOR-EV-AH!
from h2ophobic :
I can't seem to get your guestbook to accept a message. I think it's amazing how many opportunities are coming your way. I hope you find the one that's perfect for you!
from boxx9000 :
I'm just hoping the very BEST for you and your family with this whole job situation. It will all work out, even if you don't think so at this very minute, but it really does, it ALWAYS does. (((hugs)))
from floodtide :
GOOD LUCK TODAY!!!!!!!
from bluecharis :
Hey Katherine! Good luck for tomorrow! I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed for you!! All the best, Charis :-))
from h2ophobic :
I'm sending lots of peaceful thoughts your way. Good luck getting ready for and then having your interview. Remember to breathe. You are who they are looking for...they just may not know it yet!
from mel-is-dvash :
I hope I don't offend if I say it's *not* 'yours to lose.' Thinking of something as belonging to you before you have it puts certain pressure on when things are still uncertain. If you do get it it takes away from the joy because of it having been 'yours' all along, and if you don't get it then you grieve the loss of something you never had in the first place.// Whatever happens, you will all be all right, so please back off a minute, take a deep breath, and then maybe just try to do the next right thing? I hate giving advice, so feel free to ignore this, but I hate to read you being so stressed and worked up. I hope you do get everything you want. {{{{{{HUGS}}}}} Mel
from boxx9000 :
It will all work out, it always does. (((hugs)))
from boxx9000 :
CONGRATULATIONS on the weight loss and you DESERVE all things good.
from boxx9000 :
http://www.readwritethink.org/index.asp That site has some really great lesson plans for writing. My students are making their own newspaper right now and a business card book report.
from mel-is-dvash :
While I might really need a purpose in life (I don't know) I sure could go for some banana bread. Yummy and delicious!
from boxx9000 :
OH NO! Soup on/in your laptop? YIKES! I'm always paranoid about spilling a drink next to my computer. The worse thing tht ever happened was my cat, Spicoli, PEED on my old keyboard to my desk top model.
from floodtide :
in re: tomato soup and laptops: Please forgive me for how hard I'm laughing right now.
from boxx9000 :
I had to teach cumulative frequency to my 4th graders last year. Just the VERY basic idea of keeping a running total at that level. I took statistics when I was working on my masters. Math is NOT my most favorite subject, but I got thru it. email me at Spicoli007@yahoo.com I have a new private diary for FRIENDS ONLY!!!
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs)))
from boxx9000 :
http://www.haloscan.com/
from boxx9000 :
BREATHE! It all works out in the end somehow, it always does.
from boxx9000 :
Your present arrived in today's mail. I LOVE IT! Thanks so much. I will send YOU a post card and use my new address labels. p.s. your turtle is cute.
from boxx9000 :
Wishing you and John a HAPPY 2007-2008 HOMESCHOOLING YEAR! (((hugs))) It will be a GREAT experience for the both of you.
from boxx9000 :
I'll play PAY IT FORWARD! I am soOooOoooOo envious of you staying at home to homeschool John. I'm starting to feel the back-to-school anxiety. We start on the 15th! I just saw my updated class list. I only have 28 (much better than 33) and 11 of them are GATE (top 2%) WheEeEee!
from mel-is-dvash :
What a really huge day. I hope you get the cat. :-) Hugs, Mel
from boxx9000 :
I want to join a YOGA class!
from readersguide :
Wow! Actually, it all sounds really really good! Go for it!
from la-the-sage :
John will have the best-est teacher! Imaginative, hard working, committed and fun. Well done! ~LA
from boxx9000 :
A pen pal exchange with my 6th grade classroom kids sounds like a GREAT idea!
from boxx9000 :
I covered my ears but my eyes kept reading! Do you REALLY WANT to be a lawyer? I know you will be good at whatever you choose to do.
from poolagirl :
Hey Katherine! I wanna send you a present! Please email me your snail mail addy at poolagirl@aol.com. Put life-my-way in the subject line. COOLNESS! And....may I have your password, please? I promise to guard it with an entire crew of bloodthirsty pirates.
from readersguide :
I think I liked it -- I think it really did everything I wanted. I'm sorry about F and T and L. I want to know what Harry does for a living. Otherwise, it was good, and a lot of unexopected things now fit together. Did you like it?
from boxx9000 :
This must be a step daughter? (((hugs)))
from floodtide :
I got mine at 9 this morning, and I'm up to Chapter 9! Much love, flood
from boxx9000 :
I've decided I have just GOT to have a pond if I ever have a yard. I LOVE your pond (and turtles and plants etc)
from boxx9000 :
What changed your mind about returning (or not) to the same school next year? No homeschooling?
from boxx9000 :
a BoXx turtle? hehehehehe
from boxx9000 :
*COOTER* is just too, too COOT! (cute)
from bluecharis :
Hey there! Even though it seems as if the Germans are evacuating in hordes, please be assured that this German will keep on reading! Wishing you a happy summer and good times, all the best, Charis :-))
from h2ophobic :
Notes seem to be working this morning, so I thought I'd take a chance and send you one. How fun to be redecorating (except for the work part of it).
from boxx9000 :
I too go back and forth between HIGH energy and LOW depression. I think it has to do with the hectic school year demands. Usually we are so damn busy we don't have a chance to think about anything other than the task at hand. When we get a little vacation time we are flooded with all the daily life choices that we haven't had time to really think about in any depth. You need some poolside ZEN time to vege. It all works out in the end somehow, it always does! You'll make the right decision regarding next year for you and your family. You'll see. (((hugs))) Come over to WordPress.
from ava-reborn :
Nooooo, I can't show a photo of him! He's another Diarylander and is very shy! I'll work on him though! I'll try to get you a photo! Enjoy your summer, you deserve the break!
from mia-fiamma :
That ring is absolutely beautiful. Wow!
from floodtide :
Actually, no, I was not fantastic, but Kristin was. She responded to the serious weaknesses in the work and my teaching of it with an unbelievable insight and care. To call what she did "unexpected" would be absurd understatement, and I believe it will result in a life change for me. More in a few minutes, when I write my diary. What matters is not "was I fantastic?" What matters is that it was a stirring and profoundly good experience. Much love, and thanks for your care, ft
from floodtide :
Happy anniversary to BOTH of you. That ring is stunning, and I don't doubt for a moment that it looks ravishing on you. Even more important: you look ravishing in it. Even more important than that: you deserve it. Love, ft
from cosmicrayola :
I am sooooo behind. I lost the name and password to your site!
from mel-is-dvash :
Congratulations on 12 years. That's wonderful! Happy Anniversary!! :-)
from tiaris :
Check your e-mail. There should be two messages from me. If there aren't, leave a comment on this diary and include your most recent e-mail address (no one will see it). Muah!
from boxx9000 :
Here if you homeschool you have to register with the county office of education. EVERY day can be a field trip to someplace interesting. There's usually a group of other families that you can plan outings with so the kids get other kid interaction. Also, he can still participate in the electives at the regular school. My son played bassoon for the Junior youth symphony and my daughter participated in several community plays. Once my kids were of HS age they could take classes at the local JC like tennis and astronomy and ALL the art courses. GOOD LUCK! Life is an adventure.
from boxx9000 :
BOXX HAS MOVED DIARIES. YOU CAN FIND ME AT: http://boxx9000.wordpress.com/
from ava-reborn :
Ooooooh, the subject of education is such a tricky one! As you know, I teach K at home, after taking her out of school nearly 5 years ago. I believe your gut will lead your in the right direction! I "knew" K was better off being home educated. And was immediately proved right!! You know your own child. Other people can give advice or their own opinions, but only you know what's best! Hugs!
from cosmicrayola :
I lost the password!!
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm sorry if I'm writing this twice, I tried to put it in your guestbook and it didn't seem to work: Regarding your 'annual crisis of conscience,' it doesn't have to be so final. I mean, you can try taking him out of school and if it doesn't work out for you and/or him you can always put him back in. It's not like he would miss out on so much that he couldn't catch up on. If you do decide to take him out of school (permanently, for a year, for a short trial, whatever) it is important to know that children who leave school for homeschooling do take a while to adjust - if at first it's hard and he's not motivated to learn that doesn't necessarily mean it's a failure. Children (and parents) need to 'de-tox' from the whole school thing. Even if you are doing school-at-home (which we don't, here). Lots of other thoughts, ideas and suggestions if you are interested, but too much for a guestbook entry. Whatever you decide re: school, have a happy summer! :-)
from boxx9000 :
You can definitley do a better job at home with educating your child. I homeschooled my kids for awhile off and on. Both kids were out of High School by age 16 and taking classes at the Junior College. Neither one of my kids really fit into the High School mentality. I don't know if it hurt them or helped them.
from boxx9000 :
I can't see the ticker on your page? Is it my mac? I can see the ticker just fine on my own page???
from ava-reborn :
I love the pics of Thelma and Louise!! I got my pink laptop from a home shopping catalogue. I will post piccies soon!!!
from boxx9000 :
http://www.tickerfactory.com/ezticker/ticker_designer.php
from tiaris :
The turtles are absolutely WONDERFUL! I heart them, right up there with mingos.
from floodtide :
Love love LOVE me some turtle pics.
from readersguide :
Oh dear -- I hope you survive. I hope at least some of them have adequate warm clothing (although maybe they won't notice. Ha ha.)
from floodtide :
Hi, sweet friend, and thanks. I'm fine. Went a day or two without because of (1) no time (not unusual) and (2) nothing to say (very unusual!). Then left my entry private yesterday when I updated again, since I dealt mostly with the extremely difficult marital agony of a dear friend who wouldn't want this particular dirty laundry aired even partially. I JUST updated with this morning's response to Vonnegut's death: I had written it very early this morning but then bloody comcast was giving us fits. Finally able to post moments ago (Matt still can't send e-mail out.) Love, ft
from boxx9000 :
Brendan & Kelly broke up. Kelly says he is TOO messy to live with and TOO much of a sports fanatic. (sigh) I guess it better they figured it out NOW rather than 20 years later. Brendan is moving out at the end of the month. The real problem is that Brendan has never had a girlfriend and Kelly is not exactly the *training wheels* type of girl to be a first relationship experience.
from boxx9000 :
I chose private GATE magnet schools for my kids (and home schooling for a bit) The biggest difference I see between the public schools (where I teach) and the private schools is the amount of parent involvement. I have 33 kids in a classroom, nearly half are second language kids, and MORE than half are on FREE or reduced lunch. Last year I had a full inclusion student and this year I have two. Sometimes it feels like herding cattle. My really GIFTED kids are the ones who are being *shorted*. They could move along so much quicker and further if the other kids didn't require so much of my attention. But, if you remove all the top kids then there are no models left for the others. It's a catch 22. I do not know WHY public schools can't do a better job then they do. There are plenty of hard working and dedicated teachers. I think the real factor lies with the parents. The acorn doesn't fall far from the tree, no?
from boxx9000 :
Tell me about your school. It's not a public school is it? What grades? How many teachers on staff? Do you have an ART program? Sports?
from bluecharis :
Sending you good wishes and a big hug! Happy Easter! :-))
from boxx9000 :
WheeeeeE! THANKS. I really like the idea of having a pond and a pair of turtles. Maybe someday (in my dreams) I will get my very own pond. Until then, I will have pond ENVY! My daughter has a pair of turtles and they DO eat goldfish. But, they have made *friends* with a few of the goldfish that they NEVER eat. Weird, isn't it?
from boxx9000 :
I want to know ALL about your turtle. What kind is it? male of female? How old is it? Does it have a name? How long have you had it? What does it eat? How long will it live? Does it have a personality? Inquiring minds NEED to know. I LOVE your pond! (pond envy)
from bluecharis :
Eh, maybe I'm a bit blind, but where's the turtle?? The pond looks nice though and the surroundings very green! Have fun with your oneness, Charis
from readersguide :
thank you -- thank you very very much.
from tiaris :
Neat-o on the vehicular addition. And? I love turtle-y goodness. Turtles rule, quite simply.
from boxx9000 :
Congratulations on your new hybrid. GO GREEN!
from readersguide :
the guestbook ate my note. But I think I said that your turtles, and their pond, were beautiful, and I wondered if you couldn't come to get her just a decade or two earlier. You've got yours living with you, too, right? Oh dear. Anyway. I'm taking deep breaths and trying to be patient and philosophical. Will we drive our own children this nuts? That is what I'm terrified about --
from boxx9000 :
Your spring break is so early. Ours does not start until the Monday AFTER Easter Sunday. Then, as soon as we return it is STAR testing. (sigh) We get out of school on May 31st. Not much left to the school year at all.
from boxx9000 :
It's official.....I'm a sixth grade teacher for next year! WheeeEE!
from floodtide :
I am caught! I tell my students - repeatedly - that I never never never ask rhetorical questions. However, it would seem that I do.... Love, me
from readersguide :
I think you also have to think about the other kids -- when one kid, whatever the reason, becomes completely disruptive of the whole classroom, you have to wonder how fair it is to the other kids, hours of whose time is then taken up with you (and them) dealing with that one kid. At a certain point, it's not fair.
from readersguide :
Hey! You're all locked up! I'd like the password, if you want to give it out. (But if you don't, that's okay, too.) (Hope things are okay, and thank you for the xmas card -- I still have not sent ours out. Ha.)
from tiaris :
So young. Fragile, indeed. Hugs to you.
from ava-reborn :
Hi, please can I have keys to get in??? sapphiresteel@gmail.com
from tiaris :
I've yet to hear anything positive about anything Vista-related.
from h2ophobic :
I guess I should have given you my email address yesterday...h20phobic@msn.com. If you don't want to give out your password, that's OK, I understand. Thanks!
from h2ophobic :
Thank you for your note. I keep forgetting to ask you...may I have your password for your locked diary? Thanks!
from la-the-sage :
Thanks for the birthday wishes, honey! ~LA
from boxx9000 :
I forgot to write down your email addy and now I am locked out. (cry) MY email is boxx9000@yahyoo.com if you wouldn't mind sending it to me? THANKS.
from boxx9000 :
I want a password. I will email you. I completely understand what you are saying. I can be so much MORE open when I do NOT have to worry about my kids from school or their parents or my princiPAL or my in-laws reading my diary. hehehehe
from mel-is-dvash :
I can't tell you how nice it is to be in a home we love. Fortunately, I don't have to. It was a week and a half from when the ring first showed up that we took Eliyahu to the dr. and I feel guilty that it took so long. *sigh* {{{{hugs}}}} Mel
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm so sorry to hear that work has been so very hard lately. I hope whatever needs to be resolved happens quickly. {{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}} Mel
from kitchenlogic :
I am so very very very very very sorry that you felt driven to purchase a large load of earrings. Okay. I'm not sorry at all! Sincerely, your co-dependent in accessories
from la-the-sage :
I am loving the hell out of your daily updates! ~LA
from tiaris :
One of those freaky things: To refresh my memory of Portland, I went back into the mingo diary. You know the one. And in the entry about Portland, I mentioned Flood. And now in your most recent entry, there's a birthday greeting for him. Of course I flew over... Key up Twighlight Zone music!
from floodtide :
Thank you for the birthday greetings included in your diary posts. Helped make my day. Good luck with school - I go back to rehearsal today, utterly and woefully unprepared, but there it is. Love, flood
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi, just wanted to say happy belated birthday. I'm sorry I missed it. And many happy returns of the day. :-)
from kitchenlogic :
Glad to be of service to you. I just wish Dee (mugajava) would update more often!
from boxx9000 :
You go back to school on Wednesday?....in the middle of the week? (((hugs))) I do NOT have to be back until Monday, Januray 8th, but I did have to work up until Friday, December 22 before I went out on vacation. I too, USUALLY am up every morning by 5 or 6 AM. While on vacation I have slept until 9, 10, & 11 AM! (guilty) I guess I NEEDED this time off. I know you work at a school, do you teach too?
from cosmicrayola :
Belated happy birthday and happy new year!
from cosmicrayola :
I tried to sign your guestbook, but it is having a case of spasms or something. As LA stated, it is hard to grieve for someone you didn't deeply love and you can't possible love someone you don't know. I still offer my condolences.
from la-the-sage :
Happy Birthday, K! I totally get the weird disconnect/mourning dilemma. It doesn't sit right that we can feel such a generic sadness about a family member, but trying to whomp up a lot of grief for somebody we hardly know is just as wrong. Anyhow, birthday kisses for both you New Year's babies. Mwah! ~LA
from bluecharis :
Darn! This stupid guestbook ate my message... Okay, here we go again: First of all: I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather. It's always strange when relatives you didn't really have a relationship with die... And although it's quite a break: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Wishing you a great, happy, successful, and healthy new year ahead! It's great that you're still here and still reading as well! Good to know you! All the best, Charis :-))
from la-the-sage :
Merriest of merries, my dear. Your home and its decorations are the lovely! Mwah! ~LA
from readersguide :
Hi! I meant to send this earlier, but couldn't find your email -- so anyway -- if you send me an email (readersguide@diaryland.com), I'll send you my address, because I'd love a card. If you give me your address, too, I'll send you one. Merry Christmas (and Happy Vacation!)
from la-the-sage :
I am looking forward to smooth and easy myself. Let us hope we both have gobs of it. ~LA
from readersguide :
Yes, the low bar is the key. I'm thinking if we can just work with that we'll actually have a really good time. I think K does not have the same tolerance for chaos that I do, though. So he tends to run around on the verge of a breakdown, which makes things a little prickly for the rest of us ...
from la-the-sage :
Good to see you both! ~LA
from poolagirl :
Aye! Yer guest book decided to take a trip to the bottom of the sea, so I am leavin' ye a note. Ye have been honored as a member of the Scared Shitless Hall of Fame. Email me at poolagirl@aol.com so I can send ye yer icon!
from tiaris :
YIKES! I'd be like, "Niiiiice kitty. Kitty niiiiice!"
from la-the-sage :
Cute kid and cat! Our Mark the cat would be pleased as punch to have another Mark the cat around. Envying you all that yummy turkey and looking forward to this season's bounty with you. Delighted as always when you check in, ~LA
from readersguide :
Oh, I'm so sorry --
from la-the-sage :
Yo! Password, please, if you're a mind. Thanks! ~LA
from floodtide :
Thanks for your sweet note. Hope things are beginning to feel SETTLED in the new space, home John is settling in to school, hope YOU are settling in to school as I am. Had the day from hell today - a school mower tossed a large rock through my passenger-door window, shattering it completely. I came out of class, having heard the alarm go off, to find a policeman picking glass from out the power-window mechanism. Ugh. It went downhill from there, at least for a while. At least FSU is paying for it. Love, gwm
from tiaris :
To cooler fall weather, cheers and amen. This summer was just too insane and too sapping.
from readersguide :
Hey! Congrats on the house! I think you'll find it is a huge relief -- but you probably know that.
from h2ophobic :
Thank you so much for your note. I can't express what it feels like to have a total stranger care so much about another stranger.
from tiaris :
OH yeah! Just, you know, do a replacement, as it were.
from mel-is-dvash :
Thank you, thank you, thank you for the vitamin B1 suggestion. It seems to be making a huge difference. Thanks again. L
from floodtide :
Hello, my lovely friend - "Brow-beating a 7-year-old to return my damn cat" had me HOWLING out LOUD. Thank you, for that story, and for that particular Zen task. You have made my day. Much love, ft
from zonoria :
What a beautiful deck! And the birdsong you must hear in the morning...
from bluecharis :
Wow, Katherine, GREAT house! For Germans, it's always unbelievable how large American houses and especially the land around them are... I wish you all the best in your new house! Love, Charis :-)
from readersguide :
Go you! We're making some headway. The inside of the old house is getting painted, and I really do believe it will be ready to be shown next weekend. I think it should be lovely -- the outside turned out to be a lovely vibrant almost golden color with a sort of pink undertone, if that makes any sense. And somehow all my flowers are doing great this year -- one stops blooming, but then the next picks up. I have no idea how that happened. But it's good. And we're sort of getting moved in the process. Almost everything has been cleared out, and what's not essential is getting carried over to the attic of the new house (which is fabulous!) I'm looking forward to turning my attention there, too -- paint colors and appliances and all kinds of stuff. So that's good, too. If we can just survive the next few weeks ... Take care!
from golfwidow :
Please, may I have a password? golfwidow, at gmail dot com
from allegedwife :
Can you add me to the password mailing list please? nufarmwife at yahoo.com.au
from for-riley :
Hi. This is Jenn (theflyingrat) - I'm logged into my son's diary. I was just wondering if I could have the password? I hope everything is okay! Kida29@msn.com ♥
from ava-reborn :
Please can I have your password? sapphiresteel@gmail.com. I miss reading!! What happened??
from floodtide :
Your entry today is priceless - thank you for sharing with honesty, humor, and generosity. Good luck with the move: it will happen! And the photos of the new house, by the way, look charming. "This too shall pass...." Much love, ft
from strangerlucy :
it's a fine house and cabin- but the woodland setting make it extra special. good choice!
from im2evil4u :
Wow! Just wow! That place is simply beautiful. I do hope you plan on removing that shag carpet from the antique staircase tho.
from zonoria :
Ouch. Sorry it's so chaotic. I've always found that accomplishing a few smaller tasks (something like just cleaning the bathroom) helps me get a grip and feel empowered. Hugs, sweetie.
from sunnflower :
I agree that we should all take longer vacations. A week just scratches the surface.
from zonoria :
TheTurtle. Fasten your seatbelt, because the man is about as hypocritical as you can get: The first to complain when a woman "lets herself go," but needs to hit the treadmill himself.
from im2evil4u :
click on the link in the email I sent... it will take you there and promt you for my user name & password
from sunnflower :
Sounds like an ideal holiday. Merry Christmas!
from readersguide :
Oh! There are pictures of the outside in some entry or other. It's a big house pretty close to downtown. It will need a lot of work -- it was built in 1906, and turned into a duplex in 1960 -- so it needs some care and a kitchen and things like that. But -- the location is great, and it's big enough, and I think it will be a good thing. I hope, at least --
from adorkable :
I'm quite fine now. It was just a very long, stressful day. Thank you for caring, though.
from fairygodmum :
Thank you for supporting Artists! Wish I could sell a painting :) Hope you don't mind me adding you on my list. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from fairygodmum :
Thank you for supporting Artists! Wish I could sell a painting :) Hope you don't mind me adding you on my list. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from ava-reborn :
It makes perfect sense! It's a memorable password! I mean who else would promote Barry Manilow to that position!!
from readersguide :
Thank you! I felt sad, but I didn't really feel sad until poor Nora burst into tears -- I think being unable to protect your kid from stuff is the worst of all. But she was lucky to have had him -- he was a great grandparent.
from pandionna :
Thinking of you and hoping everyone is okay, human, furred, feathered, and food-stuff.
from floodtide :
A terrifically chosen and terrifically written list, and I was especially grateful for your mention of those "Calvin" stickers. Did you know that every single one of them is a blatant copywright violation, and therefore illegal? Watterson NEVER once licensed a Calvin & Hobbes image for commercial use; ANY C&H image appearing publically is a theft. You might be pleased to know that I accosed a "pray for our troops" yellow ribbon magnet guy the other day: before getting into his gas guzzler he threw his half-smoked cigarette into the street: "Pray for our troops, my ass!," I said. "Best prayer you could offer up for anyone would be to act with dignity and integrity in your hometown, to take care of our neighborhood - this would include not littering. But you're self-righteous AND selfISH."
from pandionna :
"I detest with vigor..." Love it!
from theflyingrat :
I loved this entry (the 5 things entry). :)
from f-i-n :
great site
from im2evil4u :
Hmmmm, what are the rules? Are there any rules. Okay, I'll just go with my first thoughts. I'd like to see a photos of your bedspread, your favorite tree and your most prized possession. How's that?
from forty-plus :
Thank you.
from tmb :
Your new family member is so cute!!!
from hissandtell :
Oh, what a complete doll-kitty. And yes, I can see why you decided to go cheaply with the blue eyes business. How unnervingly adorable! Love, R xxx
from im2evil4u :
Hey thanks for the note and adding me to your faves. As for the photos I was hoping they would recover from the Great Diaryland Crash - so that I wouldn't have to reload them all - hopefully I will manage to get to it this weekend. Thanks again and I look forward to reading your diary too!
from treesssa :
I don't think it ever ends worrying about the kids when they are sick. Sara had stomach flu and wouldn't keep anything down. I called the doctor, even though she had been through this 3-4 times before. Afterward I kept thinking to myself, "it's not like she is a baby and I'm a new mom.I already knew what the doctor would say!" I think we can just chalk it up to a 'duh, mommy momment'.
from floodtide :
Hey, and thanks. KSU and U of Minn each had THREE finalists, with two of them being finalists in both places. So we had four people up for two jobs. In both places they narrowed it down to two, so I'm guessing there were now three people left, again up for two jobs. I, lucky me, was the one of the three not offered a position. And so it goes. Thanks for the support. Much love, ft
from chailife :
I have a list in the works, but it's essentially literary classics, not so much summer reading and not so much YA. I just heard today that our middle schools have a new list, which I can send you when I see it, but I haven't seen it yet. My list, which I'm revising, comes from these sources: Estell, Doug, et al. Reading Lists for College-Bound Students. 2nd ed. New York: Macmillan, 1993. Estell, Doug, et al. Reading Lists for College-Bound Students. 3rd ed. Thomson Press, 2000. Lewis, Marjorie, ed. Outstanding Books for the College Bound. Chicago: American Library Association, 1996.
from floodtide :
Thank you, darlin'. That little mention at the bottom of your page this morning - that took me completely by surprise. A small but tender, thoughtful gesture: wow. I am thinking of you, too. Much love, ft
from pandionna :
I've missed you and hope things get better soon. Writing is so cathartic, such a wonderful way to get the bad out and work through challenges and confusions, so I hope you can find the time to write in your diary. Many hugs!
from floodtide :
Thanks for letting me read you today, for unlocking even if briefly. I can't find your e-mail address, either, but if you lock may I please have a password, too? My MAIN concern isn't for me and passwords, but for you and B: WHAT biopsy? I missed something, and I am thinking of both of you with love and prayers and healing energy. Thank you for your sustaining wonderful friendship; it MATTERS to me. Love, ft
from bitchslap69 :
i'm sorry for what you're dealing with now, and i'd like to continue reading your entries. if you're inclined to share your pw, my e-mail is shana_loo@yahoo.com.
from hissandtell :
Hi - if you're inclined, would you please let me know your password details at spinifexsister@yahoo.com.au ? Thanks. Love, R xxx
from pandionna :
I don't think I have your e-mail. If I'm not seeing it on your diary, please forgive. But if you're inclined to share, my e-mail for the password is pandionna2 AT aol DOT com.
from floodtide :
Aack! Now YOU'RE locked! I hope you're okay, that you've not locked down as a result of some traumatic d-land experience like the one I had. I am thinking of you, and am now missing you. Love, ft
from poolagirl :
Happy birthday (almost)! May the year bring you all the joy and special stuff you can handle! YAY!
from pandionna :
Happy Birthday! I hope this year brings you nothing but good stuff! Hugs!
from floodtide :
Beautiful shot of the sunset (sunrise?). Anyway: Happy birthday, darlin', with much gratitude for your kind and generous friendship, and with many sincere wishes for a terrific new year. Am glad you're having a good time at the beach. Much, much, much, much love from me. (And I'm 43 on Tuesday!)
from hissandtell :
How wonderful you're having such a terrific holiday, darling. So the food is sublime? What, no buckwheat pancakes on the menu? Have a FABULOUS birthday, read lots of books (and don't cheat by going straight to the last page) and promise that you and your divine little silk hat will come back to us all refreshed and rejuvenated and ravishing. Love, R xxx
from poolagirl :
YAY! Enjoy your holiday at the beach!
from bitchslap69 :
merry christmas!
from cinamonjaide :
I just learned that you can get into my diary by typing my username cinamonjaide and then use the password jaide. I thought I could only add 9 people, but you can use my user name to view my journal. Feel free.
from floodtide :
Hey, Beautiful K - been thinking of you a lot lately, and am glad to have you updating again. Sorry I've not corresponded, but, as I said, you've been in my thoughts. 9 years old, huh? It surprises me, too. Hope that your Christmas holiday has some real rest, some real downtime. Actually, I'm hoping that for both of us. Much love, ft
from cinamonjaide :
Awww your baby will be 9. My son is going on 4. I cant believe it either. Time flies!
from cinamonjaide :
Hi my name is Jaide, and I am just letting you know that I added you. Take a look at my journal, and hopefully you will add me too. If we are already friends, GREAT! I am sending a note to everyone on my buddy list, so just overlook this, if we have already exchanged journals. Jaide
from sunnflower :
Have a Happy Thanksgiving!
from poolagirl :
Thanks for stopping by! Yes, the pirate ship is quite something. It's a dream come true!
from sunnflower :
You recently left me a birthday note - thanks!
from golfwidow :
Tried to tell you I'm sorry you're sick, but the guestbook flaked out on me, so I don't know if the message took. Anyway, I'm sorry you're sick.
from allegedwife :
Ernie Marrs wrote a song about a plastic Jesus (I think it came from a soundtrack originally but I may be wrong ....I often am). I haven't thought about it for years but now I am going to be singing it all day!! And, btw, you can't just casually say "fainting spell" and leave it at that....details woman details!!
from hissandtell :
Okay, fine. This is the funniest entry I've ever read. Verily I say unto you: You are the Queen of Sacred Toys.
from hissandtell :
Aw, I'm so glad you've been re-poultried. And such cute names! Boopsie! My chooks' names are far more prosaic - BigBoy the rooster (oh, we did have a rooster named Lyndall, too - he had lovely yellow legs but a bit of a gender identity crisis), Clucky, Marilyn, Jane, Roy (another rooster), New Roy (another rooster) and Pattie. Strangely, though, I'd never considered Fajita before... Love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
Your sausage-dog made mince-meat of all your chickens? That is too terrible for words! I really am sorry. I know I would be devastated, as indeed I was in the past when my ex-cattle dog decided it would be great fun to go on a murderous spree that, essentially, involved chasing and toying with the poor little buggers until they died. It was barnyard carnage. But I wanted you to know that I loved the topplebush site, anyway. Love, R xxx
from hamiltonian :
great links and great journal
from iamhubpluh :
If you are voting AGAINST Bush, check out http://BADNARIK.com he is for stoping the war in Iraq, and NOT sending more troops as Kerry is for (based on his debate answers). Vote your heart, not the less of two evils!
from sunnflower :
Sorry about all your chickens. We once lost a whole pond full of fish and it was pretty upsetting. I am sure the chickens were worse.
from pandionna :
AUGH! Poor chickens! Always makes me cry to hear of birdie death. So sorry.
from sunnflower :
Wow - that sounds like a very intense start to school. Unbelievable. However, I see you are sailing through it with your usual grace.
from allegedwife :
Hi K...I've sent your invitation for gmail via your d-land email address...if it doesn't turn up let me know another email address and we'll try again....Cheers Fi
from poolagirl :
I just loved your entry about free speech. You rock!
from hissandtell :
I enjoyed your teesnsy abridged Ah-nuld rant, darling. And yes, whatever did happen to Miss Maria? I saw her on the news last night and barely recognised her. Maybe her malnourished appearance has something to do with the Governator's sweet remark that he'd leave her if she ever got fat. Oh, what a guy! Love, R xxx
from floodtide :
The feeling, you beautiful and smart and thoughtful woman, is entirely mutual. Thanks for your note. Thinking of you with love, as always, gwm
from treesssa :
Amen sistah girl!
from floodtide :
Thinking of you with love and friendship and healing energy - I am on your side, babe. f
from sunnflower :
I hope you keep writing here - you have a wonderful journal. In fact it was one of the first ones that I started reading here on Diaryland. It is a little bit of an investment but worth doing for yourself, I think. Sorry to hear about the school thing - sounds unpleasant to say the least.
from pandionna :
Wow, I can't believe school is starting in some places in the country. I think it starts the week before Labor Day in Virginia, but I'm not sure. When I was growing up, it started the Wednesday after Labor Day. Just seems like a short summer where you are. When does school let out for summer recess? Early June?
from floodtide :
Obviously I meant OUR otherwise inchoate senses....
from floodtide :
Your entry tonight really touched me: I, too, grieve for B.D.'s lost leg. Hell, I still grieve for J.J.'s and Mike's lost marriage. But then that's what art does, I suppose, even (or, perhaps, especially?) in something so simple and quotidian as a comic strip - gives us focus for us otherwise inchoate senses of loss, grief, hope, wonder. We connect to the fictional characters who become more real for us than the unnamed, faceless men and women we don't "know." I was so filled with pleasure to see your name lit up in red; thanks for writing. Think of you often and always with love, ft
from witchful :
I'd love to give you a username and password if you're interested, but your email bounced back. (life-my-way at diaryland dot com). If there is another by which I can contact you, please let me know. witchful at diaryland dot com should work.
from candoor :
I see so many entries, it's like an ocean too wide to swim across, but still temping me to try anyway :)
from treesssa :
"Babe, you're just a wave, you're not the water." I must say, you come up with the most excellent quotes! Good luck with the rest of the electrical clean up!
from pandionna :
I'm sorry to hear about your hen and the buttless rooster. Glad the snakes didn't do any damage.
from pandionna :
Oh my good grief! What a nightmare! I hope you're all safe and no one was hurt. So sorry for all the mess. Hugs!
from floodtide :
I think it's Jonathan Rhys-Davies as Salah in "Raiders of the Lost Ark" who says, "Oooh, my friend! I am so pleased you are not dead!" Thanks for coming back and writing; I've been missing you like crazy, so today I savored every word slowly and not once but twice. More soon, please? Much love, ft
from hissandtell :
Congratulations on your incubator-babies. I have a very insistent clucky hen at the moment, whose efforts will most certainly not come to fruition as we currently have no rooster. Despite this she seems quietly determined that it will all turn out brilliantly. I, however, foresee it will end in tears - I do wish I could make her understand cause and effect. Love, R xxx
from anightwisp :
Happy Mom's Day!
from sunnflower :
Wow - I was looking at your webshot galleries. Great photos!
from parlance :
It's soo early. I can't believe you're updating.
from la-the-sage :
Where are you? ~LA
from sunnflower :
I'm scared of heights too!
from poolagirl :
WOOF WOOF! Love to Spot.
from pandionna :
Wow! What a nice gift! Don't feel bad, just enjoy! And your son and his chicken? Priceless.
from hissandtell :
What a beautiful photograph. That's some Plymouth Rock!
from hissandtell :
I loved your entry about the shaggy old pow-mule. You've hit the nail on the head about that four year business; it happens every time.
from hissandtell :
Boy, they really are butch kick-ass boots. I am very jealous and I want a pair! Oh, all the things you'll be able to kick now...
from poolagirl :
I think the dog is keeping me! So glad you like the exploding melons. It was quite an afternoon!
from treesssa :
Hi! I was checking out your photo page on webshots. Excellent pictures!If you don't mind me asking, what part of Alabama is that cemetery? I am a geanology nut and most of my kin are in Alabama. I am forever searching cemeteries for family.I have been through the Florence, Jacksonville and some parts of Tennessee cemeteries.Alot of the folks are located in the upper NW region of AL, but suspect some may be in central or southern. Keep taking those excellent photos! I am a fan!
from bluecharis :
Hey Katherine! Had to giggle so much when I read about your not-rejoicing... Have yourself a fab spring break, hugs and kisses, love, Charis :-))
from hissandtell :
Hi - I don't know if I've stopped by to say hello before. Do you know that yours was about the fifth diary I ever read on DL, and I was instantly attracted to it? I enjoy your writing so much. Love, R xxx
from floodtide :
Thinking of you as you grieve. I am there in spirit, offering what support and love I have and can offer from afar. You and your waistline are BEAUTIFUL and certainly cherished by this writer. You are in my thoughts and in my heart. Much love, flood
from pandionna :
I am very sorry to hear of your loss. I'm not one for quoting priests, but one said something at my mother's wake that I carry with me still: You ache and hurt because the love is not coming back to you the way you are used to. You're used to a voice, a touch, a smile, to getting something back in a tangible way. But the love is still there. Now it just comes back to you differently. Hugs.
from treesssa :
Oh so sorry about your friend.Thats why i believe we should all cherish and be grateful for having the people we have in our lives. Life is so short.You take care girl. (((hugs)))
from poolagirl :
Cat turds! YES! They really DO look like cat turds! I hadn't actually pondered the color of the beads before. Brown really is UGLY!
from poolagirl :
Well..........yu're right about lavender Peeps. Trouble from the get-go. So glad you have yours under control (or do you?)
from poolagirl :
My God, you made me laugh! Thanks for your note!
from pandionna :
P.S. I like your diary!
from pandionna :
Hello! I've seen your name pop up around d-land (LA's and other diaries we have in common) and just wanted to tell you that if your hit count goes up today, that's me snooping in all your cupboards.
from sunnflower :
Hope that stuffy feeling goes away so you can enjoy the day. I want to sit outside and work on the computer. I need a wireless solution.
from poolagirl :
GAAAAAAAAA! Very baaaaaad shower! It's moments like those when I always look for the hidden camera - because it can't really be happening!
from treesssa :
Love the new motto. May i use it also?
from betenoire05 :
Gaston? eek. Like the "bad guy" from Disney's Beauty and the Beast? Poor kid.
from oed :
No, no, no -- it is easy to have a house concert! I imagine you could have some tibetan monks doing some mean droning and pull in all your neighbors!
from allegedwife :
hopefully, as we age, we get less egocentric. we might lose that sense of awe and excitement that the young have of the world around them but we gain a better understanding of our place in it. we no longer see it as "nothing to do with me" and begin to see it as "everything to do with me". well, that is the reading of a 40-something aussie...I may well be wrong....I often am!
from floodtide :
Sorry that you're feeling so ill, and that life is as much (or more?) down as up lately. You are in my thoughts, constantly, and with love. flood
from strangerlucy :
bad guestbook! thanks for the nice comment, and i've been having fun making a clone new post. As for the annual maintenance and tune up, I double dare you to put a lego in there. (so that's where it went!) fun with ob/gyn.
from cosmicrayola :
It's nice to see that I was missed, lol. BTW, that was supposed to read that I have made some "good" friends online, not "food" friends. Hee
from floodtide :
A bushel of roasted oysters approaches, in my world, something like orgasmic. Ah, memories of Charleston: many of them recalled by imagining the scent and flavor of oysters conveyed so vividly in your entry this morning. Thanks. Love, flood
from sunnflower :
So many adventures and that was only Monday!
from bluecharis :
Hey Katherine! Too bad the conference's not yet what you hoped it would be. Maybe there's still hope after the jet lag, rightie? :-)) Have a glorious weekend, love, Charis
from floodtide :
I knew Elbert, too - we were at Boys' State (PALMETTUH Boys' State) together - he was the "Governor" - as well as at the SC Governor's School with OED. His little sister Milbre and I went to Furman together; she was a year or so behind me. What other connections do you suppose we've yet to discover? Six degrees? I don't think so. Love, ft
from poolagirl :
WHOA! Your parking garage story made me howl! How funny! How much did that tow guy charge you? You know, we only make parking garage mistakes once - never again. Thanks for the laugh!
from floodtide :
Hey there, darlin' - thanks for the notes, the kind and encouraging references in your diary, for your friendship, for everything. I think of you so often, and not just when I'm reading or checking my buddy list. Your encouragement and support HELP. Saint Louis looks like it's going to okay - yeehah. Love, flood
from thecrankyone :
Happy belated birthday!! I hope you had a great day!! I loved reading your diary.. I will have to come back and read more. Hope you have a great new year, sorry to hear about the Ford Flambe (LOL), sounds like something that would have happened when I was growing up ( I'm a tried and true farmer's daughter). hehehe
from seenuh :
happy birthday
from kathiec :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Have a great day... heck, have a great year! Love and birthday hugs, Kathie
from dombilly :
have a very happy birthday!!
from preciousgift :
Happy Birthday!
from floodtide :
Happy birthday, cherished and lovely friend. Today the rest of us get to be thankul that you were born - your having done so has certainly blessed me. Love, flood
from dlandbdays :
Happy Birthday! Hope its great!
from elliorange :
♥ Happy Birthday! I hope you enjoy your special day!
from cutie1083 :
Happy Birthday!
from treewillow :
Happy Birthday, I hope you have a wonderful day.
from sunnflower :
Joys of the season to you!
from treesssa :
Happy Holidays to you and yours!
from sunnflower :
Roller Coaster Tycoon is pretty fun. I'm impressed you have a goose laid by for the holidays. I don't even have a fruitcake yet.
from floodtide :
Thank you for the note, and for your encouragement. I'm trying to buck up over here, and kindness and optimism like yours help. Really. Thanks and thanks and ever thanks, you wonderful beautiful woman. Love, flood
from sunnflower :
Have a wonderful and interesting Thanksgiving. Ain't motherhood grand!
from sunnflower :
I have to remember about flylady. I love reading your diary. I always feel kind of cozy afterwards.
from strangerlucy :
(surprise surprise, g.b. is not cooperating)thanks for the note- good to know I'm not the only one. sorry you feel ill- but a bonfire sounds so nice. Positively scary reading about your old friend- seems like fate steered him to phoning the right friend since you were able to offer some major help to him.
from sunnflower :
You are right - I think if I was more organized life would be easier too. It's great material for my diary however, so for now I am tolerating my disorganized side with a bit more grace.
from floodtide :
Hey! I lost your "home" (i.e., "real") e-mail address: Send it to my diaryland account (floodtide@diaryland.com, of course) and then I'll e-mail you the pot roast recipe and instructions. After growing up with adequate but often dry/stringy pot roasts, to have this edition - soft, silky, luscious - is a revelation. Let me know where to send the file; I'll e-mail it to you as a Word doc. Love, flood. PS: Welcome home. Glad you've returned after safe travel.
from floodtide :
I stole from you. Blatant thievery. Knowingly and, though without malice aforethought or ahindthought or indeed any kind of thought, deliberately. Think of it as flattery, a tribute if you will, and forgive me. I did, at least, give you credit. Hope you're continuing to have a good time on the trip. Oh! I saw a "Carolina" license plate on a car at the grocery store yesterday, complete with a gamecock: Who'd'a thunk it? Love, flood
from funda :
You kinda lull me into a nice peaceful read. Thanks.
from sunnflower :
10,000 books is a lot. I once helped move a library of about 70,000 volumes but I had lots of co-workers. In a former life, I was a librarian.
from poolagirl :
Hail to thee, kindred spirit! I have chickens in my world too (and they were buttheads this morning 9/03 entry). LOVE reading your stuff. You are going on my FAVES list right now!
from reddirtgirl :
By the way, HOW CUTE is your little ninja warrior? So cute!
from marn :
THE STRIPES ARE HORIZONTAL! Omigawd, I can't thank you enough for this information. I want you to know that you've nipped my life o' crime in the bud. Whew. THAT was a close call, eh?
from floodtide :
Hello, beautiful, and thanks for your note. Everyone has written with kind concern, and your note was especially sweet and special to me. I've been touched. You may remember that I trashed a local production of "Footloose" with little less than savagery. Well, as a result of an unanticipated Google search the director and other friends in that cast read that entry (and many others as well) and my name is shit with about forty people right now. As a result of my own vanity and arrogance and carelessness I've deeply hurt someone I love. I'm deeply ashamed and embarrassed and doing some serious soul-searching. (If the diary is "for me," as I've always claimed, why haven't I locked it before? Easy: because my vanity has loved having so many folks read me, and send me such flattering feedback.) The diary is locked for good, I think, and for now I'm giving passwords to NO ONE, to no one at all. I can't bear to open it to "some" but not "others." However: after a week or two of cooling off and recovering from my shame and embarrassment, I will indeed give passwords (I think, though not sure yet) and of course I'd want you to be included. More anon. Love, flood
from floodtide :
Hey, stranger - I, too, am disheartened about the continued bloodshed, especially insofar as it makes our First Moron feel good about himself; the more he gets to thump his chest the farther down a really scary path we're all going. Gary Trudeau once said of the U.S. under Reagan that "we've gone from being a nation that wanted to DO good to being a nation that wants to FEEL good." Reagan was nothing compared to this guy in this category. Anyway, didn't mean to write gloom; I meant to write that I'm always glad when my morning includes a little of your humor and wisdom - thanks. Love, flood
from kooklafran :
Hello! Thanks for joinging borninthe60s diaryring--you're groovie!
from tropicalmist :
Happy Random Guestbook signing week.
from sunnflower :
I lost my digital camera battery a couple weeks ago and I was traumatized. I got the new battery but it seemed to throw me off my picture taking stride.
from naranja10 :
I love reading about your country living. Have you always lived in the country? You're so busy and active and skilled at so many things. Kind of like Martha Stewart but much cooler, down to earth and real. And DIVERSE!
from tornlace :
oh those fluffy butts.... what a cute image. glad you found the wayward bunnyboy.
from kidneygurl :
Added you to my favorites, you are all that and a bag of chips!
from floodtide :
"...Little was accomplished and it took a really long time to not get it done." Auuuggghhh! Story of my life! Never has my biography been worded so succinctly or so accurately. Thanks for making me smile, and thanks for the dogwood pictures. Since we're briefly back in snowy hell, I'm enjoying vicariously the flora down Alabama way. You are such a bright spot in my day - always. Love, ft
from floodtide :
I LOOOOVE Fran Lebowitz almost as much - more, maybe - than I love "Fawlty Towers." Your note cracked me up - an honest-to-goodness, out-loud belly laugh. So thanks. Love, Flood.
from sunnflower :
Hi from Suburban Island and thanks for adding me to your DLand favs list. You have been on my list for a long time!
from ladybugge :
I tried to sign your guestbook, but got told I couldn't sign again this quickly. Huh? Anyway, you showed up on my buddy list, and I can tell others found you, too. All seems to be well ... except perhaps the guestbook. It's not like I write to you multiple times a day ... L
from floodtide :
Hey, Beautiful: SO excited that you're taking Alexander lessons! Let me know how the walking lesson goes; that's a part of the technique I always - always - need help with. Also: You're not alone. A couple of times in the past couple of days I've updated and then there's no record of it on the buddylist. Some but in the server, I guess, and not in our own computers. Love always, Flood.
from floodtide :
HAPPY BIIIIRTHDAYYYY TOOOOO YOOOOUUU/HAPPY BIIIRTHDAAYY TOOOO YOOOUUUU/HAPPY BIIIIRTTHDDAAYYYY, DEEEAARRR KAAAATHERIIIIIINNNNE!/HAAAAAPY BIIRTHDAAAYY TOOOO YOOOUUUUUU! Love, Flood. (Wow, that looks really irritating in all caps, doesn't it?)
from jen69 :
just dropping you a note to wish you a very happy biirthday. many happy returns of the day. :)
from rockyraven :
love the diary keeep it up
from kimyadawson :
thank you for mentioning me in your diary and checking out the videos AND listing me as a favorite. that is so nice of you. i have lost 20 pounds since the beginning of october. just by cutting all processed sugar and most fried food from my diet. and doing the whole wheat, brown rice, and sweet potatoes rather that their white counterparts thing. loads of dandelion greens and kale and unsweetened acidopholus yogurt and an occasional 1/2 mile bike ride. i eat the same amount just nicer things. i could stand to lose another 40 pounds (at least) but it feels good and healthy to do it slow. the first 20 actually happened in 5 weeks, than i went on tour in europe and ate croissants and brie almost every day. but i didn't gain any back, just didn't lose any. hmmm, one more thing. last night i got a ride home from the train station by the man who's kids i watch. i put my guitar case in the trunk on top of his hunting gear. it was weird. sorry for rambling. xo
from floodtide :
Well, well, well...we're almost exactly the same age. I'll be 41 on 4 January. Happy birthday to both of you on the 30th, and a Happy New Year to follow. And thanks for your most recent note; you always manage to inject both joy and wisdom into my day. Love, Flood.
from cutiepie1983 :
Just wanted to wish you Happy Holidays and that you have a happy new year! ~Nancy~
from floodtide :
Congratulations on the new job/pay situation. You were right about grace: I'm trusting to it... Love, Flood.
from floodtide :
Even more humbly, I say again: Thank you. REALLY.
from ladybugge :
Hi. For some reason I can't read your diary. It's all black w/some pictures and links. I'm sorry I'm missing it. L
from floodtide :
Today's entry is one of the best! Not just one of YOUR best - one of D-LAND's best! Tell your preacher that one of my students has this bumper sticker on her SUV: "Dyslexic satan worshippers give their soul to Santa." Love, gwm
from floodtide :
Thank you. REALLY.
from minervajones :
Brilliante! Hilarity..loved todays entry! Im writing you in for president...too bloody good..im still laughing! All the best!
from meganlala :
i just found your happy birthday wishes for me on my guestmap. guess i should look at it more often. anyway, thank you so much!
from floodtide :
Brie: 'mmmm.' Thought of you as I wrote this morning, describing last night's menu of fish stuffed with fennel and other goodies. Today I had the leftover fennel and veggies in their tomato-and-vermouth-sauce stirred into the leftover saffron risotto. Not quite as good as Brie, but damn close. Hope J is feeling better.
from floodtide :
Thanks for your lovely note - I can't believe how many people have responded to my (brief) account of that wedding. Perhaps right now a story of unconditional love is especially welcome... I continue to love reading your diary.
from floodtide :
Wow! Love your diary, your design, what you have to say, your appreciate of food (and of Madeline L'Engle!). Your banner sucked me in and now I'm hooked - I'll be back. Thank you.
from mnemonia :
My name is a mix of the words "pneumonia" and "mnemonic". I think they mix to make something interesting. Nice diary, by the way.
from life-my-way :
Hey, life, you're alright. Hell, you're me. Go!

back to life-my-way's profile
recommend this diary to a pal?

Other diaries starting with the letter:
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z

Back to Diaryland

Recently updated
News
update April 6, 2020: Sorry, we just had 8+ hours downtime due to a server problem. Restoring from backups took soooo long, but everything is back and no data was lost. Ay yay yay! Anyhow, hope everyone is well with the virus stuff.

Sign up for paid membership if you want!

Users online